#mom guilt

[ihaveissueslol]

"God I'm such an attention whore I'm definitely only doing this for attention" I say, alone, by myself, as I take every possible precaution to hide my relapse from every single person who will see me.

#tw self harm #self harm recovery #self harm relapse #i relapsed again #tis the damn season #sh relapse #sh addiction #sh warning #i'm struggling #major depressive disorder #depression #depersonalization #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #oooo I'm mentally ill #mom guilt #what is wrong with me #just right ocd #ocd #im so tired

[poemgirl22]

My Depression Effects Everything

I don’t like myself when I get upset.

I’m sure you think to yourself “she’s a mess.”

And I wish I was a perfect mom and a perfect everything

And I’m sorry if some days I can’t amount to anything.

It hurts me that I hurt you by being in a mood

Every time when I get a moment alone I wonder why I even lost my cool

And then I’ll start crying and beating myself up

I’ve never laid my hands on you but my anger hurts just as much

And I know that I find it hard to get it under control sometimes

I know out of pure anger that I have made you cry

And it kills me and it eats me away every single time

I want you to know how much I love you and I

Want you to know that my depression isn’t because of you at all

I’ve had it long before you ever came along.

Sometimes it’s so hard for me to just simply get up and try

But when it all comes down to it, I know you have saved my life.

#mom guilt #postpartum #depressing shit #sad poetry #poems and poetry #poems on tumblr #poems and quotes #short poem #original poem #love poem #spilled thoughts #poetry

[interact-if]

Mom Guilt

Everyone Moms Differently

Mom Guilt is an immersive Twine experience that tells one woman's story of single motherhood--the good, the bad, the whacky, the unexpected. There are consequential choices, but no wrong choices. Just human choices. Runtime aprox. 25 mins.

Genre: Slice of Life, Humor

#Mom Guilt #if: intro #status: complete #twine games #18+ #+18 #if: submission #slice of life #comedy #modern #drama #interactive fiction #interactive games

[mydeclutterjourney]

Tiny dress, big problem...

I have a dress with cardigan and vest top. It's children's age 7 size, from when I went to a wedding with my godparents in the early 2000s I think. I pulled it out of the last box of clothing I had at my mum's some months back and she said "oh some things you have to keep forever!" and initially I was thinking yeah, I will keep this it's sentimental. But then I thought well I have nowhere to put it. Like I wouldn't even go looking for it to reminisce. I forgot I even had it until I pulled it out that box.

I've since lost touch with these godparents (tried looking them up online but no results) but I have a framed photo of them displayed on a bookcase, and I have stuffed animals I've kept from childhood that they gifted me (my absolute fave that goes everywhere with me to this day I got on my 5th birthday trip with them), so I don't need to keep a dress that I will literally never fit into again and have No Use For At All 😂

I will offer it to my brother for my niece. I imagine he will say no. It'll get donated after that.

But it's an attitude I'm trying to get better at challenging in myself. I don't need to keep things just because they were gifts and special at the time I got them. And I also am getting better at working through the guilt I get, especially from my mum, about this. So many things I've held onto for years but not used because she'll make little comments like this about keeping or using them.

#declutter #decluttering #my declutter journey #my post #closet cleanout #mom guilt

[roweaboat]

The most unrealistic part of the latest Ted Lasso? The fact that after Ted confronts his mom, her immediate response was not "Well I guess I must be a terrible mom then."

#ted lasso #mom guilt #seriously the fact she took it so easily did not align with how she acted in the first part #guess they needed a quick resolution

[regurgitated-memes]

After much scary times falling down the stairs, I wanted to treat my daughter with some ice cream. I love her so much and the mom guilt is real right now. I never ever want you to feel pain baby girl!!! 👼

@happysheik @theindescribable1

#oc #my baby girl #parenting #mom guilt

[behind-thebrowneyes]

Mom guilt really kick my ass idk if it’s the fun various mental illnesses getting the better of me once again or just feeling mom guilt about everything. I don’t know anymore. I don’t know who I am anymore…feels like I’ve lost my identity tbh and now I’m just little lady’s mom and that’s it. Idk too much on my mind lately. Idk what to do I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about it. And it’s not like I can go start therapy again got little one to take care of.

