#most of the blogs that started around the same time are either abandoned or just completely gone

[the-travelling-witch]

𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐖 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒

nonnie asked: CHILDE NSFW HC HAND EM OVER DARLING PRETTY PLZ

pairing: childe x gn! reader

warnings: nsfw/ minors dni, mention of various kinks etc

this is a repost because i'm moving my nsfw works onto this blog!!

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If it’s possible to be on both ends of the masochist/sadist spectrum at the same time at any given time, Childe is; while it absolutely gets him going to tease you and rile you up, he’s not afraid of a little pain himself; quite the opposite actually, a slight sting thrills him.

Speaking of thrill, while Childe is more on the dominant side, please challenge him for the position; he appreciates the fight and nothing boosts his ego more than making you submit after a struggle.

Playing into his sadistic nature, seeing fat tears roll down your cheeks sends chills down his spine; the sight of your watery eyes, either from pleasure or frustration, will make him coo at you (it’s all faux empathy, he’ll continue to be just as mean).

And what better way to make you tear up than making you gag around his girth? Childe’s line of work is exhausting, so having a darling partner to come home to gets him through the day. Especially if you sink to your knees in front of him and let him use your throat as he pleases.

In general, taking out his frustrations on you is not an uncommon occurrence. There’s a certain glint in his eyes when he returns to you and that’s about as much explanation you get before he manhandles you into whatever position he wants, his fingers tangled in your hair, and turns your brain to mush with rough thrusts (with prior consent ofc ♡).

On the flip side, Childe can be the softest, sappiest lover in all of Teyvat. He’s worshipping your body like it’s the most divine temple, his ocean blue eyes swirling with adoration and love. When he gets like this, he’s almost like a big puppy in needing to be close to you, not letting you go for longer than he needs to.

Childe can’t help it, he can’t stop imagining starting a family with you, doesn’t matter if it’s physically impossible for you to have children of your own or if you’re currently not planning to have them. It doesn’t hurt to dream as he fills you up to the brim, watching as his cum leaks from your twitching hole after he pulls out.

While he’ll have you any way possible, his favourite positions are taking you from behind, folding you into a mating press or watching you ride him, depending on the mood. Each angle has its own charm and Childe wouldn’t want to miss a single one.

When it comes to location, obviously no place in your shared home is safe (seriously, the sheets, the shower tiles and the kitchen counter have seen things and so have you when it’s reflected back at you from a mirror), but much like in battle, Childe is an insatiable risk taker. Whether it’s in an alleyway or under the table of a fancy restaurant, the guy can hardly keep his fingers off- or out- of you.

But unfair as he might be in the bedroom, he does not only take, oh no. In fact, he might enjoy giving oral so much so it almost becomes taking again. This man can eat you out for hours if he so pleases and you almost have to beg him to stop when he’s in one of his moods. Also, please sit on his face, he wants his face to be framed by your thighs! And don’t worry about suffocating him, if it comes that far the lack of oxygen only adds to the thrill of it all.

Thanks to his work and rigorous training, Childe’s stamina is through the roof. Chances are, your legs will be trembling and sore before he even feels a ghost of fatigue, thrusts as hard and voice as steady as at the beginning of your little session. On the same note, his recovery period is frighteningly short as well (or maybe he’s just a horndog :P).

Although, even for a man like him, not every moment is filled with excitement and wild abandon. He knows to savour the finer things in life and that includes you. So it really shouldn’t come as a surprise that he enjoys having you cockwarm him as you talk about your days or he files away paperwork. There’s something comforting about feeling your warmth wrapped around him that calms him as he peppers kisses wherever he can.

Then again, you can never quite anticipate what Childe has planned for you next. Is he going to render your legs useless by giving you as many orgasms as you can possibly take, testing your limits every time? Or is going to laugh cruelly at the sobs spilling over your lips as he ruins your high again?

One thing’s for sure, he won’t ever shut up. And you don’t want him to, so it works out in your favour. Even while talking though, his honeyed words never come without being laced in a little poison. Whether he’s spouting the filthiest fantasies and tagging on a sweet name or drawing you in with charming words just to make your face heat up in embarrassment when he calls you out, praise and degradation never stray too far from one another with Childe.

This is especially strong towards the beginning of your relationship but if you have a somewhat innocent appeal, Childe would love to corrupt you. There’s something carnal within him that goes feral at the thought of ruining your pure self and tainting you (even if you’re not all that innocent, the thought is still very appealing to him).

Playing into that, perhaps think about letting him peel away some lacy white lingerie and watch his pupils dilate like a predator’s. But it’s not just white; Childe’s not incredibly picky with which garments he gets to rip off of you (don’t worry, he’ll buy you plenty more), the notion that you dressed up for him riling him up far too much to think clearly about it. Although he does make it a point to convey just how beautiful you look, either through words or actions or both.

But, in Childe’s eyes, every piece of delicate lingerie is infinitely more attractive when it shows off the marks he left on you previously. While he’s not overly jealous, he might be just a tad bit possessive, but really only a smidge. Seeing red and purple hues decorate your neck, chest, hips and thighs though is a sure fire way to land you some new ones…

Just as he can buy you an entire wardrobe of lingerie, Childe has money to throw at toys as well. You might think he would not resort to using them but that’s were you’d be wrong; he thinks they’re quite a lot of fun actually, especially when he can use them to toy with you. From teasing you to helping stretch you out, you best believe he will dedicate his time to studying the best way to make you see stars. Truly, the greatest toy buyer in Snezhnaya… (sorry, couldn’t help myself hshsh)

Last but not least, Childe has a raging size kink. Whether he’s actually physically towering over you or not, he’ll definitely impose his presence on you, crowding you against the mattress, manhandling you with so much ease you might as well be a doll. If you’re ever whimpering about him being too big and not being able to take him, you’re basically begging to have your brain fucked out.

Speaking of size… if you’re up for a challenge (and are a monsterfucker), Foul Legacy! Childe might just come out to play. From his inhumanly long tongue to the significant growth in both length and size, he’ll hardly leave you wanting. And even if that’s still not enough, is one really the limit…?

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[jasminedragonart]

are you leaving ATLA fandom?? but where and how can I find you now? are you on other platforms? And a personal question, aren't you afraid to leave? I mean, I'm an artist too, and the fandom has almost completely destroyed me and my love for ATLA, and with ATLA live action things will only get worse, but I'm afraid to leave because the avatar fandom on Tumblr is the only place where I get support as an artist, and if I leave, I will go into the void. What can you recommend? How are you going to handle this?

I am leaving the Atla fandom I'm afraid. I'm keeping all my art up and I have an art book on my ko-fi if people want most of my good art.

As for being afraid to leave, I'm not really afraid. This isn't the first time I've left a fandom. I had a previous blog that I ended up deleting. I had about 3,000 followers on there and my art wasn't to the standard it is now so I really worked consistently to get them. I left that one because it was a time when tumblr was flagging literally everything in their porn ban. It made sense to start again and I hoped that if people liked my art for my art that they would find me again.

It's the same this time. I don't want to draw for atla anymore. I've been trying to move away from it for a while now, at least a year and while I have struggled to do so I'm firmly sticking with my decision now. The live action literally will take over the fandom, which again, isn't a bad thing guys. But I want to expand my art career.

I've considered making another blog and sort of abandoning this one. But then, I know people like my art so I feel like it's unfair to make them seek me out. But at the same time starting a new fandom means finding new people that will like my art.

I know the support won't be as strong as it has been in the past, but overall I make art to make myself happy. It's not like I'm taking my stuff down either, I'll still have my art on tumblr and on ko-fi. The only difference is that I won't be making new art for it. I think i'll still make calendars, perhaps recycle the one I've made for 2025 if people still want it. But, I'll make new things for a new fandom as well. Maybe more than one.

I guess as an artist you need to just decide for yourself to make yourself happy. I want to get better at art and moving into different territory will do that for me. If you're scared of moving on then maybe make it a slow transition. Make art for atla and also for something else. Slowly stop making new art and focus on your new passion. If your fans like your art then they'll stick around no matter what you draw.

