#my grandma and sister get mad at me for it

[slashingdisneypasta]

Sometimes I feel bad about the way I speak about my mother- then she makes me feel like this and I don't feel so bad anymore.

#🙄🙄🙄 GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAH! #christ alive. #and i know exactly why she's making me feel dumb and horrible today- she's jealous i went out with her mum and her sisters #(MY grandma. MY aunts) yesterday and had actually had a great time. #i came home more relaxed and happy then i ever do going anywhere with her. #she knows that without her i get along really well with my relatives. she's the one who has problems with them. #godddddddddd i need to move the fuck out. #she starts arguments that dont even make sense!! and try not to get sucked in anymore #but then she gets mad that i'm staying calm and i somehow still end up the bad guy. #the moving in with a roommate idea is getting more and more attractive

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

me, playing tgaa1: ok so this stronghart guy is obviously evil-

stronghart: london is the centre of the modern world. objectively best city. we have AAAAALL the cool technology you WISH you had our technology and public transport don't you ohhhh you wanna be a londoner so bad aren't you jealous of our trams

me, a rural english bitch and certified london hater: well now it's personal. it is on like donkey kong. i am going to have so much fun obliterating this man.

#words cannot describe. my seething hatred. for london. and everything it represents. #they steal like 99% of the resources and infrastructure meant for the rest of the country and for what #to have a public transport system that is so overly punctual that it's hostile to human life?? #no i don't want your stupid trams. but an hourly bus that actually shows up on time or at all would be nice #london bus driver who closed the doors on my sister while she was in the doorway on purpose #bc you were mad that my sister knew you were gonna not let me on so she stood in the doorway to protect me #from getting stuck alone in my personal hell for the crime of needing a second to get my debit card out #all because heaven forbid you be 0.0000002 milliseconds behind schedule #and be humiliated by showing up at the same time as the 3:04pm bus when you're the 3:03pm bus #because londoners are that fucking privileged i guess #oh london bus driver how i loathe you #don't even get me started on london underground don't get me STARTED #every time i am offered to go see a musical or whatever but i have to make my way there alone without someone else to help me #i decline. i have to. me + london = recipe for disaster. i am not navigating that shit alone absolutely not #i only did that once when i was running away/being kicked out (it's complicated) and had no choice but to do it to get to my grandma's #(which is why i lived near london for a few years bc i went to live with my grandma) #and like. i barely made it. bc why are there two stations with the same name right near each other #and why is the international one the one i have to go to even though it's supposed to be for when you're like #going through the channel tunnel to france or whatever #st pancras international train station i hope you explode #with the rest of london #i am going to look at a map of england really hard so i can explode london with my mind #anyways haha oopsie time to tag this ''properly'' #text post #mael stronghart #sophia's soliloquies #tgaac

[balmungkriemhild]

me experiencing grief and acting irrationally due to said grief: wow it’s just like my fave fictional character who experienced grief and acted irrationally due to said grief

#vio.txt #me getting mad at my family when they shit-talk my grandma: wow i’m just like my blorbette kriem #(the most i am doing is exploding everyone with my mind since there’s really nobody to get vengeful towards except the doctors) #(the nation she lived in before her death didn’t have the best doctors anyhow i dont think) #yeah sorry fellas this is a kriempuff kinda night #which turned into a grieving kinda night cause i miss my grandma dawg #i never got to communicate how muxh she meant to me when everyone else made fun of me (cant speak spanish) #my sister told me that i was grandma’s fave and i’m so mad at myself for never being able to converse with her #this has almost nothing to do with the blorbette other than feeling like that limp bizkit song #but you know the cope is there #ok to reblog #i guess……. kinda……….

[seancamerons]

i'm not letting anyone ever make me feel bad about me, my choices, things and people i love/care about, hobbies whatever, ever. respect me, or (kindly), kick bricks🧱 i'm just done with that "letting things happen" or niceties if you're not nice to me or others. you gonna disrespect me, i won't respect you and i just won't talk to you. life is too short to be a mean person. i don't wanna be a pushover. i'm not gonna let people make me feel bad anymore no matter who they are. i cried my last tear over that stuff. not gonna be hostile, or mean but assertive, because it's a new era and i want positivity. i want good things, i like my peace and anyone who threatens me with that i don't want around me. it's just bs. 💩 i don't want any negativity, so if you're gonna be mean or whatever do not interact w/ this.

