#nick called and sounded like he was in a good mood and im fucking annoyed that wad exactlt when i was getting pulled into things and when i

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Uuuuuuuuuuugggggggghhhhhhh

Ssssiiiiiiiiiiiiighhhhhhhhh

#just me and the boys #aka the moods #i am so so tired of today abd its barely fucking started #i want to take every computer/laptop and printer around me and throw it against a fucking wall #the laptop at work's storage is full and it has been for over a year #but now some things need to update on it and its too full to do that #and ive deleted as much as i can and someone else who knows slightly more than i do also confirmed the laptop just has a shit amount of #storage and noe the fucking printer specifically scanner is fucking up then i get home and my laptop here is being slow as shit and thats #not realky new and i cant say ive actively tried to fix things but regardless its annoying its currently causing me issues and then my dads #printer whicb us the same kind of printer i have at work actually is now bot accepting the ink catridges for some reason snd insists #that it needs the set up catridges whatever that means #combined with i just hate being here and the puppy has peed twice inside when apparebtly yesterday besides at night when i was home watching #she disnt pee inside at all so now my parents are both especually annoyed about tjings #not me just they already got annoyed at the computer abd each other for differenr reasons and then i got semi pulled into #and just so many other things #and its all so so fucking annoying #nick called and sounded like he was in a good mood and im fucking annoyed that wad exactlt when i was getting pulled into things and when i #called him back a couple min layer his mood sounded a little less pleasent i think just cause it was enough time to get distracted or someth #idk but it annoys ne #i dobt even want to be at this house i want to be at that house #tag rambles #dont mind me #screams

[gayliensav]

the opening card of fear the walking dead is literally the most annoying sound to my overly sensitive ears

but im starting a rewatch, just gonna keep updating this post below the cut

S1E01: “Pilot” 

ahahhaha that millennial daughter of theirs not watching to eat gluten. Bet the local white moms who are casual watchers for Norman loved this joke

Alicia is the only character I have liked from the very beginning (besides like...Strand, but he wasn’t in the first ep)

Like I know everyone is up Madison’s ass (at least they were last time I checked and I’m a few seasons behind), but I don’t like her or Travis all that much

Nick changed for me, I used to hate him but he got a little better

Nick hating Travis???? A BIG FUCKING MOOD

Like I understand that as the viewers who watch TWD we’re supposed to be annoyed with their decisions, which is how I feel from the beginning, but I do realize that’s how they want us to feel.

“You need to take Christopher” “i DoNt WaNnA gO”

He’s literally asking his son, a teenager, to come and spend the weekend in the hospital with someone he barely knows, like what does he expect here??

the lead up draaaaags on for too long

*slams fist on desk* wheres isaac lahey

I think one of the main problems with the relationships in this show is that there’s no lead up and no development, they just immediately love each other. Like with Rick and Michonne, we had seasons of lead up, but not with these two. The writers of this are capable of writing good relationships, they just chose to drag these two heteros into the main stage without giving them any backstory in the beginning.

This liveblog is going to consist of me making quips and then actual analysis of stuff

i walked out of the room to go to the bathroom and didnt miss anything

this one kids got it covered, tobias is prolly still out there

thats what I expected Paul Rovia to be like at the beginning of the apocalypse. Everyone is like dicking around and hes like nah fam and yeets his body outta town

the whole show is on 123movies, btw, dont give amc the numbers by watching it on their site. They also don’t have the first few seasons available anyways, so

like why don’t they just go check the building instead of saying Nick was just drugged. Like I know he was high, but he saw dead bodies, they need to call the police and have them check that shit out. Instead Travis just goes there by himself. Ricky Grimes would not approve.

I forget how long until the actual apocalypse stuff happens, but I’m getting a teeny bit bored already.

“Something really bad happened there” “I don’t care” lmao WHAT, Madison????

“You cannot enable him” IM HOWLING THESE WORDS JUST CAME FROM MADISON’S MOUTH

I paused and 50 pop ups came up, thanks

you know alicia’s bf goes down

IS THAT ANDRE FROM VICTORIOUS 

ITS LEON 

they really teased us with an almost-zombie huh almost like they knew we were bored

fffff there aint a doubt in my mind that anyone from the pilot except tobias and alicia survived this show

nick’s yeetin outta here

Like the concept of being in a huge city during the beginning was great, but we didn’t really get very much of that. The first few episodes especially when Travis was trying to get Chris and was stuck in that barber shop was great. Like that’s one of the few episodes of this that really stick in my mind. Those crazy fucking scenes were great.

“there’s no bodies...they couldn’t just get up and walk away” lollllll what clever writers WE HAVE

Like I’ll give Travis credit, he did try to be a good dad and stepdad...just bad timing, not great decisions in the end of the world, etc. Like the one scene where he was swearing he’d drag Nick to rehab??? That scene got me feelin’ stuff.

YES FINALLY SOME TENSION ON THE HIGHWAY LETS GO LESBIANS THIS IS THE WALKING FUCKING DEAD

lol a helicopter

 you know why all these kids aren’t in school??? their parents are anti-vaxxers

walkers walkers walker walkers LETS GO THERES A WALKER

“killshot, bitch”

that took way too long to be the first episode goddamn

S1E02: “So Close, Yet So Far” 

Ooooo cellphones are starting to go, shits getting good now

I’m like 30 minutes in and haven’t liveblogged anything, I’m bored

Well, that was that.

S1E03: “The Dog”

I hate this already because of the title we stan (1) TWD Dog in this house and his name is Dog Dixon

this star wars now???

