#now im just oversharing anyway...

[cerubean]

finally starting a new gameplay save to explore growing together, this is max and india

apartment build by florwalsims (pls go check out their builds if you haven’t already! they’re so realistically detailed and fit perfectly in del sol valley)

#more pics to come i wanted to take more but im just playing casually nothing too serious so im not sure if i want to give them a tag idk #but i spent like a week making their families i cant wait to have family reunions and stuff #also im really liking my reshade now but i've still gotta tweak it bc it's kind of too orange and too bloom-y if that makes sense #anyways srry im rambling but also im not sorry bc i kinda missed overexplaining and oversharing my every thought in the tags!!! #sims 4 gameplay #s4mm #the sims #simblr #garners

[monstrsball]

kennedy ex-boyfriend facts:

was against seat belt laws

was also against speed limits

once sped up on a residential street with me and my 10 year old cousin in the car bc i thought he was going too fast. he thought this was funny

antifeminism <- yes i continued dating him for a year after learning this. I Know. i was eighteen and had low self esteem 😔

elon musk fan boy

we broke up after he got upset with me because i said i thought thomas jefferson was a bad person bc he owned slaves [obviously this argument was the straw that broke the camel's back]

#like guys i cannot stress enough that he was very upset that i didn't like thomas jefferson #HE HUNG UP ON ME DURING THE ARGUMENT #anyway yeah it's like 11am it's oversharing on the internet hours #this isn't even everything but there are uh. some things i just don't think i should share on tumblr fndnssn #we had so many stupid arguments that clearly showed that our values Did Not align #and yet. #ANYWAY NOW IM DATING SOMEONE WHO IS MUCH BETTER!!!!!

[cowardstiel]

guys the most fucked up shit happened to me

#i might elaborate in the morning but rn it’s 2am and i’m home after a verrrryyyyy weird night and i just need to put it into the world yanno #wven tho im piss ass drunk i have more sense than to overshare now #but prolly will anyway LAMO #nothing that bad just weird bad yanno #anyway goodnight #my post

[thekidsarentalright]

sometimes i think abt how i dont make like personal posts very often until i remember i babble incessantly in the tags of like every post i rb ever. dont need personal posts when im rambling my thoughts on everyone elses posts constantly fr fkdknfdk

#i also just made a commitment to oversharing on here less earlier this year and then just. stopped sharing at all mostly NFKDNDK #tho to be fair i have very minimal to post abt that isnt fob anyways. i spend my days watching gilmore girls and listening to fob #and thinking about fob and also thinking abt my future school plans. boring things to post methinks FJDKFN #point is. i wanna make boring posts more now but also read my tags if u read them im kissing u #txt

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

HOLD ON WAIT UP HOLD THE PHONE

I KNOW I WAS GONE FOR A FEW MONTHS THERE BUT HAS BLUE LIKE DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME ALWAYS BEEN A PART OF A SERIES OR IS THAT A NEW DEVELOPMENT???

I FEEL LIKE ITS CHRISTMAS ALL OVER AGAIN FUCK Y E A H

Okay so

I...

have been cooking

by which I mean illusions of grandeur and

schemes

And I have not been forthcoming lol Everyone kind of disappeared all at the same time so I kind of stopped talking about what I'm doing but I have been biding my time, quietly putting mechanisms into motion and plotting and occasionally cackling over my cauldron.

I finished the first draft of Blue like don't forget about me and didn't like it so I cut out all the sci-fi fantasy stuff (bye bye aliens farewell superpowers) and in November wrote a new first draft that's all contemporary romance babeee and I'm so in love with it I'm turning it into a little 3-part (possibly 4 if I can't control myself) series.

The original childhood years have been split off into a prequel novella called Red like my bleeding heart in your hand. Then Blue like don't forget about me will take place 20 years later. Nash works at Cherished Hope Nursing Home

“And what is it you do? At the nursing home, I mean.” I wipe shit off of old people. And Teddy’s a hockey player. What’s Luke, an underwear model? He shouldn’t have come.

