#much stress in my life atm and i STILL need to get high to get by 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[nukaberries]

Hey! I love your writing, you capture the characters so well 🙈 I was wondering if you could maybe write about what a wedding between a f!Sole and Hancock would look like??

Hey! That's so sweet, thank you!! I was worried about writing anyone out of character so I'm glad you think I was accurate <33 This is so wholesome though, I love Hancock so much!! I'm also loving these wedding/proposal asks, they're so fun to write!! (Plus I associate weddings and marriage with Lover by Taylor Swift, which might be one of my favourite albums atm!)

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Hancock Marrying a F!Sole Survivor

Nobody has ever seen John Hancock this stressed out in his entire life, desperate to make sure that not only does his big day go down smoothly, but that it's the best day of your life. His determination is actually quite intimidating to a lot of the residents of Goodneighbor.

He's never actually been to a wedding before, so he's completely out of his depth if he's doing anything right. He just hopes that at the very least, you'll appreciate the thought he put into everything - and he'll never stop apologising that a bloatfly flew onto the cake when he wasn't looking.

He's also pretty sure that Daisy was lying when she said she's qualified to officiate a marriage, that apparently she married her brother and his wife way back when. Not that Hancock cares much about pre-war traditions, the marriage doesn't need to be legally official, so long as you know how much you mean to him.

It's safe to say that John isn't a particularly conventional guy but if you really want him to, he'll dress up in a suit and tie (just don't ask him to take the hat off). He'll also be more than happy, no matter what you choose to wear, whether that be a dress, a suit or if you just wear casual attire, so long as you're comfortable.

For the most part, he stumbles his way anxiously through his vows, which is hard to believe, considering most people have only ever known him as the charismatic mayor of Goodneighbor. But you don't seem to mind all that much, so he doesn't really care what anyone else might have to say about it.

And, yeah, he definitely tears up during your own vows - although, he tries to hide it. It doesn't even matter what you say, you could be speaking in a language he doesn't understand and he'd still stare lovingly at you, in awe of the fact that someone as incredible as you actually wanted to spend the rest of their life with him. What did he ever do to deserve you?

The first kiss the two of you share as a married couple instantly goes down as the best kiss of his life. Just knowing what it signified, that you were willing to be by his side for all eternity, is enough for him to treasure it. It makes the entire wedding feel all the more real to him, instead of a dream of some perfect life he'd never get. You're actually married, he's actually your husband.

He manages to pull himself together for the party after, it's only small, a few of both your close friends and some Goodneighbor residents. For a Goodneighbor party, it's actually pretty peaceful, which he's grateful for. Although, half way through, Hancock does end up regretting asking MacCready to be his best man when insists on getting up to make a speech - minus the one story he tells about the time John got high and thought he could fist fight a Yaoi Guai, it's actually not all that embarrassing.

Depending on your own preference, Hancock will stay at the party until the early hours of the morning, or he'll leave early if you decide the two of you need the space. He cares more about being around you than anyone else anyway, and he'll find a way to excuse the both of you.

Hancock won't leave your side for the next few days . . Or weeks. Still unable to believe you're his wife, and not wanting to waste one second of it, as though you'll disappear if he leaves you alone for too long. He will understand if you need the space though, don't worry, he'll do his best not to smother you.

#KSFGK sorry this took so long #i promise not to go inactive and then i do anyways #but this was so fun to write #i love hancock sm #fallout #fallout 4 #john hancock #john hancock x reader #fallout companions #fallout headcanons #fallout imagines #fallout x reader

[sleepyblr-heart]

while i work on catching you all up on the rest of present's story, i think you eserve some fun facts about her and the world she lives in! Let's start with the world!

the story she's in is collabrative (or, maybe roleplay would fit better, but we've been calling it a collabrative storyline so. pbt.) most of the characters don't belong to me, instead belonging to 2 friends of mine (waves. hi eph and pup)

the world is made of like. 4 (known) dimensions. theres the normal universe, the 4th Wall (an endless white void with a grid pattern on the floor and a forest one of the gods planted), the Inbetween (which sits between the 4th Wall and the normal universe, it's a black void filled with Things), and hell.

there have been like... 8 gods so far. 2 of them got turned into babies. ones a cat. ones an object that got murdered and turned into a ghost. ones a fox that the oldest gods decided to fuck around w/. one of them's present.

the gods have 3 basic forms (or. 2 and a vessel.) Their normal, godly form (typically humanoid but never exactly human, the newer gods stray farther away from human than the older gods). A face form (which while mainly because it's easier to draw also only allows certain, allowed objects to see them in this form), and an Object form or Vessel (typically just a vessel, unless the god was an object at some point, like present!)

there are a few species outside of regular objects (though most will prolly not come up in my summary of present's story). They are: Shapeshifters, Body snatchers, Mimics, Demons, and also like One Entire Vampire.

Certain magics are invisible to the naked eye, while others are visible. However, there are like. 2 objects who can see invisible magic as well as visible magic (along with certain supernatural creatures, specially ghosts.) One of these objects is one of present's girlfriends, Baton.

The world has almost ended like. 5 times. Surprisingly, despite being prophesied to be the one who saves the world, she has had almost no hand in helping with any of these world ending events (mostly because none of the other gods thought to tell her much about the situation)

the gods have divine weapons (though they dont need to really be weapons. one of them has a watering can and one has a dog treat.) Present's is a violin bow (literally) and rapier! dont ask how the string attached back if the rapier is unsheathed i dont know either. magic prolly.

now to present specific fun facts!

She has a fictional condition which, when in a lot of stress (or feeling to high of any emotion, really) her body temp. gets so high she catches on fire

she also has an anxiety disorder. so you know. Wonderful mix!!

she currently works at an ice cream shop run by an employee of Litterally The Worst Company Ever (BBC (Big Boss's Crew)). It's a cover-up to try and find canidates to hire at the actual company.

She has 2 very accidental children, one being a kid named Hattish which baton adopted while present was still on BFP (hattish may have also kidnapped baton but we dont need to worry about that) and Phoney, a cell phone that just. Came alive while Snowglobe, present's other girlfriend, was calling her and baton.

when she has any free time (which is a bit rare atm) she writes music! she hasn't properly published any of it, but im sure she will at some point.

present (like most gods) can create magic arms, however she actually doesn't use them too much if she can help it. she's lived her entire life using her legs or mouth for stuff, it's a bit hard to get used to using new limbs after only a few years!

she doesn't like using most of her magic unless it's needed or someone asks. (mainly because she used to not be allowed, but also she's worried of accidentally hurting someone with it.)

after the first near world ending disaster, she thought she would be returned to her normal object life, and have her magic taken away from her.

she was wrong.

she wishes she was right.

she doesn't like the color purple too much, as it reminds her of fog.

but the color purple also reminds her of one of the gods, which is one of her best friends, so she doesn't hate it!

she started wearing wrapping paper as part of her transition! it's an incredibly personal thing to her, and the only people that have been allowed to help her put on wrapping paper when it gets fucked up (or when she wants to try a new color combo) have been family, her childhood friend Candy heart and her girlfriends.

she has scopophobia, meaning she hates looking and being looked at. the only people she wants to look at her are baton and snowglobe (she doesn't mind other people she's close with looking at her for a bit, but she still freaks out if it's for too long)

that last thing is important, mostly because the only she's worse at than reading other peoples feelings is reading her own. and the fact that she wanted those two gay fucks to look at her was what helped her realize "oh hey. fuck. love is a thing, huh. and im feeling it. goddam"

i think thats enough fun and Facts for now. remember!! go vote for her in the @original-character-championship!!! or dont!!! both outcomes are still very funny to me!!!

