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#my irls aren't really into it so i have one (1) other internet friend i can talk to about it (ho sam ily)
stars4-max · 7 months
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Reasons why I think I'm certain character from twisted wonderland.... under the cut
tw — talks of starvation, isolation, death, abandonment, underlining stalking, horror, bullying... not talking of these by a lot but there are mentions so heres your warning
Idia, Malleus, Riddle, Rook, Azul
1. Idia Shroud
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❝ Hey. ...So, uh, can I go now? ❜❜
— Okay hear me out. Listen. If you knew me personally or even if you don't I think you'd realize just how often I don't leave my room or go outside even if i want to
— I'm relatively always on the internet reading, playing games, drawing, watching YouTube, yknow.
— I don't go to sleep at reasonable times even when I say goodnight and if it weren't for the fact I'm tired 24/7 with no real energy I would NOT be sleeping in for even an hour. ((which happens anyway sometimes))
— I dislike irl interactions (unless I trust u a bunch) and I honestly try to avoid it as much as I can.
— I'm only /open/ to close friends(who I will see as family), my partner, or my cousin and I'd let them enter my space with no consequences
— I forget when I should eat and just avoid it whenever I can/want to because of personal reasons.
— Sometimes I forget to care for my hygiene ((dw I shower everyday when I have the will to stand))
— I put myself down faster than you can blink or I keep calling people names ((none offensive, think like... idk, tree or smth.)) to hype myself up
— I really.. and I mean really.. have a lot of family oriented trauma and if I could I would genuinely make a robotic family of how my family was before to me.
— that's not it but it gets more personal as I go on so erm
— #1
2. Malleus Draconia
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❝ You aren't afraid of me. But I'm starting to become afraid...of losing you. ❜❜
— Now. Hear me out. #2
— For some reason, when I would ask my friends of what they first thought of me it was always "I was intimidated" or something of the sort and I would genuinely get so confused while looking like this.
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— I don't get invited much to anything or get asked if I wanna join something a lot but theres this one person who makes sure to ask me if I wanna play games or watch videos together a lot like Malleus and Yuu ((PLATONIC YUU FOR ME DAWG. I SEE HER AS MY MOTHER.))
— I get isolated a lot in my family and if I wanna be around people I gotta do it myself (which is hard) and sit there but still be overlooked
— I'm not as in touch with my emotions as I make myself out to be, I'm very much out of them and I'm only really acting as to how I think people would want me to
— I don't understand human customs hel. Like I genuinely get so confused and be in awe when I see things others see like everyday
— I have big issues with abandonment and death when it comes to close friends (I'm talking like 4 year friendship and stuff.) or family I've grown attached to (my cousin), I'd genuinely do anything if it meant they'd stay with me ((vague spoilers lol!?))
— I take what my friends say very seriously if they aren't indicating that they're joking no matter what I sound like. That being said I make jokes unintentionally sometimes when im not even meaning to be funny
3. Riddle Rosehearts
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❝ How was that? Do you understand the full extent of my capabilites now? ❜❜
— You don't have to hear me out on this one I'm a little shocked too.
— When I was younger I used to be wayyy too bossy and rude and if anyone even apposed me I would get angry and metaphorical go "off with your head"
— The only reason I woupd be so bossy and rude was because of my family and how they'd bend to my every will and encourage my behavior to others because i was a "golden child"
— especially my mom. She would see my bossy self and go "thats my mini me", looks and her personality
— As I grew older that bossy nature lessened of course but there are times i get angry when others dont have the same thought process like me and don't do something correctly in my eyes
— The only reason I don't let that bossy nature slip by is because of the fact I became my own ace and punched and told myself that I'm not the addition of my mother and I'm not the queen of the world
— of course I'll still follow rules but if they're like... unnecessary I'm not following them at all. Especially if its smth like "u MUST tie ur shoes five times" suck my D-'EYE'-C-K fr. 🐈
— I still have anger issues but I try and not let it slip past either. There was a time I got so angry that I was shaking and I had to be held back from attacking someone ((metaphorical "off with your head"))
4. Rook Hunt
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❝ Non... Speak not. At this point, I can hear your inner voice just by gazing into your eyes. ❜❜
— I'm not as shocked by this
— For the other three it's more personal but for rook its in all caps PERSONAL. I see beauty in literally all things even if it truly is the most ugliest thing in space
— I can watch people from afar without getting caught exactly but enough for someone to get restless if I want them to be
— There are times I find information of someone on accident and I will be going deep into it. Like deep into it and then I'll forget it because it's not anything needed at that moment
— People either feel safe talking to me or unsafe and I cannot explain why bc even I dont know.
— I would wear outdoor boots for/with everything if I could and ik it would make people scream in horror.
— talking about horror i would watch detailed horror movies just to say how beautiful it can be and the symbolisms.. etc.
— I can also read characters kinda well??!?! and write them sorta well???!?? idk how to explain it but give me enough time with watching a character and I'll tell you exactly why I think they act the way they do or think the way they do or feel the way they do or how they would react to xyz, etc.
— even when I or my friends dont like someone I don't just base my reaction on that ((like I'm not a fan of neige or vil but if you told me to choose between the two I could not. both of their characters are good and if you wish I can even try to explain how.))
— I had a phase where I would speak in one language for a while ((spanish)) but i forgot what I used to say however half the time it was always me sayinf "i love you" to others i loved
— I called someone my butterfly once i think???? Cant remember who
5. Azul Ashengrotto
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❝ What do you think? I have remarkable potential, don't I? ❜❜
— IF YOU KNEW ME IRL SINCE BASICALLY BIRTH YOU'D UNDERSTAND.
— I used to get bullied for a lot of things, my weight, my hair, my skin, my clothes, how i act, my glasses, my grades, how my moods would change drastically, my gender, etc
— So even when I was younger than I am now, I would see if others needed me to do something so I could gain favors or just get blackmail to raise over their heads for them to do smth for ME
— I was a people pleaser and a people eater no in-between.
