#mmm yes give it to me

[allfortzu]

what if i EXPLODE

#the most basic and classic kpop queerbait pose but i still love it youre right #the lyrics during these scenes too this is a song for women and sapphics #they did this for the gay closeted church girls #i literally had a hand over my mouth gasping shocked shaken the entire mv GAOWD im giving the japan division a big kiss rn #momos wolfcut too IM GONNA GJRKDUWP38RBJ #the bridge was so good mina always serves she has given and she has never disappointed! #i LOVE the way sana sang the mmm humming part in the beginning it reminds me of her lines in wallflower and YEAH SHES STILL THE BEST AT IT! #and momos rapping OHHHHHH she has truly never not killed a rap her deep raspy voice is so perfect omg #them turning into paintings in the end YEAH POETIC CINEMA #so glad they made this a littke gay bc all art is inherently gay no im not elaborating #yes obv i saw minas back they had no business putting it there not even 30 secs into the song what if i actually combusted #having this AND oec air force one in one week if god hates the gays why do we always win 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

[meownotgood]

aki jammies

#aki. yes #I want to cuddle with him #he looks warm #looks cozy and cuddly #ahahahaaaahahaha #I need to hug him right now #nice big hug #I hug aki plushie but it's not enough #my mind.. im. losing it.... #it's... melting away #aki.. need to give him big tight warm hug #need to bury my face in his pajama shirt #need to latch onto him like this 🦥 #and never let go #won't let go until he physically peels me off #I will hug him foreverrrrrrrrr #mmm... mwnmmgmg.... mmmmgnnn.... mdnsnmfmff..... hnmmfhhh..... #uhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAHHHH!!!! #aki <3 #aki pajama very cute wow #my minddddd I'm lossinnnggg ittttt

[arom-antix]

Viktuuri week day 6: Love

#no one said love had to be happy #love can also be the indescribable pain of abandonment and longing because some times cupids arrow just hits at the wrong time #and i love making my little paper dolls suffer #i had actually planned on making all the pieces for viktuuri week sad or angsty in some way but i ran out of time and fluff is so much fast #but ive had this piece planned since like july so i was NOT giving it up #also this is the only piece with my trademark flower symbolism and i couldnt just not stick to my brand #the flowers used are sacred lotus; red spider lily and camellia japonica dahlonega if you wanna know their meanings in hanakotoba #look at me being nice #giving you the names instead of you having to figure it out on your own #i really do sometimes forget that other people havent spent hour long sessions researching flower language and symbolism #so like if you wanna know the meaning of a flower ive used in a piece just ask #i will happily rant about my thought process #anyway ANGST #yes i did take great pleasure in getting to draw every detail of this and especially his pained facial expession #AND THE HAIR #drawing the highlights gave me life #and just MMM i loved drawing this so much #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri on ice fanart #yoi fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #viktor nikiforov #viktuuri week

[presiding]

What is your favourite thing about Billie Lurk?

(Answers are obvious possibly but i love when people talk about her👍)

thanks for the ask!! YEAH ME TOO I love when people talk about Billie! I can't say I have a favourite thing specifically, but I can explain why she's my fav. apologies for not taking this qn literally, but -

short answer: she’s really cool

& you can stop reading there, or, for the maybe 2 mutuals who might have time to read this my thoughts on her as a character, her meta, and her character as raw potential...

long answer:

i considered making this entire thing a gush so you could read a gush about Billie. but, part of what draws me to her is that she’s not always well written, and in fandom she’s underrated for a literal protagonist.

since you ask...

billie is a cool character

when I played Dh2 (hadn't played Dh1), I was excited to see a black woman with disabilities who was captaining a massive ship by herself. wow.

then I discovered Billie’s backstory with Deirdre, the way she responded to that, then having to survive while living on the run, and her bisexuality. as well as her history with daud & delilah. fascinating!

she’s an outsider who has so much to lose, and knows what it's like to lose everything - having lost everything not once but three times - but nevertheless speaks truth to power. she's so brave! she went and helped Emily & Corvo and she must have known they might kill her! plus, she’s smart, she’s funny, she gets shit done, she’s gorgeous.

but... the meta

mild critique of fandom & arkane incoming.

skip this bit if you want - you've been warned twice now - jump to tired Hayao Miyazaki and read from there if you'd like my thoughts on writing her.

i thought Death of the Outsider was going to be amazing and then... well. *sad trombone* i've written about that before so i won't keep banging on. i figured others must be disappointed too, so I joined a few fandom spaces in hopes of finding camaraderie.

