#no way am i fixing them

[skyenish]

The way that Kalim genuinely loves Jamil and holds on to him no matter what, even after book 4.

#twisted wonderland #twst #jamil viper #kalim al asim #fanart #art #noahsart #my art #animatic #disney twisted wonderland #ディズニー ツイステッドワンダーランド #ジャミル・バイパー #jamil viper angst #twst angst #scarabia #book 4 #twst jamil #animation #twst art #twisted wonderland art #twisted wonderland animatic #twisted wonderland animation #the way that Kalim clings on to Jamil #their dynamic makes me sob #their relationship is doomed but everyday I still hope things will improve between them #sorry that the text isn’t in the middle #my editing program decided to have a stroke and it’s 2 am and I’m too lazy to fix it #also I drew hands #be proud of me

[andi-o-geyser]

all my favourite characters are just me seeing them and going "damn you sure do clean up well but I'd much rather see you grinning with blood between your teeth"

#also known as the 'i could fix them but its so much funnier to watch them go feral' phenomenon #i just want to see somebody who's usually composed covered in blood on their knees- *i am shot and my body is dragged offstage* #mizu being happy for one (1) second with her husband VS a fucking demon cutting people apart stopping at nothing for revenge #percy de rolo as a prim and proper lord VS possessed by a demon with a thirst for vengeance and burning orange eyes #james flint as a clean shaven british navy officer VS with a full beard and no morals beating a man to death with his bare hands #ellie williams as a sweet innocent kid VS a bloody tattooed woman on a self destructive quest for revenge knife fighting to the death #vi having a good day VS in a drag on knock out fistfight with another woman (i need her in a way concerning to feminism) #jason todd as robin VS the fucking red hood (he is covered in blood and half his mask is gone and i am going insane) #surprise! they're all on a quest for revenge #blue eye samurai #critical role #black sails #the last of us #arcane #batman #mizu #percy de rolo #james flint #ellie williams #vi arcane #jason todd #andis thought geyser

[unexpectedbrickattack]

shenanigans

#pizza tower #peppino #pepperman #the noise #gustavo #spicy hot #suggestive #ONLY A LITTLE #heehee i am FREE from my commission shackles. this is a threat AND warning #gonna post some of the ACTUALLY not sfw stuff soon i think; dont wanna make a twitter for it #they wont be in the main tags but ill put them behind some jokey joke meme pic and then a readmore #bc like even if u put a readmore to cover the images. when its recommended to others from a DIFFERENT post #the first image u used still pops up any way #and i dont want to put peptitties out for everyone to see LMAO #anyway #ive had this idea for ages; peppino getting stuck w pepperman on the their way to a gala #and pepperman is like do not worry my friend; i will simply call in a helicopter to come pick us up :) #and peppino is like WHAT?? dont do that !!!! its just a flat; i can fix that! #but i just now thought of adding the others lol i wanted an excuse to draw them w some fancy hair :)! #noise is like. um. theres no way I can sit here for 20 minutes and NOT embarrass myself. im going to find a rock to sit on #and not look at him #self imposed timeout and naughty shame corner #gustavos comment is from a tag i saw on a post that made me scream laugh #and pepperman watches intently bc that is his muse and he likes committing peppinos form to memory heehee

[nedeii]

wip X2

#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk #still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_> #and explore #and learn from #kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1 #i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like #and now i visibly lack it #SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING #WHO KNOWS #anyway #hello tumblr #I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime #thanks for sticking around #sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち #thatskygame #wip #skyblr #are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno

[bugeyedfreaks]

💥💪💔

#powerpuff girls #ppg #mojo jojo #blossom #bug art #I realized I never drew mojo dying (on here anyway) so I needed to fix this #as I was drawing this I was looking at mojo beaten up poses #and wouldn’t you know it I subconsciously drew one of them #I was shocked but not shocked… the patterns are in my brain lmao #sorry my art keeps SUCKING this could still be way better but i can't overthink things #did not mean for this to be in my queue on thanksgiving but i am thankful for blossom giving mojo brain damage 💖💖💖

[alilaro]

they look fucking DISGUSTING. i am in love with them

#furby #furby baby #furby 1998 #safe furby #also yes i did buy them yes they are probably a bio-hazard i do not care #furbys have rekindled my old childhood love of electronic tinkering; and i have a HUGE soft spot for toy repair #ive always been obsessed with taking old/broken/abandoned toys and fixing them up and giving them a home #and furby is filling that niche so well #I AM FULFILLED IN LIFE #im so in love with these guys the before/after will be so good #i can tell all of them except the second to the left #it looks like a snowbell but the fur looks way too long?? maybe its just fucked up?? idk lmao #*edit: i looked at some close ups and its deffo snowy she's just been through some crazy shit LMAO

