#oh well it works thats all i care about

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #cw blood #something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones #IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE #ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE.... #THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU #do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule. #LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE #DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared #i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail #but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!! #i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time #i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS #soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz #i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss #have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES #I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn #annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE. #hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.

[ashleyetc]

'4d chess gender' just reads to me as 'if youre a trans woman you will have to play rhetorical 4d chess to get me to even consider not calling you bro man and dude' at this point. how is it awful to call ppl 'theyfabs' but literally resurrecting an antiquated slur because of some bizarre fixation on a tumblr clique from fucking years ago is fine as long as the trans women youre throwing it at are like, 'pretentious' (the way certain FOLX on here use the term to mean 'doesnt agree with me and has any meaningful understanding of politics'). but bringing up that trans women are treated like shit gets you met with 'ugh why the discourse we should be sucking and fucking each other not fighting' like some fucking tboy andrew tate fan shit like telling a woman complaining about how you are treating her by saying 'shut up and suck my dick' isnt direct misogyny meant to put us in our place (as sex servants for the real human beings). this site is a fucking trashfire and anyone who tells you there is any kind of cohesive meaningful overarching 'trans community' is selling you something or trying to fuck you

#and all of this is literally due to the fact that nobody cares about misogyny when it is aimed at us. #not a term i like but im honestly getting pretty blackpilled about shit between this shithole and some irl shit #like. my gf was horrifically mistreated at her last job Because she was trans (and autistic thats p key there too) #i cant get gendered correctly at work. and i go on here and its 'oh well maybe the “afab transfem” is just complicated' #if you dont know what this post is about just keep scrolling #if you want to argue with me just save us both time and just block me.

[melatien]

i need to share my twitter AU rambles here more often, heres my most recent one

#mha #me? talking about characters that aren't the vestiges? #UGH i cant believe i had to include the main characters of the show in an au for once this is so not tien #I HAD TO FOR THE AU TO FLOURISH THOUGH!!!!! #tbh i lost track of how this would work with canon halfway and it shows #idk if a half destroyed japan would care about a disease thats the thing #SO I WAITED! #....until after the worst thing ever happend #only making it less believeable #coverage for the disease should've happen before the 'ofa stealing fight' #OH WELL #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #ofa vestiges

[thegreatyin]

a collection of other nominee categories that i think are about to be a bloodbath this year

and, of course

the real battle of the fates

#im contractually obligated to vote for the catboy rigel dressup mmo or else square enix shoots me in the balls #that's how it works #yin-thoughts #some other thoughts because i wanted to say them even though nobody cares about yin's goty takes: #art direction is a pretty tough fight though i expect mario wonder to win due to recency and just it being good period #but hi-fi rush is a very respectable win as well and i'll gladly take it. i havent heard much on lies of p but it looks cool #best narrative is about as much of a bloodbath as the rest of these. i expect bg3 to win (and thats what i'd say personally) #but im also half expecting a surprise turnaround from like. idk. final fantasy guys or something. you never know! #best rpg is a BRAWL. all of those are absolute bangers. i really really want sea of stars to win bc it got snubbed from the indie category #and obviously bg3 is taking home a few awards regardless of what happens so it doesn't really matter if they lose this one #but that's not what i expect to happen :( at least it's there anyway #best score and music goes to hi-fi. it's a rhythm game. yes bg3 AGAIN but yknow what as a bg3 stan let them have this one #oh and ffxiv got nominated for the community award again as usual so. go team etc etc #also WHY is cyperpunk in the ongoing games category? bro thinks he's part of the team #edit: i forgot octopath 2!! i havent finished it yet but tbh it deserved a nomination just as much as anything else. sad to not see it

[milfygerard]

this is something ive seen a few times on my dash and i dont think ppl know this so i just wanna say that while its fun to joke about or even just discuss frank songs being about gerard a lot of the ones i see brought up frank has said are about like. his struggles with addiction (medicine square garden, veins veins veins) or complicated family situations (veins again, fantastic bastards tho not confirmed to be abt frank at all) idk i just want ppl who maybe didnt known to like know that

#barry.txt #this post is worded so strangely sorry #also FB isnt confirmed to be abt franks life it could be fictional or about d*wees. i know it has the ft willz quote but i think #they just lifted that bc its a great line and makes for a great chorus #veins veins veins and medicine square esp bother me bc i feel like franks struggles w addiction get sort of ignored or pushed to the side #despite being a very very present theme in his work #it kinda goes w his chronic illness and non gerard relationships as things that go kinda ignored when analyzing/discussing his songs #also i did just take ritalin. and its making me very chatty and ive wanted to talk abt this for awhile #i also do think it creates a very....idk what to say except fanficcy idea of what frank and gerards connection and friendship actually Were #this all kinda goes for the ft willz poetry as well tbh. i love thinking abt it and also love living in these #bitches discogd rent free jokes but its clearly aslo discussing franks chronic illness and struggles w touring and his relationship w his #wife #sorry oh my god. i wrote so much. its not that big a deal ive just thought abt this and havent said anything in so long #that i ended up having way more to say than needed #also im not mad at anyone for posting abt this we do not know these guys and these guys probably barely care #just. my brain. thats it lol