most people with complaints about DotO didn’t like how the Outsider and Daud were handled. which is valid & I agree. but it seemed like most paid no attention to Billie; when people talk about her it’s with respect to Daud, as opposed to in her own right. you could argue for fandom misogyny because people don’t talk about adult Emily Kaldwin that much either, but in Billie's case, it’s misogynoir (compare & contrast with the popularity of thomas, particularly the popularity of thomas portrayed as a white man for no particular reason that i've been able to discern - i keep asking around, is it in the books???).

i think this is a LOT better now than it used to be, which is fantastic. or perhaps i have found the correct echo-chamber? ha.

ultimately, The Fandom is a fraction of the entire picture, and not even the important bit since The Fandom is not who these games are made for. you can't make money relying on only your hardcore fans even if all of them spent a fortune on merch, this is true for any AAA game.

while it's true that Billie is underrated from a fandom perspective - but Billie as an underwritten protagonist is squarely Arkane’s fault.

it was reasonable when she was a side character - the lack of info in Dh2 makes perfect sense (if anything there was more lore in Dh2 which is kind of wild)-

- but as a protagonist in Death of the Outsider?

.... there’s lousy writing, and there’s whatever is going on with Billie Lurk, a black woman who mostly exists as a foil or saviour for light-skinned characters. In her own game there’s barely any of her own lore except where it's relevant to saving two dudes.

lore hints at, but barely touches on what race means in the Dh universe (xenophobia is stronger in Dh1; separate essay i guess), but Arkane has patted themselves on the back for portraying non-white characters, which feels like the same thing as the aesthetic of diversity we're seeing in advertising currently because it’s in marketing trend guides. it's self-congratulatory and it's a missed opportunity for deeper storytelling.

you can see an example of diversity at its most shallow in the way that Billie’s written: there’s little engagement with her as an entire person with history & wants & preferences, and the world she walks through in that game feels like it has nothing to do with her. you could make a case for alienation as a theme, but then, how do you handle the titular premise of 'Dishonored' without ever letting Billie make changes in an environment without a chaos system? it's disappointing from that angle too.

in my opinion, whatever it's worth, it was an accident Arkane created such an awesome character - they needed someone to betray daud. congrats billie.

all this said, it makes her an underdog as far as characters to enjoy & create art & stories for. it's nice to find so many like-minded, switched on people! <3

billie's character potential

she’s got a wealth of unexplored lore, being deeply intertwined with both Karnaca & Dunwall’s fates & criminal underbellies, as well as her connections to the witches & whalers, and three Empresses.

she’s lived a few distinct lifetimes and in the games we get to meet her at two peaks (KoD & DotO) & a low (Dh2 as Meagan).

her voice is very distinct, her dry & often dark humour is entertaining & fun to write. her perspective is really interesting - she’s had the widest variety of void-powers of anyone canonically, and she’s also lived through the highest highs and lowest lows.

she's got everything going for her :) i couldn't really pick a fav thing!

#i assume my followers are cool enough to let me give a brief measured critique on fandom trends and DotO #thanks for the anon question!! what fun! #i love billie lurk <333 #jumped on the opportunity to rant n rave #what part of billie isn't my fav! (im a guy who likes the bad stuff too. mmm interesting meta) #trying to be not unfair or mean- i'm not targeting anyone but rather trends. and it's ok to be disappointed with something you love #fuck it. make it part of the appeal! her writing sucks! plenty of room for me & other creators! #its easier for me to indulge my billie brainworms when it sorta feels like she's not getting as much love as she deserves #you know? i want stories where her history is explored and her agency is important so i guess i'll roll up my sleeves #tumblr is a terrible place for this sort of critique IMO- lots of nuanceless empathy-free guilt-trip-ish rhetoric #so i hope i avoided that. but not so much that i seem forgiving. #that said i'm not tagging this one with fandom tags! no thank you. #i am blaming arkane yes. but that is also not without games industry context #i could complain about amateurish writing but that also never happens in a vacuum. industry problem(s) for sure. #people love to blame writers for things #and yeah a couple really fucking good writers can push a boulder uphill #but its usually a company problem #hire lots of diverse people in your company. give them authority and respect and reasonable workloads. and no crunch. #ah fuck this is a separate essay in tags. again #THIS WAS A SIMPLE QUESTION #*clutches head in hands* #uh if you're still reading at this point im SO sorry and thank you and i love you

[polutrope]

For the prompt thing- "You really thought you were going places, didn't you"

"Yes, actually," said Finrod, slotting three fingers through the looped handle of his mug; it was hot and he hissed shortly but didn't release it. 

