#nah I'm totally rereading it just because

[asoiaf-essays-collector]

For me, idk if Sansa is the girl in grey in Melisandre's prophecy and i don't care if they reunite at the Wall, in the Vale, in Winterfell or on the way, because the thing is its almost given that Sansa and Jon will be the first Starks to reunite since they are the most distant ones. Its how grrm works. The Starks are the central family of the series and out of their four povs that remain, Jon and Sansa are the only ones to not have a defined relationship and their reunion in twow before others will give them time to develop one.

In defence of the girl in grey theory - at this point it almost impossible to imagine her being not sansa. As much as I would prefer the vale meeting. Just think of it - Jon and Melisandre were thinking that the girl in grey would be Arya but ironically it was Jeyne Pool/Alys Karstark who happened to be geographically more convenient? Nah, that's not the irony of GRRM. Now, Sansa who Jon barely registers as sister in his inner pov - that would be the irony that we are used to in ASOIAF.

The girl in grey being not the Stark but someone else entirely just because this girl fits the criteria? It's not interesting. It gives the same vibes as theory that Cersei's valonqar is neither Tyrion nor Jaime and some other person that just happens to be someone else's younger sibling. That's just boring.

"Jon and Sansa are the only ones to not have a defined relationship" - oooh, now that's the topic I can speculate about for hours.

I'm rereading ASOS right now and gosh, the ways GRRM chooses to portray these two while their lack of any established relationship in books? That's simply fascinating how he dances around some words and names.

One of the most interesting part of this lack of interactions is the fact that it doesn't mean that they don't have this defined relationship. Their meeting and then dynamic will be a total wild card - unlike any other pair of siblings. They can literally have any dynamic and shared history or lack of it and we have no idea what it will be. I'm so excited!

And it's not only that. There is a conflict between them too - until they learn that Bran and Rickon are alive they both are kinda heirs of Starks and Winterfell, both are ruler coded since AGOT and their political strengths complement each other's weaknesses. Moreover, both can support each other's claim. Sansa Stark while being legitimate heir in many lords eyes is still married to Lannister and everyone knows it and she is also a girl who doesn't know how to wage a war. On the other hand Jon Snow even with Stark blood printed on his Ned Stark (who is still beloved in the North) face is still a bastard and can't interfere with claim of legitimate heirs (given that Robb's will is still unknown). One of them on his/her own can raise a lot of questions but two can make a decent claim.

So yeah.

Sansa and Jon meeting first of the pack is making quite a lot of sense from every point of view. It's not just that they are most distant siblings and thus make more interesting pair to interact, it's also very practical for GRRM if he wants Starks to go on the offensive - two of them combined can actually form a decent political power (in terms of both claim and set of skills). No other pair of Starks has that.

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #sansa stark #the girl in grey

[jademickian]

oh man, haven't done tag games in a while, sorry friends 🥹 i've been passive the last few weeks because uni is really taking most of my time and energy, but i appreciate the tags and i love love reading your answers<3

ok enough blabbering, thank u @callivich, @lingy910y, and @mickeysgaymom for the totally optional, fun gallavich questions tag!

What’s a fic you’ve read more than once?

Stuck at Three for Days - delicious banter, laughed my ass off

another kiss is all it takes - so fuckin sweet, dude

Like Real People Do - just finished my reread last month:)) i needed the comfort

Cooperative Gameplay - currently rereading! i miss the feels

Sometimes I reread bits and pieces from ORFNSP and since we're alone because they changed my brain chemistry. I will eventually get around to actually rereading them.

2. What’s a gifset you always have to reblog?

You know the one... this legendary world heritage gifset

3. What’s a headcanon you can’t stop thinking about?

not sure if this is counted but i always like to think that once, ian got struck with grief about monica's death on her death anniversary. mickey asks him what's wrong and he opens up about it. ian will say it's stupid but mickey will truly handle it with grace and say nah man it's not. because yahknow, he gets it. and ian melts at it, because no one has acknowledged his grief like this before. mickey teases him about it a bit, sure, but deep down he held ian's mourning warmly, like petals on his palm. and they went together to the cemetery that day, simply sat in front of her grave and talked. the good things, the bad. and that despite it all "hey, tleast she popped out an alien lookin mfer i ended up marryin." they get pizza after.

4. What’s a fanart you love looking at?

Van kiss by @lingy910y

Prince Mononoke by @darthvaders-wife

Prison Boyfriends by @gallavichonly

Part of Our World by @steorie

It's Okay by WhatsaMattavich

This Kiss by @deathclassic

SO MANY others actually if i could fit them all here

5. What’s an idea you’d love to create if you had the time/inspiration?

i actually have a LIST lmao. one of those has something to do with art because i cannot take my mind away from human mickey and manananggal ian (manananggal is a Philippine myth creature with wings and can separate the upper half of its body from its lower half).

6. What’s something you’ve discovered since entering this fandom? A new trope you love? A different analysis of the show? Something else?

oh man. believe it or not, i was never into fics. i was in fandoms before, but i just couldn't get into fics within those fandoms (i tried). this is the only time i truly liked and LOVED reading fics. it really speaks volumes about the talent and dedication, and i'm glad i got to experience it.

it's also fun reading metas on the show and getting different perspectives, especially on characters. one of my favorites (just because i was so distressed about it the first time i watched it) are analyses on the city hall scene and ian's hesitation on marriage. after reading up others' thoughts on it explaining the why's, i totally felt some relief and was able to get some sleep. lol

7. What’s an underrated trope or concept you’d like to see more of?

apocalypse aus 👍

8. What’s your favourite season? And has this changed after multiple rewatches of the show?

The first five seasons are gems to me. but i truly love season 2 because it's so chill (at least compared to some of the heavier seasons after) and the gallaghers move as a unit. special mention for season 4 because it holds Emily and Lazarus.

