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selfcareparker · 3 years

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okay here’s my long ass letter.. be prepared girl. bUT ALSO I THOUGHT YOU WERE TAKING A BREAK OFF OF TUMBLR 😭😭 i saw notifications from you and was like: is she back??? anyway.

it was international best friend day like A WHILE ago but i wanted to say you are one of my best friends and i love you ❤️❤️ i know we don’t know what each other look like and we live in two different parts of the world but LOVE YOUUU 🤍 you are such an amazing, understanding, beautiful, talented person!! round of applause for aria please everyone <3

oh my gosh you answered so fast lmaoo i get so happy when you answer my asks hdjsgsjsj (for reference this took me two days to write so jdgsj)

ALRIGHT i’m just gonna hop into dance bc i’m really excited about?? THANK YOU FOR ALL THE GOOD LUCK 🥰🥰 it clearly worked bc i killed my recitals! there was one recital on saturday (yesterday) and one today. alsooo i killed my rehearsal on the 5th (which is when i read that response). so that saturday (the 5th) i had my final one on one rehearsal right, and i started with jazz/hip hop (my favorite and the one i’m best at) and i KILLED IT. i got a lot of compliments and it was so 💓 but my actual performances were SO GOOD!!! i did better on saturday than today (sunday) but i still did pretty good. i dance jazz/hip hop and ballet so i had two dances in the show which was fine for me bc some of the girls were killing themselves changing in like 2 or 3 minutes. only my mom, dad & brothers came but ig with the brief things i’ve told you about my family they are pretty terrible lol so i didn’t want them to be there (especially with there already being a dancer in the family!) but they were oddly supportive, but still i was not about to invite them lmao. and i really wanna use these emojis so 🩰💃🏾

now a little about the football games (american football) but i have a question. when you type football in your phone does a football emoji come up? or an american football emoji come up? so football 🏈 vs football ⚽️ cuz if i type soccer ⚽️ that emoji comes up. ANYWAY. yeah LMAO my little brothers (the 7yo, daniel) team won one game (their first one) lost a lot, then they won another and then the championships… THEY WON!!!! girl it was such a good moment. i almost hurt my back again bc i’m so wild when it comes to sports, like i’m the loudest one on the field (i just have a booming voice when i need to use it? and i have a football clap, but it makes me appealing when i get a boyfriend so HAHAGA) but the team they beat are such awful people so i played “we are the champions” loud and proud 😌 also it’s flag football lmao so they all have two flags attached to their waists, then whoever has the ball you have to get their flags. and my other brother, the 12 year old, he also plays flag football but his game was A LOT more intense bc our team is undefeated (spoil alert:) AND STILL IS BC WE TOTALLY RIPPED THE OTHER TEAM APARTTTTT but the team we went against was also undefeated??? but they sucked???? like it was 37-14….. how would they even compare??? (btw i know i talk a lot of shit on my 12yo brother but he is a BEAST at sports like i cannot explain to you how good he is, like today my uncle dropped off an mvp award for him) also for some more laughs my dad is the one who coaches the 7 year olds team 😐 yeah so the reason we lost all those times is bc my dad wouldn’t listen and he shouldn’t coach ever again but ANYWAY STORY FOR ANOTHER TIME

the singing group... yeah uh... hm. so for reference it’s my 7 year old brother, Daniel, Vincent (the 12yo) refuses to sing so. but yeah we didn’t end up going. it was the same saturday as my recital and i wholeheartedly believe i would be so stressed if i did both??? like my anxiety was already high for my recital and mannn if i did that group…. i would wanna cry lol. not to mention, the performance was meant to be outside????? and it’s like 90 degrees (Fahrenheit) here????? OH AND THESE BUG THINGS IDK IF YOUVE SEEN THEM IN GERMANY OR ON THE NEWS but they’re called uhhh fuck umm, okay i googled it: cicadas. they’re nasty bugs and they die quick?? but they fly everywhere and they’re so. loud. like i seriously question how bugs can make that much noise. but bc of that daniel was not having ANYTHING on saturday, between the heat and the bugs- nope. he literally said OUT LOUD “i’m never coming here again” AND IM— JUST KILL ME NOW, i was like daniel u can’t say that out loud and he’s just “what???” OH MY GOODNESS so bc the performance was outside daniel said heck to the no sooo yeah :/ i’m very pleased but i kindaaaa feel bad for the group but not really? i don’t know 😭😭

WHEN I READ THE TOM QUOTE 💀💀 whenever i’ve thought about that.. it just doesn’t help? i’m not gonna lie, i did try it during my recital and it helped a little bit, like during ballet i told myself to just enjoy it bc it was a lot of fun and i loved it a lot 🥰 but my nerves were also calmed by one of my friends there who was like “if we mess up who cares?? it’s a dance recital for our families” and that really stuck with me bc it’s true.. who cares?? (bc they weren’t wearing masks in the audience - if ur vaccinated, this woman front row yawned 😐 during our ballet 😐 i was like ok.) but dude i- idk. to be honest i don’t know how it works for him lmao. about the constant state of anxiety, it’s not usually? like i’ve been kinda chill but i hope i’m not like... depressed? idk, i’m getting a new therapist (or at least i’m gonna meet this woman) bc mine was not good lol, idk if i told you that but yeah. so 🤍hope🤍

GIRL THE PARENT THING 😭😭😭 when you said your mom/mum (lol) says “why did i marry your father?” “and she means it too” 😭😭 stopppp i did not mean to laugh that hard 😭and also felt the crying thing :/ cuz it’s saddd (btw whatever you’re comfortable with telling me it’s fine hdgsjsh) my mom and dad.... it’s a long story. that’s a lot of tea and it wouldn’t all fit in this lmao but yes😌 i think it will be for the better absolutely. i am nervous though, idk for my mom AND for my dad?? even though i don’t like him?? but literally i had a dream (i wrote this section like a week ago so it was when i just woke up) that i yelled at him for something and then i felt bad??? girl i cant- but anyway i remember this tiktok of this girl and her brother and he was like: do you not want your kids to be happy??? they’re not gonna get two Christmases??? and i honestly cannot wait for that lmaooo

HDGSJABHAJ it’s true, i’ve been waiting for you to get your license girl. i hope the test happens before exams!!! from what i’ve heard exams are really really stressful :/ when you get your license (i’ve always written license so idk lol) i’m sure you will be an amazing amazing driver <3

