#my fucking heart is shattering

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[the-oc-lass]

Nononono you don't understand, I've been staring at this gif for like a solid minute just watching Ambrosius's little tiny expressions and the slightest upturn of his eyebrows and the miniscule narrowing of his eyes on top of already pursed lips just- GIRL THAT'S THE EXPRESSION I MAKE WHEN I'M ABOUT TO CRY. HE LOOKS PAINED. AMBROSIUS LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE HE COULD CRY AND THEN HE PUSHES IT AWAY WHEN HE SAYS TO ARREST THEM, I AM UNWELL-

#nimona #ambrosius goldenloin #nimona 2023 #nimona movie #nimona film #nimona netflix #my god it's breaking his heart to turn on Ballister #I CAN HEAR THEIR HEARTS SHATTERING AT THE SAME TIME #HE LOVES THAT MAN SO MUCH AND I'M GOING TO CRY #also fuck the director she looks so smug #ma'am you're gonna catch these hands

[bookshopbentley]

if you go back and look at The Scene in e6 , when crowley says “ you idiot , we could have been us “ aziraphale turns away from him . now , i have an evaluation for this ( because of course i do ) . aziraphale physically turns away from crowley twice that we see ( i’m pretty sure ) . once , by the duck pond when crowley requests the holy water . and the second time in the bentley when aziraphale told crowley he goes too fast . so i think the subtlety of aziraphale turning away a third time is a BIG prompter for crowley to kiss him in the first place . because he’s seen this film before ( and he didn’t like the ending ) . maybe , just maybe if he actually does something this time things could be different .

#this is how you know i’m a film student because i analyze the fuck out of everything #michael sheen : * makes a random acting choice * #me vibrating at a speed that could shatter glass : I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS #anyways #these two break my heart so bad #azicrow #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #good ineffable omens #ineffable bureaucracy #ineffable partners #ineffable spouses #ineffable idiots #ineffable wives #ineffable lovers #ineffable fandom #good omens #good omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #aziraphale x crowley #crowley x aziraphale #michael sheen #david tennant #neil gaiman #lgbt #lgbtq

[lilfriezatyrant]

Rewatching and listening to his breakdown song and omg the feels kick in 😭😭😭

#Alastor #Alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel #Al's breakdown #THIS SONG EVEN IT JUST TAKES 45 seconds MY HEART IS TOTALLY SHATTERED #poor deer gentleman almost died because of protection for others😭😭 #him being distressed also causes distress qwq #this is not fair 😭 #screenshots #also his shadow look so damaged and broken qwq #his wound is so damn big TwT fuck you Adam 😭

[twistedsickopath]

okay but a thing i think about every time we have one of those few day periods where the weather is not fit for even a dog being outside is how the hell are homeless people surviving this. like i said in a previous post it's currently -40 degrees with the windchill and i honestly cannot imagine how someone who does not have a place to go inside and spend the night is supposed to not freeze to death. it makes me upset every time the temperature drops like this, i cannot imagine how many homeless people will be frozen to death in the next 24 hours if they somehow haven't already. the fact that there are hundreds of empty houses sitting there empty with totally functional heating while people are DYING from the cold on a street corner makes me SO FUCKING ANGRY while at the same time my heart is breaking in pieces for them. rest in peace to every poor person who will not make it through the weekend. i am so sorry.

#psalms #free housing for everyone!!!! #free food free water free electricity free housing free healthcare for EVERYONE NOW! #basic necessities required for sirvival still being things we have to pay thousands for is a kind of evil that i cannot put into words #i hope with all my heart that every homeless person in montreal and around has a place to go to to stay warm today and tonight #and tomorrow too and basically until the weather gets warmer and fit for a human being to be outside in #shelters must be so fucking packed right now #and the thing is i know for a fact there will still be people who cannot go to them because they are at capacity #i will mourn every poor homeless person who has or will undoubtedly pass away from this cold front #my heart is breaking for them #if you are a person who does not have shelter right now i am so deeply sorry you are going through this #you are all in my thoughts and prayers and i love you #the worst part is there is absolutely nothing i can do about it and my heart is shattering at the thought #people will die from this #people have already died from this i am absolutely certain #and there is not a single thing i can do other than grieve

[tadaxii-i]

WAIT

WAS ERWIN LEVI'S ACKERBOND?!?