I've found, over the years, a lot of fandoms I enjoy a lot of my audience does as well. It's all just a matter of taking that risk and committing.

I hope this helps, I understand your fears all too well. If I go into the void, so be it, but I'm happy with my decision right now and hopefully I'll have made the right one.

#ask #inbox #answer #art

[aconflagrationofmyown]

Rosalee was already my favorite, solely because I love and adore Riley Keogh, but her being a Daddy’s girl and Margaret Qualley’s twin absolutely cements it for me. Can’t wait to know her a bit more. Questions below ⬇️

Is Elvis aware that he’s Rosalee’s entire world and does that scare the shit out of him? When did this connection start, does she come out the womb searching for her Daddy? Does she help Jack in his cock-blocking quests? What’s her relationship like with Daisy? How does she deal with her Dad being gone a lot in the ‘70’s and his constant hospital stays during those days? And lastly, how does Elaine feel about Rosalee’s close relationship to Elvis, not because she’d be jealous, but I imagine as a mother she worries for Rosalee a lot as Elvis goes down a dark path.

Gentle reminder, I’m abandoning this blog, I can now be found at @precious-lil-scoundrel

I love that you love her. Really, it just fills me with such joy.

I’m pretty sure this is the baby who comes out and maybe he catches her, maybe he’s actually there for that brith, who knows but either way she when baby Rosalee meets Elvis’ chest and is cradled to his heart -she’s met her soulmate.

They both need and love the same way and yes, it scares him shitless at times and when he’s being an ass, her tearful hurt cuts him deeper than any other failing in his life. But they also require so little to get back into their groove, forgiving each other and making time for each other and knowing the other just needs peace sometimes. His being gone is very hard on her, she tries to follow him around a decent amount like the rest of the children do, and it’s beyond disheartening for her to lose him and they are more heartfelt connection to the drugs. Eventually she is very key and bringing him back after the divorce.

These two are the best at naps and cuddles book reading and hammock sessions. Even into her adulthood. And that never changes.

Her relationship with Daisy is very interesting as Daisy is by far the most independent child, she’s also brutally blunt and his little interest in keeping up appearances -harmony and peace are not her forte and she’s not uncomfortable in a Contentious environment, so long as the truth is coming out. Which is the exact opposite of what Rosalee enjoys. However loyalty is Daisy’s love language, and she will kill to maintain Rosalie’s equanimity, while Rosalee provides a much needed neutral ear for Daisy’s antics and ambitions. So they are complementary in that way, due to their love for each other and a certain amount of selflessness no matter what.

Lastly I love figuring out Elaine‘s perspective and relationship with Rosalee. Due to Daisy‘s wild antics, Elaine has little fear of Rosalee following her down their Daddys path, but she can tell what the semi-abandonment has done to her. Of any of the kids, Rosalee definitely sides with her dad during the divorce. Can’t make any sense of why her mama is suddenly choosing to no longer support him when he’s down so bad.

I can’t wait to finally resolve that rift as well. Thank you so much for such a awesome ask. 🥰



#sarge asks #elvis presley #elvis fanfiction #Rosalee asks

[if-confessions]

I love that so many new authors are discovering and writing IFs. At the same time, as an author, it can be hard to make your IF stand out against so many new ones.

Back to two or three years ago, I feel it was much easier for a new IF to gain a decent amount of people interested, while now sometimes it can be hard navigating through all the new stories.

And don't get me wrong, I believe readers have risen too with time, but it is still hard to create a story that has not been done over and over and that at the same time holds the tropes or characters dear to so many authors.

I think that once your IF is long enough, it all somehow equalises, but at the early stages stakes have become higher. Readers expect more and more customisation, since they have been accustomed to it, they expect variety and a certain level of polish of the story. Which is natural since IFs have become more popular, but it still can look daunting from a new author perspective.

Cherry, the author of A Tale of Crown, has also talked about how the IF landscape on Tumblr has changed on her blog ( X , X ) in the past years. I am sure she is not the only one... It is becoming a bit saturated in some genres for sure...

It is so nice people get to find a new way to be creative and tell stories. That's also something I love about IF. Anyone with an internet connection can create something.

But I agree with the sentiment of looking at the community and seeing a bit of a saturation with so many new IFs popping up on Tumblr. You have to be shinier and newer and grab the attention of readers in new ways and keep that attention, otherwise your project will get washed out by other ones... It can definitely feel frustrating, that's true.

This is why I always tell people who what to start: do a small contained story! Something simple, very linear, with few variation, to test the waters and the IF program. Then try bigger (or not, do whatever).

Though, having been behind the scene with the Interact-IF directory, there are waves of new IFs throughout the year. Usually, we'll see more new projects pooping up around school holidays, especially the summer ones. And of those, very little have available demos or do end up getting one out. Many, many, projects end up getting abandoned after being announced, more so if there is no demo out.

I think this is why you can see a bit of an equaliser once your project is long enough (or you are more settled/popular in the community). People like shiny new things, but they prefer consistency and substance.

On the story and trope note: everything had been beaten to death already, but it doesn't stop those stories or tropes from being used over and over again and achieving popularity. And you can have the exact same premise/plot/trope between two authors feeling different because those authors have different voices.

For the stakes rising... yeah... Readers can have a lot of power in the community. [I'm generalising here, there are exception to the rule.]

Readers are expecting more, more polish in the writing or the UI, more customisation and variation in choices, more choices being meaningful to the story, more updates, more words, more of everything they've been accustomed to have through popular or long-standing IFs (or IFs published/created by actual companies). Note: this is not always a conscious thing, btw.

They will either forget that forget that IF is a hobby for most authors, that they do in their free time, that those authors may not have the knowledge to reach those expectations, or that they are limited by the resources they have (see this other confession). Just because someone did it before or because it is technically possible, doesn't mean that everyone should or has to strive for it.

But at the same time, I feel part of it has to do with how great past and established works have been, how boundaries pushing they were in terms of polish or customisation or just what IF can do/be. Each new project as the potential to push that boundary, to increase people's expectations for the next wave of IF, and to put more pressure on newer creators.

And the issue with that is you can't stop that from happening. You can't take back what's been made, it's already out there. And you shouldn't want it to stop from happening either. Without people pushing boundaries, the medium would be come stale.

I am sure there are many different reasons for why the stakes have been increasing, aside from the saturation of new projects, increased readers' expectations, and increase of great works out there. But here are a few as to why there might be more pressure for creators:

creating an IF to get likes/numbers/interactions rather than just because,

not getting the amount of interactions you expected from the get-go or not seeing it increase as much as you hoped,

IF becoming more popular and the potentiality of your work being read by more people,

announcing a project before having planned or written part of the story,

promising mechanics or features without knowing whether it will possible/make sense/feasible to include it,

not setting expectations about the content of a project when announcing it (or soon after),

expecting too much from ourselves as creators,

believing their story isn't new enough,

starting an IF without having done any research about how to create one,

starting a big project without testing the waters of IF creation,

...

#confession time #if-confessions #writing concerns #follower behaviour #follower interaction #undecided tag

[fyrets]

I know this is a PB blog that has been very VERY open about their support of the project, so it would be uncouth to say anything negative about it but I'm thinking about how extremely unprecedented PB is in.. a way that isn't necessarily bad but, weirdly off-putting when thinking about it.

this got long so under the cut it goes

PB is the most funded petsim on Kickstarter. It raised over $80,000. That's an incredible achievement, and they absolutely deserve it! But that already puts it in an incredibly unprecedented position. Petsims using crowdfunding platforms for their projects is already pretty uncommon all things considered, at least historically in the grand scheme of things where most are just passion projects made in the spare time of a handful of people. many of them manage to stick around through the sheer force of will a dedicated userbase can bring, but most stay pretty small and more completely fade into obscurity. And that's fine, y'know? A little sad for the ones that go dark, but it is what it is.