LOL i gOT mY dRivErS liCeNsE lASt wEeK… tbh i don’t like the song? i just don’t. i think it’s bc i didn’t understand why her very first song created so much drama? and it’s not even thattttt good? pls no one go and hate on me, but i don’t love it. i 100% get what ur saying about the sad songs 😭 i am in love with traitor but i cry every time i listen to it. i do love good 4 u, brutal, happier i do really like too…. jealously jealousy is a good one as well & deja vu is definitely still a favorite. idk i need to listen to the album again lol but even if i didn’t like her first single or all the hype around it, i love olivia!! she’s a lil sweetheart 🥺 and speaking of liv, i love (like love love love) high school musical: the musical: the series (or hsmtmts) lol i saw some anons talking about it and i truly love the show i can’t even lie i’m sorry

i’m glad you got your covid shot!! i’m getting mine on tuesday, so tomorrow for me, but is your cough still there? i know this is like a very long while after you sent that so i’m hoping it’s gone? idk hgfhsh also jab as in your shot? idk what jab means 😭 but i know at the recital we were sweaty without masks (not the whole time but on stage and stuff and in the back we had to put them back on… though none of us did) and i hugged maybe a couple of people so who knows! if i feel a cough…. 👀 lmao (and how’d your driving lesson go?!!?!?)

yea i guess boring is better than hard? not too much of a workload i guess! and i hope that means less stress as well 💖

okay my last few things, i had notes on what i wanted to tell you/bring up and literally its says: “TOM HANGING OUT WITH STORMZY????” and “i read her blurbs & fics !!!! gorgeous beautiful phenomenal” lol as in your recent work and it is all of the above 🤍 love youuuuu hope you’re having a good start to your week!!!

- lovely anon (ps this is not proofread😮‍💨 & i love this emoji hahah)

I got a single hour of sleep last night but I really hope this still makes sense 💀💘

I did take a break off Tumblr ksdhjjk I think I was gone for like... 3 or 4 days ahsjssk

oh my god girllll I love you too 🥺 happy (late) best fren dayyyyy no pleaseee we need a round of applause for YOU amazing, funny, LOVELY human being (which I hope you got after your show too 😌)

ahhhh I'm so proud of you I wish I could have been there 😭 but I still know your performance was

okay so jsdhgfjsk I used to do ballet for two years, jazz dance for like.. 2 years too? and hip hop for a year when I was younger sojhsjk oh my god twins (but I was like a CHILD so, but still I loveeeeee (watching) ballet so much and hip hop too gurllllllll I knew you were a bad bitch but *insert lady gaga gif AGAIN*

and people who yAwN during ballet just can't appreciate art 🙄 it's their loss honestly

yes @ these emojis 🩰💃>>>>>>>

okay so on my phone I have both a German and a UK keyboard and when I type football on the German one I get this: 🏈 but for football on the uk one it's ⚽️

So I see talent runs in the family 😌 with your brother winning his game !!!! and sajkdhghuji I like football (soccer) and I've also thought about how it could be something that a future bf finds attractive lmaoooo (I mean even more attractive than he already thinks I am 🙄) or maybe I'll get myself an athlete girlfriend ;)

Maybe it was for the better that you didn't go to the singing group because like you said that sounded STRESSFULLLLLLL, and I don't think we have cicadas in Germany(??? or at least I don't hear them here) but I know them from summer holidays in Croatia/bosnia and you're right they're. the. worst. 😭 and the heat as well-- nope. it's been realllyyyyy hot here too and I'm KNOT a fan. I prefer winter and I've never liked summer but I really wanted to give the warm weather a chance this year but all it's done is give me a thin layer of sweat on my body 24/7 and a headache and made me tired 😐 so yeah cicadas, heat, and stress and the singing group? nah, I'm glad you didn't go and were able to avoid all that <333

same same same the tom quote is the worst asiskdaishd but I've heard some people say it helps them so? I think it depends on why you're anxious and if it's a normal anxiety or like... an anxiety disorder pffjd. I don't think he meant it as a cure for an anxiety disorder but it has the same vibes as telling a depressed person "don't worry be happy" no matter what type of anxiety it's directed at hvdsjkfs

like i’ve been kinda chill but i hope i’m not like... depressed? oh my god same? well kinda???? okay 1 I hope the new therapist is better!!! I had a really bad experience with my first therapist ever when I was 14 and she .... told me to drink alcohol???? I was like yea so I throw up every day before school because I'm so anxious. and she said I should relax a bit maybe go out for a cocktail or wine from time to time. and yea you can buy wine when you're 16 in Germany (I was 14 but ok) but surely a therapist should not be telling anyone to drink regardless of their age........ then I used to see another therapist but he was this guy and he was like shy? idk he was weird and then I realised that my anxiety is all subconscious anyway so there’s not really anything to talk about but I have physical symptoms mostly so my mom has this kinesiologist (don't ask me what that is because I don't understand even tho it's helped me in the past) and she gave me the number of a psychiatrist so I might try going there?

okay quick tw for very very very very lowkey... not wanting to be alive for the next paragraph

I feel like my anxiety is a rollercoaster and as soon as my anxiety decreases I always get depressed? I had this time last month where I kept saying "I wanna die" and like I would NEVER unalive myself but I wouldn't have minded if I died you know? it's better now but it wasn't the first time I felt like that so??? although I think that was when uni hadn't started yet and I had had (?) nothing to do for the last year and it's def better now but I'm scared that I might feel like that again one day so I'd rather make sure I have someone (I think a therapist/psychologist is better for depression but I need a psychiatrist for anxiety but idk) okay I think we've talked about triggering topics and i dont remember if you said anything but idk I still added it at the beginning just in case <3

but you know I'm always here to talk and let me know how it goes <3 (if you wanna :)

So driving lessons ummmm.... I don't remember if I told you this already? but last Friday I had a lesson and my driving instructor did a test simulation so she didn't do anything except tell me where to go and I was aware that I probably wouldn't have passed but she criticised everything I did and I was really sad cause I thought I was a good driver but apparently I'm not after all <///3

HOWEVER since then I've had three more hours (two lessons) and she said I've really improved (within...one week) and that my test will probably be mid/late July which is exactly when I have my exams PLUS my second vaccine (after my exams) so.... we'll have to wait and see. It really depends on the day because I only have three exams and the rest is just assignments that I will have done by then so?

but I also realised I've become better at driving within just this one week which sounds weird but maybe last week was a wake up call and also I wrote down the things that I could improve and I feel like that really helped.