See, I’m a neutral gay who just likes to watch chaos. A chaotic neutral, if you will. So this episode is fucking WILD, like this is what I mentioned before.

the monopoly scene was wholesome

I guess I could see Paul joining in on this chaos for a bit until he realized oh shit this aint good chief THEN yeeting outta there

Fun fact, the truck they use for the first part of Fear is Daryl, Aaron, and Paul’s truck on the askjaaryl blog:

The music while they’re driving is on fucking point, like it kinda sounds like that one TWD theme (the hopeful one) but remixed.

The scene where all the lights in the city go off PHEW poetic cinema

Madison: DONT LET IT IN! Nick: ITS A DOG! -- Daryl felt that

I frozzee I thought for a hot minute that it was Dog

He a cutie tho

that poor doggo im so sick of this show’s treatment towards them like

if anything happens to Dog, I think Norman will quit and rightfully so

i feel like just a few people in the post-apocalyptic world where zombie movies dont exist were just blessed with the knowledge that you have to shoot the head

damn chris really didnt do shit and got a whole broken nose huh

so far, stan list: alicia, victor strand (he hasnt appeared but yyknow), and chris sort of

they need a doctor but she never went to school before the end of hte world is this how alex feels all the time

S1E04: “Not Fade Away”

The opening to this one always really stuck with me. Like it’s so normal but you know it’s not.

lol remember that time everyone freaked the fuck out thinking this was Carl

I feel like Ophelia and this soldier dude would have one of those conversations where it’s like “what do you like about me?” “you’re beautiful” “is that it?” 

deadass don’t care if nick is over 18, she still hit her son who has an addiction he can’t control 

I think this is where I started to hate Madison. Instead of blaming the people who did it, she blamed Liza. Because that makes sense.

S1E05: “Cobalt”

YOU ARE MY DAD YOURE MY DAD BOOGIE WOOGIE WOOGIE

Strand out here scamming the heteros since before the apocalypse started

Paul Rovia and Victor Strand had a thing, you can’t change my mind

Everything but Strand’s scenes is boring to me and there is an extreme lack of those.

S1E06: “The Good Man”

Honestly, the relationship between Nick and Strand was really great.

“We’re gonna get along fine, Nick’s mom” is one of my favorite lines because like...it’s like a little kid talking to someone else’s parent, but he’s a grown ass man and he knows damn well how funny he is.

So wait did Ophelia die???

oop nope she good

lol she deadass apologizing that he got taken and not for beating her own son but OKAAAAAY

S2E01: “The Monster”

Here we go, a full length season this time. Let’s see how this goes.

#sav watches;

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #5: "his Kirby ass can shut the hell up” - Marie

Charlie being safe!? Yas. Good for me since he is part of my alliance.

An alice them challenge. Uh yass!! 🦑 i have the book so i can quickly look thru it and find people, items, food, and other stuff which is good for us. I dont want to go to tribal.

nicolegilmoreToday at 7:42 PM That was probably Kaleigh bc I would open messages and not answer them

that was about when we played before and she was part of a 3 person catfish. but funny enough it still applies to this game!!! love when she leaves me on read for 20 hours

So I feel good with my standing in this tribe tbh. I feel like I have made meaningful contributions to the tribe in challenges and have a good rapport with a few tribe members. Keaton and Marie might be the easiest too get out, even though I am aware that it makes me a threat but we been used to that feeling. Having the idol as extra security as well makes me feel good so eeeek. I just want too survive to merge and link up with new people and people who i know as well, and play off that. im super nervous but also excited, i just hope to god we win this immunity

At first I thought this Alice and wonderland challenge was going to be super fun an exciting. At first it was. Now its getting a little frustrating and annoying seeing Not Found (something along those lines). I'm hoping that our 28 items is higher than the other tribe's or at least being a tie. I want to avoid tribal still because still feeling sketch about this tribe.

Our search isnt doing too well. And nicole went missing and dont know she is. We have 28 items. Hopefully thats enough but i have a feeling in my stomach that it isnt and im scared. Dont want to go to tribal. Hope we win though. 🤞

if kirby does not tell me his great great great great grandmas waffle recipe hes done for. like why bring it up if ur not gonna share. ??? um we won immunity again and im so happy bc i dont want to go to tribal bc even tho there are MULTIPLE ppl i want out i dont want to risk it. stan list right now is dennis, naptime, matt, marie. everyone else? and matt and marie barely on there too... but um actually starting to like them and theyre more responsive now so love that! by the end of this game ill actually know things about alice in wonderland wooh!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Okay so this sucks. We all really tried hard and we only lost by 2 points which is so frustrating. Not to mention that Nick and Charlie couldn't even find anything at all. And now we're in a really shitty spot because sending Nick home would be an easy out but he possibly has this legacy advantage thing which he can use tonight and if that means he's safe than idk what to do because I have a strong alliance with the other 4 people on my tribe. Which means now we have to come up with a plan to make sure Nick feels safe and he doesn't use his advantage but we still put the majority of votes on him. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Okay I'm laying it on thick with Nick. Really trying to play the middle and see where his head is at. I think honestly chances are Nick will make it through this round but I want to make sure after the vote he still trusts me but he does use his Legacy Advantage. Brian and I are walking a very thin line.

Yas. We won immunity again! 🦑 Still on of the 3 people not go to tribal yet which is pretty awesome. I’m now hoping that Charlie, Sharky, and Brian can find a way to survive again. Don’t want to lose any of them. Hopefully we merge soon. Its going to be down to 12 people after tomorrow’s tribal. Only ones to really talk to me on this tribe is Dennis, Bryce, Keaton and sometimes Matt. Havent talked to much to Marie. And Nicole ive tried but ignored. If anything it would be cool to blindside Nicole at first tribal in the merge.

I think im going to talk game to keaton today and see if we could work together. And im also going to see what Bryce thinks about us working together as well. Im just nervous if tonight we do merge at tribal, i dont want to be first boot. I want to make it far in this game.