— Unlike azul I didn't have a floyd or jade with me and it was just me myself and I
— LIKE azul I got a lot of people indebted to me lol.
— I would change myself and how I acted with people irl and on the internet to get literally every favor i could. I would know everything abt someone and they would feel like they HAD to help me with smth bc of that or bc i would show my more pathetic side
— I got so insecure of myself that I would try to take down any pictures i had of myself so that I could be "free" of the embarrassment.
— my family wouldn't help
— unlike azul I would do a lot of things to ensure i was skinny and cute and nice to others perspectives that I'd starve myself... so um.... yeahh.......
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bungouchronicles · 6 months
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are you a minor?
who are your bsd kinnies?
when did you get into tumblr?
what's your fave bsd take?
what's one bsd thing (character/opinion/etc) that u think should be talked about more?
fave animal?
how do u make friends (i need help 😭).
do u play an instrument
share thoughts/reviews abt bsd
jus answer the ones ur comfy answering 💖
Hiii!!
Woah this is my first ask, thank you <3 Let's see!
1. I'm not comfortable with sharing my age on the internet so I won't, sorry.
2. Atsushi is my highest kin but I also kin Ranpo and Dazai (don't ask how/j)
I also happen to get Nikolai on a lot of "what character are you?" quizzes and I always relate to him on those "analysing kinnies" things but I refuse to admit that to myself yet 😋
3. I don't remember tbh, I started out on another account but I'm too lazy to look up how old that account is. I think I first joined Tumblr like 2-3 years ago?
4. Ahh I don't know! I have a lot of takes but I can't seem to remember any of them right now haha. I'll get back to this someday.
5. Okay I'll have to make a seperate post about this someday but probably how soukoku is (or at least was) what the other one wished they could be. I love their parallels about how they view humanity which I think already is pretty talked about but yk, you can always talk more about it!
I also think we as a fandom should talk more about Yosano in general, she's very dear to me <3
Oh and Bram! I wanna know more about him and his daughter. He's so silly, how could we not talk about him??
Also I adore the religious symbolism in bsd, we should all talk more about that!
I also think we should talk more about Oda outside of of the impact he had on Dazai. I adore Oda and Dazais story but Oda is really cool regardless of that. I almost never see anyone mention his own story and his motives? He's so cool!!
6. Car :3
7. I just kinda say things and hope someone likes me and that has worked out so far.
No but like, when it comes to making friends irl the best advice I can give you is to surround yourself with like-minded people (like join a group with a shared interest or something) and don't be afraid to be bold. I can assure you, most people want friends and will only be relieved if you offer them your friendship yourself. I recently made a friend when we were having a conversation and she complained about how she didn't have many friends and I just said "hey, we can be friends!" And that was that. She happily agreed and we have been friends ever since. 😊 Obviously this just works if the people you talk too are good people but you shouldn't bother trying to make friends with people that aren't. Hope this helps <3
8. I sing and play some piano, music is my everything though so I'm hoping to both get better at piano and maybe pick up guitar again
9. I'm so normal about this show. Uhm...let's see:
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Thoroughly enjoyed. Very well written and has been able to keep me invested for far too long now. The fixation never goes away. Help me, Asagiri is keeping me hostage in this fandom!
This was fun, feel free to send my any other asks in the future <3
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mageofseven · 11 months
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Hello! I saw you opening match up requests soo here I am- Group choices :The Brothers
I'm a Taurus, but idk what that can be useful of
-Personally, I think I'm the kind that would only be interested towards special stuff/people, about the one I don't like,I don't actually care.(I will/try to remember every detail on the one that I'm interested.)I'm an extrovert(ESTP kind of extrovert)
-But if I'm outside, I still feel a bit shy
-My hobby/interest would actually be playing video games, but at the same time I like to write short stories. I'm extroverted in games and internet, but a bit shy sometimes irl. My friends say I'm a cheerful but chaotic person tho
For the games part, I like RPGs the most, that's also mostly my writing ideas are from!
-In my friend's opinion, I'm a therapist-like friend:D and the smart girl who always decides on whatever question they give me when they are confused.
-If about struggles/insecurity , the only thing I struggle abt is probably annoying people. I feel like I annoy people every time I talk to them and they don't seem happy. But I just wanna try cheer them up with hope that they won't feel even worse!
-Im a pansexual female(if that helps) and I swear, friends to lovers is smth I like a LOT.
Lastly, Hopefully I understood the guild lines right and doesn't get anything wrong! Have a good day/night/afternoon/time when u see this
An ESTP therapist friend? I did not expect that! I'm so used to therapist friends being ISFJs and INFPs, though in fairness, I can't say I've ever met an ESTP. Well, other than my late grandfather anyway.
Anyway!
From what I know about Tauruses (which my mom is one btw!), you like the best things in life and treasure home comforts. You are down-to-earth and loyal, but also very stubborn. (Also, side note! Your astrological skepticism is adorably ESTP and I love that for you 🥰)
Being an ESTP means your function stack is SeTiFeNi or simply SeTi. This means your primary function is Extraverted Sensing and is your main method of collecting information in you life. In it's simplest form, this just means you have to experience something to fully understand it. You understand better when you can touch it, see it, hear it, use all your senses on it. Hypotheticals simply aren't enough for you to grasp concepts and truly feel connected to them.
Next, you use Introverted Thinking. It's your auxiliary (or secondary) function that mostly operates in the background and supports your primary function Se. It's your logical frame work and reference material, which is used as a tool to solve problems you discover with your Se.
All of this paired with the rest of your info really brings one Brother to mind.
I pair you with...
Mammon
Friends to lovers??? Say no more! Here's your ride or die bestie! Because let's face it, this man will be far too anxious to ask you out anytime soon, but he will have your back no matter what.
