#oh no i made myself sad

[celluloidbroomcloset]

I defy anyone to watch Ed's first kiss with Stede and then his descent into Kraken and say, "oh, yeah, he's always one step away from becoming that."

He is broken by losing the person who made him feel happy and wanted and like maybe a better life was possible for him, and then shattered by hate barely disguised as love. The only way he knows to defend himself is by putting all the pieces back together and sealing them up into Blackbeard. And then that doesn't work because in the center of it is his love for Stede, which he can't rip out, and his absolute belief that he was never worthy of being loved by Stede and that this one fine thing that he longed for could never be his.

It's tragic. It's why Stede saying "I love everything about you" helps Ed to put himself back together again. Stede sees all those pieces and he doesn't want to discard a single one because they all make up Ed.

#ofmd #our flag means death #edward teach #stede bonnet #izzy hands #gif #ofmd meta #gentlebeard #ofmd season 1 #ofmd season 2 #oh no i made myself sad #i shouldn't watch these scenes in random orders man #gonna go pick a fight

[panic-flavored]

inspired by @alchemocha's sad kidbotnik headcanons, blame him don't blame me aksjdsdd

Bonus:

#stobotnik #dr. robotnik #dr. eggman #agent stone #sonic the hedgehog #jimbotnik #sonic movies #oh no i made myself sad

[bennydwight]

GUYS HOLY SHIT (TGAMM SPOILERS)

Alright I’m screaming a little inside right now stick with me here

okay in the foreground here you can see a white pillar/railing type deal, and the cracks in the driveway (sorry Snook the best shot I could get of this was from your video here)

and as they pull out of the driveway you can see a white picket fence and a house with two stone pillars next door

here’s a shot of the McGee house exterior:

White railing!!! White picket fence!!!!! House with two stone pillars next door!!!!!!

Adia and her dad pulled out of this driveway with the moving van

Scratch is haunting the house of his childhood friend

#the ghost and molly mcgee #tgamm #tgamm season 2 #tgamm spoilers #WHEN I SAW THIS MY HEART STARTED POUNDING SO HARD #has anyone else noted this yet? #oh no i made myself sad #scratch #a soda to remember #theory #even the driveway cracks match up i cant

[i-likefrogs]

"Hes actually gone......."

Muriel just wants to cheer up their dad.

(I am a firm believer that, somewhere in the cupboards of AZ fell and co. Is a winged mug, but instead of white, it's black. He just never had a chance to give it to crowley....)

#good omens #good omens 2 #Crowley #muriel #ineffable divorce #griffin draws #oh no i made myself sad

[feralsunspotandtincan]

Luke: Okay, before we get married, I just have one question.

Din: Of course, anything.

Luke: Have you had a life changing experience on Tatooine, or any other desert planet for that matter?

Din: Uh, I'd say so. Why?

Luke: To be a part of this family, you have to have really strong feelings about sand.

Din: ...I feel like if I start that conversation I'm gonna regret it.

Luke: I mean, yeah, probably.

#headcanon that sometimes Obi-Wan mutters 'i hate sand' in a passable anakin impersonation to himself #oh no i made myself sad #din is now part of the 'i have been personally victimized by sand' club #kenobi spoilers #in like the slightest way possible but still #obiwan kenobi #dinluke #luke skywalker #din djarin

[your-greatest-queen]

So I just read this post and it got me thinking about how Mike may have His Realization and these are my quick thoughts on it-

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El is breaking up with Mike and it turns mutual and while they're having a very sweet, very platonic moment, Mike asks kinda offhandedly, "if you wanted to break up, why did you have Will make that painting for me?"

And El looks at him, a bit confused and goes "I didn't? I've never even seen his painting."

Mike looks puzzled and so she asks what the painting is and he shows her and kinda explains the talk he and Will had and El looks at him sympathetically and like he's an idiot as he mumbles about "why would he lie?" and "this doesn't make any sense."

And she's just like *stern look* "Mike."

And he goes "yeah?"

And she says "friends don't lie, he just wasn't talking about me."

And Mike's face goes blank as he processes what she means, but the realization moment washes over him very obviously and El pats his shoulder and says "go."

-

And so he immediately goes to find Will and Will is like "hey, what's up?" when he sees Mike looking like a lost puppy at him.

And Mike just kinda looks at him for a minute before finally saying "El doesn't need me."

And Will, being the absolute sweetheart he is, tries to immediately comfort him but Mike is like, "no, Will. El doesn't need me. And she didn't ask you to make that painting."