....

just fell asleep. but only for like 20 minutes.

moving on

yeaaa same about drivers license and I'm in love with brutal but I realised I've never listened past the first chorus? so I'll have to do that

it's so weird hearing people talk about hsm the series because I feel like it's such an extreme divide? I feel like not a single person who watches the series has watched the films and not a single person who has watched the films watches the series? if that makes sense. lmk if you've seen the films because maybe I'm wrong jhsagdfzujk I don't think hsm was/is super popular in Germany so maybe I just think that because it's not popular in my country but it's different everywhere else !! edit: I just remembered that you said something about the Troy meme I posted the other day which means you know Troy? I'm guessing. so I probably am wrong about hsm/hsm the series and who watches it)

yesss I got my vaccine, it was fine but my arm hurt for like 3 days but otherwise I had no symptoms (okay I still have a bruise on my arm from it and it was 8 days ago but ✋🏼) I hope yours went well!!!! and yeah my cough is gone gshddfk and honestly the word jab confuses me too so let's forget about it maybe it's just (British?) old people slang lmaoooo

okay okay okay okay stormzy and tom oh my godddd I wanna hang out with them 😭😭😭 I rarely ever have that thought about celebrities but tom and stormzy? the duo we didn't know we needed (is that English? like I said, one hour of sleep I'll get to that in a second) (& obviously I have no idea if they're even proper friends irl or what (tbh I can't imagine it for some reason but like I said IDK THEM SO hgessjnh) or do I? 👀 I'll ask Michael if he's friends with Tom next time I see him 😌 btw Michael is such a perfect name, just like Chris imo)

i read her blurbs & fics !!!! gorgeous beautiful phenomenal 🥰🥺 thanks you're the cutest <3333 that made my day 🥰 omg 🥺 i got this request for a pride related fic which i‘ll try to write this weekend but i have some uni stuff to do so idk?

nowwww today was a mess ghvhsjkwlaskdj (my keyboard smashes might look weird because I just switched to my laptop)

so i was on Tik Tok until 2 am last night, as always, but suddenly I started hearing something against my window but on the inside? and I immediately knew that it was an insect and IM SO FUCKING SCARED OF INSECTS AND ALSO SPIDERS LIKE I KNOW THEYRE NOT GONNA HURT ME BUT KASUGDFHBAK my heart starts racing and omg. so I quickly turned on my flashlight on my phone to see if it was just a fly or something worse. and it was way worse. it was really big and loud and fast and it was like flying so I ran to the bathroom. btw my window is open at night but I have a net in front of it so that insects can't come inside but it also means insects can't fly OUT if they somehow got inside. so I think the insect flew in through the balcony door from the living room and flew all the way into my room (which is not far but it's far for a bug lmao). so it was too big and quick for me to like kill it or anything? and also it was 3 am and I was tired so I was like where can I go? Cause I can't go back to my room. So I was like should I go and sleep on the sofa in the living room? No because the balcony door is open so there's probably some insects in there already and they won't be able to fly out if I shut the door and then they'll bug me (pun intended). or more like terrify me because like I said I HATE insects.

and if I closed the balcony door and the insect (from my room) came in there it wouldn't be able to fly out either. so I can't go to my room, and I can't sleep on the sofa. I was literally considering sleeping in the bathtub sjagdhhuaj but it's too small and like... hard obviously so I didn't do that 💀

so then my only option was to go into my parents' bedroom looooooooool. But first I quickly turned the light in my room on to see if I could see the insect or if maybe it had gone? Because i really wanted to sleep in my comfortable bed but as soon as I switched on the light I saw the insect on the wall right above my bed AND IT WAS SO LIKE THICC and scary so I threw my phone on my bed and went to my parent's room vgefhuwiajk. they didn't even wake up but there wasn't really any room for me to lie down comfortably but I was more comfortable between my parents THAN IN A ROOM FULL OF BUGS. it was kinda cute too cause our dog jumped on the bed too at some point so it was like the gang's all here.

but it felt so weird like I'm technically an ~adult~ (by law, not by common sense or how independent i am lol) so why am I sleeping in my parents' bed?😭 the answer (insect in my room) is not really valid either lol

Idk if you‘re classified as an adult if you‘re over 18 or 21 in the US? But i‘m talking about being 18

this is getting so long I'm so sorry------------------

so i was in my parents' bed but it was really uncomfortable and it was 4 am already and then I had to go to the toilet and on my way back I went to check if the insect was still there and as soon as I switched on the light I saw it by my window again so I RAN (back to my parents) and they still didn't wake up????? but then they started snoring and it was SO LOUD 😭🥴 and then it was 5 am and my dad went to work (he woke up and I could tell he was confused and he patted my back like? tf who is this lmaooo) but when he left for work I scooted over to his side of the bed so I was at least more comfortable. then it was 5:30 am when I finally fell asleep.

but then I woke up again some time between 6:30 and 7 and I had to get up at 7:3o for a doctor's appointment and I couldn't fall back asleep so yeah rip me </3

okay now tw blood? (having a blood sample taken so needles as well)

so I'm going to this new doctor and I have a few (non serious) health... concerns? complaints? idk lol so she said we should do a blood test. now I don't think I've ever gotten blood drawn or at least I don't remember it. I'm not scared of needles or blood or anything but since I didn't know what I should expect I googled..... and found a video of someone taking this hugeee ass needle and like sucking the blood out of a person's arm with a reverse syringe (idk if that's what they're called) so it looked like a vaccine for example but instead of putting something into the person they were pulling it out. and idk if I just wasn't paying attention to the video or if it's normal to do it like that in some places but I got so fucking scared hskjdhbsjs

so with one hour of sleep, really hot weather and warm disgusting air, and me being dehydrated as fuck because I was so anxious I had to throw up the water I drank before the appointment (?), I got to the doctor's and suddenly I started crying 💀 my eyes were really swollen already from not having slept and it was early and I was at the doctor's for like half an hour and I think I cried eight times in total just because I was so physically drained I guess. like by the time I got there I really wasn't even scared of getting blood drawn anymore but I was just so exhausted that I started crying. and it was so embarrassing cause the doctor treated me like I was a five year old hsguiao and I kept wanting to say that I'm not even scared of the needle or anything and that I'm just super tired but as soon as I opened my mouth I would start crying so I just sat there and let them baby me sdgvazuhi (obviously they were just trying to be nice but still I WASNT SCARED JUST TIRED).

so anyway she tried my left arm and it didn't work cause my veins are shit or whatever and then she pricked my right arm and literally it barely hurt. and then as soon as my blood started running from the needle through the tube thing and into the like bottle? (I googled and it said it's called like ampoule or vial? the word vial sounds familiar but idk if it's the right context). so I was fine by then because I thought she was gonna suck my blood out but turns out idk shit about anatomy and turns out blood doesn't need to be SUCKED out but it just like... gushes when you stick a needle into your vein (OKAY WHEN I SAY IT LIKE THAT IT SOUND SO OBVIOUS IM SO DUMV BUT THAT VIDEO REALLY SCARED ME OKAY). (idk if this is funny to you) so yeah as soon as the blood started gushing out of me and into the vial (?) she said "o zapft is" which is Bavarian slang for when you open a barrel of beer and the beer like shoots out and i thought it was funny but she probably makes that joke sixteen times a day.

anyway they filled up so many vials ghdjslkdj but it wasn't painful at all. and they put plasters on my "wound" afterwards and ripping the plaster off hurt 10x more than them actually taking my blood lol. also I have bruises on both my arms I was gonna insert a picture but that feels weird shdgva. also my arms kinda hurt? but idk if that's really the case or if my brain is tricking me because I THINK they could hurt because I have the bruises yk?