Mammon too is a shy extraverted. At least, he's shy to those who are new and matter to him, even if he tries to pretend otherwise. I can see him being afraid to annoy those who fall under this category too so he'd definitely empathize with you on this and go out of his way to make sure you know he could never be annoyed by you so don't worry about it! (I'd take this as a fun challenge, but that's just me hehe~). He'd really try to be comforting to you about your insecurities because, in truth, he has a lot of them himself, even if he pretends otherwise. In general, this man does a lot of pretending 😅
Mammon likes video games too so I can see him chilling and watching you play your RPGs and anytime you get stuck on a particular part, he'd gloat and say he could do it so easily. Then he'd actually try and 9/10 times fail worse than you did and the 1/10 get lucky and brag like "See? I told you The Great Mammon gots this!".
He'd ask to read your writings as well as a way of trying to support this hobby of yours, but not really make it that far into whatever story you hand him (I have a headcanon that Mammon struggles with dyslexia) so instead he'd ask you to just tell him about it yourself or better yet, read it to him.
Overall, I think Mammon would be a fun boyfriend who would go out of his way to understand you and support your interests. It might take a while for him to ask you out (if you yourself don't do it first at least), but once you are together, you'll never doubt his love and support of you 🥰
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system-of-a-feather · 2 years
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hey are you japanese? bc riku is a japanese name im p sure, and thats a closed culture. /info/nm
sorry if im misunderstanding!/gen
I was considering not responding to this solely on the base that it's a complex practical-focused discussion we've had in our system over it in balancing out a number of factors that would tie into our nuanced views regarding the internet and closed culture names (we are half Chinese/Indonesian with our own Chinese name) and I wasn't sure if I really wanted to put that effort / risk bringing up discourse that I know a lot of white people would jump in on.
So with that being said, if you are not of a closed culture, don't even bother commenting on this post or sending an anon, your opinion means nothing and I'm really tired of seeing white people join this discussion and/or talking over those that aren't. That said, if you are Japanese or of another closed culture, feel free to communicate in good faith about this. It's a topic we have thought on a lot and our principles for this nuanced situation is principles we'd put out to others (including white people), but we are one opinion and one person and I'd be interested in hearing others perspectives.
But anyways, to the proper answer.
No, we are not Japanese but beyond online spaces, we don't use the name "Riku" on the account that we 1) have our own Chinese name 2) It's cringe for me - someone not Japanese - to expect someone to call me a Japanese name, super weeby, super disrespectful 3) why? its not mine and its weird. We don't introduce ourselves with it and entirely transitioned in practically all settings to our irl Chinese name (its also a chosen name since #Trans and fuck hyper female names)
With that being said, the name "Riku" comes from it being my old username on an anonymous website similar to this and has largely since been more of a placeholder username for anonymity purposes than it is a proper name. I've largely wanted to switch away from it in online spaces because I do feel a bit uncomfortable having people refer to me as such, but at the same time, the alternative is going by the name I go by IRL which is a security / safety hazard since I am the part that shares the name with the body.
With the balance of anonymity and this overall issue, considering we only use it in anonymous spaces and treat it like a username or a tumblr url - that much like any other website here its implied that you are referencing the character in context of "this is a username" and all, I don't see the massive harm. Is it unideal and still a part of the problem to some degree? Yeah. But at what point is someone on a website using IchigoKurosaki41 and this a drawn line?
Either way, I am of the (soft, ie open to changing my mind) opinion that so as long as it isn't being used irl and in face to face environments and once friends go from "anonymous to non-anonymous" that the name is shifted over and thus treated and handled like a username (something that protects anonymity), that it is fine.
The other statement of the matter would be that I could just come up with a different online name / username which would be a fair commentary, but considering its a name I only use online, we've come to the general opinion that it's more hassle than its worth since we don't really much see the damage as anything more than talking about a username with a character name in it, or talking about an OC with a name from a closed culture and find it hard to be motivated to find a fitting alternative online-only name short hand.
And I guess in a TLDR clear statement of my current standing soft opinion on the matter, I don't personally think it is a huge issue for online anonymity protecting names that are used and handled like online usernames to be based on a character or whatever is naturally developed from username. The large issue in closed names, in my opinion, comes when the person has people they know in person, in face to face, and irl use it as a >name< because in that case it comes with large disrespect and insult.
We largely have soft opinions on the matter cause we very much do understand and do not like people stepping on the toes of closed culture names, and we just come to this opinion based on how we would feel if a white person were in the same situation and only went by the name Xiao, Yuan, or Ji or similar chinese names. If people of closed cultures have opinions and thoughts on the matter, I'd be open to hearing and holding discussion if it good faith.
In the end though, if this topic / discussion becomes too negative / of bad faith / into a "debate" or just generally taxing on our peace, we'd probably just stop discussing it since we use this blog as a hobby chatting area and don't see the topic important enough to stress about it all day.
So anyways, feel free to join the conversation on this nuance if you are 1) of a closed culture 2) want to DISCUSS and not DEBATE or DISCOURSE.
-Riku (Host)
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aloftmelevar · 1 year
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Autism ask game- 1, 7, 10, 16, 18, 44, 45, 49
hey, thanks for sending these!!
1 - how old were you when you found out you were autistic?
technically, 5. i was officially diagnosed with sensory processing disorder when i was 5 - which was still called sensory integration disorder at the time. but as i got older, much more symptoms started showing up outside of sensory stuff, such as stimming, hyperfixations, photographic memory, and food aversions. i started suspecting i was autistic when i was 15-16, but my parents dismissed it because i didn't "look" autistic. by the time i was 18 or 19 i was watching and reading a lot of things online about autism and i had never felt more seen. my parents have learned a lot more since then and now accept me as autistic.
