#my sister just told me about this today

[candyredappledragon]

Does Furret participate in Pokémon battles or are they moral support?

both actually! furret is a support pokemon! he has a moveset to help others and- ah sorry i got a "little" into competitive but you know for fun! florian inspired me to make a team that involves with pokemon i love and build it from there. though furret prefers to be my moral support. i grab him, hug him tight and i forget about my loss.

though some of my pokemon do enjoy the quiet and relaxing life so its a win-win for us! i leave some of them with my grandparents to help them around the house or do activities. i am very grateful for them!

#rotomblr #pkmn irl #thanks for the ask! #trainer kieran #pokemon fanart #being real honest. if it werent for that fateful day i wouldnt be the same person today. #and i have been studying the competitive scene myself to get stronger! ...i do admit i have been studying books and videos about it. #kind of lost a “bit” of sleep but i just got so engrossed by it. thenigotmyhandsonsomebooksaboutlegendarypokemonandlostmoresleep #i almost went on a tangent but i caught myself. do not talk to me about competitive stuff. i kinda just “infodump” about it. #my sister told me that. because she once asked me for help and the next thing i knew she was nodding off to sleep. #//ooc: Can you tell on which parts I drew over and fixed so many times. :sob emoji: Sorry I was dying to make it at least decent.

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

[sevicia]

I hate these stupid fucking gacha game ads of anime women chained up looking desperate and still sexualized at the same time like you are literally so disgusting. the ad has a "button" that says "SAVE" btw like it's so obviously aimed at gross dudes who get off on women being helpless AND owing them something. I HATE IT HERE

#also what my sister told me about her bf today is making my blood boil but it's ok. It's Ok #IT'S NOT OK WHY CAN'T MEN BE NORMAL. #not objectifying women as a man is literally so easy. watch this.... see I just did it #cis men need to get smacked so hard their brains reset I'm so serious. trans men are also guilty of shit like this #but it's maybe a lighter smack cause we've been through it too. being treated like a woman I mean #diary

[curiosity-killed]

My sister has this thing where she like…loathes my childhood self ?? which. Feels a little unhinged. but leads to things like her being like “omg you STOLE so many baby dolls and because I was a Good and Rule Abiding Child, I was APPALLED and you were TOTALLY REMORSELESS” and I was like. 1 yr old when this happened.

#literally in this case bc we just had this convo over vacation #and while my sister was going on about what a terrible lawless child I was I asked my mom #and she was like yeah you were like 1 maybe 2 #which idk aren’t exactly ages known for having a developed moral code or understanding of ours/not ours #she also did this years ago #the day she moved into her new house (& bear in mind I had been helping her prep/sell/move for weeks) #she told her entire assembled friend group how annoying/terrible I was growing up #when like. she left for college when I was 12 #so she LITERALLY only lived with me when I was a /child/ child #personal #idk why I’m thinking abt this today #like it is a little hurtful but mostly like. it’s really fucking weird???? #I’m sure I could be annoying as a child (that is human nature) #but like literally everyone else who’s ever felt the need to comment has been like ‘’you were so sweet and gregarious and then also had a #horrifying temper. but you very very sweet 🥺’’

[daydadahlias]

I saw this tweet the other day with an insane amount of likes that said something along the lines of “I don’t trust people that hate children, the most vulnerable members of our society” and a ton of comments were “those people are hands down pedophiles trying to overcompensate by saying they hate kids” and like dude ?? that is the most insanely batshit and problematic take I’ve ever read ?? People that don’t like kids are not automatically fucking pedophiles? What a dangerous and horrible thing to say??

No one has an obligation to like children. This whole automatic “maternal” “paternal” instincts shit simply does not apply to everyone and the only reason people think it does is because of the overwhelming emphasis society has placed on the necessity to bear children. But it’s time people just fucking deal with the fact that not everyone wants kids. And they don’t need to. People don’t need to have kids to have purpose on this earth. And the attitude of “you’ll understand when you have kids of your own” like no, I won’t. I have enough autonomy and sense of self to know that I don’t want children. Please stop assuming people want children. Please stop pretending people are supposed to have children.

I’m certainly not condoning grown ass adults who are cruel to children and belittle them or talk down to people who do have kids because that’s just not okay because, yes, kids are vulnerable and heavily influenced by attitudes around them. So, yes, adults do need to be kind to children so they grow up in a healthy environment even if they don’t “like” them but no one has an obligation or a requirement to want to be around kids.

