#my ovaries are gone

[riviifetish]

his pout….. oh god

#henry cavill #henry cavil is literally my boyfriend #the witcher #photoshoot #henry cavil photoshoot #delusional #gif #men…. #netflix #pouting #men pouting #my ovaries #dead. gone.

[doing-90mph-in-central-london]

in a world where trans people could get gender-confirmation surgery more easily, i could also much more easily get my horrible uterus removed for pain reasons.

#and while they're at it they could take my appendix #ovaries too maybe #what the hell #spleen? not sure what that does but yeah #get it outta there #gall bladder? more like GONE bladder #frankly i think i should have a lot of organs removed #it's called streamlining

[isaksbestpillow]

I'm heading towards the north pole again, wish me luck

#my has gotten so much worse this week #japanese healthcare does not give a fuck about people's pain #i can't wait to get to finland where i can hopefully get surgery to see wtf is going on instead of only ever receiving chinese herbs #i've been rawdogging this pain for six months and i've had enough #i have tumor on my ovary i want it gone i don't want herbal powders

[supercantaloupe]

truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs

#(okay to rb but stay in your lane) #maybe i just want to look and see if anyone else has experienced what i went through today without seeing someone going like #'you'll never be a REAL woman because you DON'T HAVE OVARIES #and will NEVER understand the TRUE WOMANLY EXPERIENCE of having A VERY DISRUPTIVE AND COMPLEX ENDOCRINE AND METABOLIC DISORDER' #like i think there are more important (read: actual) targets to direct our frustration at here than #[checks notes] getting mad at a trans woman for saying she relates to some of the problems caused/faced by having pcos #like. idk. the fucking medical system and lack of research/treatment options #(also. christ. reducing every person w pcos into the 'woman' category automatically bc 'ovary'. #even though it's literally an intersex condition. yikes.) #also i don't know about y'all but i don't wish this on anyone? regardless of gender?? #i actually don't want trans women to have to experience this in order to be considered a True Woman #because i don't want ANYBODY to have to experience this. it sucks! it's not fucking fun! #i just wanted to try and see if other people have gone through the same thing i have. not expand my blocklist by half a mile tonight. #i wanna talk about me #even though i didn't exactly find what i was looking for (😔) and i had to play fucking whack-a-terf while searching #if there's any bright side to be found it's the number of posts/people affirming pcos as an intersex condition/identity #i saw someone say 'if you don't want the [intersex] umbrella for yourself you don't have to take it #but it's nice to have in the closet for a rainy day' #and. man. yeah.

[ghostfungus]

Got my uterus out ✌️

#rambles #ovaries too thabks everyone for voting #super surreal but also great but also complicated but also simple. and i'm really glad i did it #i dont have painkillers tho yet and hoo baby. not great #we were gone for a total of 14 hours #i had to pee before they let me go and my body was like hmm no. we're using all this water #so i was awake around 11 and left after 4 #bc obviously i had to be first done and last to leave #BUT!!! I didnt throw up!! which is a miracle #going under makes me really ill

[inkyvulture]

Me: *finishes long, detailed animation project and posts it on hosting platform*

Me: *deletes original file without waiting for the file to fully process because my device's memory is whack so I gotta make sacrifices*

Hosting platform: Sorry, this upload breaks the community guidelines by like 12 pixels. Your post has been deleted :)

Me:

#i feel sick to my stomach #seriously #all my work and will to live today gone #reduced to atoms #and now my stupid ovary hurts #fml

[lemongrablothbrok]

Holy fuck holy fuck holy fuck I forgot how to breathe

I didn't think it was possible. I didn't think it was fucking possible. But I found a version of "Whole Lotta Love" that gets me even more hot 'n' bothered than the original (and the original is...well, I use it for the fuzzy tingle times sometimes). Dear God, help me. Help me, my panties are on fire. Damn it, Tori. This is not okay. You gotta warn me about these things.

#Tori Amos #Led Zeppelin #awesome covers #holy jeebus #the “thank you” bit is also fucking beautiful #awesome music #i forgot how to everything #help me #sexy stuff #make happy pants time music #RIP my ovaries #RIP my entire ladybits they've all gone kablooey in the best way #I mean if anyone could out-sexy the original it's be tori amos #by the way i mean none of this as any shade towards led zeppelin #just holy jeez #i'm going to fucking die #this is it. this is how i leave this mortal coil. not a bad way to go honestly. not a bad way at all.

[executing]

remember when i had super heavy periods that would last a day or 2 at most but they only came like every 2 or 3 months and it was so painful that i couldnt stand or sit up sometimes and every doctor i ever went to said i was being a hysterical female? you probably do not remember bc i didnt know any of you when i had periods. anyway when they did my hysto they found uterine fibroids.

#hated that organ glad it's gone my only regret was not making them yoink whichever ovary was worse and leaving the best one #for hormone reasons only

[lullabiestoparalyze]

🎉🎉🎉

#it's not cancer! #the ovary was bigger than my damn uterus though and had the kind of cyst that could have become cancerous #so it's a really good thing that it's gone #i'm home already too #though i'd kinda rather not be bc those transfers and that ride home were ROUGH #and i wouldn't have minded another day or two to recover and heal a bit first #but oh well #hysterectomy #surgery #pcos #i'm fucking free!

[punkgemjasper]

Gods.

No one ever talks about how bad the fucking mood swings can be if you have PCOS huh?

