#not trigger tagging for abuse for now bc I feel like the people who need this warning will have the tag blocked
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“no one can know I can tell what people will manifest as!!” why not? ability detecting is basically torture. u could save sooo many elves so much wasted time. and just how do u think the neverseen will use this against u?? it’s literally useless to them. but it is useful to the elves. like SUPER useful. people can spend their whole lives training w their abilities before they even manifest. like omg keefe cmon
edit (I put this in a reblog but don’t feel like reexplaining it so I’m putting it here)
I get what ur saying about Keefe not wanting the council to exploit him and that having all those ppl go to him but I really think that’s the only good reason which is still a very good one bc it’s about what HE wants (but also think of terik who did it for a bit then stopped but occasionally does it for some people) tbh the only good reasons are Keefe just not wanting to and that’s fair. but honestly I’m talking about the use of the ability and how in the grand scheme and when Keefe is in a better mental place that it can be SOOOOOO useful and like when he’s past all this and is happy and healthy then I would say he should tell ppl about it even if he doesn’t open up to “readings”
with a ability training thing that was one of my main points (tho I did put it in the tags and those go away when u reblog 😒) but ability training is literally TORTURE. like they put these like 11 year old kids in burning hot rooms for hours hoping to trigger a froster… like that’s soooo unethical idk what the councils reasoning for that is. it’s literal child abuse and I’m not even kidding. its brushed off but omg wtf. and imagine going through all that only to discover you were talentless and all that was for nothing. like that would suck
and for the talentless. keefe not wanting to tell ppl they are talentless is a very valid and good reason, but aside from that I think his talent would be more helpful. bc it would give talentless ppl more time to grow up and adjust to the predugist (hate bc I can’t spell 😭) against the talentless. bc even though they would have to deal w it from birth, isn’t that better than living a normal life w friends then BAM one day ur talentless and all of ur friends stop hanging out w u. like ur WHOLE world would be flipped and it’s better to give the talentless more time to adjust to it imo.
also the schooling thing u meantioned is another reason knowing ur talentless form the start would be helpful. BECAUSE THE TALENTLESS ARE PULLED OUT IF FOXFIRE WHICH IS SOOOOO MESSED UPP. like they go to foxfire for like 3 years then the council is like “haha no ability? sucks for u lol! go off to a different school where u know no one and make different friends yk just forget ur whole life up to now haha” like WTF. (honestly the bigger problem here is how the talentless are treated but we already know that has to change so this is about how keefe can help).
also it could give “bad match” couples where one of them is talentless (like Kesler and juline) comfort to know their kid isn’t talentless. And if their kid is talentless then it saves them years from worrying over it and the suspense of it all. Also I just think knowing ur ability from childhood and being able to train for it before u even manifested would be soooo helpful
but in the end of the day yeah, keefe just not wanting to is the biggest thing. and I might be remembering incorrectly bc I haven’t read the book in forever but I remember something about keefe thinking he accidentally triggered the triplets abilities which would be more problematic but idk if I’m remembering it wrong. but I do think like years after kotlc ends (or when ever he feels ready) keefe should defo start using his ability for good. like it doesn’t have to be everybody. it can just be kids of q talentless parent(s) to help their parents out yk bc if two telepaths have a kid then it’s obvi going to be a telepath u don’t need keefe to tell u that
also the main point of the pre-editted post was about how he doesn’t want the NEVERSEEN to know bc he thinks they might be able to use it against his friends. like how. literally how? what use is it going to do them.
#bro it’s ur not special 🙄🙄#but seriously think of how much it could help people#I mean yeah they could tell who would be talentless then but that means the talentless won’t have to go through ability detecting for nothi#like and they wouldn’t have to go to foxfire only to be kicked out and wil have more time to adjust to the fact they don’t have an ability#it could also save a lot of “bad match” couples years of stress over if their kids will develop#keefe sencen#kotlc fandom#kotlc
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❤️🔥 give us ur most unpopular opinion on hotd/asoiaf ships
well idk how unpopular this is and hopefully i can explain myself as concise as possible but i feel like the culture of shipping has genuinely eradicated so much critical thinking and analysis of how hotd and specific characters are talked about.
now i’m not saying that any individual ship is bad or shipping in general is (bc obviously that would make me a hypocrite). even if there’s ones i personally dont care for, i genuinely don’t care about their existence or people enjoying them.
my problem stems from how much personal identity is attributed to ships. this isnt necessarily unique to asoiaf/hotd but still extremely pervasive. what this looks like is people who get so invested in a ship that the mere existence of another feels like a personal insult. and instead of just accepting that other people have different tastes and preferences, their uncomfortable feelings puts them on the defense.
sometimes you cant even post about the thing you like without getting radioed and being insulted on a personal level bc your enjoyment of a ship directly contrasts with the way they enjoy a different ship. one person talks about the dynamic between alicent and criston and within minutes you can expect accusations of homophobia and being pro incel. one person says they’re interested in seeing what kind of character sara snow is, you’ll quickly see them accused of being an anti black racist. if you post about rhaenicent, you can soon expect accusations of shipping rhaenyra with her abuser. see what i mean?
i think people need to just unclench for a second
that all being said, i think the whole “i need it to cope” when talking about extremely taboo topics within shipping needs to be fucking eradicated. i’m all for advocating for people to curate their online experiences— if i don’t like a thing, i will do what i must to make sure i dont see the thing. however i think the promoters of things like p*dophilia in ships to a very extreme degree who like to default to a position of “well its all fictional its not serious!!” and even going so far as to mock people who dont like seeing pedo porn for being prudes make you look like an absolute asshole.
and to be very clear, i’m not saying that any specific theme or topic of dynamic is illegal and you cannot explore them. but shipping an adult with a child and writing explicit porn about it makes 🫵🏽 you the bearer of responsibility to make sure the people you dont want to see your content dont— that means utilizing tagging systems and more than just “dead dove” in bio cus that’s not a catch all term. and the whole “to cope” thing absolutely holds no weight when you’re going out of your way to trigger other people who may also be victims of the thing ur posting about. with HOTD especially, what i’ve seen a lot of is not even just a lack of grace or carelessness in a fandom space but a deliberate act of trying to be as extreme as possible to be edgy and to pwn the antis~
it’s really not other people’s responsibility to accept taboo ships/themes— that isn’t to say that you cannot engage with that thing, no one will stop you— but you also cant be shocked when people are uncomfortable if not wholly disgusted with explicit depictions of a character as played by a minor with an adult. like that’s just going to happen especially when you’re posting it on a public platform for everyone to see and it’s all just for your personal kinks
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Murder Made Us Do It
Part Twelve: A History On Cults
When a killer targeting couples manages to avoid both the Justice League and the Devil Fugitives, the two “enemies” decide to work together to bring him down. How do you catch a killer targeting couples? You bait him with couples. It couldn’t go wrong, right?
TW WARNINGS: Mentions of child abuse, death, human experimentation, kidnapping, electroshock therapy, phycological abuse, phycological horror, gunshot wounds, autopsies, bullet removal, shrapnel removal, animal abuse, organs outside of the body, starvation, forced iv, blood.
Probably over tagged but I figured better safe than sorry. Anyways idk how much I like this but its good enough! I hope those of you ok with reading it like it!
SUMMARIZED VERSION WITHOUT ALL THE TRIGGERS
ALSO, if you like it pls comment or reblog with your thoughts bc i would love to hear them :D
“I really hate to have to be the one to say it… But ever since we cut contact, Matchmaker hasn’t shown up, we’ve all been feeling like we’re being watched, and we keep hearing about these people with smiley face masks. Something is going on and the only people who knew all the details are Bruce, Dick, Jason, Tim, Jacob and ourselves. The onl-” Alistair looked ready to cry.
“And the only one who wouldn’t face direct problems from it would be Jacob.” Ry finished for him.
“But he took us in, helped us learn how to function in society, got us therapy and countless other things. Why would he do something like this?” It didn’t make sense, why would he put so much effort into helping the three of you while helping the other side.
“The biggest question is who’s he helpi-” A hand clamped over your mouth and held you down, within seconds Ali and Ry were pinned as well. A familiar weight was clamped over your neck and the pain that came with it was just as bad as you remembered.
“No! Please! I promise I’ll be good!” You begged the man in the white coat. “I promise! I’ll sit still and I won’t hurt anyone I’m not supposed to! Just please don’t put the collar on! It hurts so much!” He hadn’t listened and the power restraining collar had been forced on despite your begging.
You were pulled from your memories when you were lifted up after being securely cuffed. Jacob stood up front, talking with one of the old scientists you thought had been killed. He glanced over and smirked. His eyes didn’t hold the warmth you were used to. It was like he was someone else entirely.
“Get them in the van. Make sure no one notices.”
Why couldn’t nice things last.
Tim looked down at his phone when it pinged. Alistair. A soft smile grew on his face and the rest of the family grinned to themselves. It was cute and good blackmail material.