9. What’s a plot hole you wish had been answered or resolved?

same qualms with @mickeysgaymom about mickey's mom. brain rotting over it.

10. What scene or moment do you feel isn’t discussed enough?

not gallavich related, and i'm sure people have already mentioned it, but sometimes it hits me how smart debbie is. like, i know she's smart, but people easily forget from all the chaos. at the heart of it, she's a fast learner and also would and have excelled academically.

11. What line/dialogue/description from something else (a poem, a book, a tv show, a movie, or something else) do you feel describes Ian and Mickey’s relationship?

aaaa @lingy910y beat me to it! it's totally "I'll take care of you. / It's rotten work. / Not to me. Not if it's you." but if i could pick another, maybe "I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world."

12. What do you think is next for Ian and Mickey post-finale?

they'll grow old together and be just as in love, no matter what happens in between.

tagging @mybrainismelted, @scurvgirl, and @lupeloto if u wanna join!! raahh

#now back to my lab sheets #jade jabbers #tag games

[five-and-dimes]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

I was tagged by @seiya-starsniper! 🤘

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

38 currently, but I orphaned a few in the past and am considering orphaning a couple more of my older ones, we'll see ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

220,579 - holy shit, when did that happen??

3. What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment just Sandman, although I still have some Umbrella Academy wips that I might try to go back and finish before season 4.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

lol I think just due to the nature of them being fics that have been on AO3 for a decade (which... holy shit I'm old 😂) my top five are four Teen Wolf fics and one Voltron fic

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Not really. I'll respond if someone, like, asks me something in a comment. I know I should respond more, but I often get overwhelmed and don't know what to say. So, uh... sorry everyone 😬

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hm, none of my fics have, like, angsty endings... I think the closest might be Now I Lay Me, just because it's more of a hopeful ending as opposed to explicitly happy (although I'm writing a sequel specifically so I can write the explicitly happy ending, so... that's me in a nutshell lol)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I would definitely say Smile Like You Mean It. That one is the most fluffy happy ending for sure.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nah. The worst I ever got was way back in the beginning on some of my Teen Wolf fics I'd get those comments that were like "you should have written it THIS way-" which were annoying but nothing I'd call "hate".

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

lol I wrote actual, explicit smut for the first time a few months ago with Undisclosed Desires. My fic famously will have almost-sex before something tragic happens and gets in the way lol, and even my one smut story is still very hurt/comfort. As much as I appreciate reading smut of all kinds, I think if I ever wrote more it'd be the same h/c vibe. I'm a one trick pony.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Nah, the closest would be in my bandom phase? But I never fully understood if those counted as crossovers or not lol

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

As far as I know I have not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yup! I can't remember which ones, but I remember approving requests to translate a couple fics.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I did once, and I had a lot of fun with the idea part, but the actual writing a coherent, publishable fic together was stressful. I love just bouncing ideas with people, expanding on topics together, yes and-ing with friends, etc., but I think fully writing a fic with another person isn't really my thing.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

lol it's hard to say I have an "all time" favorite. I tend to just have my favorite at any given moment. Obviously I'm super into Dreamling right now, but I've had tons of ships that I still love and reread stuff for.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Honestly, there's a bunch of batman wips that I started ages ago and still really like, but I just haven't been able to get into them (Sandman took over the brain real good lol)

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm good at the emotional parts- it's why I like hurt/comfort so much. I will gleefully spend half a story ripping your heart out, but then I'll work hard to give it back. I think I'm good at writing inner thoughts in a way that helps evoke whatever the character is feeling. And I think I'm good at imagery.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Well for one thing I write out of order, so if I ever do multichapter fics I have to finish the whole thing before I can post it lol 😂 Also I think I struggle with action and plot. My writing is very heavy on character introspection, and I like my fics, but if you take a step back from them not a lot really happens in them.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I personally prefer not to, just because I'm monolingual. I'll either just do the italicized words and "they said in x language" or just say "they spoke in x language" and have the pov character not know what they're saying type of stuff.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Heroes. Does anyone remember that show?

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Oof, I will reluctantly narrow it down to three lol. Now I Lay Me (I love the concept), Sloom (love me some family angst), and Recoil/Release (A Voltron fic that is currently my longest fic, and was another one that I was really proud of the concept and characterizations)

I don't know who's already been tagged, but I'll tag @gabessquishytum @cuubism @softest-punk @magnusbae and @pellaaearien

#tag game #writing shiz #I cannot beLIEVE I've been on ao3 since 2012 #that's wild I need to sit down

[waffles-for-brunch]

20 questions for fic writers!

tagged by @lovevamp

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

4. One's an okay oneshot, then I did a fix-it after 15x20, then I lost my mind completely and spent three years on a season 12 rewrite and now I'm back again writing another fix-it. My twilight zone is self-inflicted.

2. what’s your total Ao3 word count?

540,492 (insert kevin james shrugging meme here)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Just Supernatural. I started writing a fic for Baldur's Gate Bloodweave but then Destiel dragged me back to the dark side. Maybe I'll finish that one eventually.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

they're not gonna be in order bc I'm just gonna go thru my bookmarks real quick but - "And this, your living kiss" by opal_bullets "On labor" by a_good_soldier (i reread this one twice this week) "The Nanny" by Kitmistry and those are the ones i feel like mentioning. :)

5. do you respond to comments?