#personal #ugh #i literally cried myself to sleep with my stomach in knots over this shit #like my bfs aunt is so mean #she's been saying these little things and she's really getting to me #all week long giving me shit about everything i do #i'm so thankful for my boyfriends family and i love them all but she i can't with #its a good thing she lives 3000 miles away regularly #his mom was so upset when my bf and i were discussing things last night bc the aunt has a habit of doing this stuff #and she didn't know it was as bad as it was between her sister and me #so all this is spurred by her #and like generally #his grandma was mad too bc i have literally done nothing to this woman #and i'm newly moving in and i'm overwhelmed and chaotic these days with that #i'm tryna stay positive #i'm a lil nervous bc they're gonna have a convo with her #and let her know that she's being a lot rn and i'm like afraid of her #i also don't wanna make her madder than she is already #if she's even mad or its just how she is #idk the whole thing #but it really hurt me bc i looked forward to meeting her and then when i did we do not jive #i thought we would #never meet your heroes kids

[literallycryingggg]

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#omg idc what anyone says the besttt song by marc anthony is aguanile #i remember when i was young we were nottt allowed to sing it bc a lot of my family are Jehovah’s Witnesses #but my sister and my cousin and i used to sing it alll the time lmaoo and my grandma would get sooo mad #we used to scream it in her basement just to annoy her lol #unfortunately they got my cousin 😭 #i know it’s actually hector lavoes song but sum about marc anthony’s gets me lmao

[stickers-on-a-laptop]

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#my aunt is driving me insaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaane #imagine having an apartment the size of this house to yourself and then coming over here every day just cause #and then complaining about everything #when you could have i dunno #STAYED AT YOUR GIANT PRETTY APARTMENT #you would be loved MORE if you stayed at your apartment a few times a week instead of coming over EVERY FUCKING DAY #you don't get rights when this happens! you choose to come to the house of loud people and then get mad when people are loud? fuck off! #also coming when you're SICK is so evil to me #your mother (my grandma) is 93 and got a pace maker put in like a month ago #AND YOU'RE COMING OVER? WHY? #if you get everyone else sick it will be so not fun for EVERYONE #because my big sister will be even worse than usual AND YOU CAUSED IT #SO PREVENTABLE BUT NAH #she'll come over with a headache and expect sympathy like fuck off! stay home! why even BOTHER coming over?? #the dogs never shut up the lighting is horrendous and it's a sensory nightmare #also i am supremely irritating because i'm pretty much stuck here #like imagine being like 'i want to come to this house every day' #if i had the choice i would not come every day that's for sure #definitely loved her more when she came on weekends and a few evenings only #anyways

[chicago-geniza]

Is my Ukrainian reading comprehension still pretty solid or is it just the fact that I only read about one (1) topic so it scans as Input regardless of language because the Slavics are mutually intelligible, and also that if you know Russian and Polish there are maybe 2-3 unfamiliar words here and they can be extrapolated both from context clues and from roots.

#nationalists get mad at me when i say if you know russian & polish you can READ ukrainian PASSIVELY #you can't speak it. but you can get the gist when it-@ spoken once you adjust to the accent #esp if you're from a border area . #my ex grew up speaking surzhyk and her sister married a polish guy; she learned polish in like 3 months lol #it's all mutual intelligibility it can be picked up so fast #i learned B1 polish in 6 weeks #my grandma picked up russian & bisl a ukrainian like instantly

[funfactory-moved]

hhgfhgjkskjdf unfortunately i have to be brave and set a boundary for myself 🧎‍♀️

