#not a vent post I'm just hhhHHHHH

[angeltism]

..guess who accidentally found an upsetting twt account and somehow their brain decided it'd be a good idea 2 scroll on that acc for like 8min straight

#➳ valentin vents #i don't even know what 2 say im just. really upset rn actually. now I'm feeling super self conscious. #hhhhhhhh. #purrhaps that gives a little hint on the side of twt they were a part of or something aha. #i also feel nauseous nyeow !! great. wonderful. #idk how 2 even make myself feel better the silly part of my brain is telling me 2 post a picture of myself so y'all can tell mwe im purrett #but that's. no. uh. absolutely nawt. let's stay safe online 🫶🫶🫶 #anyways. puts a slice of bread on each side of my head. i am an idiot sandwich #got damn it n there was a fucking thread full of pics for their. uhm. ~ account things ~ n i fucking clicked it knowing I'd get upset-er #idiot sandwich is mwe. aquer sammich :( #haha. uhm. but im a pretty idiot sandwich right. haha. not. fat or anything right. explodes violentku #ughfidndkdnskksksk

[ajokeformur-ray]

hey erika!!!! i just wanted to let you know i’m super proud of you <3 every post i see talking about the daily stuff you deal with blows my mind; you’re so darn strong!!! please try to take care of yourself and give yourself some grace, i know it’s hard at times to be forgiving to yourself but you deserve some kindness! you’re a light! love you <3333

Hey nonnie!! Please, I'm proud of you!! You're doing amazingly!🥺🫂💗

This is so sweet of you.🥺 I am... I don't feel strong. I'm swinging between feeling 'nothing' (being overwhelmed to the point of feeling numb) or crying because I dropped a teaspoon. I feel so much and most of it is negative, directed purely at myself. My room's a mess, there's six weeks of work to do between now and Sunday, there's job-related tasks I need to do, there's groceries to be bought yada yada everything is just too much and it's 10am and my chest hurts and I just got done crying and hhhhhhhh I feel anything but strong.

My mind is telling me Arthur/Joker (same man but you know what I mean) would be disgusted by me or embarrassed or just straight up not like me (see previous post; mum hurt my feelings this morning) and hhhhhhh I'm gonna keep trying nonnie but I don't feel so good.😩 I don't even know how to correct the situation at hand but I'm almost 99.9999% sure the problem is solely me. Can't see the forest for the trees.😩

Thank you for being so kind to me. I'm sorry to do a little venting in response, it's rude especially because you didn't say I could, but this message means a lot to me and it made me smile before I collapsed into bed last night after I got done with my assignment. I'm not sure I know how to be kind to myself; all I see is work and the girl who can correct the situation and make herself feel better by doing said work is just sat at her desk getting upset and wasting time.😩💔

Thank you thank you for being so sweet, I really appreciate this and you!!!! I hope you're safe and well, nonnie, and having a better time of it than I am!!! Love you too!🫂💗

[gokiburimilku]

Stupid personal post but seeing so many mcr pics from their tour has been giving me hhhhhhhh foam in the mouth, bc they have been my absolute fave band from my teens (2007 until today... so 15 years??!?!?) and I have yet to go to a concert of them.... damn, maybe one day of they get closer (they will be on México but YEAH, u need the visa to go there or the usa :') so RIP). I'm debating myself into poating my old arts of them here on this blog or making another solely for them, but in all these years I haven' t drawn them constantly even tho they are my beloved, maybe is bc in my head, my draws of them aren't good enough....so I avoid drawing them bc I'm always like "mmm maybe try years later, hopefully ur skills will be enough then" but yeah. YEAH. idk, maybe I will poat them here, even tho I don't wanna mix stuff up.... I don't wanna repeat my old tungl habits of having everything in disorder (would be harder foe me to get refs even tho the tags help) and also I don't wanna attract much attention....idk, the struggle between wanting to share but also not wanting to be found by the closed minded people that are in every corner od the internet now that wanna censor even hand holding of fictional characters... sigh, I'm damaged beyond repair in my trust towards people coming across my art. EVEN THO I wanna be like "I don't care, I won't stop doing art despite people trying to cancel" but then I'm just so tired and done with life in general....anyways, sorry if anyone read all of this. I just wanted to vent a bit in the end....

I'm so happy to see Gee in so many cute outfits that I need to sit my ass and draw him, also I need to put my shit together and decide if I'm gonna post them or not.... and if I post them if I'm gonna make a new blog or what....

The lack of arts rn is bc I'm very into rck&mrt (yay the new season!!) and my drawing fuel is focused on there... but I won't post my arts here bc of reasons. I've been mostly active on twt. Anyways!