Admittedly rarely. Mostly because I'll open my email when I'm getting up in the morning and read them and then work all day and forget to respond. I do appreciate all the comments I get tho. And a lot of the really kind ones I send to my groupchat and/or save in a folder on my email labelled "nice comments" also just sometimes I don't feel like I have anything to say. Like idk sometimes thank you just seems too small or something you know. It's strange. Then I'll just get in my head about it and say nothing and the cycle repeats lmao. But I do read them all.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Dog you know I'm not writing any angst without a happy ending. I can't take that shit lmao. It's happy endings only in this house. Happy and found family and loveliness. :)

7. what is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I literally end everything the same way. Please I have the worst case of projection imaginable with these fics.

8. do you get hate on fics?

If I do I'm unaware. But I'd probably know it if I do, I stalk my own name and fics wherever I can because I'm insane and nosey. But nah the most I've gotten is just people being mad about a certain character's actions, but like that's not even hate it's just frustration with a character which is a given in certain circumstances. Now if someone was like "wow bad characterization" I'd be like girl, but no I think people are pretty respectful in my corners for the most part.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

Bro let me tell you in "Our Old Heroes" I wrote like a singular sex scene and like maybe one or two other hot and heavy ones and good god did they take me so long to write. Like I'm not a very sex oriented person in general so writing this stuff out? Bro it's embarrassing how much poetry I put into that in retrospect (i jest, it's fine) but like I don't generally orient towards it just because it's very time consuming for me. It has to be very intimate and just right.

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you've written?

So short answer no, I haven't. Longer answer I love the concept and would be open to it. Particularly if it involves Dean being psychoanalyzed in some way because that's my favorite thing to write so it would probably be criminal minds. I think crossovers have so much fun and wonky potential tho.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

I hope someone printed my fic to bring into prison and make a black market hot commodity. It would be the highest honor. I guess that's not theft, it's just the free market. But so I guess really no, if I have I'm unawares.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I'm aware of but I have had people comment in other languages or on twitter people will talk about it in a different language, which is pretty crazy. It's so wild we can be so connected to a story in that way despite not speaking the same language or growing up in the same environment.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

no! but as @lovevamp has said we've talked about a few that I'm certain one day we will follow through on. I've also talked with @icaruspendragon about maybe doing one at some point bc we seem to have the exact same mental illness that is the dean winchester brain disorder.

14. what’s your favorite all time ship?

I live breathe and bleed destiel, it's truly unfortunate for me.

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I just have a lot of ideas in my docs that will probably never become more than the ideas they are. Usually when I start a fic like for real I follow through with it. I would feel bad if I didn't lol.

16. what are your writing strengths?

I've been told my characterization is pretty good, which I appreciate. If it was bad I'd probably kms (jk). But fr idk that's the biggest comment I'll get is in regards to that which I really do like because I spend a lot of time trying to find a balance and make sure I'm expressing everyone the correct way they'd express themselves or not express themselves.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Sex scenes aside I do struggle with action mostly because I find it boring to write out. You just have to try and find so many different words. Ugh. I love dialogue. That's really where I start getting going. But writing action? I tend to do that last because I wanna get through all the good bits first then circle back and do the boring bits.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

listen I can barely remember english i'm sorry

19. first fandom you wrote for?

i'm an og baby i started here (destiel) and this is where i'll die (maybe not, we'll see)

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

Well, I don't really have many so it's probably the massive one. "Our Old Heroes" by adelaclancy (that's me). I was really in a bad place when I started it and I kind of just gave myself this crazy project for several reasons. One I was stopping drinking so I needed something else to do with my time. Second I was jobless and goalless and really didn't have a lot going for me and writing was really the only thing I have ever had consistently so I was like okay well I'll start this stupid project and it's gonna be like 26 chapters and 500,000 words long and it's gonna delve into all my issues through projection of these fictional characters and if I actually manage to finish it I can finally say I finished something. So I did. And I actually managed to work on myself a lot in the process. So over all that time I went from living in bad straights as an unemployed drunkard to a full time worker with a few years sobriety under their belt and a better sense of my own boundaries and thriving friendships and I dunno man, in a way that fic really was a bridge for me and I think in that too for a lot of the readers they get to see that now too. Like they can see my little notes at the beginning of chapters and how they change over time alongside the characters in the book and it's kind of an experience in that way I suppose. If not through Dean Winchester and Castiel then maybe through me, if someone out there finds a little bit of hope from that silly little mess of words then I suppose that's something to be proud of then, isn't it? Anywho...

tagging: @icaruspendragon

(Bro I know like two people sorry)

#there we go #not to get sappy #i'm not a sap i'm a big strong- *gunshots* #destiel #destiel fanfic #supernatural

[cappurrccino]

20 questions for fic writers

Thanks @captaincravatthecapricious for the tag!

1. How many works do you have on Ao3? 

80, apparently!

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 

234,199

3. What fandoms do you write for? 

Currently not really any because my muse fuckin packed her bags and took a vacation, but Malevolent, Halo, and Destiny are the big ones. I'd like to do more for Warframe and FFXIV, though!

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

strange domains (TMA/Malevolent)

It's Called Supervising (Destiny... the power of putting Cayde-6 in your fic, I swear)

once in a movie night (Malevolent)

where you go, i go (TMA/WTNV)

Treason (Hollow Knight/Destiny AU)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I'm trying to be better about it! A lot of the time, though, I simply don't know what to say and fall into the "how do I respond to birthday wishes" trap because writing "Thanks!" a bunch feels disingenuous even though I am thankful and glad someone liked the fic enough to comment

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 

Ptttthhhbbbbbbbb, probably the one where Bornstellar finds his family all floodified on the Halo Chakas & Riser got marooned on in Primordium

(I have not reread this fic in ages bc I remember not being super happy with how it was written and don't want to see I published a disaster lol)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? 