okay the last thing I was gonna say. so there's the European Championship (⚽️ ) going on right now and like I said I like football anyway but it's also soooo cool to see everyone wearing their country's jerseys/football shirts. and in my street there's like five restaurants and they all have football playing on huge tvs every night so even if I'm not watching I can always hear people cheering (or booing lol) whenever there's a goal and I just love that everyone kinda comes together to watch a few men kick balls <3 (no lsdjhbgsjbk like I said I like football too and yea it really is nice that e v e r y o n e is so invested and even if your team loses you had a fun time (unless you're too much of a hardcore stan lol)

and I got a reallyyyy cute Munich kit jersey that looks really hot on me 😌 cause the Germany ones are ugly this season and I support FC Bayern München/Munich so I got the Munich shirt. I also have an England jersey from a few years ago but it doesn't look as good on me so I'll be supporting Germany in my hot shirt dsijhsj (it looks amazing on me but it's also kinda thick material so it's hot like that too 😭)

so yeah that's all from me lmaoaoao that was SO LONG I AM SO SORRY if you even made it this far pls do not feel obligated to reply/respond vbdsghjioidkj I feel like maybe I shouldn't have written so much on one hour of sleep in the last 40 hours but... here we are. sorry if it makes no sense

I love you, I hope you have a nice weekend (or whenever you read this)💓

#THIS IS SO LONGIM SO SORRY #I started writing this at 7 pm now then I fell asleep and then had cake and watched a video and I just finished this and now it's nearly 12 #lovely anon #<3333333333333333333333333333 #now I'm gonna play Mario kart

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imlostinsantacarla · 4 years

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How do the gang (individually) react to a SO who's affectionate and supportive

heya hun! i’m so glad you’ve requested this, it was fun to write. i added tim and curly too bc they deserve some love also. i hope that you like what i came up with! - admin kat 🌙❣

HOW THE GANG REACT TO HAVING A S/O WHO’S AFFECTIONATE AND SUPPORTIVE:

Darry: doesn’t always seem like it but he doesn’t ever take your affection and support for granted, although he may come across as cold. he’s a tad bit overwhelmed when he comes home and you plaster yourself to him like glue, he can even appear irritated but he knows that you’re just showing you love him in the only way you know best. he just wishes that you’d give him a minute to get through the door and shower first before you latch onto him. nevertheless, darry is genuinely over the moon when you support him, his brothers and the gang. his hearts wells up like the grinch when he finds the meaning of christmas! it’s in the little things like when you patch steve and soda up after they’ve gotten into a fight with soc’s. helping ponyboy and johnnycake study on the living room floor. talking dal out of some real dumb shit. even by sitting at the kitchen table with him and sifting through all the bills. he turns into the biggest sucker ever when you do this stuff. all the little things you do never get’s overlooked by him. it definitely helps ease his stress knowing that his partner supports him no matter what.

Sodapop: genuinely loves you even more for both of these endearing qualities, if that’s even logically possible??? he loves that your affection and attention is on him 25/7 and when you give it to him... boii is like !!!!!!!!!!!!!! he just knows you love him so much and he’s so excited by it. your support really reinforces it all the more if i’m honest. soda actually balled once about you supporting him bc he opened up to you about a dream of his which was to open up an auto repair shop with steve and you were like “cool stuff man let’s do this!”. and he was believing you’d knock his head in like dar would, but he just was star struck with you. steve had to calm his ass tf down bc soda’s a gREASER AND GREASERS DON’T CRY IDK WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT!!! but yeah, he thinks he’s so dumb and stuff, but to have you support him and lift him up makes him unbelievably happy. 11/10 a happy boiii.

Ponyboy: totally gets all blushy when you get affectionate with him in front of others (namely the gang) bc they tease tf out of him. those boys never let him live shit down like that. it only makes you pinch his cheeks and wiggle his face in your hands and that’s when two-bit can’t stop laughing and has to tell the others. he’s a bit sour afterwards but there’s no hard feelings. boii is s o f t as hell for you and loves your affection and support. you never fail to brighten his day tbh. he wants your attention on him 25/8 like soda and becomes a pouty baby when you don’t give him it. and your support? *chef kiss* makes his whole world better bc despite the fact he’s not tough and all, but more sensitive, you’re there for him through it all. did i mention he get’s butterflies and his heart gallops- pls don’t shoot me it had to be said!

Steve: loves it even when he says he hates it. steve loves your hugs, kisses, the way you play with his hair when you cuddle, you name it. just not when the guys are around. gotta keep up the greaser image *finger guns*. you tend to show up at his work with lunch and he’s got complete heart eyes bc you’re all over him. there’s no way in hell soda lets him live that ish down lmaoo. you support him more emotionally and mentally though, which he’s so grateful for because things with his old man can get pretty bad at times and he needs someone like you to bring his big butt down to earth when he’s all high on anger and frustration. like, he’s super hurt when it comes to his dad, so he’ll be ranting and raving up a storm and you’re listening but bleary eyed bc he woke your ass up as 3 in the gODDAMN MORNING and he’s talking about how his life is so shit and you come out with “well i’m not going anywhere but if you don’t get into my bed and let me sleep i’m gonna beat your ass with my pillow”. he’s stunned? bc first of all, you’re a freaking pip squeak compared to him who can’t even hurt a fly, but there’s another part of him that’s taken aback bc you’ve literally opened up your world and door to him for anytime. would 10/10 recommend this joyful boi.

Two-bit: honestly, can’t seem to get enough of you, particularly your affection, but namely your support. it’s kinda a tie can’t you see?? he’s not even annoyed or abashed when you go heavy on the affection, even in front of the guys, if anything, he’s gloating about it and hanging off of you just as much, if not more! if anyone teases you guys or makes a comment he’s got some snazzy comeback, two’s riddled with them. i swear they fall from his mouth like casual small talk. kinda starts fist fights with steve a lot when he does bc our stevie-boi is a bit sensitive. he literally somehow falls in love with you even more bc you’re supporting him positively to cut down on his drinking, get on with his school work a little more, etc. like how can he possibly deserve this literal angel that is you? he probably cries when you’re not looking. i’m not even kidding. probs just bursts into tears and pony and johnny are like you ok mannn???

Johnny: blushes the most out of everyone when you give him affection, especially when anyone’s around. he’s such a happy smol bean and he just loves you with his whole heart and universe like omg! your support means the world to him, he’d cry and be so messed up without you. but you still make him cry nonetheless. but they’re happy tears, i promise!! like he’s so astounded bc you let him stay at your’s bc your parent’s understand the situation and let him come round whenever he wants. you make sure he’s well fed and get’s a good amount of sleep in a place that’s not the lot? you complete him. you make him see that he’s more than just some kid with a bad home in a bad neighborhood... he can be anything and anyone as long as you’re by his side. the little butterflies he get’s when he sees you- !!!