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror) #seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy” #but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff) #walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

[acidicpenumbra]

i hate dirkjake and also like other pairings but whatever

#im not gonna tag them directly bc obviouslt dick move but i hate dirkuu and dirkjake and vrisrezi and davekat and a lot of things #andrew hussie cannot write very good relationships and i am so tired of homestuck being like oh well vrisrezi is THE lesbian icon ship #rosemary is right there and they aren't actually terribke for each other... i cant like shit on everything bc at the end of the day #its just homestuck pairings and although theyre awful theyre not like actually harmful #i guess #i mean i kinda wish some ppl would stop seeing some pf these as healthy bc i know ppl who have seen oh yeah x pairig is healthy so my #relationship thats like this pairing is totally fine no it is not i promise #this is rambling #in tags #anyways i really hate dirkjake mostly maybe ill talk about other things but as someone with a huge interest in shipping #it sucks that almost all the major homestuck ones are garbage and like even some fandom ones #maybe these characters didnt work out for a reason bro... #‟youre taking this too seriously‟ #i am a hater #i will keep being a hater #it is my favorite thing ever #anyways can we stop romanticizing vrisrezi its not like super nuanced vriska blinded twrezi and terezi fucking killed her #im jjst saying its not ideal its not healthy and its not like. idk. its something i cant care about at all

[maddy-ferguson]

once you see the single nancy vision you really can't unsee it

#single nancy truther 4 life #since as we all know i hate st4ncy right after volume 2 i was like. this makes me want to go back to being really into j4ncy just out of #spite but i couldn't do it because i don't...actually care about j4ncy anymore and i haven't in years #but nancy not ending up with either of them makes so much sense narratively for all three of them and it's half as plot twisty as byler #since stoncy's the more publicized love triangle and is seen as left open-ended by the ga while willelmike...isn't #which is fun. nancy ending up single being unexpected #and something that's really funny is that people who are rooting for j4ncy are like 'well they'll just have a conversation in which #jonathan tells her the truth and then well they'll figure out. emerson or lenora or long distance they'll make it work' even though that #could be said about mlvn too and that's what mlvns expect i mean it's possible...technically...el's like oh that's not my painting btw and #mike says oh that's fine and el says i don't like that you see me as your superhero and mike's like oh don't worry i don't. and then #they end up together like😭 but we don't expect that to happen because there's this elaborate plot line #+ you could lowkey also say they built them up for two seasons only to break them down because they spent season 3 fighting and then well #Fighting (and i dont like how they made up. but thats personal. maybe) and in season 4 he was lying to her and she was ogling her ex..kinda #and i mean it's not like i have a vendetta against them like i do mlvn and st4ncy i'm just saying #and like i say: brf slt

[naggingatlas]

i looove putting spark over songs about like heroes and saving the world (tom cardy's 'level clear', uncle outrage's 'saved the world' <- nice voice hc for him!. and 'my superhero movie'.) when he like. Did. Not : ) funney.

#sprksplrs #gaia talked about spark wanting to be desired yesterday and while i think he's too much of a Lone Wolf... for those kinds of wants to #even surface. at least in my interpretation of him. its hilarious to think abt him getting. just a tad insecure abt fark's status as #a real like. superhero basically. just for a second in the far back of his head. oh i want to be as cool as him. im not good enough #tho again in my characterization he only wants to do that to be able to love himself. i first got this thought when ruminating on #oh god. what kinda games he n fark like to play respectively? and said 'if he ever does pick up hardmode or a challenge level #he will only do that to one up himself and himself only.' he only proves stuff to himself. he only cares about himself. #and the things that do the most mental damage to him are all scenarios in which his self is attacked. #in which his agency is taken his independence. losing a job to someone something that copies him and does it better than him #something that even copies a really dear object to him thats been with him throughout the years - his jester hat #an attack on individuality. and then being merged into the sim. idk. the yaoi moments when he does work together w fark become even more #potent. this way? and. it contrasts really well with how selfless (at some point in his life very literally) fark is. and how confident in #his self. he turns out to be in the end. as micah said 'how he moves with so much more fluidity in his organic body #the body he created himself because he's no longer afraid of it being fake'. citing that as the bible but yea kinda. #i think spark grew up quite ostracized maybe even self-ostracized and really needs a distinction between himself and everyone else #to be better than everyone else. there is some personality disorder shit happening under that piss yellow scalp. #and he fucking loses it when the events around him hammer in that the facade he builds for mostly again himself is. yknow. untrue. fake. #idk thoughts. i love exploring the antisocial aspect in fictional personas with how shipshipship focused fandoms and 'analysis' #in them is it's not something i see all that much. seems like only people whove experienced it ever bring up that topic. #is it so uncomfortable for others? who knows. ramble over

