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#ok wait i just reread it and have some things i wanted to share lol
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good morning, love<з i'll try to use 1 (one) message to answer you! first of all!! you made me cry!!! again!!! only with your sweetness!! it's good to know i give you some inspiration. absolutely agree! native english speakers should be grateful we even learn their language! like lol half of the world know at least 2 languages and you? what can you do? accuse me of not using a comma? can u use them in my mother tongue? you'll piss your pants if you see them. sorry, but you make me SO confident TT you really are my comfort person in the internet. i'm SORRY i didn't mean to make you feel like a kid with all this parallelism?? i'm sooo sorry girl. i don't even know why i'd written it?? i believe you know (i'm rereading and i'd typed 'not' instead of 'know'. why???) it. i'm just.. yes.. sorry... 'BIG BRAIN AND BIG BRAIN RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER' sister i love your brain TT our alliance is so big brained we're gonna RIOT. i'd really try not to break your heart. make no promises, though. i've said i have no siblings so i have no clue how it works. you lied to me TT but ok i love you. good for your older brother ig my measured height changes from time to time but like it's 178 cm - 176 cm - 178 cm (5'9''-5'10'')?? my ass always stands (lays?) in the way of measuring. i can't stand straight and press my back to the surface (wall or this measuring shit). it's ridiculous but it's so SAD. and thank you for all your kind wards <з i really appreciate not only your support but advices too! thank you sm!! i know you're the hottest-hottest really hot hottie-cutie and glad you know it too! 'the day they get married for real for with the whole televised wedding shebang would be the conclusion of this whole modern au' OMG i hope it's a promise. 'this is want you meant about taming' what did you mean?!?!? like... my big brain may be a bit slow at times... no really what did YOU mean? i consider myself feminist too and i just agree with every word of what you've written about it. if he wasn't matt smith i'd be the first one to insult the shit out of him. but that very crush from the childhood... [SEND ALL MY LOVE LOVE LOVE BACK] 'us sharing a one brain cell for real' a really big and genius cell!!!! 'FUCK ANXIOUSNESS IT BELONGS IN THE TRASH' yes girl!! throw it away!!! you deserve better!!! 'I WANT TO KEEP YOU IN MY POCKET' PLS GIRL i want it too TT take me away from this cruel world TT 'I LOVE HEAD PATS AND HUGS' and i love YOU a talented hottie-cutie!! you give me so much love i feel bad for not replying it all TT i loveLOVELOVE you and our big brain cell thank you sm thank you for the explanation about fics!! if i struggle with something like that again i'll go to you, hope you don't mind) right now it's 0:27 in my timezone if you're ever interested. hope you sleep well)) what about aemond and aegon... YOU made them so... okok but i guess i have a couple of thoughts. personally, i'd tell them about all this magic thing, esp since they're connected in a way. i just totally don't see them in a romantic relationship with the reader. waiting for 2000 years just to choose another guy? plsss no i HATE this cliche i totally hate it. and if aemond is a really trustworthy person and he's related to the history? idk or maaaybe he somehow learns himself... all these lines reader said before/while/after the call, this obsession with that daemon and maybe some historic rumors about prince's mysterious death, a witch and his pretty wife... maybe he has his suspicions but is reeeally sceptical about it? aemond invests all this story. and aegon just tries to help him (bc cmon it's his fav customer) but somehow just disturbs his brother poor pretty boy. maybe they do stay friends. or maybe their argument is so big it concerns even vyseris. oh will reader tell them?? or is it gust their special bond.. yes of course and suddenly i have plenty of thought. i'll really try to take care! and not tace kare TT you!! you take care of yourself too!! tbh, i feel really more excited and motivated (?) after talking to you. you're my hottie-cutie angel! luv u<з
HELLO MODERN!DAEMON NONNIE
you can send me 13 million asks its fine 😡🥰
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here's another love letter!!! <3
lol im honored that i keep making you cry HAHAHHA i am so sweet arent i but remember irl sugar is not good in unhealthily large does, not only will it affect your blood and fat, it also causes wrinkles long term T_T RIP
of course you give me inspiration!!! you and all my beloved anons mean so much to me!! im truly honored to all of you and to have your love letters as well <3 <3 <3
yeah native english speakers BOOO lol HAHHAHA nah its ok that you can speak one language but dont act all superior when you cant even speak your OWN language well //////: stfu.
like lol half of the world know at least 2 languages and you? what can you do? accuse me of not using a comma? can u use them in my mother tongue? you'll piss your pants if you see them.
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ROAST EM ROAST EM ROAST EM HAHAHAHHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAH BUT YOURE SO RIGHT THOUGH AHHAHAHAHAH the whole grammar nazi wave was horrible and honestly stupid tbh /: I HAVE BEEN GUESSING SINCE OUR PREVIOUS MESSAGES WHERE YOU;RE FROM AND IM GUESSING ITS A SCANDANAVIAN COUNTRY OR A SLAVIC COUNTRY (i think slavic RANDOMLY THOUGHT OF BELARUS IALSFHASF ok maybe not so random cos i searched which countries are slavic HAHAHAHHA) AM I RIGHT AM I RIGHT (if youre not comfortable in saying you dont have to respond to this part
sorry, but you make me SO confident TT you really are my comfort person in the internet.
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iM SO HONORED AND TOUCHED AND PROUD OF MYSELF TO HAVE THAT EFFECT ON YOU THANK YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST IM DOING ONE THING RIGHT but i hope im not inadvertently making you mean T_T im not mean right? just really intense HAHAHHAHAH and I AM SO ABSOLUTELY HUMBLED THAT IM YOUR COMFORT PERSON ON THE INTERNET T_T this is peak i will never recover or get over this
i'm SORRY i didn't mean to make you feel like a kid with all this parallelism?? i'm sooo sorry girl. i don't even know why i'd written it?? i believe you know (i'm rereading and i'd typed 'not' instead of 'know'. why???) it. i'm just.. yes.. sorry...
STOP APOLOGIZING 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 YOU DID NOTHING WRONG IT WAS JUST SUPER FUNNY HAHAAHH i appreciated the fact you clarified it to make me understand <3 <3 HHAHAAHHAH DONT FEEL BAD PLS I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY AHHAHAH PLLLLSSSSS DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THINGS LIKE THIS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and again down worry about your mistakes i understood just fine
'BIG BRAIN AND BIG BRAIN RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER' sister i love your brain TT our alliance is so big brained we're gonna RIOT.
SLAYYY BESTIE SLAYYYYY I LOVE YOUR BIG BRAIN TOO
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i'd really try not to break your heart. make no promises, though.
TRY HARDER I WILL CRY AT YOU
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i've said i have no siblings so i have no clue how it works. you lied to me TT but ok i love you. good for your older brother ig
T_T DID I LIE TO YOU I NEVER LIED TO YOU PLS I JUST SAID MY BROTHER CAN CHOKE aslfgalsfgasf ok i reread my statement its confusing im sorry. i meant i dont feel any need to get the approval of my brother. he can choke on his expectations of me ///: HAHA i hope thats clearer. you can be my honorary sibling <3 except i would never choke you
my measured height changes from time to time but like it's 178 cm - 176 cm - 178 cm (5'9''-5'10'')?? my ass always stands (lays?) in the way of measuring. i can't stand straight and press my back to the surface (wall or this measuring shit). it's ridiculous but it's so SAD.
;ASFASHF SO UR TELLING ME YOU HAVE HORRIBLE POSTURE ALSFHAS
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YOU BETTER START STRAIGHTENING UP UR JUST LIKE MY YOUNGER SISTER WHO I TELL OFF SO MUCH FOR BEING SHAPED LIKE A CROISSANT ////: i forgot how tall i am, i think im 171 or 172 UPPIES UPPIES I WANT UPPIES
and thank you for all your kind wards <з i really appreciate not only your support but advices too! thank you sm!!
you deserve it i love you i love you so much
i know you're the hottest-hottest really hot hottie-cutie and glad you know it too!
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'the day they get married for real for with the whole televised wedding shebang would be the conclusion of this whole modern au' OMG i hope it's a promise.
yeah i think the only way i could end this is with the wedding lol HAHAHHAH will i ever write it will will they ever have a wedding is the question HAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
'this is want you meant about taming' what did you mean?!?!? like... my big brain may be a bit slow at times... no really what did YOU mean?
LOL I DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING I WAS JUST CONFUSED OR IG UNSURE ABOUT WHAT *YOU* MEANT LOL HAHAHAAHHA
i consider myself feminist too and i just agree with every word of what you've written about it. if he wasn't matt smith i'd be the first one to insult the shit out of him. but that very crush from the childhood... [SEND ALL MY LOVE LOVE LOVE BACK]
SUCH A MOOD HAHAHHAHAHAHA
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me @ matt smith ///: he's so corny for not falling in love with me ///: L
SENDING MY LOVE BACK TO YOU AGAIN LOL
'us sharing a one brain cell for real' a really big and genius cell!!!!
real.
'FUCK ANXIOUSNESS IT BELONGS IN THE TRASH' yes girl!! throw it away!!! you deserve better!!!
REAL. YOU DO TOO
'I WANT TO KEEP YOU IN MY POCKET' PLS GIRL i want it too TT take me away from this cruel world TT
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my love i will always be here 4 you T_T
'I LOVE HEAD PATS AND HUGS' and i love YOU a talented hottie-cutie!! you give me so much love i feel bad for not replying it all TT i loveLOVELOVE you and our big brain cell thank you sm
T_T WHY WOULD YOU FEEL BAD FOR NOT REPLYING ONE OF US HAS TO STOP AND IT SURE AS HECK WONT BE ME. i have like a russia sized heart so i have so much love to give you can have like half of that my heart will just regenerate and make more love <3
thank you for the explanation about fics!! if i struggle with something like that again i'll go to you, hope you don't mind)
im glad i taught you smth about fics too HAHHAHAHAH lol im happy to teach you anything i know knowledge is useless if it not shared and developed. you can ask me anything you want lol and ill answer best as i can
right now it's 0:27 in my timezone if you're ever interested. hope you sleep well))
i tried to fingure out what country your from by using this information but it didnt work my calculations are wonky and i have no idea what time you sent this so 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 thank u i did sleep well YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP LIKE ME GAAAAAAAAHHHH
what about aemond and aegon... YOU made them so... okok but i guess i have a couple of thoughts. personally, i'd tell them about all this magic thing, esp since they're connected in a way.
interesting thought... i personally didn't think of doing this (or at least not yet cos i havent started writing p3 at all and i usually just see where i go from what i write vs what i have planned in my head) any particular reason why you want to tell them? i think it's pretty useless no? aemond might respect it since he's scholarly and still believes in magic, aegon might not and if he sees an opportunity with reader he will take it. idk i honestly feel like reader is done with explanations of her life and magic she's been alive for 2000 years she's done with that shit AHAHHAH the only person she probably would even want to tell is daemon, and even then lol i think she'd be fine not to tell him because all the matters is she has him again
i just totally don't see them in a romantic relationship with the reader. waiting for 2000 years just to choose another guy? plsss no i HATE this cliche i totally hate it.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH I SEE I SEE NO ROMANCE FROM YOU FOR THEM IG HAHAHHAH i love me a good messy love triangle-square thing tho HAHAHAH also AHHAHAHA IT IS CLICHE BUT ITS SOOOOO GOOODDDD IMMA MAKE IT SO MESSY YOU DONT EVEN KNOW AHHAAHAHAHAHHA i'll give you a real spoiler, i'm going to add daemon's ex HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHA
and if aemond is a really trustworthy person and he's related to the history? idk or maaaybe he somehow learns himself... all these lines reader said before/while/after the call, this obsession with that daemon and maybe some historic rumors about prince's mysterious death, a witch and his pretty wife...