Dallas: not so happy about the affection part in front of others (unless he’s jealous and wants to prove to everyone you’re his) just bc it’s uncomfy for him and he ain’t used to it. but that’s not to say he doesn’t enjoy having you all over him! bc if it was up to him he’d have you all over him every second of every day if he could. ;) in private though he’ll gripe about how mushy you are, reluctantly leaning into your embrace or letting you kiss him. like you’ll want to cuddle or hold his hand and he’ll eventually relent, muttering about broads and stuff. he only makes it seem like he hates it but he actually loves it to pieces. and when you play with his hair??? mmmmmmmm boi is putty in your hands. but seriously, your support means a lot to dal, it shows that you’re loyal to him and if you’re loyal to him he’s loyal to you. like the way you show up at the cooler to visit him brings such a huge smile to his face. no broads done that for him before. treat dally with care bc this boii is sensitive. 12/10 a happy duck.

Tim: kinda iffy about the affection. he’s a tough son of a gun and can’t have everyone knowing he’s got a partner that hangs onto him like a fly does to honey. he loves it though, really, especially when people are looking at you in interest, it serves a purpose then. he’s also in love with when you do it to freak out curly. it honestly made him cry of laughter once bc curly was about to yack in a garbage can. fun times man... fun times. anyway... your support is super wonderful for him. you visit him in the cooler a lot when he goes in, which he didn’t expect bc most people he’s dated never did that or were too mad to even show up. but here you are. you also take care of curly and angela like your own, opening up your door to them and him. he’s got a soft spot for you okay? it’s especially so bc his home life is so bad with his step dad and mum chucking things left right and center, then everyone else joining on in. it’s a tiring place. if he looks back... he doesn’t know how in the hell he survived without you before you came along and wouldn’t know how to go on without you by his side to help. but tell no one that okay? s o f t b o i v i b e s

Curly: mad happy like. until someone fucking mentions it that is. then he’s all talk and trying to get you off him. you roll your eyes bc curly’s really more talk than action and most people know it. but nevertheless, he wants everyone to know you’re his so loves it when you hang onto him like a vice. he’s not really had much affection in his life, so it’s new but he can’t seem to get enough of it. deffo a happy puppy when he gets the affection and attention. and curly’s not all that smart either, but having your support helps him to see that he just see’s things differently from other people and that school isn’t everything. and that’s okay tbh. however, you don’t support his bad behavior but you also know that you can’t change him unless he wants to change himself. he’s only just starting to get these boundaries, just give him a chance. loves your cuddles bc he can fall asleep and he always has a tough time falling asleep bc he doesn’t feel like he can trust anyone other than his brother and sister. and now he’s got you. thank god! literally the sweetest chick ever

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deeperthanloveff · 6 years

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Chapter 44

Chris

I pushed my key to walk in the door and it was no use because baby girl swung open the door jumping in my arms making me smile and laugh “hi papi.”

I pecked her lips all while kicking the door shut and latching it with one hand as I balanced holding her “wassup baby love?”

“I been here waiting on you to come back to me. I cooked your favorite and then we can pick up where we left off this morning” she said allowing her robe to slide off her shoulders.

I bit my lip taking in the cheetah print lace bra and thong she had on “ok, you tryna kill your man? You to happy.” She giggled and kissed me “no crazy, I’m just tryna make it feel like old times. You’d come home I’d feed you and ride you into the mattress. It was an arrangement but I was crushing on you so hard.”

I smirked “yeah I knew you wanted a nigga. I laid the pipe crazy from day one!” She smacked her teeth and jumped down from my waist making me laugh. She tried to stomp off but I immediately grabbed her wrapping my arms around her waist “I’m just kidding Melody, I wanted you from the minute I laid my eyes on your beautiful ass. And this accent you got turns me the fuck on.” She giggled “no don’t try to kiss up to me now! How’s Kae?”

I smirked “it’s ok I’ll be kissing all this ass in a minute anyway let me put some food energy in my body. She’s not doing well. She’s suicidal and I’m honestly scared. I didn’t want to leave her.”

“You so nasty papi, but wow. Do you want her to stay here?” I shrugged “I would never do that to you. I’ll just have her stay at Erin’s. I already called her and talked to her. She honestly just wants me around, but I can’t fall back into that cycle. She’s very much so still in love with me. The way she’s so antsy until I interject or touch her. She was always like that for years, but it’s heightened.” Robin knotted her brows “that sounds really clingy.”

I shrugged “no it is, but it never bothered me before I loved that then. I love affection, she’s just so scared I think she’s put me as the savior here.”

“Chris I feel bad for her I do, but I will beat her ass. Did she try anything?” I was amused inside but didn’t show it on my face. She was jealous, she’s always been jealous of Kae and how I treat her, she’s letting me see it and boy is it something. “What you mean? Did she try to fuck me? No, she’s literally on the brink of crazy. I think the last thing she wants is my dick.”

She huffed “that’s all I wanted.” I smirked “and you got it plenty of times. Is that the problem? You think because I cheated on her with you I’ll do it to you?”

“Does is sound so crazy out loud?” She asked tying her robe up. “No baby it doesn’t. You don’t trust us alone, and it’s not like you’re wrong in feeling that way. I can assure you on my kids I just held her. That’s all she wanted, so I did that for her. I told her I loved her and I refuse to lose her and have to raise our daughter alone. Nothing happened, I’ve cheated before yes, but I’ve never lied to anyone after and I won’t start now.” I said looking her in the eyes.

“I hate that you love her the way you do, she gets this side of you I want but can never have. It makes me feel like you’d rather her over me all the time” she said looking at her feet.

When she said that, I was finally able to see what about Kae bothered her so much. I also never let Robin see me unaffectionate toward her since we had our daughter so it was probably throwing her for a loop. I closed the space between us and picked her head up “baby you have to tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it. There’s nothing I won’t try to do for you. Stop comparing you and her to this right here. You never really pull me in for the soft stuff. Is that what you want? Me to be more gentle you can have that.”

I gently pushed her hair back and kissed her softly placing my hand on the small of her back. I pulled back and caressed her cheek bending to rest my forehead hers “I’m so in love with you. I want this and you forever.” She blushed a bright crimson red and hid her face in my neck making me chuckle “that’s what that feels like, damn. Now I see why you have her so hooked.”

I smacked my teeth “stop talking like it’s competition. It’s not, you want me to give you that soft affection well ask for it. I’m rough because that’s always been our thing. I can’t know you want the best of both worlds if you don’t talk to me. Communication remember?”

“I’m sorry, let me feed you. Then you can feed me that good shit” she said biting her lip at me. “You a damn nymph” I said making her laugh.

