#nite vents

[squiddcakes]

me when Im behind on all my college work and have been running off 4 hours of sleep for the past month (I think I have adhd ruh oh)

#i fucking hate school I hate my brain I cant ever focus on doing any work and yet i want to get all mys tuff done at the same time #college is far better than my highschool experience by my cycle of depleting mental health and workaholicism is literally killing me. #anyways send post nit e nite #txt post #squid vents

[gurorori]

hmm. thinkin bed thoughts

#n by bed thoughts i mean the thoughts surroundin the trauma we have surroundin the placement of the bed i sleep in. thankfully i saved money #2 buy a new bed recently n its been better we don have as mucu of a reminder #oh rite. #vent #tw sa #but the . place itself still unnerve me. is nawt alwqys easy 2 make myself sleep #which is like Stupid i guess but as sm1 who get attachrd 2 objects n like specific places so strongly n has #deep associations w a lot of em #it. idk it it it it affect me rly badly #i dunno if its even a bed thing mebbe its jus bein in this household as a whole #it doesn happen all da time but a lotm. n today definitely onw of those days #especially witj him gettin worse with alcohol agaon like gawd i fon wanna wakeup 2 him on top pf me again #last time it happen guess wat there was talk of barricadin the door but only did it once before #gettin ridiculed 4 it like im bein unreasonable #n ofc we don have nearly the amnt of money needed 2 replace these doors. they don have locks or anythin its jus old ass soviet glass doors #i donno i hate it i hate sleepin with him in da house i Hope every nite he dies in his sleep or sumthin or goes out n smth happen 2 him

[wolfriver777]

Imngonna shoot myself at this point shshshshdhsh I keep forgetting to get out frozen foods for the next day at work in my Monday shifts, I am evil and unforgivable

#vent #i messaged the fry cook being all “sorry i forgot (again) might as well staple a nite to my forehead”

[leextacy]

I was the editor-in-chief of my college’s literary journal. sometimes I find that hard to believe. yes, it was before the angel of death stripped all badges from my hollow chest. and after two years of near white noise, I’ve come to accept that I am far from being that prodigy. in this malignant grief, I am being forced to dishonorably reinvent my flesh. here, I hallow all things earthly, physical. in this annihilating grief, I find that my blood no longer whispers poetry (and if it does, it does so in vain/without memory). here, I ground myself in a grave of my own, flirting more with the tangible scent of the dirt than any idea.

#leextacy #lit mag #literary journal #cPTSD #poetry #editor in chief #grief #grief poetry #lost #poem #no memory #college #confession #confessions #confessional poetry #late nite #late night thoughts #trauma vent #actually traumatized #complex ptsd #who am i #no identity #can’t remember #mentally fucked #what the fuck #angel of death #me #myself #poets on tumblr #poetryportal

[lovedsick]

i think its so ass that i have to deal w my aunt always trying to basically accuse me of having an eating disorder , bc its like something that she herself deals w ( along w my own mom too bc u know toxic asian beauty standards ) . but the worse part i think is me being so aware that shes just projecting her insecurities onto me , like to make her feel better about herself shes always trying to bring up things on me like some ' gotcha ' moment . . . . when im literally just tryna live my life i eat what i want n my metabolism is doing alrite . like why is the burden on me to PROVE to her that i dont do what she does , when she is the one that has a skewed perception of whats a normal amount of food to eat ....... like also sometimes just having to hang out w her n needing to go use the restroom is something that i have to hesitate abt bc ik shes always so sus like why r u going to restroom???? bc u have an eating disorder??? BITCH I NEED TO PEE . its so annoying

n then whats worse is that me n her daughter r literally the same age , so that jealousy comparison thing that she and my mom have just gets put on us like it sucks that shes over there trying to scrutinize n accuse me , saying that i must been influenced by my mom n her ways .... when in reality SHE is the one that is controlling my cousins diet and always shaming her just bc her own daughter doesnt look the way she wants her to look like . like despite my mom struggling w her own problems since i was little , my own mom has never made me feel bad abt my body or tried to ruin my relationship w food . so i just feel like my aunt coming after me n trying to somehow convince everyone in my family that i have an eating disorder is jsut her wanting to justify how she controls my cousin / her own ways , as if ANYONE esp someone like me cant have a slimmer body w out it having to do w having some sort of ' problem '

#i just wanted to vent that out so i can get on w the rest of my nite bc she rly tried it on me again today like leave me alone!!!! #eating disorder tw

[myceli-yum]

Pins and needles and insomnia

couldn't sleep so I started a poem

that damn hyperactive ADHD brain eh?

A cold fire flickers Through the nerves in my fingers My skeleton wants to dance

My eyes swollen shut but I must keep them open lest the gust behind my eyelid stings my mind even more

The lightning in my chest Says sleep only comes To those deserving Of rest Lest i forget all the things i have done And all of the things that I won’t

Reminders in shape of resonant sirens Send ripples through my blood The sound of my heartbeat batters my skull Wave of pins become a flood

I beg the pins to bring their friend needles Then at least my legs could sleep

Then at least My heartbeat Would break Only half the bones in my body

#insomnia thoughts #adhd problems #adhd hyperactive #writing wip #work in progress #vent poetry #poetry #late nite #intrusive thot #intrusive thoughts #aspiring writer #short poetry #first draft

[cas-backwards-tie]

Feeling like I’m at such a pivotal point in my life. Life tells me one thing, my brain tells me another.

