#not that I have any new ideas or anything I’m just thinking really hard abt it

[pansy-picnics]

No idea if they would since they all live in a castle but how do you think the uknighted parents each would deal with empty nest syndrome?

AUDJSJSD NGL I’VE KINDA BEEN HOPING FOR A QUESTION LIKE THIS BC!! they DO. and they are NOT good at it. AT ALL.

ukd are very adamant on giving their kids the freedom they never had growing up, so as long as they’re managing their own duties they’re basically free to do whatever (though eugene can be a Little overprotective sometimes he means well). of course bc ilmari’s adopted and isn’t of any royal blood they end up being the first to leave the nest… i’ve already discussed that vaguely here, so this time i’m gonna talk more abt ryder!!

being the eldest of the twins ryder is technically supposed to take on the throne to corona, and people have a LOT of high expectations from him, especially other nobles/those who were….less than pleased with rapunzel’s approach to ruling. he’s basically seen as the “light” of corona and has been held on a pedestal since he was very young, which leads him to repress himself and puts a lot of strain on his relationships for many years- especially with alina who’s often left in his shadow (and he doesn’t mind it per se!!! but he does feel like her life is pretty directionless, and she’s always been rather dependent on ryder bc of it).

all this to say, eventually on their 18th birthday everything boils over and leads to a nasty fight between the twins. they both kinda realize that they need to grow up and branch out in their own ways- and ryder in particular realizes that he rlly just needs to get Away for a while. so going to help edmund in the dark kingdom seems like a pretty good way to gain some new perspectives!!

after all the pressure she was under herself, rapunzel understands this more than anything…..but that doesn’t make it any easier for her (or cass and eugene, for that matter) to accept. :’3

idk if any of you guys watched steven universe future, but i think they’d all be like this final scene like. ALMOST WORD FOR WORD LMFAO

in fact as soon as ryder even suggests the idea to rapunzel shes awkwardly slipping out of their painting session and running to cass and eugene in TEARS and they cry for a good 3 hours but obviously they want to be SUPPORTIVE and STRONG for their BOY!!! so they pull themselves together and when he brings it up again at dinner they’re like. “omg thats great!!! ^_^” and ryder is just like ?????????

and ryders almost a little hurt that they seem so unfazed so he tries to prod them like. Aren’t you guys upset. but they don’t budge. and so obviously right at the end as he’s saying goodbye to everyone and they’re STILL nonchalant abt it he just bursts into tears like “WHY AREN’T YOU GUYS SAD IM LEAVING :(“ and IMMEDIATELY the three of them all jsut run to him BAWLING

ryder rlly enjoys his time in the dark kingdom actually. obviously edmund and the brotherhood have a Lot of flaws in their approach to ruling….but that’s not rlly what ryder needs anyways. i think they’re very goal oriented and focused on what they can do as a unit rather than what other people think of them, and that’s a lesson ryder definitely needs to learn. not to mention he brings a lot of color to the place (both in a literal and metaphorical sense).

alina pretty much stays in corona tho…which her parents certainly aren’t complaining about. i think he really needs some time to stand up and take on more responsibility without ryder stepping in for him. the twins wont be taking on the thrones anytime soon, but i think when they do, they’ll end up switching- so ryder will be the king of the dark kingdom, and alina will take on the role as queen of corona. alina’s always had deeper ties to her kingdom than ryder did…not to his fault, but the pressure he’s had put on him just made it hard for him to focus on the things that Mattered, yk? he’s ended up being very stuck in his status, while alina has been a lot more down to earth and has always felt a closer connection to the public, if that makes sense… :3

but ryder and ilmari still visit all the time, and ilmari will take over the library one day too…like, raps, cass and eugene haven’t been Perfect parents by any means, but they’ve never failed to make sure their kids know just how strong, capable and loved they are. even though it hurts to see them go (and poor alina definitely has to deal with their theatrics and coddling for YEARS while her older siblings are gone), it’s very clear that no matter where they go, their kids will always know their home is with them, yk??? they love their parents so much and it just makes me so emo😭😭😭

additionally, i think uknighted dream kind of do some equivalent of fostering long after their own kiddos leave the nest… the three of them do a lot of community work, they have a lot of programs instilled for struggling families and kids alike. they end up helping pretty closely with a lot of the orphanages, not only with funding but also by putting in their own work. they visit a lot, come to tons of events…they end up forming a lot of bonds with the kids individually, or occasionally take them in when there isn’t anywhere else for them to go.

sometimes they know these kids for years, sometimes only for a few weeks…but they always try to stay in contact with them regardless. and even when that isn’t possible, they never forget about any of the kids they’ve met….so by the time they’re all old and grey, they basically have hundreds of pseudo-kids and grandkids all across the seven kingdoms, and in a way, their nest never really feels completely empty 🥹🫶

#tangled the series #rapunzels tangled adventure #princess rapunzel #tangled cassandra #eugene fizherbert #pansy-art #ask #tangled ask #pansy rambling again #tangled kids #alina #ryder #ilmari #atlus #cassunzel #new dream #uknighted dream #king edmund

[iraprince]

I adore all your art with cookie and was interested in Sapphicworld- but I’m curious (so plz don’t take this as a negative-) what exactly in your opinion sets it apart from other Queer PBTA hacks like Thirsty Sword Lesbians?

I’d just really like to hear your thoughts about it as a system and world especially given you are a indie developer yourself?

hi!! thank you!!

so, a few caveats before i start off — one, i actually haven't played many other pbta games (like for example i know Of thirsty sword lesbians + own a copy that i've poked around in but im not very familiar w it), so i honestly can't provide much in the way of comparing/contrasting it w other pbta stuff in the same vein, and my impressions of sapphicworld are pretty much just contained to the game as its own thing, not so much sapphicworld as a Type Of Game

and two, while i am a dev myself, i'm a huge novice! like, i'm proud of the stuff i put out and i love doing it, but i personally feel like my lack of experience is such that like, i don't think my opinions in this case are particularly informed by my own work as a dev or anything. all this to say im happy to answer this question, i think i just gotta tackle it from a different frame than what ur specifically asking!

BUT ANYWAY. i can still talk abt why im so excited abt sapphicworld in a way that has kind of outstripped other stuff in general, and for me it's about the world 100%. like i honestly spend close to no time thinking abt the fact that sw is even pbta to be honest. not that the mechanics + gameplay aren't important, bc they are thoughtfully crafted and well done and fun, and i'm saying that from the perspective of someone who playtested earlier versions that have now been reworked! it's just like, not what comes to mind first for me — what's exciting and fresh and irreplaceable abt the game in my mind is like. it is fully committed to immersing you in an extremely lush, strange, richly fleshed out world, one with a long history and folklore/mythology and a TON of really fun npcs who all have different subcultures and its own calendar with seasonal holidays and regional terrain with specific fleshed out dungeons/towns/etc to discover and even like, specific FOODS typical to each different region and and and and —

and maybe at first that seems kind of overwhelming, and tbh it is. when i first got into it and i was going thru the playtest document (which if im remembering right was like. ~300 pages shorter at the time than the current playtest doc) i DO remember anxiously thinking to myself "god this is a LOT and idk if i'll be able to retain enough of this to rp convincingly" etc etc. but like... it's just really compelling, and it does an incredible job of mixing humor and gravity and horniness in a perfect ratio that always comes across as intensely earnest and makes it equally easy to have a fun goofy time or a really emotional time, which i think is REALLY hard to do.

and while normally it's hard for me to get thru something that dense and long all i can really say is that i just straight up like it enough and was charmed by it enough to pick away at it until i grasped it and felt like i understood a bunch about the world, which also has a curve to it bc in structure and tone its very different from any of your... idk more Standard fantasy or sci fi worldbuilding, so it's not like u can immediately slot in ur expectations from other settings and just learn some new vocab words, it's a world that from my perspective also Functions differently than a lot of other fictional settings in a way that's a little hard to describe succinctly. (none of this is succinct to begin with but ykwim). it makes me want to gm my own campaign, really really bad, when usually i have always been absolutely Terrified of the idea of gming! idk man. it has a Flavor. it's full of Vapors. u get transported somewhere else reading it and playing it in a way i haven't experienced in a while and a lot of times after a playtest session i felt like my brain stayed behind in sapphicworld for a pretty long time.

