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monstress · 2 years

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thoughts on cowboy bebop 2021 under the cut

my expectations were LOW so like...the show isn't bad but it wasn't great either

cons:

the pacing is sooo slow why did they need to pad an original 20 min eps series to 40-60 mins??? after eps one, i played this in 1.25x speed and turned my brain off and it immediately became more watchable

speaking of padding, i was excited for more Julia backstory but not like THIS......ma'am im so sorry but you'll always be a bad bitch who had her own mysterious adventure outrunning the syndicate in my mind instead of gaslight gatekeep girlbossing your way to the top. spike was right...JULIA THIS ISN”T YOU!!!!

after the first eps, i do ffw every syndicate scene which isn't great since it covers half the runtime. i think what’s great abt the original is that much of the shadowy organization - its characters, relationships, and influence is left to the viewer’s imagination so like demystifying them diminishes their intimidation

the sexytumblrman-ification of vicious. why........

the writing is rough as hell and i deeply admire the few actors who could pull it off....

......which leads to the julia and vicious characters. oof wow. what was casting thinking. switch them with asimov and katerina’s actors and i’d might actually watch their Marriage Story b-plot

that fetishizing comment to jet like i cringed so hard but at least it had a cute moment of spike and jet laughing abt it afterwards but we could do without that

i know they changed gren’s plot bc the writers might want to avoid the bury your gays trope but i wish they were more essential to the plot and had more to do

oof i wished this adaptation was done by apple tv or amazon prime like netflix is cheap as hell for scrimping on the production budget for a show where it is all abt world-building and ~vibes

and the vibes were OFF...like choose a tone! choose a genre! what are u trying to say here! what is permeating and unsaid in every eps!

the Ed reveal...god that didn't translate well to live action....i was also like...who the hell is this pale child 😭 not this show going 2 for 2 on casting white ppl for lead roles originally of poc

THE ENDING??? et tu, julia? the last 10 mins sours the entire show mashallah what a disservice to spike, julia and vicious and abt how tethering yourself to ghosts while trying to survive in capitalist isolation will ultimately undo you

pros:

the music??? new Seatbelts???? yoko kanno i owe you my life

EIN....majorly underused but a delight everytime onscreen

sorry to my mans john cho but mustafa shakir is carryingggg this show i mean GET this man booked in every project like i’ve been saying since luke cage honest god he deserves it

john cho is great i like him he makes me smile like we as a society are overdue of him gracing the screen as THE sexy leading man (rip abc selfie...)

faye is gay and i knowww it’s because they had the mechanic substitute gren since they had so many changes to their character but the moment where she gets all emotional since it taps into something she hasn’t realized or FORGOTTEN abt herself like idk if im reading too much into it but i shall

when the bebop team bicker, banter, then work together...peace and love and friendship on earth and beyond 😇❤️

they actually bought the loofah on a stick T T the callback made me laugh and broke my heart at the same time

the flashback scene in eps 9...ok maybe i DO allow some syndicate scenes and julia & vicious can actually hv chemistry! just not with each other :/

eps 7 is the best eps. i did like the small alteration in faye’s backstory and u can’t play the scene of faye watching that tape of herself and not have me cry. that scene in particular is a standout it’s like the first time the show actually breathes and hv a quiet moment - letting the actors do their thing and hv the viewer emphatize with their reactions (gonna ignore the irony that the best part of this show is when there’s no dialogue slgsklgkslgkl)

tl;dr: not a good show, you can skip this even if ur not a fan. it’s fine and not as bad as ppl make it out to be but watching the og is a much better use of ur time.

#cowboy bebop 2021 #s2 should hire more writers who are NOT men...just a suggestion

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roccinan · 3 years

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1/? simply because you have the most galaxy brain thoughts ever,,, what do you think would've happened if they waited until s5 to reveal sergio and andrés were (half)brothers?

i do know that when my fam started watching lcdp at first i was so put off. like i watched ep 1 and the prof creeped me out. ""berlin"" creeped me out. e v e r y o n e creeped me out. and i was cringing so hard becz of the short lived romance angle with alison parker. i literally did not watch s1 at all xcept for like sneak peeks. highlights being the scene where berlin discovers monica is alive and does his dramatic door by door thing? that was so SUSPENSEFUL even tho i had no idea what was going on. DOMINGO DE RESURECCION remains forever iconic.

2/? And OF COURSE the group bella ciao dance when they hit earth (hahah i thought the banda were actually like a "found family where they all love each other LOL") i am a SUCKER for found family. but anyhoo when i properly got intrigued was s2 when tokyo was kicked out (the music from that scene is still my favourite) it's just so dramatic..!! why am i telling u all this again? right, i haven't slept a wink and it's nearly 7 am pls forgive me if these rambles make no sense. i have a point with this.. i'm going somewhere

RIGHT. so when the fam actually rewound the ep cz i wanted to know WHY berlin did that (didn't fully realise how batsht crazy he can be), the russian roulette scene played. and pedro's acting. MAN. and like just that ep they made a point of showing us these flashbacks where sergio and andrés hug....

Hi anon! Thanks for stopping by- sorry took me a while to get back to you, will do my best to answer this string of messages (got all 4 parts)! Glad you like my thoughts XD

Firstly, I believe Andres/Sergio would be the biggest LCDP ship if the writers were evil enough to wait until s5 to reveal that they’re brothers asdfasdf. They’re already the two most popular male characters anyway.

It’d be especially crazy because it’s not like they tell the actors these things beforehand either. So that means there’d probably be a Serdres vs Berlermo vs Serquel fight every 5 minutes. I mean, even if not everyone agrees on everything in the lcdp fandom, it’s the most “peaceful” one I’ve ever been in because no character really gets in the way of any other ship (like even with helermo and berlermo there’s no true conflict since Andres is dead). But with Serdres in the mix?? CATASTROPHE. Everyone out here writing essays about how much of a bastard/bitch/homewrecker/motherfucker that Andres or Sergio or Martin or Raquel is. Never a moment’s peace!! so basically, a regular fandom lmao.

Then when we find out they’re brothers, it goes from catastrophe to Apocalypse. Suddenly serquel and berlermo have the upper hand. Everyone would double down and harass the crew/cast into whatever’s going on. Plot-wise, everything is the same though, just without Andres calling Sergio “hermanito.” Fandom however, would be a minefield! And I’m glad that’s not the case because I’d probably be an unfortunate serdres shippers XD No joke, my mother and I thought they were a couple in S1. So bullet dodged!

Secondly: haha, everyone creeped me out in S1 too, especially Berlin, I hated him, but thinking back, I think I mostly hated the fact that I didn’t hate him as much as I should have. I’ve made peace with it now but oh boy, was he a controversial figure in my head. I actually like the professor on sight though! IDK why, maybe because I thought his plans were cool or because of Alvaro’s delivery. I was afraid of an Alison Parker romance thing too- like, I do feel like she had a storyline that got dropped, but that part was quite cringey and overall unnecessary to the plot. Same with Ariadna, which was even cringier and even Less necessary to the plot.

Domingo de resurrecion was iconic though yes! And even with all that said, I genuinely enjoyed parts 1 and 2 because it was so different from anything else I’d seen. Not content wise, but maybe tonally? IDK, they were just really bold with a lot of things, like being objectively unafraid of having the protagonists (plural because all of them did LMAO) do objectively shitty things. Really kept me in suspense from beginning to end!

I’m usually a big fan of found families too! The funny thing is, then banda never struck me as a “family” until season 3. In 1 and 2, I was wondering what felt different about this show; then it hit me that these people remained colleagues to the end. Like, they backstabbed each other (repeatedly) and everyone was quite selfish, and only the bonds that were already there stuck. They were the opposite of a found family LOL But I think by S3, they went down the found family route and I didn’t mind because it makes quite a lot of sense for them to feel that bond after the Mint heist and almost dying/living together (and having witnessed 3 deaths together on the team). But I still doubt Berlin and Palermo were ever really part of this found family, with good reason XD

LOL the scene where Tokyo got kicked out is also among my favorites!! It was so funny and dramatic, and it was like, wow we can go anywhere with this now! Don’t worry- your rambles and thoughts are always welcome :D

I’m rolling over how you watched the Tokyo expulsion scene before the Russian Roulette scene haha. Also yes, PEDRO. Berlin may have been “controversial” to me at first, but I became Pedro’s fan from day one! Also the Hug is probably what made me like Berlin (despite my determination to hate him rip) in the first place.

3/? ... and like now that i think about it... tokyo had real guts huh. like she KNEW berlin was close enough to el prof to know his name (fhshshs imagine if she'd heard andrés saying 'hermanito' it's unrealistic that she didn't TBH. i mean obviously they decided to make them brothers only towards the end but like in canon universe. how tf did andrés de 'i raised my bby brother since he was 12 and i'd actually die for him and his stupidly brilliant plans' fonollosa go 5 months without slipping up once and calling sergio hermanito. or like,,, i like to imagine sergio kinda gave him lots of leeway(?) sergio's a lil oblivious too but like i'm sure half of it is.. that's my dumbass older bro shut up i'm not being partial you all have city names .. andr-berlin, pass the salt. like OOF. + sergio also knew his big bro was dYiNG so like. i'm sure they were sneaking in some quality time (i hope they did 😭 gosh imagine if sergio really did not ever consider the possibility of andrés dying in the heist so he'd tell himself he needs to perfect the plan now & anyway he'll have enough time to spend w/ his brother post heist in philippines. and then ... that happened :/

Tokyo has guts in place of braincells you bet that she’d do something like this, consequences be damned XD I also think it’s unrealistic for Andres not to slip up, but I have a feeling nobody besides Tokyo really tried to spy on them in private. I headcanon that Andres instead slips up and does things like ruffle Sergio’s hair or adjust his tie when other people are around. I also think Tokyo was convinced that they were a gay couple when she saw them hug XD And if Sergio never went on to tell the banda that Berlin was his brother, everyone would be giving Palermo such awkward looks after Nairobi accused him of being in love with Berlin LMAO.

I agree! I also imagine Sergio giving Andres leeway because he’s just so used to interacting with his brother that way haha. So either he’d go out of his way to ignore Berlin in front of everyone else or IDK, borderline telepathically communicate with him. Not even “pass the salt” has to leave his mouth- Berlin just puts salt into his food and cuts it up for him, in front of everyone who’s just staring like O.O

I actually do think Sergio never considered the possibility of Andres dying in the heist because he was just that confident in his own plan. Plus, Andres was probably the one person he expected to survive. And a lot of it has to do with Sergio’s attachment to him + Andres’ own habit of downplaying any illness/injury over the years, which I think is safe to believe canon. He was really in no condition to be in the heist, let alone lead it. Just the fact that he needs to take those injections is a big sign that he shouldn’t be there, but Sergio didn’t catch it because he’s human and blinded by faith :’) So yeah, I think Sergio was planning to spend proper time with Andres in Palawan and at Toledo, they just settled for those little moments by the fireplace.

4/? what always also just GETS me in the feels is that el prof was shown to be this in control creepily calm dude who is miles ahead of everyone. + in the 1st Toledo class itself we see how detached,, like how impersonal he is, how professional - choosing frickin CITY NAMES?! no 'personal relationships' ? (after recruiting his older brother, a father son pair, and war cousins... oh sergio 😂 he's such a frickin nerd and i love him) but like the earlier seasons really emphasised how robotic and down right COLD he can be. it still sometimes bothers me that he put the button in the car. he lead the police to his own damn brother, his blood, who took care of him and adopted him and was terminally ill and like - UGH i try to rationalise that sergio is that cold and unbothered. or that he has strict morals. but it still bothers me becz that button really sort of tipped andres' already unstable sanity. like andrés tells denver someth like you've robbed my future and after that he just seems so much more suicidal and accepting that he can't get out of the mint alive - WHY SERGIO WHY. I KNOW THAT AT THAT POINT YOU BASICALLY DIDN'T KNOW ANDRÉS WAS GOING TO BE YOUR BROTHER YET BECZ IT WASN'T WRITTEN IN THE SCRIPT BUT WHYYYYY

That’s so funny to me too LMAO No personal relationships, then he recruits these guys. Sergio, hello?? Also can’t forget how he just recruited his own girfrleind in the second heist too. Buddy! Love this nerd.

I don’t think that cold aspect of Sergio went away in later seasons either; he just had more opportunity to show a more open side of himself + without Andres, he had to metaphorically leave his comfort zone without a safety net. But in earlier seasons, he really did seem heartless at times XD Then again, we can argue that the same goes for Andres.

To be fair, I didn’t feel sorry for Andres over the button thing lol, but once the brothers reveal happened and all of Alvaro/Pedro’s headcanons came out and we know everything Andres did for Sergio, it makes what Sergio did REALLY harsh. We really just have to explain it through Sergio’s strict morals and him believing this to be the best non-fatal punishment for Andres, who at that point had convinced him he killed a hostage. And because he knew the television interview was coming up, maybe Sergio assumed Andres would use it to “clear” his name anyway. And empathy isn’t one of Sergio’s strong suits either, so through that lens, I can rationalize it.

Also it was lowkey funny to me how Andres was there like DENVER MUST DIE until he found out Sergio put the button there, then he was like “oh hermanito, you and your practical jokes <3″

Still, like you said, Andres and Sergio weren’t brothers yet at this point. They were probably supposed to be lovers lmao and had a dysfunctional Hannibal Lecter x Will thing going on. But because they made #hermanos canon, that button moment just feels very out of place now, especially given how much the two genuinely love each other.

Guess we could also say that Sergio’s just generally kinda bratty with Andres XD Like, he knows no matter what, Andres would forgive him anything. That’s how I see it anyway!

#anonymous #thanks for stopping by!#royalpaperhouse is this you my friend? :D

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misterbitches · 4 years

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i said i would talk about saizon and usually i would be under the influence. but i am not yet. read the * at end of the post first if u want clarification of overall.

i might mention torfight (will refer as f/t) but if anyone gets upset just chill. it’s a really inconsequential opinion. the chances of someone stumbling upon this means nothing. it isnt’ a compare and contrast just how i personally feel while viewing these shows. and i probably want to dive into what this means in a broader context since i have all the time and brain space in the world

from the first encounter of saifah and zon or their first encounter outside of their “kiss” (LOL? so unnecessary) it was clear that as awkward as it could or may be there was natural chemistry. which i want my tiny head to explore.

so a lot of BL (which is like....tv and movies etc in general anyways) hell even dramas may have a less sexual undertone to get to where they are going. which i think is a problem with tv in general (a friend was bringing this up with the new rules of social distancing on set which...capitalism but whatever) where sex is a vehicle for connection. a lot of BLs can be explicit i suppose, but in the west it’s like jumping into bed is a huge base for a lot of couples. also everyone fucks too much who cares.

but sex, kisses, hookups, any nudity, etc is not a placeholder for like actual intimacy, romantic love, showing love. that’s part of why i hate the concept of love at first sight, at least the way it plays out. you can really like someone, hell maybe even love, when you see them or feel this bond but the bond isn’t because you TOUCHED them.

there’s a difference between natural chemistry and forced. natural chemistry is what you would prefer which is why casting directors have literally chemistry tests to test your compatibility as actors, with a writer/director, and on camera. there can be people whose chemistry develops and we see the potential, or people who we know don’t love each other IRL and this is acting but it’s still powerful. but this always means you have to give them the time and space. actors can jump in/out of character but it’s human nature. if two peopl eare meeting for the first time and have to simulate sex there’s going to be this natural like...strangeness. obviously. viewers can see it.

so when you get two people who click irl and it doesn’t always have to be romantic or sexually it’s kind of more of a thrill. very obviously mii2 are a lot more flexible around each other so it is less mechanic. i think i like watching tharntype because even tho i feel like parts of it seriously need some oil, i can see and understand a relationship developing through their characters as they act (and i do not particularly think they are good actors.)

the friendship that saizon display—whether we think it is spontaneous and too quick or not—is legitimately nice. and they are very obviously comfortable with each other. i guess there can be an idea of romantic friendship (but idk abt that one, we dont have to fucking label everything you can love someone so deeply in your own way outside of our parameters bla bla capitalism ruining everything bla bla individualism)

they got in each others faces, then would do very weird shit together, because that’s who they are. for me personally i think being able to have fun with your partner is iMPERATIVE. one of my fav moments is when they fucking meow at each other (which i know is a thai joke, right? idk) and it is so weird but you can tell they understand the way they communicate?

to me like...having someone you feel something deep with is that there’s this role you guys are playing, it’s a joke you started, and with the best kind of intimacy and love your partner can keep it going, keep it rolling, hang it up in the air and you guys just go back adn forth....forever lol

i also legitimately think it is important to hammer home the fact that you are yourself without a partner and i really resent a message that makes it seem like you can’t live without someone. maybe a lack of saizon was good that way. like they existed as two seperate people. their love and attraction weren’t the only thing going for them. it was just natural and very nice.

this particular display of romance and affection is one that’s strong but doesn’t take itself too seriously. not because you don’t want to lose them but because there’s enough security. or like, it’s really guided by this unspeakable feeling you feel with another person.

i’m not sure if that means soulmates but it’s something close. saifah doesn’t expect zon to be someone he can’t, but it doesn’t mean he has to let himself go completely for him. when he expressed being sad that zon pulled away it’s normal. and zon knew he couldn’t do it but they still got through it. and then he pats the bed and saifah jumps on him.

these types of couples remind me of why i feel the way i do about love. i can’t imagine something fucking bogging me down, where i feel like i can’t get up without pulling me, where i don’t feel myself first. zon was figuring himself out and he was thinking of himself and his feelings. bc he should.

that’s another reason why trapped MC (H3) is one of my favs. first of all THEY LAUGHED TOGETHER WHICH IS LIKE A REQUIREMENT UR NO FUN IF UR A SQUARE and second of all they were going to spend year apart and could do that. had to. fuck the carceral state but.

you don’t ask someone to give up a part of themselves, you only want them to be the best they can be. it isnt through demands it’ sgrowing with them and fucking respecting them with everything you have. and it means having a foundation outside of them, too.

i know people get upset at the “love anybody but u have to love yourself” adage but i don’t really see it tht way. i absolutely believe you need to learn to be healthy alone and have a community. rely on all sorts of people. have different types of love and figure yourself out. we can’t be free as human beings without it and i would rather fucking die than not feel free.

oh and like....being with someone where you feel seen and heard not shamed. i read this thing in the atlantic like, partnerships fail a lot because of lack of validation. imagine having someone who trusts you, and maybe helps to trust yourself, and validates you by being there. nice.

and it’s nice having someone you love so deeply and beautifully along for the ride. instead of no actual pleasure outside of sex, your relationship IS the pleasure. beautiful stunning etc. and that’s what makes everythign feel good the love, sex, living, whatever. with someone and with yourself.

this got away from me in conclusion theyre very cute eand that’s cos it’s easy and natural. mii2 are fun to watch as saizon and themselves. life shouldnt be too hard. im a big fan of working as little as possible and being happy kekekek

*i am talking monogamy, love, and the self. why only ‘traditional’ rships? first: i literally cannot handle people because i can’t handle my mind. non-monagamy is incredibly alluring to me for my autonomy, in the abstract, and in theory. however, in practice, i don’t think—for me as a black woman and what it means for me—i can enact anything i feel would be detrimental to me or puts me in a position where i feel forced into a dynamic i no longer care for.

and who knows if that changes? i only do and care about the things i like and find important. no one else but me, family, and friends. how i choose. so i am talking abt monogamy but u can interpret that for other rships if you wish.

second: it’s. my. life.

i dont carrreeee about monogamy/non monagamy outside of liberation and sexual freedom and what does that mean? there is no blueprint for that. there is no future expectation for a relationship, there is nothing but how we choose to interact with the world and community. first and foremost: love means so many things and it doesn’t have to mean any “new” ideas. or “instincts.” who fucking cares. we can’t reimagine literal relationships, people are fucking toxic in all types of them, only reimagine how we interact with ourselves and each other. there is no fucking guarantee with any of this we are safe. you cannot predict life. just live it. honor yourself first. there’s some black feminists books on like love and intimacy if you are curious how capitalism binds us. we keep wanting to find solutions WITHIN when its like nah, it;s our own fuckin terms. self-love becomes the love you can extract from others. it isn’t sustainable.

ROMANTIC LOVE WAS INVENTED TO MANIPULATE WOMEN = JENNY HOLZER

#these are all lit FOR ME #a thot #and if ppl like it so be it #saizon #i am an iNSANE romantic #huge #heh

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shysupernaturalfangirl · 5 years

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Different - Dean Winchester x Reader - Part Five

Fandom: Supernatural

Pairing(s): Dean x Reader

World: Reverse French Mistake AU

Word Count: 2,497

Warning(s): Cussing, Suggestive Implications, PTSD, Nightmares, Past-Abuse, Bad Memories, DEATH of minor-characters.

Summary: It’s every fan-girl’s dream to either, end up in the world of their fantasies, their fandom, or to wind up with on of the actors or characters. There is a couple thousand fanfictions with such circumstances. She never thought in her wildest dreams, that she’d actually end up in a fanfiction situation.

Taglist: @sillydecoy @blackeyedangel9805 @heythereamigodude @gaveherhearttotheliontattoo @seppys-return-to-madness @jaylarkson

~3rd POV~

“That should be it.” Castiel says as Dean puts the last ingredient into the bowl, and Sam crushes the potion together with a pestle in the a mortal and pestle.

“So, do I eat it?” Dean asks, eyeing the dry potion like he’s ready to swallow the whole thing if need be.

“No, mix it with the chamomile tea,” Castiel answers.

“Which is why you didn’t have us add the chamomile in the mortar.” Sam answers wisely.

“Yes, the tea will allow Dean to drink the potion safely, and he must drink it all- it will put him directly to sleep, and allow his conscious to enter Emily’s mind.” Castiel looks to Dean. “Now remember, nothing you find in there is real. It cannot hurt you physically, though it may feel like it. Incubus are sneaky, they make the glamour thick- multiple layers, each dark, but you can just think of a weapon, and it should materialize. To Emily, everything will seem real, it’ll be your job to convince her otherwise. Protect her, but she must give the final blow to whatever has her trapped, in order for her to defeat it.”

“Alright.” Dean nods as Sam hands him a cup, and he crosses to sit on the bed beside the young woman. “I’m coming in, Em. Sorry for the invasion of privacy.” He says, before downing the thick tea as fast as he can. Sam catches the cup in his hand as it goes slack, Dean falls back into the pillows and blankets, passing out with Emily’s hand in his own. Sam and Castiel exchange nervous looks, but neither says anything.

Dean appears in the middle of a deserted road, rain pouring down around him as kids run through the yards, laughing and splashing through the puddles. Five feet away, standing on a porch, is a young girl that looks slightly familiar, her fire red locks are blowing in the rain-soaked wind, her trembling hand on the doorknob. Dean doesn’t seem to notice that the rain isn’t touching him as he jogs towards the girl, pausing on the bottom step of the porch, hand on the railing to get a better look. The house is nice, though lacking bear maintenance, not that the girl seems to mind, or notice, as she grips the knob in her hand tighter. Wait, she definitely is familiar. Dean thinks to himself, slowly reaching towards her. “Emily?” The girl whirls around, fright on her face.

“W-Who are you? What do you want?!” She demands, causing Dean to frown, before Castiel’s instructions flash through his mind again, and he kneels before the red headed girl.

“My name is Dean Winchester. Why are you outside in this weather?” He asks softly.

“My mommy and daddy are fighting, so they sent me to grandma’s. But Grandma left for a vacation today, so I came home. Mommy and Daddy don’t like when I interrupt their fighting. They get angry.” Young Emily explains, causing Dean to nod.

“Why don’t I go in with you? If they get angry, I can explain what happened to them.” Dean offers, causing the Young Emily to hesitate, slowly swallowing before she nods.

“Okay, you don’t seem like a bad man, so you can help.” She grabs his finger to one tiny hand, pulling him along as she reaches to open the door. Suddenly adult Emily is walking up beside them, but the young Emily doesn’t seem to notice. She pauses at the door, causing Dean to look at her, and she swallows thickly, reaching for his hand.

“I remember this day...” She murmurs softly, her grip tightens for a moment, before vanishing as she just walks through the heavy wood door- the memory continues, like it had been on pause the entire time, with Young Emily leading Dean inside to the living room. Dean recoils in horror at the blood stained walls and floor, two figures laying one over the other, on the counter, dead eyes staring at empty spaces, and mouths frozen open in horror. Young Emily screams as Adult Emily is sitting on the blood splattered floor, weeping with her arms covered in blood as Young Emily fades. “It’s all my fault... I killed them.” She sobs as Dean crosses over to her, kneeling beside her to take her hands from her face, hands cuffing her wrists.

“This is a dream, Em. A nightmare.” Dean says soothingly. “This isn’t your fault, because you didn’t kill them.”

“You don’t understand,” She shakes her head, staring up at the people on the counter. “they’re my parents. They didn’t even notice the murderer walking through the front door. I-If I had been back earlier-”

“You would have died too. He likely was a robber, and made a mistake.” Dean promises, tears falling down her cheeks as Dean lifts her head by the chin. “You couldn’t have done anything.” She draws a sharp breath, looking around in confusion.

“D-Dean?” She asks, voice weak and scared at the background fades, changing. Dean pulls her into his arms, holding her close.

“It’s alright.” He says.

“Dean, what’s going on? What happened to the party?” She asks, causing Dean to growl softly in his chest.

“You got glamoured by an Incubus. You’re trapped in a nightmare dream realm.” Dean explains. “It makes you relive some of your worst memories until you die, or the incubus takes you.” He explains.

“A-Am I doomed? Why are you here?” I ask, causing him to sigh.

“The only ways to save you involve killing the Incubus, but we had to hurt you in order to do it, or get you to fight the glamour on your own.” He explains, causing her to frown, tightening her hold on his shirt. “We’ll have to face your nightmares together, and beat them.”

“My m-memories.” She swallows, shaking in his arms at the idea.

“Yes.” He answers softly, petting her hair, providing comfort as he can. “But, I’m here to help you. Nothing can hurt you, and I’m here to prove that.”

“D-Dean, I’m not sure I can do this.” She explains sadly. “My life hasn’t exactly been joyful. I-I’m not exactly the cleanest person.”

“I don’t care, sweetheart. You know I’ve got no reason to judge.” He answers, causing her to sniffle, looking up at him with tearful eyes. “Hey,” He caresses her cheek, trailing a soft thumb across her skin, wiping the tears away. “Emily, you know I’m not going to judge you. You know Sammy and I aren’t the cleanest people too, and we’re not going to cast you away. Ever.” He says, his voice rather dedicated as Emily sniffles, nodding with a sad, broken, smile.

“Alright.” She murmurs, the background changes once more, a park materializing around them as Emily looks around, face going pale as her eyes land on a group of boys all clustered in a circle. Dean and Emily walk over as the memory starts to play.

“Admit it! You killed your parents!” A boy, about 15, yells in a younger Emily’s face, she’s about 15 herself, she’s pale faced, with dark eyes, and all black clothes. “What’d you do? Drink their blood?” The kid, “Asshole” Dean decides to name him, shouts.

“I didn’t do anything to them!” Teen Emily yells, the boys around them snicker.

“You did. You killed them, and you liked it!” Asshole taunts, causing both Emilys to clench their fists. “Because you’re crazy! A kook! Insane!”

“I am not!” Teen Emily shouts, causing Dean to growl as Asshole continues.

“You are! You’re a wannabe vampire, crazy-ass crybaby.” Asshole shouts as the boy continues to shout. “And worse yet? You probably fuck any guy who asks.” With a growl, Teen Emily throws a punch, knocking Asshole clear on his ass, the guys all scrabble to grab Teen Emily as Asshole stands, she screams as they drag her to the lake, and Asshole shoves her head into the water, causing Dean to growl as Emily beside she chokes, water starts coming up out of her throat, dirty and dark, with mud.

“Hey hey hey,” Dean grabs her shoulders, looking her in eyes, a kaleidoscope of emotion to be looking back at him. “it’s not real, this isn’t happening to you right now. Breath! Imagine it away!” He coaxes, brushing his fingers through her hair, and she takes a deep breath as he instructs, no water comes up, and as the two of them look back at the memories, Teen Emily is alone, straddling Asshole with her hands around his neck, squeezing tight.

“S-Stop!” Emily shouts from beside Dean, fear in her eyes. “S-Stop it! You’ll kill him! Stop it! She screams, Dean swallows as tears bud in her eyes, before she takes a deep breath. “STOP IT!!!!” She screams in a shrill voice, the Teen Emily jumps, hands falling from his neck as her head snaps up, before she looks at the unconscious teen before her on the ground, before she shakily backs up, dashing away.

“Did you kill him?” Dean asks as the scenery fades away, looking at Emily, who rubs her arms, looking at the ground.

“I might as well have. I cut off the oxygen to his brain, by the time I was pulled off, the damage...” She looks ashamed, Dean doesn’t say anything this time, just reaching out to hold her hand. “I can feel it. This is the last one before the nightmare.” She warns.

“I’ll be here.” Dean promises as the scenery around them changes into an apartment, and Dean can feel Emily stiffen beside him, his hand is practically being crushed in her’s as a figure comes flying into the coffee-table, the vase gets knocked off behind it. “What the fuck?” Dean asks as an older, but still younger, Emily slowly stands from the coffee-table, wiping blood from her nose as a man charges at her, backhanding her to the floor, kicking her repeatedly. The Emily beside Dean is frozen, completely locked up, with wide eyes, as the man, two times her size, kicks her repeatedly, shouting insults and threats, while Dean feels the urge to kill this bastard. “Emily?” He turns to look at her, blocking the view from her eyes. “Sweetheart?” No response, the horror in her eyes is magnified even as the memory pauses. “Hey, I need you to come out of there.” He says, glancing back to see her memory-self is curled in a ball, trying to protect herself, before he looks back at his Emily. He pulls her close, causing her to flinch, before clinging to his shirt. “I can’t get us out of this, you need to let it go. Don’t forgive if you don’t want to, but you have to forget it.” He says softly, eyeing the memory as it replays, each punch, hit, or kick has her flinching, Dean’s comforting hold on her turns a bit painful as he grits his teeth. Weapon. He remembers what Cas said about weapons, and a gun materializes in his hand, before he hands it to her. “You don’t have to forget, sweetheart. You can shoot him. It’s not real, but it might help.” He promises, causing her to look at him with wide eyes, before she shakes her head.

“N-No, I-I don’t want to.” She stammers softly, and he smiles.

“It’s your choice.” He says in support, but all he wants to do is shoot the guy himself, empty a thousand clips into him. She swallows thickly, before the memory pauses, and she grips the gun tight. Another glance at the man, she throws the gun at him instead, hits his head and bounces off, the frozen memory doesn’t react, but the scene dematerializes. “What was that?” Dean asks carefully, but Emily just shakes her head, unable to answer. “Okay,” He grabs her hand, tight, looping their fingers together. “ready?” She swallows thickly, nodding as a small room with dripping black walls materializes around them, it’s different though. Dean’s still there, but suddenly Emily looks around, fear wide in her eyes.

“D-Dean? Where’d you go? Dean!” She shouts, turning in circles, he tries to reach for her, but his hand passes through her, and he realizes that he’s starting to wake up. “Dean, where are you? You said you’d be here!” She screams, suddenly the walls start to move in on her, leaving him to stare helplessly as she screams, hands coming over her head in fists as she drops to the floor, the dripping black walls closing in ever-so-slowly.

“Emily!” He shouts, causing her head to snap up, eyes wide. “Fight. Like. Hell.” He orders as her eyes land on him, and she nods shakily as he wakes up.

Everything is blurry, fog clouds his mind as he slowly sits up, Sam holding him by the elbow and shoulder to help. He shakes his head violently, looking back at the bed, where Emily is still. Nothing looks like it’s changed, nothing except she’s paler, and it’s light out. “What time is it?” Dean moans as he looks at Sam.

“I think the more accurate question would be, what day is it?” Sam answers, causing Dean to blink tiredly up at his brother. “Dean, you’ve been asleep for a week.” He says, causing Dean’s brows to furrow, before he shakes his head.

“No, no- it can’t have been a week, it only felt like a few hours.” Dean answers, causing Sam to frown.

“No, Dean, it’s been a week. Castiel had even tried to revive you two a few times, but nothing worked. You were trapped for a week, inside Emily’s mind.” Sam explains, causing Dean to look at the young woman, feeling the pain and anger at the mess that was her life, and feeling a connection of a deeper level with her now. “What happened in there?” Sam’s inquiry has Dean shaking his head once more, frowning as he looks up at his baby brother.

“I cant tell you.” He answers honestly. “It’s not my story to tell.” The two boys exchange looks, Sam’s has a hint of betrayal and awe under it, but Dean’s is full of sorrow and understanding. Before they can say anything else, their is a sharp gasp of breath from behind Dean, causing them both to look up as Emily sits straight up in bed, heaving for air. “Thank God!” Dean exclaims, grabbing the redhead’s wrist, and pulling her into his arms, his head burying in the crook of her neck, and he deeply inhales the sweet scent of Emily’s perfume.

“How long have I been asleep?” She asks softly.

“A week, sweetheart. A week.” He answers as Sam discreetly leaves, allowing the two a few minutes alone. Taking out his phone once he’s outside, he shoots out two messages, one to Castiel to explain they’re awake, and one to a mystery number, simple saying that the plan is working. He pockets his phone as he walks away, a smirk on his face.

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Gaming Meme

Thank you @aki888 for the tag!

Not sure who hasn’t done this yet... so please feel free to tag yourself in if you’d like to play!

1. Favourite game from the last 5 years?

Hahahahaha... Star Wars the Old Republic.

2. Most nostalgic game?

It’s a tie between Final Fantasy 6 and Secret of Monkey Island

3. Game that deserves a sequel?

Oh... I don’t know. A lot of games I wound up really enjoying and getting into were part of a series.

4. Game that deserves a remaster?

Um, Final Fantasy 6 deserves a real 3D remastering in 3D like Final Fantasy 7 et all got. I mean, I know why it didn’t, but that story, those characters, and that world deserve the royal treatment in my opinion.

5. Favorite game series?

Monkey Island, Final Fantasy, Sims, and it looks like SWTOR/Bioware games go in there. (I refuse to choose!)

6. Favorite genre?

RPG, Action/Platformers, and adventure/puzzle type games. Mostly anything character based where you can get sucked into another world and really get attached to the cast.

7. Least favorite genre?

First person shooters

8. Favorite song from a game?

Terra/the title theme from Final Fantasy 6. It has so much emotion and just evokes adventure, mystery, and longing to me. It also has some amazing remixes.

9. Favorite character from a game?

This always change on when you ask me, but right now? I’m so stupidly in love with Theron Shan from SWTOR. Not even sorry, I love my Disaster Spy Princess.

10. Favorite ship from a game?

Theron Shan x Jedi Knight. Just... I have so many feelings about these two idiots. I love them so much.

11. Favorite voice actor from a game?

Troy Baker, Kari Wahlgren, Laura Bailey

12. Favorite cutscene?

y u maek me pick? Ohhh... okay, if I have to pick just one, I think right now my favorite is the last cutscene in Rishi, because it was the first time I had seen my favorite two idiots genuinely smile and be happy in the game. I have so many other moments I love, but right now that’s probably my favorite. (And I don’t even have pictures of it.

13. Favorite boss?

...I’m trying to think of non-SWTOR answers here, but that’s where my brain is at. I think for boss fights, one of the ones I find most fun is the Malgus fight in the False Emperor storyline. While it can be a little frustrating, I like the fact that it has this little hero moment built in for each member of the party. Just kind of a cool thing that really draws you in.

14. First console?

Atari somethingsomething. My brother hogged it so I didn’t get to play it much.

15. Current console or consoles?

PC, PS3, PS2, Wii, PSP, and I have a Nintendo DS somewhere.

16. Console you want?

I’m kind of happy with my PC? But I’ll probably have PS4 envy at some point when they inevitably publish a game I can only play there.

17. Place from a game that you’d like to visit?

Tython and Odeseen. I love the forested mountaintops.

18. Place from a game that you’d like to live in?

Maybe Inaba from Persona 4. Other than the kidnapping and murder, it seems like a nice quiet town, if a little boring. And I’d live at that tofu shop.

19. Ridiculous crossover that would never happen but would be super fun?

Final Fantasy and Disney. lololol like that would ever happen! Can you imagine Mickey Mouse and Cloud Strife meeting up to do battle with Sephiroth? RIDICULOUS AMIRITE?

20. Book that would make a good game?

The Kingskiller Chronicles seems like it would be fun!

21. Show/Movie that would make a good game?

A serious HIghlander game would actually be quite fun. Sword combat, immortality so you heal up between battles, lots of lightning and pyrotechnics. That crazy NeoGeo game based on the animated series almost no one remembers doesn’t count. Although I’m sure they had a NES game or something too.

22. Games you want to play?

The list is too long, and my Steam library is getting out of control. About half the time I wind up watching the cutscenes or a Let’s Play on YouTube and call it a day. Although I might pick up Quest for Glory or King’s Quest because I’ve had a lot of fun watching Paw Dugan play them and other adventure games.

23. Have you gotten 100% completion in a game?

Probably not. I get distracted easily.

24. Have you cried over a game?

Yes. *glares at every favorite for their heartwrenching scenes*

25. What power-up or ability would you want IRL?

Just let me teleport so I can be lazy and not have to sit in traffic every day, plz

#gaming meme #tag thing #meme thing #thank you for the tag!

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