#now i just wanna hide and cry

[flowercrowngods]

writing who did this to you pt. 2 and i wanna cry about how much season 4 will take from eddie, like. god he’s. he’s just a boy.

#who did this to you #iykyk #i also wanna cry about wayne and how gentle he is #This was always a safe space. Always void of everything terrible. And now there’s a broken boy on his doorstep who’s not Eddie. #<- don’t think about eddie watching chrissy die in his own home in his own safe space in this town who hates him challenge #“But I don’t want a hospital.” Again with that tiny fucking voice. Like there are Monsters hiding under hospital beds. #<- clawing at my own skin actually like. i’m loving this outsider pov dancing a tango on this blurry lines of a reality he’s not part of #okay i won’t keep annoying you with things i just wrote but know im going insane over the subtlety of this POV

[4humankind]

Ok but what if Crowely has been calling Aziraphale an Angel all this time not because he is one but as a term of endearment. But hidden.

K, bye.

#not that he'd need to hide it seeing as oblivious they all are #someone probably thought of this already #but i just got there and now i wanna cry again #good omens #good omens 2 #go2 spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #crowely #aziraphale #aziracrow #azicrow #azirowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #neil gaiman #david tennant #michael sheen

[skunkg1rll]

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#ughhh someone pointed out the atrocity in my face. i hate thatfeature of me so bad #and now i cant stop thinking about it and i hate myself and my face and i got bad feelings #because throughout my entire life i've been so bullied for it #i feel so ugly ugh!!!!!! i am ugly i wanna cry who could ever love me when i look like this skksksks #the worst abt having a face deformity is that it is on your FACE!!!!! i cant hide it #it's out there for everyone to see #and i cant remove it. i can get plastic surgery etc but i cant afford that at all now. maybe when i have a job :((( #and it really is so big in my brain. i notice it constantly #i cant look at other ppl without checking their chins to see if it's smooth or not #and most ppl have normal chins. pretty much everyone has a normal chin!!!! #i wish i was normal too. i hate looking like this i hate it so bad #it is so unfair that i gotta be stuck w this ugly fkn feature but everyone else gets to look normal #so unfair so unfair it makes me so angry #why did i get the worst genes ever i cant stand having to live my life being this grotesquely ugly #anyway.... i try to suppress it nd not think abt it but earlier today someone made a comment abt it #nd now i just wnna cry because it is soooooooo ugly and i hate it #besides yeah it made me rmbr my school years bc ppl were sofkn mean to me abt it #like im sorry i know im ugly wtf do u want me to do?!?!

[toytulini]

mental health just straight up plummeting

#toy txt post #everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair #constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point #whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into #a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so #much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one #so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad #and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why #i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point #every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of #reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know #like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food #service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and #all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just #wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and #between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so #now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead #trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the #point #vent #ig #i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not #functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep #and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends #not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this #i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get #lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking #distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying #anyway. thats how im doing. bye

[sonknuxadow]

will always be wild to me how proship/anti anti/whatever types are always going "oh im just anti harassment :) i dont think people should be harassed over fictional characters thats all :)" but then the second they see someone say something they dont like they suddenly have no problem with harassing people over fictional characters

#and then theyll call the person theyre harassing chronically online. #like idk youre the one screaming and crying and shitting your pants because you saw a stranger say they dont like your favorite ship #or something #like youre not anti harassment. youre anti people criticizing you for anything and pro harassing anyone you dont like #sorry i dont wanna get into discourse right now but ive been seeing a lot of this kind of behavior recently #as in. proshippers and similar people sending hate to anyone who disagrees with them #and its getting on my nerves #like if youre sooo anti harassment and letting people ship what they want and ignoring posts you dont like #why cant you just keep scrolling. thats what you tell anyone who doesnt like you to do. #anyway i think the person who was sending me a bunch of anon hate a couple weeks ago is back but bothering somebody else now #reason i think its the same guy is because some of their posts were like. almost word for word repeats of the asks i got #making the same arguments getting mad over the same things using the same insults #and they were spending hours bothering the same person. which they did with me. #if this really is the same person. GET A LIFE !!! my god #at least this time theyre doing it publicly instead of hiding behind the anon button so people can block/report them. get fucked

[teruthecreator]

trying so hard to be normal but i really don’t think i could survive going to the psych ward and i’m rlly like. bothered my siblings are pushing it so hard

