#musings from my head

[catherine-sketches]

So in my “will-i-won’t-i” with Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss (where I procrastinate and don’t watch the shows and only absorb the content through TikTok, Tumblr and sometimes Twitter) I came across Staticmoth/ VoxVal.

I saw the scene with Angel and Valentino. His abuse and disgusting behavior. I have an idea on how this moth asshole behaves.

And I have seen some people think that their relationship would be toxic, that Vox and Val, if the predictions are correct and become (or are revealed to be) a couple, would beat the shit (physically, mentally and emotionally) out of each other on the regular, but I think the idea that him and Vox having a healthy relationship could be such a punch to the gut plot wise.

Because that would mean Valentino IS capable of understanding consent. He KNOWS what working with someone else means without disrespect. He FULLY knows what sex is supposed to be like.

But that’s is between equals. Vox? His equal. Fellow overlord.

Angel? His property. Why would he give a shit about his thing?

#hazbin hotel #voxval #staticmoth #angel dust #valentino #Vox #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel valentino #hazbin hotel angel dust #some musings I had #I had this scenario in my head #of a juxtaposition of scenes #like that one scene in Arcane #where it’s Valentino and Vox pretty much making love #like Mel and Jayce #while Angel is in another room suffering THE WORST SHIT EVER for a new movie #like Viktor dying in from of the hex core #the previous scene could be Val locking the studio so Angel could not escape just to hammer home how little Valentino gives a shit #and it’s actively working to make Angel’s situation worse #while he is whisked away by Vox to have his pussy eaten

[melverie]

Gotta say tho I LOVE how basically everything in the Devildom has the word 'devil' or 'aku' from 'akuma' in it. FabSnap is like the only outlier but other than that... Devildom, obviously. Devilgram. Akuzon. AkuDonald's. Devil salmon terrine. Devil duck confit. Devil crush super spicy mango juice. Akuber. Demonus is literally just 'demon' + 'us'. It's like they constantly need a reminder that they're demons

#feel free to add more these were just from the top of my head #might start collecting them #devil crush super spicy mango juice sounds delicious btw i really wanna try that one #obey me #obey me swd #obey me nightbringer #mel's starry musings

[daevstroders]

i was smoking some top tier jake english crack ln and had some thoughts and much to ponder when i woke up so have some alloaro jake musings under the cut.

there is always the underlying element of not right not enough yet perfectly aligned and too much with these two. and i think what makes the alloaro jake narrative (which to ignore would be like ignoring his feminine coding imho (that is: impossible) really interesting is Love (capitalised to emphasise romantic from here on out, love sans capitalisation is not to be taken as romantic) is only what he believes it is, what he thinks it should be. what he's seen in his movies, of which he doesn't care for - he watches ACTION FILMS and SUPERHERO FLICKS, john and karkat are the ones who engage most with romcoms - and the kind of love he experiences is not the Love he equates to being 'real'.

everyone's experiences with aromanticism are different, and i think from jake's perspective its more so about his ideals of Love not matching his experiences. he's not shown to have anything more than passing interest and sexual encounters with others in the narrative, save dirk, and that is a whole shitstorm he can hardly bear to think about. its easier to renounce Love itself because to delve into these things would be to self reflect and jake english does Not. self reflect.

his love is destructive and selfish and reactive and obsessive and consuming. the kind where its you are Mine (and i guess that has to make me yours). i'll follow you to the ends of the earth because you're the only one who understands me and doesn't ask more from me than i'm capable of, but i won't force myself to appreciate the parts of you i detest and i don't expect you to do that either. the kind where i enjoy having you around but the domestic ideal i've seen sounds fucking boring and not something i'm capable of or want to be. i love you but i don't Love you. its more than i feel for anyone else and its too much, yet it is still not enough.

vs dirk who believes that his obsession and devotion is what Love is. he is the god of his own reality and the only word he can place on this emotion IS Love because he doesn't know anything else. he's just so much more intense than the rest, it doesnt matter if they don't understand it, because its Raw and Visceral and Real, more than their washed out depictions of Love. he's the same in the sense that the domestic Love for him is fucking boring and unsuited to his tastes but that doesn't make his Love lesser, it makes theirs. he again wants jake to be His but has a hard time accepting that to do so would make him jake's. they both want to possess and consume the other without allowing themselves to be possessed and consumed in return.