“What’d your boyfriend say?”
“It’s just a location. Their hou-” He was cut off by the sound of Jason’s phone. Ry judging by the look on his face. He stepped away to answer before coming back and putting it on speaker. It sounded like Trash. The chatter was clearly a racoon and he sounded upset.
“The SOS.” Dick looked sick.
“What.” Bruce stood up.
“Y/n told me that they have a three part SOS and that the order they would come in would be Alistair, Ry, and then her. But her part was just a bunch of numbers and a book-” He typed through his phone before showing them a screenshot with a series of numbers.
“That's a safe code.”
“We need to go now!”
The entire group moved fast, getting into costume before getting into vehicles and speeding away. Within record time they were entering the house. Everything looked normal until two disturbed animals came running in. Trash waved them in while Appa started moving further into the house.
They were led to a bookshelf that Trash scaled until he reached one book and tugged, looking back at the group. Damian stepped forward.
“A history of Cults?” He reached out and grabbed the book to pull it out but it only went so far before it stopped and they heard a click. Appa yowled from her spot on the ground, front paws up on the bookshelf and almost mimicking pushing it. Steph moved to help the cat and the bookshelf moved easily revealing a safe. The safe’s door was ripped off and it was empty.
“They go-” Appa yowled, interrupting Bruce and turning their eyes down to where Trash was acting something out.
“Behind it!” Jason moved and started inspecting the safe, Tim joining him. “Here. Pull!” The safe was moved and under it was another safe. “The code!” Dick put in the code and the door opened. He pulled out three files and a notebook. On the front of the books, in all caps, READ IN A SECURE LOCATION! Back to the Batcave, this time, they called the rest of the league to join them.
“Why are we here?”
“The three from Devil’s Fugitives. Ghost, Cryptic, and Hacker have been kidnapped. We don’t know why or by who but they left us everything to get into their safe where we pulled these.” Bruce set the files and the notebook on the table. “We’re going to go over them and see if we can get any information off of them.”
“Ok, why is Dick holding a cat and a raccoon clinging to Jason?”
“They’re the girl’s pets.”
The first file was scanned in and within seconds the first page was pulled up.
Subject 404
It was Alistair’s judging by his ability listed. The reality of how bad it was, slowly started sinking in. They all saw the signs of past trauma, wasted as the three refused to explain things they had asked about, how how they all had weird habits that seemed off. But they never would have realized the full extent.
They hadn’t even gotten past the first page with the training plan. Just the training plan. But it was horrific. The detailed daily schedule consisted of electroshock therapy, whatever the hell fear training was, 6 hours of training daily, then an additional 4 hours of mental training as well as a whole slew of other things they didn’t want to figure out.
The second page was worse. It was the scientist's notes. While it was all important and all extremely twisted, a few things stood out to them.
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Today pain training went well, the subject barely flinched when he was shot. Tomorrow we’ll try multiple shots.
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The subject is starting to settle down. He’s not trying to make friends anymore and he’s going quietly when the guards go get him.
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The subject is showing signs of fear towards rats. Tomorrow he’ll go through fear training and will be locked in a cage with them until he’s no longer afraid.
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Today we introduced the subject to another to compare compatibility.
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The subject seems to be working well with Subject 532.
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The Subject and Subject 532 will be introduced to the third.
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Subjects 404, 532, and 673 have been introduced and started training together. Its only a matter of time before our goals are completed.
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The subjects seem to be getting too friendly. He was put down.
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During Subject 404’s autopsy, 31 bullets, 45 shrapnel, and 392 foreign items were removed. They’re currently in the process of fixing the broken bones, once that’s complete we’ll move onto the enhanced Lazurus pit injections we created.
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The injection was just inserted into the subject's heart. Now it’s a waiting game
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The subject’s heart has started beating on its own.
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One of the side effects seems to be a change in blood color, It's now a dark turquoise.
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The first training session since the revival has revealed an increase of physical abilities.
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The subjects are still too close. When a guard tried to separate them, he was killed without hesitation. They’re getting stronger, we’re getting closer.
The only sound in the cave was Tim’s sobs. It was horrific. No one wanted to move onto the other files but they had too. They needed a clue as to where they would be.
The Next file was labeled Subject 532. It was Ry’s. The first page was basically the same, all the normal information a doctors office would have and then another horrible schedule plan. The Rest of the file was notes, and they braced themselves for the worst.
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Subject 532 is doing well with the fear training. It only takes an hour for her to get over most fears.
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The subject is still overly friendly with others but that could work as a cover so we’re letting it slide for now.
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We’ve found a good punishment for the subject since meals weren’t enough leverage. Give her punishments to the animals she trains with and she’ll break.
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The subject was introduced to a potential teammate. Subject 404. We’re not sure how it will go yet.
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The two subjects seem to be working well together. We’ll adjust their training to match
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A Third subject will be introduced. It’s earlier than planned but we’re progressing well.
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The first training with the third is going well. They’ve seemed to click well. Training will be adjusted again
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The subject has gotten too close with the others. We were afraid of this. Subject 532 has been terminated.
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Subject 532’s autopsy went well. All foreign objects were removed and bones and organs were patched up. Her organs will be placed in the body and the Enhanced Lazarus Pit serum will be injected tomorrow
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The Subject's heart has started beating. It’s estimated she’ll be back up in less than a week
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There's been a change in blood color as well as a few other vitals.
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The first training session went well. The subject is showing signs of advanced physical abilities and increased aggression. More testing will be needed to find the limit
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The subjects are still too close. When separation is mentioned around them they go ballistic. Its only a matter of time before they’re too strong for any chains mankind can create
Jason looked sick, between crying and screaming. No one could blame him. The things they read in the last hour were horrible. No one should have to go through anything like that. They continued on.
Subject #673
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Starvation training is going good. It’s been 6 days since her last meal and she hasn’t broken yet.
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The subject seems to be avoiding others, that's good for now
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The subject refused to drink anything again today. We’ll have to use an IV
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The subject is doing well with most of her training. She’s being prepared for her introduction with the other two subjects.
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The subject wasn’t working well with the other two until a little into the session. They’ll be good together
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Training has been adjusted to better match the three of them. However the subjects appear to be getting too close.
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As feared, the subjects became too close to each other. Subject 673 was killed.
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The subject was autopsied and put back together with the Enhanced Lazarus Pit liquid injected into her heart at the end.
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Her vitals are returning to normal and she should be ready to go soon. Her blood has started to change color.
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The first training session has revealed an increase in physical ability. This will do wonders for our goal.
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The subject has started showing signs of increased hostility, right now sh-
It abruptly cut off and blood could be seen at the bottom of the paper. There was nothing to help there. Just a list and descriptions of the horrors the three went through. That left their only hope in the notebook.
The three boys had seen enough, they had spent the last 7 months getting closer to them only to have them ripped from them and then shown the horrors the three had grown up with. But they needed to find them. They needed to save them. And they needed information for that
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Why I will never RB your Art if you say “Don’t Tag as X” (And why I will probably block you for it)
Okay so I’ve seen this. So many times in the tags, so many times on art posts that were otherwise good and awesome that I would have reblogged--but then I saw the “Don’t tag as X” thing, and rolled my eyes and chose not to RB the art. In some instances, I even block the artist.
Most of the time, this is in relation to ships and art that can be interpreted as shippy but the original artist doesn’t want their work to be interpreted that way. Which is the first red flag for me--art is meant to be interpreted in a million different ways. No two people are ever going to interpret any kind of art the same way as another person. So trying to control how people interpret your work is at best, a fools errand.
However that’s more of a petty reason above all else--the main reason why “Don’t tag as X” is a huge problem is, in relation to how people interpret things differently, is that no matter what you do, people WILL interpret your art in a certain way. A certain way that may involve being a trigger for them.
So let’s say I see an art piece that is... let’s say it’s for Character B and C. The artist asks me not to tag my potential reblog as BC. Let’s say I decide to oblige by the Artists request and don’t tag it as BC.
So let’s say we have Follower X. X used to heavily ship BC to hell and back, but because of harassment, they can no longer even look at B and C together without thinking about the harassment they faced. It’s a proper trigger for them. It’ll give them panic attacks upon seeing it.
Now let’s say we have Follower Y. Y never really shipped the ship itself, but their ex shipped it a LOT. Their ex was abusive. They associate the ship with their ex, so the ship is a trigger for them--just seeing B and C together triggers them. They get sick to their stomach upon reminders and avoid the ship for their mental health.
Follower Z is a bit different. They just don’t like the ship, and want it tagged for blacklisting purposes. Vague art of B and C being cute and cuddly included.
So now here’s a problem with “Don’t tag as X.” The artist doesn’t want me to tag their B and C art as BC. Except three followers really need that ship tagged as BC.
“But it’s not ship art!”
It doesn’t matter if it is, or isn’t “ship art.” Well what you mean is “romantic ship art” anyway, so any and all platonic art is a form of ship art, but I digress. It doesn’t matter if it was intended as ship art or not. People will interpret it as ship art regardless.
