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#omg I would love to post this but like idk if I’m that confident in it and also idk if I’m confident in like
serpenttines · 4 months
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I'd Destroy the Moon for You
masterlist | lewis hamilton
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ᴘᴀʀɪɴɢ: lewis hamilton x r&b singer!reader ᴛʏᴘᴇ: smau + narrative [wc: 823] ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ: the way you show love is concerning, to say the least [cw: the ending narrative gives fatal attraction] ɴᴏᴡ ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ: sauvage (interlude) • monaleo
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ynmakesmusic: What kind of cologne are you wearing?
tag; lewishamilton
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user34 what a surprising normal wholesome post… what are you up to 🧐
mercedesamgf1 toto (& pr) approved
↳ ynmakesmusic tell them don't get to comfortable. they're not gonna like the next one
↳ user2 pr drafting up that next statement as we speak
↳ mercedesamgf1 idk if I’m scared for you or for us
↳ user10 at least Lewis is having fun
user39 the song is so cute omg
user12 i get it Lewis smelled so good when I met him
↳ ynmakesmusic delete that memory from your mind
↳ user12 yes ma’am🕴🏽
user72 this is so 🧎🏼‍♀️
user195 i feel so single
lewishamilton Tom Ford and Maison Margiela
↳ ynmakesmusic DELETE THIS
↳ user1 you gatekeeping his scent???
↳ ynmakesmusic i'd gatekeep him if i could
↳ user99 Rapunzel & Gothel core
user91 i need this relationship to survive, so i can survive
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ynmakesmusic I would live in side your skin if I could
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fencer always the third wheel
↳ ynmakesmusic be happy we made it out the bed
↳ fencer 🤢
user213 you would think she's trynna take his soul
↳ ynmakesmusic who told you i wasn’t
lewishamilton alway a fun time with my two favorite people 🤎🤎
↳ user32 you just gonna ignore the caption
↳ user9 she's probably said worse things to him 😭
↳ user93 just today most likely
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ynmakesmusic: 6.6.23 something to pass the time
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lewishamilton I'm proud so proud of you 🤎🤎🤎
user044 pass the time??? we not getting the album til for another 30 years
user21 honestly i'll take what I can get
user232 thats next week y'all places places 🗣🗣
fencer WE UP
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lewishamilton: i'd follow you to the edge of the universe
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user28 he’s turning into her
↳ user02 good
user273 this is so cute
user54 is 4th slide is the cover of limerence ??
↳ user9 awww this is so 🥹
ynmakesmusic i'd destroy the moon for you
↳ user423 GOD WHEN 🧎🏾‍♀️
ynmakesmusic i've written sonnets about you
↳ lewishamilton i can't wait to hear them
↳ user810 oh
user101 i'm gonna go cry now
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She sent her tweet at the exact moment the Ep dropped. She put her phone face down on the table wanting to give her full attention to Lewis. The anxiety of a new release had been eating her alive the past couple of days. She wanted to read every response and not see any of them at the same time. It was her first drop in a while, and the response to Cologne Song made her all the more confident. Some songs being more personal than others really put her on edge. Being vulnerable was never really easy for her. 
Lewis knew how she got; that’s why when he showed up at their door two hours ago telling her they were going to dinner. He knew those initial jitters always turned to excitement when she got home and began to scroll through her mentions. He understood the anxiety perception better than anyone. He understood the rollercoaster of emotions you go through when creating and sharing the creation.
He reached across the table with his palms upturned. She put her hands in his; he gave them a tight squeeze. “Everyones gonna love it. Beautiful songs, sung by a beautiful voice, coming from a beautiful woman.”
That put a stupidly enormous smile on her face. “You're just saying that because the songs are about you.”
“That’s part of it,” she rolls her eyes as he lets out his little giggle at his own joke. She had no doubt that Lewis loved her music, he told her as much when they first met in 2018 at the Met Gala. “I do believe it as your fan, and as your boyfriend.”
“You still never told me which song was your favorite.” 
“I love them all.” The answer caused another eye roll.
“I’m sure you do.” She teased. “But at least one has to stand out.”
“Okay,” Lewis looked as if he was truly lost in thought, but he knew the answer to the question before she even asked it. “Nobody Gets Me.”
Her eyebrows shot up in surprise. “Really?”
“Yeah,” he was more than sure of his answer. Nobody Gets Me was written at a time when they had briefly broken up after a series of little arguments lead them to a big blow out. It encapsulates a point in time for them. A time of uncertainty if it would work out, or if it even should work out; despite how much they loved each other. “I remember being apart from you. I felt the same way, I think it's good to see how far we’ve come.”
Her nose scrunched up as she felt tears fill her lower eyelid. She blinked those tears away as silence engulfed them for what seemed like 30 minutes, in reality was no more than 30 seconds. She had always been very open about her love for Lewis. Mostly joking when it came to the more extreme proclamations of love. Those had started as inside jokes with Miles early in the relationship; when he would complain that she was hogging Lewis all to herself. The accusation, at the time, hadn’t been untrue. She had been and had been unapologetic about it. Much to the discontent of his friends. The relationship was new. The honeymoon phase was in full effect and all the couple wanted to do was bathe in the afterglow of their lover.
“I know I make a lot of jokes about it, but I really do love you. I don’t think I could do this without you.” She stopped and thought for a second. “And I know I call it a joke, but I am absolutely utterly devoted to you.”
If you asked Lewis about it, he wouldn’t outright admit it. He would dance around the questions giving his usual PR friendly nothing half answers. He loved that she was undeniably in love with him. The tweets, the Instagram captions were only part of the story. He knew you weren’t joking when the sweet nothings you whispered into his ear at wee hours in the morning boarded on insanity. When she would try to hide her jealousy behind jokes in public, but behind closed doors tell him she would ruin the life of anyone who tried to get between them. They way she admitted that she would kill for him if he asked her to.
He loved it. He loved you. He didn’t think it would be something he was attracted to. Yet, something about knowing the off-kilter look in your eyes when another woman flirts with him made him melt. He liked the feeling of being fully desired, not just for his body. He likes the feeling of devotion, of being worshiped. As quiet as it’s kept he felt the same way about her.
“I’d destroy the moon for you too.” Y/N gave another big smile remembering the comment she had left under his post, not thinking he even saw it. “I love you.”
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hoped you enjoyed 🤎🤎🤎
(also most of the songs referenced are by Sza except for Cologne Song by Monaleo and Northern Lights by Kennie; highly recommend btw)
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scp230kinnie · 1 year
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SCP doctor dateable types? I saw your stardew valley one and thought it was really good
OMG OMG OMG YES
Quick little note guys I am working on more fanfics 🤭 okay enjoy
SCP doctors and their “types”
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Characters: Jack Bright, Alto Clef, Benjamin Kondraki, Simon Glass, Dr Gears
Genre: idk just Headcanons
Includes: Headcanons of what I think their “types” would be, and a headcanon of what I think their favourite song would be as an extra treat 🤭
Warnings: IDK this is just my characterization of the characters, if they don’t fit into your own characterizations then write ur own fics. This is going to be rlly similar to the stardew one because I’m unoriginal. Always remember that these guys would love you no matter what you look like or how you are !! This is just what I think.
Moving on
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Dr. Jack Bright
He’s definitely looking for someone with similar energy as him
Maybe even willing to play some pranks with him
But I also feel like he wouldn’t mind someone with opposite energy
Shy, quiet type, yk?
I think he would love to date someone who’s a little bit more “alternative”
Or generally people with good style
Lord knows he doesn’t have it but he would love if you did
Someone with a nice voice for sure
He also just wants someone who will be there for him, and comfort him when he needs it
Very touch deprived so maybe someone with a love language that’s physical touch
Anyways I think his favourite song would be Porn star dancing - My Darkest Days
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Dr. Alto Clef
He wants Someone LOUD
Someone who will blast music if a room gets too quiet, or someone who will sit and talk for hours about anything
Also someone who’s bold, or up for any challenge, and not afraid to speak their mind
Loves people who express themselves
I think he’s decently tall so he likes people shorter than him
Also people with nice hair
He’s he’s a thigh guy for sure
He likes people who play instruments of course
I feel like style wise, he likes anyone. Emo, preppy, whatever, he loves and supports it
As for his favourite song, DONTTRUSTME - 3OH!3 takes the cake
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Dr. Benjamin Kondraki
He likes quiet people
He also likes people who know how to be calm even in the worst, most stressful situations.
People who know how to be safe around SCPs so he can be sure they won’t get hurt
He likes people who smell good tbh
He also likes tall people
Even if they’re shorter than him, if they’re moderately tall he loves it
Loves people with long hair
He would like to play with it and (try to) style it
He like people with piercings. Nothing over the top, but he thinks enough piercings look amazing on people
His favourite song is heart shaped box - nirvana
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Dr. Simon Glass
He likes people who are quiet, but confident.
And people who know how to hold up a conversation
People with nice pretty hands too
And painted nails
Pls pls paint his nails
He likes people who are smart and rational
Also people with dyed hair lol
He likes tall people
Definitely likes rational people
And people who are skilled at things
Anyways the award of his favourite song goes to Such Small Hands - La Dispute
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Dr. Gears
Likes people that are quiet and reserved
And calm
Definitely likes people who like to read
He also likes people who know how to cook/bake
And people who are smart ofc
Wants someone that has good grammar
I feel like he likes generally anyone and doesn’t care how they look
He doesn’t care about style either
He doesn’t have a favourite song.
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Hope you guys enjoyed lol I tried my best
Sorry for never posting I’m working on it
Leave more requests (especially about my hyperfixations pls)
Including Gotham, Wednesday, SCP, AIB, girl from nowhere, all of us are dead, stardew valley, and anything on the list pinned to my profile
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anasdaughterrr · 3 months
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i’ve been on this new account for a bit so here’s my motivation for reaching my gw:
•skinny thighs that look good in any sort of skirt or pants and that don’t rub together and chafe in the summertime
•feeling cleaner
•having people notice the change
•have people treat me nicer
•more attention from friends and family
•instead of my relatives commenting on how much i’m eating, they will comment on how skinny i’m looking
•i won’t ever be afraid to meet someone new in fear that their fist impression of me is that i’m fat. Instead, they’ll think “wow this girl is super pretty AND funny?”
•being the tiny friend for once in my life
•being able to finally fit the aesthetic that I want
•being able to finally take cute instagram pics
•less scared to post on social media
•i perform in musical theater, so i won’t have to worry about costumes looking bad on me
•no matter what angle someone takes a pic of me, it’ll look good
•applying my makeup will be easier because i won’t feel like i’m putting lipstick on a pig
•i will be more confident and therefore more sociable and happy (i know this from previous weight loss experience)
• dress shopping for formal events will actually be fun and not humiliating
•if the subject of weight ever comes up, i don’t have to be afraid of saying my weight out loud because i’ll be proud of it
•revenge on all the girls that called me fat
•less area to shave, apply lotion on, apply sunscreen on, and less area to wash.