i feel like i am sounding a little melodramatic and incoherent but like. genuinely sapphicworld is just a fictional world that i am really bone-deep charmed by and interested in and when i WAS reading thru the rulebook for those first days it did not take me long at all to find myself constantly thinking "i want to play in this world, i want to play in this world, i can't wait to play in this world," and i just think that's really special. and like — just as your curiosity abt comparing sw to tsl was not intended as a diss or a negative, what im abt to say is similarly neutral — im a person who sometimes finds it a little difficult to click with or feel excited abt a lot of the Queer Indie Stuff that i see get popular with other people, bc it just doesn't connect w my specific lesbian + trans experience; not that it feels inauthentic but that im like, oh, idk, i think these guys are just. not My Zone, ykwim. on the flip side so much of the humor and heart and transness and sex in sapphicworld is something that really resonates w me and just Clicks in a way that i have also found really special.

rounding myself off before i ramble for like five more paragraphs but just as one more morsel of something i like abt sapphicworld that is a little more concrete than me spinning around the room yelling "I JUST LIKE IT OKAY": one of the most fun parts of character creation is getting to mix and match your kind (sort of like ancestry/species, the form ur physical body takes) with a subculture. so u get things like a werewolf babe (cookie! babe being a subculture that focuses on being Like, Totally Hot), or a centaur knight, or a minotaur debaucher, or a vampire cowboy, or an organist (cthulu-y tentacle guy) scenester, or a skeleton wizard, etc etc etc etc — there are SO MANY to pick from that when i was trying to bait my friends into playing w me i couldn't find a convenient way to list them all so ppl could start thinking abt their characters. and every possible combination basically is interesting and amusing and fun and practically THROWS a great oc into your lap and i literally think i could amuse myself endlessly just Making Characters in sapphicworld and never actually playing w them.

[panting, disheveled] so tldr. i like it. uh. what sets sapphicworld apart from other ttrpgs to me is that i have fallen balls to the wall in love with the very soul of it to the point where i don't even really think about it in comparison to other games at all and it has just become an Experience to me and i suppose i cannot guarantee anyone else will fall into insane homosexual hysteria in the same way but here we are. HOPE THAT HELPS

(ALSO PSSST. idk if this is just perfect timing or if ur curiosity was specifically prompted by this but the @sapphicworldttrpg patreon DID just launch and if any of this has been intriguing u should check it out. okay mwah bye)

#anyway thank u bc ive been so busy these past few weeks/months ive had no time to rotate it in my brain #and im not caught up on the most current versions etc #so this was a nice opportunity to slow down and take a breath and geek out abt something i like a lot. :D #sapphicworld #ttrpgs #also hi eclipse i am a little embarrassed to have tagged u onto a post of me just like. Gushing- #-but i want ppl to be able to find the game account lol. [waves sheepishly] i like ur art. as u know.

[elekinetic]

user elekinetic do you have any tips to spare for outlining fics 😭 i feel like I word vomit any of the concept that I have in my head, and dialogue ,and build off that adding paragraphs as I go and I go so slow bc of it. But ive been trying hard lately to write a list of “scenes” and bullet point the story but yeah.

do you know anything that could help me have an idea of where to go start to finish instead of starting at the random spot I’ve come up with first? I waste so much writing time because I haven’t built a backstory for characters and things like that so i don’t always know how they start the story off, only the situation they’re in. Is that something that could help? Making a list for each character or something? Would love to hear your thoughts thank you! <3

hi! first of all i’m so flattered you asked! to be clear, i am a very slow writer too lmao and i’m relatively new to prose writing, and though in very confident in my understanding of what makes a good story (W screenwriting), i am still figuring out my outlining process. but hey! let’s learn together.

sorry in advance for how long this is. i love talking.

so i basically figure everything out in the outline and write after i feel very good about it. if you have a strong foundation, everything gets a hell of a lot easier. t kind of sounds like your process might be similar to mine, so i’m just gonna explain what i'm doing for my current project.

my key document is my “bible.” i split it up into a couple different sections using page breaks (page breaks my best friend ily page breaks):

pitch/word vomit summary

scene ideas

outline

notes

ok so wtf does that mean.

1. pitch/word vomit summary — explain your concept. bc i've got a film/tv background, im starting off with my logline. (e.g. "after robin learns will is gay, they have a heart to heart in an abandoned video store about insecurity and feeling alone. they learn they're not." sometimes i'll follow that up with a note to myself like, "this fic isn't robin finding out, this is what happens after. starts with her already knowing. will pov, focus on his perception of robin changing. subtly reference toward feelings about mike, dont come out (haha) and say it") then, i write as MUCH of the concept down as i can, like i'm explaining it to a friend. (sometimes i copy and paste rants from dms directly into the document). it can be totally out of order, non-sensical, contradictory. just get as many of your ideas down as possible. you want to be able to come back to this and be like, oh i totally forgot about that. vague chapter summaries, personal notes about themes, whatever you want. i have a list of beats that you find in romantic dramas for inspiration and a paragraph abt ways i want to parallel/subvert s3 of st. just. go ham. 2. scene ideas — this is pretty self explanatory. i take some of the stuff i have in the p/s and flesh it out, or put down new ideas. this is where i'm writing out dialogue in bullet points, or what i want them to be Really Saying. (e.g. "mike: [panics bc he feels seen, tries to flip it back on (redacted) and fails] ") this is for when i can see stuff more clearly or i get out of the shower with a whole exchange in my head. gonna be out of order, a little all over the place. 3. outline — so. this is where you start piecing it together. put the bullet points in order. figure out objective of each scene and what needs to happen to accomplish that goal. figure out pacing, what needs to happen when. this step is where im looking at dialogue and thinking "why does mike say that? why does he feel that way? what needs to happen to get him to this point emotionally?" or looking at scenes and thinking "these are two scenes with people arguing back to back. lets make sure they feel different and give the characters different tactics to get what they want (byler argument where mike is avoiding will vs max argument where max is avoiding lucas. i could use this to highlight similarities and differences in the relationships, but having two scenes with the same tactics back to back might feel repetitive. maybe i move the scenes farther apart or change circumstances. maybe mike and will are having a veiled argument while theyre with a group of friends in a public space and max and lucas' argument is outside max's house.) also asking if conflicts are resolved too quickly, if the miscommunications feel too convenient, if characters disappear or are only around as plot devices. write. troubleshoot. repeat. 4. random notes — everything else that doesnt fit. for me this is literally just taylor swift lyrics (writing the fic vaguely off of a Specific Song that SHOULD BE STREAMED MORE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE anyway) and links to posts i use as character reference to make sure im staying true to the characters. (remembering will said "i was being a total jerk to el, i deserved it," AND "you're ruining everything, and for what!"/"i wasn't moping!")

i want it to be clear im doing all of this at the same time. im jumping around and pulling new ideas and rearranging as stuff changes. i think the thing that's really hard is that i want to be able to sit down, write the outline, and then move on. but for us scatterbrained writers, you're gonna have to re-outline and readjust like. a thousand times. and that's okay. that's good! it feels tedious as hell but the story is so much better for it.

take your time. let yourself be slow. keep finding holes in your story and fill the world in as you fix them.

here are some more questions i ask myself to make the story better:

What are you trying to accomplish over the course of the story? What is it about? (for the will&robin fic, it was something about feeling seen for the first time.) When you get lost in your story or aren't sure why a scene feels stale, come back to this. is the scene furthering that goal?

What is changing internally for each of your main characters? (yes theyre dating by the end but like. what do they learn.)

Are the side characters people or props? (will pov scene of a party-wide picnic where everyone's talking but will is focused on mike's hands.... where is max's head at in the scene? you don't have to have a super long backstory and she doesn't have to be a big part of the plot, but if she's saying something, figure out why she's saying it. if will is having a heart to heart with el, understand why el is responding the way she is. the scene's goal may be to get will through a breakthrough, but el's circumstances will change in the scene too. figure out how this conversation lands with her. oh, and remember the adults are people too!)

Why is this character saying this/why are they responding this way? (this should answer your "where do i start?" question. start in that random spot and figure out A) why they are there and B) why they are reacting the way they do (see last bullet point).

side note: some of the best advice i ever got was "enter the scene late, exit early." skip the prologue. try starting from that random spot. if it feels like something's missing, figure out exactly what that something is, and go from there

Do the stakes feel high enough?

What do i need to set up to make sure this scene/beat is satisfying as possible? (are will and mike going to have a big argument? oh, so we have to show tension before.... BAM you have another scene to write and your outline is fuller)

i could go on a lot longer but. basically.

i edit while i write. i'm someone who needs a very fucking strong outline and a very fucking clear idea of the story before i can start writing it. i'm putting probably 70-80% of the leg work in at the start so i can focus on making the prose (or script, most of the time) the best it can be.