NOW THIS IS GOOD SOUP
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WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS SO EXCITED TO READ THIS CAN I USE THIS IMMA USE THIS YOU AND YOUR BIG BRAIN CONTINUING WHAT I JUST SAID IN MY ANSWER ABOUT AEMOND OMG YOU AND ME FOR REAL SO GOOD TOGETHER LOVE LOVE LOVE
I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW GOOD THIS IS SO SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO GOOD LET ME KISS YOUR SEXY BRAIN SO GOOD SO GOOD SO SO SO SO SO GOOD
also ok to be fair in my head daemon is the only one that's really reincarnated ya feel, and it's kind of like a happy coincidence or ig an extension of the magic that everyone from that time are also alive as well. you get me? like if anything, daemon would be the only one who can 'remember' the past because he's the only one with the past life in my head, you get me??? lol at least that's what it is in my head, cos like aemond and aegon are not royal, so they can't be aemond and aegon from before, also theyre not viserys kids or at least not royal viseyrs who is daemon's brother
maybe he has his suspicions but is reeeally sceptical about it? aemond invests all this story. and aegon just tries to help him (bc cmon it's his fav customer) but somehow just disturbs his brother poor pretty boy.
thIS IS SO GOOD IM LITERALLY SAVING THESE IN MY NOTES I LOVE IT SO MUCH I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I KISS YOU ON THE LIPS AND ON THE BRAIN AND ON THE CHEEKS AND ON THE NOSE AND THE FOREHEAD YES YES YES
maybe they do stay friends. or maybe their argument is so big it concerns even vyseris. oh will reader tell them?? or is it gust their special bond..
omg viserys getting involved with them T_T RIP THE KING GETTING INVOLVED WOULD BE SO SCARY T_T idk if the reader will tbh as i said we'll seeeeeee
yes of course and suddenly i have plenty of thought.
send me all your thoughts im dyyyying to know them
i'll really try to take care! and not tace kare TT you!! you take care of yourself too!! tbh, i feel really more excited and motivated (?) after talking to you. you're my hottie-cutie angel! luv u<з
i'm honored to have that effect on you i will take care always you beTTER DO THE SAME!!! i love you I ACCEPT I WILL BE YOUR HOTTIE CUTIE ANGEL LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU
xxx
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maybege · 2 years
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Ok so I know we started with filth and every word you wrote is the be all end all in my mind, but I'm feeling a migraine come on and now it's soft Paz hours and imagine him like massaging your head when you're having a headache and when you need cuddles he's just stuck to you and waking up to sleepy cuddles and nesting nesting nesting ommmgggg and going on an IKEA trip with him and omg shopping for baby stuff with him and what if you have twins or even triplets and omggggg him being the most Present husband everrr idk idk idk I'm like word-vomiting at this point I'll stop bothering you wait wait I have 2 more things to say: 1. I finished The Favour and I'm rereading it and I'm almost dying at how perfect it is even on re-read (although some chapters starting with ch4 I think start having cut off sentences and I was wondering if you knew because I know it used to happen to me on ffnet but I have yet to publish on ao3 so idk if that's an error or what) and 2. Since we both share a love of Hotch, I was wondering, have you watched Dharma and Greg?? It's a really formative show for me, honestly one of my favourites and Thomas is so so so delightful in it!!!! Its alllll on YouTube if you wanna watch!!!! And now I'll really go, ily ❤️❤️❤️
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Okay but big Paz with tiny babies is A MOOD. He’d hold them both at the same time and he’d be so patient with you, going to IKEA five times a week, debating the pros and cons of each furniture piece and spending entire weekends with you just setting up the nursery. (Now I get a craving for writing some biker!Paz 🥺🥺🥺)
Also I’m so sorry about your migraine! I hope you’re feeling better soon and you’re very right that Paz would take the best care of you!!
Re: The Favour it’s very likely that it’s just cut off sentences 😂 No matter how often I read a chapter of any series, they always sneak in and I’m very frustrated with how many there are. Maybe one day I’ll have and take the time to go through each chapter and reupload it in a corrected version lol For now it’ll just have to do.
I haven’t watched Dharma and Greg yet at all but I hope to some day! I’m just incredibly picky about starting new forms of media because my anxious brain just always wants to rewatch the same three things 😂💀
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simmer-roo · 1 year
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25 Get to Know me Questions!
Name: Esme Sparrow
1. When did you last cry? The night before my wedding when Julian and I got in an argument… but it’s ok.
2. Do you have kids? No but I can’t wait!🥹
3. Your eye colour? Brown🤎
4. Scary movies or happy endings? Are you kidding, happily ever after please!
5. What songs are on the soundtrack to your life? Pretty much anything by Andrew Belle!
6. Any pets? Pedro, my cat and Hammy the hamster (unoriginal name, ik)
7. How old are you? 24
8. Do you play any sports? Too busy with my nose in a book
9. How tall are you? 5’7
10. When is your birthday? February 20th!
11. What is your zodiac sign? Pisces ♓️
12. Do you have a job? If so what is it? Freelance painter! My dream job🥰
13. Where do you live? In Newcrest, in my dream home☺️
14. Who do you live with? Hubby Julian (we just got married! I’m writing this while on our honeymoon!), kitty Pedro, and Hammy the hamster.
15. What is your favourite drink? A nice refreshing Ridgeport🍹
16. Do you have a best friend? Lindsay and Leah!
17. When did you first feel like an adult? Honestly I still don’t feel like one most of the time! I feel like an imposter lol
18. What is one thing you want to do before you die? Open an art gallery for others to come enjoy my art and maybe I’d even consider selling some pieces!
19. Do you like books? If so what’s your favourite one? How many times can someone reread the Court of Thorns and Roses series? The limit does not exist.
20. What are your hobbies? I really love to paint (good thing that’s my job😉), but I also love baking and reading! Oh and playing with my cat!!
21. What is your personal style? I’d like to call it… elevated causal
22. what is your favourite type of weather? Hey siri, play sunny and 75 by Joe Nichols
23. Do you have a favourite emoji? 🫶🏻
24. Do you use simstagram? if so what’s your @? @lifewithesme
25. what is the last text you sent (and who did you text)? I sent Lindsay a text to let her know our flight landed in Tartosa! “just landed in Tartosa! Honeymoon, here I come! See you in a few days, miss you already! Say hi to your hubby and baby scout for me😘”
Hey y’all! This is just an introduction to one of the sims from my new gameplay I’ve been working on. I have a huge backlog of screenies to edit and post for her and her husband who you’ll all get to meet in my next post! I’m so obsessed with their lives lol. Can’t wait to share more!!
Also: DISCLAIMER!!!!!
This sim was originally created by the wonderful @ellcrze. You can download her from ellcrze’s patreon here.
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jittyjames · 1 year
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OKAY I HAVE A TON, YOURE WELCOME
I JUST LIKE SEEING HOW DIFFERENT MY WRITING PROCESS IS LOL-
✨🌈🌿💝🤍💥🧿💌
AHHH I LOVE THE TON OMG OK SO
✨ invisible string. invisible string a million times. i have so many scenes written for that fic that i absolutely adore, but i think the prologue was really weak and didn't represent what the story really was. more than anything i would like to revive that fic and post it, because it's my only modern multichap fic. i'll go back and reread the scenes i wrote for it and really want to share them. i miss her so much.
🌈 (you mean beside the anon fics i've posted in an embarrasing fandom that will never see the light of day?? lol jk)) in all honesty, i worked really hard on bastard, orphan from my whumptober collection. it might not seem like it bc it's kind of short and lost within that fic, but i kept rewriting it and rewriting it. i literally spent an entire day working on it and doing nothing else. i'm not sure if it was the subject matter or a specific scene, but that fic took a lot. the ending washingdad scene is still one of my favorite things i've written.
🌿 creating is literally my life source tbh. if i'm not actually writing, i'm plotting things out in my head. i wish i could spend the rest of my life just creating stories. that's the dream. for me creating is the best feeling in the world. to be in control of a world, and know how everything is going to end is amazing.
🤍 i actually don't think i have one of these!! my readers are literally amazing!!
💥 all alone, watch him run. this one was really sad (which is always something nice) and i actually really liked the plot of this one (bc it was suggested by a lovely anon of course!) i love how i was able to rewrite a scene and it still feel new!!
🧿 i must admit, it can be extremely frustrating to write something you're really proud of, and be excited to post it for it to only flop and have no one even read it, so sometimes i have to remind myself the algorithim isnt always on my side. sometimes the tags or the description don't click with people. sometimes the time isn't right for that particular fic. in the end, it only matters if you like it. i just have to keep reminding myself of that, and keep the fic up. at some point, someone might come across the fic and love it. someone might love it already and they're just on a guest account. you never truly know how your work reaches people. it's not always about the numbers. you just gotta repeat the mantra until you believe it.
💌 oh i have so much planned for this coming year. it might be off to a rough start posting wise, but we'll get back into the swing of things. what i'm really excited about is the exspansive genres i'm working on. like we're out here writing challenging, fresh things. i can't wait for y'all to see. (as for the means to go on readers, a little secret i can share with you that has me excited is that none of you are going to be okay. it's taking a while to write, but there's so much angst packed into these last few chapters.)
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kuiinncedes · 3 years
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head back laughing like a little kid
idk why i’m formatting this like my other longer fic but . i thought of the lyric as a title and i really liked it lol (from taylor swift’s “begin again”)
here is some sleep-deprived shadowhunter!quinntina from the brain of a sleep-deprived jeanne :) 
it’s not really that relevant but this is kind of in the same verse as my other shadowhunter fics and lmk if anyone wants/needs explanation of shadowhunty stuff :P none of it is very relevant to the plot or anything in this one tho
and pls i wrote this in like an hour and barely proofread it but i’m just tired and have been wanting to write some quinntina again for so longgggggg so i finally did and i’m just gonna post it lol
fully under the cut because idk where to put the cut but yeah here’s an attempt at some fluff my dudes <3
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Tina falls asleep on Quinn halfway through Monthly Columbus Institute Movie Night… or whatever they’re calling it. Her head lands softly on Quinn’s shoulder and Quinn shifts slightly to a more comfortable position, wrapping her arm around Tina’s shoulders. She ignores the glances of her friends, who are looking at her as if they aren’t the same brand of sappy and adorable with their significant others, and instead leans her cheek on the top of Tina’s head.
She guesses she falls asleep too. The next thing she knows, she wakes up to Kurt poking her like he’s five years old again. 
“Stop,” she grumbles, pushing his hand away but trying not to jostle Tina too much.
“Movie’s done. Go to bed.”
“You’re my parabatai, not my mom.” She makes another annoyed noise under her breath and Kurt chuckles, getting the point and making his way to the doorway where Blaine waits for him, and they leave the library together. 
Quinn starts to wake up a little more, but Tina’s still fast asleep, mouth slightly open and body completely relaxed but curled into Quinn’s. She smiles, brushing some strands of Tina’s black hair away from her face and pressing her lips to her forehead. 
“Hey,” she whispers, shrugging her shoulder a little but not wanting to jostle Tina too much. It does the trick - Tina’s always been a light sleeper - and Tina stirs, blinking her eyes open slowly. “Hey sleepyhead,” Quinn says, grinning, and kisses the tip of Tina’s nose.
Tina scrunches her nose and snuggles further into Quinn’s side. “Hey,” she answers, voice low. Her eyes slide shut again and her lips curl upward, a little playfully.
Quinn’s smile grows. “Planning to go to bed tonight? Why are you so wiped out?”
Tina hums. “Stayed up last night, used some Energy runes, had patrol, whatever.” She buries her face in Quinn’s neck. “I’m tired.”
“I can see that.”
Tina sticks out her tongue. Against Quinn’s neck. Who jumps slightly and squeaks in surprise. “You are two years old!” she laughs. “Tina!” 
Tina giggles and Quinn can feel it against the skin between her neck and shoulder. 
“Come on,” Quinn groans with a laugh, trying to stand up but there’s a whole Shadowhunter sprawled across her. “By the Angel, T, don’t you want to sleep in your bed?” 
“No, this is good.” Her voice is muffled against Quinn’s stomach now, somehow having gotten her to lie down across the couch and piled herself on top of her.
“You’re so annoying.”
“Only for you, baby.”
Quinn smiles so wide at the ceiling, because Raziel, she loves this idiot on her lap.
