#on top of the medical stuff

[creedei]

Is it gay to keep your coworker’s pieces jarred in your office

#I’m basically just a sketch artist I can never finish stuff #engiemedic #medic tf2 #team fortress 2 #my art #engie is trans medic did his top surgery + hysterectomy #they collabed on the hand

[eclown4hire]

motivational kogie

#got top surgery in two days and ive been feeling a bit anxious about the recovery #so i drew this to hype myself up #im very excited overall !! do not get me wrong #im just an anxious guy when it comes to medical stuff #anyways #yippeee #enstars #koga oogami #my art #ensemble stars

[keplercryptids]

okay, here’s my official list of items that were extremely helpful to me after top surgery, with links if applicable. I limited it to five (plus some additions at the end) because these items were must-haves for me. for accessibility reasons, the links are mostly to amazon, but obviously if you can find these or similar items elsewhere, please do so!

1. U-shaped body pillow, sometimes marketed as a "pregnancy" pillow (link)

I was *glued* to this thing for the first three weeks post-op. It helped prop me up during waking hours, with cushions for my arms (which is a must), and it helped me sleep more comfortably both on my back and eventually on my side (by wedging one of the sides underneath me). I actually still sleep with it because I like to be surrounded by pillows even when I haven’t just gotten surgery lol.

2. *large* ice packs (link)

I don't know how i would have recovered without these lol. From about Day 4 until about Day 16, I was using them frequently every day. Great for soreness and swelling, but excellent to keep the itching at bay. (the itching was by far the worst part of recovery for me.) The extra-large size made them great for covering my whole chest, or one half my chest and underarm area (my usual preference). Obviously, never put ice directly on your skin, and you should probably ask your surgeon if you're getting nipple grafts because there may be special ice pack rules for that. but yeah!!! Get ice packs please it helps so much. (also! benadryl!!!! i cannot stress this enough take benadryl for the itchiness)

3. mastectomy shirt (link)

i only got one of these because they're kind of pricey, but i wish i'd had a couple to rotate through for the first week or so. these shirts are super handy for your drains: having interior pockets with loops to hold the tubing in place was great and kept the drains safely out of the way and out of mind. any soft button- or zip-up shirt with interior pockets would work well, if you're able to sew pockets into an existing shirt.

my other advice is not to worry too much about buying new clothes for recovery. I got a cheap pack of extra big T-shirts that I cut the arms off to make tanks with extra-big armholes, and those were the most comfortable things for me. after about a week, i was able to wear normal baggy shirts (with help getting dressed). bathrobes, button-ups, zip-ups, they’re all good choices.

4. post-op compression band from etsy (link)

this was an absolute must-have for me from weeks 2-7 or so, after I was allowed to compress using a binder or ace bandages. Ace bandages were okay but very difficult to put on/take off by myself, and i actually found this band to be more comfortable anyway, in addition to allowing me to put it on by myself. highly, highly recommend!

5. neck travel pillow (link)

This was fully the only reason I was able to sleep on my back for the first week. It kind of allowed me to turn my head to the side in a way that was still comfortable and let me “feel” like I was on my side, if that makes sense. I honestly didn’t think I’d use the neck pillow much but it was great to have.

Other stuff that came in handy but I either had on hand or were gifted to me: long silicon straws, baby wipes for sponge bathing the first week, a back scratcher, a mastectomy pillow (mostly for weeks 2-6 tbh, i didn’t use it much at first, though it did come in handy for the drive home from surgery), and squishmallows. seriously, if you’ve been looking for an excuse to get a squishmallow, let top surgery be that excuse. surround yourself with as many soft things as possible lol.

#teet: the yeetening #top surgery #medical stuff

[thefirstknife]

So I’m listening to a Destiny lore podcast (Destiny 2 - Myths and Ztories) and they’re talking about Cayde-6, his whole life up until his death. They read a lore card from Book: Ghost Stories called A Hero’s Requiem, which is the story of how Cayde was Risen.

I thought I had misheard the podcasters, but Cayde says:

“My brain works, but I don't remember a thing 'cept that I seem to be a functioning life form—I'm human, I'm a man.”

And I’m a bit confused by that. Was Cayde not Risen as an Exo? Or is this just Cayde being Cayde?