#i just realized that #is it? #because that feels fucked #and it also feels like my heart is shattering #answers pls #i need them #levi ackerman #erwin smith #eruri #was it just too obvious that no one was talking about it? #:p

[freuleinanna]

I have rarely related to any doctor more than 13 because for someone having soo many feelings she's so chronically emotionally unavailable and scared of intimacy EVEN THOUGH SHE WANTS IT, honestly she's like a half-drowned cat hissing at air because it dares keep her alive, it's pathetic how she exudes second hardest sopping wet vibes after 10 (also second hardest gramps is not okay vibes after 12)

that being said, she gets go have a lifetime of healing. and maybe one day I'll find that I've dragged my feet forward enough to come home too

#thoughts im crying to because sometimes this stupid alien show tells you things about yourself #i WOULD prefer spending my life in platonic codependency with donna noble actually if you ask #and then rock my therapized ass out like a cuntatron 3000 there #also id like to fucking say it #the way this show can shatter my heart and give me the saving hope too? #iconic. classic. i do been watching it for years and the wonders never stop #doctor who #thirteenth doctor #fourteenth doctor #fifteenth doctor #jodie whittaker #david tennant #ncuti gatwa #donna noble

[sunflower-cathedral]

Scott: "If you kill tango and leave me to be last green I'll let you kill me" Jimmy: "Scott, I'm gonna give you.. 30 seconds to run, and go somewhere else. Before I start hunting you down, okay?" Scott: "Okay, Love youuu" Jimmy: "Alright have fun, I'll give you 30 seconds" Scott: "say you love me back" Jimmy: "30 seconds" Scott: "I gave you a pufferish of peace Jimmy" Jimmy: "Yeah someone took it, I don't know where it is anymore, I lost it"

#NO ONE TALK TO ME #CALL ME AN AMBULANCE #MY HEART HAS BEEN SHATTERED #I CANT BELIEVE THAT HAPPENED #HE REALLY DIDNT SAY I LOVE YOU BACK AND LOST THE PUFFERISH #FUCK ME OH MY GOD #limited life spoilers #limlife #flower husbands #they rlly just #i cant #im so gobsmacked #and so stunned #and so heartbroken

[solazu1]

SCREAMING AND BITING AND KICKING!!!!! THEY COULDVE BEEN FRIENDS IN DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCES!!!

#I say screaming and kicking as I am wheeled away to sleep against my will #I’m going crazy I’m going crazy #Genuinely hurts my heart to think about #This is about Alex and Tim. #marble hornets #Oh my godddddd #This is so sick and TWISTEDDDD #THERE WAS A LOT OF MISUNDERSTANDING BETWEEN THE TWO PRE HORRORS BTW BTW ANS NOT TO MENTION JUST THE OPERATOR SICKNESS DOING ITS THING LIKE #UGH IDK #My entire perspective on Alex kralie character fucking shattered and broke the moment I read through the old marble hornets website #And looked at his blogs #:((((( #He’s so much more sad to me now fuck you #Okay gn #sol rambles #sol rants

[libertastandem]

when Dabi mourned Touya at his butsudan (shrine)

#my heart shattered #fuck endeavor #dabi #touya todoroki #toya todoroki #bnha #mha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia

[mugwot]

the besties! them!

alt barnaby that i didn't have the heart to discard

#saying i am back to my bullshit would imply that i ever come off my bullshit #ruminated for a while on these ones #wally is inspired by parrots squirrels and my little pony a little bit #barnaby is straight up a ram dragon dog combo #they are so far the only ones with actual people items and there is a reason for that in my mind #headcanon that barnaby breathes colourful smoke and wally can do a sonic thing like a thunderdrum that can shatter things #cause parrots are Loud #also yes wally does have fucked up parrot feet :D #couldn't incorporate the soles hearts because of it but there is a sneaky white one on the chest so i count that as a win #wh dragon au #welcome home #welcome home au #wally darling #barnaby b beagle #my art #finally more or less pinned down the hight chart so far atleast until i do eddie and have to balance him between barnaby and frank #without making frank too damn tall #almost the whole beta gang is here #poppy is almost here her design is done she just doesn't have a render yet

[wewontbesleeping]

"sweet tea in the summer" and "you can get by on sweet tea and god's graces" and "tire swings and summer dreams, honeysuckle on the breeze, wilson county creek" and "i hit my peak at seven feet in the swing over the creek" and "still got your laugh, your ghost, your jacket" and "though i can't recall your face i still got love for you" and "you can crash and burn and come back someone new" and "before i learned civility i used to scream ferociously" and "i'm a little smarter, my heart's a little harder, but it's still soft enough to cry" and "you won't have to cry or hide in the closet"

#like what the hell is that.... she really wrote sweet tea and god's graces and was like. no. #not good enough for my album! #what the FUCK #i can't wait for debut tv #i know in my heart of hearts she'll do the right thing this time #anyways i've just been thinking this all day #ugh taylor swift and writing about the innocence of childhood and the shattering of it..........

[sisyphuswinchester]

okay but the fact that Ed recited the “you wear fine things well” line to Stede means that the original moment when Stede said it to Ed after folding his piece of silk and putting it in his pocket was truly significant to Ed. It means the words replayed over and over in his head. It means that he memorized the moment. It means Stede’s words lingered in his head. And he couldnt help but say it back to Stede because it was something so significant to him. It was the first time a person made him feel like he could be more and that wanting more wasn’t just for other people.

Ed thought being fancy and nice was out of reach and Stede thought being a pirate was out of reach. But they’ve both shown each other that they can have the things they want.