I am not required by law to like children and people need to stop pretending like people who don’t want kids are some fucking danger to society just because they don’t conform to it.

#like what the fuck??? #if a person doesn’t like kids they’re a PEDOPHILE?????? #are people out of their fucking minds #sorry inspo via my nephew driving me insane today #and me telling my dad I don’t have the patience to be around him right now because I know I’ll get snappy with him #and I don’t want to be rude to him #and my dad acting like I’m a fucking monster #because I don’t want to be around kids #and I didn’t want to hold my sisters baby #and that makes me a fucking lunatic #like dude ?? I just don’t like kids I don’t know why I need to explain myself over that?? #sorry I’m like so mad #I just hate being told I should have kids #and that I will have kids #and it’s always ‘when you have kids’ and not IF #like bro I have NO obligation or requirements to bare children bc I have a uterus #so you need to shut the fuck up #ok rant over #I know this has nothing to do with 5sos but also it kind of does bc #people are so fucking insane about mystal’s baby #and like expect everyone to be so over the moon abt it and like #and like can we just please stop pushing this narrative that babies and children are the be all end all #everyone has a different vision of their life #and not everyone likes or wants kids #so uh shut the fuck up thanks

[rosicheeks]

Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone) #but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

[wraith-demjin]

I want someone that cares that I ate a really good muffin

#for context #I was telling my sister about how I get the pumpkin cream cheese muffin from starbucks on the way back from therapy #and that its really good #and she was so uninterested #she just went back to her phone with an mm and when I said you don't care she was like no it's just a muffinn #that completely fucked up my mood #I just want someone to care about the little things #the small things that make me happy #or sad or upset #or whatever even if it has nothing to do with them or they don't really relate or whatever #I don't know but yeah #I told my therapist about it today #I love my therapist so much she is the best ever #sue appreciation #also #pumpkin cream cheese muffin appreciation #because I love it so much

[chemicaljacketslut]

god u know when there was like. a whole hippie movement. can we pleasee make an anti-tech movement. like ik that exists but i mean a BIG WIDESPREAD one. & like not a crazy one but a positive & chill one, like we can def use helpful & necessary technology but generally no social media and prob no streaming platforms either. if companies are doing shitty things with tech we won’t stand for it. using “outdated” things like physical media & wtv. engaging with your local community more if that’s viable. going to random knitting club meetings at the library or smth. volunteering. there’d be no rejection of people who didn’t do these things, just encouragement to move away from the worst parts of tech and do what works for you, even if that means social media (although i feel like it’s VERY hard to use social media healthily now). idk i just feel so poisoned by technology at this point i want to LIVE

#i also feel like everyone my age is NOT like this which makes it harder for me to capital L Live yk?? #like life dependent on social media just feels hollow & inauthentic to me… which is just a me thing but like #when the amount of people my age who connect with the real world and their real community more than their online world is so low #it makes it harder for me to connect. if that makes sense #however after i got off of social media and told people about it a few of my friends did the same #and a few more made a couple steps. like decreasing usage or even just admitting it’s not good for them #took literal years for my sister to admit that tiktok is bad and bad for her mental health #u gotta let them realize it in their own time #but a widespread movement like this i think could REALLY help people have that realization sooner or at all #esp because tiktok addicts like….. can’t think for themselves… i’m sorry it’s true. generally. #sigh i just hate tech today

[soulsxng]

Sometimes, a person allows me to geek out about dog training/behavior/nutrition stuff a little bit (because they asked me for advice/help), and my brain just latches onto it for the rest of the day. And then I’m just going on long winded dog related info dumps completely out of nowhere to literally anybody in the room.

#[what is she getting us into now? -ooc-] #(aka my sister was asking for advice about some stuff with her dogs #and the entire rest of the day #I’ve been randomly going ‘…So I know I’ve said this like a million times before #and I’m sorry if I’ve already told you…BUT DID YOU KNOW THAT ONE OF THE MOST COMMON THINGS IN DOG TRAINING—‘ #‘Did you know that one of the most common food allergies in dogs are—‘ #luckily my family/a lot of my friends are very big dog/animal people #so a lot of times when it happens everyone else gets really into it too #or #they’re totally chill just listening to me word vomit about it at them) #I also had to give my sister the ‘do not give people vet advice when you aren’t a vet’ convo today #and that if she was going to like…relay something she’d heard or experienced #in response to a health/etc issue someone is having with their dog #that she needs to flat out say ‘in my experience/I heard once that…’ #and then say ‘but I’m not a vet and I don’t want you to rely on just my opinion. so if you’re really concerned about it #you should at least call your vet to discuss it with them if not just bring your dog in’ #it wasn’t over anything major but still #better she learns that sooner rather than later when she DOES try to give major advice and it’s wrong orz