Oh, so many of them. Happy fluffy nonsense is my wheelhouse. If I have to pick one, though, maybe day 7: we fucking did it just because I don't think any other characters have Gone Through It as much as John & Arthur have, so they would get the most joy from a lazy day at the river

8. Do you get hate on fics? 

Nah

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? 

Absolutely not lmao

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I do! If we take "craziest" to mean "silliest" probably the Destiny/WTNV crossover thing I flirted with for a while in 2016 (old woman Josie lives in the desert with a house full of taken)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? 

Not to my knowledge

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 

Again, not to my knowledge

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? 

@warlordfelwinter and I were writing a novelized version of a D&D campaign we were in, by which I mean Fel did the bulk of the writing and I filled in the Alexa-specific parts!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? 

Bornstellar/Splendid Dust! My boys! My beloveds! I'm pspsps-ing people into this sandbox with me because right now there are 4 fics for them on AO3 and they're all mine

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? 

Any of them 😭

16. What are your writing strengths? 

Dumb shit. But I like to think I'm also good at writing weird stuff (I also just have a lot of fun writing weird stuff, like Fundament and the Dark World)

17. What are your writing weaknesses? 

Plots.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? 

I wouldn't dare unless I was fluent, which will basically never happen...

19. First fandom you wrote for? 

Transformers, baybee! I think at this point I've lost all of my TF fic from my ff.net days due to time and computer moves, which is a real shame, because I wrote a TF/ST crossover centered on tribbles once that I remember being one of the best things I've ever written... Maybe if I'm lucky it's on one of my old external drives and I can reupload it... 🤔

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

The hardest question in the world... hmm... maybe wait through the night for the dawn light to break just because it's the longest thing I've done and the MalevBB experience was so fun... but I also really like Siren's Eye bc Fundament and Osmium sibs and my funky little sea-runners, and I also really like Corpus Siege just bc it was so fun to write, and I also like— [is dragged off stage by a comically large shepherd's hook]

[yelling from the wings] also that Halo AU I had where I gave people metahuman powers! thank you and goodnight!

Tagging:

@warlordfelwinter, @xivu-arath, @wonderwafles, @titan-mom (no pressure, of course!)

#//juri speaks #tag games #thanks jasper!!

[soyforramen]

The estimable @satelliteinasupernova tagged me, (OOPs this was found in my drafts RIP) so here we go:

How many works do you have on AO3?

46, allegedly

What’s your total AO3 word count?

380,307, which apparently is 845 pages, single spaced. Yikes

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Riverdale, X-Men Evo/Movie verse, Harry Potter (RIP that fandom), Good Omens (1), Resident Evil (1)

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Someone Like You (360)

Five Little Words (344)

Can't Get You Off My Mind (287)

One More Song (267)

Crispers, Cats, and You (252)

The Fremione fans are coming through!

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I'm absolutely terrible about it because I have no idea what to say. The worst thing is I go back periodically and reread them when I'm in a slump, but it feels trite to just say thanks! for each one. And sometimes there’s just not anything to say 🤷‍♀️ (I love and read each and every one of them tho)

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Idk about angstiest, but I do have a few horror endings. I guess that counts? Morning in America maybe, since it deals with Polly's issues and leads into S1 of Riverdale.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I write a lot of fluff, but I'm partial to Enough and It's My Party (I'll Cry If I Want) because those are more about finding self-acceptance and trying to figure out who you are.

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Nah, I don't have the ability to keep them from becoming crackish.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not that I really know of. That or I've completely forgotten it. I’ve gotten some really weird comments tho, where I just want to say, it’s fic. You’re thinking way too hard for a hobby.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Nah, not my bag of tricks.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No idea.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope.

What’s your all time favorite ship?

Romy! I cannot get over these two idiots

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

My big huge fuckoff supernatural RD AU fic. (Yes that is it's document title; the legitimate title is Wolves at the Door.)

What’s your writing strengths?

Going off of the comments, apparently I'm able to put some humor into things.

What’s your writing weaknesses?

1. Actually writing. 2. SPAG

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Eh, I'd rather not unless I either have a passing knowledge of it or it's just single words. (Ex. my gran always saying "Bras mon chou, y sas e tu", which is probably written wrong, but gotta love when her latent Cajun came out.)

What’s the first fandom you wrote for?

Gundam Wing. That was a crack fic when I was... in middle school? All I remember is it was a bunch of 'ads', sort of a sketch show in writing. One of the scenes was Relena on top of an alp going 'Hero Yuy' like those cough drop commercials. I remember nothing else from it.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Crispers, Cats, and You. It's really what got me into writing fanfic. I wrote it at a time in my life that I needed something stable, and it was there for me after a long day. I honestly don't know if I'll ever get back to it, largely because JKR has ruined that particular franchise for me, and I hate that I can’t come back to any of my WIPs because of it.

#tag game #I’m so sorry 😭 I’m the worst at these

[abrthephantomq]

Sooo like...... months ago, I started fucking around with painting.

(bare with me a minute here - wait is that the right bear? Fuck.... Anyways, we're on acid rn and this painting was one we finished while tripping but originally had started it while sober)

Originally it was I had wanted to learn how to like, legit paint things and techniques and blah blah blah.