And then Will goes quiet because oh god, oh no.

And Mike says "it was from you. You were talking about you. It was all you."

And Will just breaks and says through the tears "it's always been you."

And Mike steps toward him and smiles that dorky little smile and says "it's always been us."

#byler #oh no i made myself sad #but in a good way #stranger things #milkvan #eleven hopper #mike wheeler #will byers #mike i know what you are #mike wheeler is a boy kisser #bi mike wheeler #gay mike wheeler #gay will byers

[topmemisslister]

Long Live/Taylor Swift

#boston bruins #brad marchand #patrice bergeron #nhl bruins #bruins #bergy #marchy #oh no i made myself sad

[phantomdecibel]

Polites in Open Arms: we’ll survive what we get in to (:

Polites in Survive: first one to die

wddgsfdadasgsgdafsgdsgdafsdgdhdgaf that’s what we call ✨foreshadowing✨

#oh no I made myself SAD #just some thoughts aha #epic the musical #I’m listening to Open Arms and now it’s so much more ominous knowing what happens next ;-;

[jedimemery]

Guys what if at some point in TBB they meet Ahsoka and she sees how Omega is so young and living on the run and she has a conversation with Echo about her and says something like “no child should have to fight for their life at such a young age” with sadness in her voice because she knows what it’s like to be a kid in the midst of constant danger and war???

#star wars #the bad batch #tbb #clone force 99 #tbb omega #ahsoka tano #oh no i made myself sad #help me #I’m drowning in my own feels why do I do this

[webbyghost]

doug would play animal crossing

you cant change my mind

Oh my god I bet he'd love filling the museum!

You visit his island and he's got an actual little town set up with paths and signs, and his house is in the middle of the neighborhood with all the other houses nearby, he has a room in his house for the scientific furniture

He gets really happy when the villagers tell him they're happy to see him

#oh no i made myself sad #anon ask

[peerlessscowl]

————  𝚑𝚘𝚠   𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜   𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛   𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛   𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚢   𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 ?

𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒   𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 :     bold .     𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒   𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 :     italic .

ANGER  .   jaw clenching , hands balling into fists ,teeth grinding , yelling,going non - verbal , stuttering speech , rushed speech , slow and concise speech , rambling , quiet, arms crossing ,shaking head , tearing up , animated, expressionless , projects,internalizes , vents , withdraws , tighter movements , passive aggressive ,direct , physical outbursts , verbal outbursts .

JOY  .   easy smiles , fighting back grins , suppressed laughter , loud laughter , giggles , chuckling ,smirks, whole body laughs , covers mouth when laughing or giggling ,throws head back when laughing , slaps leg , touches people around them when laughing , looks down when laughing ,looks for eye contact when laughing , sparkling eyes , bubbly happiness , quiet subtle happiness , obnoxious happiness , wants to spread joy , quietly savors joy .

SADNESS  .   crying , bottling it up , seeks distractions , wallows, meditates and processes, avoidance , seeks out comfort , withdraws, swallowing thickly , talks it out , internalizes it , sad smiles , depression naps , uses alcohol , uses drugs , seeks out sources of joy ,fidgets with sentimental item , sits in silence , broods, gets moody , wants someone to share the misery , tries to hide negative emotions , nurtures others to make themselves feel better .

EMBARRASSMENT   AND   SHAME   .    blushing , looking away , rubbing at back of head , covering face , laughing nervously , laughs it off ,overthinks,lets it go , self deprecating humor , deflects , gets irritated , smiles , withdraws , crossing arms over stomach , crossing arms over chest , hands in pockets , shoulders sinking , shrugs , falling into silence until comfortable again , talking a lot to compensate .

GUILT .    avoiding eye contact , shoulders sinking low , head hanging down , crying , chest aches , lashes out , internalizes , apologizes , deflects,communicates, withdraws, grand gestures for forgiveness , accepts fault easily , punishes themselves , martyrdom , victim complex , over - active guilt complex , healthy conscience ,internalizes even after forgiveness , seeks redemption , moves on easily, denial, lack of guilt or conscience , sorry they got caught more than caused harm , can’t handle knowing they hurt others .

FEAR   AND   ANXIETY   .   trembling , crying , sarcasm or sass to cope , rambles , goes silent , gets angry, fidgeting , impatience, clenching jaw , picking at nails , chewing at lip , pulling at clothes , adjusting jewelry or clothing , swallowing thickly , eyes widening , over - reacts , under - reacts , calm , logical , panic, irrational , overthinks, carefully analyzes , talks to themselves ,breathing exercises , flight , fight, withdraw , fawn .