And if she has to spend the night on the cramped library couches for aforementioned idiot, she will.
(Not tonight, though.)
Quinn pulls Tina towards her, a random leftover Strength rune burning on her arm, and maneuvers her so that she’s carrying her with one arm under Tina’s knees and the other under her arms. 
“This isn’t easy, you know,” Quinn huffs as she stands, and Tina’s body is shaking with laughter as she walks out of the library. Quinn looks down at her and grins again, laughing and saying, “You are such a child when you’re tired.”
“Blame the Energy runes. They leave you burned out.”
“Oh, I’ll blame someone.”
“Yeah, you know what? Blame your fucking parabatai, he’s the one who kept me up last night with his new sketches even though he knew I had a day of patrols scheduled -- ” Tina cuts off with a short squeal as Quinn all but tosses her onto the bed, throwing herself on after, and they collapse into a fit of giggling.
Maybe tomorrow will also be an Energy-rune-and-crash kind of day.
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cielcius · 2 years
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May I have some kunigami comfort pls? O-o I've had a really rough month and I am in desperate need of ma boy. Maybe something where he defends or protects the reader from a situation with strangers or even their parents? (I have shit parents lol) and then him comforting the reader afterwards?? It's either up to you, I would just like for him to care for me, he seems like the kinda guy to do it <3 pls and thank you
FRESH AIR | KUNIGAMI RENSUKE
pairings: Kunigami x g/n!reader
from the writer: hello sweets! honestly I vibe w u on the parent thing but I was so happy to have received ur request and I hope I did ok with it and that it can maybe be something that u can look back to or reread if you need some comfort (?) lol but other than that, I hope u enjoy and thank u again for requesting. have a lovely day/evening!
genre: hurt/comfort
notes & warnings: verbal abuse, kissing, sleeping in same bed type of situation
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"For the last time! I just don't understand why you keep getting it wrong and making all of these mistakes." You keep your eyes on your feet, your gaze slowly trailing away to trace the marks in the floor when you're done tracing every other line, distracting yourself. It doesn't work.
With a sigh that holds incomparable frustration to your own, your mother walks away, leaving you to stand alone before you retreat to your room without another word. Closing the door as quietly as possible, you release a sigh as if it’s your first breath of the day.
You walk to lay down, and just like that, your first breath of the day becomes your last as you lie in wait for the next.
"Are you sure you want to come over? I mean, my house isn't the most ideal place to be working on homework." You take a side glance at Rensuke first before deciding to shift awkwardly to face him in the passenger seat of his car, quietly watching the flex of his arms as they work the steering wheel.
"Yeah, unless you don't want me to, then you can tell me. I don't want to intrude—"
"You're not." You cut him off, despite not wanting to be rude but you need him to know--you want him to know. When he reaches a stoplight--the last stoplight before you reach your house--Rensuke takes the chance to look back at you. Just seconds before the light turns green, he flashes a gentle smile.
No. No, no, no, no, no.
You had ventured into the kitchen later that evening for drinks, grabbing two glasses and a beverage to share but as fate had in hand for you almost too often now, you were met with the sight of your mother standing in the doorway of the kitchen. Your exit was blocked.
"I thought I told you to break up with him. He's going to distract you—no wonder. That's why you've been messing up, isn't it?" Leaving the drinks on the counter, you face your mother and shake your head. "He's not distracting me, Mom. You know he's actually helping—“ A scoff cuts you off and all thoughts of finishing your sentence vanish as your mother opens her mouth to say more--but she never does.
"I think Y/n has been doing great, actually. Not just because of me but by themselves.” An all too familiar voice chimes in, and lo and behold, Rensuke presents himself with a deep frown set on his lips, eyes almost glaring at your mother before they soften as they meet yours. Though his next words seem to be directed towards your mother, you can’t help but let your eyes blur with unshed tears as his words begin to process.
“Y/n is one of the best people I know. They work hard and even when they can’t, they try—and that’s how I know Y/n is better, so much better, than what you give them credit for.”
Again, Rensuke doesn’t give time for any other words to fit themselves into the moment as he brushes past your mother and slips his hand into yours, not even glancing back at you until you’ve reached the peaceful solitude of your room where Rensuke starts to pack his bag--as well as yours.
Looking from your spare empty bag to you, Rensuke makes his way over to where he’s left you sitting at the edge of the bed, tilting your chin up until he can see the clear churn of emotions that swirl in your irises. Leaning to touch his forehead to yours, Rensuke is a whisper away from your lips until he stops to speak.
“Come over and stay with me, please.” In his tone, his words, his eyes even, you can sense that he’s giving you an option. You stay there for a moment longer, gazing into his eyes before your world disappears and you lean in to press your lips against his.
Standing in front of the bedroom mirror—his bedroom mirror—side by side, you and Rensuke look at each other through glass reflections and half-lidded eyes, and Rensuke takes a second to press a kiss to your temple as he pulls you into his arms. “You feeling okay?” The day felt like your longest and yet feels like the shortest in your memories as it blurs endlessly and the only answer you can truly give is a light shrug of your shoulders.
“Maybe. At least a little better than before.” Rensuke nods with a quiet hum, letting you lean into him more until he pulls away to lead you to his bed. He pulls the covers up to your chin, almost as if he were tucking you in before turning out the lights and settling in himself.
You could get used to this, the warm feeling of Rensuke next to you, his body enveloping you, and yet you don’t suffocate—he doesn’t let you. His arms come to wrap around your shoulders, one hand traveling up to lightly massage your scalp as the other settles on your back.
Though the warmth of the covers makes the air a bit stuffier, and the soft and yet sturdy surfaces almost deny you access, it is here with Rensuke that it feels like a breath of fresh air.
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bottlesandcats · 3 years
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💜 Hey Katie do you have any suggestions for other writers I should follow who write sambucky fic? 💜
Oh darling, yes I do! The following are my three favorite authors (all on AO3) because first, they tend to writer longer stories which I prefer. Second, they write sex scenes very well: soft but hot, without being raunchy and uncomfortable. Third, they all have a way of writing that makes you feel like you're really in the characters' headspaces. They aren't as dialogue-heavy as I am, and I just really love that about them. They have a way of writing that's just...I dunno, you'll get what I mean when you read their stuff (if you haven't already) and I just am so envious of how they do it. Edited to add that these three writers all have substantial libraries so they will keep you busy for awhile.
Glittercake
They wrote probably one of my favorite Sambucky AUs (Lighthouse) as well as another really great non-AU (Like Soldiers Do) that starts out as basically PWP and then turns into something so sweet and tender it'll kill you. They're also on tumblr: @glittercake
Napricot
Two of my favorite Sambucky works are by this author: the Best Laid Plans series and Gator Round the Warm Bed of Beginners. I'll be reading these over and over again.
Notcaycepollard
Oh man... Their stories are just *chef's kiss*. I've reread most of their Sambucky stories numerous times, they are my comfort fics. They write Sam and Bucky just so perfectly, most of their stuff is pre-TFATWS and fills in those mysterious gaps between TWS, CW, and Endgame, which I really love. They're also on tumblr: @notcaycepollard
Here are also some of my favorite stories by other authors, who I've only read like one thing from. These are all complete; I didn't throw anything in that hasn't been updated in awhile. I won't bother with descriptions or ratings, otherwise this will be a ridiculous long post lol. Just a heads up, I tend to gravitate more towards Mature and up, so that's what most of these are I believe. I also typically now focus on Sambucky only, though one of the earlier recs may have some unrequited stucky.
Philopatry
Perfect Landing
Birds Flying (but I'm still here)
Glenn Miller and Blood: Or How to Court Someone in the 21st Century
It's Whatever
Pick Me Up and Dust Me Off
We Used to Wait
Past the End of the Line
Advanced Therapy Methods for Large Men
The North American Superhero in a Domestic Situation - I just need to point out that this is from Sarah's POV and it's delightful.
Phew! Ok that should keep you busy for a hot minute, lol. I have more, but I'm definitely behind on newer stuff since all I do is work on my own fic and don't have time to do much reading of others' fanfics right now. I hope you like all these, and please feel free to send some recs my way if you come across any you want to share! Happy reading!!!
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Hey!I have been rereading JHF as u update it on ffn.When i reached the patronus portion where lily's patronus changes,i just wanted to know why u chose bobcat? Is there any other reason other than to show that lily felt like she lost herself during that tym.I also wanted to tell u how much i love all ur fics ❤️and am obsessed with JHF.I can't wait for TFTDC and i feel so excited abt it🥳🥳U R AN INCREDIBLE WRITER and thank u for sharing this great fics with us❤️❤️🤩HOPE U HAVE A GOOD DAY!❤️
hi! 🥰 thank you so much, lovely, i hope you also have a very good day!
ok, so i spent ages on the patronus thing 😂 because i just couldn't find any animal that fit Lily. After looking through literally hundreds of animal lists and animal-symbolism charts, i eventually landed on a bobcat for a few reasons:
1. it's a rather small animal, though that doesn't mean it's not quite fearsome (and Lily was a quiet person at this time, but she still had her old fire tucked away)
2. it's close to a domesticated animal (the cat), but a wild version of this. to me, this felt like something that used to be quite settled and safe being lost in the wilderness, afraid of other people, a bit roughed-up
3. i still wanted something that had the characteristics of lily, because even though she'd lost herself she was still her. bobcats are intelligent and according to some symbolism/meaning articles they're also kind (this one i...have not personally seen in action lol 👀 but i'm taking their word for it)
this all comes up quite a bit in TFTDC 😉
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The prompt number 16 is quite interesting lol 16. “Control your anger or you’ll have me to worry about.” Choose the ship/character you like :)
Hello! Ok, there are literally zero reasons as to why it took me a year to write this bloody thing except maybe that I had some not fun moments and also this literally never could have been written if I hadn’t waited this long. I don’t know if you’ll read it. You’ve probably forgotten about this in all fairness but if you do read it I hope you like it. 
Also taking this opportunity to thank everyone for following me. I’m at 400 followers! This is insane. I’m not sure why you’re all following tbh but to celebrate I forced myself to finish this long overdue fic, hope you like it! Also disclaimer: I love all of the characters from TLH. I am aware of the existing debate around Matthew and Alastair and my writing in here does not represent my point of view. But I I decided to represent Matthew and his view in this way for story telling purpose. Please don’t come at me with gun blazing. If you do wanna talk, we can, but in peace 😊💕
Somewhere Where Our Shadows Meet, It Feels Like Coming Home - 
a Fairdale one-shot (is that even their brotp name???) 
This was the fifth time James was rereading the passage of the book he had picked up. It was no use. Each time he finished the page he had already forgotten the beginning. His mind was foggy with a multitude of thoughts. Thoughts about Lucie and her strange dalliance with a boy who used to be a ghost, about Grace which inevitably led to unsolicited questions on his own identity, and, as much as he tried not to think about it, thoughts of Matthew and Cordelia. He really did not enjoy these last kinds of thoughts. He couldn’t help but imagine what kind of relationship could have blossomed between the two during their trip to Paris. He knew how Matthew felt, but when it came to Cordelia, he had no single clue. He constantly wondered as to whether she hated or loved him. Daring to hope that he hadn’t ruined everything. Just for that hope to vanish the next second because there was no possible way he did not ruin it. And even if ever decided to ask her, he would have no idea how to approach the topic without sounding like an arrogant bastard.  
James let out a long breath, rolling his shoulders, trying to let go of the tension. He was pretty sure that if he ventured to look at himself in the mirror that was hung above the chimney, he would see huge dark circles beneath his eyes. Circles which color could rival the color of London’s night sky. A result of many nights plagued by bad dreams and worry. During some of those sleepless nights, James had gone to Cordelia’s room. The first time it was under the pretext of looking for books. Her room had been full of her personal belongings. A bottle of perfume on her vanity table, an evening dress carefully laid out on the chaise longue, a copy of Majun and Layla on her bedside table. So many little pieces of who Cordelia was scattered in a room she had run away from. She hadn’t been back to Curzon street since that night. Upon arriving in London, she had decided to move back with her mother using the excuse of the soon-to-be new baby’s arrival. James kept going to her home though, eventually admitting to himself that he did so because of the smell of Jasmin that lingered. It was the closest thing he had to a semblance of her presence in the house. It was a soft smell that grounded him. It was also a heady smell that reminded him of the sweetness he had lost.