#in neg city #they were rlly like ‘we can’t force you’ but then just kept fucking talking about it #even as i’m crying and saying no no i don’t want to go i’m not going i really don’t want to #and like. idk. when ur sister gets sent to the psych ward at a pivotal point in ur childhood #and that subsequent action adds onto the trauma u were already experiencing at that point like idk man! maybe going to the psych ward would #in fact be very very bad!!! #like any time i think abt the psych ward i think abt my sister one day just disappearing from the house. i think about when the doctors #withheld my letters and i thought my sister either hated me or was fucking dead. i think about having to hide all this agony behind polite #smiles while i was also being bullied mercilessly at school and my CHOIR TEACHER WAS DYING OF CANCER #i think abt the car ride when my aunt told me and my brother that she had to go back in #i think of empty houses and missing places at the dinner table and arguments and so many fucking arguments #i cant go into the psych ward i won’t. and it just felt like that’s all they wanted me to do #and then it became well michelle how do u want us to help u? LEAVE ME ALONE #THATS HOW U HELP. YOU LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME FIGURE IT OUT #i get rlly overwhelmed and stressed when too many people are trying to butt their heads in #and i know they mean well but it just feels like they’re both gonna become mom and i’m not talking to mom for THIS EXACT REASON #idk i just don’t think they can help. i get that they’re rlly worried but i can’t let them help i don’t know what they could do #and they wanna talk about this again tomorrow so now i don’t wanna sleep bc i don’t want tomorrow to happen #but i don’t have anything to do bc i’m in such a terrible mood #i rlly wish i wasn’t alive sometimes #clearly i’m putting too much stress on my siblings and mom is probably worried sick but i’ll never kno bc we aren’t talking #i’m just ruining everyone’s life i rlly shouldn’t be on this planet anymore

[edettethegreat]

THEY PULLED A MADOKA TWIST. THEY PULLED A MADOKA TWIST AND I DIDNT EVEN SEE IT COMING

#Not saying which piece of media this is about bc it’s regarding the latest installment #But AAAASSJDHDJHSJKS THAT NEW CHAPTER #I’m losing my mind I’m gonna cry and scream #And no one has even heard of this manga so idk why I’m hiding the name to not spoil it #But still #i did not see this coming #In hindsight I should have but I didn’t #And that’s what makes it a great twist #I mean I wouldn’t be surprised if it turns out to be a double twist #Like the character who revealed it turns out to be lying #I wouldn’t even be mad about that bc it makes sense in story #But seriously though those last few panels #Getting emotional over a character who I actively did not like prior to now #Ok fine fine he’s not so bad I admit it You don’t have to make me cry over him #But unfortunately now I’m protective of him Let’s get you away from these people my guy. Let’s get you to safety. #The manga/anime is Munou na Nana btw if you wanna suffer with me #Anime’s pretty accurate to the manga but it just barely touches on the main plot #Like the stuff covered in the 13 existing episodes is just barely getting to the point where the story picks up #That final arc in the anime is right about where I’d say the manga really picks up with the story #The beginning bits aren’t bad they’re just introductory #Like they’re necessary for introducing the plot and giving overview on what sort of environment these characters are living in #But the actual story itself is insane #You really really need to read the manga after you watch what’s currently out

[because-its-eurovision]

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#no need to read or react just needed to rant about my brain a bit #the next two weeks are supposed to be super exciting with BC giving us a new look and song and music video #it's umk week and my favorite for once has historically great odds of winning and a good chance to do well at eurovision as well #I'm going to see umk live with my dear sister and stay at a hotel so it's like a mini-getout and then I'm going to stockholm and oslo gigs #this is supposed to be best times of the year so far but my brain decided we can't have any of that :) #last year at this same time I got hit hard with depression and the anxiety I've always had got even worse #it got to the point that nothing made me happy or feel anything at all and I just cried all day for weeks #everything about UMK night was blurry and sad because I wasn't talking to my bestie who I've watched eurovision with for 10 years #I just started crying during the Dark Side/ Bad Idea opening and the results felt like nothing #I'll always assiociate Bad Idea with my depression because it was playing on the radio in the nurse's office when I got my meds #anyway I can feel that same darkness crawling back to my brain right now and I'm very scared #my brain decides I don't deserve to be happy and screams about how unloveable and ridiculous and embarrassing and ugly I am #it isn't helping that Joel keeps reposting the most model-looking tiktokers because I always feel a hot gush of shame run through me #and everytime I see a pic of any of their blonde skinny young gfs I just wanna kms #now it's gotten to a point that the voice in my head yells at me that I don't deserve Bc or their music and I should cancel my gig trip #because they wouldn't wanna see a disgusting cow myself being so near the stage not to mention ask for a pic or autograph #and I should just hide in my apartment forever #and everyone who has ever been nice to me is either doing that out of pity or making fun of me behind my back #I can't take this anymore #delete later

[jslittlebirdie]

Just wanna crawl into bed with J, cuddle him forever and doze off. I'm such a clingy and needy limpet.

