#oh oh I’m so fuckin sorry

[patron-saint-of-lesbeans]

Very interesting (concerning) that while there’s a general consensus of “of course there’s queer Muslims and Jews and Christians we love them!” But that love is conditional. You can be religious but not too religious. You can be spiritual as long as it’s not actually that important to you. You can be observant of your religion’s dogma and traditions as long as you keep it away from everybody else.

But I don’t want to cut myself into smaller pieces. I don’t want to take a part of my life and culture and being and hide it away behind closed doors. It’s just…hypocritical and disappointing when people, who clamor about their love for the contradictory and self-authentic, hate when they’re confronted with it.

#tower of babble #catholic #lgbt #side b #sorry I saw a very good post pointing out the way queer Jews are often cited with the caveat that they’re not observant Jews #and how there are queer observant Jews but I didn’t want to derail so I made my own post #because fuckin hell how often do you see white queers telling queer Muslim women to stop wearing their hibjabi (unless it’s for ~cultural~ #purposes). it’s disgusting and demeaning to assume queer people don’t have deeply meaningful spiritual lives. #side b Christians 🤝 observant queer Jews 🤝 devout queer Muslims #me. happily trans and gay: I’m so happy and blessed to have this body and life - #homo/transphobes: you’re going to hell you’re evil you’re stupid you’re faking it #me: huh. oh. um. well I’m still blessed because I know you are not speaking with Christ in your heart- #a surprising number of self proclaimed radicals: uhhhh please don’t acknowledge that you’re Christian it makes us. uncomfortable. #me: …being uncomfortable and confused about others is the pride of Pride? the queer community thrives on contradiction and self definition? #anyways. prof put my pronouns down as he/she/they on the syllabus and I am popping the biggest gender affirming bottles tonight #(praying a chaplet and eating rice like the grad student peasant I am)

[samglyph]

It’s very very funny to me that I started Red Valley, heard the mc had a wife and immediately thought “ah gee a wife in a horror podcast. I hope she isn’t fridged or something” and THEN

#red valley liveblog #oh? my god?? #warren buddy I’m so fuckin sorry

[zappedbyzabka]

So we’re all slamming boys against things now

#queue #The fuckin hand slide lmao me too #He was like ‘oh👀’ #He’s so cute #Discovering new things isnt he <3 #He was so pissed about it. Don’t be so pushable #The way he cursed I’m sorry this is hot #chad mcqueen #Johnny please throw this little bulldog around then use his cock until he’s sobbing and not being a brat #Smack him around a little and trap him against a wall with. #your back against his chest and ride him like that until his knees shake and he’s whimpering #I’m talking about until he’s coming dry and his come is spilling out of Johnny. Until he sees the light and will bark on command #Big puppy dog eyes. Babyboy.

[why-the-heck-not]

hate hate hate the feeling of turning in a part of an assignment and being hella embarrased abt how it is :3 like, feeling someone’s just gonna email me like ”hey?? what the fuck ??? what are u doing here this is garbage” like yeah dude i dont know what to tell you, things did not go well this week

#doing one that’s like a bigger thing but has weekly deadlines #and this week hasn’t been good for that so it’s like very fucking pathetic of how little I got done #and it’s all basically shit anyways like i know it doesn’t work and won’t work with the way I’m going about it #also I’m only submitting the previous version bc i don’t even fuckin know what’s going on with this current one #like the code’s all bad and all over the place and I have no clue where i’m trying to go with it #so it’s like i basically didn’t get shit done this week #only made myself more confused #i need to take a step back and like really fuckin think what I’m going to do with this bc it’ll just get worse if I just keep trying to go #with this shitty thing i have on my hands rn #and also im like over an hour late already bc gotta write a weekly report and idk what the fuck to say like #’’oops sorry dude it’s shit rn i have no clue what’s going on but also dont have anything i could ask help with bc im too confused so it’s #just uhh this thing now; a mess <3’’ #the way i’ve been handling this course like ?? uh oh will i ever have the audacity to step a foot to my campus ever again lol #yes im now writing this to procrastinate writing that weekly report thing #ughhh yes im hella positive rn all is shit #(also there was parliamentary election today and it didn’t end well so that might be why everything feels 5x more shitty rn) #april 2023 #2023

[m1d-45]

Venti Brainrot eh? I can work with that.

