You know what? This is.... Paces the room and slaps the wall with an open palm. No, this is definitely..... Punches a hole through the wall.
At this point, at this point, if I was Laurent, I would just let my uncle kill to be fucking honest. This is the height of things that have happened and I am losing my mind. It's not like I'm surprised, it's just the overwhelming audacity and endless betrayal.
I'm the one with unnatural feelings? ME?? YOU'RE the one who f*cking RAPED ME at the vulnerable age of THIRTEEN!!! I would lose my shit.
Not only has the Regent let this stupid believable rumour foster because everyone is well aware of how much Laurent worshipped his brother Auguste, but now he raises it as a countermeasure against Laurent ever revealing the truth. Like who the fuck are the people going to believe? Their bitchy prince or their seemingly benevolent leader with a heart of gold (he goes around fucking children!!! He's been bedding Nico since he was TEN!!! SCREAMS IN UNDILUTED RAGE!!)
I can't! I can't stand him. How?! Omg. Hoooow can people lie like they speak the truth? How can they do it without a shred of remorse? He took advantage of a young child at the time he needed him the most and he's flaunting that vulnerability, he's using it to his advantage because no one knows he likes children, because those who do know would never fathom that such a good man would do such a thing to his fucking nephew! He turned his nephew into a viper, he is the reason Laurent has no friends, no allies, betrayal and betrayal and yet another betrayal. And when the truth about Damen comes out everything is going to fall apart and I can't stand it. I can't stand any of this! I'm losing my mind. How? How has Laurent possibly put up with this for nearly ten years? I would have just given up and let the Regent take me, this is madness!!
I was barely awake but now I am wired omg- DUDE YOU CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS TO ME
You are basically damning me at this point. My life is in shambles, you are tarnishing my brain. I'm basically just melting at this point, my heart is mush, my brain is soup, my eyes are water falls... I desperately just want to- scream till my lungs give out, but it is currently 4 in the morning and I'm not lookin' to catch my mother's hands.
WHY?!!!?!?!?!?!?!? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?!?!?!?
what have I DONE to DESERVE this?!?!?!?
I can't- I won't- I refuse. I refuse! Declined. You're banned from making any more art! I'm putting my foot down! If you even so LOOK at your art program with even a single swaying thought of FMOD in mind, so help me, Rui I will get a TANK and hunt you like a RABID DOG!!!!!
how am I suppose to reply?!!? I'm sane. I'm calm. Don't worry about it. Peace and love on the planet earth... after I beat you with a bat
sobbing. i'm- just- ... ... ... why... ... ...
i don't even know how to express my love for your art, i'm totally obsessed... crying!!!! PISSING MY FREAKING PANTS!!! i'm just- you know- like- just- how do i even-
its so cruel that references do in fact work very well..... why did we all collectively convince ourselves that references are "cheating" and youre not allowed to use them back in the day bc thats ruined me as an adult. references are the shit!
Came up with an idea for a scene in my fic and I'm trying to find a balance between letting Astarion show the same sort of care and emotional maturity for Hira that he shows for a Durge character without making it too twee and OOC 🤔