I don't know if my last confessional went through, so I'll just send another one in hehe...

I do feel like Charlie is going home this round because of his idol play last round, but it could also be Nick going or him using his Legacy Advantage and all that being gone.  I don't really know, but I want to make sure it ain't me and that's what's important.

As for other things... love Sharky, what a king.  Love Nathan, another king... Annabelle's really cool, ya... I love Charlie but he's still probably gonna die... and ya kjHDA... that's all I have to say...

Scared for merge because L O fucking L... that's going to be a mess.  It could be coming tonight, but I really do not know and I'm scared…

Keaton decides to call me inactive in the tribe chat but his Kirby ass can shut the hell up, he's just bitter I voted against him the first tribal and he's tryna put the target on my ass. Thank god we won the challenge because I don't know if I would've stayed. I have good relationships with Bryce Matt and Dennis but I don't know if that's enough to keep me.

So first off. Sorry for no video confessional. But not enough happened to bramble around and take 3 hours of my internet for uploading slow AF but here is a small summary of what happened to my game. Idolsearch: went to the tugley woods again. I guess you need a map to find your way through it, but what do i know D: Last tc: Charlie played his idol and mentioned publically that all of his old tribe knew about that idol anyways. What kind of made me a bit suspicious. Mainly because when he told me, he said that he really wants to work with me and thats why he is telling me this secret. I don't mind that the idol is gone, but if he told that everyone? mhm... I approached maynor to see if he knew and he said NO. so maybe I did a whoopsie? WHO KNOWS.

Eitherway. Anna announced a "live challenge" after this tribal (oh yeah we are safe again woo), but since we would be down to 12 I wouldn't be surprised if that "live challenge" is actually the merge announcement? If not. I think EVEN IF WE LOSE i should be in a decent position? Because Keaton couldn't keep his mouth shut and when it came to sitting someone out and called out Marie in the tribe chat. Bad move for him, good for me. Because even if we go to tribal unless someone really wants to target me for some reason it should be between those 2

Okay so we've come up with a slightly complicated plan. Looks like I'm going to lose Charlie this round which makes me kind of sad because I really get on well with him. But it's what i have to do to get further in the game. We're going to split the vote so The Dinah Dudes vote fro Nick. The OG Absolem people vote Charlie. Anna tells Nick he needs to use his Legacy Advantage so we get rid of that from the game. I just hope I come out of this without hurting Charlie or pissing off Nick.

AJ just used an emoji that CHANGED. MY. LIFE. It's like praying and trying to stay calm and then fire happens and it says BOI! And if that isn't a fucking mood idk what is!

Y'all I am so bad at this idol hunt. I keep choosing locations that don't even have choices. Yikes. Everybody else has advantages and shit and I'm just sitting in an empty meadow.

I’m sad we lost i actually tried for this because I didn’t want a complicated tribal but bleh Idk how this will work but I think it will work out for the best potentially if it goes the way I’m hoping. I loved this comp though the hosts did a great job with it. It was actually fun

With merge approaching I think that it’s important I remember I really don’t owe anything to the people on my tribe... they voted out Jayden and told me nothing and I think it’s time for some revenge.. all you people in the viewing lounge stay tuned... Ima show you why I’ve never not made a merge!

I’m not sure if it’s day 13, I’ve been safe every single round and I have absolutely no clue how I am doing that.....Dennis is my one and only ally. Hopefully it's merge time!

Honestly, I think I might be going home lol. Brian and Sharky are telling me Nick but no one else has messaged me. Severely regretting using my idol now lol.

Hope my bois have still got my back, even though I haven't been that helpful in challenges recently. I'm hoping it'll reduce my threat level for merge hehe

Ive been talking to Bryce and wants to work with me. This is great. So on this tribe i have Dennis and Bryce and perhaps even keaton. So just nervous for live challenge.

LAST MINUTE SCRAMBLING. Sounds like Nick is trying to flip the vote on Brian. he asked Nathan and Anna to flip off of Charlie. So Now Brian is worried (Which is totally fair) because he doesn't know if he can trust Anna. So even if Nathan/Brian/I stick to the plan, if she flips and Nick uses his advantage Brian goes home. So now he wants to flip his vote so worst case scenario it goes 2-2-2 and we can fix things on the revote. Ugh I hate scrambling. I prefer my tribals over easy.

Charlie is voted out 3-2.

#allmadhere #episode

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE THREE: “I AM BRIAN HEIDEK” - BRIAN

idk whats happening int his game i was gone for one night and now im on a different tribe with ppl i dont know so this is gonna be fun

You last time I made a confessional, I was pissing myself off at the crazy bat shit Willa has said about our lovely Ysabela tribe. Well look at that. Just take a good look. Maybe snap a picture cause they last longer, but we still managed to scrape elimination and were still 6 strong at Final 14. Its hilarious when people have to eat their words.

Okay wyd? A swap already? At 15? This had to be planned to make us bond with our new tribes and everything. I thought I had to be done being peppy and preppy on Day 1, maybe on Day 19 to the new people you haven't seen at all prior to the merge. But on Day 9? This better play to our pretty faces. I don't want to go to my first tribal council and be the first one out via swap and be swap fucked yet again. #HeresToHoping

This tribe swap is not good for me at all considering the only person I know is Brian. Which means I have to make even more relationships

I'm really content with my new tribe swap because I've got Rob, I've got Julia Rae, I think I have a bond with Brian forming right now. I rely on pregame relationships so much at the moment and while that will make any stellar performance less impressive, at least I'm trying to learn from my mistakes. I want to play UTR but I don't know how believable that will be for everyone else... maybe I need to actually be over the top like usual? But then doesn't that set me up for a quick blindside??? I dunno! All I know is that Mitch and Chris and Zach need to go sooner rather than later. I gotta see to it that they are out of this game.