i just think both of them have incredibly thwarted ways of experiencing affection and the way they think about Love influences their perspective on the emotion. this is why jake so readily accepts his love isn't Love, assumes roxy's feelings for dirk are more real than his because the feelings there are selfless, unconditional, and passive. which aligns with what we are taught about Love, that it is hard work and unselfish and placing trust in another etc. his feelings are selfish, conditional, and active. he wouldn't want to put the hard work in to make something work with dirk because that would require self reflection, to accept difficult things about himself and accept unpalatable things about dirk. he wouldn't feel the same about dirk if he didn't keep him on his toes, fuck him around mentally and physically, he'd be as blase about the man as he is every other proposed Love interest. he can't sit still and let dirk move on without having his say, he needs to keep what's Mine while still trying to shy away from being His. everything he feels is a contradiction to what he assumes Love to be, therefore he can't Love. whereas as stated with dirk he assumes his Love to be real because it is so much more than what the ideal is portrayed to be like.

and i'm not going to go into it entirely because this is already so long but theres a link here to the cherubs i think. besides the dirk splinters and the english influence, the foundation of a cherub is two dichotomous beings sharing a body which i think is so so representative of dirkjake. they both live on inside one and another, they aren't soul mates or two halves of a whole, they are simply one. and the nature of cherub reproduction and 'romance' is so far removed from what humans would consider 'romance' which is the kind of romance that can be found in dirkjake but in a minor key instead of a major if that makes sense. same tune different sounds.

hussie consistently tries to challenge mainstream ideals of Love through quadrants cherub reproduction leprechauns etc so having a cosmically fated couple actually not fall anywhere on the scale of stereotypical Love is so incredibly on brand.

tldr maybe they are in Love. or maybe what they have is something different. and that is so cool.

#screams from the top of my lungs i love jake english #smashinf bottles over my head clawing the skin off my face eating glass the lot #ty to the discord server im in for this one. real galaxy brain dirkjakers you fuel me #jake english #dirk strider #dirkjake #alloaro jake musings #homestuck #sloan writes

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

I scrutinize each photo Each letter, each tape, each story Digging further and further back through history Hoping to pinpoint Where the weight on my shoulders originated

Who carried it first How many generations of suffering do I hold How many ghosts are tearing at my flesh How many generations of knowledge have I been denied How much has been lost How much will be lost As my fingers slowly erode paper As obsession wears through the tapes As each memory slowly becomes unrecognizable

The film strips undulate like intestines The dust and ink sticking to my hands like flecks of gore When you cut into my gut Is it blood that spills out Or history?

Salamatullah Eldritch (2022), Archival Violence, Mnemonic Gore [digital collage]

[Image attribution & sources for images used]

#Eldritch IT Speaks #Digital Collage #blood tw #I'm planning on making an story based on this #anyways this is all just. musings on generational trauma. partially brought from my family finding photos #from the late 1800s to mid 1900s #along with my own struggles w/ generational trauma and memory #i usually don't make collages and the last time I did was while I was in a psychiatric treatment center and it was made of just words #im usually not good with like. making something like this. i struggle to abandon symmetry and weird rules in my head #so im kinda proud that I managed to let go of that to make this #ALSO. lowkey I am inspired to do this collage n using gore bcuz of Yah Yah Scholfield #eldritch it writes

[unlikely-gravestones]

Currently thinking about how for nearly all Dreamling meetings, Hob's always the one watching Dream leave him.