Clearly that was not what I felt in my soul to do, so.

This messy bullshit is what you get.

Also, the fun thing about being a DID system is that I'm going to fucking question ALL OF THIS LATER and I'll probs be like what the fuck I don't remember posting this (because YOU won't, motherfucker, you decided to take half a gummy on top of everything 💀) hi Alex. (Hi Steven). (This is extra funny because Steven is totally not the motherfucker, the motherfucker is Cas, but, y'know. They'll figure that out eventually)

Or something .

The point is, I'm fucking high. My child isn't home so this is one of a few times a year I can really fucking let go of all the bullshit that's happening in the world and just....create.

"The opposite of war isn't peace, it's creation."

Well damn thank you Rent for living rent free (lol) in my head b/c we miss Melissa.

Mel's birthday is coming up on the 17th, and she would have been 36.

She died at the age of 24. I was 25 a month later.

I miss her every day but I want to reread House of Leaves. It was THE book for me. A mixture of physical art (print book with the different colors and weird ass pages and shit) and an actually intense, just edging on the short of nightmareish and creepy pasta. Like the line of it. just creepy pasta, but make it art.

That's the kinda book I want to write. And I want it to be about my fucking self because fuck you, I may have main character syndrome but I write my own story. You gave me the bare vibes to work with in the colors.

I get to fucking choose how much of each color is present in the artwork and it can be this random mess of colors or I can do something as simple as this:

Like, am I GOOD?

Nah. I'm fucking terrible at it.

But I'm learning and playing around and having fun, so.

I'll. Figure it out. At some point.

#alex us/is high & love/live streaming #dont ask me why im coding it as that but #aftually yeah no thats the vibe. of the whole #drea and nightmaria thing we'd come up with. when we were high schoolers #before the ex-wife came along and ruined things #one day we'll like #actually fucking worldbuild that shit #but tonight is nottttt that night

[writer-in-theory]

Steve totally loves fanta, that is now canon in my mind. I can see him liking shasta too. I feel like he'd like orange or black cherry. And I don't just say that because those are my favorite flavors..... nooooo totally not.....

You don't know what you're asking when you ask for fandoms I'll be in forever. But uh, if I had to say one It'd be the creepypasta fandom... I hate it so much but just like you, like clockwork I return and reread them or watch content for them again, it accidently became a comfort fandom. Whoops. Also the general slasher fandom is like a home for me, especially the Scream side of it. Anywhere I have a comfort character I'll never fully leave, like stranger things. I'm in a lot of dead fandoms and small fandoms as it is, so whether there's hype or not a part of my heart still lives there.

First fictional crush? I know it's weird but I'd watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer a lot as a kid and I grew the biggest crush on Spike. Also like Shaggy from Scooby-Doo.

And like that's so sweet of you to say I'm easy to talk to and that you're having fun talking to me! I'm having fun too and you're also really easy to talk to.

Your fav anon

nah you're so right. people who like orange and black cherry are so specific bc those flavors are so bold and they're generally great people in my experience

i completely understand that feeling of damn it, i like this thing i guess. that's how i feel constantly about twilight and now on stranger things. i tried so hard not to watch the show and then i did this summer and fell in love with a certain character and that was it for me. describing fandom as a home is so familiar and warming though. like yeah, there's fandoms im a part of that havent really seen a content made for them in years (or at all, really) but they exist and the people there are so great it's hard to not come back

ohhh spike is def a good option. if we're talking first ever, i had a massive undeniable crush on shego from kim possible for way too long. then it was santana from glee and chad from high school musical.

if you were to be stuck in a house for a week with any fictional character, who would you pick? i think i would pick robin from stranger things bc i think we'd just get along really well for a whole week and she'd be entertaining too.

oh of course !! you really are easy to talk to and i'm having fun swapping questions like this. if you ever feel comfortable enough to let me know who you are that would be welcome to, but no pressure of course because i'm enjoying talking like this too.

#ask jay #my fav anon

[to-be-frank-i-dont-care]

Lol in the Silm there's a part where Aulë and Yavanna are talking about the dwarves and Yavanna is worried they will harm her trees and Aulë is a snarky boi and just basically says "Oh, well, they're gonna have to chop your trees down eventually, sorry but I don't really care, can't do much about it anyway" and then he just goes back to forging stuff and I bet Yavanna was just standing there like "You heartless jerk why did I ever marry you"

#refresh my memory #Aulë #yavanna #the silmarillion #I'm rereading it bc my friend is reading it for the first time (I'm so excited) and she's been asking a lot of questions but #it's been a while since I read it so I'm rereading it to #nah I'm totally rereading it just because #it's amazing

[trashytoastboi]

lmao, I'm rewatching One Piece from the beginning again and my fingers r itching to finally write that damned story, which I have mentally saved from last year, but damn. I deadass forgot my plot now and me rereading those bits of what I wrote down r like ???? and now I'm trying to just created something new for my MC but nothing seems to fit and I'm here be like Arshshshsh - 🌻

I feel this🥺 I did a complete rewatch last year and got so inspired to write stuff. I even had a whole story which has been gathering dust for a while😅😅

Also when you read those random notes and ideas you jot down quickly at the time you're always telling yourself "Nah, I'll totally remember what this is for" then you revisit it in so much confusion because you have 0 idea what's going on 🤣🤣

I hope it eventually returns ~ looking forward to it ^.^ I hope you are having an amazing day thus far, stay happy and healthy ~ 🍀🌻

[khaleesiofalicante]

HAHA i was rereading clockwork prince and just got to the bit when they find magnus reading the book about werewolf bites "because woolsey bites on occasion and I'm concerned" and you know who else likes to bite Magnus? ALEXANDER LIGHTWOOD. Beginning to think this is less than an individual kink thing and more a "magnus bane is s fucking tasty I must bite him now" thing cos cassie once mentioned about camille biting him too on twitter (I guess that makes more sense tho cos yanno vampire)

Nah nah nah you are absolutely right. It’s totally a Magnus Bane thing.

