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mtkay13 · 7 months

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And yet.... another..... Face reveal illustration.

And of course, another long post, LOL.

More thoughts on the passage below!

This illustration is born from a hyperfocus of mine on this sentence:

Ah-Xu... [...] Did... did I tell you that I like men?"

他忽然发现，其实对方一辈子都不将那易容卸下来，在自己心里，也从来就应该是这样一副模样，如今看到他长得竟如自己想象中的感觉别无二致，就像是……已经认识了他很久很久一样。 [Wen Kexing] suddenly realized that, should [Zhou Zishu] have kept the mask on forever, this was the face he'd have pictured in his heart. Now, seeing this face that exactly matched the one he had pictured, it simply felt like.... meeting again with someone he'd known for a very, very long time.

This, to me, feels like the comforting familiarity of knowing, of understanding a friend, feeling at ease despite the years, the distance; the feeling of meeting a friend IRL for the first time despite knowing them for years, and yet everything clicks--

To me, the beauty in this passage is in how the mask... never really did anything, change anything. Wen Kexing became friends with the person behind the mask, felt this deep connection for this man regardless of what he could look like, and seeing him, now, his face revealed, is that comfort of, yes--I recognize you. It's you.

What I really enjoy in TYK is Wenzhou's companionship, the way they understand each other so profoundly, and their friendship. The fact that they liked each other as people first, that they connected so well despite the odds. This connection between them makes a lot of the feelings mutual, and I feel like this sentence above, part of it is felt by Zhou Zishu as well; and removing his mask, although it is for practical reasons within the context of the story, showing his face to Wen Kexing is a way to affirm trust, both ways. I trust you with my own face, but you can also trust me--because I show you, I welcome you in. This passage... almost feels like a greeting. "Hello again, friend." except they've been tagging along for a while, now.

I used to wonder if Zhou Zishu was nervous about Wen Kexing seeing his face, as I do think he's a bit self-conscious about his frail body and struggles to understand Wen Kexing's big declaration of attraction to him--sort of like, "will he still like me, what will he think of my face?". I don't really stand by that anymore, because my understanding of ZZS has changed since then. It really feels more like, it's fine, we know each other, we're friends anyway now whether I like it or not. I wonder, is he a bit happy that he gets to greet WKX with his real face? He mentions having counted on keeping his mask until he dies, but... ? It's pretty obvious that at this point in the story, ZZS is already deeply fond of WKX, so I can't help but feel like he is happy, deep down, that he gets to make that connection.

For WKX, it must be comforting, but also quite bittersweet. His appreciation, his growing love for ZZS, only comforted by this familiarity, this acknowledgement of companionship, of ease together, while he is so deeply aware that ZZS is condemned... I feel like at this moment, he must want to hug him, to keep him close, and think, I wish I could have him longer, I wish he could stay; for he's the only friend he's ever had, for he never connected with someone like that before.

Now to adress the elephant in the room and jump onto the next topic, I keep saying "friend", "companion". Needless to say that I am well aware that wenzhou have a romantic+ bond, but I just feel like this part highlights this aspect of their relationship that I profoundly cherish. And thus we reach WKX's very famous line:

It's hilarious, perfectly timed, but I especially love how I feel like, rather than highlighting how gorgeous or attractive ZZS could be, this is yet another way for WKX to lighten his own mood, to detach himself from the deeper feelings, the longing, the fondess, the comfort--given how untimely this all is. It hurts, to feel attached to ZZS as a person, because he's going to die soon, while joking about fucking and being gay always works, and it has the benefit to make ZZS flustered.

So yeah, point is, I'm obsessed with that scene.

Also, obligatory reference to the past versions, which I noticed make sort of a nice movement? haha.

I'm not really standing by the first one anymore, but it works in that context!