In 1389, he watches Dream walk away from their table. In 1489, he again watches Dream leave while saying that he never told Hob his name. In 1589, he bitterly watches Dream leave with Shakespeare. We don't see the end of the 1689 meeting, but there's a pattern here, so. In the 1789 meeting, Hob again watches Dream leave and he literally never looks away from him- the scene ends with Hob still watching Dream leave after their confrontation with Constantine, he never turns his head from him. And then of course the 1889 meeting, which again...ENDS WITH HOB CHASING AFTER DREAM AND WATCHING HIM LEAVE IN THE RAIN

friends I am having thoughts

#The angst potential of Hob being so used to the one that's left behind #Always watching His Stranger leave #Which #Hob's happy to watch Dream walk anywhere if u know what I mean #But he's always the one being left in that pub for the next 100 years #Someone know what I'm trying to say I can't get to my point #I don't even think there's a point it's just a recurring detail I noticed #And the last shot of the 1789 meeting got me because it literally ends with Hob STILL watching Dream leave #Despite him walking in the opposite direction his head was STILL turned to watch Dream #the sandman #dream of the endless #hob gadling #dreamling #sandman #And it's not that I think hob wants to be the one that leaves Dream for once #It's just that by 1889 we can clearly see that Hob is evaluating their relationship and wanting more from it #Wanting to put clear terms down and see where they stand and he's OBVIOUSLY been musing a lot on their interactions #I just think it would add to how lost he might feel about where they stand with eachother when he's always being left alone

[twistedappletree]

I really want to write a short post-canon story about Jin Ling having nightmares from all of the trauma he’s endured, so Lan Sizhui uses his spiritual energy and their connection to guard his dreams one night and ends up guiding Jin Ling through his sleep.

Meanwhile, everything they see in Jin Ling’s dreamscape is lush and vibrant and fantastical without even a hint of anxiety or darkness, and while Jin Ling assumes the entire dream is shaped by Lan Sizhui’s influence, Lan Sizhui is only blocking out Jin Ling’s intrusive thoughts—the rest is all of the light and wonder Jin Ling’s imagination conjures on its own, a glimpse into what his dreams would be like every night if he hadn’t suffered all that he did.

#it would also give me an excuse to write something super description heavy which is literally my forte lmaoooo #I haven’t done that in so long bc most of my short stories require quick descriptions inbetween dialogue to flow as #well a short story #I already have SO MANY PRETTY THINGS IN MY HEAD #and even lsz is looking around in total awe of how rich and colorful and versatile Jin Ling’s dreams are #nothing bad happens they just explore a beautiful shifting dreamscape together and have a chance to truly relax from the waking world #anyway #fic ideas #👀👀👀👀 #apple babble 🍎 #zhuiling musings #not sure if I’d put a ton of romance in it maybe some light fluff like holding hands #bc I really wanna focus on the experience of the dreamscape more than anything #just have it be a cute fun little feel-good fic #bc I swear that’s what I need rn lmaoooo 😭 #jin ling #lan sizhui

[ride-a-dromedary]

Halsin's parents were nice people with big "I could (and would) rip you apart with my bare hands if you cross me" energy.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #i'm going to start tagging as #BG3 OCs #because that's who they are (they are real to me) #you like how i post about my ocs as though people know what tf i'm talking about? yeah #anyway they weren't cruel people in any way but they were *very* protective - han was more the quietly caculating type #where you wouldn't even see it coming and ari was the *minute* you saw her coming and she had a look on her face #you should fear for your life #that seems to be the general wood and wild elf staple - generally level headed until severely crossed #that's where halsin gets it from

[tophthedaydreamer]

ok so I finally saw once upon a studio

#of couse im foaming from the mouth about oswald BUT ASIDE FROM THAT #super cute and finally feels like a geniune piece of love for animation #why no three caballeros scenes tho...... whyyyyy *SOBS* #toph musings #i have so many thoughts rattling in my head awwwwejsnsbajskw #once upon a studio

[lunaetis]

random thought i have in the midst of braving thru monday mountain of work : i want to make a list of small tidbits / habits eden developed through interactions with my mains that are relevant to my portrayal of eden which differs from the trailblazer we see in canon.