THAT BEING SAID, this is just the way i do it and i have like. a fic and a half published. im taking my sweet time bc im creatively burned out and this is for fun first and foremost. like i said. i am a Very Slow Writer.

i highly, highly recommend hitting up the ask boxes of writers like @/strangeswift, @/wiseatom, @/astrobei, or @/andiwriteordie. no guarantees on responses bc they are busy ppl with busy lives but i really do think theyre some of the best writers out here right now, and im not just saying that bc they're my friends. abby (strangeswift) and i have been each other's sounding board through a lot of projects and she's almost done with one of her first Big Fics, so its worth asking her about that.

i hope this helps! ah!!

#seriously THANK YOU SO MUCH for asking i feel underqualified but i love talking about writing and writing processes #jesus christ this is 1.4k words #also if anyone seeing this is interested in having a beta reader for story notes hmu lol #outlining

[peachycrime]

SLK or Spider/Kiri/Lo'ak Headcanons

idk what these will be about tbh i’m just writing as i think of stuff lmao

Kiri had a phase where she was convinced she was a witch because everywhere she went an animal would just waddle up to her

Spider, Lo’ak and Jake talk to babies like they’re grown people, like no baby talk and it’s hilarious

Lo’ak was once holding a baby, and you know how you hold them high in the air and they’re above you? Yea they were having a moment and then the little creature threw up all over his shirt and started giggling right after

“Dude seriously? we were having a moment wtf” it took everything in him not to just drop the baby

Lo’ak would copy everything Jake did as a kid, his lil mini me fr

Lo’ak’s first words were either dad or Teyam

Spider and Lo’ak both have severe anger issues and lord knows what would happen if they ever turned on eachother abt that anger

Lo'ak is always reprimanded about the things he does, gets yelled at and gets in trouble in situations where he isn't truly at fault. Authority figures never let him explain himself and always assume he's lying or trying to makes excuses and they expect him to just take it and move on. He does, but all that annoyance and anger at a situation he can't help tends to come back up a lot.

With Spider on the other hand, adults can never seem to shut up with their backhanded comments,

"you're nicer than i thought you'd be considering your dad"

"Oh wow you're so smart I didn't think you'd get it'

"You look just like him" (in a bad way)

"Oh you're good at this, who would've thought"

All this stuff and he can't really say anything because he'd be proving them right. So he stays silent, doesn't argue back and boy does he hate it.

One time Neytiri made a comment on the wrong day at the wrong time and he honestly considered violence before he just silently walked out of the room. He definitely punches and breaks stuff but he tries to restrain himself which adds to the pent up anger

They've both used that anger on their bullies, Spider broke the guys nose and dislocated his shoulder by pulling it up his back and making him promise to never show his face again

Lo'ak just went straight to the punches, broke the dudes nose and left him slack jawed

So if you ever catch them in a slightly off mood and you even try to talk to them or act any sort of way, you're getting sent to the nurse. I'm sorry i don't make these rules

Kiri is the mediator, she doesn't want to be but she sometimes ends up being the most rational because when she's upset, anger isn't her default unlike the other two

Lo'ak collects comic books, Jake started the obsession and he went wild. Have a comic or manga you wanna borrow? Vintage or not it's probably in his room somewhere

Spider is a math genius, the formulas are just free balling in his head and it makes it easy for him.

He's also a literature enthusiast but has a hard time expressing his own ideas on paper, great public speaker though

Lo'ak definitely over analyzes his favorite characters, gets sad and cries silently abt it

Kiri is an all around science nerd, she goes to class just because she enjoys helping out w hands on science stuff, most of the content isn't new for her

Kiri despises chemistry, she understands it but finds it uninteresting. Ofc biology and botany are where it’s at

All language nerds

All great at physical education, i mean like the actually science behind the body, they have all the muscle names memorized etc

Kiri is their little jewel, Lo’ak especially, he tries to make it the least obvious but Spider definitely tells her how much Lo’ak cherishes her

Spider is very open with his affections, he just doesn’t feel the need to hide it, they live that loves that about him

Spider and Neteyam know how to cook a mean meal, put them in a kitchen together and you’re literally drooling at the smell

Spider is a spicy food enthusiast right along with Jake and Neytiri

Kiri has had a cat for 4 years, Jake has only known for 2 years because he used to be terrified of them and Kiri didn’t want him to freak out

He now carries said cat like it’s his mini purse

I’m all out

i’ll be delivering some locorro crumbs soon!

#lo’ak avatar #neteyam #spider kiri and lo’ak #avatar james cameron #avatar spider #avatar the way of water #neytiri #kiri sully #avatar headcanons #locorro

[gerardpilled]

Related to your post abt Gerard on social media and stuff : I don’t think Gerard leaving social media has anything to do with him being a celebrity and how he wanted to distance himself from his fans but more to do with how media highlighting news and it being overwhelming (he talked abt this a bunch of times) and it’s a real reason to leave social media. A lot of ppl do. Other than that I don’t think as fans, it was good either. While yeah some ppl are weird it’s always good to see your fav artist being just as normal as any other person. It debunks some weird artist standards. Besides that there were times that he had genuine conversations with fans abt movies, music and comics which again was refreshing to see as an artist because alot of celebrities try to be funny or just an asshole on the net. Personally what made me like him and care abt him out side of music was how he talks abt art in general. He’s an artist with a creative mind and while he wasn’t always talking abt art all the time it was just nice to have that kind of person on the internet. Not alot of celebrities talk like he does.

I’m not arguing with you and I’m not really interested in trying to figure out Gerard’s exact intentions and mindset with his actions. I’m not saying that in a negative tone I’m just saying it neutrally lol!! I based the idea that Gerard hates fame off of an interview he did a few years back. Specially, the part I’m including below. I didn’t mean to word it to make it sound like he was doing it out of resentment of his fans! I just think if someone hates fame but fails to distance themself from it, then they are going to start to resent the people who give them that attention. Just my opinion!

The excerpt:

(Transcribed: But fame isn't for me, and i don't think it ever was, though i briefly found myself welcoming of the attention, being that I felt invisible in high school, though that was largely by design, or the invisibility was something l embraced and fought to retain. I believe that fame is in some ways like a disease, and it either gets you or it doesn't. You either beat it or you don't, and it can be terminal for some people, as we sometimes see people under the microscope of fame succumb to suicide, or meet other tragic ends due to their situation. But there is hope, and there is learning. This is not a "woe is me" observation, and obviously there are comforts and benefits to being allowed to make art for a living, to have an audience, and I am extremely lucky to have that. But I have seen fame run rampant on people's psyche and physicality, and I see people in this situation caught in a loop, a cycle, of needing to feel relevant to feel self value, or to continue having a career, putting yourself worth and livelihood in other people's hands. And sometimes people do things in order to stay relevant, grasping tightly to that relevance, that are unbecoming, and I feel I was at times just as guilty of that. I learned a lot of lessons the hard way. and stepped away from the spotlight as much as possible, in order to take a hard look at myself - and ask myself the hard questions. I learned a lot by doing that. And I don't consider myself better or more evolved than people caught in that Ioop, have empathy for them, and I'm always rooting for them. I know I have gotten slightly off topic,…)

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[g-xix]

THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME KNOW, TOO SV5 NONNIE!!!!! Lmk how you've been too bc just the other day asw i was thinking it's been so long since i last talked to you :(

HIHI GRACIE <3

i got logged out of my account for a while so i haven’t actually been able to chat w u, even tho i wanted to :’(

i’ve travelled back to my school unfortunately, and even though my exams are up, my history and law teachers decided to just give us more tests. i’m currently studying for those, but last week i’m telling u some demon must’ve possessed me or some shit bc omd it felt like i had the worst sickness known to man. i’m somewhat better now though, but i’m behind on a lot of my school work, so i won’t be very active these next days/weeks unfortunately 😓 i’ll still check up on u tho !!

also a little f1 rant while i’m already here, it’s only 17 more days till it starts again !! i’m soosososo excited !! did u see the news about lewis going to ferrari? he’s my fav on the current grid, so I’m not really sure how i feel about it. i mean, mercedes hasn’t been treating him as well recently, and they’ve also dropped on their production and car developing. but at the same time, ferrari? nando and seb could both tell u what a horrible idea that is, lewis. i really want him to get his 8th before he retires, but i’m scared he won’t 🙁

anywho !!! what about u ?? how have you been ?? i’ve missed chatting w u, even though i read all of your posts 😁 anything interesting at school or any upcoming projects for us readers u can tell us abt? 👀

Awhhwhwhhh why'd u log out? To cheat on me w an alt or j to recentre your life? respectfully hoping it's the latter

And no litr, everyone ik is really quite sick atm so I'm hoping you get back to good health very very soon because from what I've seen this cold-covid-RAT looks absolutely awful to have. Take care of yo goofy ahh sv5 nonnie, eat your vitamins n minerals and keep healthy

And what's "it"? Like, THE f1? And is F1 like football, like yk, are there European races or is it just worldwide? And are there qualifiers + how do they decide which countries race?

