#n.

[thequietabsolute]

:: want to hear one of my favourite pieces of trivia? In Kafka’s 200th letter to Felice Bauer he asked, ‘Can you actually read my handwriting?’

#how’s that for diffidence #franz kafka #Felice Bauer #personal notes #n.

[circuit-if]

How would you rank the ROs in terms of angst levels? 👀

Least to most:

Carmen - I give her a 3/10 for angst levels. She's amazing.

Nicholas/Nadine - 4/10 for angst, although most of the time it's like -1/10.

Sadie/Spencer - ranges from 5/10 to 7/10, depending on what you do. very sweet route, but yknow. forbidden love!

Roman - ranges from 7/10 to 9/10, again, depending on what you do. the angst starts wayy early into the story, before you even meet the others.

#circuit-if #interactive fiction #circuit #if #interactive game #interactive fiction wip #interact-if #interactive novel #ask #if wip #ros #roman #n. #s. #carmen

[siennanotes]

Okay, hear me out. One of the things I enjoy most during clinic year is the thrill of having my labsheets approved. Before our forms are signed, we have to answer particular questions or perform procedures. Without the labsheet approval, you will not be able to dispense your patient's lenses.

You never really know what question or task will hit you and the uncertainty of it all challenges me to be on top of my active recall game. It allows me to revisit past lessons and gauge which areas I have yet to read more of.

It's also during this time that my past notes come in very handy. There are days I regret wasting my time from the past for not studying as productive as I hope to be. It was tiresome scanning all of my notes, backing up files, and never really opening them as much as I want to.

Earlier this month, I attended a youth summit geared towards research innovation. One of the instruments available in the fair was a weighing scale that also measured muscle and visceral fat. I haven't worked out in a long time. Hence, I was both surprised and happy to see that most of my weight still comes from muscle and that my visceral fat is at 1%.

The present version of myself is grateful for the hardwork I have put in the past. It may not be perfect or as seamless, but it is enough to give me a headstart for this tiring semester. These are things that are not directly specified on the checklist for clinic preparations. But these are things I could suggest to the next batch of clinicians. Stay physically healthy so you will have energy during and after clinic + store your notes (!!)

#studyblr #studygram #studying #student #study motivation #study notes #studyspo #study #notes #studyinspo #n. #optometry #optometry student #philippines #filipina student #studyph #studyphilippines #studyblog #study blog #studycore #academia #academiacore #academic

[bulbutundenizleri]

gozlerime bakip "sanki seni yillardir gormuyormusum gibi hissediyorum" dedi. sonraysa cok isteyip de kavusamamiscasina doldu gozleri. bakislarini baska bir yone cevirirken gozlerim hala uzerinde geziniyordu. kacti. sustum. kactim. sonra hicbir sey olmamis gibi konusmaya devam ettik. iki yetiskin gibi. artik cocuk degildik. buyumustuk. buyumek bize yakismaliydi.

#n.

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

2024 is not my year, can we restart? can we just skip to 2025? please i am dying

#yeah so sorry i haven't been doing much here despite my goal being to get caught up on oc posts and start writing (which i did start #doing) #but uh. yeah so im still sick. yknow from December 24th. yeah. #it's developed into uh respiratory issues brought on by allergies and/or asthma. not 100% sure yet getting tested next week #but yeah it's so fun i have to take meds (one of which has Spontaneous Depression as a side effect #as if i needed more of that) and i CAN'T FUCKING BREATH MOST THE TIME WITHOUT HACKING A LUNG UP #needless to say. hate it here! #anyways hopefully will have some more stuff soo #n.

[nthflower]

All my life I am having periods of times where I become so obsessed with something in a fearful way. My fear obsession eras.

And it is like not a normal kind of fear too it's extremely unreasonable. I know it's not logical and when the fear era is done I can start thinking logically. But when I am in my obsession spiral every thing relates to my fears and I can't stop thinking about them any minute.

For example once I learned there is some kind of fish that looks like a rock and paralyses you at best kills you at worst and I spend months being terrified of going to sea or stepping on any kind of rock.

#currently i am fine and it been a while since i was obsessed with something #last one was rabies i was like cant touch any kind of animal and wake up middle of night thinking i am definitely dying amd waking everybod #oh also I started to create symptoms on myself #like I would be perfectly fine then i would remember rabies and i would feel like i am suddenly fearing water #then next two hours would be me in shower trying to make myself believe i am not scared of water #now looking back to it it was very silly #n. #my personal mental health thingies maybe i will delete it later

[072303]

Dilucu "Necəsən?" soruşub getmə,

Dayan, izah edim, necəyəm indi.

Dağılmış binayam, sökülmüş yolam,

Toz altda boğulan küçəyəm indi.

Hesabdan yaxşısan, hələ gəl otur.

Mən də sual verim, tənliyini qur.

İkidən bir çıxıb sonra birə vur.

Hesabla, tap görüm, neçəyəm indi?