#bella.txt #i made (and deleted) a post abt this a few days ago but deleted it but like #my sister did smth not good and it put me in a bad place and ruined this past weekend #and basically since then i've had a massive spike in anxiety and i have no idea how to move forward #but since then. we had to sit in the car together for like 4 hours and i like. gave her a hug and was acting civil just bc we were going to #be trapped w/ each other AND my grandma and mom for a long time w/ no way out #but idk i guess she took that hug as full reconciliation/forgiveness when tht's NOT it at all #she got pissy when i told her i didn't feel like hugging her the first time and i knew things wld just be tense if i said no again #but we literally. have not addressed the situation at all #and she's gone back to trying to text me/talk to me as if nothing happened #and it's making me so fucking PISSED #which is why i'm like 😐 i've gotta be the one to step forward and say i feel like i can't go back to 'normal' with her until this is taken #care of. and god i know she's going to get so mad at me #plus a million other hypotheticals i'm trying not to let drag me down too badly bc otherwise i'll never do it #on the bright side i have a therapy appointment tmrw morning so i can tell her about this #but man 😭 i've felt so fucking terrible these past few days bc of all this #like i'll get distracted and be fine but as soon as that's over i go right back to like the heart-gripping anxiety feeling #god i wrote a fucking book in the tags. ok bye #ignore the way i said smth about deleting the old post twice in the first tag. worms in my brain

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#honestly been in such a bad mental space #ever since my family denied my trauma and tried to manipulate my memories like it never happened #i swear i wonder if they're all narcissist or something #using all these manipulative tactics to try and distort reality while also diminishing me is crazy #i told my aunt and grandma why I hated my dad for so long and they really told me: No ! never! he is not an alcoholic. #like if him drinking every single day for years isnt an issue or signs of alcoholic dependency with borderline addiction #not one day do I remember him not coming home already drinking from the ages 8 to 18 and they all deny it like he isnt still drinking #every single day* like come on he hasnt stopped drinking for more than 2 days LMAO and I'm not even getting into his outbursts #i remember how bad it got once mt grandma moved out and it was just us dude literally drank a 6 pack a day every single day #get loud for anything #if your question sounded like you were challenging him and his “authority” he would lose his mind #my sister thinks its okay all in the past like if its okay he hit her when we grew up like they really used to hit her bad and jump her #my moms losing her memory every day so she doesnt remember how she used to be but she does apologize to my sister for how it was then #my dad has never apologized he never saw it as wrong to him she was his daughter and his possession or property #and she didnt have a say cause it was his house. even though it was never his house; it was Grandma's house. but he sure acted like it was #always proclaiming this is my fucking house you do what i say “yes you do” i still remember all the fist fights that happened from me #just standing up to his outburst and disrespect and it didnt matter if i was 13 if i called out his disrespect #he took that as me disrespecting his authority in the household when i was just calling out his horrible actions and bullshit #all those times we fought was cause of how he was acting and i had enough and would say something #i still remember the last time we fought i was like 17 or maybe 18 and he was disrespecting my mom and grandma and so i got mad #and remember telling him im tired of you being so rude always trying to control other people's lives and tell em what to do #he got so mad and immediately ran up to me an snuck me and i managed to grapple him into a headlock and he was still trying to hit me #he almost hit my mom and grandma when he was swinging crazy #i didnt talk to him for at least a year and even now i have spurts where I dont see him for weeks at a time even though we live together #im so tired of the bullshit though

[chaoswithcausation]

I have the self-control of a fucking pro :)

#these girls in my debate class were being such absolute BITCHES today #but I behaved myself perfectly :)))) I held my tongue for the time being #p sure one of them tried to talk to the teacher after class to get me kicked out (won’t happen. teacher’s cool.) when I DIDN’T DO SHIT #like genuinely that was their entire issue with me. I have schedule conflicts in the spring semester which make it so I dont have to compet #and they got all pissy over it today #ngl I kinda hope they try to start shit again tomorrow bc either A) I can tell them to stay in their fuckin lane (& out-debate them too >:] #or B) the teacher’s going to shut them the fuck down #I’m kinda pissed if you couldn’t tell :D #like. I do nothing to these girls and they get all mad at ME? absolutely not #I’m pretty chill in general. I do not get angry often. I make an effort to show people basic respect and decency #but I will NEVER take their shit #if you choose to throw manners and decorum out the window that is on YOU #and I take no responsibility for if you’re too sensitive to take what you’re trying to dish out #do no harm but take no shit #I am (supposedly. I honestly think my grandma’s got me beat but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) the most gentle-hearted person in my family #this is like being the tallest dwarf #my mom (ESPECIALLY my mom) and my sister have some fucking teeth #I am so fucking worked up over this #but also I can literally set it aside in a heartbeat (particularly since I KNOW these petty bitches don’t have the maturity to) #like. In the end I’m only willing to give them a certain amount of my energy #and they are rapidly expending their share #I’ll have so much more fun pissing them off by not giving a shit about their opinions (which I already don’t. I’ve just got to #put a stop to the bullshit first) #wowzas that was a lot of swear words #okay! time to be normal again :] #I’m gonna go read some cute fluffy gay shit 😊 <3 #casey’s causing chaos #uhm. is this a vent? idk… #I mean I feel very in control of the situation. And I think it’s more of a rant??? #vent ig