#out of character #dash games #carrying emotions #oh no i made myself sad #raven i wish your joy category was more full :( #meanwhile guilt is looking mighty heavy sob

[havemybackanyday]

Still obsessed with the way Eddie shakes his head after Christopher asks, “What are all these tubes?” It’s saying So Many Things and every one of them breaks my heart:

I didn’t want Chris to see Buck like this. I didn’t want him to understand how bad it is and be scared.

I was hoping I could be clinical about this with my EMT friend here, but you’re forcing me to feel my feelings, buddy.

I’m upset that you’re here, because I love you so much and I’m not sure I have what it takes to be a good dad right now.

What kind of dad am I that I’m not strong enough to answer my kid’s questions when he needs me most?

Nope Nope Nope NOPE NOPE I know what all those tubes are, but I can’t even entertain the concept because I’m all the way at my emotional limit and then some.

Why does Chris have to go through this? Why is there pain I can’t protect him from?

How do we keep going if... Nope.

And he’s behind Christopher, out of sight, doing his damnedest to hide the cracks from him. But Hen sees it. She looks over at him and she sees it, and she’s a mom, and a partner, and she knows.

#oh no i made myself sad #911 fox #911 buddie

[thequeenofmyownscreen]

A terrible thought had occured to me.

It was the image of Imogen surviving those horrible first few days after Laudna's death, by casting over and over and over Calm Emotions on herself...

#oh no I made myself sad #critical role #cr spoilers #cr campaign 3 #CR3E35

[thatboxylady]

yknow one thing that's never really talked about is thrust's whole reaction to megatron nomming sparks like at a buffet- he's probably horrified for 2 reasons, one is that at any given point, that could be his spark, and if we know from how tankor had rhinox's memories, he probably knows from waspy's memories that megatron didn't really gave a damn about his own predacon troops so,, he's just worried he (and by extension strika and obsidian) could be next at any moment

OH my god. Sparkwar Part 3: The Siege. Holy shit.

I have. So many feelings about this scene.

For starters, this is my favorite scene in the series. It's so so so poignant that Thrust is the one who walks in on and witnesses Megatron's spark cannibalism for a fistful of reasons. He's the last of the Vehicon generals without his "own" spark at this point in the series, right? Strika and Obsidian aren't shell programs like he, Tankor, and Jetstorm were. Thrust is an outlier in the Spark War late S2 in terms of his origins and his relationship with his own borrowed spark [see: Waspinator]. Thrust's experiences are explicitly unique. He's a Transformer "pretender" without the one element that would make him a true Cybertronian, his own spark, and is therefore an outsider on the fringes of a dead society he could never be truly accepted in.

Waspinator calls Thrust a brooding loner once, and he was right. Thrust is a loner. He is alone. He has no friends (anymore), no future, and is objectively a slave when you take full consideration into how he has literally nowhere else to go. To abandon Megatron is to bring death on you. Where dying is concerned, every alternative is preferable...

SO, this very horrifying scene has so much more weight when viewed by Thrust. He has had Waspinator forcibly removed from him before. He knows exactly what it's like to be helpless and at the mercy of Megatron's influence, both through his own experiences as Thrust the shell program and Waspinator's sparkbound memories. Thrust has experienced Death Lite (c) having his spark extracted, and Waspinator remembers being a disembodied spark twice before with all the terror that comes with it. Thrust understands what those sparks Megatron consumes are going through as a result... right up to the point where Megatron slurps them up like a damn slushie. If sparks are meant to go to the Allspark when their time is up, what happens when they're more than just extinguished? What happens when they're just completely and utterly snuffed being absorbed into this monster that you've been following this whole time? Was that what he had planned for all of them?

For Tankor, a co-worker he regrets never getting to know?

For Jetstorm, a friend he regrets not keeping closer?

For him?

Look:

It's all in the eyes.

Thrust just had a terabyte sized epiphany within the span of about three seconds.

The Maximals are animals, but Thrust has realized, full stop, that Megatron is a goddamn monster. He's a beast machine with delusions of godhood about to be realized... and this is the moment that Thrust has come to grips that he's been locked the cage with him this whole time. It's one of the best show-don't-tell moments in the whole show and you FEEL how mortified Thrust is just by seeing it in his face.

Guess what else?

I also happen to hate this scene.

