since i don't want to think about tonight (i will start sobbing uncontrollably), i'll try to gather my thoughts around the new masks, and throw that into the void
btw, im not a big fan of change (hate it. hate it so much), and the new masks/outfits/costumes/whatever definitely threw me off guard for a second there when i saw them lol. tbh i was pretty taken aback, and i was already going off on a tangent in my mind saying that i was going to miss the old masks, that they looked way better, etc...
but like, it's not my place to say anything in regard. i mean, it's not like people can't express their feelings or preferences when it comes to sleep token and how they present themselves !!! everybody's going to have an opinion, thats cool and all, im just saying that for ME, personally, i think i shouldn't be focusing so much on the masks.
do i prefer the old ones? yeah.
was this a lot to take in, especially giving how it came as a surprise right before such an important and special event? you bet your ass.
but im also pretty sure their new looks are going to grow on me, and fuck it, even if it doesn't, its okay. i dont have to like it, the music is what i admire them for anyways.
now, if you excuse me, i have to forcefully and repeatedly bash my head against the wall bc i just saw a tweet saying that vessel was crying a lot tonight and i cant take this anymore
I'm trying to rush through my story because I don't like showing current stuff when I'm still catching up.
I haven't really been playing much lately but I think I'm gonna give up on 400 babies for a bit.
You see, I've re-awakened the inner weeb and my game is slowly turning into some sort of liminal/ rpg aesthetic.. Only with everything done poorly and very tacky.
I think it's time to move to a new save. Timeline 3 can be the "lean into it" timeline.
I'm working on finding presets and stuff to make up for my lack of cas skills, hopefully I can make bus at least LOOK DIFFERENT.
Moving all the kids over to keep the family tree is such a pain, I might just build it externally this time.
This has been an update that nobody asked for or wanted. But I appreciate the platform to ramble into the void. Thanks!
something darkly funny about me writing an entire essay about one ambiguous post that kinda sorta agreed with a reactionary position on Sam as cap, and then a week later someone is in his tag with "the white man is irreplaceable"
Like, where do you even go with that?
But I think it does prove the bad faith/concern trolling point, as well. Ultimately when you conceed talking points like "explore sam as the falcon" into a broken, toxic discourse machine, you're going to get "yes, and he'll never live up to steve" out the other end.
Back in fucking Falkreath. Had to deliver the news of Bleak Falls Barrow to their local priest, he asked me to find his notebook. Gods I hate this place.
I can't say no to a holy man though, try as I might want to. I feel like I keep letting everyone walk all over me, but I have a hard time turning them down. His journal seems to be in a mine close to Whiterun at least. Easy to get and come back.
Arkay, Divine of Life and Death, please keep us safe in our travels, and keep my end timely.
I panicked.
I just go so fucking scared being there I ran. I ran until I couldn't breathe and then ran some more. They yelled for me but I couldn't stop myself. I ran all the way to the mine, and then in almost a frenzied haze I needlessly slaughtered everyone here.
They were all bandits at least but I just. I couldn't stop. I'm so freaked out, it hurts. It's making me feel disgusting. We're camping in the cave for the night, I can't stand to sleep in an inn for the night. Sorry boys.
Legitimately it really is the dream for the fantasy whore in me (and also the former theater kid)
fun fact my old larp event had specific rules about fucking such as that it could not be plot relevant to your character, like, if you wanna fuck in character go for it (within reason), but we do not wanna have to hear about it