•i overall won’t feel like a giant and like i’m taking up so much space whether it’s on chairs, couches, in a cramped room, etc. (i’m really tall and being tall and fat is like the worst combo because i just feel like an ogre)
• opening tumblr and not feeling guilty but instead feeling accomplished
•old teachers/ students from school looking at me and going “omg i didn’t even recognize you!” (i have had this happen before and it’s the best feeling in the world)
•sitting on my bf’s lap without feeling like i’m crushing him (as much as he claims he likes it i don’t like feeling fat)
•i’m getting older and when i get married i want my husband to be able to bridal carry me
•^^ also wedding dress NEEDS to look good on me or the wedding is cancelled
•i honestly grew up fat (before i lost a ton of weight and then gained it all back 🙄) and i really don’t want to spend the rest of my life chubby or midsized or fat. I just wanna enjoy the slim life.
•i’m very very focused on my looks and I really like when I look good.
•I want a slim face with the sunken-in look and hood cheekbones
•basically any clothes would be oversized
•most of my social anxiety would go away because I wouldn’t be focused on people thinking i’m fat
• i could share clothes with my sister (she’s super tall and skinny and has adorable clothes)
•impress my boyfriend’s family and HIS relatives (best feeling)
• i know this might sound odd but when i lost weight the first time my feet?? got smaller??? and so did my nose???? and my boobs??? all things that i would love to shrink.
•no more flabby arms that I have to hide under a cardigan or sweatshirt
•I was really athletic when i lost a bunch of weight the first time???? and i never worked out for it or did it in a healthy way so idk why i was all of a sudden super athletic but I was
•i always dreamed of being an ice skater and they’re so weightless and thin and beautiful
•halloween costumes could be so much better on my thin body instead of finding one that covers up the most fat
•prom dress looks good (i’m graduated by my bf is a senior this year and he’s taking me to prom)
• i was just more likable when i was skinny. Idk how to describe it
•believe it or not, people talk about you more when you lose weight. I was a total nobody in high school until i lost weight and then people who i didn’t even know we’re like talking about me in good ways and saying good things about me
•more friends. I know that friendship is mostly about the personality, but there are so many bitchy skinny girls with like 100 friends that all go out and do stuff together and even if they’re fake friends they’re better than no friends 🥲
• christmas and winter season in general
•imagine wearing an oversized outfit in the summer time and then whipping out the absolute perfect bikini body? goals.
that’s all for now, but i’m sure i’ll think of some more!
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chocotonez · 1 year
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skz reaction to artist! s/o gifting them an art piece
a/n: okay to clarify y/n is insecure but i feel like the title would just sound a bit silly if i included everything, anyways!!! people who can express themselves through visual art amaze me, artists never fail to impress me <3
warnings/genre: reader has different reactions when they're nervous, fluff, tiny bit of angst because you tear up at some point but you'll be fine
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chan
-“for me?? thank you baby!!”
-doesn’t really make it a big deal, he knows that you can sort of shy away from your talent but honestly he just hangs it up and stares at it everyday because it’s so <33
-not only r u an amazing artist to him but it means so much that u were willing to let him see your heart, and even GIVE it to him
-giggles and kicks his legs and kisses ur face all over but he really doesn’t want you to feel pressured, he just is so happy that you feel comfortable enough to show him
-he understands how personal art can be, so it means the world and more to him that you can let them in on this
lee know
-tries not to tease you but like that’s his coping mechanism because he’s so madly in love w u and he’s probably gonna cry if he doesn’t make a joke about this
-“you’re blushing” “yea no shit do u want it or not”
-very proud
-Asian mom vibes in which he doesn’t outwardly express his love for the piece but he keeps it in his room in a very viewable spot and he smiles at it whenever he sees it
-he knows you’ve always shied away from expressing your art work and showing it to others, and he doesn’t want you to go back in your shell so he wants to encourage u to idk!! post a little sketch on ur social media story!!
-he’s ur number one fan, and he’ll do his best to support and encourage you because!! ur so talented!! how could u not show it off?
-whatever you’re comfortable with though, he’ll always support <3
changbin
-idk cries probably
-“ARE YOU REALLY GIVING ME?? SOMETHING U DREW??” “yea it’s okay if u don’t like it I just wanted to-“
-and then he’s cradling you like a baby and squeezing you all tight and is like !!! You’re so talented ilysm omg omg omg thank you !!!
-has never pushed you to show your artwork, he acknowledges your talents but he gets just wanting to have a personal hobby, and art is pretty personal
-so it means so much that you’re willing to show your art to him
-kisses your cheek, he probably makes it his wallpaper for a bit and hangs it up on his wall or keeps it on his desk in the studio so he can always take a look when he’s working!!
-he’s so giggly he’s like “ur my little picassoooo” but he’ll never push you, it’s just fun to be able to see ur talent :>
hyunjin
-“hey it’s not the best jinnie but I made this for you, it’s not much and-“ and then he’s just holding the piece with the most loving care and looking up at you with starry eyes
-“you’re so talented” and that’s all he can get out because his heart is POUNDING
-for him!! he understands the fear of showing off your art, and just seeing you willing to be able to show this to him and GIVE IT to HIM!! Meant so much to me!!
-“I don’t know why you’re so insecure baby, this is wonderful!”
-gives you genuine, well built praise and compliments and makes u feel like a pro
-he begs you to let him post it and if you let him he’s like a proud mom and he’s like “omg look what my baby drew for me!! aren’t they so talented?? I’m in love <3”
-he makes you feel so confident it’s insane, but not only that, he makes you feel safe enough to express yourself and show it with art around him
han
-probably cries pt2 but he’s bawling his eyes out
-gets into a really weird rant where he just talks about how much he loves you and he knows how personal art is and he’s just so happy that you feel safe and comfortable around him and he loves u sm and ur so cute and-
-it’s honestly a little embarrassing and overwhelming but he can’t help it, seeing you gain the confidence with him to show ur art makes his heart RUN
-gives you a kiss on your cheek and is just smiling like :]
-if you get seriously overwhelmed by his reaction he apologizes and collects himself and just :) “thank you so much love!! I’ll treasure this forever”
-reassures you about your talents and is light hearted about it so you don’t feel pressured or anything
-“once u become a famous tortured art figure this piece is gonna show up on one of those tik tok slide shows that’s like, art that makes me feel-“
-that’s his way of saying he really likes it!!
felix
-calm about it so you don’t feel pressured or overwhelmed
-he’s very smiley and he’s like :3, “thank you so much, you’re so talented lovie!!”
-hugs u super tight and he wants to say he’s proud of u but he knows if he makes it a big deal it can kinda ruin your confidence
-u catch him staring at the piece w a sappy smile on his face and he’s just like sigh…he’s so whipped for you and just knowing you felt comfortable enough to show ur art…his heart is pounding so fast
-you probably tear up a little bit because he’s just so madly in love with you and he can’t express it but he’s so proud and happy and gifting him an artwork means so much to him because he understands your insecurities wholeheartedly-
-he just gives you a big old kiss and is like “thank you so much, you’re so talented”
seungmin
-pokes ur blushing cheek and is like “teehee ur shy”
-he wants to lighten the air, he doesn’t want you to feel like this is a big deal because while he sees your amazing talent he knows that making it a massive thing can be more overwhelming than just a simple thank you
-“this is so pretty babe, thanks so much!” And then he’s pinching your cheeks and laughing at u because u look cute
-he wants you to feel comfortable, especially if you’re the type to avoid being the center of attention, he just kisses your forehead and giggles while looking at the piece again
-he really just wants you to feel comfortable around him to show him your art more, and giving him some!! it meant so much to him and he just can’t help smiling knowing that you gave him practically a piece of you
jeongin
-it means so much to him, and I feel like I’ve said that about everyone but for him it’s a whole different level
-it’s almost intimate in a way?? he understands keeping your private hobbies and being insecure about it, he’s very emotionally intelligent so he just understands the way you feel
-it’s honestly just a quiet sort of praise, because he’s also just really shy and doesn’t know how to express his gratitude without making you feel overwhelmed or nervous
-“do you like it?” “of course I like it, I like it so much that I don’t know what to say…Thank you.”
-he feels so connected with you now, just being able to see something like this, and more importantly being gifted such a personal thing means the world to him
-he just wants to express it but he can’t!!
-he hopes the comforting squeeze of your hand and the way he’s looking up at you like you’re the most beautiful thing in the world is enough to express his gratitude
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sitchski · 1 year
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OMG!!!! more steve harrington x fem!black!reader smut PLEASE!!!!
hmmm.. only cuz you said please 🤭 no but lowkey i’m glad you asked this so i now have the excuse to post this yayyy!
off limits.
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summary: your boyfriend loved to gloat about how lucky he was to have you, but what he didn’t know was that steve had you first.
pairing: steve harrington x fem!black!reader
includes: unprotected sex, rough sex, oral stimulation (f receiving), choking kink, pet names, dom!steve, older!sinclair!sister, cheating
author’s note: so idk if y’all have heard the song restroom occupied but that song is a BANGER. and i’m not sure why but it inspired this oneshot. so did scandal i have been watching aLOT of scandal. idk where i was… lost but i am now found. anyways enjoy !
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steve harrington was a good friend. he was so good! you, him and robin became such a cute little trio even though he was to graduate pretty soon.
even while at school, he managed to keep a watchful eye on your little brother, lucas, and his friends, mike, will and dustin. the party as they liked to call themselves.
steve harrington was a great guy. so why was he doing something so bad? and why, oh, why did it have to be you?
"your boyfriend has some real fuckin' attitude, y'know that?" he muttered discreetly, pretending to look for something to drink as he caught you in the kitchen.
a house party, one your boyfriend was throwing. he was sweet... a little boring but ugh so sweet! you had been dating for a couple of months now and were truly starting to feel comfortable.
but ofcourse, right there to disturb your peace was him.
"attitude? you really wanna sit here and talk about attitude?" you countered through gritted teeth. you absentmindedly grabbed the first thing infront of you in order to get your eyes to look anywhere but at him.
you settled on a coke bottle, unscrewing the cap and pouring it into your cup as you continued, "this night has been so good. he invited you to his house in confidence. can you for once not let your pride get in the way and act cool? please?"
he rolled his eyes dramatically. he was over your pathetic pleading. he knew that wasn't what this was all about.