I hate this scene so very very very much, because this would have been the absolute best moment for Thrust to have a heel–face turn and defect to the Maximals... which doesn't happen. The BM writers gave Thrust an anti-hero status the second they labelled him as potentially being Silverbolt, right? When that storyline dropped off in favor of the whole left-field Waspinator gag, they didn't resolve it further than that... so, the avenue to make it come full circle right there and then was wide open. Thrust was, for all intents and purposes, still designated an anti-hero character with no resolution. He and Blackarachnia (and Jetstorm + Silverbolt by extension) never had their own personal story interconnected with one another resolved, either.

Thrust could have seen this moment of Megatron's true nature as a monster and used it to finally stand up against him.

To show Megatron that he's not just some slave worthy of being not just a drone, not just mindless, worthy of his own free will given to him.

To show the Maximals that he's not just a slightly better version of Waspinator.

To show Blackarachnia he's more than just the spark he carries, and that his choices to save her were all his.

To show Silverbolt... something. Anything that might make the other mech give him a sign that Jetstorm really is gone, that he wasn't betrayed, so that he might be able to move on.

Megatron's moment of absolute disregard for life, snuffing out light, could have been Thrust's moment to shine and find his own.

And Thrust wasn't allowed to take it.

And I'm sad about that.

But it's comforting to know that Thrust did recognize what was happening. Maybe in another timeline he uses that knowledge to do the heel-face turn he deserved and be part of the solution that finally brought Megatron down. The irony in that would have been so beautiful.

Megatron being destroyed by Optimus was Megatron simply getting his just deserts, but Megatron being destroyed with the assistance of Thrust would have been part of a desperately needed justice.

(I know a big bit that the writers talked about was BM being purposely all planned out and having everyone's stories wrap up nicely, but Thrust was done damn dirty. Jetstorm too, by extension. I will fight everyone on this to the death.)

I need to end this on a funny note though so lemme just say it's good that Jetstorm was dead because he would have looked at Thrust and whispered "I don't kinkshame biker boy but for vore I'm making a strong exception" in a terrified little voice, and Thrust would have reflexively punched him in the face as a kneejerk horror response.

#beast machines #OH NO I MADE MYSELF SAD #long post about my feelings about this scene oops #this is a good ask I like analyzing stuff udhaakdhask

[queercoded-disney-villain]

What if Flapjack met every Golden Guard. What if he befriended each of them and watched them die, helpless to break the cycle.

#OH NO I MADE MYSELF SAD #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house #the owl house spoilers

[fraughtwithsorrow]

I do not begrudge you your choice. I could not. But that does not mean that your absence from what used to be 'our' life, not merely 'mine' -- does not splinter into my heart like an icicle shard, now you are beyond my reach forever.

Every eventide, Eärendil sails into skies fading into inky velvet blue, and my gaze is always captured, even now. You followed that star, our own father's fair vessel, westwards, away from these middle lands. Away from me, until the end of time.

No, I do not begrudge you that choice, brother mine. My heartbreak is merely a raindrop in comparison to the deluge of sorrow that would have swept our world if you had not chosen as you did. When you heeded Eonwë's call, you became the hope of Men. What is my greatest loss has become a healing balm for Middle-earth. Like our father, you were also a bearer of light.

I do believe, dearest twin, that you have made our parents proud, just as I am, still, even as I search for peace from the knowledge that we are now further apart than we ever were when it was merely the Belegaer that lay between us. Now the saltwater gathers in great storms in my own eyes, a blurring barrier I wish, quietly, secretly, in my most solitary moments, that I could cross.

I know I cannot. I also made my choice.

Nay, I will never go beyond the Circles of the World, Elros. This is naught but a star-drowned lament. But you are bound as well, in a way -- your memory lives and breathes in me, like a suppurating wound, like the gentle kiss of summer's first dawn. Like the tender touch of the missing part of one's spirit. As long as you are within the waking dream of my memories, you will forever be within Arda. Within me.

We are halves; half of each other. Half-elven, they called us, and I chose thusly. The valiant blood of Men still thrums in my veins, all the same. Perhaps that is why memory, while a bright haven, also feels limned with thorns.

I cannot run from your memory, brother, not even if I wished to. You are there whenever I see our face in any mirror.

#Elrond #Elrond Half-elven #Lord of the Rings #LotR #Rings of Power #ropedit #* my blends #* my edit #* my prose #I have too many twinless twin feels so I shoved them all onto Elrond #oh no I made myself sad