He was Risen as an Exo, yes! Cayde was turned into an Exo in the Golden Age, after being basically coerced into it by owing a debt to Clovis. He went through his resets and eventually died as Cayde-6 which is what he was rezed at. It appears he died during the Collapse and had fragmented memories of it happening.

The thing is that Exos are human. An Exo should feel and think of themselves as human; it was a huge part of how they were made. An Exo is a human mind uploaded into a robot body. At first, Clovis wanted to make Exos as far removed from humanity as possible so he didn't make them capable of "humanisms": original Exos didn't breathe or eat or do anything human. Clovis wanted them to be perfect, better than human.

But the problem was that they were still human minds in a robot body and those human minds could not handle having a body that doesn't breathe or eat. They started suffering severe consequences where they would become convinced that they have died. Clovis' logbook details the process of this in the section "-045- Note on D.E.R." Warning for some gruesome medical descriptions. The term "Cotard delusion" mentioned here is a real phenomenon btw (again, warning for medical stuff that might be upsetting).

DER is Dissociative Exomind Rejection. It's a condition that Exos go through where their mind rejects their body and they essentially go mad. It's most easily explained in this old Ghost scan from Mars from back in Warmind; it's explained in a way that isn't gruesome like in Clovis' log. Here it is from him with some extra details. Basically, this is the crux of the problem. The Exos have to feel human and have to be able to do human actions in order to survive.

It was obvious to them that the root of the problem lay in the deficient exobodies I had supplied. Deficient how, I demanded to know. They did not suffer human weakness. They never needed to eat, drink, breathe, sleep, micturate, or dream. Apparently, this was the problem. I had assumed that the need for these irritations would pass since there would be no shortage or accumulation of poisons to trigger them. But evolution's tangled ways cannot be so easily rationalized. I was wrong. Their brains concluded that all of their internal processes failed. No digestion, no breath, no heartbeat, no sense of interoceptive health... all signs of death.

Both of these also mention how resets help to stave off the DER. It's something that helps them acclimate to a new body (this is why they're reset upon upload and why they have no memories of who they were), but also it turned out to be convenient for Clovis so he didn't have to bother helping them in other ways as well as to be able to hide information from them. You can see how this is explained for the public in that scan. Meanwhile here's how Clovis talks about it:

I am much more interested in the surprising success of memory wipes. I became so tired of answering the questions asked by new exos—what had happened to the scanning clinic, how long had it been, would I let them see their families—that I began inducing retrograde amnesia before spin-up. Interestingly, this seems to have improved their resilience against exomind rejection! I theorize the lack of any episodic memories eases the transition into the new body. And the loss of emotional ties prevents grief and stress, which could interfere with healthy function.

Specifically, how he was tired of them asking questions and how the reset basically allows them to circumvent actually providing psychiatric help to people. If they suffer some trauma, you can just reset them to erase it. Cayde is actually a really good case study for all of these issues as he suffered with adjustment to the Exo body and struggled with memories. He had frequent flashbacks to random events from his previous resets and fragmented memories which he tried really hard to put into some logical sense and ended up pretty much inventing a possible life he had. When he talks about his "wife and son," these are fabrications constructed from his fragmented memories of unrelated events. He constructed them in order to feel more human.

The kid. The woman. I do not know them. They are not real. But I wish I did. And I wish they were. They're just the two best cards I could find to keep up my sleeve when the odds were stacked against me. I made them real in my mind and in my heart. I fell in love with the idea of them, and I crafted a truth that allowed me to feel.

So yeah! The way he reacts to being rezed and thinks of himself as "human" is because he is. He had to be, in order to be a successful Exo upload, otherwise he would've just torn himself apart eventually. Exos have to feel human and act human and think of themselves as human. They're still Exo and have clear differences, but at the end of the day, they're humans. It depends on the individual if they would align more with being human or being an Exo; in Cayde's case, he would definitely lean more to seeing himself as primarily human. He was not a fan of the whole Exo thing and had some insight into all the atrocities done by Clovis in order to create the Exos. He was also famously terrified of going through another reset.

#destiny 2 #cayde-6 #ask #long post #really wanted to add some extra context to this for exos in general #it makes more sense i think #the exo stuff is really fascinating #clovis' logbook is for sure in my top 5 of all lore ever (if you can stomach the medical atrocities)

[riderkaitlyn5]

North: You bought a taco?