IS. THERE. ANYTHING. BETTER. THAN. BEING. SWAPPED. ALONE. Ya, there fucking is...literally everything. You couldn't give me Bodhi? I couldn't even get Rob?  Maybe I can have the other half of the super idol as a reward for this GARBAGE? I'm here alone and idk anybody so I am going to LEVERAGE THIS SITUATION AND PLAY LIKE THE TRU QUEEN I CAN BE. I'm going to be tryin moves these people couldn't even conceive of honestly. I have nothin to lose. nuYsabela tribe is four original Cigateos and three original Eleutheras. Honestly, there are worse positions to be in because these majority groups will be vying for control, and maybe i'll just be forgotten about for a lil and I can exploit that to make my moves. Hopefully these tribes aren't that close and some of their members were inactive --as most of original Ysabela was. If they weren't, hopefully people are looking to work with me since i can really sway things in a vote on this tribe. Original Cigateo: Gage, Mitch, Jenna, Zach - I've talked to Gage and Mitch a little bit so far. I need to look into Mitch a little bit. I've seen him around before, and i'm certain a lot of people know him. Also Jaiden just called Mitch out for being the most threatening on my tribe, so maybe I can use that and his past relationships against him? But i'm not doubting that since I've heard of him, he must have some real talent in these games. Also it's never bad to have a bigger threat than yourself around in this game, so i'm going to focus on developing this relationship more tomorrow. I've also heard Gage's name before, so i'm going to look him up too. Im going to put my clutch research skills to the test on this one. Time to make moves, ya know? Original Eleuthera: Nick, Willa, Lily- Talked to all three a little. Willa made their tribe bonds look really weak, and if that's true, amazing. I'd rather get some of these Eleutheras out of here personally so that original Ysabela and their dysfunctional asses have a better chance at numbers later in the game. But I also don't want to get picked off by original Cigateo  if I work to deplete original Eleuthera. Don't get it twisted, I want original Ysabela to have numbers because, with the exception of Bodhi and Chris, it was full of players I believe to have very little self-awareness, meaning I could manipulate them and hopefully get further in the game. Threats need to go, and the sheeple of original Ysabela are the ones I need to get to the end. Finally, I still have half the super idol/ it can be a regular idol if I need. This gives me some power, but I still don't plan on telling anybody. ldol tea only comes out to play if it can change the course of the game in a significant way. I have a clue to another idol on Ysabela too, which is nice because being the only original Ysabela tribe member left here means I should be the only one with this information. Maybe I could use it to gain some favor with a new ally? But i want to keep it to myself for another round because I think I could potentially find it faster and with more certainty alone. But also, i'm tryin not to get too cocky, paranoid, or set on either UTR or OTT gameplay in this season. I want to be flexible... so everything could change as soon as tomorrow!

Ho Ly Shit. We fucking swapped. I figured we'd wait just a little longer, but nope!! It's all about the TWISTS. Icky. In my view, a tribe should exist for more than just 2 challenges, so that it actually feels like a tribe rather than a temporary group. But whatever, I don't mind all that much. I'm glad to be on this new tribe, because I don't really like anyone from my old tribe except for Dana. Fortunately, due to this swap, no one will see myself and Dana as a pair, and I'll be able to get some of my old tribe picked off ideally. I've started my conversing, and I like Zachary. I want to work with Chris, but it also might be in my best interest to get him voted out. I don't want too many allies on the same sides, because that makes me a threat. I want an ally or two in each alliance, and hopefully that'll be enough to bring me to the end. My loyalty is completely with Dana, but I need a backup plan should she be voted out. My goal on this tribe is to form another alliance that will allow me to be on the right side of the merge vote at the very least. I'm here to win, and I intend to follow through with this goal. Perhaps it will work out, perhaps it wont, but I'm planning on playing the best game that I can this season. I don't really know what this challenge is, I'll just trust everyone else to try hard enough and make me win. I'll try to contribute, but winning challenges is the first step to losing the game.

The thing I love about swaps is that you get to meet new people and really form those newer bonds that didn't exist with the old tribal lines. But the thing is with my case. 5/6 of my old tribe is on Citageo 2.0 and we got Brian and Rob in place if Dana. Like wtf? I love my tribemates, but I'm at a disadvantage here if Rob and Brian can rekindle whatever relationships they have personally with my more known Tumblr tribemates. So I need this immunity win, and I really need to avoid tribal council at all costs.

Oh hey I just realized that 5/8 people on my new tribe are from original Ysabela. That sounds like a good thing, right? WRONG. If us 5 make it to the merge unhurt, then we're VERY easy targets. If the other tribe loses immunity, they might feel inclined to vote out Dana first, which is awful for me. I care about Dana more than the rest of my tribe combined, so I have nothing against flipping on Ysabela to make our numbers less threatening. I'll need one more person to help me do it, but I think it could work out. If I save these 3's asses, they're going to open up to me a bit more, and while I don't expect them to feel indebted to me, I do expect them to at least want to work with me more going forward. I don't like Jaiden or Adrian all that much anyway, so creating some lies about how they're sneaky and trying to lead the tribe should be easy as hell. I plan on contributing to this challenge just enough to make people not turn on me, but not enough to win. Dana will be going home if Nu Cigaretto or whatever the fuck we're called wins immunity. I hate big moves for big moves sake, but this might be an exception to the "big moves are for idiots" rule that I tend to play by. I'm getting in good with Zachary and Kai, and I'm trying to make Chris more inclined to work with me. Hopefully this shit will work out.