But ever since FR's success I think a lot of people have almost forgotten that a petsim becoming a smash hit isn't the norm, or at least they don't realize just how uncommon it is and how much work goes into making something as successful as FR past the KS stage. probably the most notable examples are Dappervolk (the previous holder of the "most funded petsim" title) and Lorwolf (most recent KS funded game that is quite derivative of FR to launch).

Now Dappervolk is a bit of an outlier by virtue of it being a pretty different game to the typical petsim and it being more of an avatar game but yeah yeah yeah everyone around me at the time called it a petsim so I'm counting it. It's pretty well known that it had a very strong start with a pretty big playerbase during beta and launch, but people lost interest rather quickly for a lot of reasons. I'm admittedly out of the loop for those reasonings (my reason for dumping DV was I Just Forgor) but from what I've heard it was a combination of the gacha system, heavy grind, and some paywalled monthly content. Now I have heard that it has gotten better recently, but I wouldn't know myself and it still hasn't recovered the numbers it once had.

Lorwolf is a much more relevant point of comparison both because of recency (fully launched earlier this year) and it operates a lot more like FR in many aspects like having limited color slots, a wheel of pre-selected colors, and a bunch of other little stuff, making it a more direct competitor to FR. I didn't find out about LW until after the beta period but I was managed to sign up for the "Early Access" it had, and it was pretty good! Spirits were very high and though the full launch got delayed, when it came around it made a big impact. Much like DV did in its launch, lots of people rushed to cross-site trade their FR stuff for LW, indicating a lot of confidence for the game and its future. Unfortunately, things aren't looking good now 6 months out from full launch. There is a lot to consider when assessing how we've gotten to this point of very low morale, but I guess the biggest thing would be the community having to deal with feelings of being unheard and abandoned as a result of very inexperienced developers. I genuinely hope things turn up sometime soon, but I'm not sure for how long I can keep that hope.

So what am I getting at with all of this? Am I expecting PB to fall a similar fate of having a very big beta and launch only to bleed players months later as a result of people either realizing the game doesn't suit their playstyle or because the game is seemingly abandoned with radio silence from devs? No! I have a lot of hope for PB to deliver a game that has something for everyone, and based on how well they've handled communication along with knowing so far I doubt we would be left in the dark. Despite my hope though, the odds are stacked against PB having the same level of success as FR.

But what if it does manage it? What if PB manages to be a smash hit and it stays a smash hit? What lessons will the people who hope to make their own games take from it? Will their takeaway be that this game was successful because it made the most money ever (and got additional investment!)? Or will people try to see what commonalities it and FR had and try to do the same? Will we see more projects try and fail to achieve success? Or will they manage to crack some kind of code and join the ranks of giants? Just what sort of impact will PB have?

#long post #meow.txt #idk if this makes any sense i've just been thinking about this since. well since the ks campaign ended actually. #and its been stewing more considering lorwolf's.. situation. #like i hope we eat well! i definitely do! but man. what will this mean for future projects #only good things i hope.

[ditzycore]

Trollz (2005) headcanons nobody asked for:

Amethyst: she/her. Bi & cis. Biggest fear: abandonment. Has a crush on Coal and Sapphire. Runs a blog, has a big family who are very close and share a library of scrapbooks, likes to bake but makes a big mess every time, mom friend who packs an extra sandwich in case someone (usually topaz) forgets their lunch. Cries a lot even at happy movie endings, Overthinks sometimes. Works part-time at a nursing home. Favorite food: s'mores and vitamin water.

Ruby: she/her. Lesbian in denial, cis. Biggest fear: losing. Unaware that she comes off as rude/mean most of the time, very sporty but mainly because she wants to win, probably has a backstory as to why she acts the way she does. Works part-time at her mom's small business. Favorite food: anything spicy.

Sapphire: she/they. Sapphic/aspec demigirl. Biggest fear: failure. Has a crush on Amethyst, eats the same meals every week, strict schedules, likes vintage style but modernizes it a bit, terrible liar, a bit oblivious to other's feelings, autistic. Works part-time as a library assistant. Favorite food: mint ice cream.

Onyx: she/they (doesn't mind he/him though.) Bi & nonbinary. Biggest fear: says she has none but it's probably either something mundane like soup or something deep like mortality/immortality and the uncertainty of the afterlife. Has a crush on Topaz and Flint, collects & customizes dolls, amazing at creepy special effects makeup, usually very mellow but will fight anyone who makes fun of her friends. Works part time at Obsidian's spell shop. Favorite food: energy drinks and dark chocolate.

Topaz: has no idea what pronouns are. Biggest fear: spiders, snakes, bad hair days, storms, cheap mascara, etc. Doesn't understand how money works, has a massive shoe collection. Works part-time as a waitress. Favorite food: smoothies and fries.

Simon: he/she/they. Trans currently going through internalized transphobia. (Actually needs a redemption arc & a good backstory) wants power but actually needs friends, has a hard time understanding others and emotions (even his own.) Favorite food: isn't a big fan of food but enjoys sweets and black coffee.

Coral: She/her. Bi in the closet & cis. Biggest fear: not being perfect. Her rivalry with Ruby is actually just because she has a crush on her but would never admit that, is from a rich family who barely show her any attention unless she "earns" it usually through competition medals and trophies. Works part time as a barista at a coffee shop. Favorite food: sushi.

Coal: he/him. Cishet. biggest fear: embarrassment. He has a crush on Amethyst, he likes to paint his nails sometimes and listen to girly music when no one else is around, extremely gullible, definitely more of a follower than a leader, just a clumsy himbo. Works part time at a bowling alley. Favorite food: really tall sandwiches.

Flint: he/they. Doesn't like labels. Completely oblivious to Onyx's crush on him, he wants to start a band with her, ADHD the guy cannot focus, his guitar is very precious to him, Jasper & Coal are actually his best friends even though he's seen with Rock more often, he once offered to paint Coal's nails because Coal was looking at all Flint's eyeliner and black nail polish (Onyx gave Flint some extra she accidentally bought.) He is unemployed. Favorite food: energy drinks.

Jasper: he/him. Cishet. Continues to shave his head after the bald spell because it makes him "stand out and looks cool", collects vinyls and likes older hip-hop music him and Flint bond over their love for music, he loves parties especially if he gets to host them. Works as a cashier at the same place Topaz waitresses at. Favorite food: fast food and cheese pizza.

Rock: he/him. Cishet homophobic :( the other guys low-key don't like him that much because he is rude and loud. Also misogynistic and a bully. Sometimes uses Coal's gullibility and fear of being embarrassed to get Coal to go along with him in being mean, likes watching and playing football and listening to classic Rock, basically the leader of "The Boyz". He's unemployed. Favorite food: all food. He especially likes barbecue chips and barbecue in general.

Alabaster: they/them (doesn't mind he/him though) agender aspec. Platonic crush on Sapphire, very shy, doesn't get along with hardly anyone except Sapphire and Coal (he would get along with Onyx maybe but he mistakes her sarcasm for being genuine.) Likes dnd and chess, is actually extremely rich but only "The Boyz" know (Rock only likes him for this reason.) His family is very supportive of him and his "strange fashion sense". Unemployed but very focused on school and extracurricular activities. Favorite food: pretzels and flavored sparkling water.

Also my other headcanon is that obsidian is actually Onyx's ancient (not Ruby's) and that they are somehow long lost relatives.

#trollz #trollz 2005 #iscreamresonance #ruby #onyx #amethyst #sapphire #topaz #simon #mainly just hating on Rock because he's the worst sorry Rock fans. #long post

[justanothersyscourse]

Just hopping in to say I've followed you for a while and your blog's been both entertaining and educational. I was misdiagnosed with OSDD (my psychologist thinks I actually have BPD and nondescript memory issues, it's something we're looking into) and your blog was actually one of the things that made me initially ask to have my diagnosis reevaluated because my experience seemed so divorced from what it "should" be upon further inspection, even taking into account variations between systems. Thanks for sticking around ^^

OMG

I don't usually post these types of asks, but I think this one is important for people to see

Anon, I am genuinely happy and excited for you, and I'm sure that'll surprise a lot of people-- like, what's worth celebrating about that?