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Pride month everyone B*) Allow me to reveal a little behind the scenes detail behind my Banner and Icon. Love was always winning <3

#I don't know what to tag this one to be honest #probably a #delete later #I have made a solemn promise that any icon and banner for this blog must be done in a pair. They Cannot Be Separated. #They have had too much of that already #But yes; they have always been together on the same canvas #they originally were just barley not holding hands so I fixed it <3 love wins #I'm hoping to change them out every new season I start so these guys are probably in their last month of life B'*) #can you believe wwx used to have different bangs? blasphemy #Once again throwing out meta content so I can make up for the fact I am running on fumes #starting out pride month by engaging in another sin (sloth (I slept for more than my usual 4-5 hours (this blog functions on insomnia))) #comic tomorrow cause the next batch is 90% done I literally just ran out of time. #I'm in a toxic relationship with The Grind but in a homoromantic/erotic way. #We (the grind and I) would have long metas written about how we are bad lgbtq rep and spark heated debate within the community.

[vegancas]

1x4 / 1x6 / 1x7 / 1x8 / 1x10 / 1x14 / 1x16 / 1x19 ↳ supernatural season one + climbing

#spnedit #deanwinchesteredit #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #gif #sorry to focus more on dean but watching him climb IS way more interesting #i am thinking about the comparison between these and 12x4 lol #i hope i included everything? i started making a list like half way through the season so the first ones were just from memory #also i started making this like a month ago and only just got around to doing the last gif #(which was the one from 1x16 guess i forgot about he climbing in it cos we don't actually see dean climb :3) #anyway my computer crashed right before i finished it so that means it's bedtime now!! #also pls excuse the choppiness of the previously mentioned gif #i think my computer was lagging when i was doing the screencaps and i don't care enough to do them again and fix it so :3

[flickerintwilights]

on the road to hell

#hadestown #art #my art #tag ramble as promised: #firstly #i’ve been thinking about redoing this as digital art #(like - mostly the same but cleaner and with some of the details fixed) and probably will if i have time #because i like this composition a lot #but! for now i am oddly happy with how this turned out despite being traditional art/watercolor (no undo button. sobs.) #and it Is a noteworthy day for hadestown with lola tung and lillias white departing #(this is Not meant to celebrate them specifically - i used the obc as reference not them - i just think it’s a nice day symbolically) #so i thought i’d put this out. whatever. yknow. #oh a second thing i will say is that this was a great excuse to check out the slime tutorials on youtube #i spent like 9 or something hours on this :/ so. plenty of time to have things on in the background while i was working. we love slime #thirdly! two things i feel like are worth mentioning rq for Symbolism: #wait for me reprise (intro) originally having wedding procession imagery (from anaïs mitchell in working on a song) #is what first made me desperately want to put the flower/petals on the edges (it still fucking haunts me) #though it was a solid composition choice in general i think #and i mean. clearly the carnation should be prominent. it’s the carnation. from hadestown. #i don’t think the wedding procession reference comes across the way it turned out but that was the first thought #NEXT ouroboros. the snake devouring its own tail (i legitimately forgot that this was why i first drew the rattlesnake that way but #fundamentally i really did just want its tail and head to point to each other lmao)

[notthesaint]

Nosk be like: *pulls me out of the horrors, and brings me into the den of horrors*

#look at them. THEY ARE SO EVIL #nosk is one of my favorite genders of all times. shout out to nosk #no. i will never stop drawing winged nosk's head in the wrong way #almost every artwork drew is winged nosk annoying hornet #dont look at me. they are potential enemies in my head #i had a au about it but i have to fix plot changes for that #nosk is fun to draw #nosk #winged nosk #<- tagging this as this bec to see them again #hollow knight #i am very average about an orange spider that screeches and deceives bugs #its my spirit animal #sainty art

[mswyrr]

more on michelin stars

I genuinely think it's going to be an important plot point in s3 re: why exactly Sydney wants a star and why *one* specifically. I went and researched and discovered something I used in my fic, which is that one Michelin star restaurants are excellent cuisine that normal people can still afford. And that connected, for me, to what Sydney had told Marcus about how going out was so special when she was a kid and she wanted to share that kind of amazing thing with people:

We didn't really like eat out a lot growing up, so when we did, it felt special even if it wasn't.... I wanna cook for people and make them happy and give them the best bacon on Earth (1x08)

I'm so hopeful/convinced that the research they have with, like, Matty (the chef who plays Fak) right there on set, means the writers know that about what one star places can be like. And that it's meant to be part of this - more humane vision of excellence for Sydney, where their spot is AMAZING, but it's not a cruel kitchen culture, it's not only for the rich.