So I just realized that a good majority of this cast played in Big Brother Glenn or had a large part in it. Nicholas being a host, Jenna, Jaiden and Zach playing with me. Oh I can't wait to send them all to fucking tribal so they can be booted off one by one for the cumulative 23 votes I received. Actually, I hope they make the merge so I can personally send them home.  

Honestly why is everyone gettin on my nerves today. First of all, I try to talk strategy with Lily, and get this: On 5/26/17, at 12:44 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > I'm not ready to think about it. Honestly. Haha let's forget about it. Or just win this thing. We can still win. UM WHAT? You think you're going to avoid talking strategy with me by just telling me you aren't in the mood? COME ON. Honestly that's not workin for me. Despite that, I still like her the most of anyone on my tribe. and then... On 5/26/17, at 1:07 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > Yeah that's super strange. I hope we win but even if we don't I hope you stick around. On 5/26/17, at 1:27 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > Thank you!!! You are too kind! I'm just a Chatty Cathy hahaha. But you are pretty easy to talk to and actually respond with more than two words which is amazing. UM HELLO? I will be sticking around, know that. Also I'm just like generally annoyed by Jenna's presence? Like idk her yet, but I just have this gut feeling we aren't going to click based on tribe/ immunity chat and that sucks. Also i'm going to need people to step it up in immunity. thx.

Highkey I like to write quality entries, but since this is to earn points for the challenge I'm going to not. Anyway, we had a tribe swap and so far I like pretty much everybody who has spoken to me. I sort of feel that there are people I haven't reached out to yet and that's my next objective on top of winning immunity.

So I know that Willa has an idol but we need to find the other side. Nicholas is also interested in working with Willa so I'm excited about that. Hopefully we can all make it to merge!

I miss kai on my tribe tho. I tell him everything. So it's hard to not talk about the idol because I really want to. I kinda hope my tribe loses so I don't have to worry about him getting voted out.

Jk. I love kai but I'm not ready to go home or get lost in this game. I'm super worried I won't find my way back. I can't afford to get lost in the Bermuda Triangle man. I ain't strong enough.

I decided to send myself ~away~ because this means that I might have an additional opportunity to find any advantages. My tribe is already five people strong from original Ysabela, so I'm not worried about being on the bottom of the numbers or anything, which means that I have literally nothing to worry about. I still want to work with Rob and Julia Rae though because they're honestly my closest allies and I rely on them A TON right now.

So our tribe is floundering at the moment, which isn't surprising. I wish I could do more to help out, but I just have no energy whatsoever. I'm not fast enough to think of survivor players to compare hosts to or write a 500 word essay.

Hello world. Already did a confessional today, but here is one for some points in Tasks. It isnt lookin too hot for my tribe right now tbh. But it's fine. I really like Lily and I'm ready to mix shit up. Also why is everyone bothering me. Like pls help me.

this is three sentences. nothing has really happened lately! this challenge is pretty hard but that's because i'm busy. i hope my tribe doesn't decide to vote me out :(

This game is just crazy. Between the other nights random spontaneous tribal, the also random tribe swap after 2 people and the magical idol board I've just discovered I'm confused as to what I'm even doing... to be fair as long as we win this immunity challenge and the rest, I won't complain. Let's just hope we don't get any more twists thrown at us any time soon because I don't think I'm ready for another one just yet..

Jaiden can choke. Brian is dumb. Kai is cool. Julia who? Bodhi whomst? Chips is cool.

Good time to actually send a confessional lmao. Anyways, a 4-3-1 swap is awkward being in the 3 because Dana could easily just flip, but hopefully we can convince her to stay close and for Zach to flip on the Cigs so that we can take control. If all else fails I just hope I use my idol correctly if I need to. Myself Lily and Nicholas could be in a great spot if we play this right, and then if we can realign with Kai and Brian we might just be ~unstoppable~ at the merge. Not that a boring pagonging is gonna be allowed by any one of us crazy losers.

OK OK OK (now ladies) So I've been talking to Chris about this new tribe, trying to plant the seeds of flippage. He has brought up that Julia and Jaiden are a pair, and I said that I think ADRIAN IS PART OF A TIGHT THREESOME WITH THEM. I'm trying to make Chris want to be a close ally of mine, and want to flip to join Kai/Brian/Rob and take out one of our old tribe members. I want to win this game, and making dumb big moves might unfortunately be in my best interest.

"Someone type gimmie in chat to get an individual advantage and go to tribal" So I go to tribe chat to type gimmie, even though I don't want any advantage, just because I want Dana to win immunity BUT SOMEONE ELSE GOT IT FIRST BUT THANK GOD ----- IT WAS ON MY TRIBE

http://vignette3.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor/images/2/23/Parvati_with_2_idols.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20120114024916 Who would've thought that little ol' me would be in the possession of my two least favorite powers in Tumblr Survivor history? I have not only a Sapphire idol, but now I have a CHAOS idol... and I don't think anyone is much the wiser! *Sarah voice* I'm playing like a criminal. I threw the challenge and RIGHT before I left, I told Rob and Julia that it was Bodhi because he wasn't speaking UNTIL the challenge had ended, almost right after it was announced that we had lost. I hope that little seed EXPLODES in their heads and they gun for him to go, and he won't even know what hit him! Although I'd prefer Chris take the boot, Bodhi will have to do for now. Sorry, bro! Along my personal advantaggedon, I have this cool little thing that forces the person of your choosing to take a self vote. I like this because it could help me out in the future with one of my idols being as effective as possible. For everything to go smoothly though, I really need to make sure that I'm set to make the merge without attending a SINGLE tribal council between now and then. I can't have an excuse to waste these things until that time comes, but with that being said I also need to make sure I'm in a good enough position to not *have* to use them in any period of time. Fingers crossed!