He shook himself out of thoughts of her. Something he had gotten quite good at to be fair, considering how many times he thought of her in the span of a day. Pushing himself up from the table he was leaning against, he closed the book he was reading, giving up on understanding it, and made his way to the window. Outside the sky was tinged in pastel colors drawing the day to a close. James would slowly make his way back home. He would rehash the day, come up with new plans to wake his sister from her deep sleep, find out that these plans would fail again come morning, and finally decide that he would need to eat a bite because going to bed with an empty stomach was just not advisable. His parents had offered for him to stay at the Institute with them but James had refused. He preferred the calm and silence of Curzon Street. He found that the bittersweet cloak that covered his house was, in some ways, almost reassuring. Maybe he was going insane. Just when he was ready to go bid his goodnight to his family, he heard the doors of the library open wide behind him and slammed shut again.
“Did you know?” Matthew growled. James might have thought that he himself had gone slightly deranged chasing down the smell of Jasmin throughout his home, but at least he did not look half as unhinged as Matthew looked right this instant. Matthew’s eyes were wide, his pupils dilated, and his fist clenched so tight his knuckles were turning white.
“Are you alright?” James asked, keeping an even tone.
“Did you know?”
“Know what?”
Matthew took a few strides in James’ direction. His stare holding James’ gaze in place as if daring James to contrary him. “Did you know about Thomas?”
“Um yes,” James nodded, a sly smile playing on his lips. “I do know Thomas.” At that Matthew narrowed his eyes and almost seemed as if he was trying hard not to grind his teeth. Noted. Attempts at humor and alleviating the situation were not going to work. “What about him?” James tried again. His smile replaced by a serious gaze.
“Did you know about Alastair?” Matthew asked, almost spatting out Alastair’s name.
James took a few steps back, reinstating the much-needed personal space for such a conversation. James did know about Alastair, but only because Thomas had looked so miserable and James had pried so insistently that Thomas had had no choice but to give up his well-kept secret. James had understood, sometimes you couldn’t choose who you fell in love with. Sometimes you fell in love with something that only you saw in the other person. Love was usually shrouded in mystery this way, best not to question how it worked. Obviously, by the look of things, Matthew did not agree.
“Please sit down,” James pointed to one of the green velvet armchairs. “I’ll pour you a drink.” James said, making his way to the stash of liquor in one of the dark wooden commodes. James had always wondered what kind of people, for what kind of situation kept alcohol in the library of all rooms. It always seemed to him that a secret stash of tea would have been more appropriate. Now he understood what kind of situation required people to put alcohol in every room, even if it was just one abandoned bottle of Parkmore. “Is Whiskey alright?” James turned his head in Matthew’s direction.
“So you knew?” Matthew answered, seemingly in a staring competition with the mustard yellow wallpaper in front of him. “He told you?”
Whiskey it would be for a total lack of all other present choices James thought as he started to pour a glass.
Matthew kept going on his verbal onslaught towards the wallpaper. In all fairness mustard yellow was a color that could potentially enrage everyone. “How can he? It’s Alastair that we are talking about. It’s not as if there wasn’t any other man in London that Thomas couldn’t have a fling for.”
James very much doubted that a fling could start to describe Thomas’s feelings for Alastair. However, seeing how Matthew was nearly spitting out every single one of his words, he thought it safer not to share this piece of information.
“Matthew, please calm down and control your anger or you’ll have me to worry about.” James handed the glass to Matthew, which he waved away.
“No, thank you. I don’t drink.”
James squinted. “Since when?”
“Since Paris.”
James couldn’t help but feel a pinch in his chest at the mention of Paris. Paris city of lights, city of lovers. An escape his friend had taken with the only girl James had ever, truly, loved since he was barely old enough to understand the concept. It was a wondrous thing how much pain a single word could hold.
“What a strange place to decide to stop drinking.” James took a sip of the honey-colored liquid, trying to hide his hurt to the best of his ability.
“Cordelia asked me to. That was her condition for coming with me.”
James did not want to go in the general direction of a conversation that involved Cordelia. Especially not if that conversation was with Matthew. He had written a letter. James had understood. He slightly had the urge to strangle his best friend for going with her; for loving her; he did not quite know. But that was it. They hadn’t spoken of Paris nor of Cordelia together and that was for the best. Neutral conversations were for the best, they could avoid the hurt and the blame, and if James let it come to that again who knew what would be next. Yet he couldn’t help but ask.
“Why did you leave?”
Matthew turned to James, his anger receding ever so slightly. “What do you mean?”
“I mean,” A beat, a choice to either keep going or retreat before it is too late. A beat, a choice to see where this could go “why did you go to Paris?”
“You owe me an answer first. Did you know about Alastair?”
“Yes.”  
“How could you not tell me?”
“You weren’t here Matthew.” James’ voice almost broke, almost. “How was I supposed to tell you anything?”
James had wanted to throw so much more at Matthew’s face. Throw words that he wouldn’t be able to take back. He had been feeling so alone. So utterly lost after Grace’s admission. After Cordelia’s departure. He had needed his best friend. He had wanted to tell him so much, to figure it all out with him. To have Matthew hold him at times when he didn’t know if he could hold it up together and tell him, simply, that he believed in him. But Matthew hadn’t been in London. He had been in Paris. Happy. With Cordelia.
“And you accept it?” Matthew asked, carefully studying James.
“I guess it depends on what we are talking about. In any case,” James turned away from the fireplace to look at his friend. “why are you so against it if it makes Thomas happy?”
“I don’t know. Maybe because Alastair doesn’t deserve to be loved?”
“Maybe it is more about deserving a second chance rather than deserving of love. Maybe it is about getting a chance to fix your mistakes. Surely no one is worthless of that.”
“Sometimes the mistakes are too big to fix.” Matthew shrugged, breaking eye contact.
“Is that why you ran away?” The question was asked so softly as if asked any louder and James would be terrified to see Matthew run away again. James wasn’t sure he could bear it, no matter how much frustration towards Matthew he still felt.  
“I didn’t run.” Matthew shook his head. His gaze far and distant as if in another land, in a shadow realm. “I took a train, there’s a difference. And I left because of Cordelia.”
James had an inkling he hadn’t left because of Cordelia but rather Cordelia had followed in a desperate pursuit to drown both of their sorrows in the glamour of a city like Paris. After all, Paris was so similar to Matthew, it was no wonder he had chosen it. At the surface, both were golden and shining like a polished jewel box. Once that jewel box was open, however, shadows, pain, and sadness would pour out like a damn breaking loose.
“I never thought you’d try to run away from me.” James knelt in front of Matthew, his knees landing on the soft midnight blue carpet. “That one day, I’d become a part of the shadows that you try to outrun.”
Matthew turned around so fast and reached for James’ face. His green eyes were darker than usual. “You’re not my shadows, Jamie Bach. You’re my home. You are the reason why I still believe I’m worth being forgiven for.” He said those words like a damned man dying for a confession, following blindly a faith he held so dear to his heart, hoping that that faith could be his saving grace. James understood that he had become that faith.
“Forgiven for what?” James asked.  
“I can’t tell you.”
“It’s me, Matthew. What is so bad that you cannot tell me?”
“I can’t tell you because I’m afraid. I need you to stay with me. I need you to believe that I am good, even if it means that you believe in a lie.”
“Matthew …”
“If you keep choosing me and believing in me,” Matthew interrupted. If he couldn’t finish now, he never would. “then maybe I can believe that I am no monster.”
“You are not a monster, you are my parabatai.”
James felt like they were back on that bridge, at night, so close to being let in in Matthew’s secrets. Back then James hadn’t been in control of himself, he hadn’t known what was happening to him. He had lost his chance. It would not happen again. It could not happen again. James was so tired of walking a frayed rope line with Matthew, guessing at hinted truths. Being someone’s constant north took work and time and effort but because it was Matthew, James could do it. He would always do it and he needed Matthew to know that as clearly as they both knew that one day would come when they would both cross the other side together. Because after all, that was what it had always been about. Despite shadows and lies and deceptions and miscommunication, they would always be together. So James continued.  
“Do you know what that means? It means that I made a promise to you. I said entreat me not to leave thee, for wither thou goest, I will go. If aught but death part thee and me. I will not leave. No matter what you’ve done, I will stand by you, because that is the choice that I have made. That I still make. There is not a thing in this world that you could have done that would make me stop loving you, calon fy enaid.”
Matthew looked up at James and teased “Does that mean that you accept my feelings for Cordelia?”
“Don’t change the subject.”
“I must say, I don’t think I’m her type. It’s a pity, really.” Some strands of Matthew’s hair fell in his eyes as he shook his head. James could see the old Matthew again. The carefree one that balanced out his own shadows so well. The one he would choose and forgive a thousand times over because he too was his home.
“Matthew.”
“All right, all right.” Matthew threw his hands up in a mock gesture of surrender. “I just … wish you could promise that I would not lose you.”
“I promise.”
“You can’t promise something you don’t know.” Matthew said before he started to talk about his own misbeliefs that had led to a terrible accident. James listened and did not judge and stayed long in the night after Matthew had said everything that had weighted so heavy on his heart for so long. And somewhere, under the warm light of oil lamps and next to a warm fire, the frayed rope between the two started to mend and James could only describe the feeling as one of coming home.  
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bella-donna418 · 3 years
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I’m gonna get attacked lol
fiOfficially sacrificing my dignity for this.
Also this check this out because it’s basically everything I say here lol and no, I’m not after credit—but I want to state some of my opinions/thoughts where I’ll use that tweet as my reference.
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Let’s get this done with.
So I was actually rereading the manga all over again, especially the arcs where season 4 that consists of 16? episodes won’t be able to cover.
Will be talking about 122, 137 and 138 (since I’ll be setting them as my reference points for the manga panels)
I love to ask myself questions, but I came upon myself asking;
“What does Ymir want?”
Yes I know that she does want freedom, but thing is;
“What does she really want?”
So imma do a take on this.
(I’m not as big brain as anyone lol srsly I’m already failing at school—but here I am)
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In my POV, what I think she wants is what life is.
Like what does life bring? Why is living life important?
It’s as if she’s asking;
“What do they mean when they say, “Live your life to the fullest?”
In her timeline, growing up in a nature with cruelty and selfishness becoming a norm for people, she starts to slowly see that life is cheap and it could easily be thrown away as long as someone with enough power could do so.
Loving was impossible in such nature.
But one thing seemed to have an impact on her.
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A couple kissing, showing their love for each other.
This quite changed her perspective about life, regarding love or feelings for someone.
It was possible.
That no matter how cruel this world is, love will show the beauty of itself.
Because of course, when reading love stories or watching romantic movies we’d see it as beautiful (not all of us, I mean I, myself, find them cringy lol jkjk)
For her, even if it’s just a plain couple kissing, it was big enough to let her know that such thing exists no matter the nature of the world—whether cruel or not.
But let’s take a look at her backstory where she had quite the opposite of what she wants where she waited 2000 years for someone or some people to show her.
1. Freedom (What is its value?)
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They said she was “free”, but it turns out it wasn’t freedom at all. She was only used as a tool for people to practice hunting. She was still a slave, a tool to be used for something.
2. Purpose/Meaning of life (Why were we all born?)
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In this one, in her times after she got her titan powers, used as a tool for war to crush Marley, she became pregnant and bore the king’s child.
This is why when Maria (assuming it is because it looks like it) was born, she didn’t smile.
She’s probably wondering, “Whats the purpose of being born? To grow up and multiply? To have something to keep living for? Then die?”
Where this was also said by Zeke to Armin:
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But I also wonder what Kenny meant by here:
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The “something” he said must be what purpose is.
Maybe for Ymir, the reason why she kept going must be because she kept following King Fritz’ orders in order to try to live.