Writer? Actor? What to be, what to do.

I think perhaps struggling with my health has taken even more of a toll than I’d imagined. Feeling lonely like I only have distant friends now. No longer living the life I once was, I’m now isolated. Handling so much on my own. Hating the fact that once a month our bodies doom us to an insufferable spiral of negativity when a lot of people already struggle with that (me included).

#personal #vent #maybe i'm just struggling #bothered by so much #this came out as a rant earlier #womanhood problems #inspires me in some faint context #otherwise no #desparately no #time of the month #shark week as some say #late nite thoughts #feelings #ugh #text posts #more positivity queued later #ha ha :(

[rat-tomago]

hmmmmm i hatw symptoms

#self.txt #vent #yet another nite where im sure i wont fall asleep til like 5am youpi!!!! #my brain is on fire!!!!!!!!

[kiniiri]

I just wanna be unconscious for a few days to a week. Anything would be better than this life I'm existing in right now. No suicide for right now, just a deep state of unconsciousness. I'm so tired of everything. To take rescue medication or not...

#anxiety #depression #late nite #personal vent #my rants

[rrrainbo]

late nite vent 🚬

UUUUH hi, has it really been a year (It has)

I was avoiding everything for a reason but I didn't mean to vanish like that. people who tried to check if I was okay/alive, sorry for worrying you

I got hit by multiple tragedies and other life ruining shit. It's still ongoing, it just kept getting worse. every time I begin to semi recover or heal from one thing, a new even worse thing happens..... the repeating, futile pattern really messed me up.

I always had this problem (habit? coping mechanism? idk) where I isolate when stressed. so Ive been avoiding hobbies, relationships, everything. it's gotten really bad and destructive. the rot is taking over T_T

I want to get better. recently I'm making myself engage with things slightly more again, pick back up my hobbies, even trying to make myself draw and hang out again....even tho admittedly things seem kinda meaningless and pointless right now.

anyway, long way of saying I may be around again but in a weird on/off rusty kinda way. maybe things will improve in time.

anyone who read this I hope your life has been going better than mine lmao. see you soon, with any luck.

#I know this is a dead account on a crashing and burning website. but it felt weird to proceed without saying anything

[oldgayjew]

Every now and then this pathetic little has-been-nobody likes to crawl out from under her rock and spew nauseating bull-shit in an effort to reaffirm her place in the “Stupidity Hall of Fame” ... the only ones who care to hear what she says are those mindless followers of Hollywood has-beens and other “Hate-Is-Fashionable” types who drool over dayslime and hate-nite television ...

I just needed to vent ... sorry ... my older brother served in Viet Nam and I can’t forget her chasing her early “hey-look-at-me” moment at the expense of our military ...

(JUMP UP AND BITE MY ASS BITCH)

#BJB oldgayjew

[gurorori]

oh my gawd can she shut the fuck up i wanna kill her so bad i wanna stab her a hundred timesssss wudn even strangle her cuz i don wanna touch dat ew

#an i genuinely do. i remember us bein like 16 when she locked us out in the balcony wgen it was freezin n it was jus me. so i slept 4 a few #hrs on da cold floor LAWL n i gawt sick the next day #last frw years jus been goin 2 sleep at nite hopin we wake up & shes cold to the touch #if murder had zero repercussions i wud 100% kill her like im sayin this w my whole chest. i can do it n i wud. #vent #mika caws

[nemosisworld]

Si tu es le vent Je rêve dans les nuages Où tu voyages

Nakajima Kiyoshi

Ph. Nite

[skunkes]

the way you draw the human body and the poses it can do is insanely good, i know you dont feel good at art (i also rarely feel good about mine, i know its hard) but your art and the progression of it that ive watched over the years is genuinely incredible, and i hope that one day you will feel good about your work bc you deserve to enjoy your own work

thank yu, i really hope so too.

I complain and vent a lot and i know everyone has their good and bad days art wise (im back on feeling Okay about my stuff as of last nite, will probably be crying tomorrow etc) but its my first time being alive and i always get like amnesia about these patterns and fear ill never get the Good back, whenever I'm in the Bad zone ykwim... i am glad ppl enjoy my work i wish i could give More and Good, thats all

#anonymous #skunk mail #good ask

[holyhounddog]

Normally I don’t post vent art but it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything, and I like how this came out.. so.

Hopefully the warning tags do their job.

Lyrics: Animal Rites by John Congleton and The Nighty Nite

#allanart #tokyo ghoul re #procreate #tg:re #tooru mutsuki #horror #tokyo ghoul #cw blood #cw dysphoria #gender dysphoria #vent art #cw vent #artistic nude #tg fanart

[ofbetterbodies]

We’re doing d8 nite talk it’s decided

SWIFTIE D8 ASK NIGHT THIS FRIDAY JAN 6 8pm est / 5pm pst

Tag #swiftied8talk or me @ofbetterbodies so we can all see your asks and stories!!! Talk related to any kind of dates! Advice, stories, complaints, vents, rants, lovesick messages ALL WELCOME!!!!

reblog to spread if u wanna 🤌🏻

#asks #anonymous #Swiftie events #swiftied8talk