"y/n, look at me. look at me."
"nope. i've got a drink to make."
"look..." he emphasised sternly but still quietly. this caused you to put the bottle and glass down, sighing as you didn't give in just yet. "...at me."
though you did some internal fighting, you caved. locking eyes with him. you only saw admiration; pure admiration. so raw it turned ruthlessly animalistic. you knew, because of how well he inflicted it on you.
"d'you think it's been easy? watching—" his breathless laugh interrupted him, his head turning away for a brief moment. "watching him kiss you? touch up on you? stare at me with a fuckin' smug face like your thighs weren't locked around my head this same week?"
your mind instantly pulled up vivid screenshots of the act, causing you to inhale sharply. you couldn't look away, though. he didn't even touch physically to force you to hold that gaze but there was something strong, almost magnetic, telling you you didn't stand one chance.
he was the one to break it though, glancing down, at your dress. black, sleek, tight. his jaw clenched as he drank you in, parched the whole evening.
"fuckin' teasing me with that dress. you know, we know he's not the one you wore it for. like- like he would know what to do when the dress is off. like he would know how to make those thighs shake," he mumbled. his voice got lower the more he talked, supposedly jumping onto a train of thought himself. one that stopped at the same destination as yours did.
he looked back up at you again. "go to the bathroom in about ten minutes. i'll meet you there in five after."
you scoffed, looking away to give a studious laugh. "like that isn't gonna be any more obvious?"
"nope," he chugged his full cup and slammed it on the countertop, "was just leaving."
you watched as he said goodbye to all of your shared friends, stopping at your boyfriend, where the exchange was done awkwardly and tensely.
silently, you screamed. in your head there was only one reaction. your consciousness had sat down your heart in a chair where she was repeatedly getting beat up. but it didn't matter. no matter how hard the blows were, your heart was still beating. for him.
and it beat in a happy and excited rhythm as you waited in the bathroom. you leaned against the sink, arms folded and anticipating.
it was pathetic, really. how consumed and controlled you were by the connection you two shared. you fixed your hair in the mirror, smoothed out your dress and, out of nervous habit, nearly chewed through your pinky nail.
that was until he showed up. climbing through the window like this was the heist scene in a big action blockbuster. speechless, you eyeballed his terribly indiscreet entrance and the way he dusted his knees as though it was a job well done.
"james bond, everybody," you slyly commented on his overt performance, arms folded like a true member of the audience.
"shut up," he bluntly demanded before claiming your lips with a cup of your cheek.
he appreciated your banter, he always did, but not right now. you were doing something to him. just standing there you were doing it. as long as that dress stayed on your body there was no need for talking. it needed to come off you.
you moaned softly through your lip lock, hands moving to tug at his green sweatshirt. he stopped you though, pushing your hands away quite forcefully. breaking away from the kiss to stare at your body. sorry, the temptation known as your body.
"off."
the word was muttered at first but when you didn't do what he had ordered, he glanced up at you to repeat himself. "off, angel. take it off for me."
you were going to listen. obviously. but it didn't mean you weren't going to have fun while listening. slowly, one of your hand reached back to the zipper. it took a lifetime to undo a few zips, though in your world it was only a few seconds.
already way too much time. he gave up, grabbing you by the arm and spinning you around so your back could press up against his front. the bathroom mirror being right infront of you both, you kept your eyes on him as he began to talk. his right hand makes sure to wrap around your neck so your eyes don't do him the disservice of wandering.
"you tease me every single day, y/n. every day you're with him. kissing him, hugging him- quite frankly, i don't wanna talk about what you two do together, it'll just piss me off," he interrupted himself, breathing in for a second.
"but i finally get to have you all to myself, alone, and you fuckin' stand there and tease me in that dress? d'you have any idea how hard this night has been for me, baby?" he questioned as he pressed his lips against your cheek. while putting emphasis on the word, he decided to also make you feel something very hard that was growing in his jeans.
you hummed in pleasure, moving your ass against his hard slowly. this made him hiss, tightening the grip on your neck.
"i think you're gonna have to take all of me now. make up for it, no?" he proposed. but he didn't even have to; he knew that he has you trapped in an imminent chain. all signs only pointed to:
"yes."
"then take off your dress, beautiful."
that was how it all lead to this point. you sat on the sink, naked and legs spread wide open. how it lead to steve mercilessly rutting his cock inside you to the point where your mouth wasn't even capable of moaning his name anymore.
"good God," he groaned, hands grabbing you by the thighs and roughly pulling you closer. one hand gripped your neck again, forcing you to lock eyes with him.
the green sweatshirt he wore here was off quite quickly, though his pants were simply pulled down  as well as his boxers. he clearly didn't want to waste anytime but that didn't matter to you. the quicker he got inside of you the better.
your g-spot was being bruised and abused by this man, each thrust giving you that same wondrous sensation that got you closer and closer. there was something so specific about the way he stretched you out, how each vein from his girth caressed your walls and the way it almost hindered his roughness.
"look at you," he murmured with a hinge of endearment, "my good girl, my good pretty girl. taking every inch of my cock for me."
'my'. he always used that word 'my' when he knew it wasn't (totally) true. this was bad for you, it was so bad. but you couldn't never bring yourself to the focal point of guilt. not when your focal point was wrapping your legs around his torso as he lifted you up, slamming you against the wall beside the sink.
claiming your body with his strokes, giving you no real option but to scream his name.
"you gonna cum for me, angel? tell me, has your precious boyfriend ever gotten you this close?" he asked as if this whole ordeal was normal, as if it was normal to fuck a taken woman.
it was humiliating as it was gratifying. but you answered every question, gave into every taunt, moaned at every position, fuck, flick of his tongue. you were his. some stupid boyfriend didn't matter.
you answered sheepishly, "no, steve. only you. it's always been you."
your arms were wrapped around his neck tightly as you felt your stomach grow heavy and your legs grow weaker. he seemingly felt it too, burying his head in the crook of your neck after grunting loudly.
"shit," he cried, turning his head to the side so he could plant some sloppily placed kisses on your skin, "and you love it don't you? love my cock buried deep in you. love cumming all over my dick while your boyfriend wonders where you are, you love it don't you baby?"
him whining his words, begging you to release like he needed it more than oxygen seemed like pure mockery. jeering at your pathetic desire. your walls sunctioned around him, much to your dismay, as it let him know how powerful his words were.
he finally hit that spot that made you scream with pleasure, forcing him to quickly wrap his hand around your mouth. he wanted to scold you until you creaming all over his shaft felt way too good to focus. he grunted harshly, dropping his hand and nearly sinking from the feeling.
but you didn't even get a chance to ride out your high, as you were already being lifted. physically. steve had literally picked you up, throwing your legs over his shoulders and burying his head inbetween your legs.
naturally, you were petrified of falling. somehow, this thrill and fear added to your elation. it almost felt like a sick form of punishment for what you had done earlier — you were literally convulsing and he was eating your cunt like he wanted you to feel pain.
"fuck, steve!" you cried, bunching fistfuls of his hair against your palms. there, he stopped, muttering, "my thighs, my beautiful angel. mine," he looked up at you, hopefully.
breathlessly, unconsciously, you confirmed to him, "yours."
him beneath you like this, watchful and attentive eyes made you get a surge of power. maybe the feeling was shared. steve harrington possibly feels controlled by you and not the other way around.
although, that thought is soon gone as he let you down. his eyes didn't leave you once. not even as he grabbed your hand and lead you to the door. he didn't open it, he didn't unlock it. all he did was press your bodies against it.
"s-steve?" you murmured, "what are you—" you glanced back to see him removing his pants fully from his body, wanting to get comfortable is what you presumed.
"oh, me?" he reiterated, "i'm taking my pants off."
you rolled your eyes at his fake cluelessness. stopping you from opening your mouth was the jolting force that was him grabbing you by the hood and forcing his backside right against his front.
"and i'm also fucking you against this door so he knows exactly who you belong to."
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heesbaby · 2 months
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OMG JAKEYN FLIRTINGGG⁉️⁉️🔪😭 THE SLOW BURN IS SLOW BURNINGGGG🙏🙏 CINNA U R SLAYING EXPONENTIALLY LEFT NO CRUMBS DELICIOUS SCRUMPTIOUS AND EVERY OTHER WORD THERE IS THAT MEANS SLAY? LIKE LEAVE SMTG FOR US TO EAT⁉️ ALSO HELP I FELL DOWN IN THE RESTROOM AND MY LEG IS NOT WORKING😭😭 WOULD BE BETTER IF I KMS LIKE ACTUALLY IT HURTS SMMMMM AAAA ANYWAYSSSSS AND WHY ARE PPL ATTACKING MY ANGEL RIGHT WHEN I GO TO SLEEP😨😤
NO STOP I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO OUT TODAY AND COULDNT BCOS OF MY STUPID LEG AND TOMORROW THERES AN EVENT IN MY CITY THT I RLLY WANT TO GO TO UGH I HOPE ILL BE ABLE TO GO ☹️
ALSO NON-WHITEWASHED JAY⁉️
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on my knees rn. I need him in ways that is actually offensive to feminism.😭😭
my life is shit actually. Buttt I like smone(don’t tell Jay) he’s so cute I can’t and he’s really nice too🤭🤭 I feel like crying my period came and it hurts so baddd 😭😭😭 and then there is this guy threatening me like back tf off?? Bro I’m a black belt in taekwondo so not scared of u sorry. (He is a bit creepy tho at times) anyway sorry for litch rally ranting😭 and NOT ASKING ABOUT YOU??? how are you girly? did you take enough rest today? if not pls do🙏🙏 I promise you that ur doing amazinggggg so many ppl on this app love you! Me too! do NOT take stress on posting my love,yeah?
ALSO SHOULD I MAKE THE FIRST MOVE ON THIS GUY I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO BUT AT THE SAME TIME NOT IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE😭 also just realised 😭 is my most used emoji like? I need to chill tf out bro. I feel like the guy is too good for me and he deserved better than me? Idk I just feel very insecure 😕 ugh I hate feeling insecure🙄🫠 enough abt meeee
omg ur one of the best writers on enhablur I can’t even make that up like⁉️ okay take as much rest as you need and drink enough water AND REMEMBER THAT WE LOVE YOUUU🫶🏻🫶🏻 again sorry for the rant oml I need to learn to keep my mouth shut 🤐 sorry for boring you. Sending love from my corner of the Internet byee💗💗💕
also I love this emoji🐸 idk just wanted to say that LIKE ITS SAUR CUTEEE (like youuu) omg is jakes rizz influencing me? ( sorry cinnas man🫡)
Ok byeeee love youuuu
ok bff let me unpack all of this I feel like I got whiplash reading this ask so much is going on 😭😭😭😭
1) THANKU SM I’m so glad ur enjoying after hours it makes me so so happy 🤍🤍🤍
2) I hope ur leg is ok now omg u gotta be careful angel 🤍
3) jay is so gorgeous he’s literally glowing I love that man so much genuinely would do anything for him id sell my soul for him 🫶
4) u like someone??? that’s so cute omg I hope it works out well with them !!!! and fuck whoever is being rude to u wtf
5) I’m ok just v v tired atm and super sick but only one more day to go then the weekend so I’ve got this !!