Revisiting and re-evaluating a diagnosis can be really stressful and even kind of scary, but it's not necessarily a negative thing. A lot of systems are really afraid of the possibility that they're not systems, and that's understandable. Completely, no question, I get that. But when someone is misdiagnosed with another disorder, it's not seen as a negative experience in the same way.

As an example, my psychiatrist had (and continues to have, for some reason) a hard time deciding whether it was OCD or Tourettes that was causing some major issues for me. I was originally diagnosed with Tourette's, and it was changed to OCD only a few years ago.

While it was stressful while it was happening, it wasn't... Negative. It was a step toward understanding myself better and it gave me a clear path for what I needed to do next to start making more progress in my healing journey. It sucked, but overall it was positive. Nothing about the diagnosis change scared me.

When it comes to DID/OSDD, learning that you're not a system is seen as... Probably the worst thing that could happen. The idea is actually terrifying for most systems.

But it doesn't need to be? We're all just trying to get better, and sometimes that means looking at other options. It doesn't make YOU a bad person or a faker, anyone who abandons you was never worth your time to start with, and you haven't lost your community.

Anon, I'm thrilled that your journey is moving along, you're taking steps in the right direction. No matter where you find yourself, or what you end up having in the end, you'll always be welcome here. You are important in system spaces because of the experiences you have and your perspective on symptoms.

I'm so proud of you, and I hope you'll stick around and keep us updated on things you're learning!

And to you, and everyone else, don't stop looking for answers until you're comfortable with what you're being told.

If you disagree with your doctor, find another and another and another, until SOMEONE explains it to you in a way that makes sense, or until you manage to find the right words. Like with any hard, confusing conversation, sometimes it just takes the right combination of words, from either side, for the whole scenario to suddenly click and make sense.

(that might be a bit Canadian of me, I know the US healthcare system is not quite so... Simple and... Inexpensive, but I stand by the idea that you call the shots in your healing journey)

[barbieb0y]

journey: orientation and how i wasn't there for most of it.

(title is a reference, iykyk)

my birthday is in 6 days and i feel like i should do at least something so this is something! blogs talking about myself and my experiences, counting down to the day of the event itself

and the first one i thought of is my experience with romantic and sexual orientations. why? well the ace tag trending gave me some ideas lol

for most of my childhood, i wasn't interested in anything that isn't studying and playing by myself. wish i can say the same now

and thankfully, my parents weren't the type to fess over me interacting with the opposite sex not that i did that that much but still and teaching me about marriage and romance and all that wasn't on their minds yet at that time - and oh, how i yearn for them to stay that way now but alas.

i didn't get the hype with getting crushes and dating, until i developed what i thought was a crush. i remember being happy that i finally fit in and just like the other girls - that i wasn't just a weirdo with weird interests and lack of interest in people. and looking back on it, it's not like it wasn't a crush. it just wasn't a romantic one.

this continued on until i was 14. i'd get crushes where i just enjoyed looking at the boys' faces. it never occured to me that traditional crushes were supposed to involve actual romance. and when i did try imagining myself in romantic scenes with the boys i liked, i either felt disgusted or neutral. the neutral side of things mostly applied to fictional boys anyway.

then came the year of 2018. funnily enough, i actually remember being on tumblr that time - for the whole purpose of reading imagines of a fictional guy i thought i liked in those ways. i'd read, read, read, unaware that these pieces of writing... don't actually make me feel anything. that imagining myself in romantic + sexual situations with this guy was only bc everyone else was doing it.

when suddenly pride month rolled around.

i was an ally from the beginning. and bc of that i wanted to know more about the community so that i could show my support better. little did 14 year old me know.

i stumbled upon the term "aromantic". i started reading out of curiosity. i thought of how i could relate to most of the traits of an aromantic. i realized.

i remember i was like "so you're telling me i don't actually have to feel this stuff for people i'm seemingly attracted to?!" and remember that guy from before? every romantic and sexual thought of him vanished in an instant - and i've never felt so free. i even remember me writing a platonic self-shipping fic of me and him to celebrate; and luckily, i had friends who celebrated alongside me.

though at that time, i thought aromantic also meant asexual, so there i was going around telling people i'm aromantic without the asexual - most likely because i was taught that sex was just an extension of romance rather than being its own separate thing. until of course, i discovered the term later on and went "omg so me".

the label kind of enabled me to be more open about my dislike of romance and sex - borderline condemning it. but that was merely me projecting my own experiences; having to be subjected to society's expectations of me was more than just irritating and tiring. even if i ever change my mind one day, why should that matter? sure, preparing for the future is a smart move but what's the point if i'm abandoning my present self?

years pass and by 2022, i still identified as an aromantic asexual. at some point i even identified as a gay aroace, but then reverted back to aroace. even when there were situations and experiences that challenged me identifying with those labels, i persisted. even when i first interacted with whom i call my "first love", i wasn't attracted to them off the bat.

it took quite a few interactions. i myself was confused as to why talking to them made me so happy, especially because we didn't even talk in a chatroom - i was just an anon on their writing blog, the reason why i frequented their blog being one of the hurdles that almost made me change my labels.

to this day, i'm still unsure if mustering up the courage to privately message them made me realize i'm actually attracted to them or that i gradually realized after chatting with them in private. but in the end, i realized. i'm attracted to them. i liked the idea of being in a non-platonic relationship with them, i like imagining us in romantic situations (although at that time i didn't yet know what they look like) but either was too shy or i genuinely did not develop sexual feelings for them yet at that time. i confessed the night i messaged them.

to my surprise, it was their birthday. i'm unsure if a confession is a fit birthday gift still.

but when this happened, i didn't feel like i was betraying my aromantic asexual labels. it's more like... i broke free of them. broke free of these stupid labels that tried to tie me down for so long. so what if i haven't been attracted to anyone until now? am i not allowed to freely love because of these two words? or even, am i not allowed to be free of these words even if they define me? so i simply let go.

funnily enough, the person i fell in love with is aroace themself. a silly little plot twist in my story, i would say.

we begin to talk. a night turns into a week. a week turns into a month. 2 months after initially talking, we got together. i remember i couldn't stop smiling over how lucky i got. the person i love, who doesn't even reciprocate my feelings, was willing to give me a chance. i talked about them whenever i had the chance; the word "boyfriend" felt so sweet on my tongue.

4 months and 18 days - that's how long we were together. i remember the breakup like it was yesterday. because i once thought i wouldn't ever go through one, let alone cry myself to sleep a few nights because of it. but that wouldn't be the first time i've done that because of them - but even despite all the anguish i've experienced throughout this period, i was (and still am?) in love with them.

simply because of the fact that i was in love with them.

i acknowledged how strong and powerful romantic and sexual attraction can be, now that i experience it. though i still think people exaggerate the overall experience, their words now hold some truth for me. and to tell you the truth,

i am scared of feeling this way for someone else.

i just can't imagine myself experiencing such highs for a real person that isn't them. it feels like an absolute betrayal - to my past self, to them, to my current self. it just seems impossible. plus, feeling like a late bloomer makes me feel like shit. but if there's one thing this experience taught me,

it's that anything really can happen.

this journey is still ongoing - i'm unlabeled, still kinda in love with my ex (who is also my friend haha) and the future is uncertain. maybe i'll go back to being labeled, maybe i'll get over them, maybe both, maybe neither.

but for now, i'm unlabeled. because i'm not something to be defined.

i'm someone to be experienced.

if you read all that then thank you for listening to me ramble lol idk i just feel like talking about myself. it still feels like people don't really know me idk idk i was kinda being cheesy and stuff but hey when else am i supposed to be amirite

i will try to come up with topics for the upcoming days hehehe

#shut up safar #feels like i need a new talk tag but idk #also i am NOT tagging main tags here lmfao #this is too embarrassing

[ouatnextgen]

Masterpost

Hello five people who will look at this blog!