Teddy comes back to town for a funeral and

Teddy looks at him for the first time in twenty years and every ounce of warmth leaves his expression. Message received. He should not have come.

OKAY SO AND THEN the next book will be Jo's POV and is called Violet like these delights. and MAYBE there will be a 4th from Luke's POV bc he gets to live this time by the grace of god (me) but it'll depend on how Violet goes (its current state is mostly vibes and a single overarching theme so, stand by).

Red needs a clean-up round of edits to snip out the few little threads that connected it to OG blue. And rewritten blue is basically done. I've done the major revisions and am about to start line edits and after those are done I'm sending it out to beta readers (lmk if you're interested).

There are concise actual summaries in my pinned post btw lol

WHICH REMINDS ME

The series title is Wildflowers of Deliverance. Which I'm extremely proud of. Did you notice did you notice how each title incorporates a wildflower did you did you? and the town they grew up in where Nash and Teddy first met is called Deliverance!!! It's okay I know I'm a genius.

And this brings us to the meal okay? because like I said I've been Cooking™ quietly but steadily for a few months now. ANd what have I been cooking? PLOTS and PLANS

I've decided on a pen name: Sarah B. Elisa

I've created a(nother) side blog for it that will be exclusively centered on my og writing and geared more toward readers rather than writers like this blog is: @sarahbe-writing

I'm going to create a website (as soon as I convince myself to spend money)

and a newsletter (as soon as I convince myself to spend money and do work)

I'm still waffling between trad publishing and DIY. I really like all my hats and it would be a shame to have to share them but oh my god I don't want to do all the marketing but trad pub seems hit or miss on how well they market you so I might get half of my hats taken away and still have to do the marketing bullshit UGH

anyway

OH YEAH and the OG draft I wrote for Blue? I'm going to spin it back to its OG OG roots [parkner, naturally--Return of The childhood friends to estranged almost lovers to super-powered rivals to reluctant allies to friends to lovers finally wip!!! AKA: We Were Gods (we were kids)] and that will fix all the things that went wrong and I didn't like 😌 so it's basically like double Christmas I think

#i have been #a tad reluctant to use the tag list #since because I scrapped the whole plot and genre and started over #feels like a teensie bit of a betrayal? #so idk i think i need to make a post (way fucking shorter than this one) and tag everyone and see who still wants to be tagged in stuff? #or maybe im close enough to the finish line i shouldn't do tag list stuff anymore? I'm kind of wary of oversharing bc #i totally did before #and the word count is smaller now #and there aren't like Plot Twists #it's a romance we all know how this is gonna end #so idk that's mostly why i've been quiet like haha what should i say and to who? #But anyway this weekend I'm going to get my shit together and put up some posts and get the ball rolling again #share some excerpts #get people excited #put out a call for beta and sensitivity readers #you know. work lol #also i missed you and i'm glad you're back <3333 #my notes were sooooo quiet lol #and i don't just mean on my writing stuff i love seeing all of your tags in my activity like Yay that's my friend!! And they're yellin!!! #we love to see it <3 #anyway #:)

[lopsidedtreetrunks]

In light of series 5 finally airing, I thought I'd finally share something I've been meaning to since uhhh *checks watch* about a year ago

It's my Ghosts OC! Warning for very rough pen sketches lol

I named her Mhairi (pronounced varry) after my late auntie. I'll put her story under the cut.

I made her because I wanted a character who has the culture and roots of my homeplace, and I've always loved the kingdom of Northumbria; how we had our own identity and language seperate from rest of the UK before the Romans invaded. I was struck with inspiration last night to revive her and do a couple of doodles because of that one promo image of Robin sitting under a tree looking sad 😭.