Even when King Fritz was gone, she continued following orders from descendants that were from the bloodline of royal blood (Fritz/Reiss is basically the same thing)
(Ok I just love Kenny lol)
3. Love (What is unconditional love?)
Something King Fritz never showed to her.
She was only a concubine, a low-class for him.
Not his wife—not even a queen to rule by his side.
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(Pic also connected to no. 2 lol)
For him, she was still a slave.
Not someone to share mutual feelings with.
Also connecting this no. 2, the king said, “Rise. Work. That is why you were born.” which is clearly her PURPOSE for him and which became her mindset.
(Gurl even she got that titan power, she could never defy him)
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For 2000 years, she must’ve been seeking for the true meaning behind the 3 I have mentioned, why she longed for someone to show them.
For her to see or even experience it herself.
Even watching and knowing what it is will do for her.
Which now brings me to EMA, what they’ve done to show her the meaning of the three.
1. Freedom
My favorite guy, Eren Freedom Yeager—
Anyway, of course the one to show the meaning of freedom will be Eren (too obvious man)
But how did he show it?
Looking back to 122, he clearly said these which made Ymir finally make her first ever choice out of free will.
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No she doesn’t want to end this world nor does Eren want to (don’t take their words and actions literally)
“You’re no slave.”
She wasn’t a slave out of her choice, it was their system from before that brought her to being one.
“You’re no god.”
When she got her titan powers, it’s as if she was a walking goddess who had a choice to crush Marley out of the Eldian king’s prayers or something.
Basically if you prayed and prayed (depends on any religion if you do this, BUT for me, this is what I do lol) you’ll get your wish.
And his wish was to crush Marley using her power.
Which she clearly did making her look like a goddess or something in the range.
“You’re just a person.”
Now this.
This is when Ymir finally got what she also longed for, someone to treat her as a human, not a tool to win wars, not to be a tool to use to bear the king’s children.
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What was something Eren gave her to have be described as “showing her what freedom is”?
Eren gave her the right to choose whether to stay or end it all.
Knowing Ymir would still need an order to do so (idk I assume it again lol), Eren decided to order her to have her own free will and decide for herself. (Violet Evergarden intensifies)
And of course, since she was asked and given the right to choose, she picked the one where she feels like a better choice—end it all.
“You must have been waiting all this time. Waiting 2000 years just for someone.”
Yes, Eren. She’s been waiting 2000 years for you to show her what the value of freedom is and what it is like to decide on your own instead of following orders.
Her reaction to it.
It was a reaction of being glad that finally, after years of waiting, someone finally understood her and treated her as a human—someone who doesn’t see her as a tool to do something—not a fodder.
She finally understood the value of freedom, what it’s importance to life is.
So she could choose things she’ll regret the least or what she thinks is the right call in a situation.
2. Purpose/Meaning of life, what makes it beautiful?
In this one, let’s recall 137.
Armin and Zeke’s conversation.
So while Armin and Zeke while talking to each other about what is life’s purpose and all those stuff—I’m assuming Ymir was listening to their conversation.
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And maybe it wasn’t only Zeke who realized this, but Ymir as well.
That even if times could be cruel and you’d rather be doing the same thing, as long as it makes you happy, you’d still find yourself smiling despite being hurt by the world.
Since I assumed Ymir was listening to this, she finally understood that even something as simple and meaningless to others, as long as it meant something for you, it deserves to be cherished even if it were simple and boring to the eyes of others.
She finally understood another thing that makes life beautiful.
It’s the memories you made and cherished that could be your strength to move on and how life deserves to be seen all throughout—even if the world despises you.
That you set the purpose of your life, not others, because you have the freedom to do so.
She might’ve not experienced this, but at least she heard it from someone who did and what their thoughts about it were.
3. Love
And then this.
Something that she also wanted to see for herself.
She wanted to know if it was indeed possible to love in this cruel world.
If you can still love someone who decided to let you go to become a monster for others.
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And with a simple act such as “kissing” (ignore the fact it’s a severed head gfdi), it made her believe that through life, you could find someone to share mutual feelings with, to love someone.
And how it’s not easy to live life without someone to love.
Because a loved one is your source of strength.
Your motivation to anything.
And this exactly made her smile.
She saw it herself, unconditional love.
Even if they became a monster—or is a monster—as long as you love them, you’d be able to forgive them and show them that for you, they’re a human.
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Let’s see what Ymir did after getting things she have longed for.
So since Eren showed her what it’s like to decide for your own, she helped him by lending her power to him.
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For Armin, he showed/told her that life itself has a meaning and purpose and that is yours to decide what it would be, and the beauty of the memories you cherished.
Therefore, she helped him by letting past titan shifters fight with them in order to stop the rumbling.
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But what would she do for Mikasa? Since she’s smiling, I assume it was because she finally completed the puzzle she’s been trying to solve ever since.
And it was about what life truly is and why people were born in the first place.
Manifesting my answer would be on ch.139 of what she’d do for Mikasa.
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Goodbye my dignity I did something so dumb I’m embarrassed.
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tomodachimeter · 3 years
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Answering old asks
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That is all.
Emojis aside, I really am so very sorry it’s taken me so long to get around to responding to messages since the manga ended, I’ve been extremely busy in my personal life so it was kind of all I could do to cope with the manga ending during that time too, haha. As of now even the last volume and fanbook are already out, but I’ll leave a few comments on the messages I’ve been sent as they were. I’m also grouping together messages that are more of readers’ own comments rather than questions for me and responding all at once, so please forgive me if I couldn’t get around to responding individually!
“My heart pains to seeing the end ahahhhhh ashiya and abeno parted waysI really really really hope for something to come next. it kinda feels sad for meabt this ending”
“Honestly I like the ending but I didn’t like how the author left out information about abeno’s background. For instance, what happen to his parents?, where did he come from?, how did he come meeting Ao?,etc. I really wanted to see all of that, including how ashiya told his mom and sister about sakaes death. Other then that, I REALLY LOVE THE PROPOSAL!!! What is with shouen manga/anime with these different type of propsals like, “I’ll skate infinity with you”, “ I will die so you won’t be alone”,etc. Like COME ON!!! I also want to see a adult ashiya and abeno 🙏.”
I feel the same, I love the ending in its own way but I also expected so much more and I wanted to see more of their adventures. So I respect sensei’s decision but that just means it’s a free-for-all in terms of headcanons after!!
“Now that the manga has ended, I really wish the anime hadn't screwed up with the season 2 ending, so we could have gotten a continuation... I really miss animated Fuzzy running around, Ashiya's screaming and Abeno's "Hah?" (´꒳`)♡”
I wonder what they’d do for a season 3 if it ever came to pass. There are a few ways they could go about it like kind of just continuing down the manga, or they could ignore what they animated at the end of s2 and then keep going (Ao no Exorcist style), or I don’t even know, honestly. No matter how dissatisfied I am with how they do anime, I’d still watch it though. :U
“Wow I can't believe it took me so long to realize this! Recently, I noticed that the dynamic between Hanae-Sakae-Aoi-Abeno and the plot revolving around them is very similar to what happens in the manga Switch (Kai-his dad-Hal's dad-Hal). The relationship between Kai and Hal is similar to Hanae and Abeno's. Kai's dad died and this is related to Hal's dad, who has survived thanks to the death of his friend (Kai's dad). Plus Kai manifests what seems to be his dad's personality when he's in danger.”
“So much tears! I really don't want this to end, but I knew it was too good to be true. Though, the way the way the manga ended felt like a new beginning. Hanae made a promise/vow to Itsuki that he will return, no matter how long it takes, so he hopes Itsuki will wait for him. Also, that picture of Sakae and Aoi on the counter makes me hope that Hanae and his family (plus Sakae in heaven) has peace now. I felt like crying more. Thank you for everything and I hope to see you again!”
“ok rip Abeno's past... rip yellow eyes... rip this cliffhanger ending...“
“Suddenly I see that anon ask about OPs and EDs and partings & separations in a new light... darn. (╯°Д °)╯╧╧”
Fittingly enough, Sensei mentioned in the fanbook that Mononokean has always been a story about meetings and partings too, but still...! More...!!!
“I think this ending is very fitting. Ashiya was never truly part of the youkai world, he was always taking one step in only to step out soon after, and going back and forth between loving youkai and being afraid of them. Ashiya's state of employment has always had a "temporary" feeling to it, including, for example, the fact that he never changed his clothes, and his Mononokean-crest clothes were "borrowed". UItimately, Ashiya didn't seem like he could dedicate his life to youkai, unlike Abeno. (continuing from my previous ask about "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world") It wasn't only Ashiya's feelings on the matter that kept him away from the world of youkai. Abeno contributed greatly to this, as he constantly tried to keep Ashiya away from the Underworld, from danger, from knowing too much, and from youkai themselves, even though Ashiya was technically his employee. If Abeno had tried, even a little, to pull Ashiya into his world, Ashiya would have responded to him, I'm sure. (another "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world" ask) The fact Abeno actively blocked Ashiya from his world was the greatest reason why Ashiya didn't feel like he belonged there. But he still felt connected to Abeno, at least. Rather than dedicate his life to youkai, Ashiya seemed like he might dedicate it to Abeno. Yet this feeling was also met with a wall. By the time Abeno realized how precious it was, having someone who saw the same things as him by his side, it was already too late. (last ask in the series "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world") Ironically, the Mononokean and most other youkai were more open and willing to welcome Ashiya into their world. Still, if and when Ashiya can see youkai again, I hope Abeno will have realized the opportunity he'd wasted. When these two reunite, I hope Abeno won't push Ashiya away again. That's all. I wanted to share these thoughts with you. Please let me know your opinion on the matter. Thank you for reading! :)”
I think you’re right on point with the themes you’ve pointed out and I believe that’s what Sensei was going for too, but it doesn’t change the fact that it’s terribly lonely for them to be separated from each other. ___(:3 At least we’re left with a (high) possibility of them getting back together (heh) and even moreso with the fanbook extra content too, so here’s to their continued adventures.
“I am not sure if you are familiar with this anime/manga/light novel series “No. 6” because the end of the Mononokean manga series appears similar to the end of the former in terms of the bond between the two male leads if you get what I mean.”
I know of it and it’s something I’ve always meant to get around to watching, but I have not seen it yet!
“Nooo, I can't believe it's over! 😭 But you know, ever since FNM's ending was announced, I've been looking for something to fill the void this precious story would inevitably leave in my heart, and then someone said "Watch Natsume Yuujinchou, the themes are similar and it's heartwarming". So I started it and, oh boy, I've been screaming at every episode because I'm not used to people openly showing their affection! 😂 So much hugging, hand-holding, head-patting... I'm melting!! (send help pls)”
“Hello Spring! We've reached the end of this wonderful journey, it seems. It's time for a new start. Thank you so much for everything you've done for this fandom, it wouldn't have been the same without you! Seriously, thank you, from the bottom of my heart! 😌 (PS: I forgot to mention, I opened this blog on my old old laptop, with its 1280x720 resolution, and the "ON YOUR OWN, BUT NOT ALONE" strip was right there covering Ashiya's and Abeno's faces, I had such a good laugh! I'm sorry I laughed!!)”
“This ending was really beautiful and yet sad. The promise made me hope but.. it's still so angst that maybe it will take years to hanae be able to see yokais again. I wonder if wazawa-sensei is okay, like, usually when a manga is ending they advertise previously, but the news was so suddenly that made me worry about sensei's health status. I also don't think that the publisher canceled the manga. So, I still don't know if this sudden ending was planned or not.”
Haha when I first made that tumblr theme, I kind of liked the effect that the strip had in covering Ashiya and Abeno’s faces somehow, but it always moves around depending on resolution lol.
In the afterword of the last volume and the fanbook, Sensei touched lightly on their various reasons for ending the manga (which I plan to cover eventually... when I have time...) and while I don’t think we’ll ever know fully, I got the impression that sensei personally seems in good health and even expressed that they would like to make another manga in the future, so as readers and fans we don’t need to worry too much.