Here is a general overview of what's in this AU and some of what's changed in canon. I won't be re-explaining the entire show (I don't hate myself that much) but when it becomes relevant and/or I have an idea, I will put it here. Like I said in the description, let me know if you need anything tagged

If you have any questions about this AU, the characters, the ships, please ask me! My dumb brain can't remember everything I've come up for from this AU, and answering questions helps me cement everything in my head.

I will use "#the season 7 rewrite" and "#the next gen verse" for my stuff, "#other people's ideas" for other people's stuff, and "#adjacent" for stuff that won't really fit into either category.

This is a queer friendly space. This AU includes trans and non-binary characters, characters in same-sex relationships, aromantic and asexual characters, and queer M/F presenting pairings. If this bothers you, leave and come back when you're a better person.

Mega Change: Hope and Alice are now twin sisters, and Alice takes on more of a role like Rapunzel in Tangled. More on that below.

Ships: Since shipping is...what it is, I decided to lay out all the main ships that show up in this AU, either Next Gen ships or canon. Don't like, don't read ect, ect

Captain Swan

Snowing

Rumbelle (potentially past, I'm workshopping a bit)

Belle X OC (potentially)

Outlaw Queen (past for a bit, but Robin's coming back, don't worry)

Glass Believer

Curious Archer/Mad Archer

Cygnet Scholar (Hope Swan-Jones x Gideon Gold)

Sleeping Prince/Prince Squared (Neal "Leo" Nolan x Philip II)

There are some other ships as well, but these are the main ones. I might make a post of all the ships eventually, because making up ship names for this fandom is really fun.

Rewrites: This section's gonna be a doozy, so I'm splitting it into three sections; Timeline, Character, and Plot

Timeline *sounds of crying come from the distance*

Timeline and ages are two of the worst documented things in this show. I'm not even going to try with the older characters, but for the younger characters, an attempt was made, starting with Lily's birth and abandonment in 1982, Land Without Magic (LWM) Time.

My AU takes place twenty years after Season 1, so around 2031 LWM Time.

Some of this is headcanon, and most of this is probably wrong, but this works for me, so don't correct me and make this even more complicated than it already is plz.

Timeline:

1982: 

Lily is born to Maleficent and Zorro

1983: Storybrooke’s Creation

Emma is born to Snow and David (October 22nd)

~eighteen years later~

2001: 

Henry is born to Emma and adopted by Regina three weeks later (August 15th-September 1st)

~six years later~

2007: 

 Roland is born in the EF to Robin Hood and Marian (February)

~four years later~

2011: Season 1 (October-December)

Henry is ten

Alexandra is born to Ella and Thomas (October 29th)

2012: Season 1 (January-February)

          Season 2 (February-???)

          Season 3 a

2013:  Season 3 b

Neal Nolan is born to Snow and David (May)

Philip II is born to Philip I and Aurora (July)

Season 4 (November)

Season 5 (December)

Robyn Hood is born to Robin and Zelena (December)

2014: Season 5 (January-??)

          Season 6

Gideon is born to Belle and Rumplestiltskin (March)

2015:

Hope and Alice are born to Emma and Killian (April)

Alice is kidnapped by Gothel (May)

~seven years later~

2023: 

Benjamin is born to Snow and David (January)

2024: 

Charles is born to Thomas and Ella (February)

Arabella is born to Philip I and Aurora (August)

2025: 

Lucy is born to Henry and Jacinda (August 15th)

~five years later~

2031: Twenty Years Since Season 1

Character: I am not a huge fan of the multiverse, let me just say that now.

Trying to retcon everyone I liked from Season 7 into the same universe as the rest of the show was daunting (I'm looking at you, Jacinda) but the way I see it is this: Like the show said, there are so many different versions of fairytales out there, but there are also similar fairytales that have nothing to do with each other except common tropes (like Allerleirauh and Cinderella for instance.)

So maybe Alice Liddell and Alice Jones can exist in the same universe, because while they both are called Alice and went to Wonderland, they have totally different stories.

(This entire block of text was mainly about the whole Jacinda/Ella and Ashley/Ella situation)

Alice Jones (mega rewrite incoming): Alice is the twin sister of Hope (older by thirty minutes), and is the daughter of Emma and Killian. She is the new Savior. Gothel kidnaped Alice when she was a month old, and raised her in a tower in the Enchanted Forest for twelve years, just like Rapunzel in Tangled.

When Alice was twelve, she overheard Gothel saying that she was kidnaped, and was able to use her powers to escape. She tried to portal home, but ended up in Wonderland, because her favorite book was Alice in Wonderland, and so she considered it 'home.'

Alice lived in Wonderland for four years, until Will and Anastasia found her and took her to Storybrooke, where she was reunited with her family.

I also thought the whole "hey look at my Guardian OC, they're even more powerful than saviors and they can't be affected by dark magic and they have unlimited power and-" was suuuper dull. So, Alice is a Savior, just like her momma. And this way, it creates a dramatic irony that Gothel, who took Alice to save her own skin, ended up taking the Savior who is destined to destroy her.

Gothel: tbw

Regina: So, it's been a while since I've seen some of the later seasons of OUAT, but as far as I remember...Regina never wanted to be queen, right? Obviously she regrets not being a good queen to her people, but becoming queen was always what Cora wanted for her: Regina herself just wanted to be loved.

So I found it kind of odd that, at the end of Season 7, Regina became the queen of every realm. As cathartic as it is for Regina to receive the title of "The Good Queen" rather than "The Evil Queen," I kind of feel like this is a hollow attempt to give Regina her Happy Ending (after A&E killed her actual Happy Ending off, of course.)

I really feel like the best ending for Regina would be for her to remain Storybrooke's mayor. She can still be a leader and make up for her mistreatment of her people, and I feel like she can do that even better as mayor; she can hear them out and take their criticisms much easier as mayor than Queen. Additionally, being the leader of a smaller town means that the love of her people means something more. Ruling over millions of people from several realms doesn't exactly give anyone the warm fuzzies, yah know?

AND being mayor would give her more freedom and self-expression away from her mother's influence, so that way, she could have her cake and eat it, too.

Snow and David: I have to say, the later seasons (even the seasons I actually liked) did Snow SO dirty--and no, this isn't about the Lily thing. I won't turn this into a rant, but just know that that is my position as of now.

Snow and David still have their farm, but Snow is Queen of Misthaven now. She operates mostly out of Storybrooke (for plot reasons) and she, Regina, and the other rulers of the Kingdoms regularly team up and advise each other. Neal (Leo) is their heir, as Emma turned it down.

Jacinda: Here's where it gets complicated.

Jacinda is SUCH a pretty name, I always thought it was kinda sucky that it was Ella's "cursed" name. So in this AU, Jacinda is her real name. Original Cinderella (Ashley) gets to keep Ella because 1) She was here first and 2) Ashley is a way lamer name than Jacinda.

After much thinking and stressing, I have decided that Jacinda and Ella are still both Cinderella...sorta. Jacinda's story will be reminiscent of the Grimm's version (with some OUAT twists) while Ella's will be based of Perrault's version. The only things I'll switch are the shoes, since Jacinda's whole ship with Henry kind of revolves around GLASS slippers. (In the Grimm version, they were golden slippers, which I will give to Ella instead)

To make things simple: Jacinda never gets a Fairy Godmother, there's a pear tree involved, no pumpkin coach, there are three balls, birds, and glass slippers.

Ella has (had lol, thanks Rumple) a Fairy Godmother, a pumpkin coach and animal coachmen, a single ball, gold slippers, and the nickname Cinderella.

Does it make sense? No.

Is it important to my Next Gen Verse? Also no. So I ain't stressing it.