Mhairi is a Northumbrian Celt who was captured by the Romans after they invaded her village during the time they came up north to build Hadrian's Wall (so around the 110s-20s AD). They took her down south, but she managed to escape. While trying to fend for herself in the woods, she ate some poison berries and died. She stayed with her body for about a week before finally deciding to venture further into her environment. There she bumped into Robin, who didn't have a great grasp on English yet, since there wasn't any permanent settlement on the land yet. He taught her about being a ghost while she taught him northumbrian English. They both had to learn old, middle, and modern English from new villages and eventually the occupants of Button House together. They're good friends and talk philosophy when they get a chance. NOT romantic though!!! Just wanna make that clear lol. I also like to think she'd be nicer than the other ghosts to Humphrey (which I think is a common throughline between literally everyone's oc's in this fandom bdbdj).

#idk who will really care but eh #i think i got conscious of posting bc i saw someone else with a celtic oc and got worried about people thinking i was copying #despite thinking of a whole backstory and everything bsjsjjs its just anxiety idk #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts oc #bbc ghosts robin #also her tartan would be my family's tartan but hell if i can be arsed to do that when im just doodling bdkjs #but my gran was scottish and my grandad played the bagpipes and had a kilt etc so i know what it looks like #he used to go out and play the bagpipes on the street at new years lol i wonder how many people were annoyed by that bdjjskd #he cant play anymore tho bc hes getting on and doesnt have the lungs for it anymore 😢 #anyway im oversharing arent i rip #ill go now hope u enjoyed my art and reading my shit ty 👋 #my art #artists on tumblr

[depresseddepot]

trying to determine which parts of my relationship with sex are asexuality, which are trauma, and which are autism is like trying to have a conversation with three people talking loudly and all at once

#just to be clear: asexuality as a result of trauma or neurodivergency is still asexuality. full stop no debate. #anyway because i love oversharing on tumblr dot com: feeling very sex repulsed on this day #i was joking with some guy about fighting each other (specifically said ''you ever fight a girl over 200 lbs? id break your ribs'') #and like three different people said something like ''well that would probably turn him on'' #and. listen. i get it. that was a joke response to my joke threat #but what i felt in that moment and still feel now requires nothing short of academic study to understand #first of all: how dare they make me feel embarrassed in a social setting when i was doing so well. #secondly: why the fuck would me making a threat make them instantly think of sex #thirdly: how fucked up is my body image that i hear that and immediately think they're all out of their minds #i like fat women. i am personally attracted to fat women. not (usually) sexually but i do think they are very nice to look at #so why is it so hard for me to accept that someone else could find me attractive as well ! #i think about being in a situation where a relationship and/or sex is a real possibility and i flinch like its going to hurt me #but why???? where is this aversion coming from !!!!! i am a hopeless romantic i daydream about romance all the time #so whats the deal here. is it subconscious bc of my asexuality and i associate romance with sex? #is it because of my autism where i associate romance with touch and am afraid i am too unempathetic to have a chance? #or (most likely) is it just because im so fucking scared of trusting someone that even the thought makes me nauseous #did this all crop up from a throwaway sex joke? yes #but people don't make sex jokes to me. people don't even pretend to allude to me being cute #this same group of people said a few weeks ago ''at least you're pretty'' #which. is not the case!!!!!!! people do not say those things to me because they don't want to even slightly entertain that idea !!!!!!! #and i am extremely tired of having my life upended because of this #i have always been treated like i was ugly and teased about it and i FINALLY have managed to be okay with not being attractive #and now that im okay with it: NOW is when the pretty jokes start. im fucking angry about it actually #i can't be both. i cannot think of myself in terms that abstract. i am one or the other #and this leads me to believe that people think i COULD be pretty. but the catalyst is that i am fat and therefore cannot be attractive #which just makes me more angry!!!!!!!!!!! #how can i be completely indifferent to sex and attraction without seeming juvenile. i don't care so so much #but every time that sort of thing happens i feel like im 13 again and the hot jock is talking to me #i need to be put down. something's wrong with this one (me) #i realize i can't stop people from making sex or appearance jokes but god i wish i fucking could

[trainingdummyrabbit]

they should invent a shower you can lie down in

#they should invent a bathtub that stays warm and clean forever and ever just for me bc iam asking so so nicelies. #piktalk #anyway sorry if i miss any social cues or anything in th next couple of days um. horribly short circuiting <33 you understand. #um um um. i keep wanting to try and explain but unfortunately. cant; sorry <3 #um. imagine theres like 5 monkeys at th wheel rn and they r all ruthlessly correcting each other and they are All incorrect. that should do #what im saying is that i cant tell if im me right now and i cant tell if it shows but i need to apologize anyway. #saying at the risk of oversharing or smthn. um. o/ anyway.