I've read a few fics that say Archons can change their form at will... (minor spoilers for Venti's backstory)

Venti realizing who you are because the wind seems to sing whenever you're around. It's constantly guiding him to you and actively pushes him away from the fake on the throne. He's not stupid, he sees the way the land flourishes wherever you go. The plants and wind seem to cradle you while rejecting the faker outright.

Knowing he can't approach you in his human form (he's seen how you shy away from any and all human contact), he shifts into his wind sprite form to greet you. He's more than happy to show you the love and affection you deserve as the First Guiding Wind. And so what if he keeps quiet about how much he adores the affection you give back? It's not like you mind, ehe!

-sibling anon, who also loves the windy boi

ah, a fellow citizen of brainrot city

anyway the idea of archons changing their forms is so cool actually (and maps to canon bc venti changed into this form so) and i think i’d enjoy small dragon!li as like a weighted blanket pls and thank

but back to the prompt: yes. so much yes.

he’s already tuned into nature quite well, so he can hears how the harmonies turn discordant around the throne room. likewise, he notes that the wind sings of heaven, of liyue, sumeru, of wherever you are, pleading with him to stop the hunt. to pull you away to a castle of gold, filled with whatever you need while keeping you safe from those who dared call you the sinner.

i honestly think a lot of my problems could be solved by simply having Wisp Venti at my side, sagau or not, isekai or not, imposter au or not. like he’s so……..

he comes up to you with a curious trill, wondering if you’ll be receptive to this form- he spends his time floating beside you like one of the companion seelies, and is so much more open to displays of affection than bird!xiao i’m- he openly runs into your hand when he wants pets, he cuddles blatantly into you when it’s time for bed, he leads you towards trees with the freshest apples (or sunsettias, if you’re allergic or don’t like them) and fully expects a pat on the head as a reward. he communicates entirely through sqeaks and chirps—he sounds a lot like the mini seelies actually, at least in my mind, but it has a speech-like pattern to it—and softly hums a little when he’s asleep, like a little white noise machine for you <3

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #sibling anon #BROTHER THAT POSTS BEEN UP FOR LIKE 30 SECONDS?????????? ARE YOU OKAY #not that i mind at all but bRO? #also signing off with the fuckin ‘ehe!’ my brother in christ- #i’m already on the floor head in hands down bad for this little guy and you hit me with the one two combo i’m- #all of this /pos btw #i need to write more venti i need to it’s no longer a want #but the only wips of him are angsty and i just want my boy to do a little lap around my body when he’s excited and end it by flying directly #into my arms with a high squeal an- UGH #FUCK #HES SO #squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him #speaking of he prolly just pops back after. it’s like a massage. eyes a wind spirit after all he can’t really break- #GOD all i want is for like zhongli to come up post hunt and go …? at venti #and why you don’t know?? it’s venti??? #OH or you go to mondstat and they’re like ‘where’s venti?????’ (more like ‘where the fuck is barbatos and what is he doing’ if you’re jean #or diluc or kaeya or anybody who knows really) but little do they know!! he’s right there baby!!!!!!! #writing essays in the tags again aren’t i- shit sorry— #but not really because. him <3. but also yeah sorry i’ll stop now—

[heroswine]

i just watched tango’s latest episode of double life and oh my god he’s gone completely off the rails hasn’t he

#i’ve never seen someone LESS hinged #he fuckin LOST IT #imagine fucking around with wardens during a DEATH GAME #holy shit the absolute madman #i was shitting bricks the whole time jfc #i’ve never felt such fear wATCHING A MINECRAFT VIDEO #oh my god #i was right to be excited for his revenge #i’m even MORE excited to see him pull the thing outta the river #‘why wouldn’t someone pull it out?’ he says without a hint of sarcasm in his voice #absolute evil genius over here #i REALLY need it to kill scar and grian okay. please #like i’m SORRY ok but it would be So So Funny #and i need to see team rancher avenged 🥺 #i love grian and scar but. 🥺🥺🥺 #dlsmp #double life smp #dlsmp spoilers #double life spoilers #tango tek #dlsmp tango

[floral-hex]