I love that we're in the lead. Chris, Brian and Rob are challenge beasts with this. Jaiden and I are like participating with the conversations and like boosting morale for Cigateo, while Julia, Kai and Bodhi haven't made a single appearance. And we're still winning because of those three. Huh who knew that Brian and Rob are really working to get immunity cause I guess their afraid of being eliminated premerge? Idk, cause there are 5 people from Ysabela 1.0 here on this swapped tribe and I guess that they are scared idk. I mean, both men are really really sweet people, and it would suck to see any of them leave before my og tribe. but hey what can you do?

And of course one of these selfish people had to sacrifice everything we had for an advantage that was probably not really worth it. Like was it a clue to the idol? to a legacy advantage? to a double vote? who knows? I'm just pissed that I have to vote someone off because I was really looking forward to taking the weekend off and like get to know my new tribemates more. But now, I have to press for someone's name and that's something I don't want to do?

Ok so no one was talking to me about the vote at first. Then Chris told me that he'd heard my name because PEOPLE THINK I'VE BEEN THROWING CHALLENGES????? Ok well I am but that's besides the point. Chris then said he threw out Julia, and after some more waiting, Adrian told me he'd heard both my name and Julia's. BIG IF TRUE. He also said he's not gonna be voting me. Hey, that's perfect. I don't want to go home without my fictional million dollars, and I won't take 16th place for an answer. Rob has also told me he's voting Julia

Well not only we forfeited the lead to this challenge, people are targeting to breakup the Ysabela 5? Is that some alliance I wasn't notified about? Just because we have the majority on this new tribe and that we happened to play the first 6 days of this game together? I know that people are on the outs trying to find a way in- but that is the shittiest reason to target people because of some rat that threw the lead. Like, that is really really pathetic, and I can't deal with ridiculous that sounds. Well if it does go through, I just hope I don't get the boot cause going home third would really really suck.

Well not only we forfeited the lead to this challenge, people are targeting to breakup the Ysabela 5? Is that some alliance I wasn't notified about? Just because we have the majority on this new tribe and that we happened to play the first 6 days of this game together? I know that people are on the outs trying to find a way in- but that is the shittiest reason to target people because of some rat that threw the lead. Like, that is really really pathetic, and I can't deal with ridiculous that sounds. Well if it does go through, I just hope I don't get the boot cause going home third would really really suck.

Lol Jaiden. I don't know about him. We have this bond with Hoenn, and I was counting on him not being present for tribal council, but lo and behold- he's back. I should be relieved but I don't think that it was smart of him to be "back". Like if you're given the chance to escape tribal council and not vote/not get votes for, I would take it the first chance I can. But here he is saying that "I don't like doing nothing for an extended period of time." ............. I- BITCH! YOU DON'T DO ANYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE... PERIOD! This game irritates me and I won't stand for it. I can wait for a given chance to go ham in this game.

me: here's a good strategic idea! also me: jk let's use my powers for teh lolz! I think I'm gonna play my sapphire idol tonight to make some big moves. Actually, just one big move. I'm going to send Chris's ugly ass to the prejury home of losers... all because he's coming for my actual mother, Julia Rae. We'll see how this goes! That's all for now because I have NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING

I am screwed. I'm the only cigarette left on Cigarette. Fuck! And I was starting to really like Gage too but I called it! I told him we're swapping cause an instant was sketchy for round two. On my tribe there's Jaiden, Brian, Adrian, Bodhi, Kai, Chips, and Julia. Right now, I'm talking to Brian. He's been active and he was on urethra which is also in minority on this tribe. He talked about how me, him, and Kai should work together, and I'm down for it as long as it keeps me safe. However, I know that Brian is sketchy and not someone I'm really keen on. There's Jaiden and Chips. I love Chips, but I'm worried he may hold our previous experiences against me. Jaiden is such a wild card I don't know what to expect from him. He told me he wanted a F2 but he said that to me the last times we played too and I couldn't trust him. Julia is a part of that BB group I'm seeing and we played in a mini before, she voted for me everytime and I'm upset about it. Adrian is cool, and so is Kai,. Bodhi has been MIA. The immunity is tasks and I'm trying to do a lot for my tribe so they don't think I'm worthless and I can keep me safe. I poured water over my head! And put vegetable oil in my yogurt! Brian is really trying to build trust with me. He freaking shared the idol clue with me and revealed he lost the points for our tribe. Always Eat Soggy Waffles. Whether it's faked or not we'll see, but I assumed North before cause all the hosts are from the north. I'm happy I was out and had an alibi which actually happened. Thanks fam for losing my social security and birth certificate. The challenge was fun but someone took us to tribal for a freaking advantage when we were in the lead. And now this fucking tribal is a mess. I'm pretty sure that Bodhi took the advantage. It just screams Bodhi whatever the fuck his unique last name is. He's inactive also but I know he's smart, and he's going to be the death of this tribe, but people want Julia, and I can see it. She's also inactive and she has more connections with people. Adrian threw out Kai's name cause he didn't accept friend requests, but I am sort of working with Kai. Kai is with Brian though, and I can't necessarily trust Brian. It kept on switching back and forth, but in order to save myself in this game, I thought that I should try to appease Adrian, give him what he wants and vote Kai. Adrian is clearly with Julia and Bodhi, but I'm already fucked up as it is. I wanted Bodhi, he's not trustworthy at all, damn it. I'm already screwed over. I'm breaking the trust of my allies. And i can't fucking deal with this. Fuck this. Fuck everything. Bodhi can choke. Julia can leave. Kai can stay in the UK. Brian can not speak ever again. Everything can just go ahh! I hate this, I hate everything. I shouldn't have applied to this game. I should of just never played an org again I know that this is the shit that happens and it's so stupid. Whoever took that advantage, I will fight you. I'm an idiot. I'm the worst. I suck at this game. Andrea was talking about me not Zeke.

