#mum is being lovely tho and i am also delicate in that all i wish to do is quote poetry about how lovely my mum is <3<3<3

[helennorvilles]

truly, i am of delicate constitution today

#like send her to the seaside for her health levels y'know #im just moping around the house tbh lmaoo #i went to the grocery store and that was nice.... get a little bit of external stimuli that isn't just the house/my work #but still.......... i feel delicate. just in all the ways. #mum is being lovely tho and i am also delicate in that all i wish to do is quote poetry about how lovely my mum is <3<3<3 #i should eat lunch..... that'd help....... but it requires work and even brekky was an Ordeal #my post tag

[chrwrites]

Take Me As You Please - Chapter 2

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Ch 1

When Marinette got home, she was welcomed by the smell of basil and her mum’s warm smile “How was your day, dear?”

It was heavy, I feel like shit and I just want to go to sleep.

“It was alright” was all she said while she took a plate of fresh trofie with pesto and sat at the dining table.

Her parents talked about their day as Marinette forced herself to eat at least half the portion she was given, she wasn’t going to starve herself because her two-year crush found someone better than her, was she? She took another forkful of green covered pasta as she realized that that colour was the same as the eyes that looked at her just as a friend. Oh, didn’t her mind come up with weird connections.

She twirled the fork in her hand before she heard her dad’s voice call her name, and looked up from her plate to find a worried look on her parents’ face. She knew what was coming, she had been awfully silent for the whole meal and of course they had noticed despite her trying to hide it.

 “Are you alright?” her dad asked.

Of course I am! It’s not like Adrien has started dating my friend and I have to force myself to be happy for them and it sucks that I missed every opportunity I had to confess to him in the first place and I hate myself for this.

“Yeah! I’m just tired, today’s been a long day,” think Marinette, you’re the master of making up excuses “I spent the afternoon working on some new designs and Luka asked me if I could design something for his friend's band. I thought about what I could do so much that I got tired, that's all!” this time making up something wasn’t even difficult since it was kind of the truth. Marinette flashed a smile at them, thinking about it, she hadn’t texted Luka yet. She took her phone from her pocket and typed a quick message under the table.

Hey, I'm home!

“Oh, that’s great! What are you going to do?” Tom asked, eager to know what his daughter had in mind this time.

“I don’t know yet, I still have to talk about the whole concept with the band, in fact I should talk to Luka about it. I’m going to my room!” she got up from her chair, but as she was about to take her half full plate and put it away, her mum gently put a hand on hers to stop her “You don’t have to clean up tonight, I’ll take care of it. Go get some rest, dear” she said showing a reassuring smile.

“Thank you, mama” Marinette gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and walked out of the room.

She let out a sigh of relief as soon as she collapsed on the chaise longue in the corner of her room.

“Mariette, how are you feeling?” Tikki’s small voice talked to her ear hesitantly.

“Awful” was all she managed to say before tears started streaming from her eyes and the small Kwami floated around her face trying to stop her tears from falling, whispering words of comfort.

“It’s gonna be alright Marinette, you’re not alone” the red creature said sweetly when Marinette’s sobs got lighter.

“I-I know, if… if I can save Paris… someone not... liking me back is… nothing… right?” she blurted out. At least she could count on the little creature floating across her face for any of her problems, she could fully be herself with Tikki without being afraid to give in too much information since they knew everything. The Kwami also helped her avoid to be swallowed by dark thoughts and the risk that getting akumatized implied, Marinette couldn’t be other than grateful for them.

“You need time for yourself dear, just this. And if you really want to compare this experience to what you’ve gone through as Ladybug you can, but don’t use it to belittle what you’re feeling right now, or to not feel it at all. Unfortunately, you have to go through this before you can get over it” Tikki said in a soft voice and put a small hand on her face, the delicate touch refreshing Marinette’s irritated skin. How long had she been crying? “I know it’s gonna be hard, but it will get better. I promise” the small creature concluded and floated around the room to get a tissue for her holder. Marinette thanked them and wiped the tears from her face, giving her Kwami a small smile as they gave her a tiny kiss on her cheek. She laid on her back in the chaise longue, taking deep and steady breaths to make sure she had completely calmed down before standing up.

Her heart still hurt when she got up, but there was a tiny hint of hope in her to make that weight somewhat easier to carry. She decided to take a shower before changing into her pyjamas and when she got to bed, she checked her phone. There were messages from the groupchat she had with her friends, a text from Alya, and Luka’s answer to her text.

She skimmed through the messages in the groupchat and found a few memes that made her chuckle. Tikki, who was lying on her shoulder, gave her a curious look.

In her message, Alya asked if it was alright if she could come over in the afternoon, Marinette typed in an affirmative answer and then checked Luka’s chat.

so you did remember to text me uh?

i was starting to get worried ahah

Yeah, sorry about that

I got distracted

it’s fine mari, you don’t owe me any explanation

i’m glad you got home safe

are you feeling any better?

Marinette stared at her screen for a moment, she didn’t know why she was surprised at the fact that Luka cared about her when he always made it clear, he was the most genuine guy she’s ever known apart from A– never mind, if she thought about him she would've started crying again.