I was about grab her and she pushed me away suddenly running to the bathroom. I followed her with an urgency because I didn’t understand what was happening. Once I rounded the corner I could hear her bringing up everything she must’ve eaten during the day. “You ok?” I asked wetting a rag with some cold water for her. “Yeah, I’m fine I guess that left over shrimp I ate wasn’t the best idea.” I raised an eyebrow because she rarely gets sick, but said nothing of it “you sure you ok baby?” She nodded “yeah I promise, go eat I’m gonna clean up a bit and come join you. We have few more kid free hours and I want all of them.”

I chuckled “alright. I’ll fix you a small plate and pour you some ginger ale.” She smiled “thank you papi.”

I walked off leaving her there but in the back of my mind I felt like something was off. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but I’d find out. If Robin is by any means being sneaky I'm done. I dished our food and thought about the possibility of her being pregnant, but that’s next to impossible because I fucked her last night and this morning. So I shrugged it off going with the first option of her just being sick.

Robin

I stared at the positive pregnancy test in my hands and I started crying. Chris was absolutely not the father and how was I supposed to throw this monkey wrench in there? Oh you know I let Odell fuck your pussy raw and I also let him cum inside me, so we’re having a Beckham baby! I grabbed my phone once it dinged back with a text from Odell.

Big O 💙🏈- Come over, I’m in LA. I want this baby and you Robin.

Me- O idk, I haven’t told Chris yet I’m scared.

Big O 💙🏈- Well I’m here for you baby girl, I love you

Me- I’ll call you later

I put my phone down and put my hand up covering my face. It’s been a few days and this is the 12th positive test I’ve taken so I know I’m not crazy. Just as I thought about what to tell Chris he snuck up on me on the bedroom floor. “Aye baby, what’s wrong? You feeling ok?”

I looked at him and he rushed to my side once he saw me crying. I wouldn’t let him touch me though. I could see frustration on his face. “Yo what’s good with you? You been acting funny all week man.” I sighed “Chris I’m pregnant.” He smiled and kissed me “why you so nervous? Have I ever not wanted one of my kids?”

“That’s problem Chris, this is not your baby it’s Odell’s.” I said watching him drop his smile and look at me like I was telling a joke. “Babe that isn’t funny, this is my kid right?” I sighed and shook my head “no Chris it isn’t.” He stood up and took a seat on the bed looking at his shoes. I knew he was pissed because he said not one word. I didn’t even bother to say anything to him either. He looked at me and I could see the anger, hurt, and disgust on his face. I couldn’t look him in the eye so I just looked away. “How far along?” He asked lowly.

“I’m guessing I’m anything from 10-12 weeks along. We had sex everyday the week of the baby shower for India.” He chuckled “you know I guess this is my get back huh?” I knitted my eyebrows “huh?” “You know I got Kae pregnant so this is my karma.” I smacked my teeth “are you serious right now?” He opened his mouth but the kids ran in putting a halt on this conversation “daddy!!!” Kyia ran up to her dad and he smiled kissing her cheeks “hi beautiful. How was school?”

“Ohhhh fun today we did 3 times tables. 3x1 is 3, 3x2 is 6, 3x3 is 9! Ohhhh and I made you a picture see, we dancing daddy!” She said handing him the photo. He smiled so big it melted my heart “aww baby girl you’re so smart and this picture is perfect I’m gonna hang this on my art wall. I love it.” Christian laughed and walked over dapping up on his dad with their secret handshake and hugged him “wassup pops!”

“Shit bicking” he said making us all laugh at him being silly. As much as we fought he never let our babies see us yelling at each other “y’all say hi to your mother. Y’all act like she invisible when I’m here be nice.” They ran over to me and jumped me and I laughed holding them tight “I love you mommy” Christian said. I was so emotional I started crying. Kyia wiped my eyes “mommy why you cry for?”

“Cause I love you guys so much. I missed you today too. I think I’m gonna lock you guys up.” They giggled “no mommy you get in trouble” Kyia said playing in my hair. I smiled “never you’re allllllll mine!” I started tickling them and they fell out laughing. “Alright knuckle heads it’s time for homework, get your books” Chris said to them as he stood up.

They whined “awwweeee mannn.” He fanned them “yeah aw man my butt, come on! I ain’t raising no slow babies.” They ran out the room and he got up to follow “Chris I-“ I began but he held his hand up. “Save it, I really don’t want to hear it. You let that nigga cum all up inside my shit and you carrying his seed. I don’t wanna hear that you’re sorry or anything like that. Just know it’s different now and this shit here is the straw that broke the camel’s back. You could’ve left me and my fiancé alone and I could’ve been expecting my son to be here in a few weeks. You knew you was straight fucking that nigga letting him believe y’all was together and you still stood in that room and broke up my relationship. This type of shit is exactly why I don’t want to be with you cause you fucking selfish as shit. I’m gonna go help my kids do their homework and then we’re going to see Silver today. I haven’t seen my daughter in a few days and I miss her. Shit I miss her mother too” he said making sure to burn me with the last comment. I didn’t even bother to argue back because he was right. Odell thought we were getting back together up until that baby shower. I also was fucking him through every inch of his house like I was trying for him to give me baby. If he left me this time I can’t say I blame him. I picked up my phone and called Odell “I’m on my way” I said into the receiver once he answered.

“You ok, why you sound like that?” He asked concerned. I sighed “just stay on the phone with me until I get there?”

“Yeah I can do that” he said as I grabbed my purse and headed downstairs to grab my keys. I walked into the kitchen and kissed my babies “have fun with daddy. I’ll see you guys in a bit.”

“Byeeeee mom” they said in unison. I listened to Odell calm me down as I drove to his house to talk. He was doing everything I needed Chris to be doing, and the reassurance he was doing made me feel good. It was crazy because I never had to beg him for things I wanted and needed he just did them. With this little life inside me everything was about to change. I was beginning to wonder if Chris and I could really stand the test of time with this. Could he watch another man father my child?

Chris

“Chris unhook your sister from her car seat” I told Christian as I pulled into the driveway of the home I shared with Kae not long ago. He did as I said and helped her out the car. I smiled watching as he held her hand to the front door. I knew when they got older he will be beating some ass behind his sister. I rang the doorbell and Kae answered looking very done up.

“Damn” I mumbled. She smiled “why didn’t you just use your key, I just got back. Erin took me for lunch and insisted I dress cute.”

“You look better than cute” I said watching as she hugged the kids. “Awe, I miss y’all so much. You gotta stay with me a weekend” she said kissing their cheeks. They hugged her so tight and it warmed me to see how much they seemed to make her genuinely feel happy. “Where’s my daughter?”

“First of all she’s watching tv, second can I get some loving or something?” She asked embracing me. I chuckled “yeah you can get some loving alright” I said smacking her ass as she walked away. She giggled and I followed “what’s up with you? What did she do now?” I laughed “we’ll talk in a few, let me just say hey to my princess.” I walked in the living room to see Silver sprawled out eating pretzels “hey princess” I said softly tugging her hair.