The whole 4 hours leading up to the tribal, everything is chaotic. You first see me throwing Bodhi's name around and then having people jump on the gun like Rob. He's telling me that he's known for sabotaging the tribe for secret advantages, and he's doing all the dirty work for me- telling Chris, Brian and Jaiden. Next comes Chris, who's not so sure that Bodhi is the right person to vote, and I had to find this out from Brian, who told me that he wanted Julia out. So I talk to him and I'm like wtf, shes one of the original Ysabela. We have 5 people strong and you're gonna waste it on Julia? How stupid can you be? We should be taking it out on Kai, the one person that hasn't been talking to anyone (well me mainly). But aside from that. WTF!?!? Couple hours later, Julia FINALLY arrives and talks strategy, and she's a helluva sweet person. Like Chris targeting her is extremely stupid and really really dumb on his part, and so we created the "Howdy" alliance with myself, Julia, Jaiden, and Rob and we all decided that with the inactive Kai that makes 5 people voting Kai and we save Julia and Bodhi, and keep my plans of Ysabela strong at 5. So I am confident that this will work!!

Okay wtf was that? A blind tribal with a chaos idol? Holy fuck. Jaiden is a savage motherfucker and I didn't realize how much of an asshole he can be for sabotaging our tribe like that for a secret advantage that took out one of our strongest members. Like I love Chris and everything, but he played his own self and I am here on Day 11, happy and dandy and really I'm just glad that Jaiden didn't target me at all. Since it is Day 11, I think I need to assess my new tribe after that chaotic voteoff. - Julia is safe and she thinks that I'm her #1 ally. - Bodhi is safe cause he thought I voted with him and kept him in the loop about voting Julia - Brian thinks that I'm the one Ysabella that would "let him in" on my plans with the 5, cause he's desperately scared of going home premerge. - Rob is a sweetheart, but I don't know how he plays considering that he will jump on anything that would take him further in this game. - Jaiden, phew KING of surviving the Triangle and pulling off that dangerous move. I think that he's gonna be target number one if we don't win this next immunity challenge, but I could not care less because that means I'm safe for another few days and he can take his risky ass back home! - Kai, should've gone home over Chris, but what can you do? I'll try to get him out this round.

So Brian comes to me after tribal council saying that the tribal was fucked over. I'm playing the sweet little innocent that is playing the sympathy card. Sure I was blindsided by the vote too but with me, I never wanted Julia or Bodhi to go home. I wanted Kai gone and with Chris sprouting Julia's name left and right- I got over that shock immediately and I'm trying to console Brian as much as I can. He's like this adorable puppy that gets scared with literally everything. I'm just petting him and calming him down. Making sure he's sedated and doesn't do anything wild that might screw me in the process before its time for me to neuter him >:) 

Ok, so CHRIS went home. This is not good. This is not good at all. I've just lied to you. I'm glad to have been blindsided. I'm now getting an opportunity to build even closer trust with Kai, and I think that'll be incredibly valuable for me.

Im the fucking worst

Guess who is REAPING SOME INFO me So Kai told me that when you search North, mossy, mossy pit, there's an "idol table," which basically asks you to put in a number every day to see if you find something. I'll be looking there when I get the chance. Then Dana told me that she got the clue "Never Eat Sucky Waffles. What's wrong with this?" We're thinking out the possibilities. She thinks that Sucky not being Soggy is the problem, but I think the problem is that it left out Middle. But who knows. I've worked on solidifying bonds with Kai and Rob, and I think it's going to really pay off in the long run. It better. If they're lying to me, I'm fucked, because I'm saying stuff about disliking my old tribe mates to gain their trust

Ok, I have a dilemma. I want to win this next challenge, because I want to prove to my tribe that I'm not gonna be throwing challenges. However, I don't want Dana to go home, and I do want Adrian to go home. I also want to get rid of Jaiden and Julia. Throwing the next 3 challenges would be in my best interest if not for the fact that people are aware of my challenge throwing past. I need to prove my worth so that I don't get voted out, but I also need to play a smart game.

Ya girl got an idol board tonight. Catch me getting all the idols this season honestly. 

From looking past seasons that used an idol board, I know using it alone is kind of ineffective. If I can look 1 time a day with 81 options, my odds aren't great. Right now I literally can't tell anyone about it though, because everyone I trust is on the other tribe and his name is Bodhi. I tried to tease out some idol info from Lily tonight, since she and I have been getting close since swap. We literally have so much in common, more than anybody i've met in an ORG before, so that makes talking really easy. She said she's been looking in the ocean and hasn't found anything. Ok chill. Maybe that's tru, there are 9 places to look... BUT I looked there once and found a clue tho sooo. Perhaps Lily is lyin or maybe she isn't, I can't tell, so i'm not giving her any hints about the idol board. But I did tell her I got an extra idol search from reward in good faith to build trust. Also am I being terrible or is Jenna actually annoying? I might target her if given the chance. On 5/29/17, at 1:14 AM, jenna (kamikaze host) wrote: > what does my mango do UMM IDK BUT PROBABLY SOMETHING SINCE YOU WON'T STOP BRINGING IT UP LIKE THOSE DAMN FRUITS ARE USELESS.