“You can make blacklist tags for those followers!”
No, I can’t. Not for everyone. I never said I personally knew X, Y, or Z as my followers. I can’t tag what I don’t know--and if I tried to tag every post with “(Follower) don’t look” I’d have a bajillion tags like that. It’s not practical.
“But tumblr makes you see tags in your activity feed and I don’t want to see people tagging my art as X!”
Oh well. Sorry, but I can’t really feel a lot of sympathy for people who are making it more difficult to allow others to curate their own experiences.
“But it triggers me to see my art tagged as X!”
That’s a right shame. However, you should be aware that even if people RB your art without the tag, people will still consider your art in a way you don’t like. This is something to discuss with your therapist or peers, because trying to police how others interact with your work is not it, fam.
“I’m still going to say don’t tag as X.”
Then be prepared to get blocked. I’m not obliged to RB your art, and I don’t want to see your art anymore if I can’t reblog it safely and add tags that I think are necessary.
“But you’re hurting artists by not RBing their work! You should just respect their boundaries!”
I am respecting their boundaries, but nice straw-man. Me not RBing their art is a form of keeping to that artist’s boundary. “Don’t tag as X”? Then I won’t reblog it, meaning I won’t tag it as X. Congrats, boundary respected. The artist might not like it, but that’s just how it is.
If they want their work to be seen by the mass public, they have to get comfortable with the idea that people are going to misinterpret their art and intentions behind their art, and that’s okay. If they are not at that stage of acceptance, they aren’t ready for it.
Anyway, that’s my Hot Take of the day. Brought to you by someone who’s seen “Don’t tag as X” one too many times.
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Hey, heads up for everyone wanting to/planning on watching Princess Tutu: the first half of the anime (or more specifically, roughly the first eight episodes or so) contains fairly realistic depictions of emotional/psychological/verbal abuse. While it is framed as wrong, the perpetrator never apologizes for it to the victim and receives no (narrative) punishment.
In general, Princess Tutu deals heavily with abuse and unhealthy relationships/toxic love, but in my opinion, this particular plotline was handled significantly worse than the others. Even so, you could argue that the other plotlines on the subject could have been handled better, and I’ve seen other people be more bothered by them than I am.
In general, if abuse and unhealthy relationships, especially mishandling of them, is something that triggers you, I suggest not watching Princess Tutu.
#i love this show i really do but i really don't like how little this is warned for/discussed when recommending the show#i've known several people who couldn't get through it because of fakir's behaviour in the early episodes#princess tutu#like im glad this fandom doesn't have any fistfighting discourse in it or whatever#but i do wish a little more people discussed the way the show mishandles that arc in particular#i've seen people praising it way more than i've seen critiques of it and like#i could probably do a longer post on why fakir's redemption arc in particular is incredibly mishandled#i think rue/mytho was actually fairly well handled for the type of show it is but I know some people were still bothered by it#and i can't say they're wrong even if it doesn't bother me personally#but that said it IS ironic to me that this plotline received far more criticism than fakir's arc#even though honestly there is no way in which it was handled worse#but that's a subject for another (and longer) post#my posts#ask to tag#not trigger tagging for abuse for now bc I feel like the people who need this warning will have the tag blocked#but if you need it tagged please do tell me!
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Reminder that the discussion about needing non-alcoholic and all-ages queer spaces was pretty universally agreed on until asexuals started agreeing that we wanted access to them, too. Then suddenly it was "homophobic" to point out that gay bars aren't accessible to all.
I have a hair trigger for this conversation because of how many times it has been brought up SPECIFICALLY to drag ace and aro people through the mud. If someone shits on the idea of queer cafes, my hackles go up, because of how often that topic has been used to abuse aspecs.
"do you have a source"
I was a mod on a few different ace & aro positivity blogs roughly between 2015-2019. I have seen some shit, y'all. "Queer cafe" discourse isn't inherently aphobic--of course it's not!--but it gets used in a shitty way A LOT.
(TW sexual assault & substance abuse) Also, I won't go to queer bars anymore. Half my friends are recovering alcoholics, and one of the few times I DID go to the local queer bar, some twink I had never met tweaked my nipple because he thought it was funny. So.
Alcohol companies prey on queer people. Underage queer people exist. Disabled queer people exist. Sober queer people exist. All these are reasons for non-bar queer spaces.
But the SECOND aspec people started agreeing with that? The discourse changed. Suddenly queer bars were sacrosanct and could never be critiqued or you'd get called a homophobe.
It's directly rooted in aphobia. And nobody really talks about it outside aspec places.
tbh I feel completely insane a lot of the time because of how many things immediately put my hackles up bc they've been used to abuse aspecs
but y'all, there is SO MUCH of it
Aspecs have been consistently abused by the entire rest of the queer """community""" for so long.
"dare I say asexual" is a phrase that will immediately activate my fight-or-flight
I can't look at aspec pride edits anymore without remembering the mass-spamming of aspec tags on tumblr. They were full of gore, animal abuse, and fake pride edits proclaiming people like Ronald Reagan and Charles Manson as "ace icons" for no fucking reason other than hurting people
There used to be a lot of common community pride symbols that were pretty well known across most English-speaking aspec spaces. They're almost completely gone now.
And I just...I feel so paranoid and insane and overreactive, and it's so hard to explain to people who didn't live through it that, yes, there are lots of seemingly-innocuous things that got used as abuse tactics against entire aspec communities. And we don't get believed.
idk man, I just want to see more people talking about the way pretty much every single ace or aro person has been traumatized and gaslit and forced out of queer spaces. The "it only happens online" bullshit hasn't been true in fucking YEARS.
It IS happening IRL, y'all. I don't go to queer events in my city anymore, even pre-covid, because I've had falling-outs with multiple ppl in my community who decided to shit all over aspecs. It's not the only reason, but it's on the list.
Aphobia is REAL, it has MATERIAL effects, and it HURTS.
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Hey there! I wonder whether you could write a hurt/comfort scenario where the reader has gone through an abusive relationship before and now - in a relationship with Levi -, trusts him enough to tell him about it. They didn't do it yet bc she felt like she could burden him (she felt like it was to small compared to the chaos in canonverse). That's too personal, so I'll understand if you can't do it!
Happy to. I hope anyone that has been through something like this are safely out. You're incredible and strong. I've reflected on things I've been through, so there's no physical abuse just mental and pressure to do things. I might have shed a tear after writing this because I used things that happened to me.
I'll protect you.
Pairing: Levi x Reader
Genre and tags: Romance, couple, fluff, hurt, comfort, traumatic past, Levi is a good man, canon world.
Concept: As you lie in bed with your boyfriend, you finally decide to tell him about your past. You confess that you hadn't done anything physical with him because of your past. You tell him all about your ex and how you are scared of getting close physically because you don't want it to happen again. You both talk and Levi surprises you with his actions and instils in you just how perfect he is with you and just how in love you are with this man, as well as how much he loves you.
Trigger warning: Talks of an abusive relationship in the past.
If you need help or know someone who does then please contact the right people. On Wiki is a list of international numbers to contact if you are in an abusive relationship or know someone in one.
You were curled up in bed as Levi sat next to you doing some paperwork. You'd earlier had a panic attack over Levi going on an expedition soon without you. You were scared of losing the only man that ever truly cared about you and loved you, and you were also scared that he could die without feeling your touch. You were a mess emotionally and mentally at how to talk to him.
You sat up and looked over at Levi. "Levi?"
He flicked his page over and glanced at you a little. "Hmm?"
"I was abused by my ex."
Levi paused his movements, then put his papers down, pulled his glasses off and looked over at you.
You gulped hard lowered your head as the shame seeped in. "I haven't given myself fully to you because I'm still traumatised by him. I want to be with you, I want to give myself to you but I'm just nervous about it all. I love you, Levi. I really love you. I want to tell you everything that happened to me. I feel safe enough to do so. I trust you."
He turned to face you, then reached over and held your hands. "I'm all ears."
"Thank you."
"Take your time, okay?" He kissed your hands. "We have all the time in the world."
You nibbled your lip. "What about the mission?"
He shrugged. "Fuck the mission. You're more important to me."
You hugged Levi. "Thank you."
He squeezed you a little. "I love you, okay? I always will."
You pulled back and sighed. "He was nice at first. He gave me compliments and made me feel special. I was showered in gifts. I felt special, really special and that had never happened to me before."
"I get it. It's nice to feel that way."
You smiled. "He was so kind to me. Things changed slowly, it was subtle and then when it was bad I was in deep."
He lightly touched your cheek. "Did he ever hit you?"
You shook your head. "He was never violent. His abuse was emotional and psychological. He made me think that I was stupid, fat and ugly. He made me think that I needed to lose weight and change how I dressed." You fiddled with the bedsheet. "He wouldn't tell me I was fat, it would be commenting on other women's bodies who were thinner than me and say they had perfect bodies. He never called me stupid, he would talk down to me as if I was a child."