She turned around and leaped into my arms “daddy you came!” I closed my eyes and just held her tight “I promised didn’t I?” She held me so tight I knew she missed me all the same “can you stay tonight? Please?” Without hesitation I agreed “yes, I can and for you I will.” She kissed my cheek and crawled back in front the tv with her siblings joining her with snacks of her own.

“Hey, come upstairs tell me what’s going on” Kae said catching my attention. “You’re doing better” I said noticing a pep in her step today. “The medication is helping, this is my first day wearing makeup since the accident. I’m not the best, but I’m trying. Chris I swear today is the first day I see a light at the end of the tunnel.” I closed the bedroom door behind us and she walked into the closet to change “well you know I’m here for you.”

“Yeah I know, but what’s up? Talking about your problems might make me feel better.” She said making me smack my teeth. She giggled “she’s pregnant Rue.” She shrugged “ok so, you worried about me or, wait she what? How?!” I threw my hands up “it’s his!” She dropped her jaw “whatttttttt! After all the shit she talked and now she having a baby by O?”

“Exactly, it’s always something. I should’ve never let you leave me. I miss the peacefulness in my life and your Vietnamese food” I said earning a smile. “Chris you do know that you said you love her more right? Did you lie or was that the honest truth? Was all that for nothing? Or you just pissed off she having a baby and it’s not yours?” She asked her hand on her waist. I sighed “I’m past pissed, but honestly I’m in love with the both of you. My heart feels like I never finished anything with Robin so I want to be with her and then there’s you, but it’s different you know. You don’t want much and I love that. We got therapy tomorrow and it’s about to be whirlwind because it’s confession day.”

She walked towards me and climbed onto the bed laying back “What’s your confession?”

“This baby shit giving second, third, and fourth guesses. I know for a fact I can not see her carry another nigga child and act like I’m gonna be ok.”

“Well Chris it’s time you start telling the truth, don’t let that girl think y’all gonna be together forever only for her to end up alone” she said looking at me. “Did I tell you I was sorry? Did I tell you I never meant to hurt you?” I asked pulling her small body toward mine. “No, but I like the kissing of my ass keep going.” I chuckled “I ain’t shit, you rode for me and I played you. Is there anyway you could forgive me?”

She flipped her hair “let’s start with your credit card, cough it up daddy!” I laughed so hard and handed her my wallet “anything else?” She tapped her chin “this is part where we kiss and makeup, but I guess the shopping spree can be our alternate ending.” I looked at her bare legs and I was tempted, but I was trying not to be that guy anymore “unfortunately as much as I’m tempted I probably shouldn’t.” She smiled as my phone dinged with a text from Robin. I looked at Kae and she nudged me to open it.

Robin Hood 😈💦👅💚- Chris I think we should break up. I’m sorry I begged you to get back with me, but I should’ve just left it alone

Me- Robin what?

Robin Hood 😈💦👅💚- I’m going to get back with Odell

I didn’t even bother to reply. I simply just placed my phone down kicked off my shoes and laid parallel to Rue in silence. Two whole months of my life I spend in therapy to be worth of just a break up text.

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hoedameron · 3 years

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recap of the tv shows i watch on tuesday because i am distracting myself <3

ncis: the 400th episode was so scrumptious omfggg ducky as a young adult like HELLLOOO??? KING HERE IS MY NUMBER PLEASE CALL MEEEE FORGET THAT BITCH MAGGIE I’M BETTER THAN HER!!! it was an intricate case and SUPER interesting to see how gibbs and ducky got to know each other and just...love seeing the growth and progression in both of them. UGHH!! anyways now we gotta wait two weeks for the next episodes but it’s all good at least there will be new episodes :)

fbi: screammm maggie telling oa about her relationship with nestor y’all....OKAY! that shit had me like oh mannn i hope these mfers make it like miss. maggie deserves happiness in her life. speaking of which, where is oa’s little girlfriend?? they break up?? oa here’s my number :3c the case...okay, i will be honest, the preview didn’t do it justice but MAN it was SO interesting and just...the way it unfolded like i never would’ve thought...also the way it was kinda a jubal-centric episode KING GETTING THE SPOTLIGHT HE DESERVES. also fuck his old mistress for not drinking the coffee -_- i am HERE for you king <33 again, gotta wait two more weeks for this to show again pero worth it xx

big sky: almost said big sky country -_- choices moment. anyways, grace looking at michelle and saying this is my new mom :) FUCK YOU DANNY MICHELLE IS MY NEW OLDER SISTER! and honestly, good for her because her older sister is a big ole transphobe xx anyways, i think she’ll learn to do better lol. okay, this was...interesting and it sets up a lot of things into motion. we learn more about the “plan” for the three girls, we learned that casey/cassie and jenny/jennie will work the case despite others not doing shit about it....and denise always got her nose in shit like God bless her i would put a restraining order on her ass if that were me. this show is gonna be a lot and it comes back next tuesday unlike the others (probably because it was mostly filmed pre-covid) so we will see

anywaysss!! i love my tuesday shows a lot and they are the only shows plus ncis: nola that i actually keep up with and keep my attention. apparently my dad actually wants to pick up spn again (lol) so we might watch that during the time before ncis and fbi come back <33 a dangerous path to be going down...

#you can give me a show that has zero commercials and i can watch the entire season if i wanted to but i would simply say no </3 #idk i just don't like the concept of binge watching...it's like okay and once you're done then what??

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staboteur · 6 years

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♣: Any headcanons about your muse? ♪: Favorite song?

Oops It’s Not Munday Anymore (closed)

♣: Any headcanons about your muse?

//oh mannn well in this one discord server we were talking about tsundere spy and while yes i know the term is old and outdated and doesn’t apply to rene completely,, look he gets shy and blushy about PDA and it’s real cute

//he’s like the complete opposite in private though. If he’s in private with someone he’s close to (whether it’s a close friend or a lover), he just,, can’t keep his hands off??? Mostly holding hands, leaning against them, hugging, snuggling.

♪: Favorite song?