[oppositeslut]

why do women take FUCKING FOREVER GO TO GET READY OH MY GOD AND THEN GET MAD AT YOU WHEN YOU TRY TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT IT

#i am #SO fucking mad rn #like my moms ok she was done by like 630ish #BUT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE OUT THE DOOR BY 630 #and my dumbass fucking sister oh dont even get me started #god damn i hate her so much #like she was UP around 6 #and decided oh y'know lemme fucking WAIT till its convenient for me #to get ready #and she takes fucking FOREVER doing literally ANYTHING #I HATE HER #oh my god #and then she gave me fucking attitude when i was like your not dressed yet? #and she was like how bout you stfu #LIKE DAMN YOU BITCH IM TRYNNA LEAVE TO GO SEE MY GRANDMA AS SOON AS WE CAN #she does the most useless shit #i cant bruh #like we were supposed to be on the road by now #AND IM STILL SITTING HERE WAITING FOR THEM TO BE READY #IVE BEEN FUCKING READY SINCE 545 #uhhgh #sorry guys this just really pissed me off #just birdy thoughts

[alltheprettyplaces]

me still holding out hope I’ll get eras tour tickets

#me 🤝 my sister #and getting mad about people that got tickets while I got fuckin waitlisted #my moms fuckin bf getting tickets when I bought the ones for him and his daughters last time!!!!!!! #anyway me and my sister are going and I won’t let that go <3 #I didn’t think I’d get to go to speak now and then my grandma won tickets days before the concert so anything can happen if you just believe

[fitzselfships]

Just got yelled at and made fun of for not liking a smell and everyone just expects me to immediately be fine with that wtf

#negative #and now my sister is trying to gaslight me into thinking I'm being over dramatic for being upset like she always does #and then my grandma starts making fun of me so that makes me more upset #now i'm just sitting here trying not to cry or else everyone will probably get more mad at me

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

........maybe lead with that, grandma.....

#also possibly include more information #did they say when they were exposed? #are we talking like exposed this week? last week? yesterday? #i need to weigh the risks now grandma #on one hand i hope they were exposed last week and just tested now as a precaution #but on the other hand i kind of hope that's not what happened cuz that means they decided going on a trip was #still a good idea #but also that means theyre going to a restaurant during a time when sitting outside is not advisable due to the heat #and potentially exposing people when the tests may just not be picking it up yet #like im going to assume since theres 5 of them (hopefully only 4 tho. i dont wanna see bob) and they hopefully all got tested #and all the tests came back negative theyre /probably/ safe to be arounf #BUT I DONT KNOW THAT #BECAUSE PEOPLE DONT GIVE ME SUFFICIENT INFORMATION #like yes i should just text my cousin and ask some clarifying questions but i have anxiety around doing that #because when ive done that in the past people got mad at me cuz apparently thats rude to some people #and while i dont think my cousin would think that her grandparents dont respect her or her sisters privacy at all and sometimes #read their texts and the things they find rude are weird even by neurotypical standards so i dont know how to talk to them #(or in this case talk to my cousin and risk them reading my messages and getting offended somehow) #fuckin rich neurotypical catholics #its like i have to play fuckin chess just to talk to these peoplw #and im awful at chess #and if i do go do i wear my headphones to block out background noise in the restaurant???? #that would likely help but i get the feeling everyones gonna wanna comment on it and question it cuz they do that with everything i do #and no one except grandma and MAYBE grandpa know im autistic and i while i dont care who knows #i also dont wanna risk getting interrogated about it in an Applebee's