For her, it’s *part* of her vision, where she says: 

“I think this place could be so different from all the other places we've been at. But, in order for that to be true, we need to run things different.“ (1x03)

But Carmy sees a star and all it means (all he’s ever known it to mean) as a repudiation of that kind of humanity. You say the word "star" and immediately Carmy goes "fuck stars" (2x01) as pure self-defense - because stars are just pain and suffering to him. They're NYC chef and everything that mess became.

He's so traumatized by the whole thing he doesn't think to ask the right questions: why do you want one? What is your vision for it? Why do you specifically want *one* instead of two or three? What timeline do you have in mind for getting there and how can we strategize on this together?

Instead, because he wants so desperately to please her, despite that instinctive, self-defensive "fuck stars" he relents and asks - okay, are you sure? Are you positive this is what you want? Really?? It's terrible. It's just dread and fear and throwing up every day before work. You really want me to give you this?

(I’ll give you anything you want)

He never asks the right questions. Just assuming the level of pain which is his only experience of this is what the thing IS--playing into that theme about how people only know what they're taught, only know what they are given, and if we are given pain and patterns of it it is so hard to even imagine things can be different and, when you can imagine it, still so hard to actually get there.

(It’s not a coincidence that the ASL sign is one of the few positive, healthy examples of kitchen culture Carmy witnessed - we only know what we’re taught, and it can be hard work to even figure out what “not shitty” IS let alone doing it)

So he's assuming all of that and it's like - if she's his CDC, does she want him to push her as hard as he was pushed? Push himself that hard again? He doesn't want to do either of those things. But that's all he knows. And she keeps saying this is what she wants. And he wants to give her everything she wants.

(In the same conversation she kept saying yes, this is what I want, she expressed admiration for the designer chef outfit he later buys her as a gift - he wants to give her everything she wants, even when it seems like a terrible idea he’s torn about)

I think this misunderstanding is intentional and it’s going to come out in S3. A one star restaurant fits so perfectly with what we know of Sydney’s goals and love for her work! And Carmy not able to even conceive of something better because of the patterns he’s stuck in and finding his way to her vision makes sense for him.

I think Carmy figuring out how this work can be joyful and humane is going to be a huge part of S3. Sydney not becoming lost in the high stress environment, not following in younger!Carmy's footsteps living a life of pure drive and dread, and Carmy finding that for the first time.

I do think that, given where they both end in 2x10, there’s going to be a period of conflict and a real bunch of issues for both of them - but with themes and ideas like this seeded into the story there’s so many ways to make s3 start out in a bad way and then really end in joy in a beautiful way?

#the bear #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #sydcarmy #carmen x sydney #the bear meta #my meta #annnnd i'm back to my point that #this show would be utterly miserable and not enjoyable for me personally to watch #without sydney #because like.... she keeps having vision in ways #that this partnership needs #on his own he can't see the way to climb out of the dark hole he's lived his whole life in #and (Sorry i am quoting this verse in a strictly literary sense not preaching LOL) 'where there is no vision the people perish' #the show without sydney (as some reddit assholes seem to want...) is a short season about one guy's awful breakdown that time he tried to #bury his grief in fixing up the family restaurant #and had a breakdown after max 6 months #and then nat sold the place for them both #for both their wellbeing #to like - keep ONE brother alive #looking at it in fairy tale terms #(not my expertise but lemme try for a sec) #the restaurant is also the family #and they're under a kind of curse? #curse of the past #the awful patterns #carmy is under a curse #and sydney is the person #who is able to walk in #and break that

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all! Do you have any advice about making smoothies? Like, what kinds of fruit and veggies go well together, what combos very much don't work, and especially if you have any advice on what frozen fruits or veggies work best. I am thinking about trying making smoothies but I know pretty much nothing about it lol