Magnus: *exists*

His partner:

#BUT IN THEIR DEFENSE #MAGNUS IS #*fist clench* #magnus bane #a snacc #tsc

[silver-kitsuneneko]

Alrighty! I'm going all out on this one soo be prepared for a long haul since my curiosity MUST be quenched: 1, 3, 4-6, 11, aaand 13-16 for the writing ask thing, please

OOOH! Awesome!!! Okay! [rolls up sleeves!] Here we go!

1.     What's something you've written that you know is OOC and you just don't care? Omg…I thought my dark secret would never be heard. Me and Incubirb wrote a fanfic together in high school called Dealing with Chibis. It’s a YGO fanfic. We had fun and it’s still posted on FF.net but the yamis are OOC. VERY OOC. Do we care? Nah, it was something we wrote when we were younger and it’s a reminder of the good ol’ days and annnnnnnnd how we improved n,n Yes it’s cringe but it’s OUR  cringe damn it!

 2.    Something you hate to see in smut. No build up! Okay, I’m all for PWP because sometimes you just want to read smut without having to read a story behind it but please at least give the audience some foreplay. Also and I used to do this, don’t say womanhood an manhood, just say cock, clit, vagina, and things like that. Because well…sex is an experience, or I’ve been told, but it’s also dirty and passionate so using the terms can make it a little better or I can just be a huge perv. I’m probably the latter. Finally, weird ass things that would be near impossible during sex. Shampoo is NOT lube, ripping out a woman’s tampon and flinging it behind you is not sexy, sex in the shower/ on the beach/ is not romantic and I’m assuming harder than it looks.  Or something that is outright gross that is supposed to be romantic >< I’ve read of questionable shit and I just had to pretend I never read it. Just…but logical about it, please!

 3.    Something you love to see in smut. I personally like non con…hear me out. It’s a fantasy, it’s a good plot device, and it’s just so dark. I also like a weird powerplay and pet play because…well no one needs to know that ^^: (stay tuned One Piece fans). I also like good chemistry with the characters, like the more experience boy or girl with another girl and descriptions. Like don’t just say “and they totally did it!” yeah no, describe the act and the senses.

 4.    Something you hate to see in dialogue. Using net speak in writing. Not making a conversation believable and writing an “accent” in someone’s speech. Once again, I was guilty of this years ago, minus the net speak. The writing accent thing can be good in some cases but horrible overall. Like in HP, JK Rowling writing the way Hagrid talked. I’ll admit, it did kind of get you into the mood that Hagrid had an accent but when she did it with the French accent and Bulgarian one, it just became really…distracting. Have your readers imagine it instead of having to read/listen to an accent. Just say that they had a strong accent or if they do speak in broken English in order to emphasize a plot, by all means! Once again one of my fave authors did this well. In one of her stories, the characters were aliens who spoke Russian, this woman had RUSSIAN in the book so the reader was just as clueless as the characters in the story. Same story and one of the characters had a thick Polish accent made it difficult for him to make friends, so she emphasized it when him and is stepbrother switched bodies and he realized that one of the things his new brother had to face.

 5.    What "don't ever do this" writing rule are you guilty of constantly breaking? I know I break a lot! Hell, there’s run on sentences and things like that everywhere XD But apparently the ,” that a dear sweet nitpicker brought to my attention. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not like “OMG HOW DARE SHE!” it’s more of, she was just doing it to be an ass? Like really trying to find something wrong with a story? Anyway, that. I don’t know why I do it. I think it’s a habit that I have to break but I didn’t know it was a habit? Like some writing rules says its okay. Some say it’s bad, some people don’t even notice it. But that’s just how I’ve always write. No one else seems to care so I just kept doing it.

 6.    What do you need to work on most? Rereading my work! I don’t get offended when my readers point things out! Like I welcome it because sometimes I’m concentrating on writing that I don’t see the mistakes or rapid typing that I forget to go back. Like I write in layers. I write the beginning, scenes in the middle, the end, refill things, connect things, and polish things before posting but even I overlook things. I don’t have a proofreader so I’m grateful for the extra pairs of eyes XD Seriously I don’t get offended in the least!  

 7.    What aspect of writing have you had the most growth in? Character development! Seriously! It takes time and a lot of work to write a good character! My first real fanfic characters were OCs and one dimensional at most. Then again it was middle school and high school and emotions were high, things weren’t the best but still, they were my characters. They stuck with me in college and it gave me more than enough time to revamp them into proper characters. Also during that time I was working on a coping mechanism writing/story and learned how to really flesh out a character and giving them a back story on how they came to be instead of “this character was just born AWESOME!”

 8.    We all project onto our characters. Where has your personality or life choices leaked onto the page the most? Well, with me and not so much in my One Piece fanfics but Hetalia, my issues with my family, especially my mother/ grandmother. Because of my family situation, I never really had a safe place to express myself freely and when I did it was always taken away. I was around a lot of adults who were affected by my grandmother’s own issues which resulted in immature adults with issues of their own where I had to always be the “adult” or the “bigger person” one to someone who was twice as old as I was when I was a preteen/teenager and they were full grown ass adults. Which sucked since being a mature kid really gives more problems and doing things just to please a family who wouldn’t care less but I did have a Dad who really took the time to really understand me which was nice. So a lot of my Reader-chans have either unavailable parents, awesome parents, or raised by people who aren’t parents but the best parents they could ever have because in my opinion, sometimes the best people who actually care isn’t your family and if these people accept you, treat you with respect and genuinely care about your well being then they are your family.  