[grodyego]

trying not to get too mad about the limits of my actual human life and the fact that it will in fact end some day and the intersection of that and the weight of the fact that we’re still in the middle of a pandemic in the stage where everybody has full on just Given Up and decided to pretend like we’re not but i gotta say ladies. the rage is kind of starting to win out

#my fucking sister caught covid for like the 4th time except all the other times she wasnt living in the house with #a: our immunocompromised mother b: our 91 yr old grandma #or c: me who works every day with preschool aged kids as young as literally freshly 1 year old #and she caught it guess where !!! going to the club and partying with a fuck ton of people !!!!!!! in the middle of fucking central florida #like this is a pattern of her not caring at all about how her actions affect other people. ive done nothing for THREE YEARS #but go straight to work and come right home. i went to the movies like once bc i had viable proof there would be max 10 ppl in there #and this is a repeating pattern !!!! i was made to think i was the most selfish person alive when i was a teen so ive always #tried to play it so safe. while my sisters get to do whatever the hell they want without a second thought #as to who it will affect. and i mean in high school truly most of it didnt matter but now its too late isnt it !! #so its like. when will it be my turn huh. when do i get to be a stupid asshole and fuck up just ONCE #without it being an immediate reflection of who i am as a person. without it being My Failure #im also just mad at my job who told me to come in still even tho i was directly exposed to covid #just because im asymptomatic. so its like ok instead of missing 2 days and using the rest of the weekend to quarantine #u want me to come in and maybe get the other staff sick so we'll have even more ppl out ? or g0d forbid the Literally Toddlers ? for longer #and what if i do start showing symptoms like halfway thru the day around the kids. what if i told the parents ? would u b mad would u kill m

[diobrando]

My mom said my sister in law is going to let us take Dominic out on our own for the first time next Saturday like lmao don't get your hopes up theyre gonna renege on that promise

#imagine being someones aunt and not having the chance to take that child out even once in their 6 years of life #my mom must be so pissed bc i know its worse for her as a grandma to have such limited access to these kids bc my sister in law &her family #are more fucked up than ours #sorry that youre all jealous that im his favorite person in the world 🙄 #you know theyre pissed that he is so attached to us despite the limited time we get to spend with them and its... idk distressing that they #think like that instead of being happy that we care about him and worry about him and would gladly offer to help them out more esp because #they always use him being on the spectrum as an excuse to claim he's a difficult child like rip to u bitches for not educating yourselvesso #about autism and getting mad at the child for not being 'normal' like sorry you refuse to curb your expectations but you should #he's a good kid with an appropriate level of curiosity and energy yall just took too long to seek professional help when the signs were in #your face so of course its gonna be harder to teach him anything bc you freaks also refuse to set up a good learning environment #yes im criticizing them as an individual who has no children but if I WAS a stay at home mom the situation would be very different #i would cook healthy meals instead of waiting for the daily McDonald's meal to show up. i would create better routines and devote more time #to my child instead of staring at my phone all day and delegating the task to my adolescent nephews/nieces and my mom and her gf #i also know how to drive like wtf does this bitch think shes doing complaining that she does so much girl you dont even drive... all the #stress is on my brother to provide everything and make time to take his son to therapy and doctors appointments bc YOU DONT DRIVE #she says shes the one that does it like no... someone is taking you so youre not doing it at all #like. i see the videos of my brother at the physical therapist with his son youre not gonna tell me thats you 🙄 #the bar is on the floor with this bitch (yes i dislike her ❤ but i have to be nice bc oh boy if im not theyll go back to that phase of not #letting us see the kids again) but ohhhhhhhhh im so annoyed rn its so annoying that ppl become parents and expect their kids to be easy and #not require 100% of their parents attention love an patience #if they get divorced idc my brother better try to get custody but god that would be rough #if he moves back in he'll be able to say there are 3 adults to watch the kids & we can provide financially and have the space for everyone #but i know moms usually get custody even if in this case it wouldnt be the best outcome