Ürəyim inanmır ürək sözümə,

Bir ucuz ölüm də gülmür üzümə.

Sənsiz bütün gecə özüm-özümə,

Səni xatırladan gecəyəm indi.

#n. #Xəzər Süleymanlı

[ralphbutler]

Oie Kirr

#youtube #N. #Hellmuth Neidhardt #Drone

[frijolito2024]

Donde Estas

Es horrible no saber de ti. si lo supiera no cambiaria algún factor de mi vida cotidiana.

Tu nombre me trae bonitos recuerdos quitándome el sueño a la ves regalándome el insomnio obligándome a imaginar despertar y verte de nuevo.

Un te me acompaña a medias noches trayéndome tranquilidad lamentablemente no soy mas que un muerto viviente para ti.

N~

[lilith-the-crying-witch]

Giochicchiando con la funzionalità ricerca di telegram ho trovato dei messaggi che io e N ci siamo scambiati un anno fa

Era totalmente diverso con me e 100 volte più propositivo

Vabbè tutto questo per dire che ho ceduto e gli ho riscritto (sì non è passata nemmeno una settimana piena AIUTO)

#n.

[thequietabsolute]

by Friedrich Seidenstücker

#in winter my gf grows out her underarm hair and without getting too biological about this fact … it makes me intensely happy #a thousand hours clocked up just laying in bed absentmindedly tickingling the soft hair there sigh sigh #i feel Darwin’s ingenious hand at work #looks and feels and smells heavenly #she also throws a mean javelin pow pow #personal notes #tickling* although umph i love that typo ✨ #Friedrich Seidenstücker #n.

[circuit-if]

the ros on sloppy makeouts...?

Nicholas/Nadine - Every kiss with N is a little sloppy, a little lazy, but full of love. They'll lean over and thread a hand through your hair, dusting kisses to your cheeks and nose before pressing their lips to yours. You can feel their smile through the kiss, their warm chuckle between the both of you before they pull away.

Roman - Sloppy kisses are a little rarer with Roman, but I imagine them happening in the morning when either of you are barely awake. He'll walk up from behind, hair still a mess from sleep, sliding an arm around your waist and pulling you in before pressing a drowsy kiss to your lips. Mutters of what to do for breakfast follow.

Sadie/Spencer - I can imagine the briefing before a race where S sees you off with the final strategy preparations. Before they see you into your car, they turn your jaw back towards them and press a spontaneous kiss to your lips. It's slow and firm, bringing their brows low before they pull away to wish you luck.

Carmen - After a successful race she rushes through the crowd over to you, pulling your helmet off your head and slinging her arms around your neck, burying her head in the crook of your neck. She'll pull you into a harsh kiss soon after, all teeth and smile, before you both laugh with giddy victory.

#circuit-if #interactive fiction #circuit #if #interactive game #interact-if #interactive fiction wip #interactive novel #if wip #ask #ros #carmen #roman #s. #n.

[siennanotes]

Fear is not something I am totally unfamiliar with. I have felt it as a kid when I visit the dentist. I was scared of dogs, of syringes, and many other things. I have, however, always enjoyed school. I play my academics like a game I want to win. I enjoy unlearning, learning, and relearning things. I love studying and showing up to class every day.

But I have never felt this scared for my academics before--not when I got drowned by extra curricular activities in 9th grade, not when I was running for batch valedictorian in senior year, not even when I took the presidential post for student council and shoved my academics aside. As clinic year draws near, the stakes rise higher and higher. One failed quiz could cause a delay. I often operate with the base assumption that I don't know nearly enough. This time, I don't have to operate on that base assumption because I genuinely do not know nearly enough. I am currently on an academic crisis and I am not sure how I will deal with it. All I know is that I have to keep getting up early and just mask my impostor syndrome.

I am terrified of losing my scholarship, of making mistakes, of not knowing what to do. Nevertheless, I know feeling this fear is good because it means I value Optometry enough to actually feel afraid of being incompetent.

#studyblr #studygram #study motivation #study #studyspo #studyinspo #optometry #notes #n. #study notes #aesthetic #academic #academia #school #student #student life

[ahaura]

Robert Henri (American, 1865–1929) Indian Girl of San Ildefonso 1917

#robert henri #american art #american artist #american realism #painting #art #** #**a #n.

[tqsg]

what’s ur fav color???

this is such a basic bitch answer but black lmfao

#asks #n. #probably anyway #a bit blurry lmfaoo #sorry im jusy horribly emo and shit lmfaoo

[nthflower]

If i found a villain sympathetic this means I support them fully. I am also don't condemn any actions of them. Maybe I do if it wasn't sexy. But anyways I also root for their victory. Especially if MC is annoying. This is my new way from now.

#like being self aware and acknowledging villains flaws out #babyfing them no critical thinking skills in #new era new me #this is inspired by magneto btw #go fuck up qhumans and destroy countless cities grandpa i will still wear magneto was right shirts 🤩 #they deserved it #n. #magneto was right