Wait nvm im a fucking idiot i j realised the teams that race are car brands/teams not countries 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Dear God I'm sorry for wasting anyone's time by making u read that, that is honestly embarrassing behaviour on my behalf.

But yeah! My mum said smth ab Hamilton being a driver for Ferarri atm (kinda flew over my head bc i dont rmbr who he drove for initially). And oh, mercedes have been neglecting him? That's good that Lewis is out and into a team that'll treat him better and help him win too.

And 8th what? 8th like, win? If so i hope that too. Well, i don't really know what I hope. All I know is that Stroll is hot and apparently looks as though he's been "freshly fucked into a mattress" (idk i posted a pic ab him and the reblogs still haunt me to this day), Seb's got a nice family and bread baking hobby, fans want to fuck Oscar, Lando and Max, and the rest are a little bit foreign to me

Isn't there a movie coming out (maybe out now tbf) about a racer that was a video game neek but got recruited by Ferrari or another big racing group? Do lmk the name + whether you've seen it + whether it's out + who it's acc based on bc it looks super super super interesting imo

And YAYAYAY nice to see you've still been watching (even if silently)

I'm doing well ty, I've decided it's time to get outta seasonal depression n kickstart loving life again.

I've got a scholar's exam coming up which is gna be hard to get so everyone manifest or pray for me pls, either works...

And in terms of projects, currently I'm doing s'more HC's (AMP eating out and another genre), ATV fluff, ATV threesome oneshot, and a Kinktober-core smut for ChrisMD!!!

Stay in touch SV5 nonnie, it's always acc bare cute talking to u

PEACE N LOVE!!!!

#WAFFLE!! #long rant myb broskis #f1 #formula one #formula 1 #lewis hamilton #ferrari #seb vettel #sebastian vettel #alonso #fernando alonso #stroll #lance stroll #lando norris #lando #oscar piastri #max verstappen

[jazzythursday]

Tagged by @aphroditestummyrolls for belated end of the year questions. Thanks for thinking of me! 🥹💖

Tagging @stormkpr @waterloou @sparrowmoth @its-tortle if you feel so inclined

What is your favourite thing you created?

I’m going with Cutting Loses for this one, because it’s the first wesper thing I posted on ao3 and the fic I go back to reread the most. It’s also a really solid example of my favourite way to write Wylan’s inner monologue and characterisation.

Which work are you proudest of?

Everyday, Just a Little or a Little Bit—My baby, my child, my 40k love letter to wesper. And I am so so close to finishing it!

Is there anything you are proud of that you achieved this year?

For writing, I’m really proud that I completed all the wesper week prompts earlier in the year. I loved participating and I feel like it helped a lot in developing my writing.

And something I’m proud of outside of writing—I’ve always had a really hard time meeting people through fandom, but finding mutuals on here through wesper and talking to so many wonderful people on discord is something I’m so proud of getting to experience. (And Mutuals reading this, just know that you make my little corner of the internet so much brighter, and even though I’m not the best at reaching out I’m always happy to chat abt anything 💖)

Did you explore anything new this year? (A new way to be creative, a trope you didn’t write before, or an idea you hadn’t thought of earlier, etc.)

Writing Wylan and Jesper as neurodivergent—and exploring my own nurodivergence through writing—is completely new to me, but it’s something that I’ve really enjoyed and want to continue this year!

Which work gave you the most difficulty?

The 4th chapter of Everyday has been a big challenge, I think just because I had a clearer direction for the first three and I always knew where I was going. Because 4th is after the original arc I planned, it’s been harder to nail down what I want out of it. I kept fighting on myself about which sections were too long and what needed more, and feeling too tired/busy/stressed to make decisions about it before winter break.

What was your biggest creative challenge this year?

Probably not letting perfectionism and low self esteem stop me from writing? Getting myself to actually write, and then edit, and actually post things—feeling like my writing is actually worth beta-ing and caring about as much as I do, etc. I go through periods sometimes of not being able to even look at my drafts without feeling overwhelmed, and so not falling off the wagon completely even through my accidental hiatus the last few months has been a real challenge.

Which work brought you the most joy?

Hmm. As far as fics go I want to say it’s Everyday? Buts it’s also brought me the most stress lol. I think what’s really brought me the most joy is just talking to people about my fics. Getting feedback on ao3 and on all the drabbles I’ve posted on tumblr throughout the year.

Which of your works do you think people should check out?

All of them if they want to! But Everyday, Just a Little or a Little Bit, Cutting Losses, I Need to Leave (Please Stay), and Careless is The Fall are all personal faves of mine.

Do you have creative plans for next year? Is there anything exciting you’re currently working on?

SO MANY (if I can find the time and energy) that I’m really excited to get to! Even once I post the last chapter of Everyday, there’s still so many moments and scenes and ideas from it that I’ve wanted to expand into one shots. To name a few: an expanded scene from the end of ch 2, Jesper’s pov of some of ch 3, and an outsider pov with the bookkeeper from ch 1 (he has a name and his husband has a name and they both have backstories 🤗)

There are also still a lot of wips in my docs that I’ve been neglecting. The wylan whump fic, jealous jesper, multiple post-ck things, jesper character study, and so many more.

Lastly, any words of wisdom or anything else you would like to share?

Write what you want to read, and chances are that it will find other people who will be so happy you wrote it.

#jazzy writes #wesper #six of crows #shadow and bone

[omentranslates]

Owari no Seraph ch 121 English fan translation

Spoilers for the new chapter, but I’ve gone through it for anyone who wants it a few hours early

Also the pictures were a little obscured this time so there was some that I couldn’t read well, sorry about that. I’m also doing this on my phone so that’s why the formatting is like this.

A single car traveling through the destroyed town…

Mika: Hey, Yuuchaaan

Yuu: Hm?

Mika: Where does this go?

Yuu: Secret~

Mika: Secret, huh?

Yuu: Guess you’ll just have to wait and see~

Mika: …well, no, I mean I can see what’s smack dab in front of me.

Yuu: Wowww, our skillful Mika has already found it out.

Mika: “Found it out…?”

Chapter 121: The Final Sunrise

Mika: Wait. You weren’t aiming for the massive forest, you’re gonna try and climb the mountain aren’t you!?

Yuu: Well who would come all this way and not climb it?

Mika: PLENTY OF PEOPLE??? Who WOULD climb it in this situation???

Mika: WAIT ARE YOU SERIOUSLY GOING UP??? YOU’VE GOTTA BE KIDDING. WHAT EVEN FOR???

Yuu: Well if we climb it we’ll have the memory right?*

Mika: What the hell kind of memory do you want!?

*these were difficult to read behind the overlay take w grain of salt

Yuu: WHOAA!! THIS IS SO COOL, ITS MASSIVE!!!

Mika: And you’re so loud.

Yuu: Gotta be the biggest in Japan. **

Mika: I know. Ok but why are you always trying to climb to the highest possible place when we’re supposed to be laying low?

Yuu: Well don’t you just wanna see if you can?

The whole top half of this line was covered, take w grain of salt

Mika: Not even a little.

Yuu: Well it’d be easy to hide here wouldn’t it? Do you know anything about Mt. Fuji’s huge expanse of forest?

Mika: Ah, that’s right. So you think we can hide in the sea of trees?

90% sure on this but the word for where they’re hiding is kind of hidden

Yuu: I think Guren mentioned it in class once. Something about the magnetic field or something being supernatural somehow or whatever.

Mika: You really can’t remember anything.

Yuu: I sucked at all the magic stuff.

Mika: Well maybe hiding in the forest is a good idea. Since what we need is time.

Mika: ….the last.

Mika: ……so that’s what it is

Yuu: Right right right! So then let’s do the most fun mountain climbing trip ever! I’m gonna go get some more snacks.

Yuu: Mika let’s go!

Mika: Hm

Yuu: Come on, smile!

Mika: Yeah yeah I know

Yuu: WHOAAA!! AMAZING!!!!

Yuu: It’s so beautiful!