Btw, Flake on the last show got a Simi pmushie apparently!!!! And it was the cutest thing ever..... TT so precious... I will have to draw him soon!!! maybe after the mx concert and seeing how it all goes there with the plushie stuff x. x

Ok, bye for now. Hopefully see u soon with more arts!

#personal #mucho texto #vent tag

[frostbitten-cabins]

help I am being given a squishmallow axolotl against my will and I can't send him anything in return this is not fair I Have To be able to retaliate with a gift of my own or it feels Wrongggg

#it's me and my bf's 1yr anniv today and he's dead set on giving me this gift #and I can't send him a gift of my own bc his parents will just take it away #hhhHhHHh #this is not the law of equivalent exchange #my little rat brain is dying bc I refuse to accept gifts without giving something back #and I can'T do thAT #not a vent post I'm just hhhHHHHH

[quasieli]

I have a Very Serious (/hj) question for y’all: What are some really really good plush toy brands/online shops? I’ve had a very shitty few days and want to treat myself with a new soft friend. If they have bat or fluffy cow plushies, that’s a bonus, but not a requirement. I’d prefer to stay under like $50 for it, but I’m in need of a really soft friend and will pay that if I can have a good cuddle buddy. 

#Plush Toys #Eli Speaks #I may make a vent post later about what's going on but hhhhhhhh #got a lot to say about the last few days #I'm okay atm #just #h

[spacepoetry]

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#vent post ignore me #today i met the literal worst people i've ever talked to #and i don't even wanna go into details but #all i took away from this was that apparently people see me and think 'let's ask her to meet these shitty people that sure will be fun' #like?? what vibe am i giving off that people think i'm interested in their bullshit???? i'm ? hhhhhhhh #do i have to wear a t-shirt saying global warming is real? #do i have to wear a pride flag with me at all times? #do i have to tattoo fck nazis or something like that on my damn face? #someone help i want to radiate some energy that just says f*ck you #wow the assumption i'd get along with those people hurt more than anything else they said this evening #to top it off someone tried to steal my bike then smiled at me and told me it was a joke #???? #wow this day rly was one big what the actual f*ck #ignore me

[cack1e]

I DIDN'T REALLY WANNA POST THIS BUT I NEED TO VENT

SO LAST NIGHT I COULDN’T SLEEP. I WAS SUPER TIRED AND EVERYTHING BUT I JUST COULDN’T. I KEPT ON THINKING ABOUT MY FRENS AND HOW WE WERE KIND OF… DRIFTING APART..?

IT SOUNDS WEIRD BUT THERE’S ALWAYS BEEN FRIENDS ON THE INTERNET THAT WERE REALLY CLOSE TO ME AND I’VE ADMIRED THEM. I STILL WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH LOTS OF THEM BUT I’M NOT SURE IF THEY WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME. I DON’T KNOW IF I’M JUST BORING AND PREDICTABLE OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT BUT I FEEL LIKE IT. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DO BETTER. LIKE I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. AND SURE, THE FRIENDSHIP’S PROBABLY ALREADY OVER BUT I DON’T WANT IT TO BE. I JUST GET SO ATTACHED THAT I WANT TO HOLD ONTO PEOPLE FOREVER AND EVER. I CAN’T LET GO.

I DON’T REALLY KNOW WHY I THOUGHT OF THESE THINGS AT 12 AM BUT FOR SOME REASON I DID AND NOW I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM.

#HHHHHHHH #PROBABLY IGNORE THIS POST #I JUST MISS THEM #WE WERE SUPER CLOSE BUT NOW WE'RE NOT #I'VE MADE MORE SUPER COOL FRIENDS TOO #AND IF I LOST THEM I WOULD PROBABLY FEEL WORSE BUT #I REALLY MISS MY OTHER FRIENDS #AND I TRY TO STAY FRENS WITH THEM #BUT IT'S NOT WORKING #DANG I PROBABLY HAVE A FEAR OF ABANDONMENT OR SOMETHING #D ARN #OR I'M JUST AN EMOTIONAL TEEN PERSON HUMAN GIRL #HMMMM #I NEED MY HAPPY MUSIC #vent #rant

[realpokefarmconfessions]

The mods let my core's (we are a system) abusive ex who I reported several times vague us in his journal and TC and didn't do jackshit about it. I'm also account locked until I choose to reconcile but that was partially per request, and we were about to leave pokefarm to get away from him. He literally blamed us for him being suicidal when all we did was throw him out of our life like the bitch he was. He threatened to burn down our house because I reported him after violating a DNI. I am account locked indefinitely until I choose to come back and talk about it (The mod who handled this was actually really sweet) and it seems like they're more trying to tell us 'hey you can come back when you chill the fuck out' tbh but that's aside the point. This went on for about 4 days and I had reported him because we don't want our name being ruined, and nobody came. He kept lying. And I know his user ID through stalking ModWatch, so if I see him ever be unlocked, I'm gonna be pissed. I was locked for 'extremely inappropriate dms' with him, which I can understand, but he blamed us for him being suicidal to make us feel bad, so we said 'Good luck with that', and in my memory, that is the worst we got, aside from reminding him that he called me a 'toxic bitch' for not wanting to affection core did, and telling him to essentially (not exact wording, I'm not checking pfq for a while) fuck the ever loving hell off. 