7 - do you find it hard to make friends?
oh DEFINITELY. i have people that i talk to at college but i am awful at starting conversations or maintaining friendships. as far as friends i regularly hang out with go, i've had the same 2 friends since the mid-2010s.
10 - what are your most common stims?
at the moment i'm fidgeting with half of a pop-it ball - one that was badly glued together in manufacturing and was ripped apart by me fidgeting with it so much. there are holes in the two halves as well because of how much i poke them in and out. so that's a common stim for me. i also have a regular pop-it that's not a ball, a metal slinky and aaron's thinking putty. i rarely sit at my desk without fidgeting with something.
i also hum a lot and rock around in my seat.
16 - do you have any autistic friends?
i have neurodivergent IRL friends, but they aren't autistic. i do have autistic internet friends though! if y'all are reading this i love y'all <3
18 - do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?
yes, 100%. i can talk about the stuff i go through and the things i feel and they understand most of the time.
44 - who are your favorite autistic bloggers? say something nice about them.
i recently found autismisaokay and they reblog really relatable stuff about autism! i also love cypopps and autiebiographical, who post comics about being autistic.
45 - favorite autistic celebrity?
tbh, i don't think i know any autistic celebrities
49 - what's something you find hard to do because of autism?
there are lots of things. small talk, walking from class to class if i'm overstimulated, going to the mall, trying new foods, making new friends, etc.
ask game
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woulddieforloki · 3 years
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My dad is having me wait until he gets home to watch the Loki series, so be prepared tomorrow for me to spam you with all of my thoughts.
YESSSS PLEASE DO I AM OBSESSED AND I AM VERY EXCITED TO SCREAM ABOUT IT WITH YOU
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I don't know anyone irl that I can talk to about my writing. nobody to cheer me on or get excited about my stories and characters the way I have done about my friends writing in the past (we no longer keep in touch or they don't write anymore). it's really hard to keep going because if I talk about my writing I just get ignored. sometimes I feel like I'm immature and everyone has gone on to be serious adults
Hi lovely anon! I'm so sorry to hear you're in a rough patch right now. But there are SO MANY communities online that you can be a part of where you can talk about your writing all you want with other writers! ♥
So, there are a couple things that stood out in your message that I'd like to address if you don't mind :)
1. Writing is not immature.
Storytelling has always been, and always will be, an active part of humanity. From the earliest cave paintings discovered, people have told stories to make sense of the world, to share their history/culture/religion, to record their lives, or for escapism.
Look at every movie and tv show you've watched, every book you've read. Who do you think writes those stories?
Adults.
Do you think they're immature? Do you think they're childish for telling their stories? Getting published? Getting Netflix deals and creating blockbuster movies?
I don't know about you but I certainly don't think they're immature!
This kind of thinking is a script you've been fed. Don't keep jamming it down your own throat.
If you want to write, keep writing. If someone considers you immature because of it, OH WELL. You're too busy writing to care.
It takes actively pushing back against these thoughts to overcome them. And every writer has something like this that they wrestle with.
This list of 50 published authors who were rejected and/or told point blank to not write is just the tip of the iceberg.
No matter what you do with your life, there will ALWAYS be someone putting you down because of it. If you enjoy writing, DO IT.
And stop repeating the negative things that people have told you. Remind yourself why you enjoy writing. Remind yourself of the positive things people have told you about your writing. Actively create an environment of positivity for yourself!
2. Lack of support won't stop you
I know this is hard. Really, really hard. But nothing - and I mean NOTHING - in this life is easy. If you want to write, you'll damn well do it whether you have a support group or not. Because it burns in your blood. It makes you restless if you don't write.
At some point, there may come a time when you are the only person who believes in your story. Because you told it. Because it's your creative vision. Because it's your voice.
And it's important to learn how to keep going, even when it's just you.
I read recently (I wish I had bookmarked the article because I can't find it now, darn it!) where author Dean Koontz had an agent that told him he shouldn't aspire to be a best-selling author. His books weren't that good.
His AGENT told him that! The person who was supposed to support and represent his works!!
He left that agent, got another agent, and became a best-selling author.
At some point, you have to grab your writing by the horns and growl at anyone who says, "You can't" because YOU CAN and YOU WILL.
3. Go where you thrive.
If you don't have friends IRL or family who listen to your writing, that's not your audience. Plain and simple.
It's not easy to come to terms with, but sometimes friends and family are NOT the ones who will be supportive. They may even be a stumbling block for some of us.
If your friends and family aren't getting your writing, go to the people who DO get your writing.
Check out the writing community here on tumblr.
Check out writing discords.
Check out a local writing group.
Check out writing groups on Facebook.
The internet offers the ENTIRE WORLD of resources at your fingertips. With a little elbow grease and determination, you can carve out a place in this world that fits for you.
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I hope some of this helps, lovely! Keep on truckin' and don't give up! ♥
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genshinconfessions · 3 years
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Hello! I'm actually not part of the Genshin Impact fandom yet since I don't have the game, but I'm getting a new phone soon and I really want to start playing. I was wondering if anyone had any advice for newbies? Mods or just anyone. Thanks in advance!
that's awesome! here's some advice from us, but feel free to reblog/reply/etc with your own advice to help OP!
- don't stress about the game mechanics if you're not a big gamer, you'll pick it up once you start playing more
- you don't need to wish at all if you don't want to since the starter team/free characters are all that's needed to complete the game! there are plenty of youtubers out there who only use the starter team (see: bwaap) and they're totally fine :)
- use all your resin, even when you're at a low world level. fight some world bosses (regisvines, cubes, etc) or do the ley line flowers (the big blue/yellow spheres). if you've unlocked weapon/talent material domains, you can do those too. you'll thank yourself later, trust us.