Mika: Yeah, it’s pretty amazing…

Mika: Hey Yuuchan

Yuu: Yeah?

Mika: Where do prayers from here go?

Yuu: Uh…god, isn’t it?

Mika: Yeah, which god.

Yuu: I dunno. Not the First, though.

Mika: Ah, true! Great, we’ll pray to the First’s enemies!

*muttering prayers*

Yuu: Alright….I’M ON TOP!!

Mika: Isn’t someone gonna strike you down if you climb on that thing?

Yuu: It should be fine we’ve taken more than our share of divine punishment. They even destroyed the world.

Mika: That’s Yuuchan for you, always looking ahead.

Yuu: Well, our fight to save the world starts now anyways.

Yuu: JUST WATCH!!!! I DUNNO IF YOURE A GOD OR AN ANGEL OR A DEMON BUT WE’RE GONNA DO THIS!!!

Mika: Yup. Doesn’t get any more blasphemous than this.

Yuu: *first part unreadable* Hurry up and come here! The view’s amazing!

Mika: Yeah ok

Yuu: Check it out

Mika: I’m looking

Yuu: Glad you joined me?

Mika: Yeah, I’m glad. Since I was able to see you looking so happy.

Yuu: You look happy too!

Mika: Yeah, it’s been a while since I’ve had fun.

Yuu: Ah come on, if you’re gonna be alive you gotta have some fun. No matter what.

Mika: True.

Yuu: Let’s even have fun while we’re saving the world. Ah, by the way, this is the first sunrise***

*** he’s either saying it’s the first sunrise of the year or this is the first sunrise he’s ever watched, it’s hard to tell from the phrasing, 初日の出 means first sunrise of the year but in the sentence before it he’s only talking abt him even tho Mika is also seeing it

Mika: No way-!?

Mika: Yuuchan

Yuu: Yeah?

Mika: The view we saw together today, I don’t think I’ll forget it as long as I live.

Yuu: Nah, how about instead, after we win this thing we live so long we forget about it completely.

Yuu: After (something blurry) the mass resurrection (I think) we’re gonna have so much fun we forget every sad thing that’s happened til now.****

Mika: Alright, if we can do it

Yuu: OF COURSE WE CAN

Mika: Yeah

Yuu: We-

Yuu: ARE GONNA DO IT!!!

Mika: woo!

Shibuya: Japan Imperial Demon Army Capital City

Ky Luc: Alright, filthy humans. You listening?

Ky Luc: We have absolutely no interest in you. So if you don’t resist, we won’t have to kill you. However-

Ky Luc: If even one of you tries something, we can kill you by the thousands. Got it?

Ky Luc: DO YOU GOT IT?

Soldiers: YES.

(The sfx here is of a cute smile)

Lest Karr: Urd-sama? Shibuya is completely (something covered up).

(If I had to guess I’d say “subdued” but I seriously can’t read it through the overlay)

Shinya: This has gotten real bad, huh Kureto oniisan? Humanity is gonna go extinct at this rate. We need to do our best to get outside and make contact with Guren.

Shinya: Oniisan? Oniisan? You’re not dead over there are you?

Kureto: Shut up. I’m thinking.

Vampire: The protection circle is complete

Vampire: All clear on both sides. Do you understand? The test subject we’re taking on this time is a god. If we don’t do this meticulously, we die. There is no room for error.

Vampire: If there are any outstanding members of the Imperial Demon Army’s researchers, assign them to the Hyakuya Project too. This is what we’ve been fighting for for millennia. Stay sharp.

Soldier: Yessir

Vampire: The protection circle is complete, Rigr-sama!

In the sea of trees

Mika: You ready for this?

Yuu: Yup.

Mika: Alright then.

Rigr: I’ll be seeing your past. First.

Rigr: And when I find out what it is you want to protect and what your goals are, I am going to destroy them all.

Rigr: That’s how we’re going to escape your curse.

Urd: Careful, Rigr.

Rigr: Well then, to see into your past

Mika: Into our past

Both: We go

The end text is almost completely blurred, it says smth abt the true culprit of the end of the world.

** Japanese writes a loud voice as a big voice so it’s not totally clear whether they’re talking abt it being the biggest mountain in Japan or Yuu being the loudest person in Japan. I’m pretty sure it’s the mountain but the ambiguity is funny to me skshsk

****I can’t figure out how to convey this completely in English but it’s less of “we’re going to have so much fun” and more of “we’re going to spend so much time having fun” if that makes sense?? Like the verb implies that they’re like. Passing either time or their lives that way

There’s a QR code on the first page that says an OnS exhibition will be held in March 2023

Thank you for reading

#owari no seraph #english translation

[apompkwrites]

Helloo, before I’ve just been lurking around your blog (love ur works btw) and thought of a little concept for little kingscholar (bear in mind I have not played twst myself so things might be a bit inaccurate)

Imagine they’re actually not forgotten. The elders put their all in their education and reputation- to an overbearing extent. Falena is a good king now sure, but he was young and they were unprepared (i think, correct me if i’m wrong). Leona ended up a lazy failure, so with the 3rd and last Kingscholar, it is imperative they don’t mess up! And by that, it’s fast-paced lessons taking place all day, everyday. Extracurricular activities every other week and sending little king into society early to introduce them to the real world.

It’s too much. The lessons fly by to quick they can barely comprehend anything. They’re activities always tire them out but they can’t rest, they have a party to go to that evening! But it’s hard to enjoy it between all the scrutinising stares from the other nobles. But the staring doesn’t stop back at the palace either. The elders have them under watch everyday to make sure they aren’t slacking. It could become a habit, and then we’d have Leona 2.0..and the elder definitely did not want that.

I’ll leave it there since it’s just an idea that I had. It could end up with little king running away, but the difference is that now their disappearance is of top priority. Knowing that, they would have to go father than the outlands (idk what it called help). I think that would lead to them running so far they end up meeting another black sheep. It’d be funny if it was either little shroud or little schoneheit (I CANT FOR THE LIFE OF ME REMEMBER HOW ITS SPELT….) since both are either ignored or judged by society but still have to remain perfect.

Ok fr this time i’m ending this here. Hope your doing well (Also if you dont mind, could i be 🦋anon? If thats taken then dw abt it)

Bye!

mm i really like the idea of the lessons being so overwhelming to a point where lil kingscholar cannot take it anymore. they run away, not because of any abuse, but because of the unintentional abuse they've been put through. they get no rest, no time to recuperate, just lessons.

i can imagine them running away to find lil schoenheit? idk i just like the idea of vil meeting two beastmen(people?) when he's younger :))

and yes yes id love a new anon :DD

#a pompk answers #black sheep #a 🦋anon's rambles

[turbulentscrawl]

Hello there! I hope you’re doing well! I love your writing your are literally sustaining the entire idv fandom rn skcbsnsnd. I would like to request a match-up!

My name is Nico and I am a 21 year old female (she/her maybe they if i’m feeling spunky) bisexy (bisexual). ehmmmm. Idk what to say already LOL. uh I believe i am infp and 4w5 I am a scorpio rising and sun and capricorn moon. I personally think that my duality is silly, weird, kinda naive tbh, cute, chill, friendly, maybe a bit talkative? but im also very introspective, melancholic, wise, quiet, perceptive, thoughtful. i can be quiet insecure/self-deprecating/self-critical, i have a hard time being vulnurable and usually help others without allowing myself to be helped. i’m stubborn in that way and like to be independent and tough even though i crave being cared for lol. i am very passionate and empathetic and i have very strong intuition although i tend to ignore it in favor of “logic” and my attempts to feel in control. i am ambitious and always come up with grand ideas in my head and hyperfixate on them and ultimately become disappointed when i can’t bring it to fruition because it’s too ambitious. however that has also made me resourceful because i will find work arounds to make my ideas possible, even if it’s not how i originally planned.

i am a sort of solitary creature, and i know how to be my own best friend and to enjoy my own company, not having grown up with lots of friends. i didn’t used to go out much and i used to think i was very quiet and unsociable but after going out a bit more i have discovered that i can actually be a bit of a social butterfly, and it comes more naturally than i previously thought, although it makes sense considering i could talk to anyone and was a great leader/public speaker as a child. (and then anxiety/depression hit and i retreated into a shell as a teen.)