"Tch, little shit."
You hummed a laugh. "Yeah."
He blushed a little. "Tch, shit sorry. Carry on."
You sniffed and looked away from him. "I umm." You frowned a bit. "We had sex, but it uh..."
"Did he?"
You gulped hard. "I didn't really want to. He pressured me, kissed me and touched me. He pushed me down and did what he wanted to me and I went along with it. I was hoping it'd just be over. It wasn't fun, it didn't hurt, it was just bad."
Levi clenched and unclenched his jaw. "Okay."
You looked at him to see the rage rolling off his body. "After he was done, he tossed a rag at me to clean up his mess. I lay there in bed as he got himself a drink and read a book. I felt so cold and used. After our first time, he treated me like a possession and didn't want to sleep with me again which made me think I was awful. He openly flirted and chased other women in front of me. I retreated from him and he got angry at me and accused me of cheating." You welled up. "I felt like one minute he didn't want me, then the next I was all his and I couldn't leave."
He gulped hard. "How long did it take for you to leave?"
You shrugged. "Almost a month. I know, I'm an idiot but I kept thinking about the man I met and that maybe he'd come back to me." You shook your head. "He never did."
"You're brave to leave him, so brave."
You rubbed your tears away. "I'm so sorry it took so long to tell you. I thought the shit going on with the scouts, titans and everything beyond the walls was more important than my fucked up shit."
Levi hushed you. "Don't say that."
You shook a little. "It's true."
He pulled you into his arms and held you. He rocked with you as you cried. He kissed the top of your head. "You are far more important to me. If you asked me to leave the scouts with you, then I'd fucking run with you. You're my world, you really are."
You linked your arms around his neck and hugged him. "Even though I'm dirty?"
"You're not dirty." He pulled your head from him and made you look at him. "You are not dirty, you hear me? You're fucking perfect to me."
"But."
"You're cute, smart, sweet, adorable, funny, brave and caring. I love you."
You smiled at him and kissed him. "I love you too."
He smiled at you and tapped his forehead against yours. "I told you when you first told me you had a bad ex. We will go at your pace, alright? Fuck brat, if you don't ever want to have sex I'm fine with that. I don't need sex." He blushed. "Ah, but if you wanted to we'd do everything you want and I will worship your body and give you such loving aftercare." He cupped your face. "I love you and everything is perfect. We do what you want. Plus, that guy is a fucking idiot for thinking those wicked things about you."
You hummed a laugh. "You're wonderful Levi. I'm happy with you, really happy. Thank you for hearing me out, I appreciate it so fucking much. I know that I have the perfect guy as my partner."
Levi cupped your face and showered you in kisses making you giggle. "You're so fucking perfect and wonderful." You kissed you and hummed, then pulled away and jumped off the bed. "I'm going to head out."
You frowned a little. "Where?"
He pulled on his boots. "What's the name of your ex?"
You told him. "He's with the military police."
Levi nodded. "Thanks. I'll be back later."
You fell off the bed and ran after your lover. "Levi! Where are you going?"
"I'm just going for a little walk."
You ran after Levi as he stormed down the hall. "Levi! This isn't just a walk. Where are you going?"
He clicked his neck. "I just want to have a word with some cadets and military police."
You stopped a moment and realised Levi was going to see your ex. "Levi! Levi!" You ran after him as he walked towards some military police in the town. "Levi, just drop it!"
"I will." He stopped by the men and said your ex's name. "Where is he?"
You went white when your ex walked out into the open. "Oh no."
Your ex smiled. "Captain Levi, what an honour to meet such a legend! How can I help you, sir?"
Levi slammed his fist into the MP's face, then kicked him hard a few times until he got him on the floor on his back. Levi slammed his boot down on the man. "Piece of shit!" He sent a hard swift kick to your ex's dick and balls. "I should cut them off, you little fucker!"
You hugged yourself and just watched Levi. "Levi?"
He stepped back and panted. He pushed his hair back, then let out a long sigh. He looked at you. "You wanna get a hit in?"
You blushed. "What?"
"Go ahead, kick the little shit."
You walked closer and stared at your ex as he groaned on the floor with blood coming from his nose and mouth. You called his name causing him to look at you. "Fuck you." You kicked him in the dick, then stumbled back and gasped. "Oh shit." You laughed a little. "That felt good."
Levi grabbed your hand and ran with you. "Come on." He looked back at the MPs. "If you report this I'll do the same thing to you all!"
You giggled as you ran with him through town and back to the base. "Slow down a little."
He stopped outside the base. "Sorry."
You caught your breath, then gazed at Levi. "Thank you for that. I didn't realise I needed that."
"I'm glad I could help. Little fuckers like that deserve to have all their bones broken."
You walked up to Levi, cupped his face and kissed him. "I love you. I love you so much."
He smiled at you. "I love you too. If you want me to beat the shit out of him again, just say the word and I'll do it."
You giggled. "So fiesty, I love it."
"I mean it."
You smiled a little. "I know you do. Now, shut up and kiss me."
He pulled you close against him. "Happily."
#levi ackerman#levi#fanfic#levi fanfiction#aot fanfiction#snk levi#aot levi#levi x y/n#levi x you#aot x you#captain levi#levi x reader#levi ackerman x you#levi ackerman fluff#levi ackerman x reader
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hi ! i love your yandere contents most- i don’t know how i end up loving yandere because most people think yandere is quiet disturbing and not a healthy behaviour, and yours kind of soft-ish mostly so less disturbing. i did read hard yandere just for fun, still i fell kind of uncomfortable though. like kind of feels sicks about it. but yours is nice enough because both mutual pining so it less disturbing.
yet afterall, i realised that somehow i kind of having this yandere behaviour in me. when i’m in relationship before, i really really don’t like it when my partner talk to another girl, like i feel so insecure and i just want him to myself. thankfully that i don’t have that urge to kill or anything oh my god - GOD FORBID- or else that will be so mess up istg. but at the time my partner is like really really a good boy though, he knows that i don’t like he talked to another girl, and after that he NEVER talk to another girl. and yeah, but we broke up though, ironically because i don’t like him being so clingy to ke hahhahahaha what a mess up person i was. then i never been in relationship until then, so i don’t know what kind of person am i if i ever fall in love after this. i hope i can be a normal person that in love with decent behaviour though. hopefully.
oh and my friend, she’s married to her boyfriend since high school, let me tell you. his boyfriend, right now is her husband, he’s super damn yandere in real life though. luckily he don’t kill, hopefully no. but he did get in fight -verbally and physically- with those boys who talk to her. damnnnnn, and he don’t like it when she spends too much with us, her girlfriends like how mess up thoughhh. and we tried to make them break up for few months, less than one month they freaking getting back together. that damn boy begging to her and she loves him so much that she turn blind eye and getting back secretly with him. and now they are married and have one child. damn her story makes me realised, yandere does exist. i just realised about this after giving it some thought.
ugh, goosebumps.
WARNING: DISCUSSION OF ABUSE, TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS, HARMFUL TRAITS
First, I want to say I mean no hate or malice to this anon.
Then, I want this to serve as a reminder for everyone to read my disclaimers above my Seven Princes Masterlist and the Silhouetted Bonds Masterlist as well as the way I tag all fo my yandere fics as unhealthy relationships (pls let me know if I missed one) because I have said this several times, and will say this again: these yandere behaviors are just abusive and toxic behaviors irl. I have always stated the relationships in my fics are unhealthy/toxic and only "work" in my fics bc it is simply fiction. It is in a world that looks like our own in some cases but is not our own at all.
This ask makes me extremely uncomfortable since you, anon, are describing abusive and toxic traits within you and your friend's husband and the fact that there is now a child involved makes me sick to my stomach. This is another reason I don't feel comfortable writing children into my yandere fics bc although it is a world I created, I simply cannot stomach involving a child.
I implore you to seek help for these harmful behaviors that hurt other real people and I hope your friend's husband does the same. I also beg of everyone to read my disclaimers and seperate fiction from reality, understand that dark romance is not the blue print or something that is acceptable in the real world. We can gush about these unhealthy relationships bc it is simply fiction and hurts no one.
I, and often other writers of dark content, write because we know it is fiction and sometimes write to even deal with our own trauma, or have some escapist fantasy of unconditional and undying "love", however that manifests in our stories. Because of this often heavy content, I encourage everyone to read tags, disclaimers, and author's notes.
Yanderes don't exist irl, those are abusers. Yandere, in my opinion, is not a term I feel comfortable using to talk about people in the real world.
I do not write yandere bc I think it would be cute or funny irl, it's a fictional device for a fictional world, and I would never be so harmful to my partner and I hope you all share the same sentiment.
Please do not send me details about your harmful behaviors or your friend's abusive things like this are not only triggering but just plain upsetting.
Again, please understand, as I've stated many times, the relationships I write are not healthy and only "work" bc they exist in a world I created.