6) if u like him then make a move!! what’s the worst that could happen? you’ll never know until u try 🫶 trust me,,,, at the start my man was so shy and hardly made any moves but he got more confident and finally now he’s super affectionate etc hehe 🌟
7) ilysm have the best day ever 🤍🤍🤍
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huxleys-kinhelp · 1 year
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hi hi omg i got so excited when i saw bsd and vnc on your fandom whitelist!!!!! would it be alright if i requested some agere/petre headcanons for ranpo and/or vanitas?? idk if it’s against the rules to request stuff for 2 characters but if you’d rather only write for 1 i totally understand!!! i’m not picky, so pls feel free to do whatever you’re most comfy with ^_^
no matter what you decide, tysm for your time!!!!!! i hope you have a wonderful day!!! :D
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Ranpo Edogawa Agere Headcanons!
Ranpo typically regresses to 4-7, but he’ll rarely regress to 2-3, mainly when he’s been stressed or upset over something.
He’s been regressing since he was younger, around when he’d first joined the agency. At the time he didn’t have a word for what he experienced, but Fukuzawa would look after him and keep him out of trouble.
He’s confident with his regression, and isn’t anxious about mentioning it around new people, or acting childish in public.
He loves playing pretend! He’ll go all out with making props and costumes and perform plays for the Agency! Most of his stories are dramatic retellings of his adventures as World’s Best Detective, in which he stars as the main character and hero.
He loves playing with Atsushi, and usually casts him as his assistant in his stories! Atsushi often buys him toys and sweets.
He sees Yosano as a big sister, and looks up to her. Yosano finds it adorable to have a small sidekick following her around, and always has his best interest in mind. She can get rather protective at times.
Dazai is always in the audience of Ranpo’s performances, he adores them and always gives Ranpo encouragement and advice on how to make his stories even better! He’s usually the one that helps Ranpo create costumes and props for his shows, and always has the best ideas! Tanizaki never minds looking after him, even if he is a bit anxious when it comes to kids, since he worries he’ll do something wrong. He always carries sweets on him just for Ranpo, and participates in his games.
Naomi reads him stories, she gives the characters different voices and always manages to make him laugh! She also makes the best angel milk out of anyone in the agency. She’s usually in charge of getting him to sleep, but she plays games with him as well.
Kunikida is a busybody, and is nearly always working on something, but he does his best to work in time in his schedules for Ranpo’s shows and other things. Whenever Ranpo wants his attention randomly and it’s not pre-planned, Kunikida will let him color next to his desk while he works.
Fukuzawa is who Ranpo sees as a father figure! He hangs around him constantly, and often tries to mimic what he does since he looks up to him. He loves to stay in Fuku’s office and color, play with toys, etc! He has a HUGE collection of toys, stuffed animals, games, and sweets. The agency members are almost constantly buying him new things to add to it.
Ranpo loves getting up and moving when playing. Jumping, running, skipping, chasing, he’s very energetic and almost always doing something new to hold his attention! But when he’s regressed younger, he usually goes nonverbal, and is much sleepier, so he likes to watch cartoons! The Agency members always let him win when they play board games.
He invites Poe over for playdates often! Whether Poe is another regressor or an adult playmate, is your interpretation. Poe has begun writing children’s stories for Ranpo, and helps him come up with his own stories too! They love to get creative together.
Mushitaro doesn’t look after him much when he’s regressed, but he does get roped into his shenanigans whenever Ranpo comes over to Poe’s mansion for their playdates. He’s like a stressed mom when Ranpo is around, he’s constantly fawning over him and cleaning after him as well.
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note : no worries at all, anon! i don't mind writing for two characters. I'll write headcanons for vanitas tomorrow in a separate post, i would have done it now since i've already written ranpo's, but it's quite late where i live. thank you so much for requesting! these were so fun to write ♡ (image at the top is from user waterrr on tumblr!)
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tripthelight-fanfic · 2 years
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Four Knocks (Sam Kiszka Imagine)
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Content Warning: mentions of drugging
Taglist: @flowervanfleet​ @weightofdreams-gvf​ @sierraahhhh​ @theweightofstardust​ @samkiszkabreakmyback​ @prettyintopeerpressure​ @greta-flanveet​ @fosterkidwiththebrokenjaw​ @the-chaotic-cow​ @tlexx​ @screechesincoherently​ @garagebandvanfleet​ @gretavanhoney​ @stardustdanny​ @joshysgf​ @cowboysamkiszka​ @lightmyluv​ @fleetsonfire​ @maykiszka​ @moonlightanthem​ and potentially you, just lmk!
yo when did half my taglist deactivate omg
Anonymous Request: okay i LOVE your angsty fics i wont lie ….. so if ur taking reqs… i was thinking something along the lines of like sam / character are childhood bffs with secret crushes on each other (everyone knows but them sorta situation) and maybe she goes out with someone and it upsets sam but the date goes horrible (maybe its a bad situation idc) and sam has to come to the rescue. idk i trust you … i’d love to read whatever you cook up!
(A/N): Lol guess who’s back! Sorry for taking an unannounced two month writing break, I haven’t been feeling super inspired lately to be quite honest. And I’m maybe about to start a new job so I can’t really say with upmost confidence that I’m “back” all the way, but I woke up to this request in my ask box this morning and coincidentally it aligns with a half-developed idea I’ve been playing around with for the last few weeks. To be fair, several people have posted fics with plots somewhat similar to this one (in which Y/N gets drugged at a bar), but I wanted to tweak the situation so that none of the boys are actually at said bar with her, but instead need to come to her rescue. This just so happens to align perfectly with this prompt so here I am, cranking it out for you. Just like old times (six months ago).
I hope you enjoy!!
also extra thank you to @vetaglanfeet​ and @joshysgf​ for looking this over for me before I posted :) love u both dearly
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Four Knocks
It was becoming abundantly clear that Sam was not going to be helpful this afternoon.
You had invited your childhood best friend Sam over to help you prepare for a date with Matthew, the guy you’d been casually running into and flirting with for months.
You were over by your closet rifling through clothes while Sam laid flopped over on your bed, paying more attention to an old Guinness World Records book he found on your bookshelf.
“Sam, please, can you at least pretend to care? Which looks better!” You held up two dresses, one pink and floral and the other a more subdued olive green color.
Sam’s eyes flitted up from the book to briefly scan the dresses, before moving up to glare at your own eyes. “Why are you so freaked out about this anyway? You know how to dress yourself, you don’t need my opinion.” He mumbled.
You groaned and threw a hanger at him. “Because I want to look nice, Samuel! I want him to think I’m pretty and maybe consider taking me on more dates! Lord knows nobody else is asking me.”
Sam rolled his eyes and propped himself up on his elbow, his cropped hair falling into his face as he tilted his head at you. You couldn’t help but take a moment to take in his current state. He was wearing a big white crewneck sweatshirt- one you might have suspected he stole from Josh if it hadn’t been so roomy on him. The stark white only served to deepen his dark features as his brown eyes trailed over the two dresses you were holding up.
You’d be lying to yourself if you tried to say you’d never had any feelings for Sam that extended past friendship. Frankly, you’d been pining after him for almost as long as you could remember. Before you even knew what it meant. But Sam never wavered. He was always just… Sam. Never going further than his normal, tirelessly supportive and happy-go-lucky self that he’d always been around you. At some point, you decided to try and accept that he would never feel the same and look outward to new romantic opportunities.
That’s where you stumbled upon Matthew. He was a guy who you’d run into at your favorite bar every so often. He always offered to buy you drinks and when you’d let him, he’d butter you up and ask when you were gonna let him take you out. It was flattering, and it made your heart leap to feel desired. He was pretty good looking too, who were you to turn down such an opportunity?So, last weekend you decided to finally take him up on his offer.
“You’re really getting your panties all in a twist for some guy from a bar who you barely know?”
You were brought back to reality by Sam’s snarky comment, and you felt your brows knitting together at his tone. “Yeah, Sam. I am. Are you alright with that?” You shot back sarcastically, dropping your arms that were holding up the dresses.
Sam watched as you turned back toward the mirror, taking turns holding up each dress against your body. He heaved a sigh and got up, “Go with the green one. It brings out your eyes. I’m gonna head out but good luck tonight.”
His voice was defeated but you were too preoccupied with his first sentence and pre-date jitters to notice. “Thank you! I’ll let you know how it goes!”
From down the hall, Sam opened the door and mumbled to himself, “Please fucking don’t,” mimicking your tone to himself as he left your apartment. 
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You stumbled your way into the restaurant bathroom, slamming the door shut and fumbling with the lock as your body slid onto the floor. Your head was spinning and the room almost seemed like it was too. You rested your back against the door as you heaved a deep breath, thankful that this wasn’t a multiple-person bathroom with stalls. You took a moment to remember what you came in there for, before looking down at your phone in your hand.
You blinked and suddenly you were calling Sam.
“Y/N?” Sam answered, confusion evident in his tone. “Shouldn’t you be on your date?”
You opened your mouth to speak and were surprised by how much effort it took to string together a sentence. “I aaaam on a date! You know that! Listen, I’m in a bit of a… a bit of a situation here and I thought to myself. Self, this situation calls for Sam. So I called you!”
There was a brief pause before Sam spoke again, a bit more warily this time. “Y/N, you sound fucking wasted. What, have you two been slamming shots?”
You shook your head, forgetting that Sam couldn’t see you. “No but that’s the situation! I just had a glass of red wine! I think he,” You took a break to hiccup, “I think he might’ve put somethin in my drink.”
Immediately you heard shuffling on Sam’s end. “Where are you?” He asked.
You shrugged to yourself, looking around at the bathroom in front of you. “Well right now I’m in the bathroom, because I don’t think he would’ve liked me calling up another dude during our date. That’s, like, rude, ya know?”
You could just barely hear the sound of Sam getting into his car and starting it. “You know what, Y/N, I think that was a good choice but not for the reason you just gave. I think this guy deserves a little rudeness. Do you remember what restaurant he took you to?”
