#on god I’m going to fucking lose it

[shima-draws]

Oh OKAY Zoro’s ACTUALLY the “I would die for you” guy. Homie’s deadass going to do the homoromantic deed of giving up your life to save the person you love. What the actual fuck is happening rn

#WHAT THE FU ISKGMSKKD I DIDN’T SIGN UP FOR THIS. GET ME OUT OF HERE #HE’S ACTUALLY GOING TO DIE FOR LUFFY. ZORO. OH MY GOD #DON’T. Fucking talk to me rn I’m losing my MIND #Zolu #One Piece #Shima speaks

[thinkingabout-girls]

thousand yard stare this man has Trauma. and anxiety. someone get him some weed

#dm.liveblog #i’m back on my bullshit #dungeon meshi spoilers #i’m losing my mind over this page. the stress and panic and the immediate flashbacks to the half foots #who were kidnapped and experimented on……. #and the instant NO. im not letting that happen to me i’m not letting anything happen to my friends #he needs a plan and by god is he going to have a plan because he isn’t going to lose them. kills myself #“and i swear we’ll get home” fuck my whole entire life

[blueskittlesart]

Good luck with crit!! If nothing you've got a bunch of unqualified Tumblr people who love your comics, but I'm sure you'll do great :)

guys i was stressed for literally no reason she looked me dead in the eyes and told me that the comic i turned in was better than some published books and that i should be sending it to publishers. i almost cried

#i was like this is what i want to do for the rest of my life and she was like good. i’m shaking so hard rn oh my fucking god #art school imposter syndrome defeated forever and ever i am going to lose my absolute mind #help me #personal

[dazednmatthews]

i’m so genuinely dead fucking serious when i say this picture is my roman empire and i think about it at least six times a day

#cherriespeaks #this is one of those pictures that makes me speechless #you ever see someone so fine it just PISS you off?? #yeah that’s this for me #i literally need him so carnally #like i have never needed a man this bad like fuck #whatever he wants like i’m so serious WHATEVER HE WANTS #i cannot believe i’m not getting the dick everyday #like i will go to WAR for it #mind you that’s my man #oh god i’m going to LOSE IT #the dead eyes are probably the sexiest thing about him #dead eyed matt for the WIN #matthew sturniolo the man that you are #matt sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #he’s a face grabber for sure #somebody sedate me #don’t even fucking get me started on the hair #like i can’t i CANT #y’all i’m going insane like the dead eyes get me every time

[puppyeared]

Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the kyoya episode bc him and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping

[freedom-in-the-dark]

I’m 2 years late to this so I assume I’m the last one on this train, but just in case anyone else is late like me…

Black Sails people, if you’ve not yet witnessed the cinematic masterpiece RRR (2022), consider this your sign to rectify that.

RRR = RISE, ROAR, REVOLT.

Everything about it goes hard as hell. It’s entertaining spectacle with unbelievable stunts and stunning cinematography. But more specifically in this case: HUGE movie for people who love seeing war against British colonialism with the central pillar being the dynamic and queer subtext between friends/enemies/partners.

AND you get Ray Stevenson as a British governor!

#I’m going insane you guys. losing my Goddamn shit over here #it’s on US Netflix #the original version was in Telegu but is really hard to access internationally #the next best / closest is the Hindi version which has multiple of the main actors dubbing their lines themselves #so make sure to select that one when you watch #but yeah. oh my GOD. movie of all time holy fuck

[jack-gourdon]

I am not going to acknowledge Q!Charlie turning into a fucking egg. This is not a thing that’s happening and a part of the lore. This is filler episode. This is a fever dream

#I swear to god if I open stream tomorrow and this fucking man has his own whole ass egg model I’m going to lose it #his egg model better jsut be egg with like the little slime blob with the stick on top of it #qsmp #qsmp slimecicle

[soullessjack]

every so often I remember that some of jacks real canon nicknames given to him are sweetheart and darling boy and I just. Collapse. Utter anguish and torment. he’s literally their sweetheart darling boy. Do you get it do you even fucking care