I really debated not answering this ask at all but I felt it needed to be said just in case. If any of this has been unclear, please ask me to clarify because this is extremely important to remember when consuming my fics, and for the most part any media in general.
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it triggers me and makes me upset when people call blaine abusive, because i relate to him in a lot of ways. and i have such an issue with people seeing one behavior happen in one instance and instantly leaping to abuse, because abuse is a repeated pattern of behavior intended to be malicious/cause harm. and some of the stuff these people write fics about and put in their tags (even the titles) of their blaine bashing fics, just make me really upset and i hate seeing them appear in the klaine tag on ao3.
i kinda feel like blaine antis are just trying really hard to convince us blaine/klaine was abusive, but you said it in your post, these characters are fictional. no one situation is universal. i think they think because they so believe this was abuse that it's their moral duty to convince everyone of such, and it's gotten to the point where i feel like i'm kinda being gaslighted lol the amount of people who used to like klaine and are now stanning kurtbastian/seblaine/hevans/etc and being all "i've seen the light and realized how abusive and toxic klaine actually were" make me question whether there is just something i'm missing that they've seen. and it just.....these are fictional characters. this is fiction. no one should be allowed to make anyone feel like this.
(i'm so sorry for rambling on about all of that - feel free to delete this if you want! - your post just made me feel a lot better about all of this but also brought on some thoughts of my own lol)
You're absolutely right, anon. And I am sorry that you feel that way because of a bunch of idiots online. Like I tell everyone, the best you can do is block tags, and block whole blogs if you need to. Just try your best to curate your fandom experience for you. And don't worry bc there are plenty of die hard Klainers still out here, despite the fact that people seem to be jumping ship. That's on their bad taste ;)
And what you said. I have seen a lot of myself in Blaine as well. And it's honestly very worrying for me, seeing how people react to his character. Blaine is a good person deep down. He's always willing to help his friends, he puts others before himself, he has everyone's best interests at heart. And he loves Kurt and tries his best to do right by him, even when it's a struggle. A struggle bc of his own internal issues, not bc he ever doesn't love Kurt
But especially throughout season five, watching him struggle with what are clearly signs of mental illness. And his body image issues, his feelings of self doubt and thinking he's not good enough... These are things that anyone could struggle with. God, especially someone who's still a teenager! They're problems that anyone could have, that a ton of people do have. It's part of what makes Blaine a relatable, layered, and dynamic character
And I know we joke a lot but it really does hurt my heart to see people who try to make him out to be a violent abuser bc of his struggles. Blaine is not evil. He's not a demon. He doesn't secretly take pleasure in seeing Kurt struggle. He isn't a sadist. He's just a kid who's living in a new city in a new living arrangement that's hard on him, and everyone else, including Kurt
But struggling and getting into a difficult place like that, that doesn't make you a bad person. Reacting less than perfectly to a difficult situation doesn't make you a bad person. Emotions are always hard, but especially when you're a kid. But Blaine always had and always will have a good heart, and mean well. He just needed some help, and he got it. I think it's a really inspiring story and I love Blaine Anderson for giving that to us
#glee#blaine anderson#asks#answered#my thoughts#anonymous#so yeah this got very serious#but its how i feel
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Heey😊 Could you do a headcanon about shinsou and hawks with a partner who has ptsd, please?
hc: Shinsou and Hawks with an s/o who has ptsd.
tw: ptsd, abuse (emotional and physical), blood
tags: hurt/comfort, mental health, recovery
notes: hi anon, ty for sending in this request ❥ i sincerely hope that you are okay and doing well. please know i am by no means a therapist but i do hope these hc’s bring you comfort. be safe and don’t hesitate to reach out if you need to ❥
» i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, shinsou is a very caring and understanding human and will not hesitate to express that to someone he cares deeply for
» so when he learns his s/o has ptsd? of course he’s going to comfort you and make it very clear he’ll support you through anything.
» you two were out getting coffee one day, enjoying the cloudy weather bc you knew that meant the amount of people out and about would be scarce (cute lil’ emos)
» and while you were in line waiting to order you engaged in some idle chatter, his hand resting on your lower back, debating whose drink of choice was the best boy thinks he knows shit bc he lives off caffeine PFFF
» it was finally your turn to order but the second you made it to the counter your entire body froze
» the barista must’ve been new because you’ve never seen his face here before, and you would’ve easily avoided the place had you known because he looked identical to your abusive ex
» shinsou’s never seen that asshole before, so he gets a bit confused when he feels your body tense up and wonders why you’re not responding to the barista asking for your order
» you’re sweating bullets and all of the sudden it feels like your chest is turning in on itself, the anxiety and stress on your body making bile threaten to rise in your throat but all you can do is stand there with wide eyes fixated on anything but him
» shinsou’s quick to take the intitiative and order for the both of you before gently ushering you to the corner of the shop, sitting you down at an isolated booth and sitting in front of you to sheild you from any passerby while you try to calm down
» “Hey it’s okay, kitten, shhh... take your time, I’m right here. It’s just me and you.”
» he knows you get like this when experiencing one of your triggers, being the attentive boyfriend he is, so instead of pestering you and potentially making things worse he’s trying to deduce what the cause of your panic attack was
» all while holding your hand or rubbing your back in soothing strokes; unless physical contact isn’t the way to go for you, in which case he’ll shush your tears away and whisper words of affirmation your way at a respectful distance
» does not leave your side until you’ve recovered (even though the barista called his name 20 mins ago but you’re WAY more important)
» once he sees you’ve calmed down significantly, he’ll remind you he’s here for you and tells you you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to
» but you decide to explain to him why you just shut down all of the sudden and how you actually feel bad bc you know it’s not the barista’s fault he looks like your shitwad ex who inflicted so much trauma on you
» shinsou will definitely have to swallow the anger that follows when he hears how that asshole is still making you feel less than what you deserve BUT doesn’t let that show at all
» instead he’ll soak up every word that falls from your lips and nod intently, holding your hand and rubbing the knuckles w his thumb, putting a lil kiss there every now and then he’s so fuckin sweet
» he’ll tell you that you shouldn’t feel bad, that no one can ever really control their triggers, and that he’s so grateful you’re out of that situation and he’ll never let you experience something like that ever again
» eventually (once your breathing has regulated) you ask him about your coffees and he’s like “oh yea”
» your drinks are cold by the time he goes to get them but neither of you really care, he’s just glad you’re okay and you’re happy to be there with him
» shinsou never fails to make you feel safe when you’re around him and you’ve never felt so loved <3
» bird brain is also a very kind and considerate boyfriend, i refuse to believe he’s this suave womanizer like i’ve seen some people portray (which is ok !! just not what i see tbh)
» i also believe that he knows a thing or two about ptsd so he’ll 100% understand what you’re dealing with and how to handle it
» in that case you two would help each other through your triggers when they occur (just supportive couple tings, uwu)
» so it’s no surprise he’s dropping everything to run to you when you call him, completely panicked at home while he’s at work
» you were cutting up some fruits and veggies for yours and hawks’ bento boxes for the week, you liked doing so on your day off so you wouldn’t have to worry about it when you got busy
» unfortunately your winged boyfriend couldn’t be there to annoy you help like he usually does because he ended up needing to finish some extra paperwork at the agency
» so you were in the kitchen by yourself, jammin’ out to your favorite songs, hips swaying as you carefully cut up your produce
» however after a particularly good song blasted through the speakers, you started loosening up and weren’t being as careful anymore
» the blade of the knife nicked the tip of your finger and you immediately dropped its handle, clutching your hand with a hiss
» initially you were just focused on finding something to stop the bleeding and found a stray kitchen towel to do the job, but something about the scene before you seemed much too familiar...
» memories of fights with your abusive ex flooded your mind as you watched the towel stain crimson, taking you back to the numerous times you had to do this very action when he took his anger out on you by flinging whatever object he had on his person at your shaking frame
» suddenly the room began to spin and it felt as if your chest was caving in on itself as you held onto your wrist, fingernails leaving indents at the skin
» your body moved for the phone on instinct texting hawks with only one word, it was all you could muster with your hands shaking and tears clouding your vision
» the minute he saw the word “panic” flash across his screen? best believe he was reaching for the first exit to fly home at mach fuckin’ 20
» luckily the agency was fairly close to the apt. so it took him less than 5 minutes to be by your side, opting to land on the balcony instead of going through the main building
» “Y/N? Everything okay??”
» he frantically searched the house before finding you curled up on the kitchen floor and clutching to a bloody towel against the cabinetry
» he caught a glimpse of the fruit on the cutting board and quickly determined what happened before kneeling beside you to pull you into his lap, stroking your hair for a moment before prying your wrist away from your chest to inspect the damage
» “Shhh, dove, it’s okay, I’m here... I’m just gonna take a look, okay? We gotta stop the bleeding, I’ve got you, sweet (girl/boy).”