I’m fucking disabled

#I had this conversation with my therapist last week. I’ll give you the secret HIPAA breaking rundown #I HATE calling myself disabled #I don’t know why. there’s no shame in it. it’s just ya know it’s just what I am #but I still can’t get it into my head that yes I’m kinda fucking disabled #because here I am sitting on this creaky futon unable to understand anything anyone is saying to me bc my hearing is so bad #it’s a bad hearing day! it happens! some days are good! today is very much not so good! #so I told my therapist I’m way cool with telling people I have mental health issues #but when it comes to hearing it’s ‘oh no I’m not REALLY disabled. I just uhhhhh can’t uhhh fuckin hear sometimes 🤷🏻‍♂️ that’s normal right?’ #and he’s like no my sweet boy you are disabled you need to own that shit #okay… he didn’t say it like that but this is my flashback please let me have this #let me be a sweetie boy in my own mind #he said it’s usually the reverse: people don’t like to admit mental health issues but will mention physical disabilities #I just… I spent 30 something years with great hearing and then it all just got taken from me out of the blue and no one knows why #and I hate that. I’m so angry. I’m so fucking angry and scared and alone #and I hate admitting that yes I am disabled. like really disabled. it feels like defeat. #and it shouldn’t. like I said it’s just kinda what I am now. It’s like saying I breathe or I’m allergic to birds. it just is me. #sorry I’m just having a rough day #I got about an hour of sleep and now I’m holding down the fort while a home inspector and the new buyer look through the house #and I can’t talk to either of them. I can’t understand them talking to each other. it’s isolating. #I have therapy later and I’m hoping I’ll be able to communicate and hear during it. I really just need someone to talk to #I miss talking to people in person. I can still do that it just can take a bit of work and I hate subjecting people to putting up with me #I feel so needy. I just want some human connection. I want to know I can still make this work. #gosh this is whiny. sorry about that. just needed a quick vent to get me through the next few hours #anyway I love you. probably. maybe… ehhh #you can ignore this #text

[goblingirlgratitude]

30 day song challenge (here)

day 15: a song you like that’s a cover by another artist

#ONLY TEN SONGS ON A POST IS SO EVIL I HAVE SO MANY I WANNA DOOOOOOOOOOOOO #the first one is actually the only right answer i’m sorry donny absolutely ate on this one #oooooooh girl you don’t understand how important these are to meeeeeee #STURGILL SIMPSONS COVER OF IN BLOOM BY NIRVANA IS SO FUCKIN GOOD OH MY GODDDD #YEAH I SLIPPED AN OSCAR ISAAC COVER IN HERE #the maines cover of steal my sunshine or akon’s i wanna love you would have been acceptable too but this one is soooo good #maybe i will do a part 2 hmmmmm 🤔 #if anyone DARES put the m*rg*n w*ll*n cover of cover me up by jason isbell i will beat them to a pulp #30 day song challenge #music posting

[carcasstohounds]

sorry but i refuse to feel bad for people who are insecure about how pale they are

#louise.ndn #sorry i’m making a zine about my like. skin tone dysmorphia? and trying to find other people online who feel the same thing #and i keep finding white girls who are like ‘ohhh i’m so embarrassed about how pale i am :((((‘ #cry me a FUCKIN river sorry #anyway my skin tone dysmorphia thing is that i literally CANNOT tell how light or dark my skin is because i grew up around white girls #so among them i was the darkest one but i also really wanted to be perceived like a white girl so my brain just. stopped processing #my own skin color #so i truly thought i was white passing in middle school #i was hanging out with another native girl and i told her that and she was like ‘oh honey no’ #every time one of my friends references me being brown i have to go stare at myself in a mirror for a few minutes

[peapod20001]

Ough. Curse of changed oc name

My problem isn’t having to change the tags on their posts, it’s inconveniencing my friend that has oc tags for my ocs 😭

