I woke up this morning feeling like trash, and as I'm sitting here working, I'm wondering why I devote so much of my time to a 9-5 job that isn't what I'm passionate about in life. I have no desire to progress up the corporate ladder; equally, I'm just treated like a number by management. So I thought fuck it, booked off the rest of the day and now here I am cracking on with my own business work. With new prints launching, learning 3D modelling to make my own items, and Halloween fast approaching as well, there is plenty to do.
Don't drain yourself over something you aren't passionate about, be it your day job, a friendship, a relationship or anything else. As Robin Williams once said "You're only given a little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it." I think that extends to passion and what you love also.
The Trump distraction as 15 million lose healthcare, China-UAE Yuan gas sale, China works towards peace in Yemen, US 'leaks', MSNBC owned by Matt Taibbi, Israel attacks Gaza and Lebanon as BBC defends apartheid, 2 Black lawmakers expelled from Tennessee Legislature and billionaire parasites buying up our fresh water!
Had a moment of clarity today where I, as an American, thought about ranch dressing objectively and realized why the rest of the world thinks we’re a bunch of freaks
EP Review: Kilonova - Moment Of Clarity (Self Released)
One of the hottest acts in the UK heavy scene, Kilonova are back with an emphatic statement of who and what they are.
Brit thrash metallers Kilonva return with their new EP, ‘Moment Of Clarity’, out on the 5th of May 2023.
Bassist Joe Bambrick says about the EP:
‘Moment of Clarity’ is our mission statement. We’ve captured that lightning in a bottle of a Kilonova show. This is the sound that has always been in our heads. This is Kilonova.
One of the hottest acts in the UK heavy scene, Kilonova are back with an…
Sometimes in life, we recognize the precise time when our life changed. Something happened. Maybe it was a phone call or a random conversation. It could be a letter or something we read in a book. It wasn’t necessarily an important moment, but something clicked and it becomes the turning point for us. A decision gets made, sometimes a decision we had no idea was lurking in our mind.
An epiphany…
my therapist: how are you feeling in the wake of your (autism spectrum disorder) diagnosis?
me: well it makes sense doesn’t it? i was the one who requested testing. like on some level i kind of figured.
my therapist: yes, i’m personally glad we pursued it because it helps me better understand parts of your behavior and how to accommodate you. but how do you feel about it? you said before that you were in heavy denial about the possibility when you were younger.
me: well yeah, i had a preconceived idea of what autism was that i know now wasn’t true. but at the time it was distressing and i didn’t want to think about it too hard.
my therapist: how was it different then? what was your idea of autism then?
me: it was, you know, severe developmental delay. i never thought i had developed abnormally at all, so to try and match up the severity i associated with autism and the way i viewed myself, i just couldn’t.
my therapist: but you did.
me: sorry?
my therapist: you did develop abnormally. both socially and academically.
me: socially yes, but i had no problems with academics. i always especially excelled at reading comprehension, more so than anyone else in my grade. i started lagging in high school but i think that was a lot of burnout and depression and ptsd, probably. i was incredibly smart. hell, i spoke in full sentences earlier than most of my peers.
my therapist: violette, that’s still abnormal development.
me: …huh?
my therapist: developing abnormally fast is still developing abnormally.
Editing is going as torturously as usual but another blinding realisation came today courtesy of Intuitive Editing by Tiffany Yates Martin
My main character has a lovely arc. She came to the challenge point, and passed the test, but didn't have a true moment of clarity about *why* it mattered and *what* she had learned. *I* knew her journey, but I didn't effectively communicate it to the reader.
I'm only at the early stages of Intuitive Editing (macro editing, character) in which Martin discusses how no-one is interested in a story where the main character waits for the world to happen around them. As I read that, my MFC moment of choice crystallised in my mind. So tomorrow's editing will be around a single scene, adding (I think) two paragraphs, and it will be huge.
People, be open to all advice, including the ones you've heard before. Even if the advice isn't directly applicable as it's given, it will get your inner editor working on the big stuff.