» your tear stained, puffy, red face makes his heart ache but he waits for you to nod before removing the towel
» gives you a kiss to the temple after determining you do in fact need to be bandaged up and scoops you off of the floor, holding you close to his chest
» he’ll take you to the bathroom and get you fixed up before pulling your head to his chest, arms wrapped around you and hands rubbing your back as you come down from your panicked state
» you don’t even have to explain anything to him bc he just knows, he’s well aware of the stories you told him of past relationships and how you got those scars on your body.
» also becomes furious every time but will not let it show, all he cares about is keeping you grounded as you listen to his heartbeat against your cheek
» you murmur a soft “thank you” to him once the tears cease and he simply hums in response, reminding you no thanks is necessary because he does this out of his deep love for you.
» “You’ll never have to feel unsafe again, dove, I’ll always come to you... I’ll always be right here.”
#shinsou headcanons#hawks headcanons#shinsou hitoshi x reader#shinsou x reader#hawks x reader#keigo takami x reader#hofortendou hc’s#tw: ptsd#tw: abuse#tw: blood#bnha headcanons#bnha
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same anon– and yeah i probably should have started with the definition sorry– from what ive seen, it usually includes that the whumper, whumpee (and sometimes caretaker too) are part of the same family/live under one roof, and when the whumping happens the whumpee usually has nowhere to go bc said whumper is the family they should be turning to or someone close that they cannot simply walk away from– hope that explains it a bit, i myself havent seen too many works with this trope,, as thats why i was asking
Thank you for clarifying! That’s what I thought it is but I wasn’t sure.
Here are some thoughts :)
Warning: this post has very realistic scenarios that can be triggering, so proceed with caution. If you need me to add more tags please don’t hesitate to let me know!
TW: domestic abuse, emotional and physical abuse ,violence, gaslighting, isolation, nightmares
- Punishment: Whumper doses out punishments because they want Whumpee to be “better”, to be well behaved, to fit into Whumper’s idea of “perfect” or “good”.
Physical punishments doled out with anything close by, so kitchen appliances, cleaning supplies, heavy breakable vases/flower pots/ashtray... Forcing Whumpee to do chores to exhaustion, starving them, locking them in their room, etc. are all good options you can look at.
Emotional punishments like the silent treatment where Whumper ignores Whumpee or is passive-aggressive toward them (Whumper doesn’t say anything bad, but you can feel in their manerism and the way they go about the house that they are angry, and it is terrifying to Whumpee because they don’t know what will set Whumper off).
Isolating the Whumpee, not letting them going out to see their friends, keeping money from them - basically stripping the Whumpee of any source of autonomy and support. Especially making them ashamed of themself and not seeking for help. Or Whumper taking a step further and gaslight Whumpee into thinking they deserve the treatment and that Whumper is actually helping them. The private aspect of the “home” - that people don’t talk about what happens in their house to “outsiders” - plays a big part in this too.
- Whumpee spends a long time hiding what Whumper does to them because they don’t think that is a big deal (”Whumper was just trying to help me learn”) and they are ashamed of themself for needing so much “help”. Everyone around them thinks that they are okay, if a little weird/jumpy.
Until finally, Whumpee reaches a breaking point and tries to get out of the house. But the people they go to did not understand the gravity of their situation, and think that Whumpee might just have a silly argument with the Whumper. They bring Whumpee back to the Whumper, who is livid at Whumpee’s attempt of leaving. Whumper points out that Whumpee has nowhere to go and no one to turn to, the only person there for them is Whumper.
Whumpee doesn’t try to get out anymore. They know that no one will help them, and now Whumper has actual proof to rub it in their face.
- Whumpee finally gets out of the house/relationship and leaves Whumper for good. But sometimes they still get confused about what to feel about Whumper because there were good moments where Whumper made them truly happy, and for a long time Whumper was the only person they could count on. Sometimes Whumpee considered coming back to Whumper because they are lonely and too traumatised to start a new relationship or to be vulnerable to new people. They have to constantly remind themself that it is a bad idea.
- Nightmares about Whumper being angry at them still haunt Whumpee for a long time. Nightmares about being left alone or abandoned.
- Physical scars but also emotional scars. Whumpee desperately wants to trust and confide in someone, but also is terrified of being vulnerable to another person and have their trust violated again.
This is becoming super long so I’ll update if I think of something more :)
Thanks for the ask!
#whump#whump prompt#domestic whump#punishment#emotional whump#physical whump#nightmare#scar#gaslighting#domestic abuse tw#abuse tw#emotional abuse#physical abuse#r prompts#whump asks
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that italian?
okay okay okay i think it happened long enough ago that i can dish about the drama. she changed her url and im not including it anyway so its fine.
prepare for a fuckin. essay in responss to a TWO WORD ask but anyay
so once upon time there was an italian who hated children and loved reylo. she also hung out in the arthuriana tag and got a bunch of asks about it. so one day some poor anon comes in and asks if she has any trans headcanons for arthurian characters, and she, instead of being a normal person and saying like, no, she goes off about how trans characters in fanfic is forced representation and she cant talk about trans people bc surgery is triggering for her.
found this in the archives lol. so i rbd politely explaining that while it was fine to not have trans hcs, her justifications for it were a little offensive.
hey i dont want to start discourse or anything but i see ur asks in the tag a lot and i wanted to politely address this. firstly obviously no one is under any obligation to hc things, and headcanons and fandom is not activism. if you’d just said “no, not really” it would b fine. i mean, cringe of u, but fine. but u make a couple of points here i want to look at a bit critically. then there is “I don’t like when headcanons are pushed up as ~representation, especially when… Ehm, it’s just fandom stuff?” i dont want to misinterpret you or put words in your mouth, but the implication that theres no need for trans rep in fandom and dismissal of that is a very cis take. My initial read of your intention there was a complaint of ‘why should something like fandom spaces, which are for fun and not serious, be filled with non fun serious (bad) trans stuff that i have to see when im trying to enjoy myself.’ now that could be incorrect, you were a bit vague here. if that is what you meant, i think you maybe should examine why you feel that way. if it isnt, im unclear on what exactly youre trying to say here. the idea that trans hcs are performative wokeness and “representation” in fandom is completely ignoring the actual trans people making and wanting them. there is so vanishingly little representation of trans people in actual media and even less thats good, and i think implying trans hcs are being pushed on people and fandom for, ~representation (a world of meaning in the ~ i shant speculate on) is very dismissive and ignorant of that fact.
honestly the main thing im troubled by is the idea that trans bodies are inherently disgusting and triggering, which is an incredibly harmful and hurtful idea, and since you yourself acknowledge that trans people and hcs dont predicate surgery i question why you bring it up, except as a justification for disconfort rooted in unexamined prejudice. im not accusing you of being a terf or anything, i dont believe you meant harm by this or have bad intentions, and im definitely not saying anyone has to hc anything. it was the uncomfronted insidiousness of your justification that concerned me. this is not a personal attack at all, you just have a lot of influence in this fandom space and i wanted to make you aware of some of the surely accidentally harmful things ur saying.
so she flips out and rbs that yelling at me and cursing me out in italian (she moved blogs so i dont have her whole response just bits)
basically she completely derailed the original topic and accused me of calling her a horrible person for her triggers? which i never did and would never do, and then tried to make it a wierd anti v proshipper thing
third: I never said there’s no need of trans hcs in fandoms, BUT I’ve noticed that there’s a tendency of condemning people on the basis of what they ship / the dynamics they write. ( like the infinite discourse about how ‘I ship only mlm enemies to lovers because f/m enemies to lovers are Inherently Bad and Abusive - something I personally heard on Twitter sigh ), so I feel the need to say it. blame the current fandom climate.
and were like wow, this lady is unhinged, so we look around her blog and find a. a lot of stuff like saying its racist to not like incest?? and that italians arent white?? also shes a swerf?? and kind of deniel italian colonialsm? and reblogs from a bunch of out and out terfs} there was more but this isnt a callout post lol.
valentine lanzelet made a post about this crazy italian we found and she flipped out on him (this is one of several cursey italian tag rants)
roughly means: GO SHIT YOURSELF (italian alternative to go fuck you), RACIST TERF IS YOUR GRANDMOTHER IN A WHEELBARROW (italian saying which does not translate well) AND WHAT HAS ITALIAN COLONIALISM TO DO WITH THIS YOU UGLY SHIT, and anyways lancelot sucks
(translated by claudio beheaded)
anyway so then. and this is when it gets unhinged. she goes on this server me and a lot of my mutuals n friends r in, camelot, and starts complaining about me.