York: Yes

North: From the same truck that hit Wash?!

York, with a mouthful of taco: Well, me starving ain't gonna help him

#like hell York was gonna pass up the opportunity to get an authentic taco #the stuff that Florida makes is nowhere NEAR a taco #it's a sin to cooking #despite North's grumblings and protests he helped York gather taco stuff and toppings #if they could they would've taken the whole truck but Niner would vedo that shit cause who wants their plane to smell like rundown Mexico #i feel like most people but not her #so they settled for wrapping up ingredients and shoving it in a duffle bag #and they just left Wash there lying on the ground #what? they're not medics and they probably would've made it worse if they tried to help #you can bet your ass it was taco night in the medlab that night #and every other night for a week #South being the amazing person that she is hid a taco in the vents in the Director’s office #it smells like a taco in there for AGES #then it got moldy #South was pissed he didn't get a disease from it or something but happy that she broke his sense of smell for a while :) #that was enough to get Wash to stop being mad at York for being more concerned with a taco than him lol #agent york #agent north dakota #rvb #red vs blue #inccorect quotes

[venusararara]

MINORS BEGONE

i sent gatherine and jacob to the mall together heheh

@carnivorekitty they went to the emo store, i almost made them be dirty together again, but maybe jacob deserves to hang out with her one time without nearly dying uwu

so he tried to stop her from buying a totally legit mewsheen fumku pop and failed before feeding her nyquil chicken <3

i just put gatherine in emo clothes, jacob is wearing somethin inspired by a fit i saw in a video a few months back, it's below the cut

shes legendary, i couldnt get the catfish right butthe idea is present i think

#im impartial on funko pops but i headcanon tht jacob hates them JJHFK probably untrue but its funny to me #gatherine is unaffected by many medications on earth but is v sensitive to things that make you drowsy #shell fall asleep on top of you and you wont be able to get up until she awakes #bitch is like 220 pounds of pure muscle. good luck man #jacob is gonna be laid out for like 13 hours bc of it lol #vemusgatherine ☆ #lfl game #lurking for love #jacob alden #mdni #i remembered his body hair and stuff :oo #accidentally posted instead of scheduling for the morning fml #ENJOYYYYYYYYYYY

[thisismeracing]

Since when did we start charging money on patreon for fanfics 😭😭😭😭 is this for real😭

hi, love. I haven't seen that many people doing the Patreon thing when it comes to fanfic, but it's pretty common for people who draw for example to set up a Patreon. I believe that everyone who does, just like myself, needs the money. I wouldn't be doing it if i didn't need to. I figured the Patreon setup was the best idea since it's not really that common for people to tip writers, we've been struggling with getting reblogs and comments, so you can imagine.

Right now, I'm applying and doing tests to get an internship, which still won't be enough because I'm also trying to apply for a master's. So, yeah, I'm really thankful for everyone who tipped me on ko-fi and subscribed to my Patreon, last month my savings were over, and the Patreon money was what helped me pay for some medical stuff I needed (Idk if you saw the whole mick schumacher's sick club, but yeah — huge thank you for everyone who subscribed/donated btw).

We often see fic writers as little robots who don't eat, drink, or sleep. We request stuff, and expect an instant reply, and when we get the content we don't even go back to the page to tell the writer our thoughts. We don't reblog, nor leave comments, but still, we expect them to keep writing and keep sharing everything as if it didn't take hours, sometimes days to come up with a 1k piece polished to what we think readers will like best. I hope I don't sound rude, I'm just trying to make a point because I'm tired of seeing writers deactivating, tired of seeing my friends getting writer's block and then people still demanding things.

On top of that, I'm still posting a lot here, from smau to blubs and long fic requests (and I won't even talk about how some pieces aren't even getting a hundred notes, which always makes me wonder if I'm doing something wrong, if my writing is bad, or if there's anything that I could do to make the reader's experience more enjoyable), and it takes a lot of time, it's even harder to balance the two profiles now, but still, I keep sharing some of my work for free. so please, please, don't make me feel bad about needing money. thanks ❤️.