“The manga ended well but we are left with unanswered questions : What is Abeno's past ? / Are golden eyes and hair special ? / What about Aoi's face ? / What really happened the day Aoi came back injured ? At this time she wasn't infected but Sakae died trying to save her (something is wrong with the plot) ?! / What about Fuzzy gender and his "human form" ?”
I will just say we got answers to some of those questions in the fanbook, and some we did not. :Y Please hold on for fanbook info!
Hey there. I’ve just read through the last chapter of the Mononokean. What a story. There are still a few questions that left me wondering: (1) What is the origin of the Mononokean itself?, (2) What is the origin of the Influence that flows within specific characters of the story?, (3) If Aoi was able to provide young Ashiya with a part of Sakae’s “Influence,” could it be done again?, & (4) If Ashiya could still see Fuzzy, what do you think this means for his potential abilities?
1. We were told in the first fanbook that the Mononokean was originally a well-loved tea ceremony room, and as we know in the Mononokean universe (also generally a concept in Japanese culture/religion, you can looked up the term “tsukumogami”), things that are used/loved sometimes end up gaining a sentience of their own, and if I remember right that’s how the Mononokean came to be too. (it’s been a while since I’ve reread the first fanbook so if I’m wrong please do correct me). As for any other specifics, we only know that Aoi and Abeno have been the first and second masters respectively, I’m pretty sure.
2. This was answered in the fanbook, which I’d like to summarize eventually! But Influence seems to be a natural power that develops in babies who have been in close contact with yokai before they were born, and golden hair and eyes are also a sign of that.
3. The partial Sakae Influence (lol wording) that Aoi gave to Ashiya as a baby was what Ashiya returned to Aoi to save them. I suppose since they’ve already done it before it’s technically possible, but that’d defeat the whole purpose of what they tried to do already haha.
4. I think it’s as Abeno theorizes, that Ashiya always did have a bit of ability to sense yokai on his own as well!
“I was looking for more FnM content and found out about your fanfictions on Ao3, so I read them all and oh my Lord! They were *so* good!! And I was very surprised and very glad to find out you ship Ashiya x Abeno, I'm especially happy because you ship them in that order, since I was so sure everybody would be shipping them in reverse order! Thank you so much for sharing your works!! (≧▽≦) ♡”
Thank you for your kind comments, I’m always so happy to hear someone loves my fic! I do love writing them even though I haven’t done it for a while and I have so many ideas and WIPs that I’ve still never gotten around to completely, but I swear I will do them someday... While I do think the reverse order is more popular in general, there’s a decent AshiItsu (the Japanese term for the ship haha) fandom thriving on Twitter!
Again thank you so much everyone! Look forward to fanbook info I’d like to get around to posting about soon!
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hello icha!! i finally got around to finishing the stranger haha,, by which i mean i just watched it today. was veryyyy excited for it as i really like the poster design for this one. anyways. this event starting w/ the sort of portrait format or whatever / that narration is like. god. threw me right back to autumn troupe. I kind of love that the storytelling format itself is so distinct for autumn! the moment I realized it was omi I started getting teary… like oh man oh man… omi…. And the connection with him taking photos! ahh!! now that I think about it… omi kind of seems a bit like early version tsumugi, huh? also I keep forgetting this man is a college student lol. suspension of disbelief I suppose. onto the play i think like. mankai should invest in a fainting courch for tsuzuru. i also went to watch the play and 1) im betting yuki had a hell of a time costume design wise like the vines on the body? such fun costuming wise and 2) the ethical implications of whatever this play has,,, fun fun. tsuzuru was clearly having some kind of thoughts. i love zeros design and am always up for a3 characters crossdressing bc 1) i think its fun and 2) the costume design. i also dearly wish this whole thing was animated bc I feel like it’d be o fun to see taichi act as zero. or at least I hope this event gets full voiced one day... moving on to the scene where omi adds soy sauce to the paella I know it’s just like haha homare funny so lets five him a lil bit but like everyone in autumn troupe making their comments on the paella and like homare just jumping in. homare autumn troupe besties. just thinking. also the way they just r like. no no no omi it’s fine if u made a mistake!! it’s ok! we like it (you) anyways <3 it’s got it’s own special taste. something something omi’s perfectly pleasant as he is now but even if he weren’t on his a-game and was dealing with all of the biker gang stuff they would love him just as hard. another thing that got me was omi telling banri that he’ll give him something sweet so juza will stop grinding his teeth in his sleep… guys… guys you’ll give him cavities…. mb omi is a college student after all lol.
anyways when i saw the actual costumes. appreciative of them, i like the lil circuit-esque detailing on banri’s outfit, and that sakyo and taichi (nine and zero) both share that like collar detail? its very symbolic and probably also literal but its a nice way to sort of signify their relation to each other visually! also sakyo just looks nice. seeing him without glasses is so great. whoever thought up the like two mole detail for him was doing gods work.
something that confused me was ryo mistaking juza for nachi for a split second? like. does juza… look similar to nachi? or was it just that ryo only heard juzas voice and made that mistake. if it’s appearance wise too. kumon nachi confirmed. I’m joking lol bc I feel like I would’ve heard at least something abt it in one of the like small conversation comments, plus that doesnt seem like itd fit summer troupes style and kumon is for sure the wrong age… but still.
i really like how for this event, the roles for taichi and omi were kinda reversed. and taichis just so like. idk. smiley. rly lifts ur spirits. its kind of nice how this event contrasts to that cg where taichi is crying on omi. I also think like. idk. considering the story of the stranger. wolf gives zero a sense of purpose and life and I think that zero helps wolf lose his apathy. it’s about “the stranger” and the ending makes him like… not a stranger, right? because he’s got a companion. in the same way, taichi brings omi out of his emotional isolation. the picture taking! also the stickers coming back… thats such a good setup! the found family of it all!!
when he was trying to work out zeros character as soon as taichi mentioned a sharp speaking style I KNEW it was Yuki… yuki would never be as honest as zero is though lol… to me i imagine she’s got a sort of juza internal monologue feel? anyways. the taichi yuki dynamic intrigues me. havent yet decided how I feel abt it but when I do… yes. sorry that I make literally no sense. I think it’s very obvious that yuki is my fav chara kind of? I’m just. hmmm it makes me think! I’ve been monologuing to myself abt the yuki and juza dynamic lately which, to my a3 knowledge so far, doesn’t exist, but its ok bc I’ll make it exist! uhhh anyways this event was very good i liked the pacing. i think it didnt drag too hard and it really properly honed in on just omi and taichi, which was quite nice. they really did a lot for just an event!
time to listen to the event song,,, ok so. ah. i rly enjoyed just for myself it was very much to my taste so. out of curiousity i was like ok lemme look up the composer / producer AND IT WAS YUYOYUPPE....... that guy is like!!!! one of my FAV producers ever!!!!!! i know him from like. his vocaloid days and god leia is still one of my fav songs to this day...! this knowledge gives me so much joy omg!!! like wow!! wowwww!!! like i knew yuyoyuppe was out there doing other stuff (i know he worked on a lot of babymetal music which is cool) but like idk. to suddenly encounter it like this. heheh.... its so nice! made me soooo happy. going to relisten to leia now haha
WAIT ONE MORE THING. i was like "haha let me look at other songs i remember liking a lot" which. for me was rakuen oasis and don't cry. anyways. rakuen oasis is ALSO by yuyoyuppe???? oh my god!!! oh my god... sigh. feel like im in heaven.
OH HI FRIEND!! so good to see you with an a3 update!! :D
godd yeah The Stranger started so strongly and the idea to still incorporate portraits in his story was really something to make us cry!
And linking Omi and Tsumugi like this is pretty interesting :O <hat is your reasoning exactly? :O
For the fainting couch for Tsuzuru LMAO and i'm letting you know there's a webcomics that addresses it in Act 2 (hough there's no spoilers aside from the fact Chikage is here)
Im glad you liked the costume and the play!!! yeah i love the designs and it is always a blast to see them this into it, and yeaaah Tsuzuru has thoughts huh. It'll get voiced sooner than later hopefully and there we'll see more in details :3c but also that's what made the seiyuu live so fun bc they perform the songs in play cosplay and replay a bit of the play everytime and it's *chief kiss*
HOMARE AUTUMN TROUPE SOLIDARITY YES. LOVING IT.
And yeah the scene itself was so cute TwT they all want to reassure Omi and be there for him it's so sweet :( but yeah i love how you say it all, Omiimi TwT
and dLKFJDFLKJFDFD Giving Juza cavities is the price to pay for sleep i guess??
yeah agreed on the costume they all look so cool! and nice catch on how those three seem linked like that with their costumes, Yuki (and the designers) does such a good job! and god yeah for Sakyo.. yeah. He has sucha good design dLKJFDF
aND DLKFJD yeah no Juza is supposed to look like Nachi physically, but mostly his face? like i think Nachi was had green hair? we see a sprite of him in a future story, and yeah, everything is in the eyebrows. so Kumon should be safe? Omi mentions he sees a lot of Nachi in Juza, and while it is mostly due to their passions i think, the fact they're also rough looking guy with a heart of gold must play a part as well. but yeah, he does look like Nachi a bit.
and i love your deeper analysis of the event yeah!!
I feel like Taichi is really an emotional core of the troupe in the sense that is, he tends to catch on what others are feelings easily. And he uses it in the early chapters to ease off the tensions and stuff, but he was being held back by knowing he was deceiving them. So now that he's more free, he can be more of himself. but yeah i also love the contrast with how Omi was the one to help Taichi through his breakdown and guilt, and now it's the other way around, it's Taichi helping him through it. and the parallelism between the play and their dynamic is spot on imo! well said!!
and god yeah the sticker things made me cry sO HARD, and the pictures! and everything!! sobs it's such a sweet found family i'm going to cry :(
And! i love what you say about Yuki, Taichi and Juza on this one. I love that Taichi keeps bringing it back to "that childhood friend" and it's always like. so obvious who it is for us rip. But it can make you wonder if Yuki was more honest as a kiddo when Taichi knew him, though now he's clearly not. I love the mention of how Zero is more like Juza's internal speech (which, if anything is another argument about why you should let Juza wear a dress, cOWARD)
but also your mention of the Yuki and Juza thing, while i can't think of them having a dynamic per se yet, but i actually wrote a post during my reread about how i was baffled at the fact they treated Muku the same way?? like both of them tried to push Muku away because they were scared of how people would react if they say pure, sweet Muku was associated to them. And i find it fascinating because i guess those two are pretty aware of how the world see them, and it used to stop them from fully allowing them to be themselves.
I also find it relevant with the fact Yuki says in his personal song that while all of this way people judge him weight on him, he rather be himself, and "I want to love myself". Meanwhile we have Juza who's also aware of the way people judge him and it weight on him, and he wants to change himself from this person he hates, this self loathing - and in a way, he can grow in a way to be "someone" he may not hate, even on stage. I feel like those two have quite a bit in common in this way of being rejected by their peers in some sort of way.
I really want them to share some stuff at some point because there's really a groundwork on it all :(
But i'm really glad you liked that event!! agreed on the pacing and i do love what it brings to the characters! it really fleshes them out and have them move forward a little and it's pretty sweet.
AND OMG THAT'S SO COOL FOR THE SONG!! i'm so glad you liked it, but that's incredible it turned out to be from one of your fav producer!!! ahah sometimes life is like that where you end up finding the stuff you loved back into new stuff! and the fact Rakuen Oasis was from him as well... that's so cool!!! just, so so cool!
im pretty sure he has more songs going forward so i hope you'll enjoy the ride even more!!
thank you once again for sharing your thoughts about a3 :3c it always makes me so happy to see them!!!
Thank youu <3 have a good day :3c
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jimlingss · 4 years
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Thank you, everyone, for your words of encouragement. In this short amount of time, I’ve been absolutely overwhelmed with messages of support. I want to reassure you all that I’m by no means as hurt as some of you think, or at least not after so much kindness. I’ve always encouraged all kinds of feedback!! From compliments to constructive criticism. And I’m (supposedly) an Adult™, so I can definitely take someone’s opinion.