#mom guilt #too much on my mind #can’t stop thinking about it #brain won’t stfu #overthinking #so fucking tired #losing myself #sahm #rant #brain dump

[alicerader]

#relatable memes #humor #funny because it's true #mom guilt #worthy of rest #shut up brain

[xomamafeelsox]

I see other moms who are happy with their kids, they’re reading books, they’re singing songs, they’re taking their kids out in public by themselves for activities.. that just isn’t our life. We walk on egg shells with Peyton. Any little thing that doesn’t go her way, lay the way she wants it to, something is missing, something isn’t absolutely perfect - you can bet your ass you’re going to have a hell of a time. Going out to dinner should be enjoyable for a family. For us, it’s a chore and a nightmare of a time. When she’s happy, she’s SO happy. When she loves, she loves so hard. Peyton has the biggest heart and will do anything for anyone.. until something doesn’t go the right away. She screams, she kicks, she whines to where you can’t even get a word in. She doesn’t sit still, she runs her mouth 500000 words a minute, her thoughts can’t keep up with her words, and sometimes her words hurt. There are many places we can’t go, people she can’t be trusted with because she can’t be handled, and more often than I’d like to admit, we stay home because it’s better than dealing with the embarrassment and anxiety it brings everyone to be out in public. We can’t do Walmart trips, we can’t take her shopping, we can’t run in the store to grab one thing, no matter how many times she promises she will be good - she gets inside, emotions take over, her senses are heightened, and our 5 minute quick trips ends up with taking a screaming child to the car. I’m constantly exhausted. I’m constantly annoyed. I’m impatient, I just want a direct answer to a question that I ask. I just want one task completed that I ask to be done. I just want my child to be like other children. I could never be a stay at home mom. After 48 hours home, I can’t wait to go back to work just to have a break. I feel so awful for feeling this way when we are having a good day, a good time, a moment where I see that something so small can make her so happy. I feel like such an awful parent for having any thoughts - such as, wanting to get away from my child to let my blood pressure readjust. Just a simple dollar store necklace, a travel size bath and body perfume, a sparkly make up bag I no longer use - I give these things to her and she says it’s the best day ever. How, just an hour ago, how was I counting down minutes until bedtime so I could have a break from her? & she goes to bed, I go into her room to readjust her and cover her up, and it all sets in.. I think about what a hard day she has every single day while I’m watching her sleep. Her emotions are everywhere. I know how exhausted I am, I can’t imagine what her brain is dealing with when she’s sleeping. She goes through so many emotions so fast, so many times a day, I don’t know how her little body can keep up.

Mom guilt is an ugly, ugly and real thing.

#adhd mom #mom guilt #children #adhdkid

[goddess-rachellll]

⚠️ Trigger warning: mom guilt/postpartum depression⚠️

No matter where I am, I hear my children crying. At home, at work, in my sleep. The constant cry for mom followed by the immense guilt when the frustration bubbles up because there is no escape. How crazy does it sound to be so frustrated with the people you love most, the people made from you? The mom guilt, she's a monster. Scarier than those under your bed. She screams in the back of your head "you're a bad mom" "you don't love your kids enough" "you need to do better" "they deserve better" louder and louder until she's loud enough that you believe her. And guiltier you feel because you teach them to love themselves all while hating their mother.

#mom guilt #tw ppd #trigger warning #parenting #momlife #motherhood #my words #writers on tumblr #writeblr #spilled thoughts #chaotic inner workings #my writing

[southernmama96]

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#follow me #motherhood #mom guilt #momspiration #mom memes #momblr #mumblr

[charmiixx]

The mum guilt is real

#sometimes mums can get it wrong too :( #feeling guilty #mumblr #momblr #housewife #tradfem #marriage #tradwife #mum life #teething baby #sick baby #sad baby #mum guilt #mom guilt #mom life

[lalocreativity]

There will be parts of Parenting that feel heartbreaking.