- that being said, don't grind artifact domains until you're ar45!!! it's not that you can't, and if you super need artifacts, you can do a few runs, but don't waste your fragile resin on them. the reason is because you really want to get the five-star artifacts when you run domains, but they don't drop until ar45, so just save your fragile resin
- if you're a student, make sure to organize your time wisely. we're all students too, so we understand your pain, but schoolwork will always come first!!!
- if you're struggling, you should try to find a few people or a community that will consistently help you and give you advice. you might want to ask your irl/online friends, or maybe even join some discord servers (p.s. the genshin wiki server is pretty nice)
- as we've said above, if you're struggling to manage your time, you can consider only focusing on the 'important' things in genshin, like archon quests and weekly bosses, and spend less time on the things that aren't as important to you, like maybe housing or exploring.
- do your ascension quests asap!!!!!!! 1. higher world levels give you better drops and 2. if you procrastinate for too long and gather too much exp, you might end up going up TWO world levels, and you might not be ready for that.
- all of us admins waited until we were at least ar20 to fight stormterror (you need to be at least ar18) because we weren't ready immediately. you can also wait like we did, but we don't suggest waiting for too long. try to do it before you reach ar25.
- you might see other people saying things like 'oh i have 100% exploration in mondstadt!' or 'i finished all my liyue quests!' and meanwhile you’re at 60% exploration or something. don't worry about that!! play at your own pace!
- along the same line, if you watch youtubers or your friends play and they have really high damage (five or six digit numbers) and you’re barely hitting anything, don’t feel bad at all! people who pay to play have a vast advantage over free players in terms of damage, but the most important thing is to just enjoy playing the game! (if you’re having trouble with building characters, though, there are many guides out on the internet that you can try out!)
- if you don't have any friends who play genshin and just really need someone to help you (or want friends in general), feel free to DM us your UID and one of our admins will add you as a friend.
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we hoped this helped, and we encourage everyone to reblog/reply/etc with your own advice!
- karfield
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syubub · 3 years
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BTS SOULMATES WORST HABIT/ QUALITY
Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes and only my interpretation of the cards. Do not take it as fact~
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Anon, I love this very much!! Thank you for requesting it!
Seokjin
I got: 7 of wands rev., Take a fucking trip ( Go see some shit. Do some new things. Talk to people cooler than you.), Stop obsessing ( You are not the centre of the fucking universe)
So. This person tends to get overwhelmed easily and can be a bit of a workaholic at times.
This is someone who gets so so so focused their failures and faults and stuff that they kinda become blinded by that
I pulled a clarity and got 9 of swords.
This really is someone who spirals in anxiety when things aren't going well and likely snaps at the people around them.
Its absolutely unintended but when they get overwhelmed they kinda detatch from the world and they can only see as far as their nose.
Likely gets so in their head that they forget things about other people and it can come off as being very self-centered, cold, bitchy ect.
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Yoongi
Lol
A lot of cards came out.
We have: 2 of cups, Drop the fucking ego. (Vulnerability is hot as fuck.), Ask a fucking expert. (Don't rely on your friends or the Internet. Listen to a damn professional.), Stop fucking whining. (No one wants to listen to that shit. Complaining makes you weak. You have the strength to change your world-so do it.), You need a good fucking cry. (Get the ugly cry on. Let that shit go. Your soul will thank you.)
They tend to romanticize life to the point that they think that something will come and change their life for them
But that isn't how shit works
They have mad issues with getting vulnerable and admitting that they are struggling or that they aren't happy where they are.
Emotionally constipated lol
Definitely has a hard time letting other people in bc of trust issues
They don't really outwardly emote often so it all builds up.
They think that independence means you can't look for guidance and thats bad
Very much ignoring the work they have to do to get to where they want to be but still pretending like they are getting closer to it
Ugh
They have a lot of shit to work out in the emotions department
They also seem to just have a general lack of grounding.
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Hoseok
Oki
I got: 10 of swords rev., the tower, Stop talking. (Shut your mouth and listen.) Winning. (You got a good thing going. Don't ruin that shit.)
This is someone who can't keep their foot out their fucking mouth.
Dear god.
Its all good intentions but they say way more than they need too and it can ruin things for them.
They also can be too open.
They also resist change too much.
They fear self change.
They couldn't give a shit about external change but breaking old habits and old patterns is something they just don't like to do
So as a result they don't ever challenge their views internally.
This can leave them with a shaky foundation (putting off that tower moment) of old views and outdated information.
This can make them pretty damn judgmental at times.
They just need to let the tower moment happen and reasses all of their beliefs to figure out what they truly stand for and who they are, not just what has been forced in them (societal, parental. Even friends)
Also likely gullible
EMBRACE INNER CHANGE
Jesus, you're gonna give me a fuckin migraine
Its frustrating because THEY KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO BUT THEY JUST DON'T WANT TO
I feel bad for your guides, hobi's soulmate.
JUST DO IT
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Namjoon
...
I got: Hanged man rev., 2 of swords, What the hell are you waiting for? Get that shit done. (If you were waiting for a sign-well, here it ucking is.), Don't believe every shitty thought you have. (Thoughts can be lying, sneaky bastards)
This is a procrastinator.
They tend to avoid things when they are faced with things that are unpleasant or even really good.
They are frustratingly doing nothing.
Big big big avoider.
STOP DOING THAT
Doesn't really want to do better.
They are content where they are for the simple reason that they don't want to experience discomfort by actively going after what they truly want in life
THIS DOESNT HELP ANYONE
They are also VERY passive when they are procrastinating
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Jimin
Bring it.
We have: The magician, You are loved. (You are here for a reason. Don't fuck it up.), Have you eaten? (Your acting like a big ass baby. You need food in your belly. Either fucking taco.)
Well okay then.
I think this ties into jimins soulmate reading so I won't go too indepth about that part. You can read his soulmate reading here (x)
BUT
The thing that makes this their worst quality/ worst habit is because they have every tool and all of the want to help their situation but just don't?