I used to say my favourite colour was green because I really like it, but then I thought it was grey because that is the colour i perceive myself as. but lately i have began thinking it might be red as that is what i have always been drawn to, regardless of what i think. idk why but it felt important to mention that.

anywhoo. my hobbies are playing any and all video games, watching horror movies, playing board games/card games, doing puzzles/puzzle books (crosswords, sudoku, word search), playing piano, singing. i love antiques and i love buying them because they are practical and beautiful and often much sturdier and long lasting than more modern things (they just ain’t built to last anymore) and i believe that they have so much character and soul and it’s tragic that there is a lost art in craftsmanship of furniture and clothing and like. shoes! and pens and clocks and everything! so i like to give those old beauties a new home where i can actually USE them as well as admire them.

i also love singing i have been told im good at singing but honestly i think im only mediocre. i sing in choir and i would honestly love to be an opera singer haha even though that might seem silly. i would love to be in a band too and i genuinely have been attempting to pursue that. oh i also study biochemistry in university i am suffering but it is interesting and i have always had an innate curiosity about things. i was a very dark but bright and curious child. i was fascinated by death and other things as a kid, but i never found it morbid it was just interesting to me.

i love science and random fun facts but i also love tarot and astrology (even though i barely know anything about it) and i am interested occultism and metaphysics and would love to know more about it because i don’t believe science and “magic” kind of stuff is mutually exclusive.

i feel like i am writing too much but you said write a lot so 😭 i enjoy talking abt myself as im sure most people do but i always feel bad for it lol. uhmm i do like writing and i used to do it a lot but ive been struggling with it lately. i also love lots of different types of “aesthetics” i suppose, such as dark academia/victoria /gothic/antique but also cottage core/witchy/nature/kinda hippy forest lady but also grunge/punk/garage rock/seattle in the 90s but also 70s and 80s style but also 2000s but i also sometimes enjoy modern fashion. idk im a real mixed bag but i love it i mean there are just so many things to love in the world. i am a very sleepy gal too i mean some people wake up early to be a hater but i wake up early so i can have time to go back to sleep.

i cant really think of much else. it’s hard to perceive yourself ya know, but hopefully there is enough information there for you and i sincerely apologise if it is too much!! thank you very much for your consideration and i hope you truly have a wonderful day. sending you good vibes full of love mwuah <333333 :3

oh i also really love sharks and foxes and bears and bats and squids. and cats. and silly little shrimps and trilobytes. and pterodactyls. OK WNOUGH-

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Yes I love lots and lots of info 👀

I ship you with Fiona Gilman!

-From how you write and what you’ve described, I’m getting a sense that you strive for a strong identity, but both struggle with and respect the complexity of trying to achieve that. Due to the nature of her worship, Fiona finds it attractive when people accept the intricacies of life. Things are rarely easy to pin down, life is fluid, people included, and she thinks it takes great wisdom to understand that.

-She shares your curiosity for life and the universe, and since your expertise seem to be so different, teaching one another is a great excuse to spend time together. ;) Unfortunately, there are some things in relation to the occult and her worship that she simply cannot share. It’s for your safety, as much as she trusts your ability to comprehend things that would break others…better safe than sorry.

-Fiona is an ambivert. She’s good with socializing, but she also likes equal time to have quiet time. Since you’re still getting the feel for these things, she’s fine letting you take the lead on going out or staying in. If you need space away from her? That’s fine too, there’s plenty of things she can busy herself with in the meantime.

-She’s both persuasive and a little sneaky, and will take steps to assist you in getting better at accepting help. If she has to, and if your workload is too big, she will go behind your back to help with a few things. Nothing major, partially because she feels bad and partially because she hopes you won’t notice, but she can’t just do nothing when she feels like you’re sinking.

-She’s not much of a nap-taker, but as long as she’s not busy with something she does like to offer you her lap as a pillow.

Runner Up: Grace

#idv matchup #turbulentscrawl

[boobchuy]

Hello my brain has been infested by the wandersong au again I am back to dump more thoughts. I actually have a draft on the post that started the ws/amphibia crossover but I never finished it for some reason? And that post is so long so I’m just sending a new ask. Anyways I’m thinking specifically abt their powers bc like, realistically they would not have their powers ok but I LOVE magic powers I think they’re so cool. So like, you mentioned a while ago in that one post their powers being connected to music which I really like!! Canonically all the girls can sing but it’s more interesting to assign them instruments.

Sasha is guitar, obviously, and as for how it’d work you know like, the shockwave effect ppl give guitars??? Yeah it’s like. That but in a more literal/game sense. Thinking abt it it would not be practical for marcy to have drums like all the time I guess. You can like hit almost anything like a drum she’ll be fine. And I’m not actually sure the specifics of how her powers would work this is all falling apart around me. Umm I guess there doesn’t have to be like, specific specifics bc like all of them would kind of work the same in a game sense, which I know isn’t perfect but that’s just how I’m thinking abt it bc wandersong is game.

I don’t want to just give Anne a guitar again so she would be the one that sings I think. They don’t have to have their calamity powers it can just work that like that, but an idea I did have abt their powers would be Sasha just hitting a sick shred (and for the others the same but like, non guitar) and that being able to unlock their powers. That sounds too simple but it like makes sense in my mind, emotions would also have to factor into it too so they don’t just like go calamity whenever. Again bc the temples aren’t there I’m not fully sure how it’d work? But I imagine it as like, the gems just making it easier for them to unlock the natural magic in that world. Bc kiwi can manipulate and use magic by singing, but only pretty basic things and they don’t transform themself. But for the trio it’s like, a magic in the world that the gems makes them able to harness and use w/ out being witches. I was going to add more but this is like incredibly long so I’ll just leave it at that.

THIS WAS A DELIGHTFUL ASK TO RECEIVE. THANK YOU.

i really like that you sent this because if theres one thing i havent been paying attention to when it comes to this au its definitely the lore and how the girls affect everything

ASSIGNING THE GIRLS INSTRUMENTS IS SO BIG BRAINED... like what you said, how the entirety of magic in wandersong seems to base it on music, it being the oldest form of it iirc, then the gems provide a small bit of that. for some reason. questioning if the guardian still exists here, and if they did, would they know of eya's existence, and if sending the girls in a dying world and seeing if it changes things is their way of a test. completely getting side-tracked and not even considering that the people who lived in that world in the first place are capable of stopping it themselves. hm.

BUT ANYWAY. BACK TO THE GIRLS' INSTRUMENTS. sasha steals a guitar during the ship to mohabumi and its all downhill from there. was there a guitar there I FORGOR. she brags about how cool it is compared to audreys ocarina and they argue again <3

WHAT IF MARCY KEPT DRUMSTICKS. she taps it on anything and anyone at any given moment and its fantastic except for when it blows that thing or person like. two buildings away. miriam is proud and mildly delighted, for obvious reasons.

anne singing !!!! makes me happy :) kiwi being happy also and helping her through it when they find out they have these powers. or maybe anne could even play the flute that miriam plays >:0 honestly i dont. have any other ideas for it orz. brain empty for anne atm sorry girl

i did lean into not letting the girls have any sort of power, but 'magic powers are cool' is a hard argument to beat so I DIGRESS. (ALSO TO REPEAT THIS AU IS JUST FOR FUN !!! NO NEED TO KEEP OURSELVES INTO JUST ONE SHIRT. WE CAN MAKE STUFF UP DIFFERENTLY FROM ONE ANOTHER!! MORE CONTENT THAT WAY !!!!!)

#talking to frogs #ws au #i love brainrotting thank u again sm sm i love this au i love ram #bling and making absolutely no sense

[skepticalarrie]

Hi there, hope you’re doing well! I have a question about Elean*r. And if you don’t want to answer I totally understand (or if you’d rather answer this in messages rather than publicly so as to not stir the pot I’d be glad to listen). Ok So when management put El and Louis together, she was the same age as Louis, and I guess I kinda feel bad for her bc, just like Louis, she couldn’t have known how long this stunt was going to last. And like yeah over the years she’s obviously used Louis’ image to her advantage, but I find it hard to blame her for that bc she was so young and couldn’t have realized what she was saying “yes” to. I just find it so hard to believe that Louis and El wouldn’t at the very least have an understanding with each other. If Louis really hated her, he could probably tell management he wanted a different “girlfriend”. And El could say the same thing to her management. There’s plenty of models and closeted people in the industry sea. That’s why I think that they are on good terms. Like he has to know how much it must suck to have his fanbase dislike her for being with him bc they know the truth abt his relationship w Harry. And it’s a “convenient” relationship for the both of them, so I don’t see why either of them would make themselves even more miserable by actively hating each other instead of just saying “this sucks but this is where we are, let’s make the best of it” and that way they both save each other the stress. They both must realize that they were taken advantage of at a young age by their respective management, so I find it hard to believe that L could fault El from “benefitting” from a stunt that got out of hand. And If I was Louis I’d be more comfortable being with a “girlfriend” that’s been there since the beginning (and stuck through 10 years) and understands the relationship and what management put H and L through, instead of a new random model that uses him for clout. (Yes El uses his image to keep her relevant but that’s different than a “girlfriend” that exploits Louis for clout on social media, esp considering El rarely even posts about him. maybe I’m just too soft but I feel bad when people refer to her as “The dog-walker” I guess my question is why do people hate her as much as Octopus?