Having to say no to something your child wants because you're trying to teach them cause, effect, accountability and responsibility isn't pleasant.

We want our kids to have things and experience joys from getting some of things they want.

But there are times we have to say no because they'd miss a valuable life lesson.

I'd rather them learn the lesson at home, under my guidance than out in the world on their own.

So, the heartbreak or guilt of saying no now, will help create a more well rounded and considerate adult later.

#parenting #parents #single mom #single mother #mom guilt

[chaosandcuddlesblog]

I finished high school with the highest honors and went to college at my dream university. All while serving my community as a youth representative. Long story short, I was on top of my game. A bright future was expected of me. But things took a turn when I got pregnant only a couple of months after graduating college.

For the entire duration of the pregnancy, I thought that it would be easy for me to get back on track career-wise thinking that I have all the qualifications. I am degree holder with years of serving the community hence a semi professional work experience. But motherhood is so much more than I expected it to be. It was a lot of work. Sometimes a little too much that it drains me.

Being a mother reminded me of how important it is for me to have a career. But at the same time, I might have unconsciously used it as an excuse to be stagnant career-wise. Rationalizing not having a career as a normal and automatic sacrifice of motherhood. But of course, I had to make ends meet, so I was able to still find a job so I'd have a source of income. I earn not as much as I hoped to, but just enough to pay the bills. Just when I was doing something that at one moment I thought I could make an incredible career with, baby fever overruled me, and I decided to have a baby again. Due to health concerns, childbearing meant another career pause for me.

A quarter after giving birth, I am back on track to finding a job. This time I am trying to find a job that pays me enough to sustain two kids and is flexible enough so I can still be a hands-on mom. I am also looking for one that will keep me mentally sane and make me grow professionally. I have submitted a few applications, and I've received feedback on only a few of them. To be honest, it frustrates me. I always perceived myself as an achiever. Someone any employer would be interested in. However, reflecting on how my life has been in the past 5 years, I've come to the realization that maybe I am not, or at least, I no longer am.

This entire process of finding a job that would give me the opportunity to professionally grow while being the mother that I aspire to be is harder than I thought. But more importantly, it has been humbling me. The process has been telling me to put my feet back on the ground. Telling me how much I should be working on myself. And this is very frustrating for someone who's used to getting what she wants in a snap.

I know that some of the coming days will be even more frustrating. I don't know what to do with this fact, but this is a good start, right? Acknowledging that I am feeling frustrated and acknowledging that I have things to work on with myself is a good thing, right?

I guess that's all for entry one. This mama needs to take a nap before either of the kids wake up and yes, good luck with my interview this morning.

**About the photos | pic 1: a quick snap before a job interview. Went to our shop's stockroom to avoid noise but ended up in a noisier one; pic 2: what I looked like after more than an hour of interview. Pumping my breastmilk because my ~~ are engorged and unsafe for little one to latch.

#motherhood #momlife #postpartum #parenthood #career woman #mom guilt #workingmom

[katastrophickim]

Work has been absolutely killing me. 10 hr shifts, six days a week. I know this may sound normal for some people, I just never get to see my kids it seems. I get them off to school in the mornings and that’s the only time I get to spend anytime with them when we are on overtime. I work second shift and am lucky enough my mom can baby sit while I work. I leave for work before they get home from school & when I get home they are asleep.

Mom guilt is eating me alive not being here for them more than I am. However if I were a stay at home mom it will eat me alive having to rely on others to help provide for them.

To every single mom, working full time or stay at home, you are doing such a great job! I just wanted to let you know incase no one has told you lately❤️

#working mom #mom guilt #overworked #I miss my kids #overwhelmed #depressed #stressed

[likeallthesestarsfalling]

I am literally so overwhelmed by everything and no one will help me. I feel like I'm drowning and no one cares.

#mom guilt #overwhelmed #so much to do #i dont fucking know