And specifically another thing is that no matter how much someone tells this person that they love them, that they are important and that they matter, this person DOESN'T BELIEVE IT. The actively try to convince themselves otherwise.
Actively
On purpose
Because they don't know what else is a personality trait.
Again go read jimins soulmate read.
It's not that anyone blames them for this or anything but they actively reject help at times and get pissy about their situation.
You know what you need to do to fix your shit. Do it. Don't use it as your fucking personality.
You are more than that.
Dear god.
Theres a lot to say here.
Whatever situation it is, they are so stubborn and determined to do shit on their own and they have every resource but they are scared to lose a defining trait.
Ugh
I have a lot I want to say about this but I'll leave it here.
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Taehyung
Oki oki
10 of wands, 2 of cups, you're giving too many fucks. (Give zero) and figure shit out on your own.
So this is someone how tends to overwork themselves.
They don't really know when to quit? They seem to be very determined but to their own detriment at times.
They also tend to carry the burden in any social relationship. People tend to use them?
They go along with it because they have a lot to offer and a lot to give and don't always have the boundaries to keep people from taking advantage of them.
They honestly just give too many fucks.
They value human connection so much that they will let themselves be a fucking doormat.
They feel very isolated even though they aren't (when I do the second soulmate read I think I'll have some more about this then)
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Jungkook
Oki
We have: the tower, 7 of swords, eat your fucking vegetables. (Eat some shit made by mother nature), dont talk to anyone. Don't look at anyone. (You need some fucking time alone. And you know why)
First thing. I heard, "The diet of a child" and then "gamer girl" umm.
I have 2 things.
1. They take bad care of themselves when they go through a rough patch and the trend sneak away from everything (probably lie to get out of whatever obligations or do some sneaky shit) and eat fucking lunchables and kids cuisine microwave dinners with energy drinks exclusively
2. They tend to be ridiculously picky irl. Or just can't cook for shit so they only eat coffee pot Ramen.
Pull yourself together.
Their worst habit is withdrawing from everything when things get rough.
They don't take care of themselves and they drink Monster energy drinks like a scene kid from 2010.
That's gross.
Pls stop
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4, 13, 18, 24, 27 "S", 29, 37, 39, 44 for the book asks? :)
4. Is there a book that you think needs a bigger fandom??
All of my favourites XD Ok, tbf at least the ones where I got attached to the characters have small fandoms (Realm of the Elderlings, First Law, Poppy War, The Goblin Emperor, Howl's Moving Castle) contrary to books I love and have close to no content like "The Seventh Bride" by T. Kingfisher. I wish there was fanart for it, but I also wouldn't get deep into fandom talk about that book. I guess I would like Octavia E. Butler's books to have bigger fandoms, especially the Xenogenesis trilogy and Earthseed duology. I would just love to see fanart for it and memes and theory and analysis posts for those books. I understand that the books I love aren't the kind of books that call for a big fandom of artists or people that are into fandom to begin with though. A lot of people read them, but don't create anything for it or discuss it without tiring :(
13. How many books have you read this year??
Counting some manga and graphic novels, I've read 91 books so far :D
18. Do you know anyone else that likes books??
Yes. None of my irl friends love books as much I do, but two of them read around 6 books a year at least. My online friends are bigger readers and I love that I found people with similar interests through tumblr <3
24. Have you read a book that was really hyped up but you didn’t enjoy??
Ah, "The Name of the Wind" question ahah Quite a few actually. I will just leave a list with links for the reviews if I said something about it. This is according to the hype I saw online because I saw none irl for most of these. Portuguese people don't care XD
The Gunslinger (Dark Tower #1) by Stephen King (the author himself is overhyped. I had an english professor that knew it too); "The Old Man and the Sea" by Ernest Hemingway; "The Sorrows of Young Werther" by Goethe; "The Last Wish" by Andrzej Sapkowski; "The Name of the Wind" by Patrick Rothfuss; "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown; "Prince of Thorns" by Mark Lawrence; "All Systems Red" by Martha Wells; "Red, White & Royal Blue" by Casey McQuinston (sorry); "Daisy Jones & The Six" by Taylor Jenkins Reid; "Uprooted" by Naomi Novik; "Every Heart a Doorway" by Seanan Mcguire;
The so bad I gave up (joke): "The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories" by Angela Carter; "The Eye of the World" by Robert Jordan; "The Cruel Prince" by Holly Black; "Gideon the Ninth" by Tamsyn Muir; "Circe" by Madeline Miller; "Sorcery of Thorns" by Margaret Rogerson; "The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet" by Becky Chambers.
Sorry for the long list. You can see why I am tired of being fooled XD
27. Name a book that you own starting with (S). Have you read it?? Did you like it?? If you haven’t read it, are you looking forwards to it.
“Strange the Dreamer” by Laini Taylor. I haven’t read it yet and once again this is a book that was super popular on the internet so I am afraid. I’ve heard about the insta love which also doesn’t motivate me, but I the writing style seems beautiful and the main character seems to be one I would like. I am hoping to like it, but I am keeping my expectations low.
29. Have you ever bought a book because the cover was so nice??
Guilty as charged. I bought “The Jungle Book” and I am keeping it because of the cover, but I didn’t like it ;-; I mean, look at this:
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I hate artists...
37. Is there a book that you think everyone should read??
No. Everyone has different tastes and just like I believe that there is a book for everyone I also believe that there is no book that will please everyone. Now, a book that someone should read in order to be more open minded and empathethic might exist but I haven’t read it so I can’t recommend it. I also think that for personal improvement is better to talk to as many people as we can that have different experiences. It’s always better to learn from others than read it in a book and a lot more informative and fun too.