#I'm still feeling insecure to post this random and silly babbling #but it's my blog right? #I just want my husband #I'm turning into a grump or baby when I'm tired #and right now I'm a baby #grabby hands... #wanna curl up into a ball in his arms and feel him and hear his voice #he'd scare off my nightmares and I'd help him to rest #J my beloved #I miss you😭😭😭😭 #don't mind me #I'm gonna hide again now #brain mushy and empty #but it's crying for him #self shipping #Sue Napier #J and Sue

[milo-is-rambling]

Why do I feel guilty for being happy? Like I am happiest sitting in the trunk of the car at the lake alone reading and listening to music and watching movies and just being alone in the van and then I have to like force myself to get back in the drivers seat and go home to be alone at home like even if I did the same stuff in my bedroom it wouldn't make me happy the same way. I feel so bad for this change I feel like I'm avoiding my mom when I'm not it's just like memories of dad and friends I don't talk to anymore and like yeah it's just a lot easier to sit in the car and be happy so why do I feel so bad when I'm happy driving around

#i love my mom I love my bedroom I love my dog I love my house I love my yard and my neighbors but why did he have to die down the street #like dude #it's literally the closer I get to my house the worse this fucking black cloud is over my head #i just want to get away from it and the twenty minutes to drive to the lake seems to be just enough for me to get away from it all and just #live in the moment #and it's perfect. it's fucking perfect. but then I have to get up and go home cause I can't sit in the car forever #and I used to sit in the driveway at the old house parked for an hour after I got home #but now we've got real neighbors and no trees surrounding the yard we're so painfully visable to everyone I just want to sit outside but #also hide from the world at the same time and that's why I miss New England and trees surrounding my bedroom and climbing out my window to #smoke on a little wooden stool I made in eighth grade and I miss that old house so much and I can never go back and they cut all the trees #down anyways #the trees that watched me cry when I walked home from school and jump rope and laugh and smoke cigs with my best friend at the time and now #the trees are gone #it feels like a piece of me is still with that house in New Hampshire even though new people live there and maybe there's a part of my dad #there too that I'm not getting back #i can see him so clearly in my brain sitting at his desk in that house #i can see it clearer than I can see him anywhere in the new house he isn't with us he is in New Hampshire he isn't here it's so painfully #obvious that he isn't here anymore and it just hurts I don't wanna think about the house I just want to sit at the lake and cry in the trunk #like I'm doing rn cause fuck I made the tears happen thinking about New Hampshire and growing up and changing and death and my dad #it's just really hard to deal with sometimes and I had a great day today but I'm still ending it by crying

[giverofempathy]

horrible day really wanna kms

#i hate being mentally ill it literally ruins my life #bad day at work 2 more hours to.go :( #salisha speaks #my brain is also telling me now to stop w the internship bc of this one bad day #like i really want to #cause im so done with hardship and working thru hard emotions like why do i have to. why #just wanna run away and cry and hide from all my problems tbh

[nothingweirdhere]

i think that having a friend group made up of deeply unhappy people when you’re growing up can be traumatizing actually. like… i’m sure it can’t be good for a person to be in an environment where pretty much everyone you know & interact with is being abused and/or is actively suicidal

#reflecting on how fucked up being a kid/teenager is #adults like to act like childhood is all just. innocence & sunshine & rainbows #and like. bruh. if y’all knew the HALF of it #(i mean. they in a lot of cases they… they really should) #(like. you were there??? you know some of the shit i been through????) #but like. idk. i feel like i’ve never seen it acknowledged that like #being around people who are coming to school with fresh cuts and bruises and whatnot #or texting you like ‘i’m miserable and i hate myself and i wanna kms’ is like #it’s exhausting #like… teenagers are not meant to be suicide/abuse hotlines or therapists or whatever #it damages you i think #and ofc it sucks to grow up being abused and mentally ill #hiding your own cuts and dodging questions and just being like. steeped in all this misery #and fuck like it’s not as though my friends then were just crying to each other 24/7 #we had fun!!! lots of it!!! but there was just So Much going on beneath the surface. even if it wasn’t always apparent #but it had the like. undercurrent of All That Shit going on beneath the surface #and ofc it always could be. sometimes yknow #you’ve got all these unstable people together #and you can go from having a wonderful fun time to an actual nightmare in seconds #one person says the wrong thing to someone having a bad day and now the whole group is in a panic #either everyone’s fighting or everyone’s scrambling to do damage control #in hindsight. the fact that sometimes it was a struggle just to hold the group together/keep everyone on good terms? massive fuckin red flag #and like ofc i’m not trying to say that mentally ill people can’t be friends or some shit like that #but when everyone has unhealthy coping mechanisms and is prone to lashing out or ‘venting’ by just kinda. unloading all their baggage onto u #like. idk. it fucks you up a bit i think #sometimes it was like walking on eggshells feeling like one wrong word and your friend’s death would be on your hands and like… yeah not fun #suicide tw #self harm tw #abuse tw #jx.txt