#I'm still searching like crazy for the best internship that gives me enough time to study for my application and enough money to pay for + #the stuff that I really need #medical bills are expensive #school books and stuff are expensive #we do what we can #and I say we including other writers that relly on donations too #anyways #Im sorry for letting my heart run wild here but I really needed to share this because I'm tired #and I do feel a bit guilty some days for sharing paid stuff because I wanted everyone to read what I post #wanted everyone to enjoy it and gush with me about college!mick and ghost!lewis and so on #but right now that's the best way I found to deal with my current situation #so please please try seeing your writers side #and on top of that make sure youre supporting the people that are here everyday putting their hearts on each piece #and I mean support as in reblog and let them know you liked it and so on #if you can support someone with money thats great #but most of the times a comment and a reblog will make the writers days #it makes mine #I wish you guys could see the smile on my face whenever someone comes back like “hey Im the one who requested x and I loved it” #anyways Im sorry for ranting #I hope I did not come across as rude again #and Im not saying you don't reblog or support your writers this is more of a widely rant #<3 #millies inbox #anon #patreon #f1 fandom

[ziggysgender]

❤️🏳️‍⚧️ happy Valentine's day to my first dose of Testosterone 🏳️‍⚧️❤️

self love wins<3

#this is genuinely the best day of my entire life. starting T after so many years of just dreaming about it #a childhood worth of watching transitioning videos on youtube is paying off. this is the beginning of my medical transition. i want to cry #and getting a new car after i totaled my old one. my first ever car. i have this one under my own name and my own legal power #instead of my parents holding my finances over my head #on top of that im finally starting my new job this friday.... ive been trying to get in for 3 years and im finally starting #very weird to even have made it to this point in life. a lot of heavily suicidal years full of dysphoria and trauma. hit after hit #but once i turned 18 and gained medical autonomy. man. i got diagnosed with stuff i didnt even know existed #anyways I'll shut up now but YAYYYY YAY YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYYY!!!!!! #trans #transgenderism #gender

[obstinatecondolement]

I am still in my feelings about that "I didn't transition to look like Elliot Page: I wanted to look like Hank Hill" thing because like?? Very fucking rude to Elliot Page first of all?? What the fuck is the subtext here? That he doesn't look enough like a "real" man and is some kind of dilettante who we shouldn't take seriously until he mans up, or something?

Also like... as far as I know Page is not attracted to men, but it feels vaguely homophobic? "I want to be a Normal Straight Man who looks like a Regular Guy not a fucking [slur redacted]" Like fuck off? And it had so many notes! How is policing the gender presentation of other transmasc people being so roundly fucking applauded, oh my god.

#like I've also been seeing a lot of transition timeline stuff where the subtext seems to be #'oh wow when he started out he was just a silly little girl trying to be an uwu smol bean elf prince #but thank god! now he's jacked and has a big beard! a real man!' #dude!!!! #what your body looks like shouldn't be the deciding factor in whether or not you 'deserve' to be correctly gendered???? #I know guys who've been on t for years and have had top surgery and still do not pass even more than half of the time #and I know guys who passed as soon as they got a haircut and started shopping in the mens section #because of physiological factors beyond any of their fucking control! #even notwithstanding hrt and surgery! #I'm always going to be the height that I am #my hands and feet will always be small #even with body fat distribution changing my hips will always be wide #so if I still got misgendered after medically transitioning would it be because I just wasn't trying hard enough? #because that's what it fucking sounds like these people are saying #also! men don't stop being men if they don't style themselves like hank hill??? #stop talking like someone who'd tell swishy gay guys that it's their fault homophobia still exists #because they keep 'rubbing it in everyone's faces' #I hate you I hate all of you

[demonir]

lol finally drew my medic and scout ocs that I made on a whim, you can tell who I put more effort on hehe <3

more info as well as the og loadouts here ↓

I have no names for them yet so for now I'll just refer to them as Scout oc and Medic oc

Unlike OG Scout, OC Scout has facial and chest hair...just a bit tho, also he's obviously trans lol he started his transition really, young his voice is slightly deeper than OG Scout's.

Scout oc is not loud and obnoxious like OG Scout...but he is kind of a cunt, he doesn't obey rules at all and doesn't respect his teammates belongings either, taking without asking and sometimes breaking the stuff too. He likes to threaten people in positions of power and he gets beat up for it but under enough pressure he will comply.