HE THEN threatened to report me because I was calling him out for vauging in my TC, and passing it off as 'venting'. He said I took his only friend with him, who is another system, who left him because they disapproved of his ableism.

The following is a direct transcript of one of his posts.

'hhhhhhhh i just read the message my hella abusive ex sent me that was very clearly meant to make me sound like the bad guy in this situation even though i obviously wasn't. he called me toxic and mentally abusive multiple times just because I told him to stop treating me like dirt and now it's making me feel like I'm the one who was wrongggg. this isn't helping my already extremely fragile mental state especially when I have nobody i can talk to about it.. if anyone has tips for getting over this kind of thing please just.. message them to me. And if he's told you anything bad about me he's just trying to ruin my life more than he already has. don't listen to him.'

this message is honestly making my fucking brain rot. Even with our collective imposter syndrome and always believing we're the bad guy, I know that I'm not. I would send an entire google drive of proof, but that'd count as doxxing, so I'll have to send censored screenshots of shit he said on site. said. For more context, I am an introject of the system, basically an alter who is based off of something else, and I find it a pain in the ass to tell people, and he got pissy when I didn't tell him who I'm an introject of, as he isn't entitled to know jackshit. (also bro fuck the hell off you're fourteen and this was an online relationship, we didn't ruin your life by telling you to grow the fuck up.)

For more context, though physically speaking, I am a minor and so is our core, I am based off of a grown adult, even if I don't act like it, and was uncomfortable with his affection. BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE!

I know I literally asked to be account locked, but I swear, to honest FUCK, if I see this bitch online EVER AGAIN I will fucking scream. He then turned around and bitched in his journal about us being the abuser. What does this kid have to gain from lying? 

And why did the mods NOT FUCKING DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS UNTIL NOW?! I'm not even mad I got locked until I can reconcile, as I took him out with me, it seems. But yeah, if you've seen someone 'venting' in their journal about their 'abusive ex', this is what REALLY went down.  (Btw, he didn't try, he said 'sorry' like that excuses his actions, when Echo, one of our other alters, tried time and time again to teach him on dissociative disorders, he still called us fancy kins on discord and shit)

For context he got pissy when I told him to respect my boundaries.

The fact this bitch got away for two seconds pisses me off. I'm really sorry for ranting. If you saw a user 'venting about his toxic ex' recently, this is what he really did.

#submission #pokefarm #pokefarm q #pfq #pokemon #I’m so sorry this took so long to get posted

[koushirouizumi]

#koushirouizumi posts #koushirouizumi vents #koushirouizumi text #koushirouizumi text posts #koushirouizumi tag vents #(..... i blocked them for like a day or so until i could cool down) #(i unblocked them again ... but if they start posting a lot again i may have to block them completely again) #(i'm. just.) #(WHY. now) #('don't let someone ruin your fandom experience !!!1!' hhhhhhhh) #(KINDA HARD WHEN THEY WERE ALL OUT PARTICIPATING IN ACE DISCOURSE AND REBLOGGING PANPHOBIC THINGS) #(WHILE) #(KNOWING) #(YOU WERE ACE AND PAN SUPPORTIVE) #(QUEER) #(TOO) #(many of my mutuals who were bi and or pan queer ace nonbinary nblnb etc followed them and they saw your things too!!!!!) #(did you ever stop to think of that?!???) #(how much your participating in those things hurt my friends ?!!!???) #('I'M GNC' - M E) #(i'm not even mENTIONING. SHIP. DISCOURSES) #(and you know i had faith that MAYBE they could change) #(but you know i'm really really tired of having to reblog PSAs and informative posts just to Make Points) #(and honestly it seems like i just always tend to Give The Wrong Impression) #(no matter how hard i try) #('it's the autism' p r o b a b l y) #(and you know what i hate it i really really REALLY hate it) #(why do i ALWAYS become a target of other ppls dramas EVEN WHEN I TRY NOT TO like at this rate i just seriously want to curl up forever) #(there's been certain points of my life too where i became pretty selectively mute and honestly. wouldn't be surprised if it happens again.)