(in red is the server admin, who was lovely) i asked her to move this convo to dms if she must bc it was rude to bring drama into the server, and she refused, and started insisting that she was being bullied and just wanted to be left alone, so i was like okay lets all block each other and move on, and she refused, continuing to defend everything she was being criticized for
they also said claudio was making them look bad by translating their rants which like... queen if that made them look bad they were already a bad look.
so she keeps pinging people and replying to shit despite everyone else at this point begging her to just drop it and call it a stalemate
imagine this but around n around for like an hour. also she repeatedly got me and valentine confused it was super funny. also she claimed it was an invasion of her privacy for valentine to go on her public blog and look at the things she openly said and rbd there
so the server got put in slow mode and she KEPT GOING even though everyone was just begging her to stop and not even responding
as u can see, around this point we just started spamming her with emoji reactions. she announced she was leaving then went back to arguing a full three times before finally dipping from the server
then she continued complaining about us and calling us puriteens in her tags (trying to make it a proshipper v anti thing i guess lol?)
for literally months before finally remaking. also in that time she got in an argument about how the crusades were fine actually. italianphobia works hard but she works harder i guess
anyway i prolly left out a lot but thats the italian saga
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AHHH thank you for answering my question LOL... i can't wait to read it!!! will it be on the eris/nesta tag on ao3? bc if so i will keep an eye out for it!
also i probably don't remember a lot of the stuff from acotatr w eris in it buuuutttt he seems kinda.. just.. idk like an asshole? but not evil? like when he left mor after her family went all sicko mode on her i probably would have done the same thing yk. like i would have felt bad bc damn that's her uterus but also he gave her freedom? not gave but he could have trapped her and he didn't? he understood the implications of her being left outside of his court's state line, if you will, and was like hmmmm no <3 ALSO author bestie was all "ask mor what happened bc she's hiding something abt it" so i think he has a redemption arc maybe (maybe not a redemption arc but a "i'm not as bad as you think and first person pov really fucked me over (like nesta))
idk i got off track but i think he's just an asshole to people who were an asshole to him yk much like nesta (how full circle of me)
It will!
Canon Eris is, at least to me, a Mess characterization-wise in a very...acotar way?
He’s Evil until we need him. For the most nebulous reasons but Because War Has Cost. He’s bitchy from that point on Because We Can’t Like Him Too Much. He’s into Nesta so that a) Nesta can Show Off How Good She is, b) Cassian has ANOTHER reason to be a jackass, and c) Nesta + Autumn was her original arc or something. But he’s BAD, but there’s MYSTERY, BUT-
it feels like a Rhysand redux, but worse? Unnecessary, if anything.
I think you’re 100% right about where canon is going w/him and Morrigan- I always assumed he didn’t touch her because that would literally, as Keir intended, make Mor his responsibility? And neither of them wanted that?
NOT THAT CANON HAS EVER KNOWN WHAT TO DO WITH MOR- I have 8000 thoughts about her, which I will not get into right now, but it has been BAD FROM THE START- but for me, the real pivot of Eris being a villain is Mor.
She’s so, so triggered by him. (not that the narrative knows what to do about abuse either) But that probably should have been the end of it? She’s not even afraid of KEIR, but Eris makes Morrigan flinch.
If it were my story, I wouldn’t flip that on its head.
But Fix-It Fic Eris is not that Eris, so there’s a little more Morrigan nuance. He IS an asshole, but he’s kind of...that asshole? In no way do I think canon should transmute Eris into a murdery but heart of gold sweaterboy, but that’s what I did.
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tua s1 rewatch - end
Less bc I am tired
Episode 8
I still have no idea how old Claire is supposed to be
Honestly Patrick was like... the first person who enforced boundaries and enacted consequences on Allison tbh and she didn’t even hesitate to use her powers even though they’d clearly discussed it before
I heard a rUMOR YOU LIKE BROCOLI?? WHICH SIBLING DID SHE USE THAT ON?
Roommate making the realization face about Leonard’s new prosthetic eye
Vanya our here like “my teen bullshit actually has a body count” a la heathers
Klaus not remembering his first is depressing but given by the fact that luther seemed surprised a girl was in his bed and had to check if he was naked indicates that,,, luther doesn’t remember his first either
Five knows EXACTLY where the aspirin in... buddy tell me you are taking stronger pain meds when you are getting shot and knifed
Pogo out here like “it was a difficult choice for both of us” like grace had a choice at all considering her programming was literally altered
I agree with luther tbh “there’s always a choice” damn
Tag yourself I’m five with his head in his hands with probably a killer headache
Leonard: it’s not your fault what happened to those guys
Roommate: yeah dude I’m pretty sure it’s yours
I love Agnes bless
The Netflix subtitles spell oof as ouf and idk what to do with that
Roommate theorizes that tua takes place in New York with the evidence that the cop dude says that Diego is being transferred up state and New Yorkers say that
Babie Vanya looks like kids I know tbh
Leonard keeps looking more unhinged and awful the longer I look at him tbh
Vanya gives Reginald one (1) tiny scratch and he decides to drug her and emotionally abuse her for the rest of her life :/
Five limping into the bar: CONTINUITY
Luther really said “hmm think I will launch into a depressive episode”
Maybe cha cha should take a nap and then maybe she’d calm down instead of bloWING UP GRIDDYS I forgot she did that
Sergeant cheDDAR I forgot his name was fucking CHEDDAR - all I can think about is the dog from b99
Vanya blease your boyfriend is a serial killer
Okay Leonard was definitively and canonically thirteen for the murder of his father
Vanya out here with her chemicals being WACK bc of cold turkey quitting her whole ass meds designed to numb her emotions like ouch
But also Allison is this the right time to tell ur sister that you were used to erase every shred of self confidence she ever had and also make you forget her cool ass powers
Vanya be like “look me in the eye and tell me you’re not threatened now” like yeAH VANYA YOURE BEING PRETTY DAMN THREATENING RIGHT NOW
Episode nine (I think?? I didn’t realize where the episodes switched over)
Leonard has directly killed at least three people so far but one (his dad) definitely deserved it and indirectly killed at least two more
She doesn’t even really get scOLDED FOR KILLING THE NANNIES JUST HER NAME IN A FIRM TONE NO FUCKING WONDER SHE KEPT ON KILLING
Huh does that mean vanyas body count is higher than Leonard’s?? There were at least three dead nannies and she killed those two dudes as well 🤔
Five doesn’t even bother insisting on volunteering bc he is thirteen and has also already lost a lot of blood I mean seriously
The whole making klaus get up by throwing a knife at him... sibling moon although Diego has a lot better aim than MY sister who always managed to hit me in the face with anything she threw at me :/
Leonard is poking the bear here and I really don’t know what he expected when vanya straight up kills him
“I really don’t know what he expected to get out of that.” -roommate
Aannnndddd check for five again on the “klaus heart to heart” list with that addiction discussion
Five is SO BEYOND giving a fuck by the time hazel shows up and five offers him a margherita ... he can’t even be bothered to get up and interfere with Diego and hazel
Though to be fair five does have a GUT WOUND so smashing a bowl over their heads is valid
Roommate: more scripts need to have hugs in them
Me: ...not this one
Roommate: w,, why. Why. You find out your sister has powers and instead of being a reasonable person you choke her
I’m blaming pogo for this as well because luther wouldn’t have known about the basement soundproof vault that luther put her in :/
Like pogo painted the WORST picture and told them about the people she killed and everything which informed luthers decision to lock her up which,, Vanya was a little kid with no real concept of death
“Maybe while he’s here he can pick up something new to wear” - roommate while five dropped Dolores off at the department store
Luther isn’t guarding Vanyas cell 24/7,,, the others could have done something or like?? At least stayed down there with her? So she isn’t horrifyingly alone thinking she’s been left to die?
Episode ten
I erased reginalds weird alien origins from my mind honestly because... I just don’t care about him. Like. At all? Fuck this man I wish he didn’t exist in s2 :/
The mansion really do be a walking house of triggers for Vanya huh
“I’m going to posit something. Pogo has no culpability as a being of his own free will, he’s just a second hargreeves. He’s just a second pair of hands to what hargreeves intended. He’s just a walking mouthpiece.” - roommate but that’s okay because I hate Reginald more than I hate pogo actually
I’m okay with pogo dying tbh and even the roommate isn’t exactly torn up about it
Goodbye mansion
Me, remembering this is the last episode: it’s been 84 years...
Five coming in late to find the academy in rubble like :0
Wow I still really hate the handler speaking Yiddish and the unfortunate implications that it has, just in general
“I have to respect she went home to change into formal wear and apply eye liner before ending the world” - roommate on Vanyas concert outfit
I’m amused by the bowling and the shoes but sad about the content :(
Five this is what you get from accepting candy from creepy women honestly
He just DITCHES
Why is Allison even salty at luther for sleeping with a girl. She MARRIED a man and had a child and Luther wasn’t salty I don’t think?