You sat for a second, humming to yourself in thought. “I don’t remember the name. It’s the Italian place a few blocks from the bar I always met him at. He said he lives near here, comes all the time.”
Sam scoffed, “Figures. Look, you stay in that bathroom. I’m on my way over, okay? I’m gonna get there and knock four times so you know it’s me. Don’t open the door for anyone else, you got that?”
You smiled to yourself at the thought of seeing Sam, awareness quickly slipping through your fingers. “Four knocks! Can’t wait to see you! You know, I wish you had asked me on this date instead of him. You wouldn’t have done this to me.”
There was silence for a moment, and you briefly thought Sam had hung up, until you heard a deep sigh from the other line. “No, Y/N, I sure as hell wouldn’t have. Just please try to stay awake until I get there, okay?”
You held your hand up to your head in salute, again forgetting he cannot see you. “Aye aye, captain!”
Sam let out a humorless chuckle before actually hanging up. You let your phone fall to your side and leaned your head back against the door, fighting the drugs in your system that willed your eyes to close.
They did flutter shut for a moment before being startled back open by two loud knocks on the door.
“Y/N? You alright in there? It’s been a little while.” You sat back up a bit straighter at the sound of Matthew’s voice behind the door, reminding you that you weren’t safe yet.
“I’m okay, no worries! Just give me a few minutes.” You called out, trying your best to sound strong and put-together as your consciousness faded by the second.
You sat there, waiting anxiously for Sam for what felt like an hour but was more likely 10 minutes. Your doped-up brain filtered out the restaurant noise behind the door, even when it picked up a bit after a few minutes.
Finally, you were greeted by four clear knocks on your door.
Using more effort than you were expecting, you raised your hand to open the door. Your eyes met Sam’s face for a fleeting moment before they rolled back into your head, sleep finally taking over.
.
The next morning, you woke up tucked into your bed with your dress still on. You turned your head to look at your bedside clock and your head pounded in response. Suddenly, vague details of the night prior started flooding back, doing nothing to ease the dull ache in your head. You were relieved to see that you had made it home and woken up with your clothes intact, but there were large gaps of time you couldn’t remember from your night out.
And that scared the shit out of you.
You managed to muster up enough strength to reach over and check your phone, shocking yourself to see that it’s after noon.
You checked for outward calls and texts from the night before, even the Uber app to try and piece together how you made it home. All you could find was the single outward call to Sam. Maybe he would have answers.
You redialed him and placed the phone up to your ear, only to jump when you heard it ring from your living room. Sam’s here?
There was some shuffling behind your door as you heard the call get declined in your ear, immediately followed by the gentle knocking and opening of your bedroom door.
Four gentle knocks.
You watched as Sam’s timid frame entered your room and sat on the edge of your bed. His eyes were filled with worry and it made you sick to your stomach.
“Sam, what happened last night?”
He sighed and looked down at his hands. “How much do you remember?”
You shook your head, eyes scanning past him to try and piece together your evening. “Well, I remember when I got there. He seemed nice enough, a little forward like usual but nothing too crazy. We were just talking and…” Your brows knit as your memory started to get fuzzy. “I don’t understand, why don’t I remember anything else?”
You turned and looked back at Sam and were taken aback by the heartbroken look on his face. He opened his mouth to speak, but paused and first took hold of your hand closest to him, establishing a firm grip before speaking.
“He, um… He laced your drink with date rape drugs. I’m so sorry.” He couldn’t look at you but he was forced to see in his peripheral the way your face fell in realization.
“So that’s why… Oh my God…” Your free hand flew up to cover your mouth as tears pricked at your eyes. You instinctually moved to pull your legs closer to yourself and Sam loosened his grip on your hand to let you move that as well. But you tightened your grip in response, in desperate need of his gentle grounding in this situation.
“But I… How did you… It doesn’t make any sense, Sam. It wasn’t even a bad date!” You were close to hysterics trying to piece together the logic of the situation, and Sam wasn’t willing to let you sit there and drive yourself crazy.
He scooted a bit closer to brush the hair out of your face with the hand that wasn’t holding yours. “You locked yourself in the bathroom and called me before you lost consciousness. I was able to find the restaurant and get that piece of shit taken out in a cop car. God, he was waiting for you right outside the bathroom door, too. Luckily, you stayed awake long enough to unlock the door for me. But, fuck it was hard just watching you go limp after that.”
Sam inched closer and you leaned forward to rest your forehead against his shoulder, tears now silently streaming down your face and threatening Sam’s eyes as well.
“I carried you out and drove you home. And I just, I couldn’t leave you here. Not like this. I couldn’t let you wake up alone and confused or godforbid you woke up and remembered, I-“
You lifted your head up to meet Sam’s gaze when you noticed his watery voice start rambling. You reached a hand up to cup his cheek and he leaned into the touch. “Thank you, Sam. I don’t… think I could ever thank you enough. I don’t even know what I would’ve done if you hadn’t picked up that phone.” Your words sank in for yourself as you spoke them, and you pulled your hand away from Sam’s to wrap your arms around him and pull him tightly against you.
He gently pulled you into his lap and held you close, sniffling to himself. “You don’t need to thank me for anything. I would do it all again in a heartbeat, I would. I just really hate that you were put in that situation to begin with.” He rested his chin on top of your head that was pressed against his chest.
You had so many thoughts swimming through your head. Possibilities. Newfound fears. About a million questions, but one stood out from the rest. “Why did he do that?” You mumbled, burying your mouth and nose in the fabric of Sam’s sweatshirt and inhaling the comforting warmth.
Sam heaved a deep, shaky breath. “I… I don’t know. He’s a sick, disgusting man who thinks he can take whatever he wants from this world.” His hands started moving against you, one making warm sweeping strokes up and down your back while the other lightly pet your hair. “He should have never even had the opportunity to get near you, I don’t know what I would’ve done if he succeeded. I wanted to kill him when I saw him standing outside that bathroom.”
“Why didn’t you?” Your question was muffled by the fabric you were nuzzled into, but his chest shook with a quick laugh.
“I’d still like to, but I couldn’t. You needed me.” He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to your temple, which made your heart flutter. He’s never done that before.
Sam seemed to notice at the same time, as he froze in place for a moment before quickly darting his head back to where it rested before on top of yours.
You both sat still for a few moments, trying to calm down and sit with what was just spoken. Eventually, Sam murmured, “How do you feel?”
You almost scoffed until you realized he was just checking in on you. “I feel… disgusting. I feel used and taken advantage of and I hate it.” Your arms pulled tighter against Sam to punctuate your last statement.
You could feel Sam shake his head as you spoke, and when you finished he retracted his arms to pull your face out from his chest so you could look at him. “Y/N, you have to understand that none of this happened by any fault of yours. You are no worse a person because of it and you are still every bit as beautiful as you were when I left here yesterday. I know you don’t feel that way right now but I just need you to trust me.”
Your eyes searched his for any semblance of lying and you found none. “You think I’m beautiful, Sam?” You asked, hope dripping from your tone of voice.
Sam’s eyes widened for a split second as he realized what he had just said, but as he saw the affection in your eyes he felt at ease doubling down. “I think you’re very beautiful. The most beautiful. That should’ve been me taking you out on that date.”
Your heart was racing at his words, completely unaware that you had voiced essentially the same sentiments to him the night before during the phone call. “You still can.” You whispered out, a blush spreading across your face.
Sam smiled down at you and placed a long kiss onto your forehead. “You know what? I just might. You deserve a re-do. Except this time, you’ll be treated the way you deserve.”
You beamed up at him and nuzzled your head back into his chest, missing the warmth and safety. Sam’s arms wrapped back around you and the two of you sat together contentedly. Sam’s hands were about to continue rubbing soothing strokes across your back when he stopped them, instead opting to point two of his fingers and tap them lightly against your back.
One.
Two.
Three.
Four times.
You smiled against him in memory, surprising even yourself with your ability to see tenderness in such a painful memory.
And you reached one of your hands up his back to give four clear taps back.
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abugwritesstuff · 2 years
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Prince and Consort Dad/Family Headcanons Pt 3
here it is: the valets version of this post! i've got jasper (bleh), knight, tino, grayson, and thoma! thoma doesn't have a route atm but fingers crossed for someday 🤞🏻 anyways, please enjoy this final installment lol
jasper 
no
get this man away from children 
maybe he has an illegitimate kid somewhere in the world idk
ugh but anyway-
he might be surprised? but mostly i feel like he’d be somewhat smug about the news that she’s pregnant. 
i feel like he’d almost gloat about it to guy, specifically. like oh she’s yours? yeah i don’t think so lmao 
he’d probably be fairly confident and practical about things. i don’t think he’d  be one to be nervous or freak out really. 
he may have knocked her up on purpose. like, without her being aware. i’m sorry but that just feels like a jasper thing to do, given his whole route being… how it is. 
ugh god
i don’t like himmmmmmm
would he be a good dad? hm
not really
i mean he could be worse i guess 
but i feel like while he’d be incredibly competent at caring for them when he did, he would also be kind of hands off a lot of the time. like. i feel like jasper is sexist and so to him, taking care of children is a job for MC. 
he’d have really high expectations for his kids and would be a bit scary when they failed at things.
idk man 
i don’t like the idea of jasper procreating
one jasper is enough (perhaps too many, even)
starting a get-jasper-a-vasectomy petition rn 
knight 
omg
similar to dia, had no real image of himself doing this and is thus ?????? the entire time 
hears that mc’s pregnant and PANICS 
he doesn’t even remember having a dad, let alone seeing anybody else have a decent dad. the only dad he can think of is king gilbert which uhhhhhhhh. no. 
toa gives him books and tells him to take a class probably 
(toa: you're upset? this seems like a time for homework)
knight is just so high strung the entire time (but he does read the books) 
hovers over mc the entire time, trying to keep her comfortable and fed and rested and whatnot 
faints at the birth but comes to before the kid’s out 
basically holds his kid like she’s made of glass for the first several months and then he starts to kind of get it
from then he’s mr. proud dad, shows off his kid like yeah, look what we did 😎 
i think they’d have like three girls, one single and a set of twins, and a while later, one boy
this puts knight even more out of his element because not only was marriage and fatherhood outside of his expectations but little girls are something he especially has no experience with 
but he’s very good with them
indulges them HEAVILY because this bitch cannot say no to any of these little blue eyed babies 
lots of letting his girls dress him up at tea parties and the like 
coming to work with stray glitter and stickers on his outfits on occasion 
falls asleep with them in their room while tucking them in, mc comes in and he’s sprawled out asleep with the kids laying on him 
their boy is a surprise addition but knight is fucking THRILLED 
the girls have gotten older and independent and he’s fucking pumped to have another little buddy around 
he enjoys being a dad, having a family- he hasn’t always had one so he doesn’t take it for granted and tries to be the kind of parent he’d liked to have had 
i luv him
tino
oh you thought you’d seen tino panic before? no. this bitch goes genuinely out of his mind.