Jacinda's and Ella's Families: Another easy one. Ella gets the Tremaine name (she was here first, and her story aligns better with the Disney movie) while Jacinda's is changed to Belfrey.

Also, I thought that the whole "Rapunzel is also Lady Tremaine" thing was dumb as all hell, so that just straight up doesn't exist. To keep it simple, I used Victoria and Ivy for Rapunzel and Drizella, and just shortened Anastasia to Ana, because there are both an Anna and an Anastasia in this universe.

Many other characters remain the same: Tiana and Naveen, Facilier (except his and Regina's thing), Hansel turning evil for no reason (I thought that was hilarious) and a few others who don't matter.

I will add more to this post as I think of things.

#the season 7 rewrite #the next gen verse #ouat next generation #ouat next gen #cygnet scholar #sleeping prince #prince squared

[shishikusas]

ok so idk if you already know this but puppy lover on yt recently left their masa channel. truly the end of an era. but in their last video they asked for honest opinions on masa so I’m throwing my two cents to like the only other active masa blog on here hope you don’t mind👉👈 (if you don’t wanna read it just skip) what’s your opinion on mass’s songs lately??

So I really really love the onibi, sister and secret series. And ya I agree with a lot of the comments there— masa’s songs are lacking nowadays. He’s still a great guy, but all his songs sound the exact same (I believe it’s edm??) His old content was more original and actually had better pv’s.

But more than that for me they had better storyline. The onibi series had really deep lore, the sister series had a lot, the secret series had a bit too, and maha was full of it. That being said nowadays all of his songs share the same three themes of dr1nks, dr*gs and s3x. There’s no originality which made onibi such a hit. They’re all parodying off each other.

Also is it just me or is the anatomy on the newer videos a bit…off?? It seems like he’s emphasizing certain parts more than others and it makes the whole thing look a bit disproportionate. Idk if it’s just me, I’m not an expert by any means.

That being said, it’s not like his new content is bad by any means, it’s cool to listen to. And it’s nice. For a couple of times. It’s kinda insipid after that.

tldr masa’s old stuff was better than his new for me, and I miss it a lot. He’s still a good guy and the new music is cool but the onibi, sister and secret series will always have a place in my heart.

i just posted a comment on the video on puppy's channel, so i will copy it here:

i'll be completely honest in my opinion here. masa's stuff has not gotten worse, it has just changed and i still love it and listen to it, and it really disheartens me when people leave bc i feel like im just wandering around in a desert. like where did all the people go :( the community was so bustling in 2016-2019 and it just feels abandoned now.

there are some things i can agree on though. there was a time in 2019-2020 ish where i thought he wasn't living up to his full potential, or he was trying to create new stuff and hadn't gotten it completely down yet. and yes, it's easy to look through the lenses of nostalgia and miss all the lore stuff he used to do - i mean i fucking love the onibi series and all its lore but we probably aren't going to get another blog update for a loooong time.

but the reality is that masa is a different person now than he was in the early 2010s. he started creating music when he was 20 years old, and he's 32 now - that's a huge difference, he's a fully fledged adult now and probably has a lot more things to do and work on than what he used to. that's not even talking about the money aspect! obviously we know next to nothing about his personal life but he either has another job outside of making music or he relies on making these songs to support himself, and neither are conducive to making elaborate PVs or complicated lore (both which i know people revere him for and miss the most). instead he focuses on making the music he wants and PVs that fit his time, which by the way include MUCH higher quality art than in the past. idc what anyone says his anatomy was WAY wonkier back then than it is now.

im rambling, but ig my point is masa's changed, and it's an okay thing. his new EP, INSOMNIA, is really an amazing piece of work and feels kind of like the 'old' masa and i've listened to it many times on repeat, but it's not the same as the masa people became fans of him for. it's okay if you don't like it but i do, and i probably always will. unless he starts making country music or smth ;)

TLDR: i love masa's music even now and understand that his style has become much different than before, and there's many reasons for that.. he holds such a big place in my heart and i will support him thru his endeavors!

#long post #masa works design #vocaloid #ask #IT MAKES ME SO SAD I MISS THE COMMUNITY BUT ALL THE PEOPLE FROM WHEN IT WAS SO LARGE ARE GONE NOW #SOBS #COME BAAAACK

[spacerangersam]

I doubt i’m ever going to finish writing this now, so if there’s anyone who liked my ghostswap fics and was curious how the story would end, here’s an overview of it:

It starts out as an average day at button manor, until the ceiling falls in on one of the rooms. It’s way more dramatic than in canon, like the entire thing comes down, leaving one of the rooms completely wrecked. They get a surveyor to come around and she’s like yeah, that wasn’t the only ceiling that’s at risk of falling, and unless you get (this big amount of money) to pay for repairs/supports, then the whole house could end up collapsing in on itself in like under a year, probably sooner.

Pat being Pat refuses to acknowledge this and tries to go about life as normal, pretending everything is fine, until one of the ceilings in another room falls in and he’s forced to accept the fact that the house just isn’t safe to live in.

There’s no way him and Cap can get the money in time, and since they’ve got Daley to think about as well as themselves they admit defeat and decide that as soon as they find a new house, they’re out. They don’t have a choice.

Pat doesn’t want to tell the ghosts, doesn’t want to abandon them there, and is just drowning with guilt. But one day, he makes an off-hand comment to the pigeon who’s being annoying telling it to ‘move on already’ and to his shock, it does. He does an internet and finds some blogs saying that one way to get ghosts to move on is to tell them to do exactly that.

He decides to test this, starting out small with Jemima. He talks to her, listens to her story, and at the end gently suggests she moves on. And she does. He tries it with the plague ghosts two and miraculously, that also works.

In-between this, Cap is house searching, narrowing down to a decent-sized bungalow that they both decide would be absolutely perfect.

With all the small fish gone, Pat goes for Mary next, seeing as she’s the most eager to move on. He does the same as he did with Jemima, hearing her story before suggesting she moves on, and she does-

But by this point, the other ghosts have caught on and demand an explanation, which Pat very reluctantly gives. They obviously all freak out/give him the cold shoulder for a while, but eventually there’s no denying that the house isn’t safe and he has to leave. He only hope that they can before he does.

They get the bungalow.

Stuff happens and we cut to moving day. All of their friends/family who know about the ghosts have come to help, both with the move and the ghosts. They’re outside on the grass, all the living sitting in a circle, the ghosts inside of it. They’ve all decided that if they’ve moving on, they’re doing it together. Pat closes his eyes and one by one, addresses the ghosts, giving each one a heartfelt speech and a goodbye before telling them it’s time to go. Fanny is the last one, and when she’s gone, Pat won’t open his eyes, scared that if he does, they’ll all either be there, or they won’t be. They aren’t, he cries, it’s sad.

Cut to Cap and Pat driving away from the manor, Pat trying and failing not to cry as some sad acoustic cover of a song plays, and then to them at the new bungalow, cleaning it up and properly moving in. They end up putting up a painting pat did of them and all the ghosts up on the wall and falling down onto the sofa, tired and sad, but happy too. The end

#the overview is more detailed than i planned it to be but whatever #ghostswap #ghosts posts

[simpsonsnight]

Episode #709

Treehouse of Horror XXXII Season 33, Episode 2 | October 10, 2021

Welcome back to "the blog I refuse to proofread"

Opening: A parody Bambi with Bart as Bambi and Marge as Bambi's mother. This specifically spoofs the scene where Bambi's mother gets her head cut off with a chainsaw. In this version, Homer is a deer who gores the hunter, played by Mr. Burns. It's only edgy on it's surface level, but the satiric point is that Disney sometimes makes scary stuff for kids. It's a soft ribbing of their parent company at best.

Story #1: A parody of Parasite, which I never saw. This one's okay, but it's just not leftist enough! Rainier Wolfcastle is the rich guy's house. I really do think the Simpsons writers, who probably all own houses exactly like his, do sorta seem to have more of an interest in dunking on the working class. See, I wasn't even kidding when I said it wasn't leftist enough. YOU THOUGHT I WAS DOING IRONY, BUT I ACTUALLY FEEL THAT WAY AND BELIEVE THE STUFF I'M SAYING ABOUT THIS. AAAAUUUUUGHHHHH

Story #2: In the second story, Bart scares Lisa and Maggie with a spooky story on Halloween, causing them to interrupt Homer and Marge's love-making sessions. Homer sets his sights on the tree-house, and decides to chop down the tree in the backyard, citing it as the cause for his woes. Every year is the same thing, "three scary stories. Two of them good, with a lame one in the middle". Hey, I smiled.

The tree gets zapped by lightening and comes to life, pulling it's roots out of the ground and going on a rampage. It can somehow zap alive other trees, who form a posse against the humans. This one is dumb but fun visually, so I like it fine. And ya gotta respect the fact that it contains their least offensive trans joke yet, when Audrey II from Little Shop of Horrors says he identifies as a tree, because he's a "transplant". Not the most incredible joke in the world, and it's maybe a little hubristic of the Simpsons writers to think they can pull off non-alienating trans jokes. But it's worth noting, I guess.

Story #2.5: OH! They did a short! Because of their weird-ass four-act structure where the third act is very very short. It was Vincent Price reading a rude story in the style of Edward Gorey. One of couplets is a recreation of Bart the Lover.

Story #3: "Dead Ringer" is a parody of The Ring, which I literally watched last Halloween for the first time. Good idea, Simpsons, to parody a thing I know about. Anyway, I found this one to be the weakest.

And that's this one. I'm back, baby! (I am probably going to abandon this blog again right after this post)

MAIL BAG

Aw. AW HELL NO.

People say "The Last Exit to Springfield" is one of the greatest it's not its one of the worst why The Big Book of British Smiles we do not have those teeth. I know Americans need to have theirs cosmetically whitened. It makes no sense the book.

I'm starting to think that no book in the whole world makes sense. I look at those things and I'm just, like, "what is this". You know what I mean? This guy gets it.

I know fans and former fans like to trash the show and even think the show will last forever and ever and ever. But if you have some common sense the show will end if either Matt or a voice actor passes away. Everything comes to an end sometime.

I would not put it past the corporate entities that own the show to have bullied the cast into signing away artificial intelligence rights to their voices in the events of their deaths. It's just a hunch that I have. It was probably the only reason they were able to reach a deal in the last strike or whatever.

How dumb was Marge in the soap box racer episode agreeing with her sisters giving Homer the father test didn't she get it was probably to break them up.

Marge loves her family and is inherently trusting. These are good qualities, unless you live in a world where everyone around you has refused god's grace. She inherited a terrible world that is not suited for her. In other words... can you blame her?

The real reason on why Springfield Stem Academy was a failure was because the idea was from Marge Simpson and the episode had the name Lisa Simpson The Miseducation of Lisa Simpson. Both of them females.

Many in the community will argue that it is canon that "Man smart. Woman Smarter" as sung by Our Favourite Family, but many forget that was a Halloween episode, and thus not canon. Man Smart. Homer/Bart.

Homer a jerkass suppose he didn't know that the word was jackass? Also Homer has always been an ass when he was supposed to get Lisa a new saxophone reed. But went for a beer first. Then it caused the pony incident Lisa always wanted one but it was an incident with ponies being too expensive.

Ponies can be very expensive. Just ask my friend BING CROSBY! HAHAHA GOT 'IM. Nah, I think Homer got it from online. I get all my stuff from online.

#simpsons #season 33

[mercyburned-aa]

i almost never actually get around to posting headcanons of any kind, so have some about random muses. PERSONAL / NON RP-BLOGS, DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST.

kreta aka fakebedo fled mondstadt after the whole debacle with real albedo and found himself in sumeru. faced with the opportunity to do something new for the first time in his life, where no one knew him and no one knew albedo either, he enrolled in the akademiya. in the vahumana darshan, kreta's been doing extremely well. being all alone on dragonspine gave him nothing to focus on except for his anger, pain, and jealousy towards albedo and the life that he was denied, which albedo gets to have. now however, he's focused on research and has a built-in social circle who have no idea about anything about his past, and it's so freeing. i'm not saying he's a completely new person or anything -- he still has a ton of anger and jealousy to work through -- but he was able to start over. so if your character is from the akademiya, they might know each other!

kaveh is a whole and complete person, with or without any connection to alhaitham. ( i'm still on board to develop that ship though! he is just more than a ship component. ) anyway, i really want him to have more friends who get him and appreciate his views, perspectives, and ideals, because it seems like plenty of people like him, but few actually understand him or agree with him. kaveh is an idealist and someone whose integrity has held him back, but that isn't necessarily a bad thing. tl;dr if your muse is artsy in any way, PLEASE let them be friends with kaveh. also just,, that parental abandonment that he says is fine because he's an adult and he can live his own life, but the way he sometimes feels like an orphan since his father went away to die and his mother went away to live.

raiden shogun / ei and the way i want to delve into how she's such a strong example of how grief and depression can be molded into an external force. the way her grief consumed her and changed her. the way she was so affected by the loss of her sister that she then tried to hold on SO TIGHT to anything she could in order to save it, but she held on too tight and ended up hurting everyone instead. the way she took on the mantle of electro archon without anyone realizing the individual had changed. the way she struggles to honor her sister's memory because she's been alone for too long. the way she clings to people like kujou sara and yae miko ( especially, especially miko ) . the trickles of shame -- not guilt, but shame -- after she begins to realize that maybe, maybe she wasn't right, but the pride and the grief that she struggles with. the way she needs to be held accountable for what she did, but the way that she needs compassion as well -- because sometimes, the times when people need compassion the most are the times when they deserve it the least. the way she knows she should apologize to thoma and kokomi and everyone else. the way she can't bring herself to do it yet.

lumine, the way she's developing for me, is ... getting pretty close to agreeing with the tsaritsa. the more she learns about celestia, the more she discovers the truth about khaenri'ah and the curses, and the other civilizations that got nailed, the more she learns about teyvat... she's getting there. she is beginning to walk down that path, perhaps the same one that aether did, but she's starting to look in that direction. she's starting to feel like maybe she wants to help fight against celestia instead of try to stop that war. i'm not saying she's in a rush to join the fatui because she is most definitely NOT, but she's starting to understand the tsaritsa's actions and she's starting to understand why. she has questions no one seems able to answer yet, and she is realizing how much is being hidden from the people of teyvat, and she doesn't like it. and maybe she's wrong about so many assumptions -- it's okay for her to be wrong! but she's beginning to see the cracks in the wall and it's making her think about things very differently.

#kretatbt #kavehtbt #raidentbt #&. ‛ dandelion girl， always traveling.︐ › lumine.

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can we hear more about ghost hunter! gordon au? especially all of the characters

A!  OK! WOW ITS BEEN A BIT HASN'T IT-   i posted that in October and then couldn't work much on it as stuff came up and i got interested in other things so i haven't worked on much more than i had when i first drew them 

BUT I FOUND MY OLD NOTEBOOK FROM THEN WITH ALL MY NOTES!! 

i'm actually really happy someones asked me about one of my aus!

ok so  i was originally going to do something with this, it was originally going to be a little halloween treat, a blog or fic or something,  but i had some stuff going on and had to stop working on it so most of this is sort of  incomplete but its what i had, 

the story was going to be typical 'ghost hunter goes to a place thats supposedly haunted, gets trapped and finds a bunch of actual ghosts and undead, has to try and escape while uncovering more story and probably saving a couple souls from their damnation' kind of plot,

Black Mesa was a massive underground laboratory that not many knew of as it was hidden deep beneath a lesser known lab as a cover-up with Black Mesa being similar to what it is in canon where its massive and full of huge pits and pools of goop and lasers and spinning blades and massive storage rooms and-  you've all seen what Black Mesa was like. it was that but hidden underground beneath a cover-up, both abandoned around the same time. 

a LOT of deaths happened due to Black Mesas neglect, cutting of corners and just because the facility even while active was not the safest place to navigate (GIANT DROP INTO A DEEP PIT OF RADIOACTIVE GOOP)

Gordon originally went to explore the local laboratory as a Halloween Live Stream Special due to all the ghost stories surrounding it and rumours of how many of their scientists had died in there he thought it would be a great idea for a good scare,

then he ends up falling into the vastly larger hidden facility he didn't know of and has to find his way out, encountering undead both friendly and dangerous. 

Benrey is your typical floating, phasing through walls, haunting poltergeist, he can go through things but also pick stuff up and throw things, hes loud, hes annoying.

Tommy and Sunkists are more like spirits, still a ghost but also acting as more of a guardian and a protector. 

Darnold is a ghost, but doesn't realise it, he can still interact with things and unlike Benrey they can't float or phase through things.

Bubby is also a ghost, i don't know if theres an exact word for a ghost linked to water,, but i guess hes like a minecraft drowned- hes soggy. he can't phase through things but he if you tried to touch him it would be like putting your hand in water,  and he can somewhat float.

Coomer is like a zombie and somewhat of a frankensteins monster but the process of that started even long before he was dead, hes made of both flesh and metal and is really strong and solid.

and Forzen is a zombie

Gordon isn't exactly human either

like how only some had awareness of it being a game, only some of them knew they were dead; Benrey being the most aware of it and having fun with all his tricks of phasing through stuff and haunting the place even before it was fully abandoned.

 Darnold was going to be entirely unaware he was dead, going about his day as usual for years, so focused on his work in the mixology department and often leaving the department to collect leftover samples and ingredients from other departments oblivious to how empty the place is because of his strong fixation on his work-

  while others would be unaware of their passing due to having been in a more dead-like state of slumber only waking up once disturbed by Gordons presence,  Bubby would've been like this, unaware he had been gone as he slept after death until being awoken by Gordon trying to find a lightswitch in the tube room. 

i wanted to have elements or hints of how they died in their designs:

both Darnold & Bubby have stains of what killed them; Darnold having died in a mixology related accident that now stains his clothes and Bubby being covered in and dripping tube goop after he drowned due to the departments negligence.

Benrey was crushed and cut in half, a canon death he does have in the series

and Dr Coomers body eventually failed him after all of the mechanical modification and cloning. 

Forzens was probably the only death not caused by the facility or staff, but by a faulty grenade after he and a few other soldiers went to clear out the labs shortly after it was first abandoned, its unclear to him if all the skin he mended back together was originally his own or of his teammates if they too had gotten caught in the blast.

Tommy i hadn't actually given him any visible indication and that is the point, theres no visible way to tell how they died

and since i stopped working on this in October i never fully fleshed out what everyone's motives would be, so its both funny and sad to see Tommys is just "waiting for his dad to pick him up from work" 

#lovebugs letters #hlvrai #hlvrai ghost hunt au #long post

[riftofthestars]

((If this sounds weird I do apologise but what has been one of the most interesting aspects of bringing your characters to life?))

Getting to see them live - and let me explain that vague ass statement:

Before joining the tumblr rpc, most of my writing was done one-on-one, with lots of plotting of what will happen between just two characters. It never went far and it wasn't all that interesting to me - so it was either keep doing that, scatter notes of my characters across the internet and keep dropping storylines that I only vibed with in concept and not execution or do something new.

I chose something new.

It took me a few tries to get to the iteration of the muses you see now, having a harder time making them feel alive, sometimes their actions didn't even make sense to myself and I just wanted to retcon and retcon and retcon. I've had 4 blogs I've either deleted or abandoned before I stuck with this and @autumna-potentia.

This blog is when I changed my approach to storytelling. Rather than trying to adapt each of their stories to fit in the overarching narrative of the Rift, I built the Rift around them; rewrote what I was unhappy with and decided to stick with what I had.

But something was still off with @mystic-mutation-archive, it lacked that certain something every other blog, every other writer, every other character had.

History. With each other, in their stories, between their characters.

And I was just a newcomer, a newbie by all means of the word, barging in a community where frankly I felt like I didn't belong. But that feeling wasn't because I was made an outcast or made myself an outcast - it's because I had no idea about how anything worked beyond the basics. It took me months to figure the easiest of the basics out.

But then I said to myself "well, fuck it. If I am someone that doesn't belong here, my muses will be the same". And it stuck.

It fucking stuck and I am still proud of that. The Rift wouldn't exist if it didn't fucking stick. And if it didn't fucking stick my muses wouldn't be the same they are now.

I didn't have any history in the tumblr rpc? My muses wouldn't have history with this expanded world they would be put in, but they would still have history.

Because I took every little detail, storyline, plot and character I created and dropped before I joined Tumblr's rpc and made it part of my character's history.

It doesn't make sense or fit in the narrative/rules of a world/storyline? Doesn't matter, the Rift takes care of that - the Rift is basically a deus-ex-machina for fitting things into the backstory of a muse.

Seeing how I manage to still make sense of all of a character's story while both keeping in with the rules I set for myself and still being total bullshit is the most interesting thing about bringing my muses to life.

Because they are finally starting to feel alive to me.

I still have trouble writing the Mechanist and Rosetta, but that's because these two character types are hard to write for me, seeing as how one has a constant behaviour outside the norm that might be seen as autistic-coded and the other is recovering from a lifetime of a heavily religious teachings, but I am slowly getting to both of them. And I can't wait to see how I manage to bring both of them to life too.

But at the moment I am figuring out Ada, which I am both excited and not for - seeing as she's abused Blackwood. Either way, it will still be interesting

As for Charlie, who is asleep at this hour, I can't exactly say. He's been a huge help with finding a balance to Jailer - guiding me to write someone who is skilled at manipulation while still being a good person to some extent. Without him I don't think Jailer could have taken on the task he has now and I don't think I would still go on with the plan I have for him and his story.

#Opened Book: Ask #Munday Ask Meme #Quill and Quiver: OOC #The Tired Naiad: Silver #long post #this went off the original ask #but it all ties back into one neat bow I hope

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I’ve honestly been turned off by fans of both teams at this point. I find most of team black annoying and most of team green at this point acts no different. Other than the constant childish arguing, I’ve see a barrage of passive aggressive post against both actors and characters. Some who aren’t even on the show yet. Daenaera? I don’t get that. Atleast 5 people have long rants posted about this girl. People starting annoying shipping wars and hating on female characters over the males it’s ridiculous. This happens in every fandom but it’s turned up to max over here. When the season ended a user posted a drawing mocking Rhaena crying at Laena’s funeral with hundreds of likes and I just knew I would end up not supporting either side. I’m put off by the fandom and I’m just here for the plot.

I fully commiserate anon... the culture is sometimes more toxic than the sw fandom in 2017 and i had grown adults trying to doxx me back then lmaaoo. I really suggest everyone who wants to stick around (and i understand why people wouldnt) just blocks frequently and for the most minor reasons it doesnt even matter if the only reason 'bad vibes' just block away (tho its a struggle on mobile with a side-blog... thats the issue i've been having). I totally get wanting to engage I love to argue as much as the next bitch but its literally never worth it.

I thought about abandoning this blog approx 5 times yesterday fr. I had shit on my posts, dumbasses in my inbox, even blogs i like were beefing on one of my posts. Thats bad form guys. Really bad form. Especially fun to have that all happening on my birthday lol. But unfortunately I also really like talking about this stuff and I have some great mutals and followers I don't want to give up...

So, for now at least, I'm just gonna continue to curate who i interact with heavily, not take things too seriously, and not let myself feel like I owe anyone anything. I suggest everyone else do the same if they want to stick around and stay moderately sane. And for gods sake stay off twitter.

#ngl if warrior nun hadnt been cancelled i'd probably be over there rn #i try not to engage with the toxic shit #if you rant about team black in my inbox i likely will not respond even if you make good points #ask #anon #anti hotd fandom