It's really not looking good for us again... I think we're gonna have to goto tribal... again

Today, I attempted to bolster my relationship with Kai. I was trying to talk to him about the challenge, but he said something along the lines of "my score isn't very high yet, I'm gonna go play minecraft." Right away, I think back to my old addiction. I used to play way too much minecraft, but I haven't in about 2 years now. That is, up until today. Kai wants to play minecraft? Then so do I! We get in a call, and talk about a bunch of different stuff. Nothing substantial, but enough to make him feel like I'm very much on his side. And I am on his side, but I need to make sure that he trusts me enough going forward. He asked me how many survivor ORGs I've played, so I told him the answer (5 including this one) and he told me his answer (this is his first.) He seems to trust my judgment in terms of who is the best vote enough to at least consider what I'm saying, but not enough to consider it infallible. To be honest, I'm glad thats the case. I don't want to be his 'superior' per say, I'd rather be his guiding friend who he couldn't survive without. We talked about seasons that he likes, and out of the few seasons that he's seen, Game Changers and Cambodia are in his top 3. That's an icky set of choices in my opinion, but he's entitled to disagree. He likes seasons because of strategy, which is very valuable to know. He'll be down for a good strat talk, but he'll also be too ready to make a big move if he feels threatened by me. I hope he is enough of a baby bird that he wants to stick with me permanently, but I do think that he has the potential to flip on me. I don't think that he is planning on doing so yet, but if the opportunity arises at final 7ish, I wouldn't be that surprised. I LOVE THIS CHALLENGE. I am CREMATING everyone else. I am CIRCUMCISING them with DENTAL FLOSS. This challenge is MINE TO WIN. can i get an amen please?

I just decimated this challenge so hard. I needed to do something to redeem my throwing challenges in the past. I spent most of my 17th birthday playing this challenge, and I was done already in the very morning with my highest score. What a massive waste of a day. Now I'm a challenge threat to some extent. Icky

Daisy just told me to make a confessional. I just made one, but I'll make another for you daisy

This. Sucks. I don't wanna. I don't wanna. Well. I have so many ideas of who should go home but idk. We will see.

I'm probably going to get voted out. I haven't talked with anyone because of this illness and going camping. Maybe they'll be better off without me anyway.

The past few challenges had 2 of our castaways have birthdays. 1 of them did really really shitty on the reward challenge and really cost us a fruit basket and a challenge advantage. Then, the other literally outscored everyone in this immunity challenge and gave us the night off- even with the advantage going into the challenge. This is the second time where I'm immune from tribal council where the opposing tribe had an advantage. It seems to me like these reward challenges with advantages as the reward prove to be really ironic and I love that!! If I can get to the merge with little blood on my hands I'll be set.

Me doing the best in the challenge on my tribe? A concept. Like I'm always useless when it comes to challenges so if I'm doing well and you aren't, it's because you aren't trying.   I knew this was going to happen because I'M SMART AND I SEE RIGHT THROUGH THESE PEASANTS. They don't give a fuck about the challenge because they have better shit going on, but guess what? Now my ass is on the line and the people on my tribe probably think i'm an easy elim. Except me and my girlfriend the hidden immunity idol are here to shake shit up and push our own agenda. The only person who is even talking to me after this loss is Gage, and if that isn't telling then idk what is. Lily is probably just not around right now to be honest and i'm sure we'll talk later, but I have no idea what everyone else is thinking. [5/29/17, 10:23:30 PM] Dana: fuck, i hate this so much. now im worried. any thoughts? [5/29/17, 10:23:35 PM] Gage :): None [5/29/17, 10:23:42 PM] Gage :): Like I'm basically voting where you vote [5/29/17, 10:23:46 PM] Gage :): Because I'm not gonna lie [5/29/17, 10:23:58 PM] Gage :): The only people on this tribe that speak to me are you and lily [5/29/17, 10:24:14 PM] Dana: haha aint that the truth. I literally only talk to you and lily [5/29/17, 10:26:06 PM] Dana: i have no idea how to vote, but i really want to work with you and Lily no matter what [5/29/17, 10:26:26 PM] Gage :): Literally exact same [5/29/17, 10:26:28 PM] Gage :): Honestly [5/29/17, 10:26:39 PM] Gage :): If us 3 stick together we could probably control this vote Gage wanted to pull in Mitch, and confirmed he wasn't close with Jenna and Zach, so hopefully I can work with Mitch too. Lily and I were already close and this morning I found out Willa is close with her too, that they think they have Nick from their OG tribe, and that they are getting closer with Zach. So the plan I heard was: Gage, Lily, Willa, Mitch, Me, and probably Nick/ Zach. Well that only leaves Jenna to go, except Zach and Jenna are close and nobody threw her name out there. As long as it isn't me, Lily, or Gage at this point idrc who goes home because those are the people I see myself working with moving forward in the game. UPDATE: As I write this, Gage has gone missing. Of course, the bitch herself, random.org, is out to ruin my plans once again. Gage better crawl his way back to this tribe because I need him. I'll even go save his lost ass myself if I have to. If things don't start coming together really soon, I'm playing my idol and Jenna and her infamous boyfriend are out of here.

Yes!! Finally we don't have to go to tribal council this feels so good!!!

to know its me from now on, imma start each of my confessionals off with three stars. *** okay, so let me break down the vote. I have no fucking idea who's leaving. I'm closely aligned with Jenna and Nicholas, kind of Lily. The thing is... Lily and I have a past that like... resulted in me voting her out/getting rid of her and like ruining her dreams. so, i feel bad and i do love love her sOOOO much and wanna work with her. The name i've been hearing is Mitch. I don't really wanna vote out one of my original tribe members from the Cigateo tribe but like I doubt that will come into play. I also like wIlla. this was boring ims orry lmao fuck

Rob just gave me the shittiest attitude, so guess who I'm going to get voted out next time we have tribal council?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ib5M-GUByMc&feature=youtu.be

Brian and I have convinced Adrian that Brian is Brian Heidik. Adrian is turning so fucking artificial and being such a fan girl. It's hilarious. I can't wait for Adrian to find out at the merge.