he’s very happy but practically vibrating with anxiety. hardly sleeps after hearing the news, stays up all night trying to plan for the baby like he’s cramming for an exam 
hovers over mc to an unreasonable degree
“b-but what if while you’re in town you get distracted and you trip on a loose cobblestone and you injure yourself and…” 
“tino…. i love you but please.”
takes a bit of persuading before he learns to calm down (kinda)
when the mc goes into labor he somehow manages to rally that anxiety into action and is fairly helpful, though he’s obviously in a puddle of guilt and worry the entire time 
tino cries when all his children are born. cries a lot. thanks mc profusely, apologizes for the pain, etc 
having been mr. mom for lynt helps him with baby and kid stuff obviously 
he’s probably the most actively involved, to such an extent that the mc is like, “damn let me take care of our child too tf 😒”
tino can’t breastfeed (obviously) and he apologizes for this inadequacy because he would help if he could 😩
tino, like dia, runs around with a baby strapped to him pretty often
running around to find young master with a baby in the carrier
i think tino has three sons 
marriage and fatherhood helps tino grow more of a backbone- like he’s been protecting people before but the experience makes him more proactive about things
like given his experiences with daan he’s very careful to ensure that his children know how to treat others and how they should be treated
as for that whole head-valet thing with his family, when tino is in charge the expectations are very different. much less pressure, more emphasis on playing to people’s strengths rather than grooming an heir into the position. he encourages his boys to pursue their passions 
tino as a dad cries at literally all of their major milestones. first steps, first haircut, first day of school, first time riding a bike, etc etc. this embarrasses them a bit but hey. that’s just tino. 
all of tino’s sons somehow end up even taller than him. simply gigantic boys. they make him look short. 
akedians all just have the cutest goddamn families i swear 
AHHHHH
grayson 
okay so similarly to hawke: if the baby’s unplanned and before getting married, he’s proposing immediately
i think he’d be even more upset with himself because like- 
grayson is fairly traditional in my mind. like he’d feel like he committed some kind of grave sin against mc if she’s pregnant before they’re married
i think it’d take some convincing from mc for him to stop beating himself up about it. like no forreal i’m happy grayson pls 🥲
i think they’d have a wedding real fast at that church on the hill, yknow the one 
i remember that grayson lost his dad as a kid and his uncle stepped in until he died (?), so grayson has some idea of what to do- but i think he’d be feeling that lack of role model and would probably, despite his professionalism, be visibly stressed 
i can see roy and sherry organizing to help him, cheer him up, encourage him a little
sherry bakes him some horrifying scones to make him feel better and the gesture works even if the baked goods... don’t 
i can see roy’s dad (forgetting his name lol) giving him some advice about raising kids. very cute 10/10
grayson, like dia, would be very protective and would probably have his hand on the bump as often as possible 
i think as time went on he’d get very emotionally invested, very attached 
trying to talk through her stomach to the baby at night 
cute cute cute 
rubs mc’s back and feet, runs her baths- basically becomes her valet as well 
he’s a good one 
anyways i think it’d be a girl, that first one 
he is absolutely wrapped around her finger forever. he is a giant softie and at time a little bit of a pushover with all his kids tbh 
i can see them maybe having three or four? i think the rest would be boys 
he would be very happy as a dad, i think. i think he’d absolutely love it. he’d adore his family like nothing else
i can see that firstborn of his being tenacious and wild when little, i think he’d earn a couple gray hairs with her 
i don’t have much else to say other than that i think he’s made for this shit, forreal. gold star dad-ing outta this one 
thoma
i wish i knew more about him but alas
i think he’d also be one of the most actively involved of the dads
his and rio’s kids growing up like cousins just running rampant all over the place
i think maybe he’d have two or three kids biologically, but from what i remember he was an orphan so it really wouldn’t shock me if they end up taking in a lot of children from the orphanage
when he hears mc’s pregnant, no matter if they planned it or if it was a surprise, he’d be massively excited and pumped but secretly pretty terrified 
very helpful the whole time and does not let that anxiety show to anyone, except maybe he would confide in teto? i feel like teto would give good advice. my assumption is that the voleri family has just a shit ton of children in it so teto would know about babies and could give well informed reassurances. rio probably couldn’t lol
i feel like he'd be a very encouraging partner and parent. like he'd cheer his kids on so much, just 110% in their corner and wanting them to thrive and succeed no matter what they do
he's a cutie for sure
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erissheiress · 22 days
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Ooo birthday prompts! I’m not sure if I can do more then one but I’m gonna try. If nothing else pick your fav.
The first ones Autumn Court cuz I love my moot privileges!
But the second one is Winter court. And I want a unbiased report! Just because you know my fav means nothing!
I genuinely try to stick to a goth pixie look as my friends call it. I’ve got the split dye hair and the tiny black dresses with fishnets vibes. But! I also like to read and draw and sew. Basically If a grandma would have it as a hobby so would I.
I like sweets over sour stuff and eat way to many cosmic brownies. And I’ve been described as a black cat or a “scary chihuahua “ whatever the hell that means.
hiii! of course you can do more than one <3 you def have moot privileges lol
🍁 Autumn Court - (moots only please) I'll tell you some things i associate with you + some things i love about you/your blog &lt;3
(get ready for some really specific associations that probably only make sense to me)
cherry blossoms ~ freshly baked cake/buns ~ journaling in spiral notebooks ~ tattoos ~ the feeling when you get a new haircut and you feel really confident with yourself ~ white chocolate ~ bustling cities
and things I love about you/your blog:
the colour scheme/theme fr ~ your interactions with my works literally make me so happy ~ i love how you've been on my taglist for ages and somehow still have faith in me and my posts 🥺 ~ your sense of style after that description 😍
❄️ Winter Court- ships! description of any length and ill ship you with an acotar character!
first of all i love your aesthetic omg
i genuinely spent ages mulling this over but I def ship you with Amren 👀
I truly believe you'd be a perfect power couple, for plenty reasons; I think Amren would love your style and your hair, and of course she's very much a "black cat" character as well so ye would compliment eachother well!
also I think she'd find your hobbies endearing and fascinating, I can imagine lots of quiet evenings together just sitting in comfortable silence doing your own things <3 idk if this is a headcanon or not but Amren def has a sweet tooth sooo that works well!
hopefully that's an okay ship!! thank you for the ask!!!!
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oatbugs · 23 days
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hiii i hope ur doing well !! i hope i’m not overstepping or anything lol but with the crush situation, i got kinda frustrated just reading the tags where u talked abt how she doesn’t have any shame (i don’t remember which post it was on) … honestly her confidence in u dating her pissed me off like wdym 😭😭 maybe i’m just dramatic or smth but if someone acted as arrogant as that i would immediately be turned off from them … that is Me tho. i guess it’s also whether or not she was joking abt it but she seemed serious so idk. the whole thing is just crazy but i hope things work out for u either way
no ur not overstepping at all omg as i said i love feedback on this lmao i wanna know whether im insane or not
actually that did make me reconsider immediately like in the club when she was telling me she's not worried bc she's just certain i'll date her i physically pushed her away from me when she said that . the problem is her response to me pushing her away was smiling in this annoyingly charming way and making out w me so. ITS JUST SO HARD TO THINK OBJECTIVELY WHEN IT COMES TO HER IDK but i might employ the method of like...not calling her until she talks to me bc no matter how she acts i'm so repulsed by disrespect/being made to chase smn that i will end up just getting over her i think. SHES SHORTER THAN ME TOO LIKE I COULD FIGHT YOU. WHAT R U SO CONFIDENT FOR (she goes to the gym her muscles could probably crush me)
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melancholiaenthroned · 5 months
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Omg I’m so curious. For the dc ask: 1,7,11 !
yayyy thank u^_^
1. You have to make one robin not exist permanently and never have existed. Choose which.
tim easy. SORRY i like him a bit more than dick and jason and damian but theyre all more like. important than him to batmans overall story like. and dont even speak to me about removing steph id rather die
7. Opinions on the young justice cartoon.
never watched it butttt im a hater. sorry. clogs the tags and results in me seeing the most ooc shit in the world.
11. Kill one person permanently (not the Joker)
this is difficult... the debate in my mind between characters i just never want to see again vs characters i think would have an interesting effect on the story. for the first one ok let me be clear i dont hate him BUT the direction dc is going w him is worrying me and id like to nip it in the bud. jon kent. the introduction of trinity annoys me bad and i hate the big three now all having bio legacies. killing jon would disrupt this i think. IDEALLY all three of them (jon damian trinity) die but not forever just long enough for dc to let them go a little. but in this case jon dying forever would also work. characters who i think it would be interesting if they died. um. ted kords biggest fan voice: can we just kill ted again? look its not like hes doing anything interesting rn... idk mostly instead of dying again i want to live in a world where he stayed dead but also this does tear at me bc i love him so so so bad. but they could have him in flashbacks and elseworlds ok... honestly im not confident in either of these anwsers cuz neither r the situations id prefer so im allowed to change my mind and edit this post later if i think of smth else. actually i know this is a dc question but let me marvel for a second. can they just kill of dylan please. i want to read venom comics again but i hate that kid
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delilah705 · 1 month
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Ikr?! There’s something about being in a community that just adds to the whole fandom experience. May it be hundreds of people or just one person, at least there is someone out there who looks forward to chatting with me (it doesn’t even necessarily have to be about fandom either, it could just be something as simple as talking about how our days went). The fact that someone values my thoughts, likes/dislikes, etc, who values ‘me’ as a person, yk? (Idk how to really describe it but hopefully my point gets across). Very valid fear. Luckily I’m such a small account, and have very few fics published, that I fly under everyone’s radar. Not even a sparkle in anyone’s eyes. But, yeah. Getting rude anons/comments would for sure take a blow on my already fragile confidence. Couldn’t even imagine if I saw my art or/and fic on a call-out or cringe post, honestly going into hiding at that point. I get not liking something, I get finding something cringy but at the same time don’t call that person's work out??? Common decency. Especially those really big accounts. The fact that some of their followers are so cult-like and take it upon themselves to harass others ‘on behalf’ of the person they follow????? Would not want to get caught in the crossfire. Fr, Fr!!!! Hurt no comfort is one of the few things I can dish out but can’t read 😭. Like, don’t hate me dear readers this is just how the characters wanted the story to go. Trust me I’m writing through the tears while making this fic. Same! That’s how I usually filter fics as well 
Ah, yes!! I find that so fascinating as well!! There are things that I can write but could never read and the growth of what I will write vs what I won’t write has for sure changed. If you told me from a few years ago I would be writing f/m fics I would’ve said nope so fast but now look at me (looking at you reader-inserted wips in my docs). Makes me curious what’s in store for future me! I wonder what kind of fics she’ll be writing 
mdsjlvawbefo;W - ruthless Connor is just 😳🤤🥵. Omg, I love 60! From what I’ve seen he doesn't get a lot of love but I couldn’t imagine not loving him!!! (Love all three tbh). I love mermaid aus so much!! Like I see mermaid au and I click on the fics so fast. I’m so weak for them…..for reasons which will not be disclosed as of right now lol……but yeaaahhh, moving on. Oooh, I’ll look forward to when it’s published!!!! 
