Not enough people talk about being fat with anorexia, or any ed in general. I haven't been below 150 lbs since I was like twelve, and I've been on tumblr hating my body for at LEAST that long. My ugw is 120 and I see these (beautiful and worthy!) people on here at like 116 and their ugw is like 90. All power to them, and EVERYONE'S ED IS VALID but it makes me feel so invalid and even more unworthy, because, it just feels like, it's so in reach for them. And for me, it's like, it's been a pipe dream to be thin for as long as I can remember. And I know it's like that for a lot of you guys, too. I love you so much and you are so valid in your eating disorder whether your starting weight is 100 lbs or 350 lbs.
my grandma is living with us now, and i feel like i have a policeman besides me watching me and controlling if i ate or not . Now i have to eat breakfast so she doesn’t tell what i’m doing. It’s frustrating.
I gained :( I’m sure it’s because I went super hard at the gym over the last two days (burned 400 yesterday and 900 on Thursday) and I’m probably retaining water.
But I was soooo happy to be in the mid 170s for the first time in months and now I’m back in the highish 170s and I don’t wanna be.
The worst part is I knew this was coming (it happens every time, and it often discourages me) so I thought I was prepared for it. But it still sucks
Ok so funny story I didn't track my calories today but I had a small binge today. I know that it was under 1500 so I didn't gain any weight or even eat above my maintenance, but I still feel shitty about it because I ate a lot in one sitting :(