Medic oc doesn't have that much info abt him yet tbh... I like to think that he's rather silly and upbeat and has a less heavy accent than OG Medic, he takes good care of his beard but his hair is really messy in comparison he doesn't mind tho. Oh and he loves ice cream!

#tf2 #tf2 fanart #tf2 oc #team fortress 2 #digital art #artists on tumblr #original character #torso nudity #chest nudity #top surgery scars #demos art #i think medic oc is very handsome but scout oc is my blorbo #i wanna draw them again doing silly stuff or smth idk #if you want to see more of them lmk that would mean a lot!!! #was this an excuse to draw more shirtless men? maybe whats it to you huh

[kenonade]

in these trying times i offer u owo achilles because i believe from the bottom of my heart that the streets have beat into him the world’s most compelling puppy dog eyes which he can and will pull out on demand.in my head this is the face petra saw when she finally got out of solitary confinement. owo. and then he jeff the kills u. thats just how it goes.

#enderverse #ender’s shadow #achilles de flandres #ender’s game #top 10 images taken seconds before disaster.jpg #also no art bc ive been dying of busy and also weirdly of art block?? like?? recently i wanna do Original Stuff more than fanart stuff?? #but im not good enough at art to do the original stuff that i want to do to the extent that i want to do it??? #so im just stuck in starting a billion wips limbo?????? #dude the medication really Zapped my unhealthy passion for a lot of things which was great for my mental wellbeing #but very not great for my procreate productivity #kenon.art

[swooshywoo]

day 0 post op

#medical tw #<- just in case #the red stuff is like. idk they told me while i was still waking up. but itll clean off #transgender #trans man #top surgery

[sanchoyo]

haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞

#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can #barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty #I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such #bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry #he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭 #sanchoyorambles #I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN #GIRL MY PUBBY #if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now #he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑 #which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL #screaming. #and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects #im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault #I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away #they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!! #they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭 #remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧 #my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby #it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know

[trans-cuchulainn]

having complex feelings about gender stuff recently but i don't really know how to put it into words. some of it is about the self-erasure that becomes necessary when you try and talk about medical misogyny you've experienced as someone who isn't a woman but who is perceived by the world as one. some of it is about no longer feeling connected to female-centred stories of a kind you used to enjoy as a teenager because they always feel alienating but also not liking your own emotions about that because you should be able to enjoy stories that weren't written for you, it's just that they don't feel like stories that even allow space for you to exist in. but shouldn't men be able to enjoy women's stories too? but you're not a man. but you're not a woman. but the stories are about and for people who look like you but you're not one of them. but you would have been them if you lived in those worlds because nobody would have seen a difference, and that's viscerally uncomfortable, and impossible to enjoy--

and some of it is about looking for stories you could exist in and only finding stories that are profoundly unrelatable because they're only ever about characters who knew they were trans since puberty and had access to transition care in their teens and you didn't figure it out until adulthood and also that's not legally available in your country so that would never have been on the cards in the first place. or people who figured it out in adulthood but they're so certain and they're so ready to take risks and they'll change the world for a chance to become themselves because they know what they're aiming for. some of it is not being sure what you want but knowing you'll always have to be certain about it enough to fight for it because you're not going to get it any other way. some of it is not wanting to be an activist, not wanting to agitate, not wanting to have to resist every goddamn second bc you're just trying to exist in the world, but the only way anyone will ever give you a modicum of what you need is if you put all your energy into the struggle for it--

some of it is about feeling an ongoing tether to the experience of being a woman in a bad way but no tether to the experience in a good way and there's a weird kind of mourning in that, and a self denial, and an inability to reconcile your own contradictions in a way that feels comfortable. some of it is about feeling pressure to experience gender differently and to opt in to something else if you're going to opt out of what you were given but you don't want to do that either. and a lot of it is constantly self-policing your own emotions and thoughts and being convinced you're doing it all wrong somehow because you see other people being so free with their genderfuck, so unencumbered by expectations, so easily able to get it right for themselves and other people, and you're still misgendering yourself half the time in your mind because you don't even know what the right words would be at this point when you still have scars shaped like being a girl even though you're not a girl and you can't talk about them without doing yourself another piece of damage

like. i am who i am because i was thought a girl and maybe because i thought i was a girl and maybe i still don't understand why i'm not a girl but in my not-girlness i no longer feel i have any access to any kind of womanhood that doesn't hurt but i don't want to police myself out of femininity just because it isn't all that i am anymore

