#my grandparents are dead and werent exactly stellar when they were alive

[i-clash-with-everything]

I am so goddamn lucky to have the parents that I have. They always try so hard to be kind and supportive to my brother and I. There've been lots of rough spots, they're far from perfect and they've fucked up a lot but they both work so hard to ensure my brother and I feel loved. I look at the parents my cousins have, that so many of my friends have, and I feel so thankful for my own mom and dad for trying not to pass along the traumas they were given by my grandparents.

Yes I have my own traumas and yes it took a long time to not just come to terms with them but to be able to talk about them, but I've been able to talk about them with my parents who inadvertently caused them. And they've apologized and have worked so hard to do better and make up for what they did wrong in the past to my brother, to me, to each other.

I'm so goddamn glad to have my family because despite our issues we still make sure to let each other know that we love each other and we're all trying to be better than we were.

#i dont really talk about this a lot #aside from the comparison between my parents and my aunts and uncles #but i fucking love my family #and weve all gotten a lot more open with each other over the last couple years #about how we feel about all sorts of stuff #and i just wish more people had better relationships with their parents or siblings #because its so nice #my younger brother has been like my best friend for forever #and my mom and dad are both so complrtely dear to me #and im so lucky to have a supportive immediate family that always tries so hard to be good and kind to each other #we dont really have a lot of family aside from each other thatre even tolerable anymore #my aunts and uncles are all pretty awful #my grandparents are dead and werent exactly stellar when they were alive #most of my cousins take after their parents in the terrible people department #i have like one great aunt one first cousin one third cousin and her daughter my fourth cousin #whom all i like #but i dont see them often #the bad ones all live round here