[ismael5135]

i really do hope that the next generation of students will no longer have to sacrfice their health for their education

#i think this is one of the biggest changes i wanna see in the way our education system works #everyday i keep hearing my sister talk about how shes not sleeping well and not eating properly because she has a lot of deadlines to meet #i remember hearing stories from my classmates about how they constantly pulled all-nighters just to finish a project #i remeber seeing some of my friends miss their meals just so they could go to a group meeting for an assignment #and i know for a fact that it shouldnt be that way #literal CHILDREN shouldnt have to put their health on the line just so they can get good grades #i hate the mindset thats like 'oh if you care about your education so much then you must be willing to sacrifice for it' #because it teaches students to dehumanize themselves in oder to be seen as 'good students' #our health is far more important than our education - we need to be healthy in oder to function properly and do the things we need to do #before we prioritize our education we need to prioritze our own health that way we dont breakdown and crumble when things get stressful #ive had my fair share of all-nighters and skipping meals and i can tell you with certainty that nobody else should have to go through that

[dolls-self-ships]

hey guys, I've been having a hard time lately and it's really hitting me hard today, would any of y'all mind maybe dropping a comforting message in my inbox? Could be from an f/o or just you I don't mind either way, I just need to feel like I'm not alone right now ;-;

#my ocd has been flaring up so so bad lately and my medication isnt working as well as it used to #and i had to leave work like... 5 times this month abd I just feel so ashamed and guilty #and then when I got home for some reason my sister wasnt home even though she usually is bc its unlike her to go out unprompted #ohhhh wait as in typing this Im just remembering she had to go to the mall today #thats why shws not hime #anyway in my panic attack haze I thought bc my managers texts werent getting through to me even tho she said she had texted me just so i #could let her know I got home safe #shes super sweet- they werent getting through to me so like I started freaking out 'wait what if im dead and it happened on the walk home' #bc before I kept saying 'I wish I was dead' when really that just means 'I want to be ok and normal and not whatever this is' #so I thought I had manifested it somehow and thats why my managers texts werent getting through and why my sister wasbt home #idk why Im explaining all this in here I just need to vent I think ;-; #but im like.. gonna try to do some laundry maybe that'll take my mind off things #oh I called her by calling the store and everything was good so #and like.. my logic brain knows that Im not dead and that my sister is just getting her ipad fixed and Im able to contact the outside world #just fine but my anxiety brain is telling me that im just fabricating this all in my head and im actually dead irl #which is so dumb and out of nowhere ik but I think the whole 'careful what you wish for' thing is so ingrained into my head #and that isnt even what my ocd is about its an entirley different topic that I am just too scared to even talk about #reading this back and realizing all the typos I made is filling me with so much embarassment Im sorry for your eyes my hands are shaky

[ironmanstan]

free. in my zone. living my life. zooming

#nothing to do thats major at all until january. god bless baby. #then school start ._. #i have been more stressed about finishing work than i have been about going on plane again #amazing #had meeting. went well i did everything sooo right #‘oh lets get rohan to speak on this topic actually hes the design lead’ #and i DID speak on it and i DID relay information effectively i am winning social situation ^__^ #i can only handle talking to people in professional setting bc there are rules and guidelines #i simply follow them better than everyone else #WHY WAS I THE ONLY ONE WHO SHOWED UP YESTERDAYYY you are all insane #so free now. all of my coworkers are insane but they all i think enjoy working with me #a slay. a win. hehehe . i am useful i love it here #i sure did tho be like omg i finished all my work now ill be free. to work on my portfolio again <2 #stupid. insane behavior the workaholic grindset is getting worse #i dont care tho i have crossed soooo many things off my planner im winning life and being so sane babey #imagine i used a peace sign at the end of that sentence i cant find the emojis on this new keyboard its killing me #the gamer speaks uwu

[uniformbravo]

if the nanowrimo word goal was 30,737 i simply would have won

#30k is pretty fuckin wild for me tho #that's 3/5 of the way there!!! thats more than half!!! #i did not get 3/5 of the way thru the story but we dont gotta talk abt that #retag later #nnwm blogging #so what did we learn. well for one: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #plan story more. no; More. MORE #''i hate this scene i dont wanna write this whats the POINT *5 min later* oh that wasn't so bad'' #+10 ''making characters up on the spot'' skill #LORE GUIDE CRUCIAL #i can dedicate a LOT of time to fancy formatting and making tables and other related tedious tasks (but we been knew) #3 act story structure hurts my brain #i owe abbie emmons on youtube my life #aaaaaand that's about it!!! #hoping to continue working on the story but now that it's december i gotta pedal to the metal on my secret santa gift #i have been working on it all this month but now it's officially bumping up to my top priority #and then i also have other december related tasks to take care of #and also i NEED to get back to reading carry on im melting and deflating and passing away #so we'll see!!!