#wenzhou #tian ya ke #zhou zishu #tyk #wen kexing #wkx #zzs #meta

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mileenasfavourite · 2 years

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kochetkovv - you're the world to me

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Volume : ■■■■■□□□

pairing : renata glasc x E

chapter: 5

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Well, to be honest, a few months ago when the Chem-Baroness herself asked me to be her partners i was very excited but i refused.. it was too fast we didn't really know each other. And well, at the end of the day, it was my boss after all so i wasn't really sure if it was a good idea. We both went back to our typical life, but now...going to work was way more fun. I'm not saying i don't like my job and of course working with her is an amazing way to spend the day but working there used to be more stressful, just thinking about seeing her would be enough to make me go crazy. Now, it's more easy. We passed that stage a while ago and we're pretty much friends now. i mean, friends with benefits, and the mutual feelings are here. God, is there even a name for that kind of relationship ?

Our offices aren't that far so when the opportunity comes.. Miss Glasc doesn't think twice about coming to my office in order to see me.

" You are very discreet today E. I don't recall seeing you this morning." She said while passing her hands in my blond hair

" I apologise i have an important project to finish as soon as i can. " i answered while looking at the blueprint on my desk.

" Look at you being so formal. " she said almost whispering, making me wish i was already done with that project so i could put all my attention on her.

That tension between us... it's mindblowing to me.

A tension that we would find hard to control.

We.. pretty much did it everywhere. Doing it in the toilet was an extremely interesting thing because, well, the floor was shining a lot so we could see our reflections in it and let me tell you, 100/10 would do it again.

But most of the time we would meet at her place, spending the day talking about more importants things, like poetry, history and books. Renata Glasc is certainly the most dangerous woman in Zaun but if you have the chance to get to know her you would find instead a very clever woman, that knows a lot of anything that you could ever think of. And needless to say spending time with her make me immensly happy. A feeling that seemed impossible for me to reach, before meeting her.

Every other day we go to each other's houses, of course my apartment is not as big as her mansion, but she doesn't care, she just wants to spend some private time with me. And since we started this little adventure, when she invites me to her house Renata cooks, and oh my god her dishes are delicious, it's like eating at a 5 stars restaurant.

In fact we really act like a married couple, I do the dishes while she is busy playing music to relax the atmosphere and then come and help me wipe the plates. And when we are together, it's no longer the big Renata Glasc but only.. Renata, her suit jacket and suit are taken off and I get to see Renata in her shirt with the sleeves rolled up, and believe me it's a pure pleasure.

In the bed she assigned me the right side, yes she's kinda a maniac on the edges..but it does not bother me since most of the time we find ourselves in the middle, or naked.

Renata has never let me touch her sexually, I haven't had the opportunity to do make her really feel anything yet and that bothers me because I'd like to give her what she deserves, but she probably has her reasons. And at least I'm allowed to see her completely naked, so I think that's a good start.

In her mansion everything is white, the people who clean are doing their job very well, you can see it in the tiles it's shiny here too. When I cross them I always say hello and sometimes I chat with them for a few moments, they're all adorable.

And of course it wouldn't be Renata's house if there wasn't giants stairs with a carpet on each steps and a huge portrait of Herself in the middle. You can't miss it.

I went up the stairs to my office, while passing back i stopped at Renata's office before continuing my day and she gave me a kiss on my temple. It makes me smile just thinking about it When I open the door I put my things on the desk and I decide to sit down, and I see the horror..

A bomb stuck under my desk, I try not to make any sudden gestures and to keep my calm...

E, clenched her teeth, the drop of sweat ran down her forehead, is this the end of her life? Suddenly she looked out of the window to try to get Renata's attention, but she was not in her office.

I'm going to die, she thought.

Two masked men who were watching the scene attentively, were standing on the roofs not far from Glasc industries, one of them had a button, he was ready to press.

"I'm waiting for the signal" says one of the two.

"Kill her."

And the man pressed the button.

E's office exploded in a second, and she was propelled through the window.

In a few seconds everything was on fire.

E, still unconscious, tried to scream but nothing came out, she was in shock. So much pain, so much blood.

Renata, who heard the explosion, feared the worst, the death of her beloved, the adrenaline was so strong that the baroness went up the stairs by 3, and her worst nightmare had arrived. The office was nothing but flame and smoke.

"MADAME GLASC DO NOT GO IN" said one of her colleagues but she did not listen, this scene reminded her of the death of her parents. Protecting her mouth because of the smoke she took the fire extinguisher and extinguished everything, still trying to find the one she loved.