//how can you make me choose it honestly depends on my mood like,, sometimes i need a pick me up so i listen to stuff that’s like,, confidence-inducing??? Like stupid amounts of confidence, stuff that boosts my ego to the stratosphere. And sometimes when I really really need a muse boost i listen to rene and will’s respective playlists (rene’s has some Good Ass Edgy Songs on it so that’s good and Will’s playlist is a general pick me up bc while it’s not like confidence-inducing it’s like,, happy)

//though if i had to choose only one song, i’ll go with my current most consistent favorite: Shape of You by Ed Sheeran (who… is gonna be touring in my area in august and my dad got me tickets for my bday so guess who’s going)

#{ ooc | out of cloaking }#scout-out-the-mesa

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bioniiic · 7 years

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all of the asks

1: Full nameidk man. not too fond w putting my full name on the tumbsz but wassup im sam2: Age163: 3 Fearsflyingthe darkmen4: 3 things I lovemy gfmy friendsmy DOG5: 4 turns on good smellgood,,asshumorgirl6: 4 turns offBAD SMELLTHATS IT ALSO MEN7: My best friendhek sarah and josefine. also lys8: Sexual orientationpansexual ???? idk mostly i just like girls 9: My best first datedo nothing. eat and watch shows and nap10: How tall am I6'4 i know11: What do I misshek :/(12: What time were I born12:15 am I was almost a march 9th kiddo13: Favourite coloryello 14: Do I have a crushyes my gf my love 15: Favourite quotedie16: Favourite placecopenhagen and paris. both very different cities and equally important 2 me17: Favourite foodTARTLET 18: Do I use sarcasmall. the time 19: What am I listening to right nowthis old dog by mac demarco ok20: First thing I notice in new personidk if theyre funny i think21: Shoe size 7 !!! small22: Eye colorone is green n one is brown 23: Hair colorcurrently very black 24: Favourite style of clothingblack jeans and some sort of fuckin hoodie im boring 25: Ever done a prank call?i used to do them all the time w my friends in the choir HDKVNSMCN yes i was in a choir but only for the cake 27: Meaning behind my URLidk its a placebo song fskkcsjskdks28: Favourite moviemr nobody leave me alone 29: Favourite songSCSRED OF GIRLS BY PLACEBO FUCK ME30: Favourite bandPLACEBOSJDKSKKD31: How I feel right nowim tired and i want lys to wake up 32: Someone I lovelys my beeeeb33: My current relationship statusim dating my BEAUTIFUL angel gf 34: My relationship with my parentshmmmm. below average 35: Favourite holidayCHRISTMAS 36: Tattoos and piercing i havenoone 37: Tattoos and piercing i wanti want a septum piercing and all the tattoos38: The reason I joined Tumblri had a crush on a girl and i was obsessed with her and she had tumblr so i got tumblr and only reblogged things she liked and she never noticed me JDKSJDJSK39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?NO we just don't talk 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?lys41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?its lys i wish i had :-(42: When did I last hold hands?it was with josefines girlfriend while she was tweezing her eyebrows and she needed to hold my hand for support 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?like. 5 seconds 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?HAHAHA NO45: Where am I right now?in my bed 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?idk i dont drink that much but probably josefine47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?reasonable in like. headphones but anywhere else it's LOUD48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?no. well like. every 2 weeks i shift between them #divorce am i right ladiez 49: Am I excited for anything?summer 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?my DOG 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?a lot ha ha ha 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?my adult friend yesterday JSJSJK53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?the last person i kissed was my friend ,,,and she has a gf so id probably say can yall like do that somewhere else JDJAHSH54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?no i only trust a few very good people 55: What is something I disliked about today?i just woke up. also that56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?lys :-(57: What do I think about most?lys LoL 58: What’s my strangest talent?idk ???? 59: Do I have any strange phobias?PUKE60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?behind 61: What was the last lie I told?"im gonna wake up soon" lol62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?video 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?both are real and valid 64: Do I believe in magic?no hoe65: Do I believe in luck?no. hoe66: What’s the weather like right now?grey67: What was the last book I’ve read?sushi for beginners haha68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?nnO69: Do I have any nicknames?sammy but only lys gets to call me that also hek calls me sami I do not know why 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?i broke my tailbone once that was pretty bad71: Do I spend money or save it?SAVE IT IM SO BAD AT SOENDING MONEY72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?noooooo ma'am 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?a marker 74: Favourite animal?dogggggggGGGGG75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?talking to lys but then she disappeared for 3 hours and im mad76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?roberts77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?you had me at hello GAYYSYYAYSY78: How can you win my heart?be lys. also food 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?gay 80: What is my favorite word?gay81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrgay82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?gay83: Do I have any relatives in jail?i dont think so ???84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?FLYING. TELEPORTING 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?idk mannn86: What is my current desktop picture?the default one cause im lazy and its a school computer 87: Had sex?NOO 88: Bought condoms?no 89: Gotten pregnant?no90: Failed a class?noooOoo maam 91: Kissed a boy?nooooOOOO MAAM 92: Kissed a girl?yes,93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?no94: Had job?nonoooo MAAM 95: Left the house without my wallet?yes96: Bullied someone on the internet?HAHHAHAA97: Had sex in public?no98: Played on a sports team?yes but like. not really 99: Smoked weed?NOO MAAM 100: Did drugs?no101: Smoked cigarettes?noooo102: Drank alcohol?yes 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?fuck NO104: Been overweight?yes105: Been underweight?no 106: Been to a wedding?yes 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?LOL108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?LOL109: Been outside my home country?yes 110: Gotten my heart broken?yes oopsie111: Been to a professional sports game?yes but at half time me and my dad left and got mcdonalds and then we went home112: Broken a bone? yes 113: Cut myself?no more 114: Been to prom?no im foreign 115: Been in airplane?yes116: Fly by helicopter?i haven't but i NEVER WILL. NEVER 117: What concerts have I been to?one direction, the 1975, gerard way, the front bottoms and twenty one pilots 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?yes. exclusively 119: Learned another language?yes120: Wore make up?yes no h0mo bro121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?no122: Had oral sex?nnnno123: Dyed my hair?yes its dead now 124: Voted in a presidential election?noooo maam im still foreign 125: Rode in an ambulance?no126: Had a surgery?im so boring ive never tried anything 127: Met someone famous?no i was rlly close to meeting bry after twenty one pilots once but NAH128: Stalked someone on a social network?always129: Peed outside?mo 130: Been fishing?fuck no 131: Helped with charity?yes132: Been rejected by a crush?well. kinda133: Broken a mirror?no134: What do I want for birthday?idk i just had my birthday man 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?IF. I HAD A KID. IF. it would be a girl and her name would be leah 136: Was I named after anyone?no137: Do I like my handwriting?fuck no its so bad138: What was my favourite toy as a child?probably that doll that pisses by itself. u know what im talking about 139: Favourite Tv Show?idk oh fuck probably new girl 140: Where do I want to live when older?copenhagen or the us for a bit 141: Play any musical instrument?guitar ukulele and bass cause im basic142: One of my scars, how did I get it?my dog scratches me a lot 143: Favourite pizza toping?ham. cheese144: Am I afraid of the dark?y e s 145: Am I afraid of heights?Y E S146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?yes but i wasn't sneaking out really,,147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?every day hoe !148: What I’m really bad atlife 149: What my greatest achievments arefuck idk150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to methat i was a trump supporter. u know who u are 151: What I’d do if I won in a lotterylive on a bigass farm and have all the animals 152: What do I like about myselfmy eyes ?? my cheekbones 153: My closest Tumblr friendnone i hate yall 154: Something I fantasise about😉😉😉😉😉😉

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