[marv3l-drag0ns]

[flops on side] tryna be body neutral but honestly it’s hard

#:( m rlly achey from weight lifting cuz I took a break since dad was sick #so that’s kind of makin it worse #But I’m tired man #don’t like my chest or stomach Andy skins crawlin cuz I feel like I have to worry bout ticks now even tho it’s prolly just paranoia #and I WANNA get a binder but parents were worried bout health stuff when I last mentioned it and they wanted to talk with doctor bout it #Even though literally everywhere says that binders are fine as long as you aren’t stupid with them #and I think all the miss and ma’am is getting to me #had TKD helping out tonight and the kids all call me ma’am for respect but what am I gonna do #say ‘’please don’t call me ma’am cuz it makes me wanna hide in a box’’ #no I got to help out and shit #and I wanna bring it up at school but idk where to start #just. tired. Bout to cry. feeling generally brrgjmple ig #thank god tomorrows friday #except I have to write 300 word ‘letter’ for a project I couldn’t care less about #dragon’s dilemmas #<- vent tag

[fairy-angel222]

𝐆𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𐙚˙⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩

He’s so cocky at first, smirking when you bottom down on his length. “Think you can handle it baby? Take your time if you need to kay? I know it might be too much f’ you.” He chuckles.

You raise a brow in amusement. “Oh i can handle it baby, can you?” Was what you’d first said. And that question hadn’t changed since.

His lips parted in breathy groans and heavy breathing as his hands find your waist. Lips red and swollen from biting them as his eyes looked up at you almost pleadingly. “F-fuck baby.. you’re— shit, going so f-fast. Wanna slow d-down hmm?”

You smile widely, back arching as you lean down to kiss his jaw softly. Giving a false hum in thought. “Mmm.. you can take it.” He lets out the most cry like moan, head falling back into his pillow as his hips jerk upwards. Body trembling lightly when his eyes met yours.

“Shit— please baby. You d-don’t know how fucking- haah.. how fucking tight she’s grippin’ me right now.” He was referring to the way your snug walls stroked up and down his length with every harsh bounce of your hips. “I’m gonna— o-oh fuck, gonna cum again.”

You couldn’t help but giggle at the crack in his voice. Your head tilted to the side as you coo teasingly. “Yeah? Gonna be a good boy n cum f’ me baby?”

He chuckles shakily, chest rising and falling at a rapid pace as his cock twitches inside you. “God i fucking love you— ahh, even when you’re milking my cock like you hate m-me.” His senses were heightened, ears picking up the every squelch on your sopping pussy and his cock feeling every ridge of your gummy walls.

He lost it when you began rolling your hips sensually. Your thighs sticking to his at the mere amount of slick that joined you two. Your wetness and his cum seeping between your folds and down his girth, turning your skilled movements sloppy as you rut your hips.

You brought a hand to his face, using your nail to brush his hair off of his sweaty forehead. “C’ mon.. let it all out.” You smiled sweetly, eyes holding a dark glint when his eyes turn teary. Small beads of water pooling at his lids before he’s crying out your name.

Overly sensitive cock aching as he spills yet another load into you. Pumping the thick white substance till you’re pumped full. The rest of the substance spurting back onto him at the lack of space.

You let out a moan, “Wow baby- there’s so much. Might.. might just be your biggest load yet.” You were getting tired, but you’d never let him know that. You swear you hear him whimper when you capture his lips with yours slowly beginning to rock your hips again.

“Shit— don’t think- d-don’t think i can give you any more baby. Feels like my cock’s gonna f-fall off.” He panted, trying to keep himself together when he felt you jerking him off with your smug walls again. A small tremble raking through his body each time your ass landed back down.

His hand left your waist to cover his reddening face. Unable to hide the cherry shade of his ears and neck as he whimpered yet again. Choking out a string of moans with tears staining his cheeks when you shush him gently, “‘S only one more baby, give me one more.”

You were the only one with the ability to truly break Satoru if you tried.

#jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo smut #gojo x reader #gojo x reader smut #gojo satoru #gojo satoru smut #gojo satoru x reader #gojou satoru x reader #jjk x reader smut

[tilions]

overwhelmed and very stressed out *this* close to just breaking down crying on my livingroom floor

#exam weeks r coming up #which is a warning for itself #but now there's like so much other stuff that is also *urgent* piling up on top of it #I just wanna hide away and start crying somewhere #been trying to distract myself a little bit with fandom but fkauhdjshd NOT WORKING #rambling