[marioclash]

because ive been broke ive had to go without my antidepressants and i feel like im right back again at square one again

all this progress i feel like ive made just got reset

i cant do this anymore

#my own mother called me a worthless piece of shit and told me she hates me today #when the only person i even have left tells me they hate me #i just feel its time to give up theres nothing here for me anymore #i dont want this life anymore i didnt ask for it #i dont want to unload my personal stuff on any friends #so what am i supposed to do anymore my father will be dead soon my sisters want nothing to do with me #i already mentioned what my mother thinks about me #who do i even have anymore to lean on i just dont want to do this anymore

[mirananananan]

what is it called when your mother still tries to guilt you into feeling like shit about not wanting to spend hours and hours at random family events when you are a fully grown adult with other obligations and priorities

asking for a friend

#she planned a labor day cookout for the first time maybe ever????? #and i was like ok yeah sure whatever we'll be there #older brother & sister + their respective spouses and MANY children all backed out last minute #i told my husband last night that this was no big deal very casual so if he wants he can go fishing with his friends today instead #my mom just called me to bitch about the fact that now it's just going to be like 10 of us at this cookout #which meant i also had to break the news about the husband also not being there #and she flipped out and was like well if you have something more important to do it's fine! you don't have to come! #so i get an earful about how rude it is to back out of coming to something at the last minute #even though i am only not bringing one person #and my older siblings are not bringing a total of.........10 people????? #personal #just type 2 mother things #love being the middle youngest child because she still thinks i am a child who she can berate but would literally never do to the older sib

[hella1975]

realising something bad about someone that means the world to you should be illegal. id like to live blindly actually

#ive been tiptoeing around this realisation for a WHILE now but today was the first time i actually verbatim in my head #went 'i dont like living with my mum'. and the moment i thought it was like no nooononono lets NOT do that #like objectively my mum is my favourite person in the world and i love her more than every other person in my life combined #but LIVING with her in HER HOUSE is just not... it. and it makes me feel awful for even thinking it bc that's her biggest fear #that we're gonna grow up to have the same relationship that she had with her mum and that ISNT what's happening like i could never #be distant from my mum in fact the reason she has such a chokehold on me is BECAUSE there's so much love there #but it would still break her heart to know i felt this way and i just feel so shitty for it. but like? i CANT relax here #like the thing that made me think it this morning wasn't even an explosive thing like it usually is with her #like every shouting screaming argument we've had ive just taken it. but then this morning when nothing exceptional happened #i was just. done. so basically i told u guys she wanted me to hoover today and already yelled about it YESTERDAY which. whatever #and she goes out every thurdsay until lunchtime and i think ive said on here before that the days we're home alone are HUGE flashpoints #bc if she comes home and perceives that not enough chores have been done/one thing has been done wrong she just hits the ROOF #like her temper is entirely disproportional she gives the same energy for the washing up not being put away that another mum would #give for finding drugs in their kids room. ive truly never seen someone maintain a temper like that woman can it's actually impressive #so yeah she was gone this morning and it just always leaves me On Edge it's never a huge thing bc im not SCARED of her but im not relaxed #and i hoovered for an hour and washed up and then also dusted the stairs and did some other tiny irrelevant jobs #and my sister did fuck all. she pulled a sickie off work and stayed in bed while i fussed about what to do with the dogs and shit #and so when my mum came home ig i was expecting some sort of acknowledgement? like not a round of applause #bc obvs it's just chores and the hoovering she literally told me to do but when my sister had been SO unhelpful and it had been #SO on my mind for hours now i was just. waiting for something? and even i didnt know what so it's not even fair #but my mum came home and decided she was in a bad mood and she had a go at my sister for being lazy and not doing the chores she said #she'd do today and she DIDNT yell at me which she sometimes does just do if she's pissed at my sister. but she just got mardy with me? #like she got up and left to go watch TV in her room and i was like 'oh i can watch it with you?' bc sometimes when they row my mum #hints at me and her going somewhere else to bitch about my sister. but she just shook her head and snapped at me for some dumb shit #like TINY shit id missed and then wouldn't even spend time with me and i was just like. are you serious #and THAT was when i had the thought bc i was like there is actually no winning with her temper #and i can never fully relax around her because of it. even when we're getting on she is at any point seconds away from ripping my head off #and it's not nice being around someone like that ALL THE TIME. and i dont mind it when im at uni bc im at my own house in my own life #but when it's HER house and she makes it very clear that it's HER house and we need her and the car if we want to so much as LEAVE #then that's just not a fucking pleasant environment to be in? right? even if it is just me being a baby? ugh idk and i hate this