#our flag means death #ofmd #edward teach born on a beach #edward x stede #blackbeard #blackbonnet #stede fucking bonnet #im going crazy over my silly little pirate show #gay pirates #gay #so gay #i love gay #my heart is shattered but I love it #gay pirates heal my soul #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2

[im-fruity-and-bored]

Okay but can we talk about how happy I am about all the huskerdust?

No spoilers, but it does mention some… feelings that the ending of Good Omens 2 may cause. It also mentions the finale of Supernatural but the show is so old that I don’t really think it counts as a spoiler- if you’re on Tumblr you probably know of the injustices of that ending. But in case you somehow live under a rock, the mention is also very vague and only about my feelings on it. I know it’s just small little moments and hints at it being canon but AH- I’ll take anything I can get after that Good Omens 2 finale, because THAT- That was not okay 😭 I won’t leave any spoilers- Anyone who hasn’t seen it yet can just watch and suffer like the rest of us. We can all cry together 🥲

But yeah I was still reading Destiel fix-it fics because after all this time I’m STILL not over that, and now I have to cope with what’s going on with Ineffable husbands- so I really needed a win. Thank you Vivziepop. Thank you Amazon.

#destiel #supernatural #supernatural finale #they did us dirty #we need justice #i’m still not over it #my heart is shattered #fuck you neil gaiman #but not really #please fix it #ineffable husbands #good omens #i forgive you #if you know you know #ineffable idiots #crowley needs a hug #anthony j crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #dean winchester #castiel #destiel is real #huskerdust #hazbin hotel husk #angel dust #hazbin hotel #i needed this #i'm so normal #im not mentally stable #i'm not obsessed

[tending-the-hearth]

hey wouldn't it be funny if this clone turned out to be fives and wouldn't it be funny if echo and rex didn't find out until he got shot while they were escaping and wouldn't it be funny if echo has a weird feeling about the clone and pulls his helmet off only to see his twin and wouldn't it be funny if fives snapped out of the chip's control as he was dying and wouldn't it be funny if he any echo didn't get any closer before he dies in his brother's arms and wouldn't it be funny

#by funny i mean completely heart shattering and soul destroying #LET ME BE DELUSIONAL #I HAVE ONE MORE FUCKING CHANCE FOR FIVES TO BE ALIVE #LET ME DREAM #my brother suggested the theory to me and now it's all i'm thinking about #but tbr i mean i will be SHOCKED if it's not tech #the bad batch #arc trooper fives #arc trooper echo

[starlightvld]

Broken Bones and Shattered Hearts

The stately church stares down at John like a priest looming over an unrepentant sinner. It's one of those gothic-style buildings with sweeping arches, intricate stained glass windows, and a massive, spired bell tower, and all John can think is that he hasn't been in a church since his mother's funeral seven years ago.

Weak morning sunlight breaks through the greening trees, attempting to wash away the ominous mood, but it's not the spring morning or the church or even the reality of one of his best mates tying the knot that has him sitting motionless in the driver's seat, heat radiating from his chest and creeping up his collar. He slips a finger between fabric and skin and grimaces at the sheen of sweat gathered under the fabric.

The pinstripe collar is a choker, the blue silk tie a noose to hang himself on his own anxiety.

He inhales and exhales long and slow. 

Kyle is waiting for him. He can't very well sit in his fucking car all day.

He doesn't move.

A cacophony of indignant bird calls reach him through the glass, and he finally moves enough to lean over the steering column to see a cardinal building a nest in the tree above, its partner fluttering around and squawking at another bird who dared get too close. Somehow, the protectiveness of the action makes everything feel closer. More real.

John swallows hard and rests his forehead on the wheel.

He's not sitting in the car because of a wedding or because he's ashamed of the cane he still relies on during long days of being up and about. It's a rather dashing cane, if he does say so himself, all carved wood and filigreed metal. He even spruced it up with a blue ribbon to match his blue suit for the occasion.

No, he's sitting there because he knows other people will be at the wedding. People he hasn't seen in nearly three years.

Or… not people. A person. In the singular. 

The thought of seeing one fucking person is driving him to an anxiety attack in his car on a cool Saturday morning in May.

He grits his teeth and pulls in a few more deep breaths, pushing thoughts of brown eyes and wavy golden hair from his memories. He told Kyle he would be fine seeing Simon again. And he will.

He will.

If it's the last thing he does before his broken legs and shattered heart give out for good, he will do this.

He pushes the car door open. A light breeze cools the heat building under his collar. He grabs his cane, pulls himself out of the car, and heads for the church.

#soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #Call of Duty #COD #COD MWII #the soapghost breakup fic I'm not sure I want to post to AO3 because I still haven't decided if it's going to have a happy ending or not #johnny only uses john now for angsty reasons #this thing is already over 10k and so fucking angsty #broken bones and shattered hearts #the birds are a metaphor btw #my writing #my fanfiction #OG Starlight