I feel like the handler could have kept five there for way longer before he caught on tbh
Agnes has had... a day
Luther and Diego are DUMBASSES
Ben taking care of BUSINESS
Roommate has questions about when exactly Vanya was photographed to put into the promotional material for the concert and honestly?? Now I do as well especially since they established Vanyas suit was at her apartment
“IS THAT A SUPER POWER INDUCED COSTUME CHANGE? Ya love to see it” roommate on Vanyas white outfit
Five really didn’t need to jump and also like BRO HE HAS A SHRAPNEL WOUND
Oh we can’t let Allison do any heavy lifting bc of her throat
Five has a GUT WOUND
As someone who had appendicitis and had to get that shit our gut surgery fucking sucks I couldn’t do shit for like a week and a half
Sibling energy is immediately rejecting fives plan then being like “okay what is it”
Their fucking bowling shoes I’m still yelling about it
THE END
and a picture of my cat bc i accidentally put it in here so enjoy a mia
#tua rewatch#done with s1 lads#actually finished it monday night and forgot to post this oops#will move onto s2 SOON#finally amiright#far tua long#long post
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How do you get people to always buy your dragons? Genuine question
i was gonna say something like “haha i have no fucking clue” but that would be a lie i think about this a lot actually so i might have some insights
i’ve been breeding dragons as my primary activity on FR since i started playing FR (in 2014...) and people have only started actually buying dragons from me consistently like, 5-6 months ago, despite 2-3 attempts at running a genuine hatchery onsite that always died due to lack of interest & not really being worth the effort.
so ive thought a lot about what the hell is happening now and why my dragons are suddenly consistently selling and I think ive come down to these being the main points of advice i can give:
1. make friends! be friendly! don’t be weird! be a cool and fun person to interact with!
2. post consistently. post your dragons consistently. post about other stuff consistently. just be an active member of the community
3. POST YOUR SHIT IN THE “#FLIGHT RISING” TAG. THIS IS PROBABLY THE ONLY TRUELY HELPFUL THING I SAY IN THIS POST
4. make pairs that are sexy as hell and be openly proud of them. make dragons and pairs that you like, not what you think will necessarily sell. people can tell when you like stuff and being genuinely passionate about something, whatever the fuck it is, will get other people passionate as well
longer versions/explanations under the cut because man this got a mile long. i wasn’t kidding when i said i think about this a lot and i am so sorry if you wanted something concise and useful
1. to be a little glib. i am mutuals/friends with more clout in the FR community than I do kjdshfdsfdhjhkfdf shoutout to everyone who draws their dragons really good on a regular basis because i am riding on your coattails to sell my dragons. i love you
this was never my intent, obviously! DO NOT BEFRIEND PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU WILL GET STUFF FROM THEM IT’S JUST A REALLY BAD THING TO DO TO PEOPLE!!! i wouldn’t be friends w/ people if i didn’t genuinely like and get along with them! no amount of pixel cash is worth putting up with people you dont like or abusing people you admire!
but i’d also somehow feel wrong to just... neglect mentioning this factor. idk it’s probably a self-esteem thing sjdkgfhdsf i just Don’t feel like my #success has been totally out of my own effort because its not like im #hustling or whatever i just posted dragons and stuff happened
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2. being consistent! just. posting consistently! posting Every Hatchling I Have and Talking About Them On Tumblr!
Once I had a couple nests just sell super fast likely due to aforementioned clout, i was emboldened to just post more of my nests more often and I swear this has more effect than anything else. i just needed the self-esteem boost to Start Doing That
posting consistently makes ppl follow u for ur content which gets even more people to look at your dragons which gets more people to buy your dragons.
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2a. Also just post a lot in general, even if you aren’t necessarily posting about your dragons for sale. it definitely helps! just be friendly and active and people will come
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3. post your shit in the tag. not in “#dragon-sales” or “#fr-dragon-sales” or anything weird like that because I don’t know if anyone actually looks at those, but people definitely browse “#flight rising”. no matter how many followers you have, more people will see your content if you post it in #flight rising than if you just chuck it into the void.
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3a. however! do not put links into the post if you want it to actually show up in the tag.
tumblr is cool in that it doesn’t actually matter that much when you post something, the same way it really matters on twitter bc twitter has algorithms that decide for you what it thinks you want to be seeing whereas tumblr just shows you everything in chronological order. if you post something into the tag at 1am... it will still be there at 2pm when people log on and start scrolling.
the only thing tumblr seems to consistently hide from a tag (and possibly a dashboard, but idk) are posts with links in them, as a half-assed attempt to limit spam. instead of linking to your sales tab/to the dragons directly in the post, reblog it with the links instead.
to reduce latency between a post going up and the links being available, i type out the links in the initial post, cut them, post the thing into the tag, then very quickly reblog, paste the links, and post the reblog jdhfsdf. i don’t know if that benefits anything really? but it can sometimes take me a while to type links, so if i posted, pressed reblog, typed up all the links, then posted, it’d be like ~15 minutes where someone may see the post, think “oh i would like to buy those dragons”, then can’t find the link, think “oh well, i will just find it later”, scroll on, and just... completely forget about it. so uh. go quick?
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3b. the armchair sociologist in me also thinks self-reblogging has the added benefit of like... you know how people are more likely to tip a barista when a dollar is already in the tip jar? or how people are more likely to take one of those little tabs on a flyer if one of them is already missing? i think that works with notes, too. i don’t know why i think that or why it happens i just swear once a post gets 1 note, suddenly it gets Even More Notes, and if it doesn’t get any notes for a while it will sit at 0 notes until the end of time. so giving yourself 1 obligatory note makes people more likely to interact. i think
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4. all of these are hard to quantify but this one is especially so: have cool and unique dragons. make your pairs sexy as hell. don’t put all your eggs (hah) into the one basket of selling dragons that are technically “popular”. we have all seen triple white/triple obsidian/triple orca/triple any other popular colors and cherub/pere/stained or wasp/bee/glim pthahlos or whatever. they’re pretty! we get it! but everyone has had one and everyone has had those pairs and market for dragons like that can be super oversaturated. try to break free from that and sell dragons that people can only get from you.
I can’t tell you what to do though bc that rly depends on you. make pairs that you find exciting or interesting and people will feel that. i have a very specific theme and aesthetic that i don’t feel like is especially common on FR and i am genuinely very enthusiastic about it. marine shit is my Thing:tm: both on and off FR and dragons are one of my many ways of expressing that
if you have a Thing:tm:, either some fr-centric aesthetic (like being super into plague or earth or light or something) or something more general (such as any of the -punks or -cores)... just fuckin roll with it honestly. if you’re goth? make got h dragons. like scene stuff that looks straight out of a middle school in 2010? rock that hot-topic lair. outdoorsey type? make dragons that look like you’d meet them on a hike in the woods. it really works with anything!
people can tell when you really love something and i know that seeing someone really love something, even if it’s not necessarily MY thing, makes me really excited too!!
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4a. never show fear. people can smell fear. never be like “well this one isn’t that good” because suddenly now you’ve planted the idea that it’s ugly in other people’s heads when they may have really liked it had you not accidentally suggested to them that it’s an ugly dragon. people are EXTREMELY suggestible to even VERY minor cues so be always a little bit bolder than you think you should be
you’d be surprised at how many times ive been like “eh, this one’s kind of a dud, i’ll probably have to exalt this one when the auction expires” and then that hatchling is the first to sell. never ever ever ever decide what other people like for them. always act like your dragons are the hottest shit in all the land and Believe It. this is what people mean when they say “fake it till you make it”
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4b. also, idk if it’s true of everyone but it’s really off-putting to see someone having serious pity-parties for themselves, on sales posts or otherwise. ive had bad experiences with people who are uncomfortably quick to self-depreciate (because they were using their genuine self-hatred to manipulate me or my friends), so i might be a little more trigger-happy about avoiding this behavior than others, but don’t weaponize your sadness to guilt people into doing what you want. it’s really not cool.
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okay i think that’s my entire manifesto on how i do dragon selling. anon i am so sorry im sure you were expecting like “believe in yourself :)” and here i am dissecting dragon selling like it’s a frog in a science class
edit: AFTER ALL THAT I STILL THOUGHT OF ONE MORE THING. It’s not really a Point, just a Reminder:
i don’t post about all the times i have to exalt dragons that don’t sell. you are seeing me being very selective about what i post. you dont sit and stare at my lair or click through offspring lists or check old sales posts.
there are a lot of times where someone just doesn’t sell. even now when i’m selling stuff pretty consistently i will still sometimes have dragons that don’t sell for seemingly no reason. even dragons I think are sure to sell will sometimes just... not. and that’s ok! you gotta just be.. ok with that. it’s par for the course.
i typically list dragons for 7 days on the AH, give them a couple more days after their auction expires (partially because i forget, partially to give them a grace period for people to pm/ask me about them), and then exalt them after that point. w/ some dragons that i don’t think got a fair shake for one reason or another (such as the sales post not showing up in the tag or something) i do a little clearance (like the halloween dragons i recently posted) but for the most part if they don’t sell, i just exalt them. 90% of the time i don’t even bother to level them up i just press the exalt button and call it a day. it’s fine
#if anyone is interested i can make a post about my process for finding new dragon pairs?#i’d just include it here but this post is long enough as it is oo;;#Anonymous
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