#present! #long post #heart beats! #heart art! #i love info dumping about my girl #im glad i joined this contest #even if she gets out first round i get to Be Silly for a week

[rutilation]

This latest chapter reminded me that I have thoughts about this guy. And by thoughts, I mean questions. But, before I ask those questions, I want to share my thoughts about a few other side characters in Part 2. I have a point I wish to make through them:

Miri has been used, abused, and dehumanized his whole life. It makes him suffer, but it's also as ubiquitous and imperceptible to him as water is to a fish. After Makima died, he tried to drag himself into the light, and take back control of his life, but he ended up backsliding into old habits, and wound up neck deep in a violent cult--new window dressing on the same old shit.

Fumiko deeply despises Chainsaw Man for not saving her parents, but sublimates that hatred into pity for Denji. When he's toeing Public Safety's line, she squeezes him like he's her personal stress ball, alternately degrading him and flattering him, all while telling herself she's protecting poor, scared little boy who was forced to become Chainsaw Man. But, when the chips are down, she takes every opportunity she can to twist the knife in Denji's back, and exact her vengeance.

We don't know a single detail of Barem's past, but it's nonetheless clear that he's like a version of Denji that couldn't bring himself to break free of Makima. He's a true believer in the worldview she created to rationalize her own inability to connect with others. He wants that perfect world, with no bad movies, where he never has to think or make decisions for himself. He hates Denji for taking that possibility away from him, and he hates Nayuta for outgrowing Makima.

None of these characters have had a huge amount of focus or backstory in the grand scheme of things. But, while they are rough sketches, drawn with few lines, they're still complete sketches. And, whether or not they ever get any more meat on their bones, I can confidently say I know what makes them tick.

We have not, however, gotten a complete sketch of Yoshida, rough or otherwise--just disparate puzzle pieces that don't yet fit together.

Yoshida keeps his cards close to his chest, but one thing about him that is painfully obvious is that his brain currently exists at the bottom of a crab bucket. From being crowded by speech bubbles full of excuses for his loneliness, to affirming to Denji that alienation is the heart of normalcy, to him losing his cool when Denji says he wants both his normal and superhero life, it's crystal clear how much he doesn't want to imagine a better world, not for himself, nor for anyone else, and how much he resents any notion to the contrary.

What has me confused atm is trying to square that with his apparent attitude and outlook during Part 1. He didn't seem happy per se, but he was definitely way more carefree than he is now. In particular, his scene with Kishibe seems to stand in stark opposition to his current situation. What I got out of that conversation was that he was well aware of plots and conspiracies surrounding Makima and Public Safety, and was feeling smug about the fact that none of it affected him--he had finals to worry about, you see. But, somewhere between parts 1 and 2, he went from haughtily observing the crab bucket from on high, to being at the bottom of it. How did that happen? And just what is the true nature of this bucket?

To speak in less metaphorical terms: If his new job at Public Safety makes him miserable, why doesn't he just quit? He could certainly make it as a civilian devil hunter. And, given how he was willing stand by and watch as Yuko killed a bunch of his fellow students, I doubt he's in the bucket out of a sense of altruism or duty. Based on the information we've been given, he shouldn't feel the need to put himself through any of this. He has no reason to be Public Safety's Saddest Middle-Manager. So why is he? Out of all the questions I have, I feel this one is the most glaring. This, right here, is the puzzle piece being withheld.

Another question I have: why are he and Fumiko 2 different characters? On the face of it, from a writing perspective, they're seemingly fulfilling the same functions in the story. They're both projecting hard onto Denji, they're both being so very parasocial about it, they're both stand-ins for Public Safety's tyranny, they both betray our protagonists, siding with authority when the chips are down, and they are both. such. cops.

Their only difference is their respective attitudes--where Fumiko approaches her role with gleeful cruelty, Yoshida does so with sour-grapes resignation. I don't feel, though, that such a difference would be enough on its own to warrant making them two separate characters. So, why are they? The only reason I can come up with is that the two of them are eventually going to end up in very different positions, thus necessitating two different characters. One of them needs to be a bastard forever, because The State is always going to be a bastard forever, and between the two of them, Fumiko is the more motivated bastard.

That's the main reason I believe that the general fandom expectation of Yoshida having some sort of redemption arc down the line has weight to it, and isn't *merely* the result of fans automatically siding with--and ascribing unearned depth to--the biggest twink in the room. That said, I would like to point out that just because he seems likely to eventually break with Public Safety, does not necessarily mean his endpoint is going to be sympathetic, or heroic, or conducive to shipping; it's just going to be different from Fumiko's.

Finally, standing above these questions is a broader question: why is Fujimoto stringing us along like this with regard to Yoshida? All those other characters I talked about made total sense within ten chapters of their introduction, so why not him? What's the point of making Yoshida a puzzle in the first place, of withholding answers for this long?

The longer this particular shoe takes to drop, the more convinced I am that it's going to end up being a bombshell. After being left in suspense for this long, I'll be disappointed if it isn't.

#chainsaw man #wow what an interesting discussion you're putting out there me #too bad the next chapter drops in like 12 hours and no one's going to read this

[fandomfluffandfuck]

Hi S - I’m sorry to dump on you but I feel like my friends are sick of hearing about this and I have to talk to someone.

I adore the apartment I’m renting right now, but my landlord told me a few weeks ago that she’s selling it. She’s been really nice and kept me at the same rent while everyone else’s exploded, which means my money means much less than it did three years ago, so everything I’m seeing so far is a huge step down. Which is hard, because this is the first place I’ve lived and felt truly safe in in my life.

I just saw an apartment that’s much smaller, and doesn’t have a dishwasher, but it’s clean and in an incredible location and only $100 more in rent. But I have some (maybe fruitless) concerns about the maintenance set up, and the move in date is a month earlier than I’d been preparing myself for. So I’ve been wrapped in a panic attack for hours second guessing myself. Because I don’t want to let this go and regret it, but I’m also still processing losing my perfect apartment.

This is when I need a dom, not sexually atm but, like, for life advice (only partly joking). Because my gut feeling changes every few hours and I’m not trusting myself and I just want this uncertainty to end.

Hey, sweetheart.

It's chill, lol. I can't promise you good advice but, hey, I'll definitely listen.

That's really tough! Losing a place to live, in general, always sucks when you like it there, but it especially sucks in the current economy when the price of living is stupid high. You have to spend so much for so little. Plus, yeah, it sounds like you really, really enjoy where you're living right now and are deeply connected to it. You've had a good time there, and you're very familiar with it, so I get that it's hard to let it go. I don't think anyone would want to let that go.

If you like the other apartment you've been looking at, then you like it. The location sounds like a highlight for you. So, it might be worth it just for that. Yet, I get the maintenance concerns. You'll have to consider if any maintenance issues that might come up will be worth the $100 less of rent each month. "Worth it" in terms of actual money or in emotional labor and stress if things are breaking or degrading continually. It might be possible to find somewhere else that is $100 more, but you have fewer concerns with it, so it could balance out. Peace of mind can be priceless (especially if you have anxiety and tend toward being high-strung). It might not be possible, though. I don't know your whole situation. I, as dorky as it sounds, often need to write down the positives and negatives when it comes to large decisions like what you're describing. You might try that. The pros and cons can all be logical or all emotional or a mix, if you try it, it doesn't matter. It's just good to spill your thoughts.

Second-guessing yourself is hard, too. So is making decisions when you're pressed. I understand not wanting to regret passing up this opportunity at the same time that you don't want to rush into something.

Personally, I think I would hold off because of the mentioned concerns with maintainace--I know what a pain in the ass that can be--and the quick turnaround that suggests you have more time to look around for other listings that have the possibility of being better. However, you know your situation best. Maybe that other apartment is the best thing. It sounds like it could be if cleanliness is on your positive, unexpected benefit list. If so, go for it. But let yourself process that it sucks to lose your current apartment as you go through it. You do not need to suck it up and just be happy that you have found a new place. You can process that this situation sucks, then, slowly, learn things to appreciate about the new place.

Overall, it makes sense that you're upset. This apartment you have now has made you feel safe. You might feel like it seems silly to other people, but this is something worth grieving over losing. It's been your home. Three years is a long time. You're being made to leave before you're ready. That's rough. Even though you might logically know that you will be okay and you will make new memories and find safety and forage your own space in a new apartment, that doesn't stop it from being scary. You'll be okay, though. Whatever decision you make. Regrets are scary but not an end all, be all.