9.    What's the most ridiculous thing you've done to put off actually writing? Hmmmm Well I’ve always found time to write but usually now with the pandemic, it’s mainly “I have to clean!” which is partly true but malaise DX Well For one fandom at least. Not to mention I’m adding in a lot of filler so I can send a ton of sad fanfics without feel guilty XD

[musicallisto]

OK BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE i opened tumblr on my laptop and DAAAAAAMN UR THEME IS JUST BEYOND PERFECTION BOTH ON DESKTOP AND MOBILE WHAT IS THIS AND HOW?!?-?-??-!-

this is exactly why i prefer solo work over group works wym gRouP why am i doing all the work then 🙄

PLS it’s more of like a mini hang out but i like how you call it tho :’) actually i’m keeping it a secret from my mom for now so we had to go off mic cos she was gettin suspicious hHABSBAHAJA like whenever she came in she’d be all “why r u so shocked” 😭

but we were chattin about the movie the entire time he was all like “why did i watch this just now”

we’ve actually watched loads of movies even way before he confessed!! he just got me to watch marvel n omfg it’s so mf good i’m about to watch guardians of the galaxy next and i might get into the spiderverse soon as well. it’s so cute when he gets excited abt marvel pls 😭🤞🏻 and i got him to watch b99 now we got peraltiago as our discord pfp :’)

which by the way have I mentioned that Coco is one of my absolute favorite movies of ALL TIME and I bawl my eyes out every time I watch it because I feel like I should mention that.

yep glad u mentioned and BAE I DON’T BLAME U IT’S LITERALLY THE BEST also ✨fuck you ernesto✨

RIGHT i just had to lay low and just log in to collect diamonds for a while cos of classes but imma get back to it. JDNFHEIW I actually had Choices back when it was recently released while I was still an Episode girl 😭 episode shitty now pls i’m sorry, the user stories are so much better. Choices only had like Endless Summer back then and the classics so I got to try that in my old phone but ion rlly remember much so I’ll def reread it ;))

i finished the haunting of braidwood manor back then and some more (like half of It Lives and the High School Story or maybe the Freshman idk) but i lost interest cos i didn’t know how to farm for diamonds yet (but now i’m just farming at home for the holidays cos wtf is it even) I’ll also definitely keep your suggestions in mind pls I got Elementalists next on my list 😌✨

yep i totally get it dw the friendzone part still gets me :’) but i’m glad it all worked out!!

I'm glad I confessed, though, because it's the most romantically vulnerable I've ever been with someone and that confession required a great deal of courage, but I proved to myself I could do it!

DAMN YOU HAVE A WAY WITH WORDS that’s so sweet pls 😔 it really is kinda refreshing to confess!! + hoping that the next time you confess, they’d return the same energy (no actually scratch that they better return MORE cos you deserve that much)

anyway the tea will be coming from you majorly from now on I'm afraid. but if any cute guy catches my attention you will be the first to know, of course ;)

nah nah cos i love this sm i am beyond honored- U BETTER TELL OK HABAHHAAHAHSHAHA because…duh 😐

also i miss chatting w u sm i hope u r doing great :*

* ˚ ✦ shut up shut up Ves have you seen your theme?? it's literally drop dead gorgeous like how!! you are one of my main inspirations when it comes to themes... everything is always so put together and beautiful and!!! miss, I'm in love. that's all. but thank you so much it means the world especially coming from you <3

you guys are so cute omg I might just die. I want, no, need what you two have 😭 matching peraltiago discord profile pictures oh my GOD!!!! no one is doing it like you I just-- heart eyes emoji for days. please keep me updated on everything and for the love of god tell me what he thinks about Coco because if he doesn't like the movie then,,,, I'm afraid that by the powers invested in me by the Goddess of Wingwomen, he can't be The One. and yes absolutely fuck Ernesto & Héctor has all my love. Gael Garcia Bernal is just <3

not you making me want to replay Choices... I thought my days of suffering had ended for good but now I'm kinda tempted to go back and replay The Elementalists as well because it's one of my absolute favorites. I haven't played book 2 but book 1 was so cool, and now I miss it! and please afjbjbscsvhj not the Episode girl 😭😭 I remember you telling me in an ask that you used to play the Demi Lovato path to fame game and GIRL I WAS OBSESSED like I would play religiously in 6th grade it's not even funny😭

and thanks for being proud of me, and I hope the universe learns its lesson and sends a cutie my way - who will actually reciprocate my feelings this time - sometime soon <3

#i hope you're alright too! i love chatting with you you're always so funny and full of life it brings me so much joy #it's like we're at a sleepover i love it #ves 🍵

[longlivefeedback]

The person is correct about those hits on your survey. If a person where to change their IP location, not only is a hit counted for non accountants but you can add another Kudo. I'm surprised many forgot that in the US it's the norm for internet providers to bounce around the location. Even of FFN this fact messes with the amount. So, your survey results aren't very trust worthy. Not like they weren't already since ya didn't have every member and non member opinion.