39. What book that has made you cry??
Most of the Realm of the Elderlings books by Robin Hobb, especially “Fool’s Fate”. Never before I cried that hard because of fiction and I am sort of a crier (or used to be before this book broke me). There are more books that made me cry, but besides that only “The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo” by Taylor Jenkins Reid comes to mind and I didn’t cry that much.
44. Favourite book quote, go.
I don’t have only one, but I will insert a few here:
Robin Hobb (there are so many but I’ll stick to 2 short ones):
“You seek a false comfort when you demand that I define myself for you with words. Words do not contain or define any person. An heart can, if it is willing” - Golden Fool
“I never confuse the cost of something with it’s value.” - The Mad Ship
Patricia A. McKillip (there are so many but I’ll stick to 2 short ones):
“When you open your mind and hands and heart to the knowing of a thing, there is no room in you for fear” - The Riddle-Master of Hed
“Soon is such a long word.” - The Forgotten Beasts of Eld
“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.” - “The Women of Brewster Place” by Gloria Naylor
“War doesn’t determine who’s right. War determines who remains.” - “The Poppy War”, R.F. Kuang
"Do you know what’s worse than a villain? A villain who thinks he’s a hero. A man like that, there’s nothing he won’t do, and he’ll always find himself an excuse." - “Last Argument of Kings”, Joe Abercrombie
“I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.” - “The Song of Achilles”, Madeline Miller
"If a man has to say trust me, Gogu conveyed, it’s a sure sign you cannot. Trust him, that is. Trust is a thing you know without words." - “Wildwood Dancing”, Juliet Marillier
I am sure that there are many more from other books and that I forgot because I am bad at writing them down. I hope to get better at it.
Thank you for the questions!
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sorry but im confused, u let transphobes follow this blog?
Lol. This is really confusing people huh? It's not my job to confront every single one of the people who follow or interact with my blog. It's not worth the mental stress/drain nor the physical panic I'd get to confront literal strangers over the internet. I am trans myself and I make a point of talking about trans issues, and stating clearly that I don't support transphobia. If someone chooses to follow my blog then I won't stop them-- regardless of any harmful views they have. I only block when people start sending/spreading hate on my blog.
This is because 1. I get a lot of notes and it's hard to go through every single one of my followers. It's not like Tumblr stops anyone from following me. And 2. So long as they aren't sending hate there is a chance something I post might get them thinking and help change they're views. I always give people the benifit of the doubt especially online where it's easy to misunderstand tone and wordings. If they want to read my shit then so be it. Why the hell should I stop them? Unless they are sending hate or threats then why not give them a chance to be exposed to other viewpoints that could help get them thinking?
And finally most importantly 3. It's literally fucking tumblr. I am not friends with my followers. I don't know them. And I got a whole ass life to worry about rather than worrying about who is following me. Believe it or not, but it's not that important to go through and sort every single one of your followers. If you want to than power to you. But most people don't and thats perfectly valid. My blog is literally just a blog. It's not that deep. I'd much rather address transphobia with someone I know irl because I actually know what kinda conversation would work to help change their mind than a stranger online who would just be angry and defensive.
SUMMARY: it's not my job to police who follows me nor do I have the energy to sort through every single one of them to see. I'm not comfortable going out of my way to confront strangers over the internet. And if being exposed to my posts might help change their views then I won't stop them from following me. I only block when they start spreading hate or threats on my blog or they go out of their way to harass others.
Hope that clears things up for you. Thanks for asking for clarification rather than assuming.
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Zp Headcanon: Who the hell is Elijah?
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Hello Internet! Welcome to GAAAAAAAY THEORY- ok, that's enough of referencing MatPat for this week.
Anyway, guess who's doing something that they haven't done for a year? ( yeah, it's been that long, binch)
@obsessedpikachu suggested that I do a Headcanon, so if you love this post, blame me for it, and if you hate it, blame her for it. (Jk, buddy. Love you 😄)
Something that I've secretly been keeping in my back pocket for a while is the question of who Elijah is. By that, I mean what purpose does he serve? Why is he here? What's his game plan, what's the deal?
First, let's go over what we know. Originally, Eli was green, emo, and was called Eiglet. He was initially created by Dollcreep, and later adopted by Vivz. If you would like to see some of Vivz's artwork of Eiglet and even his early character sheet, I would recommend going to ZikkaFriday's account as that's where I found a lot of that stuff. Personality wise, Eiglet appeared to be something of a goofball not unlike another character, Damian. The two were close friends, and they would basically act like idiots together.
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Elijah seems to be at least similar in personality. He's a tall, friendly goof who works at a diner (supposedly as a waiter I believe), draws cartoons and does silly stuff online and irl. One obvious difference is the albino thing. I'm not quite sure how that's going to factor into the story. I also believe that his relationship with Damian may be different. See, his character sheet states that he's shy around crushes and in her post summarizing ch.5 of Zoophobia, Vivz mentioned that he had some "relationship/attraction " to Damian.
Oh yeah, did I mention that him and Dame as a couple is a thing?
See, this is where I started to become intrigued. Damian, as we know, is an important character, or at least on the same or similar level of importance as Jack or Zill. Pairing him with some random hipster snake seems... honestly kind of random. Like "idk, I guess he needs a love interest, here have a pinky boi".
But why though? As some people who, like me, have obsessively combed through all of Vivz's stuff at least once, would know; there are other characters Dame could be paired with. Like, say, Ink, or Christopher. Both are characters Vivz had considered potential partners for our favorite hell spawn. And they aren't the only ones. Addi, Sahara, even Rusty have been considered.
So why would this guy be chosen?
Look, I'm not saying that Eli is a bad character, but surely if he's getting paired up with someone who's a part of the main cast, surely he must have something to bring to the table. But looking at what is known about Dame, it's hard to say for sure what Eli has to do with any of it. Like, how is Eli really going to contribute anything here?
So how about we talk about that Adina image, eh?