[dreamcast-official]

huh.

#eli.txt #idk i think ive been slowly forgiving my sister for how deeply hurt i felt when she moved out bc now I Get It. like I Get It #when she moved out i was. 9. and in my head i thought she had left because of me. because i wasnt the easiest kid in the world and i know- #-she had a hard time dealing with me when we were alone. we're so far apart in age we couldnt connect for most of my life. and in my head #that was the reason she left home. bc of me. bc she was tired of *me.* #i know now thats not true. and i understand now why she had to leave because if she felt the way im feeling then goddamn im glad she got ou #this feeling SUCKS. nd like #yeah this probably has to do with my father's daughter and the fact that she refused to even meet me until our dad died. #it took my dad dying for my sister to even be in the same room as me. that really messed with me as a kid. like it REALLY did. #so when my sister left home i just kinda went. oh okay neither of my sisters want anything to do with me! i will be alone forever! got it! #AND I KNOW NOW THATS NOT TRUE ON EITHER OF THEIR ENDS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP W MY DADS DAUGHTER AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL #BUT I DONT HOLD ANYTHING AGAINST HER ANYMORE BC GOD HER MOTHER WAS AWFUL AND I GET WHY SHE DIDNT WANT TO MEET ME BC OF EVERYTHING #BUT LIKE. THAT MESSED ME UP AND I JUST STRAIGHT UP ASSUMED BOTH MY SISTERS HATED ME FOR SO LONG. #AND NOW THAT I ALSO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LEAVE I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY. MY SISTER NEVER HATED ME I WAS NEVER THE REASON SHE LEFT. #I CAN LET GO OF HOW HURT I FELT BECAUSE I ALSO NEED TO LEAVE #god i dont wanna hurt my mom though. #dont think i could leave her completely alone in this apartment. i dont think i can do that. #anyway. hi tumblr did you like todays oversharing episode

[flower-ghosts]

The videos they play at the dentist are so weird. Who are these appealing to

#im waiting to get my last baby tooth out #ive had more baby teeth pulled than naturally fall out at the point #i reckon id still have majority baby teeth at this point if I hadnt had to have so many pulled #this one only needs to come out right now cause the adult one is growing underneath it #as in i can feel and see it #but the baby tooth isnt wobbly in the slightest #it just doesnt want to leave #anyway sorry for oversharing about my dental issues #even though ive done this plenty of times before im nervous

[pallases]

ourgejjg

#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

[red-dyed-sarumane]

i hate cars and driving and i hate that its set up to require a car to get literally fucking anywhere unless u have an extra several hours to walk TO the nearest town that doesnt even have anything of interest in it

#i dont want to go out i want to just chill here on my day off #like i have one thing i NEED to do but i havent gotten the okay to do it yet so im like. great. thanks. #with any luck i get a response monday morning & i go hey boss i need to leave early & hell say okay. #bc this is. time sensitive #anyway maybe i'll clip rime to my bag & we can have a day out. #my friends got me a mafuyu plushie so shes on my bag now but its not the same shes not my friend like the isotopes are #my wrists are FUCKED i cant even draw this weekend. sad #theres no point to any of this im just oversharing

[dandyshucks]

once again trying to decide if i should show counselor/therapist my selfship art bc she asks to see any art I've made that i want to show her each session fjfkdl ,,,, i probably won't because I'm still terrified of being judged for it but mannnnn that rly has been almost all I've made these past two months ( ╥ω╥ )