#spending too much time in spaces that are dominated by women and still treat womanhood as marginalised within that space #if you try to point out that as a transmasculine person you have no voice you are treated as an invading man #but nobody has ever seen me as a man. probably nobody will ever see me as a man. i do not have a man's privileges or advantages here. #and yet. #i don't know how to talk about any of this because i don't know what i'm trying to say #only that it feels sometimes like i would be more welcome in 'diverse' spaces if i were a woman #but it is the very fact that i am not a woman which is marginalising me the most a lot of the time #especially at the moment with all the violent media rhetoric and legislation #and when comparatively privileged cis abled white women are congratulating themselves on the diversity of their communities #and trans disabled people can't gain access to them. well. #(and not to mention PoC but that's not my place to speak from) #and then medical stuff. i have tried to talk about how i was misdiagnosed and ignored as a teenager #and people have literally to my face told me that's part of being a girl/woman #as if i hadn't just told them i'm trans. i'm not a girl just because i suffered from medical misogyny #don't add your violence on top of what was already done to me you absolute fucker #the only thing i share with women is the bad parts of how the world has treated me. i guess that's what i'm getting at #and that's a shitty thing to share and i don't want it anymore #personal #gender fuckery

[techyghoul]

Anyways I’m bad at titles, here’s my beloved Phantom bug and Swiss comforts. I had plans but things happened, here’s what I got for @autumnblooms 💖

Content: They/Them Phantom back in their rooms post op w Swiss. The worst thing mentioned is drain tubes but I didn’t go into detail. I had greater ideas but things got in the way.

Cut for the sake of scrolling :)

Recovering was going to be pain, Phantom knew that getting into this. Knew that there would be countless infirmary visits and checks, a flurry of people in and out of their room at any given time.

What they didn’t expect was just how much of their physical form felt as if it was attached to the he incisions sights at either side of their chest. How tight and taunt and tender everything would be. Aether got them set up with a good compression binder, and if a sibling from the infirmary hadn’t checked it, he was with enough quintessence magic to put Phantom back to sleep when he was finished.

It’s been four days, the constant cycle of sleep and wake being thrown off was starting to get to them. But Phantom can’t even sit up on their own at this point. Today, much to their joy, Swiss is at their bedside with an iPad, quietly watching a tv show. He instantly notices when their head turns as they wake up. “Hey Bug.” He says softly, setting everything aside to card his hand through Phantom’s black and blonde locks. “How you feeing?”

“Shit.” The answer comes quickly, prompting a chuckle from Swiss. “Yeah, I bet. Been keeping a close eye on you.” They all have, really, Phantom hasn’t been left alone through the entire thing. From Preop, to recovery, to discharge, a different member of the pack has been by their side. As many as four at a time, when it came to getting him back into their room.

Right now what bothers them the most is sleep upright, and the blasted drainage ports. That, they’d rather not see for right now.

“Aether said if you’re feeling up to it, we could go for a very slow and careful walk to the greenhouse?” Swiss is quick to offer, theirs a look of disdained on Phantom’s face. “Okay, maybe the kitchens? I know you could use some proper food and not snacks.”

Food did sound nice. The younger ghoul nods their head. “You think there’s still soup?” There’s a bit of excitement in his voice. “That cheesy potato stuff Mountain made was great.”

Things were going to get better, even if it felt like it’s going to take forever.

#ghost bc #ghost the band #phantom ghoul #aeon ghoul #swiss ghoul #trans nb phantom #top surgery #mentions of surgery #mentions of medical treatments #I’m gonna add to this eventually I gotta get some stuff straightened out #didn’t wanna leave ya hanging

[endless-fluffering]

re: top surgery

Emptying the drains wasn’t nearly as icky as I’d worried it might be, but I would appreciate it if the instructional sheet didn’t call the process of squeezing the fluid from the tubes into the bulb “milking the drain.”

I do not like that. Please stop.

#tw medical #top surgery #tw surgery #trans stuff