Regardless, thank you to everyone who reached out to me. I want to respond to each and everyone of you under this post so I don’t flood other people’s dashes.
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Anonymous said: about the anon who said your fics lack emotion, hmm i wouldn't quite agree tbh, i remember reading tears of a villian and deadass crying, it hurt me so much!! also, in "fall in hatred" their feeling are so well portrayed and i could understand why they acted a certain way! to conlclude, there is always some space for constructive criticism but your stories, are to me, something very attentively built and created, it's apparent that you completely enjoy writing, I can feel your enthusiasm!!
--to that anon; pls don't get this wrong way but it's just the way I see it and I've read quite a lot till now
nah deadass crying isn’t good enough anymore, anon. You have to be keening and violently sobbing until you’re brought into the ER for my fics to be considered to have emotion. lol I’m only kidding, thank you for the message.
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peachiest-hun said: To that anon who said your work lacked emotions, I beg to differ! I have read Jungle Park so many times I know at exactly which chapter when the heavy angst starts happening and I read those parts when I just want to have a good cry (I still cry every. single. time)! Also Head Over Heels to Hell, The Colour of Our Voices, Love So Shallow (because I so relate with OC), and many more have given me the FEELS (happy and sad ones). 1/2
So what I'm trying to say is that Jimlingss is doing a great job in her craft. She does deliver emotions in her work and the reason I love it so much is that it's SUBTLE and not completely in your face. Sometimes emotions that are subtle and they hit you slowly, but powerfully it hurts even more for me. On another note, I'm loving Sugar and Coffee. In times of darkness which are often these days, I have something to look forward to every week to keep me motivated. So thank you Jimlinggs! 2./2
Istg Jungle Park is one of the most unexpectedly beloved fics on my blog but I love it hahaha I can’t believe you’ve read it to the point of knowing what chapter is what though. that’s an honour. There’s definitely stories of mine that are less subtle than others, but I’m glad that you enjoy the latter of them too :’) Thank you.
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Anonymous said: This is my first time ever leaving a message on someone’s tumblr, but I just felt that I HAD to after reading that anon’s comment about your stories lacking emotion. I wholly disagree (in the nicest way possible, not throwing any shade at anyone). I’ve read all of your fics (for the past two years) and I look forward to when you release new material (the highlight of my Mondays right now after I come home from working at a clinic). Your stories have really lifted my mood during this pandemics an
Anonymous said: Sorry for that long tangent. Don’t even know if I made sense. You don’t have to respond to any of this, but you deserve to hear some positive words as well.
Oh my god. Did I just take your tumblr-message virginity? asdfghjkl I’m kidding. but thank you for reaching out to me. I can’t believe you’ve been around for such a long time and that I’m a part of your Monday routine :’) 
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Anonymous said: OK that ask about "constructive criticism" was def imo RUDE. You don't just anonymously go into someone's asks and bluntly tell an author that their fics "lack emotion". That is not the way to encourage someone to improve and continue to work hard. That's just flat out mean. That person clearly doesn't care about your feelings or the fact that you write and share your stories for FREE for us to enjoy. I love your stories and appreciate what you've shared with us. Thank you for your hard work ❤️
I like to give the benefit of the doubt to anons and anyone sending me a message online in general. God knows there were times I meant well but it was received wrongly. But anyway, my mind was more boggled than I was hurt, that’s one thing for sure.
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joonie-mono said: + it was called love so shallow which genuinely made me see myself in a character, but my point was that your writing has a specific feel to it, it's made me laugh and cry (His Name personally killed me :] ) and that's my opinion. You and your writing are amazing and I'm sorry but that anon was just so wrong.
oof bringing out the evidence. be my attorney please.
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Anonymous said: As someone who has read your entire masterlist (and going through it again) i will have to wholeheartedly disagree with that anon. The way you portray SO many emotions in your fics is *chefs kiss* and I honestly thought that the ones that “lack emotion” were meant to be that way, with an open ending, the idea that their love just started, soo.... yeah, I’ll have to disagree.
There are definitely stories of mine that are a bit looser on romance. Such as Kitchen Romance, The President’s Son, The Heiress’ Son, Arcadia, etc. But I have a loooot of fics that are quite emphasized in either despair/sadness or cute fluff.
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ladyartemesia said: ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I am here to disrespectfully disagree with anon who probably doesn’t write effing ANYTHING and has no idea what it takes to produce the content you do. I have followed for months and I’m still not through your masterlist BECAUSE reading your stories is a bloomin EMOTIONAL EVENT. When I read Brass and Strings, I LOST A WHOLE DAY. Like I was so into it, my DAY was gone. Anon is prolly salty there isn’t more smut I guess. That’s whatever for them. (Part 1)
It’s subtle, deep, meaningful, and incredible and you’re one of my favorite authors. I can’t FOR A SECOND let that comment go cause it’s RIDICULOUS. You’re literally so gifted. You don’t need to change a thing. Every artist, no matter their medium, should continue to improve. So in that sense I wish you all the growth in the world as you work towards the perfection of your craft. BUT SERIOUSLY you’re an incredible writer. That anon is loony. I’m so sorry you had to even read those crazy words.
As I answer these messages, it’s starting to feel like I’m the third party mediator of a dispute and all y’all are just HAMMERING it to this anon, LOL. I’m not sure if the anon is necessarily requesting for more smut but if they are, they might be happy this Friday (*COUGH spoiler for those actually reading my responses)
Anyway, you’re too kind. thank you. I am definitely not as hurt as I was earlier.
((and tbh you’re hilarious, you’re actually making me laugh irl))
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krystle1990 said: Woah!! Ok first that Anon is absolutely crazy. I literally stalk your page for new work being put out! I probably blow up your notifications daily. I've never been disappointed in any of your work. You always give a heads up if it will take time for the characters to realize their feelings which I absolutely love. It always leaves me ready for the next part and I am glued to my phone with every update. You're amazing and I can't wait to see how you grow with your work. 💜😘
ASDFGHJKL PLEASEEE if it’s someone who’s worried about blowing up notifications, it’s me. To those who have notifications on I sincerely can’t fathom how often I blow up people’s phones. I digress, I always give out warnings to keep people patient since I know slow burn can be excruciating haha thank you for the message.
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kigurumu said: Also just want to add that saying you have good intentions or "don't mean to be mean" does not cancel out whatever offensive thing you just said. IT WILL STILL RUDE. Not saying all negative feedback is bad. Criticism can be hard to take no matter how it's phrased, but telling a writer to be more like another writer is like telling them their style isn't good enough which is NOT helpful. Your writing is your own. If the anon wants to read fics that are like gukyi's, they can read gukyi's fics 🙄
Also I've been waiting until Sugar and Coffee is done so I can binge it all at once but avoiding spoilers from all the asks is so hard haha! I keep seeing all these good things about it and I'm SO tempted to just read it now but I've already waited this long so I don't wanna give up kfnrjrofvjskdh guess I'll reread your other fics in the meantime
The message was fine on its own but I think dragging in another writer at the end was definitely not ok. When will comparing writers end. But regardless, gukyi and I are cool with one another - i mean we wrote 100k together so it’s gonna have to take a reverse Zuko arc for us to be on bad terms lol
Anyway, oooh you’re one of those bingers. Can’t say I blame you cause I love binging myself, so it’s understandable for readers to wait till the series is over. and since you were so kind in following up your original message with two more and expressing so much appreciation for me :’), I’ll let you know that the finale of Sugar and Coffee will be posted by July 20th! by then, the entire series will be completed. 
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Anonymous said: Tbh i think that neither you nor that anon is wrong. Some people like it more romanticised and cheesy, some people dont. I believe that your stories are more on the realistic side of life. People (whom your characters represent) cant always be cheesy and passionate for love, there are other things in life! Maybe you're just the type who's too realistic for any hopeless romantic things like i am and it's fine. Not all writers can write dramatic romance
Tbh, I agree. It’s a matter of opinion and there’s no one wrong in the fight of opinions. As I’ve said many times on my blog, the cringe factor varies between person to person. What someone might think is fluffy is absolutely cringey to another. What someone might think is a good amount of fluff is not enough for someone else. I’ve written a lot. And I’ve made sure to add lots of variations between the amount of romance in my stories. Indeed, some are definitely more subtle and “realistic” while others are completely cheesy and makes me gag from the amount of sugar in it lol I just think the anon should take a look at more of my stories before coming up with such a conclusive opinion.
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Anonymous said: I’ve been reading your fics for over a year now and religiously follow updates every week. Why? Because they make me feel something whether it be joy from fluff or grief from angst. I’ll remember a story of yours months after I first read it and return to it just to feel those emotions again. I understand that emotional responses are usually subjective but I think that anon needs to read your works again, because they sure are missing out.
I replied to that anon that they should check out more of my fics and then come back to tell me if they haven’t changed their minds, so I don’t know if they’re missing out or not lol
I don’t expect my stories to elicit emotional responses or fanatic feedback for everyone. God knows there’s been other people’s writing styles that just didn’t resonate with me no matter how hard I tried to read their stories. But all I ask is that people try. It’s fine if you give up halfway but at least try reading. That’s fair to ask, right?
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The Astronomer and The Florist (Chapter 6)
Summery: Anxiety over feelings, dissing Michael, and FLIRTING!!!
Ships: Analogical & Royality
Warning: really cheesy flirting and a shared hatred for Michael
-let me know if I need to add more warnings-
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Logan worked diligently until his phone went off. He looked over at his phone and saw that there was only 15 minutes until he was able to go home. He also saw that Virgil had just texted him.
Logan looks down at his map, and figured he could complete it tomorrow. He was so filled by anger and hatred that it was already 3/4 of the way done.
Logan packed everything up, and then headed for the door. As soon as he was outside he check to see what Virgil texted him.
VIRGIL: Hey Logan. I hope I’m not bothering you at work, but I was just wondering what type of container you want a bouquet put in?
LOGAN: Preferably a toilet or something that would hurt when I break it over his smug, overconfident, insufferable head.
Virgil didn’t respond, and Logan started to wonder if he should have been less harsh. Then his phone deemed.
VIRGIL: Patton said no to the toilets, so how about an ugly vase? That way you don’t feel bad for breaking it???
Logan busted out laughing, instantly growing more fond of Virgil.
LOGAN: That sounds wonderful! I’m sorry, I had a bad day at work. I went to go get your Plus 1 Card for the party, and Michael was there. He said some other rude things that made me upset and then he insulted and made comments about you, and I almost punched him.
VIRGIL: Oh damn Lo! I’m sorry you had such a crappy day, but please don’t get fired on my account. So if you did, I might be able to convince Patton to hire you at the flower shop!
Logan chuckled at that as he walked into his living room. He sat on his couch and realize that he never told Virgil about Professor Sanders.
LOGAN: Actually, I might have a job lined up already.
VIRGIL: Oh? Do tell
VIRGIL: Does the job have anything to do with the ‘thank you’ bouquet?
LOGAN: Yes, as a matter of fact it does. After we had stopped texting last night I contacted my old Astronomy Professor. I told him about what you help me realize, and he said that he is retiring and he’s going to ask the board on Friday if I can be his successor!
VIRGIL: That’s awesome Logan! I’m glad I could help, but please don’t credit me too much. All I did was suggest it.
Logan chuckled at Virgil’s modesty.
LOGAN: Virgil, without you I never would have contacted Professor Sanders, and I never would be able to give Michael his ‘fuck you’ bouquet.
VIRGIL: lol
VIRGIL: This Michael guy sounds like an asshole though
LOGAN: Oh, Michael N. Oshow is the King of assholes
VIRGIL: Wait, I know that name...
Virgil looked over at Patton, who was trying and failing to look like he isn’t reading over Virgil’s shoulder.
“Hey Pat, does the name Michael Oshow ring any bells?”
Patton thought for a minute, and then raised his hand.
“Oh, I know! That’s Elliot’s ex!”
“Ohhh!” Virgil exclaimed, realization covering his face.
VIRGIL: THAT IS ELLIOT’S ASSHOLE OF AN EX!!!