First and foremost, I’m going to give you some feedback on your ask. While your points are valid (and ones we have discussed before), they are presented in a manner that is rude and easily interpreted as aggressive. This will make most recipients assume that your words are not in good faith with the purpose of helping them improve, but instead meant to demean, belittle, or insult. Therefore, many people are likely to reject this out of hand or respond with an impolite dismissal - and they’re well within their right to do so. If this is your intent, I suggest following the words of the venerable Wil Wheaton: “Don’t be a dick.”

If I assume that this is not your intent, there are several ways that this could be rephrased. It would be more effective to phrase the statement as a question, and instead ask, “Have you accounted for changing IP addresses? It’s the norm for internet providers in the US to bounce around locations, and this will have an effect on the number of hits registered for each fic. It might change your results by (example or hypothesis). If this is the case, your results might not reflect actual differences in feedback rates.”

Finally, it sounds like you have a problem with the entire field of statistics, which is centered around describing large populations or groups by analyzing a subset of data, and figuring out if and how the characteristics of that sample can be applied to the group as a whole. Therefore, if you wish to provide constructive criticism, I suggest choosing topics that you are comfortable with and can be certain that you understand before contacting the creator.

However, I am also going to address each of these concerns below. 

1. Hits vs unique visitors 

Yes, we are aware of this, and that number of hits is a rough estimate of the number of readers due to the way AO3 counts hits, even if IP addresses did not change. Additionally, FFN’s primary view counter records every visit to a fic as a hit, insofar as we can tell, whether or not it comes from a unique IP address. This is one reason we’re only using one-shots in our analysis, and why we refer to each each hit as a hit and not a reader, and discuss it in terms of the likelihood that each hit will generate a comment, not the likelihood that each individual reader will comment. We have also been assuming that FFN’s hit counter will record the same number of IP address visits as a higher number of views than AO3. This doesn’t change our results significantly because it means that FFN has a higher feedback rate than what is shown in our numbers, which increases the difference but doesn’t change the conclusions. Furthermore, on AO3, high-traffic fics are more likely to register the same IP address for multiple hits/visits. This will inflate the count relative to low-traffic fics, which will have some effect on feedback rate. This is discussed more in point 3. Much of this is addressed in our assumptions and limitations.

2. Consistency

We don’t need to know the precise number of individual readers - we only need to have some modicum of internal consistency between fics… which we have, because the same hit counter is being used for every fic on that platform. Additionally, we’re not comparing a fic with 101 hits to a fic with 102 hits, we’re comparing a large group of fics that have, say, 1-250 hits with a large group that has 800-1200 hits. While it is impossible to say which of the former has actually had more unique readers, we can be certain that, on average, the low-traffic category has had fewer individual readers than the high-traffic category.  Since we’re working with such a large number of fics, it doesn’t matter if the proportion of unique readers within the total hitcount varies, because we can assume that it will fall into a pattern and average out, at least within traffic categories. This is why we have a large sample size to minimize the effect of individual variation and have been performing tests of significance to determine how likely it is that the observed results happened merely due to chance.

3. Rereads and bounce rate, AKA, how many readers open the story and don’t read to the end. 

While we have wondered about whether there’s a difference between site averages in terms of the bounce rate (for example, FFN does not give readers nearly as much information about a story as as AO3’s tag system, and therefore they may have less of an idea of what the story actually is and be more likely to bounce), this isn’t a major concern of ours because we still see a pattern in feedback rate distributions. It would be interesting and useful to know, but it’s not central to this project. In terms of whether rereads and bounce rate has a large effect on feedback rates between traffic categories… no, we don’t think it does. It probably plays some role, but it’s virtually impossible to be the only cause. First, you would have to show that high-traffic fics actually do have a higher rate of both, and while that is very possible, it’s not definitive. And finally, if this were to account for the entire difference between traffic categories… well, let’s do some math. The average feedback rate for low-traffic fics was 0.0125 comments/hit. The average feedback rate for high-traffic fics was 0.005 comments per hit. If we pick a random number, we can assume that fics with an average of 250 views will have an average of about 3 comment threads (again, on average - individual fics will have many more or many less). In the same vein, the average fic with 15,000 hits would have approximately 187 comment threads. … Yeah, the first one seems reasonable. The second? Well, I’m gonna ask if the author has been doing blood magic or something, because wow. What we actually see, when looking at averages, is that 15,000 hit stories will have an average of around 75 comment threads. Now, that sounds more like the AO3 I know. So, can this difference be attributed entirely to rereads and a higher bounce rate? Even if the low-traffic fics had a 0% bounce rate and a 0% rate of rereads, the high-traffic fic’s bounce+reread rate would have to be 60% to create the observed difference. So, uh, nah. Not only can’t we assume that this is the only factor, we can’t even assume that it’s a major contributor.

4. Precise numbers vs overarching trends

We’re not making claims about the precise feedback rate, just ballpark estimates. We’re not saying that every single fic on AO3 with fewer than 258 hits will average out to 0.0125 comment threads per hit. However, we are saying that we’re confident that, on average, fics with fewer hits have a higher observed feedback rates than fics with more hits. On the same end, we’re not saying that every fic will have a feedback rate that’s exactly 0.002 comments/hit higher on FFN than AO3, but instead estimating the range of differences based on our data set.

So, in summary, we’ve considered all of these points, controlled what we could, and made predictions about what effect the rest of them will have on our results. We’ve decided that we’re confident in our results, but if someone else wants to collect data and provide evidence to the contrary, that would be cool! We want to find answers, not be right, and if the answer isn’t the answer we thought it was… well hey, we got there anyway, and that’s what matters.  However, if someone wants to convince us that we’re wrong, they’re going to have to back it up instead of merely nay-saying. 

#llf asks #ffn vs ao3