Hi, anon. How are you?

I'm sorry but I think you're screaming about it in the wrong place? I don't think people hate her more than Olivia - not even close - I don't think Louis hates her either, and I don't think she's using his image for anything. So I'm just going to keep this short. I think they're work colleagues and get along fine, not friends but she's someone who has been around Louis for a long time and I think her job goes beyond being a beard, I totally believe Louis was personally involved in bringing her back for Elounor 2.0, btw. And I'm guessing she works as some sort of PA as well. And this is because this is a comfortable position for him, she's not as annoying as Danielle and she mostly makes herself invisible, they don't need to interact much, so it's a win-win situation while he still needs to have a beard. She's not doing it to promote him, to promote herself, she's there because he can't be out, she's a beard and I just talked about the importance of that here.

Now.... are you seriously comparing Louis' closeting with Eleanor's choice of being a stunt? Yeah she was young and maybe she had no idea what she was getting herself into, but she could leave at any point. It's not like the girl was starving and she desperately needed a job. Girlfriends are replaceable, they replaced her when she probably didn't want to make part of babygate. She's willingly contributing to his closet. So I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry for her. This discussion is absurd

#ask #elounor

[drzootsuit]

Hi, I saw ur comment on the AI post while combing thru the notes. I’ve been seeing a lot of gorgeous architectural images come up in my feed and I’m discovering a lot of it is done with AI. I remain on the fence abt whether it’s cool or not, or whether to use it, bc im uneducated on what the ramifications could be. Do u think if we didn’t live in a capitalistic shitworld where artists didn’t have sell their creativity and their labor to live, that AI would still hinder or push out human creative expression? Is it’s shittiness inherent or is it just bad under these circumstances?

This is actually a really good question, and a very worthwhile chain of thought. While I endeavor to be thoughtful it's all too easy for my frothy-self to descend to loom smashing, so this is an angle worth considering. My opinion on things is heavily colored by my upbringing. It may sound pretentious, but for various reasons, I consider 'artist' as one of my cultural designations. For those who have taken sociology 101, I consider it one of my inherent status' rather than an ascribed status. Call it what you want, but for me, it's in my bones.

My problems with AI artwork are slightly hysterical at points as a result, but let's start with the most sensible note that you bring forth; the fact that we are within the system we are.

Our current form of capitalism is based around an eternal cancerous expansion of profit, and if one follows certain industries, (in my case, the games industry) one can easily see the problems with always trying to grow bigger in a finite world. Companies firing whole development teams right before shipping so that they don't have to pay them for actually completing the project, and other such acts of corporate autocannibalism are the signs of an animal that is nearing the cliff edge and begun choosing which of its own internal organs it can claw out in order to make itself lighter.

Art has always been at war with money. Making art requires money, but the people that control money tend not to understand art. This is obviously a gross tribalistic simplification, but the point is that the two need each other, can achieve great things in concert... and absolutely hate each other.

In a perfect money world, art and artists would be eliminated entirely. I speak with proof behind this: look at the NFT bubble from earlier this year. This was an attempt to boil artwork down to a stock price. Numbers to be traded and nothing more. The art attached to NFT's was crude, designed as such to carry the message of "the artwork doesn't matter. Only the money that makes it up."

So. When we look at AI, it becomes clear: a machine that can spit out art perfectly to order with no involvement from those annoying artists who demand respect, freedom, and worst of all, pay? This is a wet dream for the money. Under the current system of corporate function, AI art is one of the single most dangerous tools yet created. It stands against artwork, it stands against labor and negotiation in all forms, and it stands against the idea that art is worth anything more than cash.

But that wasn't your question. Do I, personally, consider AI art valuable if viewed without the context of the war of art vs money?

Me personally? No. This is where I will appeal to emotion so hard it will make anyone versed in debate weep enough to fill an overly-salty swimming pool.

In my view of things, Art is the result of every stimulus we recieve. Everything. Every single thing any of our senses receives goes into a huge bubbling rendering vat, and then we use that bubbling material to sculpt new works to portray our experiences and view of the world.

As such, I don't think it's worth using AI art as a jumping off point. Yes, it can provide some gummy material that can kickstart creative impulses, but to anyone that strapped for ideas, I would beg that they instead experience more things.

Hideo Kojima has spoken about his philosophy that an artist must always be adding new things to their rendering vat of experience, and I agree with him. no matter who you are, you haven't seen everything. Even within the purviews you obsess over. I love video games dearly, and even I have not played every single one. There will always be something new within the things you love, wether those things are sci-fi novels or urban architecture or tax filing systems. There is always something new to learn and see, and the pursuit of knowledge, of fresh experiences, of new people and new conversations about new topics, will, if you are an artist, spark something within you. And I think that shows what I think is another danger that AI art poses to artists: complacency.

Life begins at the end of our comfort zone. Artists must by nature be curious about the world and her people if they are to dream up stories within and without her boundaries. If an artist is able to punch in familiar keywords and receive a computer-made blob of associated goo made from stolen, unaccredited, scraped work, that artist has robbed themselves of the chance to examine themselves and the world around them.

Also, that's really the big issue. This shit comes from somewhere. The AI needs to be fed existing images in order to know what an image looks like, and there is no possible way for that to be done in a way that does not denigrate the work or the artists who make it. Even if that work is a cell-phone photo of a stack of pancakes, it is wrong for the machine to silently harvest it, and due to the other issues, I struggle to find any arrangement I am happy with even with consent and transparency.

So overall, while I think the technology is very impressive, and I can't blame people for getting excited about it, within my worldview, I am forced to be a curmudgeon. My view of art, the world, and humanity requires that I thank the programmers for their work, shake their hands on their success, marvel at the power of the technology, and then push the server cabinet off the edge of the building. It is a danger to human identity and the development of such.

Loom-smashers ahoy.

Thank you for your question! I absolutely love writing essays about things I'm impassioned about, and this was a blast.

#asks #galaxy brain rambling #ai artwork

[lxghtbound]

questions for muns // accepting!

@sxchiraz asked: 1. how do you feel about reblog karma? 3. whose writing has impacted your writing style the most? (you can choose anyone! famous writer or not.) 5. is there a muse you really want to try? if yes: what’s stopping you? 7. describe your favorite relationship dynamic. (can be any kind, platonic, romantic, familial, antagonistic, etc.)

1. How do you feel about reblog karma?

Personally I don’t have a rule abt reblog karma? I’m not gonna block anyone over it or anything but I do think it’s nice if you’re rbing a meme directly from someone that you should send something in, or rb from the source unless the source is deactivated. Just because of the amount of times I get a notif and it’s just someone rbing an ask meme from me with 0 new notifs for asks sent dsfgfsd it’s mostly something that doesn’t bother me overall but on worse days it gets to me

3. Whose writing has impacted your writing style the most?

Y’know I have no idea. I guess I must’ve picked some stuff I write up from somewhere, but it’s never really been an active thing I do. I don’t really format my replies either so I can’t even answer with that sdfgds

5. Is there a muse you really want to try? If yes: what’s stopping you?

I’d love to try out Pebbles more but he’s just so hard to push out, esp bc people already know the pack so well. And Pebbles is...well. Him. He’s very prickly n prefers people not liking him bc that’s the ideal way things should be bc it just lets him get on with life. I’d also like to write Drifter but he intimidates me idk why lmfao

7. Describe your favourite relationship dynamics.

I am a SUCKER for any enemies to lovers but still enemies. Or pairs that have at least one half that’s energetic n silly bc I love writing out fun dates like that. But,,,,,I do gotta admit I do also like writing more toxic stuff. Bad Scout verses can lead a lot to him either just using someone for his own benefit or loving someone devoting themselves to him, or same but in reverse. Or him just dragging someone down with him. Sometimes I do like just basic soft stuff but I do normally get bored of those threads pretty quick unfortunately. Or threads where people help him, but those also tend to burn out on my end bc I’m like ‘well once it’s done there’s not gonna be much to write abt’

For platonic stuff I love found family stuff so much oh my god. You can probably tell because of the pack even existing as well as Hunter trio having Irrikis, but I love people deciding to stick together to survive, as company, because they finally found someone the same as them, whatever else, there’s so many good reasons!!!