P.S. You say you feel as though your friends are tired of hearing about it, but you're going through it. I'm sure they're not as tired as you think they are. There's updates and changes, and clearly, it's affecting you, so they should be there to help you through it. That's what friends are for.

Take care of yourself <3

#asks #personal #thoughts

[shammyb]

Health Update All my tests have come back except for my endometrial biopsy which can take up to two weeks (It's been one week now) to be complete/show results. My blood panels were all fine and normal aside from that I have a pretty high white blood cell count...which can mean inflammation in my body, etc. My ultrasound for ovarian cysts came back looking normal. So basically my health issues/why im having my period 10-days straight every TWO weeks is still a mystery...And hopefully this biopsy will be what gives me answers to move forward. I'm fairly stress free atm, but not gonna lie it is a little stressful when i do let it get to me not knowing what's happening in my own body and therefor not having answers on how I can help give it the care it needs. Anyway----that aside, I've been well. I've been practicing love, meditating multiple times a week, taking lions mane almost every day, getting way better sleep as i dont smoke weed basically ever anymore, reading, climbing, getting back on track on my yoga certification----oh god, side note, someone is blasting country music outside my window and I'm going to go a little mad if it doesn't stop soon---- and just sticking to taking in and being the yoga sutras as much as i'm able. I've reconnected with old friends lately and have made a new friend at my current workplace who friggin has sooo many similar interests as me it's odd---but i took them climbing and got to teach technique/terminology and give them a positive memory of the sport and they seem to really like it! Anyway just random journally updates for me and anyone who randomly scrolls/has interest in my life I guess!

~Until next time~ P

#ramblings #updates #health #wellness #life #journal #me

[roylustang]

how did you get into walking/running? How often do you do it/ for how long a day? do you do it more outside or on a machine? any tips?

im trying to get into walking to be healthier!

Honestly about 3 years ago I started working out for vanity purposes bc I wanted a Hot Bod lol and I actually started mainly with going to the gym and using the elliptical bc lbr running is hard when you first start and I would put on my best playlist, jam tf out, and go insane bc I thought the elliptical was so much fun tbh. If you really put on the bops exercise just feels like another form of dancing. When I started I went about 3-4x a week for like 30-60mins

After a few months however I got kind of bored of the vanity thing and I decided I wanted to Accomplish Something and I’ve enjoyed running off and on throughout my life so one day I hopped back on the treadmill and busted out like 4.5 miles in one go and I only stopped bc I got the worst fucking blisters on my feet ever bc I had shitty socks and shoes but I decided I was going to run a half marathon (bc I’d already done a 5k and a 10k in the past even tho I hadn’t run in 5 years)

Nowadays with my 9-5 I usually run about 4-5x a week for about an hour on weekdays and anywhere between 1-4 hours on Saturday mainly outside no matter the weather conditions. My ultimate goal is to one day run 100+ miles, so atm I’m just base building and when I come home in a year I’m going to full time car camp and train basically 24/7 to accomplish this goal.

I did a 100 mile week to test my structural fitness essentially and find any weaknesses and bc I believe there’s a benefit in training to walk as well since running and walking are two different motions that place different stresses on the body (and also why I didn’t run all of it bc overall running places more stress and my structural fitness isn’t THAT good, however it also means more time on feet so it’s a give and take). I walked about 15 miles/day and I averaged just under 4 hours per day (only possible bc school is out atm)

If you want motivation I have so many recs for u on YouTube it’s unbelievable. I remember reading about ultrarunning my freshman year of high school and it was a super (and still kind of is) niche sport but it’s grown exponentially in the past decade I believe firmly in part due to the amount of YouTube films about it now. Also recently I’ve been watching videos about people hiking the PCT which is insanely beautiful.

Anyway this was probably way longer than it needed to be but I could literally go on for days so if you ever wanna talk more about Fitness feel free to drop more asks or message me I’m always happy to info dump lol

#my tip is never give up and CHALLENGE yourself #but srsly I could talk for days #when running gets hard I distract myself by retelling myself in dramatic detail stories about my own running #literally knocked out 30 mins of walking by monologuing to myself about the time I ran a 50k #omg that was almost exactly a year ago #thank you for asking <3

[cyberbullyinc]

this weed has 13 days to get out of my system or i SWEAR TO GOD

#this means i have to go thru withdrawal again girl it was SO BAD!!!!! i hate capitalism 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #u expect me to work 8 hours everyday and NOT get high?!!!! i don’t even have that #much stress in my life atm and i STILL need to get high to get by 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[writing-with-olive]

i am starting to get back into the habit of writing again. my main issue is that i get ideas for stories and end up abandoning them, mainly because i have lots of other stuff going on atm like finishing my last few semesters of school. do you think it's better to set goals based off how many words i write, or for how much time i spent writing? thank you

Hey anon!

The biggest thing is to prioritize writing for fun and enjoyment. If you don't enjoy what you're doing, it doesn't matter what goals you set - it will be very hard to reach them, and it's gonna make you feel not great. Especially if you've got a lot of other demands on your time and energy.

As for word vs time goals, it depends a bit on what you want to accomplish, and how your brain works. Word goals are great if you get distracted easily and need a way to track progress that cuts through all of that, but can sometimes cause stress/burnout if you overdo it. Time goals are great if you need to just show up to write consistently, but they can be a lot less objective way to go about tracking if you don't define what counts and doesn't count as writing beforehand.

(more detail on both below the cut)

Word goals have the benefit of concretely showing how much you've accomplished, and it can motivate you toward finishing projects, as you can ballpark what the end wordcount will probably be, and then work toward that. I find it's also a bit easier to track, as you can just click the wordcount on whatever writing software you're using, and boom. You've got your wordcount. There's a couple pitfalls when it comes to wordcount goals, though. The first is in writing quality - if you focus too much on "oh I need to get this many words written and then I've accomplished my writing goal for the day" you can sometimes end up with bloated prose and/or a lot of fluff that creates words but doesn't really add to anything. Of course, this isn't universal, but it's something I find crops up more (at least for me) than if I'm doing time-based goals. The other thing: be careful about setting word goals too high. Especially if you're starting off and are still working out your rhythm - going too hard too fast can cause burnout like nothing else, which tanks enjoyment and productivity, and can sometimes bleed into other areas of life.

One of the biggest advantages of time goals is that it can allow you to focus on the quality of your work without putting quite as much emphasis on pumping out content. It's great for building habits, as it's more about showing up every day (or however many times in the week if you don't write every day - completely valid), and it can let you explore. I used time goals a lot more when I was just starting out with a writer and it was a lot of fun. Like word goals, time goals can also have some pitfalls. Firstly, it can be more difficult to track. If you don't remember what time it was when you started, or you got distracted in the middle, but don't know how much it should count or not count, or you did a micro-session and just got in four sentences in between homework assignments, or whatever - you will have to work a little bit harder to track it. The other thing is deciding what counts and doesn't count as writing. If you sit down to a thirty minute writing session, but spend half of it looking through tumblr for the right dialogue prompt, does it all count? or just the fifteen minutes you actually wrote? Also, if your goal is to finish a project, it's a little harder to estimate how long it will take, so breaking down time goals can be trickier.

Another thing to consider is that there's no reason you can't switch between types of goals if you find that the one you pick first doesn't really work for you, or your other commitments force you to adjust your writing habits. Personally, I set quarterly goals where I decide how much of a project I want to get done (finish act 2, etc), and then on a week-by-week basis, I decide if my current schedule and mental state better supports time goals or word goals. Since you switch out projects a lot, this specific system may not be the ideal, but I put it here anyway so you can see how it might see it and find a way to adapt it to your needs specifically.

Hopefully this helps. Happy writing!

#writing #writers on tumblr #writeblr #writblr #writing advice #writing tips #habits #word goals #time goals #goalsetting #writing reference #writing asks #asks #writing and school #student writer #olive's writing vibes

[hellonoblesky]

School got me worn out so here's my team dynamic HCs

It's Kaeya, Xingqiu, Diluc, and Ayaka atm hngjfhgdjfg

Kaeya

This man is so tired, Archons please let him rest

Has to pick up his week's paperwork from Jean every Monday when we go to Mondstadt to buy food supplies and stuff before fighting Andrius, gets to work on it while Diluc and the Andrius team go at it

Actually is the person who keeps the whole party safe, has pulled Xingqiu away from ledges while he's reading more times than he can count, makes sure everyone has food at all times, and keeps the schedule in line

Has a flask of Death After Noon that he keeps on him, has to actively keep it away from Xingqiu because the kid's curious

He is so tired he is the reason the party only gets up to leave at like noon because he sleeps in

Thinks he's good enough at hiding his anxiety that no one else has noticed

He is not, they've all noticed him shaking visibly at high speeds in 90-degree weather and the kids will do their best to avoid fraying his nerves on a bad day

Very kind to Xingqiu and Ayaka, kinda like a cool uncle? Buys them things even though they can afford it

Kinda lets the kids do what they want and chat while he keeps them safe and the whole party on their way

Absolute tank, balances his skillset out so he can manage most threats alone, no one has to get hurt, they can just travel, it's fine it's fine

Pretends to casually bring up stuff the kids want to do (after meticulously making sure the party would be in the right place at the right time)

"Xingqiu, we have time to kill, care to show us to the Wanwen Bookhouse? We can see if they have the next issue in that book series you're always reading! :)"

"Ayaka, you wanted to try some Liyuen cuisine, didn't you? We have a dear friend who just so happens to be a chef at Wanmin Restaurant! And since we're in Liyue anyway, we should swing by, shouldn't we?"

He tries his best to find something Diluc wouldn't mind doing too! Usually, Diluc turns him down but Kaeya has scored on occasion!

"C'mon Diluc, you can't have lost all your taste for reading, right? I hear Inazuma has some interesting books nowadays, what with all the isolation..."

Basically, he just tries his best and is so tired please let him rest

Diluc

This man is angry all the time but he doesn't mean to be. He's just unnerved because he's basically back to hunting Fatui in other nations. He just isn't alone this time and the Fatui aren't the focus

He's so annoyed that they don't leave until Kaeya wakes up, actively in denial about the fact that he himself wakes up only an hour earlier and everyone else is waiting for much longer

Runs right into danger all the time please someone tell this man to calm down he is the reason they need so much food

Does and takes a whole lot of damage at the same time and it stresses Kaeya out so much

Was not Pleased to find out he'd be stuck traveling with Kaeya, puts up with it because he can't bring himself to turn down the Traveler's request. Because in his eyes they're just a kid trying to find their family and he really can't turn down their plea for help in

Gets along surprisingly well with Xingqiu, they both enjoy reading, and often recommend books to each other! Diluc has no idea Xingqiu wrote Legend of a Sword, but the only reason for that is that he literally forgot the book name

"Hmm... in Mondstadt we have this book, The Fox and the Dandelion Sea? For a traditional Mondstadt fairytale, it does remind me of Inazuma, funnily enough. There are versions of the book that are watered down for younger children, but if you have the time I'd recommend the full novelization."

"Tales From the Waves? No, I haven't read that. Is it good?" ... "A novelization of an old ship captain's life? That does sound interesting... I'll pick up a copy when I can"

Gets along well with Ayaka as well, they both appreciate the arts and such so they talk about that

"In Mondstadt we don't have nearly as many festivals as they do in Inazuma... but when we do they're quite the occasion, and very dear to people's hearts. There would be rioting in the streets if the Windblume Festival was postponed..."

"Oh Mond has its fair share of dance traditions, but they fell to be a staple of the Lawrence rule, so not many traditional dances remain... although if you wish to learn more about them you could ask Kaeya to introduce you to the Knight's Recconacance Captain. She doesn't like me very much"

Is the one person who actually doesn't realize that Kaeya is anxious All The Time, literally could watch him shake uncontrollably as Venti walks by and think it was his Vision acting up, he has all the pieces to put the puzzle together but has lost interest in it

Xingqiu

Top ten reasons the party gets sidetracked, number one: Xingqiu finding a book and getting so into it that he doesn't notice people

Actually besties with Ayaka he thinks she's really cool!

Top ten reasons why Kaeya actually gets to sleep as long as he does, number one: Xingqiu jumping up and yanking Diluc's hair when he tries to wake him up

"You're 22 you can go get breakfast by yourself, my leige"

Infodumps about his books to the whole party while they're eating dinner regardless of if they're listening or not (they are, they always are)

Pulls out relevant trivia out of nowhere?? Like they'll be stuck in some ruins and Xingqiu just

"Hey, you know this specific style of ruins are known to be built with metal hatches that always lead to escape routes :)"

Or like

"Oh yeah, the coloration in the animals is different here because the plants in Inazuma so often have purple and blue pigmentation, and Inazuma is so naturally isolated, that the animals adapted to get their pigments partially from the foliage!"

And no one knows how or why he knows this much but he Does??

Also, knows everyone's favorite bird for some reason and talks about them, why? Idk I think he'd like birds!!

"A peacock? Oh, I've never even seen one of those! I hear they're lovely, but a little noisy. Sometimes we get feathers imported for design reference at the Feyun Commerce Guild though!"

"Umbertail Falcon, right? Ohh I hear they can be very loyal, right? Ahh, so that's why yours flys down to check in on you? That's lovely! Owls? Oh yeah, those are cool birds, you know their feathers are fanned out just right so they're entirely silent while flying!"

"Herons? Oh yeah, that's what your title is, right? Graceful... I think they're more stealthy, very good at waiting to strike. That's how they hunt, you know? Just being patient and stealthy, then striking. That's also why they're so graceful standing there all the time!"

Bummed that he's the only person in the party without a bird as his constellation tbh, but he's alright with it because he's got books!!

Mentioned Albedo and Kaeya almost choked on his food, Xingqiu thought this was hilarious

Routinely plays pranks on Diluc and occasionally manages to pull a deez joke on Kaeya, leaves Ayaka alone with the pranks though because he knows she's new to all of this

Ayaka

Oh this poor girl, Lumine just dropped her off with Mondstadt's most dysfunctional siblings and a kid who reads at the speed of light and said have fun

Really gets along well with Xingqiu!! Having someone with a somewhat similar background is definitely a relief, especially because Kaeya and Diluc intimidate her, what with them arguing most of the time they interact

She recognizes the anxiety in Kaeya (because she also has it) so she's a little more comfortable approaching him because of that

She's happy to talk about Inazuma's ruins and is fascinated by Kaeya bringing up similar ruins in Mondstadt and Liyue

She really appreciates him remembering what she's interested in and making time in the day for it!

Diluc on the other hand?? She has... some idea how to talk to him? But?? He is either aggressive or glaring off into the distance at all times, and she's been around long enough to know that he doesn't mean to be like that but it's still unnerving to her

However, she Can talk to him! She is still a little confused because he constantly sounds so grumpy, but she's realized that he's actually really good at listening, and is absolutely willing to talk about Mondstadt traditions! Because she does really like to learn about other nations

Plus, she can go to Xingqiu to answer most of her questions!

"Xingqiu, I- I hope this isn't an odd question, but ah... how exactly do you get used to Kaeya and Diluc? I don't think I've quite figured it out yet..?"

"So in Liyue... the Merchant stalls are on the docks? Like Ritou but it's all on the docks? Interesting..."

"You're the second born of the Feyun Commerce Guild? Oh! Forgive me, I thought you were the eldest, my brother handles most international relations..."

It was really hard for her to adjust to the team, just because of how ragtag it is most of the time, but she's got it by now!

She actually kind of likes the scrappy chaos! She hasn't completely gotten used to it all but she finds it like kind of a break from having to uphold her image at all times

Top five Ayaka quotes and who she said them to:

"They fight a wolf ghost every week...?? Are they ok??" (To Kaeya, about the Andrius team)

"So this is Morax's old... dragon friend...??" (To Xingqiu)

"Wait, you do this every week?" (To Diluc, about the domains)

"Oh!! Oh it is spicy!!!" (To Xingqiu, about Xiangling's cooking)

"Ah... OH! Yes um I uh- *gay hand flip* ?? Is that right??" (Xingqiu was talking about Chongyun)

Also the party went to Dragonspine and Ayaka was actually really interested in Durin because she didn't know that other nations also had odd giant dragon skeletons

#genshin impact #genshin kaeya #kaeya albrich #genshin diluc #diluc ragnvindr #genshin xingqiu #genshin ayaka #kamisato ayaka #please disregard any msitakes I am so tired I just wanted to write sometehing #gonna post my school doodles in my sketchbook on the art blog later probably anyway #kaeya has anxiety diluc seems mad xingqiu is stable and ayaka is confused that's it that's the post

[a-written-dream]

When you get this you have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)✨💝

Oh gosh thank you nonnie!!🥺<3

Okay, so 5 things I like about myself, in no particular order!

I'm generally very easily amused and excitable (I will laugh at almost any joke even if it's not really all that funny). I like to think maybe it brightens the mood of those around me

I love that I love writing, and that I can see my own progress with every piece I write! I also really like the fact that I am pretty good at it (from years and years and years of practice)

I've, through trial and error and therapy, gotten pretty good at handling the thing that is dealing with life. I generally know when to let myself rest, when to push myself, when my anxiety is louder than it deserves to be, and how much of this shitty world I can handle before I need to take a step back (though I've got a long way to go still!). I suppose I think I've gotten good at dealing with stuff in a pretty healthy way! (even though I still deal with the stress of university and, you know, being alive, and anxiety and all the rest of it)

I'm pretty ambitious and motivated, even if the ambitions may not be super high! I find my work (which atm is finishing my bachelor degree) and my hobbies fun and I have things I want to achieve in both areas! I like making progress and getting better and doing more and new things within the things I enjoy, and I quite like that about myself

I am open minded, and am most often willing to listen and try to understand. I'm generally not very quick to judge nor am I a very harsh judge, and I think my willingness to give people the room to explain is probably one of my best traits!

Thank you so much again nonnie for sending this my way! This was actually really uplifting and I definitely needed to remember some of my good traits

#about me #asks #anonymous

[agonydearest]

Fragments - M!Sidestep x Herald

Every time I have a panic attack, I need a stress reliever.  Sometimes I take a bath with lavender oil, sometimes I take antihistamines to help me sleep at night (at doctor’s recommendation, of course.  Don’t ever self-medicate unless you know what you’re doing) and sometimes I write.  Tonight, I’m writing again.

I know I haven’t posted in a while, and had fully intended to have some projects finished, but life sucks for me right now and my stress levels are on the crazy high side atm.  And you know what MC of mine has similar problems?  Sidestep himself.  I wrote a similar fic for ExO a while back - linked on my masterlist - so why not let Jude have a minute?  And if it calms me down in the process so I can get some sleep before work tomorrow, well that would be a great bonus.

So, Tumblr, meet Jude Bellamy, AKA Sidestep, AKA Puppetmaster!

It was happening again.  Jude felt his body trembling (whether that was from the panic coursing through him like icy water from a raging river or not having eaten that day, he didn’t know nor care).  His blunt fingernails dug into the flesh of his arms, a grounding gesture to let him know he was still alive and the dream wasn’t real.  Not then, anyway.  His stomach was in nauseating knots as he sat in a tub of steaming water with his knees to his chest and his eyes stinging and damp.  How long had he been in there?  He didn’t know, but it was long enough for his fingertips to shrivel, and apparently long enough to be worrisome.

The sound of knocking broke him from his trance.  His head snapped in the direction of the door, and his heart dropped at the voice that came from the other side of it.  “Jude?  Are you okay?  I can hear you through the door.”

Shit!  He must have been breathing too heavy.  He felt it now; hyperventilation.  fingernails started to break the skin of his biceps where his grip tightened.  

“Go away!” Jude hissed at the slight sting.  He’d had worse, even performed surgery on himself and he had more scars than even he could count, but his entire body was on high alert, and every touch against his sensitive skin sent his senses into overdrive.  He prayed for Danny to leave.

But he persisted.  “You sound...You’re not sick, are you?”

“Please, Danny, just leave me alone.”

That was when the door screeched open, the awful sound making the vigilante wince.  He didn’t even bother to cover himself; just stared at the man in the open doorway with wild eyes like a frightened animal.  “Jude?”  Danny’s own eyes were enlarged with horror, and Jude knew he looked terrible with his dark blond hair matted to his cheeks and neck and - “Oh my God, Jude, let go of yourself!”  The other man had rushed in and grabbed the one wrist that was close to him, pulling it away from pale tattooed flesh until the man formerly known as Sidestep registered the throbbing pain shooting from the crescent-shaped marks on his bicep, red as the whites of his green eyes, stinging with unshed tears that finally started to overflow as he met his lover’s (?) frightened gaze.  

He could have screamed at Danny to leave, flung him across the room and kicked him out of the apartment - anything to save what little dignity he had left - but all he could say was, “You’ll get wet.”  It was utterly pathetic.  Like the first time they had sex - he’d cried then too.  He was pathetic,

“I don’t care.” Danny replied, “Hold on.”  He took Jude’s hand and helped him to his feet, Keeping his body balanced as he gestured for him to sit beside the faux marble sink.  

Jude was fully aware of the position he was in; naked on the tile countertop with only a mint green bath towel in his lap to keep him covered while Herald used a smaller hand towel to dry his upper body.  It actually felt...nice, being taken care of.  Aside from the heat of the tears streaming down his cheeks and the shakes still wracking his body.  Jude hated that he felt that way.  He was too vulnerable.  He could feel fingers on his cheek and heard Herald speaking soft and firm. “You’re alright.  It’s going to pass, I promise.”

He knew.  Somehow he knew.

The thought alone was enough to make the tears turn to full-on sobs and Herald pulled him into a tight embrace that had Jude burying his face in the clothed flesh of his shoulder and gripping his shirt hard enough he was surprised it didn’t rip.  

He’d never allowed himself this moment of weakness, not in front of another person, and he isn’t sure what to do or say.  Not that he could speak other than letting out cries and gasps for air as he tried to regain control of his breathing.  Eventually, his throat was raw and he barely managed a single word in a voice that sounded more like a hoarse croak.  “I’m... I... ”

“It’s alright.” Herald told him, still cupping his cheek with one hand while the thumb of his other hand danced over his knuckled in a soothing gesture, “You don’t have to say anything.  Just concentrate on my voice.  It’s going to be okay, you hear?  You’re going to be okay.”

Jude always told himself it was best to deal with his panic attacks alone - who could understand anyway?  He didn’t need comfort or pity from anyone else.  It turned out he needed it bad.  He needed...

“I need you.”

Herald smiled warmly and pressed a kiss to his hair, cradling him close and blocking out the cold with his body heat, almost as if he could shield him from everything that might possibly hurt him with the embrace.  “I’m here, Jude.  I’m not going anywhere.” he assures, “I love you.  It’s going to be ok.”

“No one has ever said that to me.”

Danny stared into his eyes with a confused frown.  “That they love you?”

“That it will be ok.” Jude replied, because it was true.  He had no parents, he was always on his own, even with the Rangers as friends.  Even Ortega never knew how bad it was inside his head.  Nobody did.  Nobody could; it wasn’t safe.  

But he was safe with Danny.  He managed to glimpse a few thoughts through the young man’s shields, now much stronger with training but sometimes still loud enough that Jude could hear them clear as day.  He felt acceptance, concern, affection, love.  It was like a warm blanket draped over him, and Jude never wanted it to go away. “Stay with me?” he asked.

“Always.”

#fallen hero #sidestep #herald #flystep #herald x sidestep #fhr #fanfic #Nik attempts to write

[bisluthq]

this is like really random but i have to vent. so basically i’m 20 years old and in my second-year at a uk university. and like i had the worst first-year of my life, made no friends, and got long covid plus really bad depression so yeah it wasn’t great. and now im back at uni i just am really feeling my lack of experience. iv never even properly kissed anyone let alone had sex and all the drinking games etc revolve around sex. i’m pretty sure i’m bi just like based on what i masturbate to but i’v only ever looked at guys as potential relationships. i just like don’t know how to navigate the social world with no friends and no sexual experience, it just feels impossible. and all my friends from home (1 of which is at uni with me) have boyfriends or at least have had sex. and also clubbing feels totally revolved around sex and kissing. it’s really hard to admit to people that i’m a virgin because people assume i’m a prude or a weirdo when i’m not i just haven’t really had the opportunity. i’m just feeling like such a loser atm. oh aaaand i actually really want a boyfriend rn.

Firstly, this is totally normal and nothing to be ashamed of. There’s no timeline for these things.

Secondly, so this is going to be a long winded Agony AuNat but sometimes I think my best ones are. In a way, this reminds me of a friend I had like 20-21 at uni. Basically we became friends because I caught her forum role playing and I was like “lmaoooo I used to do that too!” and we like bonded over it and like very quickly I began realizing that she did it on the kinds of sites me and my online friends laughed at because they weren’t ⚡️aesthetic⚡️ or sexy. Like this was some high fantasy bullshit lol - no offense also cool - on like ProBoards when we were already in the Jcink era. Anyway no biggie. This girl - a horse girl at 20 still and not in the rich bitch way - proceeded to like… idolize me and obvi y’all know how much I like attention so I loved it. And one night she asked me for advice on how to get kissed because she had been like… really wanting to lose her virginity but things just weren’t happening. I proceeded to give the worst advice ever because I too was just a young un. I said “don’t worry it’s gonna happen for you!!! Like I’m sure your crush likes you!! Don’t stress you’re so pretty and sweet!” And I believed I was saying the right stuff and it comforted her ngl so I was like 👏🏻👏🏻 go Nat you’re the best at giving advice.

Except here’s the problem - it still wasn’t happening. She was going to parties with me and I was like dressing her sluttier like some weird teen romcom movie where I was giving her a makeover and like… no one was biting.

And then - for those who remember the Nat Cinematic Universe - it turned out that rando from my 21st who I randomly fucked? Ya dudes that was her crush lol and she hadn’t told me because she thought I’d figure it out lol and she was mad at me and we sorta stayed friends until I fucked that guy’s friend which was nbd to anyone involved because my bestie fucked him and tbh I fancied the friend because he was this average sized weedy dark haired boy who was very weird looking and she exploded at me and called me a slut and shit and that was that, friendship over.

Unsure what happened next, but the reason I’ve given you this backstory is from my current POV I gave extremely bad advice so I’m gonna try correct with you tonight.

Unless you’re in high school when friends of friends can go between people and say you have a crush, and then you text them and like bam you’re exclusive, you have to work to get ass or make friends. Okay the other exception is if you’re like SUPER hot idk about that life, but tbh probs even then. Life isn’t a teen movie, and you’re not gonna just catch someone’s eye and that’ll be that. Dressing nicely might be part of it, doing your hair and makeup in whatever style you want, and making it clear up front - especially at uni when imo branding™️ matters a lot - what your interests are and such shit all factor in. I’m not saying change who you are because again that’s supremely bad advice: figure out who you are. Figure out what you want to wear (experiment!), who you want to talk to (strike up convos on campus!), what you like doing (try things out!) and - most importantly - what you’re comfortable with. Try drinking - and if you don’t like it, don’t do it. Try flirting - and if you don’t like it, know that you can go from friends to this and not everyone enjoys that. Try clubbing - and if you don’t like it, know that there are a ton of societies you can join on campus and campus events you can go to that don’t revolve around that, so seek those out and find your tribe.

Fundamentally, college is what you make of it.

Which means that like unfortunately my dude, you’ll make a fool of yourself. Probably more than once.

But know that friends won’t manifest and boys won’t manifest unless you make an effort and put yourself out there. Ask people to coffee. Ask people to the pub. Girls, boys, enbies, whoever.

Re the anxiety about “never having done this before” - I think that’s totally normal. But also like lots of other people haven’t and everyone has had a first time. In drinking games you can lie lol. You don’t need to advertise it’s your first time for anything if you’re uncomfortable with it. I didn’t tell my first kiss he was my first kiss lol because it was unnecessary info for him tbh (it wasn’t hs boyfriend even tho I’m pretty sure I was his lol but he was my third 😌).

But you also don’t need to be shy about it because honestly 2nd year uni is so fucking young. It’s not like you’re coming to me as a 40 year old virgin and asking for advice (again no timeline but I’m not there yet so maybe not the right person to give it). Most of the people you’re hanging out with haven’t had a ton of sexual experience either lmao. On my 20th birthday I had been with exactly two people, my Angel boyfriend (in hindsight) hs ex and the Rabbi’s son (literally no one’s Angel boyfriend but hopefully he and his tiny dick are married now and Mazels if so) who I fucked a few days after we broke up to prove a point. I was a bad lay (and remain so with guys unless they’re into The Hiddles Experience, not for lack of opportunities, but because we don’t have to master all things). I also - unlike you - had never masturbated. I’d never had an orgasm. I liked sex with hs ex but couldn’t explain what I liked or why, it was just fun sometimes and other times it wasn’t. (In hindsight with clit action it was fun and with pure thrusting it wasn’t). So the fact that you have wanked already gives you a head start over many of the girls guys will be meeting.

So like… figure out what’s comfortable for you. Try different things out. Walk away when you don’t like it. Never do stuff that goes against your values. Don’t be overly shy in ways that wind up making you uncomfortable, like with the story that started this, and don’t expect these things to happen if you make no effort. That applies to friendships and ass alike. And sometimes what you think will be ass will turn into friendships and sometimes what you think will be friendship will turn into more. Let it. That’s what uni’s for.

Final point: try reduce the pressure of having a boyfriend. It’s fine if it happens, but since as you say you’re not a prude, it’s fine if it doesn’t. It will eventually. Try go into encounters with the open mindedness of “this could be ass, this could be friendship, this could be more” and like clear eyes full hearts can’t lose tbh.

Final final point: join societies. Join all the societies. The best way to both get ass and make friends and make friends discussing the ass you’re getting is by joining societies.

Good luck, hope this helped, love you lots and enjoy this year and the next (and beyond if you choose Honours or postgrad).

#agony aunat

[scentedcandlecryptid]

Herodotus, Kronos, Athena, Aphaia, Atlas and Atlantis

Also tell all about your ocs! What climate does Octavious live in? What's the culture like? Have you made a map for the serendipity of calamity? Any fun details you want to share?

This got long so everything is under the cut!! thanks for the ask <33

Herodotus: Literally nothing. There isn’t a professional setting where I have studied any one thing in particular, and I’m not the kind of person who purposefully studies anything in my free time. I enjoy learning things by just,, existing and collecting knowledge. I'd like to study art, but the opportunity has yet to arise.

Kronos: It’s in about a month ;)

Athena: As much as I love to read, I’ve never really thought about this? I don’t really have a set list- ummm… Raybearer is really good and I highly suggest it, Tuck Everlasting, I remember I always loved the Percy Jackson/Heroes of Olympus series, and Fever King is great, and finally The Bed Was On Fire When I Laid Down On It is really good. That isn’t in any particular order and is more of just books I can remember reading and enjoying atm XD

Aphaia: A bit less stressed, a few less mental health issues. I remember being incredibly repressed, for a bunch of reasons. I don’t like who I was as a child, I had views I now disagree with and did things I now disagree with, but I can understand it was those mistakes that led me to be who I am now. I have a complicated relationship with who I was when I was younger.

Atlas: I genuinely don’t know. Sorry XD

Atlantis: Over the course of my, admittedly short life, I have taken violin lessons, piano lessons, voice lessons, cello lessons, mandolin lessons and just general music lessons. (I’m not taking any right now, and I'm not particularly good at any of these)

A chance to talk about my Oc’s??~ don’t mind if I do XD

Octavious originally lived in a very hot climate and hates the cold with every fibre of her being. Since moving to the capital (where this story at the very least starts) he has lived in a colder climate. Not cold, it still gets too mind-numbingly hot in the summer, but it’s the kind of place you need a heavy jacket in the winter.

The culture in this world is something I both have and have not thought about. I probably have the culture of Octavious’s hometown and the general culture of the Hydro elves figured out but everything else is really iffy, so I guess I’ll just talk briefly about both of those.

Hydro elves in this world a fairly nomadic, and you can find them nearly anywhere in the world, but if you do it will just be families of 6-ish or less. Larger communities are formed on the shore near places where they can grow large amounts of fibre. Octavious comes from a community close to a field of Linen or a linen adjacent fibre that I’ll come up with at some point. This is because linen is really good for weaving, and for making fishing nets. Nets are a very large part of Hydro elf culture. In these communities, it will generally have up to 50 people, and they will all treat each other like family. It takes a village to raise a child you know? Adults that aren’t your parents are referred to as aunt and uncle, and other people your general age that aren’t your siblings are your cousins. Blood relations aren’t very important, everyone is family. The people with the most respect are the oldest members. This is because they know the most about weaving and net making, which are both very culturally significant.

I actually have made a map!! It’s really rough and is 100% just for me to get a general idea of where I want things to be, but it exists, and I want to make a better version of it to post and to show you where everything is.

Oooo~ fun details? Alright.

Octavious’s necklace, as previously stated, is a bunch of waived together strings, each string corresponds to someone especially important in his life. She likes weaving little bracelets and things of the like, which is why he has given his friends friendship bracelets. Only Auster wears theirs normally, but the other two did keep theirs.

Octavious’s love language is gift-giving, Auster’s is words of quality time, Oak’s is acts of service, and Luka’s is physical touch.

Luka loves dad jokes. Octavious hATES them.

Auster’s design for what he turns into is my favourite thing rn, so I’m very excited to show you.

Oak hits out of love, and hate, and pretty much every other feeling because Oak likes hitting things.

Octavious has the most academic knowledge, but they are also the dumbest person ever and I kinda love that duality. It’s like, high intelligence, low wisdom.

Oak and Octavious bond over causing havoc, and generally being nuisances (affectionate)

I’d say Auster is the most traditionally nice out of any of them, but that’s because Oak is aggressive, Octavious is bad at being genuine, and Luka is bad at expressing himself.

Octavious’s hair is designed to look a little like storm clouds and lightning.

Auster is the hardest to draw. I don’t even know why, they just are.

Oak and ember elves can’t control fire, they control heat. This means that they can start a flame in their hand (or anywhere else) if they have fuel and oxygen, but they can’t really move flames created by them or otherwise. They can also snuff out fire really quickly because they can just take away the heat.

Auster doesn’t have a last name. Not just I haven’t found one yet, they just don’t have one. I think that there are so few Avian elves that the people didn’t see a need for last names, they just never recycled any first names.

I’m trying to incorporate as many Oc’s I made for other stories that I have since abandoned into this one. So far I have reused Oc’s for one of Auster’s siblings, another hydro elf, and possibly a deity.

Originally I was going to just have basic elemental powers for the different elves, but I’ve since changed my mind and I’m trying to come up with something a bit more interesting ;)

Thank you so much for enabling me to talk about my Oc's it makes me so happy ^w^ <33

#thanks for the ask!! #this was a lot of fun #and took my a very long time to answer XD #hope that I was able to explain myself properly #the serendipity of calamity #only for the second part though

[evilhorses]

Question time! I love the jobs everyone has in the Single Dad AU, but does that mean none of them were ever in CP9, or were they but have all since left/defected/etc? If they were never members, how did the crew all meet? (And do you think any of them act particularly different having not been raised as assassins?)

Oof ok so how my brain works is it actually makes a million little au variations BUT for sanity sake the jobs hcs are for the timeline where Yes! Noone was in cp9!

So in this universe CP9 is "still a thing" but it's an entirely different group of people. I'm not focusing on them though and don't have any plans to even think of what they look like or what they can do so don't expect that anytime soon. This AU is purely focusing on the original group but in a more fun slice of life kind of way! With a little angst here and there maybe, I'm using it mainly as a comfort tool and things may or may not change later but for now it's just a nice family au~

(I do have AUs where they are in CP9 and defect but I'm not ready to share those yet, haven't found a solid plot line e_e)

Ok this is gonna be a long one hhh

As for how they act not being raised as agents?

•Lucci is still very "stoic and grumpy", I hc him as Autistic actually so its more he just has a hard time communicating and doesn't understand social queues sometimes so comes off as rude. Hes very good with kids in this au. He still has his DF powers so he does occasionally get a little bloodlusty? But since he's a more well adjusted human he doesn't actively seek a fight, meets Jabra in the bar and they become rivals (lovingly). Still lucci just less murder. Not sure what his childhood was like yet.

•Kaku is still an orphan but he's mostly just kind of a regular guy? Still talks like an old man though and can still use a couple swords if needed, he just thinks their neat! Also has ADHD out the wazoo

•Jabra does have a more rough background, having been in illegal fighting ring circles but it was just an easy way for him to make money and once he landed his bar job he pretty much stopped, only occasionally going to a fight club when he needs to let out some excess aggression. He also still has his DF because I love my wolf man ❤ good with the kids but in a more fireworks uncle kind of way, stresses tf out of kaku

•Khalifa literally just showed up one day, Noone knows where she came from, the kids love her but she doesn't babysit often. Doesn't make sexual harassment jokes as often but still "teases people with her long legs" -paulie probably. The responsible adult until she's not >:)

•kumadori is still a really weird dude, still thinks his mom is dead for some reason?? She shows up one day and he's very happy to find she's alive, the kids LOVE him because he's so dramatic "he's like a clown!". Still has his staff but more for show

•Fukuro just a big guy, friend shaped. Lives close to Kaku so they run into each other a lot natural friendship happens, is friends with kumadori so that's how he gets introduced to the friend group

•Blueno! I think I forgot about him in the jobs post aaaaaaaaa, he doesn't own the bar!! He owns a butcher shop! I actually got the idea from @/crimekun from some art they did awhile back called trash bags and butchers and I just thinks it's really neat. I love blueno being a butcher more then a bartender because he seems way more like a guy that likes a quiet setting and a bar is so noisy. He has high quality meat so everyone I the group goes to him for shopping, they don't really hang out much because he's more introverted but he does go to an occasional BBQ and becomes the alpha dad.

•spandam knows them because he works at the bank they go to but none of them like him, he sometimes runs into them at like the bar or Cafe but they're never happy to see him, he's still a shitty guy, very entitled. The kids meet him one day when Kaku has to go to the bank, they immediately start crying.

Bonus

•ok so Val....I don't have much posted on her actual story because it's kind of complicated BUT I will say for this au she's far less uhh...traumatized? She worked as a professor back on an island, her family is this like.. big wealthy and highly respected group of professors and knights and just a whole bunch of things. It's weird I'll have to make a separate post for it. But uh yeah she has a lot of money from being this highly respected professor in forensic science. She's very very "eccentric" some would call her. The island she teaches on isn't her home island though 👀

So mostly just people with weird quirks, I do eventually wanna talk about the other AUs I have and might post stuff for them soon, I just have low energy lately and only draw at work atm unfortunately~

#sorry if this is a bit rambly or off topic #i just woke up #single dad au #brain is scattered today #this is helping me develop the au more so dont be shy to send mlre questions 👀❤ #pagingdoctorbedlam #oof this is all over the place #i had to draft this for a little bit and now im more awake bdkabxks #oh well hope this is fun to read at least 😅

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jjk & tower of god chapter on the same day,,, i spent all of my brainjuice talking abt tog w some friends + working on my wip so this one might be incoherent LMAO but nsjdhfjd this my 2 cents for the chp (1) - 🐱

first of all, the zenins shld just eat shit 🥰 the bar is just nonexistant now 😭😭😭

also maki’s mother said sth that hits way too close to home for me too🥴

the maki & mai, megumi & tsumiki "make a place where they are happy” parallels...mai,, maki wanted a place where u'd be happy!!! 😭😭😭 good points abt any interesting nuances the original jpn might have had though

ALSO MUSCLE MAKI IS HERE

and lmao megumi's "ew no" face ,,, i didn't think he could make a face like that JDJJDJD ,, once again i think his outsider-insider status is interesting but the amount of ppl counting on him/leaning on him bc of strategic position is a lot. ig this is what kamo meant by supporting the 3 families,,,, gojou indeed is playing the long game. megumi in the meantime, very persistent in not getting more involved in clan politics, not using power that is offered to him, or leveraging it - in a way it is good, and it also makes sense with "stress is other ppl" but is interesting from a structural pov. megumi may not rly give a shit abt the rest of the jujutsu world. if the ppl close to him are affected, then he cares. otherwise, forget it.

also im interested in power implications here bcs it sound a little like there’s a slight split b/w leadership and everyday zenins and im curious what it's like if u have no connection to the top of the clan,, and again higher ups being unaffiliated with the 3 clans so they have to appeal to them. curious what other talents the gojou clan have and what they're known for bc clearly it's not just gojou, they still have power without him and still have a stake in the shifting power structure. kamo must be busy too...

MAKIIIIII ,,, honestly my heart hurts a little seeing her getting beat up in recent chapters. but i’m rly happy,, shes FINALLY getting the focus she deserves and i’m confident she will make a recovery and she IS in fact the one leading efforts on the zenin side. im rly hopeful she can take over the clan one day and no longer say she's not good enough

that stomach wound is bad news though so im wondering how she will come back from that,, that she didn't know her own father's abilities says a lot, too. i wonder if she could see the extension of his blade, or if she hasn't been able to see/understand many ppl abilities

im hopeful for next chp now. u can do it maki!!!!

flashing back on these bits, it makes more sense now why megumi wasn't melting down post-shibuya,, seems most information came to him in a sort of timely and calm way? also i rly have to wonder if gojou did not spend a decade plotting in front him bcs he's done it before,,,, like the whole clan head scene in megumi's middle school years....in a way i imagine he wouldve seen that gojou come out of the high school and watch him get more serious as he acquired even more skin in the game

all the time though i wonder abt megumi's tendency toward inertia and nonaction to things that would seemingly give him power and trying to understand it and that IS him being selfish and that IS,, imo the biggest indication of what he actually does or doesn't want. he wants it, he will act and work on it immediately himself. he doesn't like it? act like it doesn't exist. it make me want to shake him around like NO!! megumi pay attention!!! But his reaction to this clan stuff is a contrast to his behavior in recent chapters imo

and more mahjong references,,, between this and yuuji’s pachinko,, i wonder abt the undercurrent of gambling haha. a gamble for the shaman world and who will come out on top? a contrast to the flowy ocean imagery that connects shaman stuff out to the rest of the world

also this ,,,, there's that one jp tweet (i cant find it again😞) that talks about how toji, as the point of distortion, created megumi, who is currently playing a potential convergence/healing/uniting role (if he actually takes it on as a responsibility lol) and connects this back to the medicine buddha,,, whose mudra (hand sign) is used for chimera shadow garden. with the commentary abt ppl with heavenly restriction needing to know what to throw away in order to become strong or tap into their full strength and toji’s commentary at the end of fight with gojou,,  i actually always felt that toji died not having been entirely resolved with himself bc he talks abt going against the self that decided to forget abt self-respect, to live without thinking abt himself or others,,, in a way, living selfishly, for himself, by ignoring anything immediate and i think he succeeded for a while bc he didnt even remember megumi's name. he remembers it when he talks to getou abt him being thankful for toji not killing him bc of potential drawbacks

and at the very end he thinks of megumi again and that last act does think of someone else, like a "life before your eyes" moment where toji thinks about how the zenin's treatment of him led him there or how his return to shibuya ends with him remembering how he gave megumi back to the zenin,,, i think atm of his death he was starting to think he did want to care, in a different way, or that he needed a different paradigm. or,, maybe he was just starting to realize how far the zenin thinking had set into him

so we dont rly talk abt that being an enlightenment moment for toji but i kind of think it was. that megumi has the potential to become a pivotal piece as a legacy of distortion is interesting. i dont actually think toji set up everything intentionally bc he didnt know megumi's ability, and i dont think he wouldve thought that far. i think a lot of the heir and inheritance stuff is sth naobito set in after seeing megumi's development under gojou. it's clear now everyone has been keeping eyes on everyone else

at some point there's some interesting discussion to be had abt megumi and privilege - i'm surprised the canon characters dont hate him more for having stuff just fall into his lap, and so i liked that maki pointed this out that he could use this and he shld bc theres a frustration there - and yet at the same time megumi himself seemingly feels very little attachment to the zenin and the shaman world still. he just cares abt his little circle of people, and it's a very intentional choice, based on his good/bad ppl thing

u cant really affect the entire world, but u can assert urself on the environment around u and decide what u do and dont act on. this part of megumi is more teenage boy and kind of toji-like, i think,,, hence the emphasis on action

u express ur effect and existence through action, who u kill or who u save. toji having very little, while so much falls into megumi's lap while he doesn't want it, doesn't want to acknowledge it, likely doesn't want to take part in a system he doesn't like or, having been raised under gojou's wing, resents or finds corrupt or useless, or doesn't even think on bc he thinks its above his pay grade and gojou's there - this is also megumi's moment to solidify his own direction and commit to working in the system or out of it

the "not caring" is a defensive measure in a way too, i think. i dont think megumi is Big Good and wants to save everyone and everything and the world to be good and pure, i tend to think of him as a resigned chaotic neutral, who wishes he could be good orz

ANYWAY i think there's some interesting juxtapositions with the whole toji > megumi thing, that someone who is born without, restricted, births and creates someone full of blessings. its very shaman-like, action then reaction

AND i wish u luck on ur final paper (bless ur eyes to see incels bc i’ll just log off for the day when i saw one (1) of them on the net) AND DONT FORGET TO TAKE A REST,, the self care is much needed me thinks <333 (2) - 🐱

i love u 🥺🥺😭😭😭 you take care of yourself too!!!

also ur right...all this political intrigue im so curious i need to know how the jujutsu world is structured in terms of the higher ups and the clans. like i assumed that the three clan elders WERE to some extent also part of the higher ups???? but now it seems that the higher ups are a separate entity altogether, so like checks and balances i suppose. except both the higher ups and the clans are corrupt so no balance there 😭

the chapter implied the zenins are losing when it comes to the power struggle between the three clans. im interested. i want to see them all rot!!! like i also said though it’s going to be interesting to see the state of the kamo clan though, considering “noritoshi kamo.” like what do you even say to that???? im going to be surprised if it doesn’t affect their standing in the jujutsu world but then again the kamo clan IS one of the big three.

megumi really is a character that was blessed in all regards but like. doesn’t want anything to do with it LOL he really said ‘this is a pain no thanks.’ like gojo like megumi i suppose. i agree with u the whole toji and megumi set up....genius....i also love their juxtaposition. it’s so interesting and another source of irony.

#MAKI THOUGH......MAKIIIIIII #that stomach wound was worrying tbh at first i was like??? what is that panel even. but now.......ughhhhhh #🐱 anon