#cal.txt #spn #supernatural #rowena macleod #jack kline #ouroboros #mary winchester #spn 14x17 #spn 14x13 #HES. #HES SWEETHEART :((((;; #HES DARLING BOY SWEETHEART. #god no fucking wonder he went insane over the idea of losing this . #he just wants to be their sweetheart darling boy again more than anything in the world #nobody touch me I’m sterile ! #god. #GOODDDDDDDDDD #I haven’t been well about this since it fucking aired Im so serious #Gooodddddddddddd I’m gonna go cry and puke now

[daincrediblegg]

Me: *casually puts on a couple episodes of chernobyl while I do some homework*

Me 2 hours later and deep into episode 5:

#I am truly losing it y’all. good god #violent about that cute russian scientist whose dick is absolutely amazing and soft I am sure of this #valery legasov #chernobyl hbo #jared harris #god forgive me for all the fucking sins I’m going to commit today

[shima-draws]

Okay so let it be known that I haven’t actively played a Sonic game in. Years. The last one that I remember buying was Sonic Boom and we all know how much of a disaster that game was. My only true childhood Sonic game was Sonic Heroes and that’s the only one I’ll replay—otherwise I just stick to watching people lose their minds in let’s play videos.

So uhhh yeah fast forward to me watching Game Grumps play Sonic Frontiers and I was so hooked on the plot and the mechanics that I bought Sonic Frontiers I have been playing Sonic Frontiers for five hours straight it’s so fun so fun SO FUN also look at my daughter I’ve only had her for five minutes but if anything happened to her I would kill everyone in this room and then myself

#GOD DAMMIT THEY K N O W I HAVE A WEAKNESS FOR GLITCHY AI VIRTUAL STUFF!!!! #SLAMS my fist on the table #Also this game is literally just Genshin Impact but Sonic and I love it SO much #It’s very fun. I never thought that an open world Sonic game could exist let alone work SO well but here we are #And?? The music?? Holy SHIT???? #It’s SO fucking beautiful oh my god. I would NOT expect this kind of soundtrack for a Sonic game #I think that was the biggest hook for me. Like yeah the open world popped off but the music. God DAMN #Sonic’s voice threw me off so much tho LOL I know it’s the same VA but it’s so much deeper #This game feels way more serious and honestly. Yeah. Go off Sonic team make your edgy little games #I’m eatin it up. I see glitches and cute AI girls and I lose my mind #Sonic #Shima speaks #Sonic Frontiers

[sapphic-loser16]

genuinely thinking of deleting this blog

#Just #whats the point anymore #I can’t fucking stand Zelda anymore which makes me sick #Because I used to love it so much #I try with my art but what’s the goddamn point of having 360+ followers if I can’t even get twenty notes on a piece? #So many creators are getting harassed because the Zelda fandom is fucking entitled and insufferable and cruel #I’ll never be good at art so what’s the point of even making any #All the friends I used to have are gone #And I just feel so damn empty and tired #I want to do stuff with the power play au #But it’ll never measure up to what’s in my head so why even try?? #I swear to god the only reason this still exists is because I’m terrified of losing my rebels blog #I’m just so tired #i want to go to sleep forever and never wake up

[anydaynowany]

i listened to malevolent part 40 and all i got was this lousy emotional damage

#malevolent #spoilers in the tags #just the music in this hurts at this point #arthur giving up oscar….. #andddd there is larson #i feel as if i’m in two places at once FUCK #god what if he does get sent back into the dark world #i need you????? jesus christ #SEPARATE #love how awkward it is whenever someone mentions it and now they actually have a way jfc #and theres the butcher great #john losing his humanity i cant breathe #HOLY SHIT NOEL #YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY KING IN THIS PLACE YES JOHN #THE UNDEFEATED I AM DEAD #FUCK NO NOT NOEL FUCKKKKK #trust me this one last time oh i am not surviving this #FUCKING KAYNE NO GO AWAY #DEAL REVEAL TIME IM NOT READY #HE WAS IN THE DARK WORLD ALREADY???? NOOOO #defeated?!? what do you mean what does that mean kayne fuck i dont even want to know #wait can they really just leave??? i dont buy it #what the fuck happened on the dark world holy fuck #FUCK HE KNOWS HE LIED FUCK #FUCKING KAYNE ALWAYS AT THE SCENE OF THE CRIME #thats enough of you whoever you are ahwjsjsj thats how i feel about kayne #another head exploded another day in malevolent ! #okay i like kayne only when hes pulling peoples eyes out #DO NOT GO WITH HIM ARTHUR WHAT THE FUCK #THATS IT???? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WHAT WHAT WHYA QHWLSKSK