[altruistic-meme]

do i... want to go out tonight? or do i want to hide tonight? 🤔

#hghhhhh #cus like #my sister told me she was gonna drag me to these things yesterday and tonight #but she... didnt message or call last night and hasnt said anything about today #so i could either just let out pass or i could message her to remind her #mmmmmmmmm #or i could just order from the macncheese place and continue crocheting #decisions decisions #shh ac

[deeisace]

aw damn it

#watching bones #a dog died on the show #and my phone popped up today with yknow the memories thing of photos you took x time ago #one of the last times i saw my jed was this week 2 years ago. 3 years ago? i don't remember time is weird #anyway he died this year #i didn't get to see him often but like he was my dog yknow #he's buried in a really nice place but i'll probably never get to see it cs now my parents areall in the uk i haveno reason to go to france #so now i'm crying a lot #speaking of graves now my sister has her name written somewhere i should probably go and see it #it's just nice to know it's there it took 27 years to put her name in stone so i should go see it #or. idk it's in stone it's on a wall somewhere in the crem. but still she never had that before last month. #ohhh 2023 has been too much of a year #everything everything at once #my auntie told me yesterday (mum's dropped her phone in the canal again) that #my gran didn't have her kidney removed (cancer) on thursday cs she has irregular heart rhythm? so they're looking this week instead #she's almost 70 she has cancer on her kidney ovaries and smth on her lung and she can't have blood transfusion and she has smth w her heart #well at least i'm only crying about recent stuff now #pffffft i'm going to make tea #everything is yuck this year

[simonghostrileys]

i wish i could just die in my sleep but i guess i'm not that lucky

#told my sister about my teeth and she said she couldn't help me #she literally was my last hope #guess i'm now doomed #haven't eaten anything today bc my mouth hurts #my teeth my gums my jaw everything hurts #it's been 24 hours since the last time i ate and it will be more #and the hospital that employed me hasn't given me a contract to start working bc there aren't enough contracts for everyone #and idk when will they give me one so i can start working and start getting money #so yeah. i guess i'm doomed #i just want to die so bad rn i feel so hopeless #i've been crying since the day before yesterday and having breakdown after breakdown #my family don't care and don't want to help me either and my dad is so fucking useless #i don't know what to do i just want my teeth fixed or for my life to end #but i'm such a coward to actually kill myself #suicide mention tw #death tw #liliana talks

[cookiescr]

.

#vent #this is all in philippine peso btw i am not rich i don’t have 10k usd jdjjd #anyways sorry about this in advance i’m just kinda still uoset about my dad #like i gave him money to pay for his like medicine for hemorrhoids #and he ended up spending it on some other things and he’s asking me for more like u said it was for medicine 😭 #and he keeps on saying but it’s gonna arrive today (this was on saturday) #and i couldn’t even really do shit because all my money’s on da bank #and he’s so hsjjsjdnksjsjsjd he keeps fucking guilt tripping me #like he mentioned why i let my sister borrow money and i tols him because she pays #and he says he pays as well #but he’s talking about the time he said he’d give me his whole december salary for all the money he borrowed #throughout the year #but he was guilt tripping me when it was time to like pay me so he ended up just giving me 5k #for the whole year he was borrowing money #he said it’s my fault that i only took 5k when he was giving me his whole salary for the month #… he was making me feel bad so i just took less 😭 jdksjsmms #and when i pounted that out he was just laughing and told me not to scream it #grrjfjrhrhrrrrgrrrrkfjjf #now I’m like offering to pay like 10k of the loan he took because 7k was spent on the bed so it’s like fair for me to pay #but he said to just give him the 10k and he’ll pay me back which means he’s gonna use it for something else and not to pay the loan jdkjdkd #and what happens if he ends up not paying me and then the loan is still not paid what then ldjmejxmnxs #i feel like i’m being petty and ungrateful for even asking him to pay the money he borrows