Omg, that’s my fault!!! Made a typo, forgot the l oops 😅. It’s by sindumpling. I know the pain!!!! When I got back into reader-inserts I had to refind all the fics I liked, I previously deleted them from my read history, which was a task. Trying to find fics you vaguely remember but thoroughly enjoyed that you read years ago??? Such a feat, don’t recommend lol. So, don’t be like me and keep them saved somewhere even if you think you won’t read them again, you’ll never know what happens in the future (advice from present me to past me). Totally understandable! It’s such a new fandom and the movie itself is very hit or miss
Yeah, her full author name is 肉包不吃 (meatbun doesn't eat meat) but shortened to meatbun and her most popular work is 2ha (二哈和他的白猫师尊) which in itself has drama as it reached western audiences. That doesn’t surprise me, it does get a lot of hate (since it’s made its way out of the typically audience and gotten popular in other parts of the world).......all I’m going to say on the matter is don’t expect it to be tailored towards you (as in the general you, not you specifically) especially if it is written by a certain culture for that culture. It obviously is going to be different if you are not from that culture and honestly you’ll miss a lot of the nuances and such…..all I ask is that people not loudly hate on something especially if your looking at it through a different cultural lens (I get it it’s not for you but at the same time it wasn’t meant for you?? Idk, I’ve received my fair share of hate and struggled with accepting my ethnic identity (which these books helped me out with) especially since I grew up in a place where I was considered a minority…. 
No pressure at all!!!! I don’t want you to feel forced to get into or at least glance at on my behalf especially if it’s a genre you don’t vibe with! That’s honestly why I created two separate accounts for the fandoms I’m in (they are on total opposite ends of the spectrum and I know the likelihood of others running in both circles is not high). In a way this is for the best! Better to get through the dislikes first and spend more time and energy on the similar interests instead!!!
xx <3
There really is! :D Goodness. It makes me long for the times before the porn ban. I remember having so, so much fun on here. Aww. :') Yeah, I totally understand! (I think you hit it right on the head!) I in no way claim to be a large account, but the popularity of my FTPOF fic scares me. <.< I don't wanna be a big name fanfic author. It's nice that people enjoy my work and tell me that, but… I'm a little scared when it comes to being known on such a scale. And it's like,… I haven't gotten anything particularly awful in terms of comments or really much hate in general, but… It still scares me seeing the sorts of things I do on here and sometimes even other people's fics I read. DX It would me too! Oh goodness, I literally saw someone looking through Ao3 fics on Youtube today and I just- <.< Is nothing sacred anymore?!? Yes!! How hard is it to be a decent person now-a-days?!? What happened to the times when people were more tolerant of the things they didn't like?? I know when I came into fandom, it wasn't as if no one was getting any hate at all, but… I feel like it's gotten worse. I feel like there's a bunch of normies coming into fandom and just… Not abiding by the 'don't like, don't read' rule, DX and they wanna share the entire fic and their disgust online and have people that side with them all dogpilling the creator!
x.x Oh jeez. That shit scares me. I've seen it before and I just… I want no part of that. I've seen the fights over jealousy of feeling like another creator is as popular or more so than them in the same fandom and it's horrifying. XD Omg! Yes! Same! Adfh- XD Felt omg! The way some of these characters just seem to go, '>:3' or ':'> I had to' is insane. Why?? Why you do this to me?? Oh man, one of my stories I've got going rn is gonna be one of those 'I've won, but at what cost?' at the end and I just- :') Oh boy, it's going to be interesting to write. Aaaaa- There's a scene that hasn't been written yet, but just writing out the idea for it made me tear up. Oh goodness golly. Let me tell you, there's one fic in specific that's just- The angst that is lying in wait. Wooo boy, I'm probably going to make myself cry. X'D And everyone else as well. I'm kinda waiting for the 'Noooo! 😭 How dare you!' comments when I finally get there.
It's really crazy how humans in general grow and develop, how tastes and interests change irl and in fiction as we age, whether it means becoming more open or closed minded. a;sDFa0- XD That's me rn with putting my toes in the M/M and F/F genre! Younger me could have never foreseen! (XD Those reader-inserts snatched you up, didn't they?) Same! :D Where will we go in the future, what new things will we check out and become interested in, how will those fandoms change us as people? I honestly feel like some things have changed because I've gotten into new fandoms, seen new people's works and their perspective on things.
Hhhh- 🤤 I just- The way 60 tries to come off as so ruthless and complete his mission, I find it so fascinating that in one of the endings where he kills 50, he just has a breakdown when he sees 50 still beat him and freed all the other androids despite being shut down in the process. Oh, I know! D: I love Connor-50, 60, and RK900 too, but I really do feel the lack of love for 60. The other two seem to have way more fics, with 50 taking the lead and 900 right behind him. (Guess I'll just have to try and come up with some ideas for DBH and change that, huh?) Oh, me too! :D Oh? 👀 XD It's only got 8/??KB right now, nowhere near being done, but maybe next month or so? It's gonna be smutty for sure, though. ;) Unless another fic suddenly says, 'Me first!', my update schedule should look like: Error 13 update (7/37KB at the moment), Vegeta one-shot (12/??KB, rated T), and then the mer Legato one. Beyond that, who knows at this point in time? XD Certainly not me. I've certainly had some new WIPs grab me by the throat recently (of course they're for Vash and Knives lmao, they can't let me go!), so they might make themselves known sooner than the other stuff I want to work on rn. I'm often a slave to whatever WIP inspiration I get seized by.
Oh, okay! XD I was so afraid they deleted it or something! I was gonna be like, 'B-but I didn't even get the chance to read it. :')' c;adj-s- Noooo! D'X Omg! I know that pain and it's so hard. :') Remember that one fic I told you I spent maybe fifteen minutes looking for? There are others which I haven't been so fortunate to at least somewhat remember the name of. TwT That was the only reason I found that one in such a short amount of time. And I'm afraid some might even be deleted. There for a while in the FNAF fandom, I don't know if they were getting hate for their fics or what, but a lot of my bookmarks would go missing when I was in that phase. Makes me sad. My best advice if you're afraid they will vanish entirely, download a pdf of it from Ao3 and put them in a flash drive/CD or a folder or into a phone/tablet somewhere! There are several I have in my tablet that I often re-read alongside my own works to check/reference when my internet is out and just to keep in case something happens. :o Wait it's a movie? For some reason I was under the impression it was a series. I might check it out at some point if my internet will cooperate (DX Why I kind of have stopped watching anime. Only Youtube really loads good for me most days) or if I have the opportunity to buy it locally.
:o Oh cool! I love when authors have names like that. I think it's so fascinating (and some are funny XD). Oh boy. DX Of course it's the west, the entitled, whiny bitches (I can say that lol. I'm also from the west; my fellow westerners ruin everything). :/ Can I just say I really don't understand these people who are against women liking/writing bl (and even going so far as to call people who refer to themselves as fujoshi "fujoshit"? Like, real mature, buddy) and going so far as to say they're "fetishizing" men, or better yet, a phrase I see more often "fetishizing gay men" as their main argument, especially when it involves fictional, made up people? Or even people against men liking or writing/drawing gl! Like, I can kind of understand when it comes to real people, like obsessive shipping of real people but only when it comes to the point of like, not viewing them as real people anymore, you know? Like that really taking it too far kind of thing, especially if they're legit stalking them or it leads to the person sending hate towards whoever they feel is "getting in the way" of these two people they "ship" together, like that scares me. And while I don't really like rpf, as long as you're not openly harassing or making the people you ship uncomfortable by like, shoving the content in their face and stuff, or making comments to them they're clearly uncomfortable with, I don't think there's really anything wrong with that, even if it might not be my cup of tea (assuming the people these people are thirsting after or shipping are adults and not children, in which in my mind it becomes… Sus if you're not around their age range. Like, that is a child. A real child. Not a fictional one.)
Yess!!! 100%! If it is made by a creator from a different culture and ethnicity, you need to remove the lens you would use to judge the sort of things you do from your own culture and ethnicity from! And another thing that really gets me… Someone's skin color and outward physical appearance does not give you any indication of their background, where they were born at, and what kind of culture they were brought up in. Really, a lot of this clamor for "diversity" going on here lately in the west… Is actually trying to put people into boxes they don't really fit in. You're (not you, but like, in general) actually being less diverse, and I would argue, *more* racist trying to be "diverse" because you're judging by outward appearance unless the person gets a DNA test, and even then you're still assuming until the results come, and I've even seen people saying that others' DNA test was/must be fake/fabricated?? You have a lot of people telling people to "check their privilege", and that's just- Grrrr. If you think about it, we're all mixed, all from different backgrounds and ethnicities. Somewhere down the line, I feel like we all have some outlier DNA. I don't think there are really any "pure" people (as in pure blooded) in the world. And, honestly? I think labeling people by their skin color, by default, is racist. You're assuming all these diverse people around the world are the same or should fall under the same umbrella just because of the pigment of their skin or other physical traits? Are you kidding me? How is that not racist to you?
And it really gets me because this does tie into, I feel, a lot of how foreign media is looked at and treated because this is how things are now being viewed here in the west. There is this expectation to portray certain characters a certain way, especially concerning their skin color, race, cultural background, and sexuality/identity. I did not really see this kind of stuff until, I wanna say the past 5-10ish years ago? Where you're called a "racist" or all sorts of "-phobe/ics" if you portray these characters who are x race and x identity "the wrong way." It really grinds my gears, because I'm certain, no matter how a character is written, regardless of gender, background, culture, and identity, someone out there can relate to them, and feel seen. Not everyone's experiences are the same, we're all different and we're all gonna think and see the world differently, and tying back into what you were saying, not everything in the world is going to be catered to the general you specifically all the time.