[frecklystars]

I’m so sad I won’t be able to watch the Oscars until I’m home from my trip in the third week of March ☠️ the whole world would have seen I’m Just Ken by then and I’ll be left behind 😭😭

And it’s not just “wah im gonna miss a show” bc I don’t rly care about the show itself necessarily. This is my main F/O and I won’t be able to see him but other ppl will. I have felt so disconnected from Ken. I’ve gotten a handful of inbox messages where ppl say “oh i have him call ME his sweet girl now because of your comic” or ppl will tag my ship art with Ken as “oh that’s ME and Ken” and it hurts. I’ve said multiple times I’m not comfortable sharing F/Os but ppl just? Don’t care?? My self insert isn’t somebody for you to project onto, holy shit why is that so hard for some ppl to comprehend

Now when he calls me sweet girl in my fics/drawings I don’t feel anything anymore, I’ve tried making comics and I feel absolutely nothing from him, it doesn’t feel special anymore bc so many people keep self projecting onto my self insert as if she were an “x reader” experience. I’ve felt disconnected from Ken for a couple of weeks now and I’ve been trying so hard to feel good with him again but I can’t. I’m so numb. I don’t want to lose him and the fact that the self shippers who openly project onto my stuff will see him singing live, but I won’t, feels like another major step backwards away from him, if that makes sense. My ship with him doesn’t feel special anymore. I need these characters so badly, I don’t have anybody else if I don’t have my Ryan F/Os and I don’t want to go back to months ago when I had absolutely nothing to hold onto and I was fighting every day just to stay alive. I’ve had special interests completely ripped from me due to abuse and I can’t go back to feeling as bad as I did last year, I had never felt worse and I’m so scared of feeling that way again. I need my F/Os I need Ken and I’m so far away from him now I don’t feel his love for me anymore and it’s terrifying bc last year was the worst year of my entire life and I don’t want to go through my flashbacks and nightmares all by myself, I don’t want to go back to constantly planning my own demise when my trauma was so fresh and I had nothing to comfort me. I jolted awake from more ptsd nightmares today, which has been nearly an everyday ordeal for a year, and I wanted to think of Ken comforting me like I usually do but I didn’t have the heart to do so. I feel so unloved and replaceable the way ppl easily replace my S/I in all of my posts, I don’t believe he’d care for me anymore.

I keep having meltdowns bc the thought of losing F/Os all over again during a time when I’m STILL in such an unsafe situation shakes me up so bad and I don’t know how to solve this problem. I need him with me I need comfort from these characters but I don’t feel connected with them anymore bc I’ve associated them with a dozen other people. At this point I’m not really upset about missing Im Just Ken, im upset about the fact i just feel nothing whatsoever and watching that live could have helped a little but I won’t be able to access it until other people have already seen it, and it won’t feel special anymore. And my ship with him just in general doesn’t feel special anymore, none of them do, and I’m scared and devastated and I don’t know how to fix it

#vent #whatever I’ll just cry about it and delete this later #I don’t want to fucking hard block every self shipper who dumps their tags onto my posts but god. you just don’t do that!!! #it’s common courtesy!!! i can’t share f/os I’m fucking sorry I can’t bc then I’m gonna lose them!!!! and I lost *everything* last year #I can’t lose Ken too but I’m scared I already did #and I want to go offline but I can’t I have to do commissions 😭 because I’m broke asf I can’t afford groceries #I wanna rip my hair out #ppl who didnt follow me last year + didn’t see how bad I was doing May-July have no idea #‘I wanted to die I felt so bad I was unsafe and stalked’ is a fucking understatement and I lost F/Os who were so important to me #and the idea of losing Barbie/Ken scares me to death #I don’t want to go back to feeling as horrible as I was 7 months ago I can’t do it. i can’t do it but I feel him slipping from me #and I wouldn’t if ppl just!!! would stop!!!! tagging my OWN ART as their self ship!!! tagging my stuff as theirs!!! #putting ship tags all over my own posts that are personal to me my god please I’m so tired