Logan reread the text, trying to think of a time when he overheard Michael talking about an Elliot. Coming up with nothing, he decided to ask Virgil about it.
LOGAN: Um, who’s Elliot?
VIRGIL: Elliot is this really sweet friend of mine who dated Michael. Michael turned out to be a complete douche and treated Elliot awfully. Luckily, with a bit of help, Elliot was able to figure out that they relationship was toxic. Elliot told me that Michael is still a little bitter because Elliot broke up with him, and not the other way around.
LOGAN: That’s truly awful! Since you already know about Michael, and how he can be, if you don’t want to go to the Party anymore I understand.
VIRGIL: Ha! You can’t get rid of me that easily! I don’t care of Michael will be there, I just want to go with you.
Logan smushed his face into a pillow, not caring that no one could see him blushing. He was happy to stay smothering himself until his phone went off again. He quickly picked it up and read the text from Virgil.
VIRGIL: that is, if you still want me to go?
Shit!
LOGAN: Of course I do! Nothing would make me happier, I just don’t want to make you uncomfortable.
VIRGIL: Pshh, I can just punch Michael for you. I’m sure Elliot would love it too, as long as you caught it on video *wink wink*
Logan laughed at Virgil’s antics. LOGAN: are you suggesting that I record you assaulting my bosses nephew?
VIRGIL: Not when you put it like that! That sounds awful!
VIRGIL: I want you to record me punching a guy who is a jerk to you and an asshole ex to a good friend.
LOGAN: well, that actually sounds like it would be amusing.
VIRGIL: Yeah, but how about we stop talking about Michael and start talking about us.
Logan didn’t respond as fast, so Virgil went back over his last text. He then realized something.
VIRGIL: I’m sorry! That sounded awfully presumptuous of me, please don’t be mad!!!
After a minute and a half, Logan started texting back. So Virgil deleted the 5 paragraph apology he had written out, but still copied it, just in case.
LOGAN: Sorry, I was making something to eat. And it’s not presumptuous of you at all. I gave you a bouquet of flowers that meant ‘thank you’ and ‘I like you’, and then proceeded to ask you out on a romantic outing. You said yes, so naturally I wouldn’t mind talking about an ‘us’
Virgil stared at his phone, his mouth hung open. Patton giggled at his expression.
“You better close your mouth or you’ll catch flies!”
Virgil closed his mouth and started texting Logan again.
VIRGIL: You mean that?
LOGAN: Of course. Naturally, I would like to get you know you a bit better first, but I think that you are an attractive, sweet, intelligent, and caring person. And know this after only two days. I would love for our relationship to grow into something more in the future.
Virgil was full on blushing at this point, and smiling like a doofus. He started texting again, and Patton snuck a picture of him.
Patton sent the picture to Logan with the caption-
‘Look how happy you make him! ’
Logan open a text from Patton, who’s number Virgil had given him yesterday as an precaution.
It was a picture of Virgil, smiling one of the most gorgeous smiles Logan had ever seen, with a faint blush across his cheeks. Logan read the caption and Felt an overwhelming sense of happiness erupt in his chest.
PATTON: oh, by the way, you break his heart and all use Roman to find whatever brings you the most joy and all destroy it.
PATTON: I hope you have a nice night and stay safe!
Logan reread those last texts from Patton multiple times. Patton seem like he couldn’t hurt a fly, and now he had Logan slightly terrified of him.
Logan swallowed, and then opened a new text from Virgil.
VIRGIL: I would like that too! I’m super excited to spend time with you at the Party tomorrow, and maybe next time we could go stargazing??
VIRGIL: You could show me the stars from Mind Palace Meadow!
VIRGIL: IF YOU WANT!
VIRGIL: or we could just go get coffee 🤷‍♂️
Logan smiles at his phone, think of just how adorable Virgil is. He knows he has only known hind for two days, but it feels like so much longer.
LOGAN: Why not both? After I get my whole job thing situated, I can show you my favorite spot in the meadow, we’ll go stargazing, and then we can get some coffee afterwards. Or before, whichever you prefer.
Virgil full on squealed. Like, legit squealed. Patton was so shocked that he fell off if his stool.
After making sure Patton is ok, Virgil told him how Logan basically just asked him out on a second date. But, one that felt like it would be considered the first date.
Patton jumped up and down and hugged Virgil. He then sent Virgil home to get some rest!
(Read: He sent Virgil home so he could fangirl to Roman privately.)
Virgil laughed and headed out the door. He then got a thing on his phone, reminding him that he never texted Logan back.
LOGAN: i’m sorry, was that too much too soon?
VIRGIL: NO!
VIRGIL: Sorry, I’m walking home and forgot to text you back. I would love to go stargazing with you. We could get coffee before hand and then go eat breakfast afterwards.
Virgil made it all the way home and into his bedroom before Logan texted him back.
LOGAN: Excellent.
LOGAN: It’s a date then.
Virgil dropped his phone onto his bed and then squealed into his pillows, feeling like a teenage girl but not caring in the slightest.
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cescalr · 3 years
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6 & 7 for the fanfic questions pls?
Oh boy, these will be long ones. Buckle in, boys, I'm on mobile and cant cut.
(I'm just gonna do active ones or we might be here forever, also ignoring ones I dont have OTPs for like KTTK and ones I forget entirely like TBOB)
6. List your OTP from each fandom you’ve been involved in.
Teen Wolf - Stalia (I am ANGRY forever, dunno if the ending changed me to being a Malira-Steo first-place-shared OTP situation or not, haven't decided, I'm. Stubborn and easily attached to things)
Harry Potter - Ronarry/Harron
Buffy/ATS - uhhhh help Spike/Buffy/Faith and Fred/Wesley it's two shows!!! I can put two ships!!! (Also yes I Know spuffy is difficult, Seeing Red was a horrendous episode and I hate it, and yes I know faith has done a lot of bad things, I do not need to be told these things i watched the same shows you did)
Riordanverse - hhhnnn uhh Percabeth?? I guess??? Look I need to reread these like Yesterday... I Dont Recall
,,, ok this is actually like a Really Long List but for some reason??? I've forgotten like half of them
OH shep/joker from Mass Effect uhuh yepperoni still mad you cant romance him put it in the remaster!!! You cowards!!! Also fix the lack of good love interests for fem!shep just. As a whole thanks, thinking about what Jacob did still hurts me to this day,,, do remember I was born in 2001 akfjlajdls I should probably have not been playing ME... Oh Well
Uhhh HOA I'm a basic bitch Fabina all the way bro
H2O Zikki was done DIRTY
GMW Lucaya, y'know, I'm predictable, it's always gotta be the ones with Hidden Depths for me guys, and what I mean is Maya and Lucas were FAR more interesting than Riley and the others I said what I said
Theres just. Too many. Let's continue
YES I know Seddie was iffy in canon,,,, no my heart does not care, also with some halfway decent therapy it would have been pretty good for both of them,,, literal case of right people wrong time and place
Jori's pretty cool but consider: Jandre, let beck and tori be vaguely ??? together while the good characters with Hidden Depths hang out
LOOK I am predictable and i care lots about Disa, Dean/Lisa, supernatural is killing me slowly I'm part way through season six, I cant wait to be crushed further, j hate it, I know what happens and the anticipation is pain, can dean not be happy??? Whith his family??? Can he not?????????
UM Santa clarita diet??? Obviously Joel and sheila are wonderful
Nobody wants to know my yogsmc ships and I'm not divulging them here bc frankly I dont want to get mistaken for an RPF chick, I am NOT that thank you, what they are is probably pretty obvious from my blog,,,, alright fine I'm a Zoethian bitch, block game made me cry 'I miss you I need you I love you' my heART
Uhhhh
Uhhhhhhh
People are gonna kill me for my Oxenfree one huh... if only I could say it was Alex/Nona,,, it's not, but it's a close second
Same for 13 reasons why,,,, not that I like the show or anything its god awful but idk the characters arent the awful plot you know, and besides I only ever saw like two??? Tbree?? Episodes??? Its Clustin please dont stab me in tbe gut Zalex has my whole heart too dont worry
Uhhhhhhhhhh
Uhhhhh
God I'm bad at this
Theres so many more but I just dont remember them uhhh
oH yeah as previously stated; basic bitch, Warden/Alistair in DA:O
Um.
Ummmm.
Yeah ok that's kind of it at least for this morning (oh boy, 2 am sldjldkakflhs)
HEY throwback time (not that this list hasn't been mostly throwbacks for me lol) uhhh Etharah from My Babysitter's a Vamipre yeah that was good
7. List your NoTPs from each fandom you’ve been in.
This is a shorter list. Please do not kill me.
Sterek
Drarry
Destiel
The most obvious and least contreversial: anything with Bryce Walker in it
Creddie
Rucas
Shep/Garrus, please just let them be bros
Bangel or Willara (cries) because A) he was a 26 year old man who was also 100s of years old and she was 15/16/he turned into angelus on her 17th birthday I THINK and that sucks but anyway the point being: statutory rape/ephebophilia = no fun and B) Willow Was Scary please leave Tara's head alone shes suffered enough listen! To! Her! Song!! she didnt need you abusing her trust miss Rosenberg I will fight you on her behalf-
Anyway!
Benthan I'm just here, not shipping all the most popular ships out of sheer coincidence
Idk what else... guess that's it then OH HOA mara/Fabian was Dumb as all get out yeah that's it
Thanks!! And I hope that the fact I'm not a huge fan of Sterek isnt gonna be a problem >-< can't exactly be helped. :) ♡ Thanks again!!
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jetaime-jespere · 3 years
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PLS THAT LAST UPDATE???? I had to reread it to gather my thoughts although anything analytical is out of the question because all I can say is “ AHHHHHHHHH”
ok BUT THat LAST UPDATE WAS A JOURNEY. ok every update is journey BUT DOYLE!! Doyle?? D O Y L E !?!?! WHEN I READ THAT ENDING I GASPED. Stared at the wall. Had to refrain from screaming because neighbors 😫.
not this being the second time Aaron has found someone he loved on the floor pls spare my poor bb he has been through enough 😖💔 and PLEASE I BEG OF YOU TO SPARE ME ANYMORE HEARTACHE. WHEN AARON WAS WORRIED SICK IT MADE MY HEART HURT🥺 these two have been through so much for them to not end up together??? Right??? It’s been like 10+ years?? Sounds like some soulmate material to me... i can guarantee you I will absolutely not recover if they don’t.
also I loooove how we are diverging from canon a little bit because ✨your mind ✨ should not be limited to the terrible plot holes of criminals minds. The way you made canon work better than the writers did .... pls 😭 someone give you a raise. I can’t wait to see where you to take this story!! I’ve read so many different hotchniss fics and the whole Emily leaving for Paris is obviously a staple but I was very very very pleasntly surprised to see you switching it up!! That’s some queeen shit!!! and also I know you have another story where Emily does go to Paris. THAT ONE HURT TOO. but the ending was perfect. As always!!! Ok please treat yourself on my behalf because you deserve it and then tenfold. I COMPLETELY AGREE ABOUT “THE READING THIS FOR FREE” COMMENT SOMEONE ELSE MADE EARLIER! It feels illegal that I am reading that masterpiece for free. You feed us goood with every update!! like BLESS YOU, YOU TALENTED MIND YOU✨✨✨🤍🤍
Hi🙂 Ah okay so first of all, thank you SO much for this - what a review, haha! I live for things like this, and this chapter was indeed a journey. Aaron has definitely had a rough few years (they both have), and those parallels were very intentionally done, so I’m glad you noticed that. Aaron just needs a hug at this point. As for canon divergence, I don’t want to give too much away, but LOL I will take a raise any day!🤣. I laughed at the “terrible plot holes of criminal minds” remark. AH right? I’m so glad you loved it - oh my goodness, this is one of the best things I’ve ever read. Honestly sharing it with you all has been such a joy. Thank you so, so, so much - what a lovely compliment, and I’m so glad you love it. I also agree A&E are soulmates (clearly, lol) so hopefully they can figure themselves out before the ending. This made my morning, so thank you. I hope you have a great day! ♥️
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