#the person behind the yarn #food mention #I don't even know where to start when it comes to making smoothies #except that I should avoid coconut (allergic) cucumber (possibly allergic) and bananas (sometimes allergic) #and that I should probably stick to frozen fruits and veggies as much as I can #because I have histamine issues #and while I tolerate some fruits very well #some fruits I do not #so this will be a bit of trial and error #but dang. I just really want to be eating more fruits and veggies before I end up with Yet Another Vitamin Deficiency #(my body processes several vitamins and minerals Very Wrong so I have to take...a lot of supplements) #(plus I am on medication to fix some of them that messes up other vitamins. it's a process) #and when it comes to ways to eat frozen fruits and veggies smoothies seem to be the best way #or maybe not best but most efficient? #I tried with non-frozen fruits and veggies but the produce in Tennessee goes bad SO QUICKLY #or at least so quickly compared to where I used to live #so...frozen! frozen fruits and veggies

[etoilesombre]

Ok, I was joking with this post the other day, but it turns out I actually do want to talk about whether fucking would have fixed them.

I've seen the take a few times that what makes Silverflint work so well is that it lives in the subtext*, all tension and denial and repression, and if they fucked it would ruin the dynamic because it would be resolved.

And not to make this about me (I'm gonna) but as someone solidly at the intersection of old, slutty and queer, every time I hear this I think about my personal experiences adding fucking to intense, ambiguous relationships in stressful situations where communication about feelings was already not great.

Zero times did it fix anybody.

See: Vane and Eleanor. Also Max and Anne. Incompatibilities in goals, values and worldviews are not resolved by fucking. The work of relationships is different than the work of sex, and in some ways much much harder.

*disclaimer that shouldn't be necessary: subtextual queer relationships in media are great and valid, that is very much not what I am taking issue with.

#sample size: higher than it should be #now if you want to tell me #that acknowledging their feelings #and being in a committed romantic relationship #would have fixed them #sure maybe #they'd have to be different guys or in different situations for it to happen #but I buy it #just not sex as such #i'm not saying it happened by the way #but i am saying it is not disproven by the text #silverflint #black sails

[oozeandgoo-art]

You guys ever heard of Fandom Trumps Hate? It's a charity auction where people trade fannish services for money that goes to, obviously, charity.

I signed up this year. You can find my page here: I'm doing a half-price commission ($15/hour instead of current $30/hour rates). This looks like it's going to be the only commission I'm even going to consider touching this year, for the record, if that sweetens the deal any.

The entire auction is a really cool thing, and you should definitely look around to see if there's anything special on there to catch your eye. It's for a good cause and everything!

#atm my name on here is just 'red' this is because i am a bit of a dumdum and i thought they were asking for my name instead of my username #i sent them a request to fix it so maybe when YOU see it it won't be that way LOL #anyway. go for it or don't. i do hope someone gets me a transformer to draw though LOL #update #fandom trumps hate

[mudstoneabyss]

actually. the specific phrasing that boy Kevin wants to kill older Kevin with "I must disassemble him, piece by piece, so that everything inside of the Old Kevin comes out. Only then can the New Kevin truly begin." is so incredibly the idea that to heal from trauma and "improve" you have to destroy every "wrong" part of yourself, that everything "tainted" by it has to somehow be replaced by something untouched (which isn't possible)

#reading back that phrasing I do think that'll be the way brinknor takes it #this arcs seeming like it'll be so. breaking the cycle of abuse and violence and coming to terms with yourself #and maybe understanding that you can never remove the parts of you impacted by trauma and start again completely ''pure'' #but you can treat yourself with the kindness you should've been given #which i hope it is that because. and understand i am biased. but i'd love that direction for Kevin #it feels much more satisfying than any more. angsty way this arc could go imo #like he's been through enough! #because of the way Kevin is portrayed in fanon. not as frequently anymore but still pretty common. I worry about coming off as woobifying #by saying I want him to heal I want him to have nice things I think he deserves them #when he's also simultaneously Not A Good Person #yknow the poor little innocent cinnamon roll baby etc etc fanon #but. well for one im Not Like That about him. but my main point of bringing that up is. him not being a good person is why I want to see hi #get better and generally have a good life. why does someone have to be good to deserve to heal from trauma #especially when trauma is a big reason for the way they are #like its fiction yeah yeah i'm still tired of mentally ill people having to be ''good'' to ''deserve'' to get better yknow #i mean especially in fiction you tend to either see mental illness as the poor traumatized one who's allowed recovery because they're nice #or the insane psychopath who cant be ''fixed'' so ''deserves'' bad things-up to deserving to die!- for it #i didnt mean for this to be a rant erm. oops #wtnv #wtnv spoilers #joyousposting

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it... #I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀 #irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living... #just the ol regulars yknow? #and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want? #I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what? #whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate? #so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it? #that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk