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togglesbloggle · 1 year

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Your river post is basically impossible to read on dark mode

How bizarre. After some fixes, it now looks good on dark mode locally; please do let me know if there's still a problem on other devices.

And thanks for flagging the problem! You receive one Toggle point.

#my anons are better than your anons #for the curious #I compose the long essays in gDrive #and somehow Tumblr started classifying blocks of text as...#IDK #something else?#I just nuked the formatting data by copying it formatting-free in to a different editor #and then re-did all the italics by hand #Thus demonstrating how badly I overuse italics for emphasis #It wasn't just a font color issue #I have no idea what was going on #The tumblr editor wouldn't let me delete individual text strings either #I had to delete paragraphs one at a time like they were pictures?#blue hellsite #dark hellsite

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skittlesfics · 2 years

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Probably some year or two ago I search some Fenris fanfiction and found one of your one-shots.

Now tonight I did it again. Read it and I was going to like it but then I noticed I already had. Somehow it filled me with such a happy nostalgic. Thank you.

I wish all the good to you and happy holidays.

(sorry English isnt my native language)

I was in a weird headspace when I received this, but honestly I've been hoarding this ask in my inbox because it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy. If anyone has any Fenris requests, I am happy to work on writing him again! I haven't written smut for him in a very very long time, so I'd be open to the right scenario.

#Fenris x Reader #Dragon Age Imagine #My anons are better than your anons #requests open

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madame-fear · 7 months

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https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJvYr7pE/

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i am absolutely crying over this AHWYJGJDOXJDU who tf said the earth is flat??? she is THICC and yummy and juicy

#🔎 anon #lovely anons <3 #fave anons #tiktok videos #ask box messages #ask box open #my anons are better than your anons #ask box #✧.* amiraverse

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kissjane · 1 year

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hi hope you are well. i just wanted to say thank you for writing. i had a rough year in 2022 and if it wasn't for your writing, i don't think i'd be here. i love the way you write elu and you are an amazing writer.

Hi darling!

Thank you for your lovely message.

I'm so sorry 2022 was rough. I'm really grateful I could bring a bit of sparkle in dark times. Please treat yourself with care and compassion, and don't be afraid to find help if you need it. If that's in a fic, great - but know there's other resources out there, too, if things get hard.

I'm gonna be posting another Elu fic over summer, at the very least (she says - knowing she hasn't started writing it yet 😬), and I have a WIP folder that's overflowing with stuff I should really finish at some point... If only I didn't need a job to put food on the table!

Wishing you a happy and healthy 2023, and looking forward to hearing your opinion on my next fic,

Jane 💙

#asked!#my anons are better than your anons

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frenchublog · 2 months

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how do you have the energy/time to colour in every piece you do? especially so detailed?

way too much turkish coffee

#i need to take a break #but for real though #i don't know i just ? draw #i draw what i love and what i always loved and i know for a fact 16 years old me would be jumping and screaming like a banshee #i'm healing my inner child #this is therapy #and in these trying times with Ai and stuff #i think this is important to cherish what we love #it's when everything is hopeless that hope is important #personal #ask box #anon ask #also yeah i'm spending more time to paint #so things take extra time haha #i think it's important to stay focused #“other artists are better than me”#sure !!! but is that gonna stop you ?#passion...you need that drive to take your pen and do stuff #not saying it's easy it's the hardest thing ever #when i was in class id say shit like “i'd love to do this...” my teacher would say “remove that ”would“ in your vocabulary #“do it”#we tend to be overcritical and have the “blank page syndrome” but “throwing up” anything on a blank canvas #is the key to start drawing #you cant do shit with nothing #you can do everything with something

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sea-buns · 7 days

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hey to a gorgug liker what do you think about his nightmare section from sophomore year? cause I feel like the horror there is less “ah my grandparents were racist” and more “fuck am I being a stereotype? are the people who hate me right about me?” cause wrt to his having to modulate between barbarian and artificer in fhjy it’s like. idk

oh boy do I have thoughts

Tbh, I had zero recollection of the racism stuff until reading this. It was just SO MINOR. His trial in the forest felt really lackluster to me. I feel like everyone else's really dug into an issue at the core of their character and his felt more like "everyone is getting a trial, what do we do for gorgug?" And idk if that was just a bad delivery/call on Brennan's part or if it could have been helped by Zac engaging more in it but it just. Didn't feel like anything. It was a lot more about the dice than the horror of the claustrophobia and the bugs and you've never fit in anywhere you live to make yourself smaller wherever you go you're just the loser who hits hard. Like yeah I guess there was an overarching theme of Gorgug gaining confidence in himself but it was done very poorly imo.

And I think his trial in the forest was wrong for putting such an emphasis on his intelligence. I think that would have been much better suited in fy, back when he was still being heavily bullied, but beyond that it felt like a quick and easy thing for them to grab. Yes, he had insecurities about his intelligence with all the complications with Zelda. But, to me, the focus of fhsy was his HEART. It put a spotlight on how his social circle has grown, and his bully is his friend now, and he's not alone anymore. His interactions with Ayda, the friendship book, trying to help Fabian, I believe in you spring break, it's Gorgug keep going. I made a post earlier in the season (including a great addition by another user) that I think articulates that emphasis on his emotional intelligence very well.

Fhjy HOWEVER. I think it's doing everything that sy failed at. It's giving him space to have an inner conflict. It's addressing lots of little issues and conflicts he's had over the campaign and combining them into one coherent piece. Like, guy was in a relationship pretty much all of fy, and then dealt with the fallout in sy, but I don't think we've EVER seen as much quality relationship development with Gorgug as we have in jy. He and Fig spent an entire summer together trapped in a tour bus and no season has indicated that bond and friendship more than this one. He and Riz have found something to bond over, meanwhile in previous seasons there was pretty much zero one-on-one personal interaction between them. Fabian expressed sadness over Gorgug leaving the Owlbears, because it was the only thing they had that was just for them to hang out and be friends.

Just with that, we're already doing leagues more with Gorgug's character than we ever have. And I haven't even STARTED on his barbificier journey, oh dear god lmao.

Gonna preface this bit with a post I made before the season even started. It was about Zac's steady improvement in his performances with every PC, and how I was predicting that it was gonna culminate into a Gorgug that does him the justice he deserves. It was initially supposed to be a criticism, but I got a little lost in the sauce of loving my boy lol. Still very relevant to the topic of this ask!

God, where do I START?? Addressing his relationship with rage? I'll be honest, I didn't think that would ever be used as a character arc. And I'm not even sure why I've felt that way. I just didn't think... I didn't think about how he might've had a dislike for his own rage. Like, the WAY he rages isn't bad by any means, but I don't think it ever crossed my mind how actually harmful his lessons to sing to combat rage were. No, I did not like the way Porter went about teaching him (a bit too unsupportive of his capabilities and reminiscent of shitty teachers for my liking). But his point about EMBRACING anger; that rage is not bad and does not— should not— need to be stifled. THAAAAT. That opened up such an interesting dialogue for Gorgug.

I do appreciate the beginnings of Gorgug's interest in artificing in fhsy. I think the crumbs of it back then did a great job of leading into his larger commitment to multiclassing. And I think what he's been doing with it this season is exactly what was lacking in his section of the nightmare forest. His trial was a puzzle, based entirely on die rolls, where his solution after failing even when he's assisted by the enemy is to essentially give up. I understand that facing their fears was the whole point of the trials, but his section came off as incredibly anticlimactic and unfulfilling. Just the fact that it was a trial based on stat numbers more than the development of the character itself.

Where junior year succeeds in actually showcasing his intelligence and the evolution of the worth he holds in himself is with the hands-on approach it takes. Yes, the academic rolls are still dice and stats, but there's a physical manifestation that wasn't there before. Gorgug is smart when it comes to getting his hands dirty. It is in the practical applications of his skills that his brand of intelligence shines the most.

And while, once again, I did not LIKE Porter's heavy resistance to multiclassing....I have to admit that I don't think Gorgug would have had such a boost in confidence without that struggle. Even if my boy had trouble expressing it to Porter verbally, HE STOOD UP FOR HIMSELF. Instead of simply rolling over and agreeing that he wasn't built for a technical class and it was stupid to try– he was DEFIANT.

The kid who said "I'm a dumbass. Eat me you stupid bug." took on FOUR CLASSES. Three school years worth of artificer simultaneously. AND stayed with the Owlbears. AND went along on party missions to help Kristen's candidacy. AND was always on deck to help the party with the overarching plotline.

AND HE ACED IT!!! THE FIRST BARBIFICER THAT THE AGUEFORT ADVENTURING ACADEMY HAS EVER SEEN!!!!! He is paving the way for every unprecedented multiclass that follows.

Just in comparison to who he was in the previous season, the amount of drive and self-worth he's gained is astounding. In my eyes, it's done more than enough to makeup for the way his development fell flat in sophomore year.

i hope this fulfilled the ask in the way you were hoping! i told you i'd get carried away lmao. writing a bunch about any of zac's characters is always such a joy. gorgug had always been my favorite of the bad kids but i always found myself wishing he went deeper, y'know? and now it's real. my precious anxious boy has been handled so well. and watching zac's growth as a performer has been such a blast.

thanks for the ask! :D

#hope i dont talk in circles too many times #im not even gonna think about how long i spent lol #ya hit a certain point where youre like 'does that feel exactly right?' and then u go fuck it we aint perfect #ive done that a lot with just any writing thing in my life especially in school #but i feel like i followed through a lot better with this than i have with a loooong essay/analysis/post in awhile #so that feels good. certainly helps when its a thing you really love lol #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #fhjy #fantasy high #fh #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #character analysis #asks #anon ask

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sketchupnfries · 12 days

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Dude, I’ve been following you since the days of the psych x tftb comics and I just gotta say how much I love seeing you enjoy life!

Even though our interests have changed over time, your art always puts a smile on my face and is a lovely surprise every time it pops up on my dash. It’s like bumping into an old friend on the street and feeling a warm sense of nostalgia.

I really wanted to say thank you for just being the kind and funny person you are! For making stuff that makes you happy and living a life that seems so full of joy. I hope this year keeps treating you well and I look forward to the next time you appear on my dash 💜

Oh my gosh! Thank you so much for the incredibly kind words!! :'D. I'm glad you've been enjoying my art for so long, and that it's brought you happiness over these many years! Thank you again so much for your thoughtful message, and I hope you have a wonderful year full of joy as well! Have a Rhys!

#anon #anon ask #thank you so so much for your message!!!#this brightened up my day :')#rhys #rhys strongfork #my year has been going well so far and i've been doing a lot better than i was last year overall #sunny times ahead :)#tftbl #borderlands

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ughgoaway · 4 months

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Hey lovely, I'm really enjoying the smutty blurbs and would love to hear about Matty and teachers first time together.

Also I've just got home from the most stressful Christmas with family, and would be interested to hear about teachers family and whether she is as close to them as Matty is to his

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hi angel!!! so sorry for this late reply, but im so glad you're enjoying the smutty blurbs. They're so fun to write!! I'm actually planning on doing a full fic for their first time together, so hopefully, that will be coming soon!!

oh I'm sorry about stressful Christmas, it's always a fucking rough time going back home and dealing with everyone.

this is something I have thought a little bit, and I think that in the teacher au, the family relationship is a bit strained.

I think your family are so overbearing, constantly trying to insert themselves in your life in ways you just don't need. every time you see them, it's followed by an onslaught of questions,

"do you have a boyfriend yet?"

"are you still doing that teaching thing?"

"when are you going to have kids? you have only got so long now darling"

so Christmas was always a stressful affair, trying to juggle judgmental aunts and uncles with parents who want to know every detail of your life so they can comment on it.

I think you're as close as you can be, but some distance is necessary for you to stay sane. you love them, but sometimes you just need space to exist.

but Matty's family is a breath of fresh air. The first Christmas you spent with them made you realise it can be enjoyable to see your family.

Denise is so welcoming, ushering you in and plying you with biscuits and tea. she chats about matty, and she tells you that if he ever does anything stupid, tell her, and she'll give him an earful. which earns her an eye roll from matty and assurance that he won't fuck this one up.

Louis is easy to get along with, and he feels like your little brother too very quickly. Tim is hilarious and kind, and all of Matty's extended family are so welcoming and sweet that you don't quite know what to do with yourself.

I think at some point in the night, you wander off, and matty notices you skulking away and follows you out into the garden. you're leaning on the wall outside, staring up at the stars and trying to breathe a little bit better.

"You alright, darling?" matty walks up to you and wraps you in a hug, already noticing your shivering body.

"Yeah, sorry, just needed a minute," you say softly, leaning your head on mattys shoulder and humming comfortably.

you stand in silence for a few minutes, watching your hot breath vaporise in the air and warming each other up.

"Is it always like this for you?" You break the veil of silence, looking up at matty curiously.

his face immediately scrunches in confusion, "what like all of us hanging out and drinking? yeah, that's a pretty average Christmas for us. " he laughs and pulls you in closer, rubbing up and down your bare arms with his hands, desperate to warm you up.

"No, no, I mean, is it always so... Nice? calm? no one is badgering you with questions and making judgemental or petty comments." You say softly, almost hoping matty doesn't hear your words.

but he does. He pulls back and looks in your eyes and his immediately soften. he tugs you in impossibly closer and presses a kiss to the top of your head.

"Oh, sweetheart. m'sorry your family are a bit exhausting. but the good news is, next year, you'll have me to drag along with you. hopefully, they'll start badgering me about my "silly rockstar job" and leave you alone, hmm? and I'm sure annie will be distraction enough, she will corner your aunt susan and talk about horses for a good hour" matty smiles as he imagines meeting your family.

he always tries to envion what your childhood room looked like. Were the walls covered in posters like his? or were you more organised? did you have teddy bears lining the bed that you don't have the heart to get rid of? he can't wait to tease you for all the old photos and embarrassing clothes.

you giggle and burrow your nose into matty, "already planning for next year, huh? you planning on sticking around that long?" You tease, hearing matty talk about the future so confidently had butterflies hammering at your ribs.

"Of course I am. I'm afraid you're stuck with me for a longgggg time now, sweetheart. " You hum happily and squeeze matty.

#ace is replying late omg what a shock...#i hope your new year was better than your Christmas my love!!#annie running rampant in your childhood home is such a funny image #the little ball of energy as always #🎄 anon #anon!#teacher au!

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crows-home · 1 year

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hey! i hope you don’t mind me asking, but do u have any fics you recommend reading? (specifically sonic fandom ones)

im so sorry anon but im probably the worst when it comes to fic recs. I just started using the bookmark function on ao3 like last month. There's probably tons of fics that i've read and absolutely loved, but never saved and are just collecting dust in my history ToT

i'm going to shout out a few of my favorite authors whose works i absolutely adore and some fics under the cut!

There's definitely more authors and fics i missed, but this is what i was able to come up with!! in general, the sonic community is full of so much talent and i'm just really happy to be here :)

@cozyqueerchaos - I love every single piece they put out honestly and these fics are the reason i dipped my toes more into the sonic fandom years ago. they're THAT good. love them all.

@phantomruby - another wonderful fic writer that everyone should check out. "Slipping Away" makes me cry fr, although i haven't caught up on the latest updates. everything just makes my heart go oshfdsfhd

@chaoxfix - sonic fics are wonderful sonic takes are top notch i dig everything. the understanding of the characters and archie is just phenomenal.

@teamxdark - fell in love with the Tales of Avalon series and fell harder in love with the team dark Boomtober fics and dynamics and aaaaaa, wonderful writing and style.

@rubyiiiusions - every fic is a joy to read and every story really just gets your attention and keeps it till the end. i've bookmarked a few of them since last week :)

I went digging through my history and here are some of my personal favorite Sonic fics!

radio silence under a yellow sky by chaox Summary: Sonic finds out Tails is missing. And more importantly, that no one's been looking for him.

A gen fic about Sonic finding out Tails was MIA during Forces it's so so good i think about it a lot

falling by sonosuke Summary: Shadow likes a boy

sonadow during SA2 I'll cry. so angsty but it makes me :')

Birds of a Feather by SonicaSpeed123 Summary: Sonic has been trapped in Camelot for three years, but he's started to make a place for himself that he can finally be comfortable in with his beloved Lancelot Something has been bothering him, though: If all the people of this world look like the people back home, where is Sonic's lookalike?

Lansoni. Part of a series of SatBK mini fics that i really love, but this one especially because it answers the question of 'what about the Sonic doppleganger?'

you can hardly swallow your fears and pain by chaox and sketchjii Summary: Shadow is usually better at putting up that cold, unfeeling front, isn't he? Or maybe that's him. (or: sonic doesn't need to be in touch with his feelings if he pretends they don't exist in the first place)

One of my all time faves i love it so much i dont think i have the right words. shadow tries to give sonic mental health advice. it does not go well. takes place some time after Forces.

the time has come again for stars by rubyillusions Summary: (five times someone notices sonic and shadow are in love and one time they do something about it)

sonadow, Teen. obsessed with how the characters are written here and the way all of their friends interpret their relationship it's just so cute and sweet and shit and i love it a lot.

against every odd by eggskie Summary: "We're friends?" Nine asks, small and timid, and oh, doesn't that break Sonic's heart. "Of course we are. We always have been. Or we always should have been." Or: Nine isn't used to being cared about

wanna see how hard i can cry? Gen, Sonic Prime fic about sonic and tails and what they should have been.

Dreams Don't Come True by Skyblaze Summary: Short, mildly humorous fic with sonadow flavouring. It also takes the mickey extensively out of the Sonic the Hedgehog 2006 Next Gen game. Warning: not to be taken seriously.

This fic is just really silly i like it a lot :)

A largely platonic cave by mousewritings Summary: "You know I uh, love hanging out with you and all, but do you think we could go somewhere that's not a cave for once?" Shadow stares at him. "What do you mean, go somewhere that's not a cave? Think you're too good for caves?"

Sonic Boom Sonic and Shadow (pre-slash sonadow) my beloveds <3<3 this fic is so funny they're so insufferable

Also, uh. I know you said only Sonic fics but i'm going to add a few more fics that i really really love from different fandoms because i reread them a lot, i hope you don't mind! ^^

Our way by shpeeper Summary: Overall, the mission was pretty simple. Sniper was instructed to track the spy for a week, figure out his daily patterns, then put a bullet in his brain when no one is around. No one told him there would be a kid. An AU in which Spy raises Scout alone, and Sniper is hired to kill Spy.

Oh my fucking god i could go on about this fic. Sniperspy, Teen, TF2. filled with action and danger. Every time a new character would get introduced, i would have fun piecing together who they were in my mind. the first chapter already had me emotional, it's been in my brain for YEARS. And don't even get me STARTED with the twist at the end. holy shit.

Desmodontinae by Romiress Summary: Kirk wakes up in a Gotham that is not his own. A what-if, where Gods and Monsters Batman winds up in the DCU. Originally intended as a short oneshot, and expanded out into a small story, exploring the differences, struggles, and conclusions. Focuses primarily on Kirk Langstrom (G&M Batman), with a side or Hernan Guerra (G&M Superman), Damian Wayne, and Bruce Wayne. Guest appearances by various other Robins, Clark and Jon Kent, and several others.

The Gods and Monsters DC team means so much to me and oh my god this fic was made with so much love and care for the characters. It's been a while since i read it, but i remember this fic had me staying up literally all night, eagerly going through all the chapters, one at a time. i was in bed kicking my sheets quietly irl lmao.

#answers #fanfiction #fic rec #btw if youre an author and dont want to be tagged lmk! ill remove it no questions #also im so sorry this has been sitting in my drafts for so long anon. i spent a week clicking through my history #to find fics and then trying to figure out how to format this lmao.#i dont mind these asks at all i just wish i was better at answering them!#anyway go support all these authors and more if i could there would be so many people i'd tag and gush about but i dont want to make #this post longer than it already is so ill stop here

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i-am-church-the-cat · 5 months

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OMG, can you pleaaaaase turn the ask/ post about Loscar being married and Lando guessing around, George and Alex figuring it out and the revelation breakfast into a full fic. I love this way too much already 💙💙💙💙💙

Same and I would love to, but I don’t feel right writing a fic without permission from the anon with the original idea, since I was basically just bouncing off of them. If they message me or anything, I’d be happy to.

However, it might please you to know that I am writing a different Married!Loscar fic. It’s more focused on relationship dynamics and them coming up as a married couple, but it does have some secret relationship mischief of it’s own.

#loscar #og married loscar anon if you see this i would love to write something full length #or you are more than welcome to take my ideas and turn it intona fic of your own #also i better see an influx in the combined logan/oscar and established relationship tags on ao3 after this #logan sargeant #oscar piastri #f1 fic #f1 rpf #anon #anon ask

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throwaway-yandere · 2 years

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Ayy forget about Ayato is y/n free anytime? let me take you to get tea instead 😔

"Thoma, I thought I ordered you to take out the trash."

"H-Huh? I already burned all the leaves, My Lord."

(yeah i dont think lord kamisato ayato will allow that dear anon（；^ω^）((r u n.)))

#tag: blind obedience - ayato #yandere ayato #yandere genshin x reader #yandere x reader #yandere genshin #yandere genshin impact #yandere kamisato ayato #ayato x reader #ansytea-talks #my guy im pretty sure someone died just so you could learn this lesson-#yandere #still admire your bravery for tryina ask y/n out lmao #and for TEA too #((you could give y/n a better tea than ayato anon fr fr))

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ghostflowerhotpotch · 7 months

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Fuck Gwiles 🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽 lame ahhh ship

Pffff hahahaha, Oh man, this is hilarious.

Do you really have nothing better to do, than to try to bother someone who likes to discuss about a ship online? There is literally, no better way to spend your energy, or even your anger?

It has to be nice to have the energy to be this petty over nonsensical things, or to care about so little things that this is what angers you. It definitely seems less taxing that the rants I end up doing in my life.

Is a shame you are on anon, I am very curious; did you actually look to who you sent this ask? Or it was just because I have ghostflower on my name?

Because I can't understand why someone thought I would give a flying fuck about what the public, let alone one random person, cares about. My guy, this blog started with me doing literal essays about frames; I am not sure at one I give the impression that I care how other people would like the things I do. This isn't even getting in how most of my writing over the years has been over non canon.

So word of advice you non-imaginative and cowardly anon, try to bother someone who actually gives a shit.

#ask #I shouldn't answer this long but this is legit hysterical #idk after my entire childhood most anon hate I had seen directed towards me feels more funny than anything else #also nothing makes you feel better about yourself than at least you aren't wasting your time sending stuff like this

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kissjane · 2 years

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Hey, this might be a weird question, but I'm new here and was wondering, how do I add things like 'I write things' or 'Buy me a coffee' . I can't manage to find an option that allows me to add things to navigation.

Hi anon!

Ah, yes, it is a bit tricky. I remember fiddling around with it too. There's definitely tutorials, but even they aren't too easy to find...

Here's one:

Basic html skills are always handy, these can be found easily online of you want to brush up on them.

I'd suggest to try it out, and if you can't get it to do what you want let me know.

Good luck!

#asked!#tumblr help #my anons are better than your anons

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felizusnavidad · 4 months

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lin manuel miranda is such a good songwriter

oh my god thank you so much for saying this!!! this is probably the nicest compliment i've ever heard in my life!

#HE REALLY IS RIGHT?#i swear to god i care about this man's happiness more than i care about my own-#you may think i'm crazy but... well yes i am #thank you anon you are the best!!!#anon #yes i got your letter yes i'm doing better*

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tojigasm · 1 year

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Anons who swipe and mind their own business when they don't like what they're reading instead of messaging the author to tell them to change it for their specific needs and wants >>>>

#like if youre bold enough to come to my inbox and complain u better not be an anon cus youve gotta say what you mean with your whole chest!#like trust me its easier to swipe and scroll than come to someones ask box

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marblecakemix · 2 months

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ok im curious about what you would make of my gender experience from the radfem lens. im a trans guy in an open relationship with another trans guy and our sexual interactions always include bdsm elements during which i am the dom, including cnc elements. so like am i evil man or innocent brainwashed girl? let me know

I'm not a good person to unpack whatever is going on with you and your mental state and your partner's mental state. But I would say that if you get off of pretend rape/sexual assault that's nothing good. If I were you, I'd look into that and ask myself why hurting someone (even if it's a play) makes me feel good and why my partner likes being abused.

I don't think you're evil just because you're a trans-identified female who likes BDSM or is innocent. You definitely need a good therapist, that's for sure. I don't know you but maybe look into internalized homophobia and sexism surrounding transgenderism, because you're in a lesbian relationship with extra steps. My advice would be to look into why you don't want to be a girl. What makes you think that being a man is a better option for you or maybe it's a way for you to run from something and never address it? No healthy human being wants to permanently change their appearance with hurtful procedures and surgery (I'm talking about taking crosssex hormones and gender-affirming/plastic surgeries).

I can only share my experience which is that I didn't want to be seen as a woman because I see the world outside of gender norms (that's why I'm a gender abolitionist) and I wanted to be seen as more than an object that makes children, is won by men, has a long hair, wears makeup and submits to the bows of society. I'm not a woman that mass media shows and no woman is. We all can be whatever we want without denying our sex and we can find beauty and be proud of being women.

I think that you need professional help, go to therapy where your views will be challenged, and get to the root of your gender dysphoria. You are not an evil man or an innocent little girl. You're (from what you wrote about yourself) a grown person who got wronged and suffers from a mental illness.

Take care and ask me more if you want. It's okay if you disagree with whatever i wrote, but please let my words simmer a little inside you and give them a thought.

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