#ooc #ask answered #higher powers | about the mun

[unsprouted-seed]

I’m back home. I don’t really know what I expected from mum...but I’ll tell you what I GOT:

Motivation!

New goal: Stay the FUCK out of mum’s house.

It’s not that she’s ...... a terrible person or anything. Like... I honestly could’ve rolled much worse. She’s not like my dad. She’s not like my step dad. She’s not like a lot of people’s parents I know.

But she IS controlling. She IS confusing, oblivious, anxiety provoking, exhausting, LOUD, and just... unbearable.

I didn’t know how she’d react to finding out about my disorder. She was ... well, she was her, I suppose. She accepted what I said, but was totally unempathetic. Confused and didn’t really know how to support me. And I found that being there actually made ana worse, even harder to cope with. Because I had this new pressure to “prove” myself in front of my family, to “eat like an anorexic” and “act like an anorexic” and constantly like... the idea of even contemplating recovery around them was just exhausting, I’d be 1 step forward and 2 back all the time.

So I had to come home for a month anyway, because there’s no room there. I was on the couch the whole time. The idea is that they’re rearranging shit (was gonna happen anyway) and there will then be space. And if I can’t handle my shit then I will go and move in. But if I CAN handle my shit, I can stay independant.

 SO! MOTIVATION! Stay...the fuck....out of there.

While I was there I made a couple steps. Firstly, when I called mum I actively shifted into a recovery mindset. Like, nothing...... happened that day. I was just ... so exhausted and ready to try to move towards something better. First it was tiny tiny baby steps. Three meals a day. Of ANY size. Got that down. Then as I neared coming home, I started to think “Well, if I can get up to 1500 cals I can legit go back to exercising properly, then that way I can placate ana. It’s still disordered, but it’s harm reduction, and it’s WAY  better than starving.”

So yesterday after I got home I managed to hit 1500 cals. Reactive hunger kicks in. And I knew it was coming, so I just accepted it and told myself “Look, it’s a reality, it’s short term, it’s just building my strength, giving me fuel to exercise.” and I stayed calm. My friend (who doesn’t know abt my disorder) asked me to go out to dinner. I said “yes” and had my first REAL meal in AGES. And I didn’t even freak out, didn’t leave any leftovers, just ... ate it. Craaaaazy.

New rule: I count to 1500 cals, minimum, but then I stop counting. Reactive hunger’s my reality, and 1500′s the min not the max. I have to count so that I don’t undershoot it, but if I obsessively keep track of every cal I’ll just freak myself out, so it’s 1500 then it’s just tick or cross, hit the mark or missed it. I’ve NEVER done anything like that before, it feels like progress.

New rule: Don’t eat when full. No matter what. Reactive hunger’s intense, but allowing it to force me to overfill only leads to bingeing, which leads to freakouts. Better to tollerate the hunger until I know I can handle eating again. Leaves me feeling in control.

I’m trying really hard not to overdo it. I’m not tracking nutrients - I figure I need EVERYTHING because malnutrition. So I’m just going with what my body wants. But I’m also checking in with my disordered voice regularly, like, negotiating shit. Because I know that I can’t just decide that everything’s fine... I have to make a truce. Hence the exercise. So like... I’m still freaked out by oils. Fine, I can have a sandwich without butter. Long term that doesn’t hurt me to make that concession. I can challenge that later. Old me would go “No, you have to do it PERFECT or NOT AT ALL” and freak out. I’m trying to find the middle ground.

It’s not easy...

But I really REALLY want to stay out of mum’s house. And the hospital. And ideally the morgue.

I do not want to regain weight. I want to keep losing. I want to keep goals. I want to keep control. I’m not yet ready to give up everything, and it feels like... anorexia’s been this HUGE crutch of mine for ages. If I throw it away, I just fall over because that’s what crutches are - they help you stay stable. So I’m not looking to fix it today. I just want it to stop killing me right now.

Feels like progress.

[bramblepurr]

I think you're taking that post about death too personally... It was a response to people being rude to others for being ok with it, and that's not okay to be rude to people about. Like its not a judgement on people who are upset about it. /gen

okay i totally get u anon but i feel like i need to properly explain Why i get so messed up with this topic. obligatory disclaimer that i’m not trying to come off as aggressive or anything here i just have big emotions but it’s not directed at u n stuff

also obligatory warning bc i’m gonna touch on sh and suicidal stuff as well as delusions i have but i won’t go into excessive detail (i’ll put a warning around the actual paragraph featuring this) oh and spoilers for cr but i don’t rlly tag for spoilers here anyways i just trust that op did. this is a lawless land

while i completely agree that ppl shouldn’t be attacked or have any rudeness directed towards them for being okay with character deaths (hell, i’m pretty emotionally neutral on laudna dying but of course i’m sad for the other characters and it sucks that it happened and i can definitely relate to ppl who’s worlds are crumbling down around them rn as a molly fan) i think framing it as those of us who Are upset being “death-phobic” or simplifying our feelings to just being sad abt characters is just. really weird and quite frankly insensitive. not to make it all about me but while i have the natural human feeling of Dying Is Scary (bc it is) i’m not really death-phobic and i don’t avoid the topic of death in my day-to-day life (caitlin doughty my beloved). i just cope through fiction and get extremely attached to fiction so it’s a very different situation for me

DISCUSSION OF MY OWN FEELINGS BELOW (SH AND SUICIDE WARNING)

while i’m already talking about myself i’ll get my own personal feelings abt the topic out the way. i don’t make it a secret here that i have a delusional attachment to mollymauk, essentially I Am Him He Is Me Unironically And Genuinely. because of this i was Extremely effected by ep26 even though it had already happened by the time i got into cr in 2019. i knew what happened. but i still got really attached and the death hit me like a ton of bricks, i still haven’t watched the episode. i can’t. i can’t even watch up to before the fight i just. can’t touch the episode at all. similarly, when ep140 happened i was really fucking happy that molly came back. i’d been hoping for it forever, pretty much deluding myself further into believing that everything i want to happen Will happen if i just believe hard enough and want it enough. and then ep141 happened and without going into too much detail, i had a bad relapse and made plans to kill myself. mollymauk had been erased, a handful of caduceus fans were mocking us and essentially going “i told you so”. i felt fucking awful. if kingsley was a thing then i might as well be like molly. and of course there were a lot of parasocial elements that went into this as well but delving into all that makes me feel a little bit Too insane for my tumblr blog but a couple people out there have an idea of what i’m talking about, looking at a couple mutuals here.

now fast forwarding to the recent episodes, i relapsed again after ep33. i made some Insane Person With Scary Mental Illness posts on here that got me in trouble. i sh’ed again because of that. i got so deep in my head about my fear of losing fearne and orym that i got desperate for a way to fix things. i’d spent so long relapsing after an upsetting episode that i toyed with the idea of doing it before as a sort of blood sacrifice to make things go my way, which sounds super edgy 12 year old when i say it but that was genuinely my line of thinking. and lo and behold it worked. orym and fearne are okay. i’m neutral about laudna. so now i have a brand new compulsion i guess.

DISCUSSION OF MY OWN FEELINGS OVER, STILL A WARNING FOR SUICIDE

all this oversharing to say: this is the shit that can happen to people. while you may look from the outside and go omg get therapy!! sad little deathphobic fandom ppl!! there is a lot of shit that goes on in people’s heads when these things happen. i almost killed myself because my favourite character that is also myself got turned into a new person out of nowhere. hell, let’s not even just make this about cr: SPOILERS FOR BNHA but in a recent volume bakugo died (apparently he’s not actually dead and he’s fine now, which is great!! i’m not a bnha fan but i love that dude sm) and from what i’ve heard people did actually kill themselves because of that. and people were mocking them for it. people died and shitheads were making jokes saying it was a good thing and they were weak for doing so. this wasn’t even edgelord dudes mocking it, this was other mentally ill people. it’s fucking disgusting.

so yeah. excuse me for not being at all thrilled by that post and a lot of other posts over the years i’ve seen exactly like it. hopefully this explains where i’m coming from.

tldr: people need to be careful with how they approach this stuff bc while it may not be that bad For You it can be extremely bad and terrifying and life-altering for others and that isn’t something that should be swept aside in favour of people who are getting mean anons because they’re not sad about a character dying

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