"ELIA!" she shouted. She wanted to find her even if it meant losing her voice. But in vain. With all her strength she lifted the debris and found the horror... the two dismembered legs of E, but she did not find the rest of her body.... she looked out the window seeing no trace of the rest, just blood on the floor.

Renata Glasc, cried, for the second time in her life, kneeling on the ground...

#renata glasc x reader #renata glasc #league of legends #renata league of legends #oc x canon

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nyanbinaryrose · 7 months

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The Car Saga continues....

For those who don't know, for the last 5? 6? I lost count- months, I've been trying to find a way to pay a $5000 bill from my local Nissan dealership for a faulty transmission that was illegally installed prior to me purchasing the car as-is. No other repair shops would work on it because of the model, appearently the transmissions are finnicky. Nissan quoted me $1500 which seemed low, but i asked several times, and this was what they stated I needed to pay. I got to the dealership with $1500 in hand (most of it via local mutual aid) and surprise surprise, it was much, much more. They'd kept a shoddy paper trail, all estimates given over phone, and I had no car to get papers in person anyway, so I had no recourse. I ended up putting the repair cost on a credit card after several failed attempts at getting a personal loan. (I had excellent credit at the time, but only 2 years of credit history).

BUT OF COURSE this isn't over. Because my car sat for 5-6 months while I figured this out, the battery is now dying. It needs a jump to start at all, and that's not going to work much longer. The battery needs to be replaced. The lowest cost I can find for my car model is $125 at Walmart. Needless to say, after two maxed out credit cards, and multiple job opportunities lost due to transportation over the summer, and being on Disability, I do not have this money. Additionally, while the car was in the shop, I got the bill for registration, and didn't pay it cause I wasn't sure I was getting the car back. Now it's past due, and I'm looking at about $200 there.

TLDR, we're at the anything helps stage.

Venm0: @rosenriotdrag

P@yP@l: deadnames me, not preferred. Moots can DM for this info.

#rose speaks #signal boost

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introspectionofaqueer · 2 years

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dream 5/28

i went out to a club and got decently drunk last night, heres what I dreamt of while drunk, as copied from the text note i made in my phone upon waking: "At a house party w rhia(my best friend) and Sam(my twin sister), we're outside. I look up in the sky and see what looks at first like a second moon right beside the normal one. I yell "what the FUCK is that???" Rhia looks up and says "it's an asteroid". It is round and slightly red and covered in craters, rushing towards the earth but not directly towards us. It hits the earth pretty quickly a decent while away from us but makes a huge explosion. We begin running away screaming, I remember thinking it was real and this was how I was going to die from all the dreams like this ive had. Another dream starts w me driving in the car with rhia, i keep losing control over the car and worry I'm going to kill her. Then we become on foot hiking along a very small skinny cliff face, I have my phone in my hand and am struggling not to fall bc I need my hands to climb. Rhia offers to put my phone in her bag and does so. In yet another dream I am out and see {redacted name of a hot guy i know}, he is very drunk but makes out with me anyway. I have a center labret piercing that is new and it starts to hurt very bad to kiss him. I have another dream that Niko(my ex) sent me a video of her talking and she looks and sounds so different, from the effects of testosterone. She sends me a video clip of her sitting in a chair at a work Christmas party last year, cris(her coworker, our mutual friend) walks up behind her and drops some flowers into the drink cup shes holding. She throws the flowers from the cup."

in these accounts I take care not to change the way I wrote them down originally because i think it's important to have it written the exact way I transcribed it upon waking. The only details ive added after are the parentheses for clarification for the reader(not that anyones reading this but me.) i didnt make note of this in my account of the dream but in the second video clip Niko sent me she has longer hair and looks more feminine, a stark contrast between the video she sent me with a deeper voice and masculinized from testosterone. I find it interesting that the piercing i ended up with in the dream is a center labret, thats the piercing that Niko has. needless to say im still processing this break up. I feel like it also says something that the piercing that reminds me of her is what caused me pain when kissing this other guy.

#dream #dream journal #dream interpretation

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