"I could have told you, no one likes being talked down to. If you're going to run for office, you can't let them see how smart you are: you have to make them believe you're on their level."

"That's pretty rich coming from someone who thinks he's better than everyone he's ever met, Curvo."

"I didn't say you had to believe it -- just them."

#gave me modern au vibes #curufin gives finrod political advice mmm yes this should go wl #well* #thanks for the prompt! #first sentence prompts #ask games #Curufin #finrod

[bubblepopsims]

❤

The Two Played around for a bit nothing crazy just harmless tussling and playfighting, had late lunch with ended up putting them on their asses for a rainy day snooze. Cesar was going to work out while L. took her nap but... he's a old man XD

Pt. V - Pt. VII

#ts4 #ts4 simblr #ts4 screenshots #my sims #sims 4 #oc: L. #oc: Cesar (fl0pera) #random day in Cesar and L. world #T-T i think they are so cute but they can also be scary its perfect #they are cute monsters #also if you know the song.. bless you yes XD #it gives me the vibes i want for this post.. mmm #also cesar can never die i dont care XD #if they are gonna go they are going together. #toxic? yeah probably but thats them.

[yaoogui]

𝐘𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐙𝐀𝐊𝐈 𝐃𝐀𝐈 & 𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐈

       @wellfell asked for an incorrect quote

#神 : 𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐝𝐚𝐢. / the leader. #神 : 𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐝𝐚𝐢. / visuals. #神 : 𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐝𝐚𝐢. / headcanons. #wellfell #There were so many gifs of these little bitches crying I was like MMm okay life is giving me lemons i'll make the damn omelet #LMAO THEYRE SO WEAK BUT LIKE #see I IMAGINE THEM POSING AROUND WITH DOGS AND TIGERS AND CLANS AND GUNS #But at some point I imagine theres nothing left no one left they literally teared their clans and their shit down to pieces #Everyone is dead everything is gone #It's just them in this chase against each other that has lost all meaning #She said he would have to kill her first when the time comes #But she's the one striking the move #I guess he could kill absolutely everyone but her despite what she did #Gay #ALRIGHT #Its fine anyways its like just a scratch he's getting stabbed all the time #Also yes I made two for you

[baconcolacan]

Help what does it mean when you tell a funny story to your psychiatrist and they prescribe you an anti-psychotic

#neil talky #I JUST GOT HOME FROM THE CLINIC #HRAKSJDJ I was like ‘Haha so yeah :)’ and my doctor looked me in the eye #’Neil I’m giving you new medication’ #HELP WHAT #/hj but yes I have new meds now #I found out I could see my doc today so I JUMPED FOR IT #mmm yummy pills MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH #PSA: please do not eat your pills like cereal

[artheresy]

Nothing breaks me,,, quite like this panel has oh boy I am

God do I both love and want to strangle Fyodor

#MMM #the dehumanization never stops! Fyodor is on that grind #all of the dehumanization Fyodor has been shooting at Chuuya since his reveal as the intruder has put me in pain #I feel like I have heartburn #someone give Chuuya a break pls #you could argue ‘oh hes just talking about his ability not referring to Chuuya just by his ability’ which yes could be either way I agree #but even if he’s not referring to Chuuya just by his ability #‘make use of Gravity Manipulation’ thats still treating Chuuya’s ability like it isnt even his but rather for others to use #AND THE WAY THIS CONTRASTS WITH HOW DAZAI WAS TREATING SIGMA A HH #Very telling for both Fyodor and Dazai’s characters in the present (and in comparison to his character in the past in Dazai’s case) #bsd #bsd spoilers #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs

[telltale-heart173]

To all the people who reblog my stuff with fun little paragraphs in the tags please never stop doing that i read every single one of them and i take screenshots and show them to my friends yelling "LOOK LOOK THE PUBLIC THEY LOVE ME" and i think about them frequently

#i love reblogs on their own #but if i get a little treat #very nice #mmm yes give me your insane ramblings in the reblogs yessssss tell me all about your silly little lives #a treat for me

[transingthoseformers]

Kkkkkk but what if i give them an uninhabited planet to do whatever on? Steeljaw wants a Decepticon homeworld, right? I mean sure it's not good that he wants Earth as it, but surely speaking we can set up a new colony on a different planet without sapient life.