#random post #wah like...I’m soary #this is entirely about Felix aka Schadenfreude #I keep almost typing her oc tag as Felix..... all the time #I call her Felix more than Schadenfreude at this point even tho she STILL goes by that name in story #but like. my brain #I see her and I’m like. oh!! my love!! Felix my darling sweetest!! #smh kinda off topic but I literally. I LITERALLY went into making the murder gang just wholeheartedly ’they’re bad people and killers and #can’t be redeemed EVER’ and now like. lmao. I obviously failed there rip #like...except for Needy. I’ve been makin them so sweet and wholesome sometimes #hell. even Needy is pecking away at my restraint like NO at least ONE OF YOU NEEDS TO BE FUCKED OVER FOREVER AND BE IRREDEEMABLE #BUT. gagavahah!!!! the fuckin bitch is making me feel sorry for her and I’m slapping those thoughts away like nooooo shoo shoo #she fuckin DIES I CANT start liking her and I CANNOT get attached and she CANT make her actions understandable #*head in hands* noooo why did I fail so hard at making the big evils 😞 #don’t even get me started on old man father Blandamore don’t get me STARTED on him I can’t make him relatable ever NO #anyways thanks for comin to my ted talk I talked about. two very different things but whatever ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[soulren]

I am trying to make a studio* for making and publishing ttrpgs and I told a relative of mine the acronym for the name, and their first response was “it kinda sounds like LGBTQ”. I’d say that’s a success.

*group of cool people I can work with and commission

#fuckin nearly finished with my first publishable game besides art so trust me y’all will know soon #there’s just one mechanic giving me some trouble #it’s a dnd inspiration type thing but it’s too arbitrary right now so once I’ve got that right I should be good to bring on the artist #and then start talking about it and then publish it on the company site #oh yea also a few zine type ones that will be out a bit sooner #ttrpg design #ttrpg #sorry for cluttering the tag I’m just sorting things #ttrpgs

[teenagemutantninjatrauma]

hello! do you know of any other tmnt fics that are from regular peoples pov?

thank you and have a good day!

Not really? I’m sure there must be *some*

Fairly certain that this one time I saw a platonic Donnie x Reader on tumblr where you encounter a turtle while walking your dog at night and it’s Donnie while his leg is infected and so you help him out and then y’all kinda just keep hanging out

There *was* this one cool series, but as it turns out, the author ships the turtles together, so. Rip to that

And other than that I have legit not seen anything. Not anything that wouldn’t either be an xReader or an OC story, and while I like both to a certain level it’s not really the genre I’m looking for. So, y’know! Nothing left to do but write it ourselves! Because I don’t want a romance between a turtle and a character/me, and I don’t want like.. detailed knowledge of one person! The story I’m looking for is basically… New York as a collective consciousness, being more or less aware of the turtles and other odd things in its innards. The whispers between strangers!

My Revolution a radio does have like.. a few reappearing characters that I hope you’ll love but I’m trying not to make them *main* characters as much as they’re just plot devices, if that makes sense.

#OHO! AN ASK! #vent incoming in tags I’m a little sorry #You can’t imagine my fuckin disappointment #when I read this banger fic #and then opened the authors profile and they have like #OVER TWO HUNDRED FICS #and a metric shit ton is them shipping the turtles together and writing smut about it #like HUH??? #and apparently there were *awards* for this shit??? #‘best portrayal of donatello’ HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT #when I finally finish the server it’s gonna have a fuckin blacklist section so I can obliterate tc//esters on sight #oh yeah speaking of #if you’ve had the misfortune of interacting with a person like that in this fandom feel free to dm me their names so I can blacklist them #preemptively #there was a block list going around on tumblr but it’s not updated I don’t think

[figofswords]

I’m going fucking insane. do any of you watch to your eternity please there are like over 5k of you someone must watch it. todays episode I am losing my fucking mind someone talk to me about this

#AAAAAA #I KNEW THIS WAS COMING BUT.BUT RIGHT NOW??? NOW??? #the minute she slipped out of the rope I was like oh no what does that mean…wait. waIT HOLD ON NO WAY STOP WAIT OH MY GOD????? #BY HERSELF??? WHILE THE CITY IS UNDER ATTACK??? SHES SO SMALL I CANT DEAL WITH THIS #if she gets hurt. 🔪 🔪 🔪 #delete later #WAIT oh my god what if kahaku finds her first. I will break something #god I mean obviously it’s not gonna be fushi #I hope. I think best case scenario I hope it’s ekko bc she’s very sweet and I like her and I think they would be friends #PLUS she had a little brother so. #and like she doesn’t talk so she won’t be able to answer questions or anything but at least she’s safe #and not like. I don’t fuckin trust bon anymore sorry bon I think he has good intentions but also. dude #ok wait and then like. I don’t think kahaku would hurt her or anything but also HES HAYASE FUCKING DESCENDANT REINCARNATION OR WHATEVER #I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HAYASE ANYWHERE NEAR MARCH. NO NO BAD NO #god is this why?? in the first opening?? we see grown up march???? is that this??? PLEASE let her grow up #gugu is next I want to see him iW ANT TO SEE HIM #every time we get bon vision and see the ghosts I start chanting gugu gugu gugu gugu I LOVE that kid #anyway. I’m going insane. help