[orcelito]

Tfw i avoided dealing with applicants for like 2 weeks so I had to play catch up today. Stayed like 2 hours late reviewing all 20 ish applications we got in this time, contacted 12, and I have a confirmed 4 interviews for this week with a prospective 2 more

Look at me being all manager-y lmao

#speculation nation #most of them r on tuesday bc thats my set long manager shift n lmao #confirmed 1:30. 3. and 4 on that day. prospective 2 and 2:30 (waiting to hear confirmation) #with One on wednesday! bc the person isnt available until then #lmfao i really am playing catch up big time but THAT is okay. We Good #god tho i really understand that one class that addressed resumes now. how they were like Keep It Short #bc recruiters dont have time to read big massive resumes lmao. & god thats so real #zipped down to education to know what i was dealing with. Then looked at prior work experience. Then availability. #education relevant Primarily so i can know when/if theyve graduated high school #bc not graduating isnt an automatic deletion. but it's good to know Especially for if someone's a minor or not #we already have a lot of high schoolers rn lol so im kinda leaning more towards Not in high school for this stuff #aside from that it's mostly assessing capability based on what little evidence there is. + how long they would be likely to stay #there really is so much going into reviewing all this lmao. & oh god i really am the obnoxious kind of employer kind of #like not Really. im giving everyone a chance should they fit within the criteria we require for hiring. #but a few ppl messaged us asking up on their applications n those ppl get mental points in their favor for caring about our position #caring enough to ask after it at least lol #ultimately im reserving judgement for interviews. but tbh theres a few ppl im on the fence about contacting #that r in the vague status of 'will pursue if they contact us first'. which is SO obnoxious of me actually but like #there r way too many ppl i have to consider for this. if im not sure how well a person will fit here then them putting that extra effort #is a great way of convincing me that theyre worth my time #that kind of thing of like. if They show they care then i'll end up caring more too #theres actually a high schooler i Probably wouldnt have considered but bc she messaged very actively im interviewing her too #reserving judgement. still have my doubts. but bc she put in that effort im gonna give her a chance. #ah. thus is the life of a fucking recruiter i guess lmao. god i hate it

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd #but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well #just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well #which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out #which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore #its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi #see the other thing is #if i talk about my mental health at all #people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint #or feel sorry for me which i also dont want #all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all #like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff #i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly #im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares #i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to #and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one #they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored #im losing my mind steadily #and thats not even onto the physical problems #but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying #‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket #if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your #fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces #sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues #but then i talk to other women and it is #it just doesnt make sense and i hate it #but i never rly got help on private insurance either so #tbd #depression cw

[be-good-to-bugs]

maybe i WILL get to move back home

#the bin #i talked to my mom and things might go ok but idk #i just have to wait and see but i desperately hope i can move. i need to see a doctor so bad. my whole body feels horrible all the time #and my tooth has gotten so much worse. i can deal with it if thres an end date. i cant deal with it indefinitely. and i cant afford to get #it fixed without insurance. i would rather die than deal with this shit for another however long i have to i CAN NOT do that #esp bc i would need to go to work while experiencing it. idk. im shaky literally ALL the time and my insides alwyas hurt and my joints #hurt so much too. and half the time im at work my chest hurts and i cant see straight. i cant fuckin do this anymorew. #apparently my dad might be getting a new job so their landlord might be more willing to renew but idk. she said she should know on april 1st #which isnt that far away but idk. i mean. its not impossible theyll renew. who knows. i hope so. #i know at keast thst i have a way to get there if there is a place for me to live so thats good. my health cant take this anymore. and im #also not able to emotionally. idk what other option i have but. god. its hard enough as is. im having like a perpetual panic attack since i #found out i probs wont get to move. im tryna be optimistic. i dont think im physically capable of staying here any longer #it was hard enough to stay herenthis extra yearm ive been having breakdowns repeatedly over it. and my physical health keeps worsening #i miss my little sister. i wanna be able to see the people i care about. theres so few people in the world i enjoy being around and i dont #get to see them ever. instead i have to see my second least favorite person in the world in order to even just get groceries #hhhh. i want the time to pass so i can know for sure but i also desperately dont wnat it to cause im so scared itll be bad news #whatever. i will hope and believe that itll work out until i know that it wont. hhhhh. worst case scenario i guess ill just have to save up #and figure out moving there later on but like. i was really happy to NOT have to worry abt rent or working so i could focus on my health and #then i could go back that that stuff. oh well