Ok, so Vivz called this particular piece "spoilery ", so we know that it's portraying something that happens in ZP. It shows Eiglet being held captive by Adina. For anyone who doesn't know who this bitch is, her character info can be found on ZikaFriday's account in a reblog. Tldr, she's an evil angel who wants to punish sinners real bad and is set on killing Damian because anti christ.
What can we gain from this? Assuming that this idea is still canon, I've come up with two possibilities.
1. Eli is going to turn out to be a macguffin in order to make Damian sad.
Ok, I personally find this possibility boring. Like, there's not much you can really do with this idea. You take someone who matters a lot one character, and put them in danger in order to make them sad. To be fair, however, this could work if the stakes were put in place and were high enough.
But instead of stretching this post out anymore, let's talk about what is basically the meat of this Headcanon. The real treat, if you will.
2. Eli is/will be working for Adina
Ok, let me explain. I don't think Eli would really be on board with Adina's plans of "let's kill dem sinners", or with killing anyone. I still think that he would decide to work for Adina under certain circumstances. For instance, perhaps he could be working for her out of fear, or Adina could have taken advantage of Eli's kind nature and sold him on the idea by convincing him that "he'd be making the world better for everyone"
Why would Adina want him to work for her? Well, Eli seems to be a really swell guy, doesn't he? He might seem appealing to Adina as someone with a "pure soul ". Or she could have recruited him after he met Damian because of their relationship.
What would happen because of this? Again, I doubt Eli would be entirely on board for killing anyone. Especially someone close to him. This could actually give a little more purpose and consequence to Damian having a "dark side " as Adina could use it as evidence that Damian is the embodiment of sin. Of course, Eli would probably still want to see the good in Dame no matter what, but the whole dark side thing would at least give the some pause.
It would also be one heck of a plot twist, admittedly. Out of all the characters in ZP, Dame's life is in danger from a pink hipster snake who he occasionally uses as a chair.
I personally think it'd be a fun idea, but what do you guys think? Let me know, and please tell me if you'd like more Headcanons in the near future.
I apologize for wasting your time
- ATOUN
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I hate SAO so much that I avoid the fandom but I saw your post and we to read your fic and loved it (obviously, because you wrote it and I love your writing). I was wondering why Kirito isn’t recognized once the picture spreads? The long hair and stuff I know, but from experience people on the internet can get really investigative an I wouldn’t put it past someone to go “hey this person looks familiar” and figure it out—idk just thoughts 1/-
2/- SAO talk: I know players being motivated by greed is a very big thing, but also some people get really into being the best person they can and the quest being presented as “my fiancé ran away” seems suspicious? Maybe that’s just me, if I were playing—wondering if there are people who think so too and if there’s a group who would be motivated to find Tatiana and /help/ her instead of returning her?
3/- SAO moar (srry): Going off of the idea of Tatiana escaping (“leaving the safety”) being suspicious, when Kirito learns fo this would he try to use this to his advantage and offer a “secret” quest where you instead help him and take down Oberon? Or would he be up front with sympathetic players and try to convince them that he’s not an NPC but a trapped SAO player?
4/- SAO: Alternative question—has Sugou outright blackmailed Asuna to marry him, threatening Kazuto? Or did he and I’m just dumb? Or does he find this way just altogether more appealing (creep)? Other question—is there not a “look up player/add friends” function? I don’t expect this to work for Kazuto but I was just wondering so that other SAO players could connect and team up.
5/5 SAO bugging: those were most of my comments and questions but I wanted to finish it off by saying that I love the fic. I really enjoy your writing and can’t wait to see what else you do
Okay I'm gonna do a list cause there's a LOT
1) kazuto is indeed recognized! It's a big point in the final chapter--he can't go anywhere without being recognized and attacked. And, well...in canon nobody recognized Asuna once her photo got out. And in this, the only picture every single ALO player has seen is the one where they don't see his face. So Kazuto is being recognized, and quite frequently. But IRL, Asuna and Agil have already contacted other SAO survivors and they're trying to figure out what's happening and how he's in another game--and if that means other SAO players are trapped in the game as well. Where I'm at right now he's trying to find someone to talk to, in an attempt to get them to tell the police what's happening. Unfortunately everyone he's run into wants him for the quest. But yes!!! There are people who aren't comfortable with the "my fiancée ran away" story because it has a lot of red flags. Like. A lot. Kazuto just... hasn't met them yet, because overwhelmingly the population don't think that way.
2) the quest thing is...actually a pretty good idea and I'll likely use that at some point! :D
3) sugou is trying to threaten Asuna with Kazuto, yes. I haven't written it, but he is holding the fact that he's the one paying for the advanced treatment over her head, and that once the government stops paying for his treatment, if she doesn't agree to marry him, he will stop paying. She's between a rock and a hard place and she's really trying to not think about it??? He's also going through the "official channels" like her parents, but as the second chapter said Asuna has run away. They're still her legal guardians but she has ran away and they don't have easy access to her. Sugou knows that Asuna is strong willed, and although he would like to use her despair over Kazuto disappearing, he knows that instead of making her brittle and break, it would only make her stronger. So: blackmail/threatening it is
4) yes there IS a friend system! Kazuto doesn't have access to it, and his system ID was removed from every friendlist, but there IS a friend system. But...the SAO players in the game, as far as I know, are unaware they're in a game. And the IRL SAO survivors can't bring themselves to actually put on the Nervegear. You have to remember that they were in SAO for two years and are traumatized. Asuna, and in canon Kazuto, couldn't touch their Nervegears, and only did so when they felt they had no choice.
5) gisjfkkask I'm happy you like my writing so much!!!! I'm very excited to write the final chapter of this fic, Kazuto was just...being very, very annoying, and stubborn, and not cooperating with me. But this did help me, so thank you for all the asks!!!
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