#Not had a period period in years now...yes I should bother my gp but GOOD FUCKING LUCK getting anyone who'll actually listen to me #I get the shir symptoms tho #And they are somehow worse than folks who don't have lumpy ovaries... #I want them gone. I was told they looked like an over stuffed bag of marbels at fucking 16. I'm 30 now. #pcos

[meowscarada]

i forgot to update yall but i got my hysterectomy yesterday! uterus begone

#and cervix and fallopian tubes #i did keep the ovaries bc i want my body to still produce hormones naturally #but yeah this means no more surprise random periods #and no worries about accidental pregnancies #plus no worries about the very real possibility of uterus atrophy after years on HRT #it doesnt feel quite as exciting as when i got top surgery #mainly bc top surgery is a very external thing thats very easy to spot the difference #but this is for sure something that has put me at ease in avoiding a lot of future stress #gone jellyfishing

[rudjedet]

my uterus after 1.5 weeks of iron pils: OKAY SO second baby when? 🥰

uhm girl no that's a spectacularly bad idea

#i saw a lot of babies today and yesterday and my ovaries have gone haywire despite the IUD which i'm pretty sure is A Feat #on the bright side i do be feeling better already #actually managed to cycle roughly 15km with C without feeling like I was gonna die and/or lose my legs

[sandwichvamp]

so my meds r working

#for context: doctor told me to take ibuprofen AND magnesium glycinate for my period cramps since they get so bad i throw up EVERY MONTH #so now since december it's gone from a cramp to. a pinch on my ovaries #and it's soooooo much better #i'm happy #[sandwichtalks]

[raeathnos]

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#I am… not in a good mental state #it’s uh very alienating #no one like understands the fucking pain and shit that I’ve dealt with for the majority of my life that comes with these problems #no one understands how the focus is primarily on fertility and how you have to really fight for symptoms treatment #it feels like all your worth is in your ability to have kids and like #if you have these sort of problems and don’t want kids it’s kind of one big fuck you #and like no one in my life really gets it; I try to not get mad cause like how could they if they’ve never gone through it #but that doesn’t make it any easier and it’s so hard still and it’s so alienating #gonna go take the hottest shower I fucking can and just like cry it out cause no one is really helping #moms being controlling telling me I can’t go to work tomorrow like this and yelling at me about it #I don’t do well on phone calls and asked if she would sit with me when I called the doctor and that was a mistake #I can’t hear someone talking next to me and someone talking to me on the phone at the same time #and everything she didn’t like she tried to tell me I did wrong and now she’s mad at me #my husband has been complaining about how uncomfortable the chairs in the er were and about being up for 24 hours cause we were there from #2-am to 8am and just idk. I feel bad I guess #but then I get kind of mad about it cause I was also up for 24 hours and like #complaining about hospital chairs vs 10/10 pain + vaginal ultrasound while at 10/10 pain #my dad just flat out doesn’t care and doesn’t think it’s a big deal #I literally went downstairs to get my cats breakfast and got asked if I was better yet #like yeah dad in the span of a day my ovary has returned to normal size and I’m in zero pain. sure. that’s def how that works. #and like I have been having so many issues with my both my parents lately #it’s all so hard it’s too hard and I can’t fucking handle it #my health has just been in a constant nose dive since September #and I feel like everyone thinks because I already have a lot of health issues that I’m used to it and can handle it #no one gives a shit- which has also been great for my mental health #I can’t handle any of this shit and I feel like everyone around me just thinks I’m weak and annoying and a failure #I’ve been overwhelmed and burned out for years and like it just doesn’t stop #I’m just sad and tired and in a lot of pain and very done with everything #I feel like no one cares and I’m just a burden #I wish I could hibernate

[yesifitswithyou]

every day i wake up with a uterus

#istg i want this thing gone #i wish for someone to slice my abdomen and remove it from me #ovaries and everything idc #(is in their period)

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm having so many physical stress reactions to things, and for a second when it happens I'll think "Why is this happening?" And then I remember that I'm incredibly fucking stressed at all times

#for example: i had a seizure a few weeks ago #focal aware seizure #in the past ive gotten them if ive suddenly gone off of my meds #but the other week i had one and i have to completely attribute it to stress because i cant think of any other reason #i also havent had my period in... almost a year #i saw a gyno about it and she gave me progesterone #if you take progesterone for a bit and then go off of it itll cause a period #and it did but i havent had one since #my ovaries and uterus are working fine so again. i have to attribute it to stress #im also exhausted but cant sleep #it's miserable #the other night i had a dream that ny staff kept coming into my room to ask me questions so i couldnt sleep #the stress is making its way into my dreams #seriously im unbelievably exhausted but whenever i lay down to try to sleep i just cant #i hsve many many reasons to be stressed and it just keeps going #the week that i had a seizure was what i call 'breakdown week' #every year theres a single week in which everyone. every staff in the area will have a breakdown #they cant spread the breakdowns over the course of the summer. no. everyone breaks during a singular week #of course i was concerned about my staff so i had a breakdown that week too but i hid it #i dont blame my staff for breakdown week btw. i know its difficult. i get it. its just not super easy when it all hsppens at the same time #and the general stress of breakdown week caused a seizure #but seriously my body is under so much stress rn i dont know how i havent had another seizure or completely collapsed and died #the transition from camp to home is always hard. im recovering from bronchitis. i have no money. bad depressive episode. #am dodging like 15 bills. havent spoken to another person in days. exhausted but cant fucking sleep!! thats taking a huge toll on me #this year's breakdowns were bigger than normal and i fear theyre gonna continue being a problem so im trying to keep an eye on those people #i worry about them. the people that were my staff are no longer my staff theyre just my friends and i worry about them. i love them so much #i am under so much stress and its taking such a toll on me and i dont know how to deal with it #gonna try to nap. tomorrow i have to go back to my real job and i wont last an eight hour shift on the amount of sleep ive been getting #god i think i might die