#mmm thinking thoughts about rid #to me this part of his motivation seems super valid #honestly if you dragged these guys off of earth or Cybertron you'd prefer be able to help the. #transformers #tf rid15 #i think about Pack redemption arcs sometimes yeah #Cybertron abandoned them so i say give them a different planet #we know the Alchemor situation doesn't sit right with me so I'm sliightly shattering this rid glass yes yes

[its-kall-the-clown]

How exactly did Mayor originally approach Syntax about their arrangement in CHAMCH? Cause I don't think you can just walk up to someone and ask them for sex.(or maybe you can, IDK how friends with benefits work)

Igrhaurhaudj I'm sorry but the idea of Myaor just walking up to Syntax and asking for sex is just so funny XDDD

Mayor trying to flirt: "do you like ghost busters?"

Syntax: "...what?"

Mayor: "....."

Syntax: "........"

Mayor: " Sorry I forgot the rest of the pick up line. Do you just want to fuck?"

Syntax: "???????"

For real tho. It was more of Mayor chasing after Syntax for a few days. He would make flirty comments and have lingering touches as he tries his best to seduce Syntax as well as romance him.

Because at the time he genuinely wanted to take Syntax out on proper dates, courting, and such. But of course Syntax the obvious idiot with his trauma past is like: "ah yes. This man is looking for something, and that something is sex." Instead of taking Mayor's pursuit as romantic he saw it as physical.

When Syntax mentioned that he knew what Mayor was looking for and implied that he was okay with a physical relationship because he was pent up and could use a friends with benefits arrangement. Mayor is absolutely heartbroken. He thinks he's been rejected but is okay with a physical relationship too because at least he would be close to his rose.

Of course their physical relationship didn't satisfy Mayor as much as he hoped and where the story CHAMCH picks up is when he decides he's going to try again with dating Syntax good and proper

#lmk syntax #lmk mayor #toxicinsanity shipping #ghost spider shipping #toxic insanity #cold hands #mmm yes i love miscommunication in romance stories #give me that drama #kall answers

[maranull]

Just had some weird iridescent-like shapes in the bottom my vision (they're completely gone now) and the absolute terror I felt thinking my retinal was detaching is beyond words.

Beyond. Words.

#personal #mmm yes #ty whatever that was #i totally needed a heart attack today #very cool #making an ophthalmologist appointment faster than you can say “mara's loosing her eye” (i'm exaggerating no worries) #although this and the next week are filled to the brim with work #so that's fun and also means that the appointment is gonna have to be for the end of next week #mmmmmmm #i love work and 2+ hours commutes #my favourite way of giving me absolutely no free time for insignificant things such as doctor visits and such #at least my work is really close to a good public ophthalmology clinic #so if anything urgent happens i can bolt it to there #sr for the tag wall #this is how i vent now apparently #with tag walls #thanks for bearing with me #also i love you folks #<- been a second since i said it #k back to work i go #<3

[moonsidesong]

god necrofantasia is so good

#like ok YES EVERYONE KNOWS THAT its the epic funny yukari song but like IT IS!!!!! #all of my favorite zun songs are the loud ones. zun can just throw anything loud at me and i eat it up like MMM SCRUMPTIOUS #except maybe ufo romance??? i love ufo romance but its not. particularly loud?? #ok i lied the trojan green asteroid version is one of my all time favorite touhous and it gets pretty loud too. um. #yeah zun can just give me a loud song and i happily tack it into the top 10 #bri talks

[disagigglebilities]

Wish i was more visibly disabled sometimes so some random delivery drivers won't judge me for ordering groceries and only taking up a few of them

#like would it help #probably not #i was like dear god dont give me more imma turn away and climb these stairs because god how can i carry morrre #they didnt even give my mother some #like mmm yes she sucks at steps too because shes old and arthritic but oof

[picavecalyx]

  i need like.       a chart.

  but anime timeline wise, the accident happens about a month prior to the first mega special episode. silva runs away between episodes 8 and 9 of xyz. and then she gets out of kalos a month later.

#study ;; beneath a piteous smile #TIMELINESSS #i should probably #make. #a verse tag. for it. #hmmmm #naahhhh it'll be fine #verse ;; pokemon ;; beyond destructing and falling petals #anime timeline stuff? that's what this is for- #also rewatching these episodes........the fact that lysandre narrates a lot of these #is just mmM #also yeah squishy has been with lysandre labs for an indescernable amount of time so #i can assume :) that they've been there for a while :) #idk what episode a month later is. it's left vague on purpose :') #this basically gives me room for mairin and silva to know eachother because yes. they are in fact friends. #and also just gives me some fumky leeway #also the urgency of everything gets a lot fuckin faster after epsiode 9 so yknow :') coincidence? #no #smiles #she's still twelve in this case fun fact