[tahdashi]

☆ミ 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐂𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐄

ATSUMU MIYA & @akirine

YOUR SONGS:

— superficial love by calica

— summer by the volunteers

#oh my god. rine. you’re so #SO #HOT ARE YOU KIDIDNFKFDKDK #I’M UNWELL #YOU AND TSUMIE POWER COUPLE #LITERALLY PRETTIEST PEOPLE EVER #YOUR HAIR AND EYES I’M IN LOVR #TSUMU IS SO LUCKY I BET HE NEVER STOPS COMPLIMENTING YOU #I ALSO THINK HE’D LOVE BEACH DATE #he’d love sunbathing w you >.< #ask you to rub sunscreen on his back just bc he likes when you touch him what a fuckin simp 😾 #ASKS* #there are prob so many typos sorry i’m losing my mind #⭐️ 2.4k matchups!

[boygirlctommy]

hrrheggrgh anyone else just hate the christian concept of the afterlife with a passion or is it just me

#my post #religion #cw religion #uhh sorry for religion posting tonight but I have been Thinkibg and none of this shit makes sense #like I am genuinely gonna be ranting about this shit in the tags so uhm. uh. ignore me. #once again ignore this post I’m only posting it bcus the conclusion I came to is so funny to me #but yeah like I think it’s a shit system. like oh you can only go to heaven id you believe in Jesus?? well that simply doesn’t seem fair #there are billions of people who certainly don’t deserve fuckin HELL like who set up this system #it’s really shit #surely jdog didn’t set this up. like doesn’t he love people. #if jesus died to absolve humanity of all our sins then why do we have to fulfill more requirements to get into heaven #rgh #I hate it here #it makes no sense!!! I’ve been sitting here trying to understand it but it makes no sense!!! #it doesn’t help that I have no one to talk to about this. my mom wouldn’t get it my dad is an ex Catholic our church is shit #like where am I supposed to go w this issue #the answer is to create my own offshoot of Christianity where everything is good and good and neutral people don’t suffer eternally #bcus once again that’s so shit and I hate it here wtf who wrote that #NOW HANG ON A SECIND!! why is there no hell in the Old Testament!! did Matthew fucking invent it!!!!! #I hate this the contradictions my god. I’ve come to the conclusion that hell is fake. this however kinda now goes against Jesus’s whole thin #about eternal life and all that. #hm no I’m okay where I am hell isn’t real jesus simply lied about that part. that’s okay tho I’ll forgive him

[floral-hex]

oooooooo I’m so tired of tinnitus oh my god

#constant noise! #and not the cool noise! #I got that baby driver hearing problem but x5000… maybe… I dunno they never went into detail on his hearing #but anyway mine is bad and annoying and forever and ever #you think I’d be used to it by now since I’ve had it for a year or… two? now. but nope #whatever #just complaining #not serious here. sorry. this isn’t a depressing post. just annoyance #although yeah it kindaaaaa uhhhhhh is fuckin depressing when I’m sitting alone and it’s just loud air in my head #very isolating… #hey I didn’t want to get depressing here #I’m gonna go get a snack or two #I need like a really loud partner that loves to talk all the time #oh my god that would be heaven #just talk about whatever forever. minecraft or crochet or anything #because no one will talk to me anymore and when they do they’re so quiet #I have to wait for my good days to talk to people #it sucks butts in a bad way #I’m gonna beat the crap of out of that fricken baby driver twink #I wish tinnitus was cool like he made it seem! #I tried listening to a ton of music and I just got a headache after a couple hours #granted it gives me headaches in general but blasting music definitely doesn’t help #I would say protect your hearing but mine is all fucked up from bacteria or something no one knows #doctors say just live with it 🤷🏻‍♂️ #this is too much information. I’m sorry! I’m rambling! this is what I mean when I say I miss talking #you can ignore this #text