#urgggfhhh idk if ppl will judge plus shes a counselor so she's not supposed to judge #but like. u know ? ppl still do fnfkld and i am hypervigilant to any changes in behaviour or body language #so if she acts even a little different in a way i interpret as negative after showing her... #well i think I'd simply have to crawl under my bed and get stuck for a while. for the second time in three years. SBHDJDL #(i thought it'd be safe feeling under there a couple yrs ago bc i used to hide there frequently as a kid. i got stuck. u know how it is.) #(very silly behaviour on my part but I am also a person who has climbed on top of my fridge just to see if i could do it) #(sometimes i just want to see if i can fit into spaces DBJFDKL i also hid in my school locker several times in highschool 😭) #ANYWAYS. turning off oversharing mode dhfjdl #i am just. HMMMM. she wouldnt even necessarily know that my s/i is me. but ... i think it looks too much like me to deny dhfkdkl #OUGH. I'll go to sleep now and then i will have a couple hours in the morning to decide ! #i think i probably will not show her but ... maybe that'd be a fun brave choice for me to make in a safe(ish) environment 🤔 #SORRY FOR RAMBLING BTW. im weirdly talkative tonight and the one friend i talk to consistently has fallen asleep sbdhfkdl #dandy.cmd

[mokeonn]

Man, just when I think I might get motivated enough to start working on art and art projects, I get hit with a huge ass inconvenience. Like great, amazing, now all of my energy is going towards fixing this issue instead of drawing fun things. Just what I wanted, to feel too tired to do anything the next day because I already expended way too much energy. Yippee.

#simon says #things are not going well right now :( #anyways I just got told an appointment I made a couple weeks ago isn't gonna happen anymore #so now I have to scramble to make a new appointment somewhere else because I need medication asap since im running out #ive been on 1/3 of my dose this entire month just to make it last until that appointment and then that appointment got canceled #so basically im very distraught having to do all this work because it's absolutely going to push back when I get my medication even moreso #anyways I dont wanna overshare and all that but this has been genuinely bugging and distressing me all day #and I wanna vent about it as much as I can #because there's not much else I can do right now except vent about it

[oatbugs]

im actually becoming a littol bit annoyed by smn 😭

#we are on a camping trip and im having sm fun and i love her sm but mein gott #basically she talked abt her boyfriend a lottt like right from the start of the trip from the car #and i thought it was like. yay bonding time. shes telling us abt her loving healthy relationship #and then it kept going to the point where eveey convo literally every single convo is abt her bf and yow great he is #at first it was sweet but now its like i cannot open my mouth without her being like. yeah my bf us xyz like in legit not #exaggerating its every single convo. like it is becoming absurd atp im rly happy for her but...what abt like #hobbies and like...the convo were having #and ar first i was gen happy bc i gwt the feeling of being in a healthy relationship but some of the stuff she says is quite concerning too #like we were all talking abt our insecurities and stuff and it was quite a deep/intimate convo and one of my friends #shared how he feels bad bc hes underweight etc and she was like. since being w him i feel great abt my body #but rhis happens so often #w any other topic. i cant even bring up my own relationship without it becoming and her bf like . he does that but Better #like me being like i love cooking tgth w my gf and her being like. ive never even cooked bc he cooks for me all the time. etc etc #bro one time i shared an insecurity shared an insecurity i had abt my relationship and her immediate response was abt how they dont have #that issue bc hes so great. it gets concer ing too bc she says stuff abt . like. bc of him i dont sh bc of him im not depressed bc of him #bc of him i feel worthy etc etc...also oversharing stuff abt his ...like genetalia that im like idk if hed want us to know all this #anyway no one has said anything and im afraid im delusional..or like its acc sweet and im just not being nice etc #which yeah it is sweet but in the length of me typing this out she has made 5 (five) comments abt her bf it is non stop no other #topic of convo . i dont wanna rain on her joy either bc i get it but omg 😭 every #single conversation...