There are messy topics and subjects all throughout life, and I feel like today's world in the west has become problem avoidant, where they'd rather pin the blame on someone/something else than take accountability and work through the tough times with people and try to be more understanding of each other, regardless of world views. It's such a hostile environment, and it's negatively affecting other countries and their people and the things they create as it enters our knowledge zone, as well as our own people and creations. I'm so glad they were able to help you! :'D This is exactly why content like this needs to exist despite the outcry against it here in the west! And I'm so sorry you received hate! :( I wish you the best! 🙏 💕 I really hate that certain attempts to try and connect with other cultures by learning about and partaking in their customs and holidays has become "cultural appropriation," especially since the people I tend to come across seem happy to share and have others from different cultural backgrounds take interest in their customs and beliefs?? It's just very… Distancing to me, you know? As if this idea of "cultural appropriation" is what is keeping us apart and separating us from other cultures when we could all be connecting and understanding each other on a deeper level.
Hey, don't worry! :D I actually plan to look up 肉包不吃's works (and is very likely what I'll be doing after I post this XD)! I'll admit, you've got me curious! :o Shoot! That's such a smart idea! Having different accounts for different fandoms! XD Oh, I know what you mean! I have some interests that are vastly different like that! That's true! :) But like I said, I have become far more open-minded than I was when I was younger, and I kinda hope I can keep becoming more open-minded as time passes and shed the disdain and hatred passed from my family members onto me. The only thing that really worries me about looking up the ones you recommended me is that, if it's anything like my search for free online manga, everyone's translation when it comes to the fans' translations is going to be different, and there are just some words and phrases that don't seem to translate over to English very well (or from English to other languages!) due to there not being an exact equivalent or missing background/cultural information. Would you be willing to send me links to the ones you've read if they weren't physical copies?
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saetoru · 9 months
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hiiii i hope you know how much i love ghe way u write haitham !!! also sooo true haitham is definitely autistic!! (me too haitham me too) i think u get how haitham is actually a quite kind and selfless person despite people think hes arrogant, egoistical and such but like if u read some if his voicelines like the one where hes asked what concerns he has he says smth not about him but how people tend to hurt themself and like cmon would an egoistical person have that concern??? also he doesnt look down on anyone its just he knows how capable he is and like ughhhh i feel like ur writing is a breath of fresh air cause like some people make it seem like hes some arrogant dude BUT HES NOT HES JUST AUTISTIC GUYS like when people say they dont like him and its just traits that autistic people usually have…. anyway thank you for sharing ur writing i love going through ur haitham tag it makes my day
HELLO HI I LITERALLY READ THIS LIKE 3 TIMES AND MY SMILE GOT SOOOO BIG EACH TIME IM GONNA TRY NOT TO RAMBLE AS I ANSWER THIS
but omg yesyesyes i agree he’s got so much pointing towards him being autistic and ppl will bash so many things ab him and it makes me so sad but also i’m like … maybe u ppl just don’t like traits that tend to describe autistic ppl idk … BUT i read so many fics of him being autistic and i see kaveh having adhd a lot in fics where they’re written to be neurodivergent and i think the authors i’ve read from so far have done such a good job of writing them and yeah. u get it. he’s definitely got sensory issues i know this is so real and true in my heart
AND HE IS SOOOOOOO KIND. i think ppl gloss over the fact that al-haitham doesn’t look down at anyone so much like everything about this man is so disciplined. so disciplined. like someone of his intelligence in a nation like sumeru could do sooo much bad but he literally just wants to have simple life where he goes to work and goes right home HE JUST WANTS PEACE. and his voice lines IF PPL WOULD JUST READ THEM. like the one about when ppl read difficult and abstruse books and then he says “jk i don’t enjoy watching ppl struggle lol” AND YES. THE ONE WHERE HE BASICALLY WOES ABOUR HOW PPL MAKE THEIR LIVES MORE DIFFICULT THAN IT NEEDS TK BE. he’s so caring by nature and i feel like even he doesn’t even understand that to some extent like i think he sees himself as a practical guy who just wants everyone to have peace for the sake of practicality. BUT HE ALSO JUST. CARES. YOU KNOW ?????????? they way it’s just canon that he’s misunderstood by ppl at the akademiya and he just doesn’t bother to correct them bc he doesn’t care to. THROWS UP HES SOOOOOOOOOO LOVELY I WISH MORE PPL WOULD SEE IT. i cannot tell u how many fics i read and then have to close bc. they just. THEY MAKE HIM SO ARROGANT AND MEAN BUT ARROGANCE =/= CONFIDENCE. he’s aware of his capabilities okay :( he’s not some condescending know it all. im just rly picky ab the way he’s written fjsjdjf so then i’m like. ok. i gotta write the content i wanna see 😔
but omg i’m rly glad you read and like my haitham writing sometimes i get carried away and make it so like…self servicing w the way i write him and the dialogue and then i get embarrassed to post it skfjsjfn but i’m very excited u like it I AM KISSINF U ON THE MOUF and also i am kissing ur brain for understanding him
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pacifymebby · 1 year
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Hi, I haven’t messaged you or anything in so long !! I was like 16 the last time i even posted on tumblr, i’m literally 20 in two days !!
I haven’t checked up with you since The Ride but you used to be my favorite blog and my favorite fanfic writer. You fully shaped my late teens and ur old fics got me through everything from GCSES to Covid.
And then i stopped using Tumblr cos Catfish just vanished like but i’m so happy to see you’re still writing like and you’ve found new things to write about. I went to Uni n stuff and my whole life changed and i completely forgot about ur fics. They used to be a form of escapism, and helped my romanticise my life. They genuinely helped me feel lighter when life was just heavy like. and now i don’t need them anymore and all that seems so sad and distant, my life is so so great now and i got through the not so great bits with your writing.
I just thought it was worth letting you know that you shaped a girls teen years. I completely accredit you to all the fun I had romanticising my life because of ur fics, and you literally have no idea. like some random girl in Manchester accredits some writer girl in wherever to shaping her entire late teens into some indie cringe fest nightmare that she secretly loved (don’t tell)
like i would never fess up to it anywhere except anonymous on tumblr but you were one of my only friends at times and i would read ur fics and sit alone in my room and listen to the strokes (who id never heard of until you) or id walk home from school listening to catb and imagine i was on some english coast walking to the pub with the lads and the sun setting. it sounds really sad i know and it fucking genuinely really was i was a sad lonely girl but i had so much fun!
and my music, like all of my music taste came from you !! all my book recs came from you!! i love kerouac to this day because of you.
If you ever reupload any old fics i’d be the first to have a little nostalgic read !!
Okay, first of all, thanks for sending me this bestie it really hit me in the chest because a) i cant believe ive had that level of impact on someone else's life and in such like a cute little way? And b) because everything youve just described is exactly what i was doing too!! Like using my little fanfictions to escape to, romanticising my dreary/lonely little life and using it to imagine a better future for myself...
Like, i started writing Oxygen when id broken up with my abusive ex, was livibg alone in a student flat, id lost ALL my pals to said ex, i was floundering at uni feeling stuck and alone and like, i used to get stoned and listen to the national and live in this little daydream which was that story and its probably one of the only reasons i survived that year!
And The Ride, i had the idea for that when i was trapped at my grandparents painting their house for them. That whole bit at the beginning where Maria is painting the B&B stemmed from a days daydreaming trying to romanticise my dreary little life.
Basically most of the fics i wrote were me creating the characters i wanted to be more like, like fliss and saffron, i wanted to be that kind of positive, confident, carefree girl and writing the characters helped me believe that I could be more like that.
And like idk, you really summed up what i was doing for me, and I'm glad u were able to romanticise your life too! I think its an underrated and important coping mechanism tbh, if you cant daydream up a better reality for yourself, how can u ever achieve a better reality for yourself?
I also think thats maybe why I don't write as often now too, generally my lifes much better than it was, I'm happier, i dont need to imagibe these friends for myself because i have a really solid group of friends, and I have B and im cared about and no ones out to hurt me anymore. So i dont need to escape to my fanfictions so much anymore idk.
Still sometimes its lovely to revel in nostalgia isnt it.
Also omg i cant believe u read those books cause of me, and heard the strokes cause of me, thats so fucking cool <3 <3 im glad we were friends back then and had eachother, i think thats so cool that without knowing eachother we've had that impact on one another (because honestly the people who read my fics and comment and send me anons have all supported me and made me feel less alone and lame)
Thank u so much for sending this and confessing to the indie cringe fest (we were all there and secretly loved it, its okay to admit that here!! Indie cringe fest lives on here!!)
And im so happy your life is better now too and that youre somewhere u want to be having a nice time, I'm glad u don't need to romanticise ur life anymore because youre living a life you actually want to live.thats amazing and im v proud of u for getting here and v happy that u got here <3 <3 <3 <3
Love u bestie ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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darkestcorners · 2 years
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idk if I sent this question already but,
Jungkook in polarity, tends to shut down any attempt on oc telling him she hates him. Like in the first chapters and she was only able to truly tell him this last chapter. I wonder, and idk if it's going to explore on the next episode or not.
but I wonder is it because of something his mother had said to him, that he stopped any attempt of oc saying it to him. or is it just because he is just him and he just doesn't like to her. any peculiar reason?
thank you, omg I'm so excited.
Hi babes! ❤️ Thank you so much! I hope you enjoy the next chapter ! I’m excited for u guys to read it :)
I think you’re right in leaning towards it having to do with a particular moment in his childhood involving his mother . The next chapter may reveal more about that and we may see some more glimpses of his resentment towards his mother ( however I think chapter 4 of his POV will reveal even more so I’m excited to post that later on ) But yes, I think you can assume that he feels those words can take him back into that dark time in his supposed childhood and he may make a connection to his mother ‘rejecting’ him .
However, it also is part of his overall character. I think I’ve mentioned this before but Polarity JK could be considered a grandiose narcissist to a certain level, he’s entitled, arrogant and is overly confident most of the time. He still comes off charming and likeable to others but he’s also quick to anger when confronted ( that also ties into his bpd ) but he seems to lack empathy for others except for when it comes to the MC ( and even for her at times, he’s not very empathetic when her distraught feelings aren’t towards him ) . He craves validation but only from her , he really feeds off her neediness because he himself is very needy for her attention and praise. So I think part of the reason he seems to be petrified of the MC outwardly saying she hates him and rejecting him is one, a massive blow to his ego & two, him actually being scared the only person he has essentially put on pedestal and idealized so much could potentially not return those feelings for him.
Towards the end of Chapter 4, you can see how much Jungkook craves for the MC to eventually love him back, in that small moment of vulnerability, you can see his confident demeanor break for a second. I think it’s safe to say his worst nightmare would be the MC actually truly hating him!
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