#.ooc #.mobile #[ does that make sense ? #I DUNNO IF IT DOES BUT THE IDEA SOUNDS REALLY CUTE IN MY HEAD #bc i notice that the way i write eden & her lil habits / tidbits #she developed from various interactions with the muses on her mains list are ofc NOT in line with canon #but it's cute to see what sort of habits she picked up from these interactions #i MIGHT DO IT AFTER WORK IT'S A RANDOM BUT CUTE THOUGHT THO RIGHT ??? OR IS IT JUST ME ??? ]

[mint-chocolate-rooibos]

some noeys [ + a bonus susie !! ]

#these are drawings from my sketchbook that i just love. so cozy ! #noelle is my muse #shes so fun to draw #i have her design so clearly in my head #hey deltarune followers #noelle #noelle deltarune #susie deltarune #deltarune #mint art

[reminiscingtonight]

This is so random but Sabrina D'Angelo gives me Sonnett vibes

#i cannot and will not expand on this #have a nice day everyone 😌 #random musings from my head

[insurged]

one liner starter call? maybe? (ᵔ◡ᵔ)

#because i literally can't write long things right now #my head hurts so bad LMFAO #i apologize i haven't been here i've been sick #i am getting better though :3c #and i do want to write things but i don't think i can do #long replies at the moment sorry >_< #i'm sorry if you're waiting for asks or starters from me #but if you want to start some interactions right now :eye emoji: #you can either pick the muse or i can pick for you if you don't specify it's all good #* ⟢ 𝐎𝐎𝐂 ━ ( clench your asshole super tight & scream it from your heart )

[kerorowhump]

i had a really good keroro dream just now. it was christmas and everyone had gone out to get things to help with decorations and celebrations etc. at the end of it they were all carrying christmas bags home each with their own things (don't remember anymore but I know kururu had gotten christmas tunes, and tamama the same thing as keroro lol and so on!), and keroro was carrying a pair of festive boots in his bag and was really excited to help... up until natsumi casually took the bag from his hands for one reason or another.

things continued normally and at home everyone did their own thing to help and they basically forgot all about him until I think fuyuki or natsumi asks where he is, and we finally see him sitting curled up under the decorated tree, quietly sobbing, and they're (again dont remember if natsumi or fuyuki) like "what's wrong?" and he's like "what good am I if I can't even carry a bag to help?" and natsumi is like aww oh no I totally forgot 🥹 and trying to reassure him that she did not take it from him because she thinks he's no help, and didn't mean for this and that she wants him to help too.

#headcanon #i had to write fast bc the dream faded quickly from my head but thankfully sobbing keroro is eternal #and it even came with a little mental present of a new musing connection bc im crazy and i Dream analysis yep

[fate-defiant]

There is a Duckling,, LOOSE in the archives

#duck in the jarchives what delights will she bring #do not archive #my art #anyway yea i've been thinking about that tma au again #these are mostly misc goofs and gags and whatnot #but something is slowly forming in my head #anyway yea ive decided to place this circa season 3 #sorry sasha better luck next time. #there;s more where this came from and i may or may not have thumbnailed. a short comic #why yes i do have tons of other shit to do i am glad you asked #no i will not prioritize the more important shit who do you think you're talking to. a functional adult? i am typing this at 4 am. #anyway i imagine martin is duck's emotional support adult. he did not ask for this and does not know how to be that but he tries #god imagine human!duck interacting with the archival team. priceless #get in loser we're going to thera- wait what the fuck thats. a child. a child is doingWhy is a child doing therapy #hey child? child you do know this is not your responsibilty right? right? Child???????????? #oh my GOD the parallels. #yea this would unveil some real fucky issues in ducks sweet selfless little head #and thats not even getting into my own musings and headcanons regarding the bertha au and also yes i am integrating htat into this. somehow #theres a comic idea sitting on my brain about that too y'all something has unlocked in me but only for the purely self indulgent shit #i need horse tranquilizers i need horse tranquilizers.

[darehearts]

good morning  !  i'd like to announce that i am no longer fighting the feminine urge to create modern aus for Jim  😌✨

#i've been cooking up a college au in my head this week just !!!! skdfs #Jim really would be that really handsome guy with reading glasses #sitting all the way in the back -- the guy who suddenly switches #majors from engineering to english /theater bc thats where his heart #actually is. i feel like he'd be shy and sort of bloom as he starts doing #more with acting. it is also very possible there could be an au where #he follows a more political path. i also want a cia spy au for him !!!!! #just all the aus bc i think they are so fun asdfghjkl i guess i feel #comfy enough with Jim as a muse to have aus. a good sign! #tbd