[inkykeiji]

110% the look sugar daddy natsuo gives you when you’re being a Fucking Brat

#screaming crying sobbing shaking i am on my knees for him i love him so much!!!!!! #he’s so sexy and FOR WHAT #FOR WHAT?????????????????? #oh my GOD i am so in love #once again like less than ten seconds on screen and yet i’m going fucking feral for him #losing my goddamn mind i swear to god #and dabi’s sexy back #i want to lick him all over

[dramarants]

don’t even look at me if you wouldn’t consider sealing yourself in an ice coffin with me to stay by my side should I suffer an untimely death 😩

#till the end of the moon #tteotm #ranting #luo yunxi you fucking GOD - the way he speaks to and holds her corpse in both scenes. denial. desperation. fear. disbelief. the trembling. #his face walking up to her coffin and subsequent rage and protectiveness with qingyu over both her and their relationship #no matter how many times she said her purpose was to kill him he still believes they loved each other and refuses anything else #the bracelet sequence the face nuzzle the mirthful laughter #he can’t bear to lose her and he has no idea where to direct his overwhelming pain and sadness despite their conflicts #after all what’s grief but all the love still left to give. he has lost ppl before but not like this #there’s prolly a fair amount of guilt and self hatred underlying everything too #all he's done these last eps is try to hold on to her in every way - with every shred of his being - but none of it worked #‘just say one word please’ ‘you’re really hateful’ AAHHHH #his injured hands shaking her as if things are normal. later tucking her hand in gently as if not to wake her despite the truth. #he's lost all sense of self and purpose. his grasp on reality is hanging by a thin fucking thread #he will gladly live in his delusion & try to stay by her side. even in death. even when she didn't want it. #he can't go on w/o her anymore - doesn't know how. she has fundamentally changed him. #(so much that he even fights the devil god voice in her defense 🙏) #it’s scenes like this that bludgeon you with humanity amidst all the unreal fantastical elements and bring you back to these shows #omg I’m remembering his fixation on her not looking at him with ttml before - boy was already going insane w/o her when she was still there #healthy attachment and coping? ttj doesn't know her 😌 #like idk if he fucks her corpse in the novel but props to lyx I’d fucking believe it #and once again nian baiyu is not paid nearly enough for any of this

[fellhellion]

the way Miguel conceptualises the alternate self and Gabriella is sooooooooo ahdhdjfj god he’s so mentally ill and emotionally isolated. like, he views himself and the other Miguel as functionally synonymous (“I found a universe where I was happy”) and thus sees Gabriella as essentially as much his own daughter as she was to the man she actually knew.

#miguel o'hara #miguel and spiderverse’s silence on our Miguel’s family life just leads me to think they’re either dead or the relationships he had w them #are so broken as to be unsalvageable #but man. MAN. he wanted that life so badly he considers himself to be synonymous with alt Miguel. And his attachment to Gabriella IS one #defined by him going that’s my daughter 🥺❤️ oh her dad is dead? I’m also her dad! and that life looks so happy and SHE is what makes it so #why can’t we both have that. #god. he needs therapy he needs ALL of the therapy and also like. a hug. dude. you’re so damn depressed my guy 😔 #im thinking spiderverse the narrative doesnt dig into the whole. you didnt RAISE this girl miguel thing ik you love her but you're not her #father thing because theres already sm going on in the narrative and its more streamlined to keep his conflict solely on the canon conflict #but in world id wager the reason other characters dont dig into that with him is because like. how do you even approach a conversation like #that. for all the messy and fucked up moral complications theres no doubt that miguel SINCERELY loved gabriella. and considering timeline #wise this all went down a few months ago and everyone has been busy mopping up anomalies. ofc no one wants to have this conversation if it #doesnt look like it needs to be had <- miguel just slowly losing his emotional gourd in the corner over just. ALL of this lmao #tunes talks spiderverse