Yeah, thank you for asking

I don't feel like thinking about it tho

She was typing something to divert the attention from her, something like how are YOU feeling? She really wanted to focus on him, they were always talking about her and how she felt. Luka so selflessly put himself aside for her and never talked about things that bothered him, but Marinette felt like he needed to let out his thoughts too, and she knew he did it through music but she wanted to be there for him just like he was there for her. Her phone vibrated in her hands as a new message appeared in the chat.

i might have something that won’t make you think about it ;)

There was an mp3 file titled “sleep alone” attached to the message, was that a new song? What would it be about? The title didn’t really convince her, it made her imagine it was a song about being lonely and it really wasn’t what she needed, but she trusted Luka enough to know he would never do anything that could’ve made her feel worse. It must have been the quiet tune she heard him play when she got on the Liberty that same afternoon. Eager to listen to his new creation, she grabbed her earphones from her nightstand, put an earbud on and passed the other one to her Kwami in order to let them listen too.

When she pressed play, the sound of Lukas’s acoustic guitar filled her head. It wasn’t the mellow song he was playing on the deck that afternoon. This one was energetic yet sweet, and she could hear Luka's voice humming along the upbeat melody. The happy, comforting sound made Marinette feel lighter. The melody ran quicker before ending with a slower, gentler tune as she was smiling in awe at her phone screen. Her heart felt full and less lonely, she wondered how Luka could be so good at comforting people just with his guitar, or through his light touches.

“Wow, that was very good!” the carefree feeling of the song caught Tikki as well who was now flying around Marinette’s face happily singing the melody, Marinette watched the red spot dance around her delighted and couldn’t help but agree.

LUKA I LOVE THIS IT’S BEAUTIFUL

YOU’RE SO TALENTED

THANK YOU THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED

I FEEL WAY BETTER NOW

But why did you name it sleep alone?

I was expecting something completely different given the title tbh

Of course she had to ask, it wouldn’t be like her not wanting to know all the details behind the songs he wrote. Sometimes he would tell her, sometimes he would be cryptic and she wouldn’t be able to grasp the concept behind his art. Marinette knew Luka was very reserved about the meaning behind the songs, probably the only people to know the real meaning behind them were Juleka and Rose because they were directly involved in the whole song writing process. Marinette remembered Luka saying something about him having song writing sessions with someone else, but she never questioned it further since she didn’t want to sound invasive.

you’ll know it if i get to convince the band to play it next week

i’m happy it helped you feel better

now get some sleep mari, it’s late and you need to rest

goodnight xx.

Ugh, fine

I’ll help you convince them if I have to

Goodnight Luka, thank you for being there for me

Marinette put her phone on the nightstand, wished Tikki goodnight and closed her eyes. She drifted to sleep as Luka’s song was playing in her head like a lullaby, making her feel safe and peaceful. She couldn’t imagine that her friend, in his bedroom, was still staring at his phone screen.

That’s exactly what I needed.

Knowing that he made Marinette happy, Luka felt fulfilled, and he tried to ignore the pit forming in his stomach. That’s exactly what I needed. He knew she didn’t mean this the way he wished she meant it, but he couldn’t help but think that he could give her what she needed. That’s exactly what I needed. The words didn’t leave his mind. That’s exactly what I needed. He wanted to be everything she needed. He wanted to hold her, comfort her, hold her hand, take her out… Hell, he’d even serenade her. That’s exactly what I needed.

But to her, Luka was just a friend, a very close friend indeed, but still a friend. Thank you for being there for me. He could only dream about keeping her closer the way more than friends did and holding her in his sleep. Maybe he had to stop thinking about her in that way and not write songs about her anymore, but every time he looked at Marinette, the melody of her heart played in his head louder and louder. He wished he could listen to it forever. That’s exactly what he needed.

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A. Age: just turned 23 in December  B. Biggest Fear: not being comfortable in my own skin. feeling inadequate  C. Current Time: 5.27 PM D. Drink you last had: tea  E. Every day starts with: checking my phone. the life of a harry stan. F. Favourite Song: at the moment? Delicate by Damien Rice. and Elvis’ Anything That’s Part of You. and the whole Hamilton original Broadway cast recording album (it’s my shit) G. Ghosts, are they real? yeh I think so. H. Hometown: small city in Indonesia I. In love with: does Harry count? he counts. and this guy I’ve been in love with since 6 years ago lol. and also pretty sure @ifheartscouldfly​ J. Jealous of: my 16 year old self lmao that bitch had it easy K. Killed someone: nupe L. Last time I cried: last night because of a fic. what even is life M. Middle name: Firza N. Number of siblings: two. one sis and bro, all younger. do my cats count? my mum considers them her kids O. One wish: to study abroad in a field that I am actually invested in.  P. Person you last called/texted: my best friend Q. Question you’re always asked: “Do you have Chinese/Japanese descent?” Answer: no. R. Reason to smile: friends. I don’t have that many of them, but the ones I have are lovely I cannot even comprehend what did I do to deserve them S. Song last sang: Seasons of Love, from Rent Musical T. Time you woke up: about 7? m not sure U. Underwear colour: shocking pink V. Vacation destination: Italy, Spain, or Greece seem nice W. Worst habit: chewing the insides of my cheeks. and also overthinking and shutting out people X. X-rays you’ve had: so frickin many. lungs. cranial. jaws. mostly lungs, tho Y. Your favourite food: Italian. and probably Thai Z. Zodiac Sign: Sagitarius with Cap moon

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