#mm also i can write essays

[loveinhawkins]

Up until recent events, Eddie hasn’t really put much thought into flashlights—save for that time he had to take out the batteries in the T.V remote to get his to work, back when the power went wonky last summer.

But now? Oh, as soon as he’s through with this whole nightmare, Eddie’s gonna find out whichever saint invented the damn things and start a petition to get them a federal holiday. That’s gonna be his whole… raisin something, something—he thinks it’s French, Buckley will know.

Fucking wondrous creations.

… Okay, he might still be a little jittery.

So sue him. It’s either run with his increasingly stupid train of thought or have a thoroughly justified panic about—well, there’s just so much to choose from: the ash in the air, the apparently sentient vines on the ground, how it’s so fucking cold and dark—

Jesus H. Christ, calm down.

It’s not all that dark anyway—or at least, it’s not as dark as it could be. Steve’s lighting the way, flashlight in hand. Honestly, Eddie thinks he should get it preserved, like in one of those glass cabinets in museums, complete with a plaque: This bulb somehow survived a journey from the depths of a lake into an alternate dimension, and all for the low, low price of…

Well, Eddie doesn’t know how much it cost. He’ll workshop the whole plaque thing.

In his reverie, he stumbles carelessly, nearly pitching over right into Hive Mind territory.

“Ah, shit,” he whispers.

Steve’s hand must move because the light drifts over—ends up illuminating much more of Eddie’s path than Steve’s.

“Thanks,” Eddie says—glances sideways to find Steve already looking at him.

“Think I’m the one who should be thanking you,” Steve replies.

His hand flexes, as if he’d gone to twirl the flashlight before catching himself; Eddie has a very faint memory of Steve doing the same with pencils in class and fights a private smile.

“You gave me it,” Steve continues. “I would’ve just… gone right in without thinking.”

It’s said self-deprecatingly, but Eddie would argue that Steve’s impulsivity (his courage) is an admirable character trait, even if it sets his heart pounding.

His own problem is that he thinks too damn much, until the window of opportunity has almost been and gone.

He was the only one to hesitate before diving into the lake: he knows all too well how that could’ve made its way onto the increasingly long list of moments that haunt him.

He could’ve been too late, could’ve not found the Gate at all—and then, would only have been able to pathetically swim back to the kids and tell them that their heroes were gone.

The light skips onwards just a little, encourages Eddie to look up from his feet. He blinks a few times to try and adjust to the darkness looming ahead. There, the indistinct outline of trees, and he’s drawn back to a classroom again, to the soporific noise of chalk on a blackboard, to…

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.

“The hell is that from?” Eddie wonders, and he doesn’t realise he’s also said the quote aloud until Steve speaks.

“S’a poem. Robert Frost.”

Eddie clicks his fingers. “See, that’s why you actually passed English.”

Steve rocks his hand back and forth, so-so.

Eddie raises an eyebrow. “Don’t play coy now, Harrington.”

“I’m not, I passed by the skin of my teeth, dude.” Steve looks into the distance as he walks, like he’s being drawn back to some place, too. “I was meant to, um, submit a portfolio thing, and I just… didn’t.”

“Like stories and shit?”

Steve smiles. “Mm-hmm, and shit. Poems, too.”

“So why didn’t you…?”

Steve just shrugs in reply so Eddie changes tack—rolls his eyes expansively, but only at himself.

“Fucking Frost. Ugh, why can I remember that shit now, but when a paper’s in front of me, it’s just…” Eddie mimes an explosion in the back of his head, gone.

“Well,” Steve says, chuckling, “if the, uh, lovely atmosphere of this place jogs your memory, we’ll make some time, get you to write an essay.” He grins at Eddie, teasing and charming in equal measure. “We’re nothing if not productive.”

“Sure, that’s one word for it.”

Joking aside, Eddie finds that the mention of school calms his heart somewhat: to think of the foreboding sights around him as part of a story. Maybe it’s a control thing, like his campaigns. Dress shit up, put a film on top, then you don’t have to look at it directly.

He suggests as such to Steve in a longwinded ramble, and gets a thoughtful look in response.

“Like the Shire? And Mordor?”

“Yeah,” Eddie says. “Yeah, exactly.”

Steve nods slightly. The movement dislodges some particles in his hair—and yes, it helps, Eddie thinks, to believe it’s just freshly fallen snow.

“Yeah, that sorta never really worked for me?” Steve’s voice goes up at the end, almost apologetically, although for the life of him, Eddie can’t work out what he’s apologising for. “Like, when the kids ran with all the D&D stuff, the uh… analogy? Metaphor?”

Eddie gestures at himself with one hand, I failed English.

Steve laughs. “Yeah, whatever. Dustin and Lucas keep hashing that one out. Anyway, it didn’t exactly… help. Help me, I mean. Just made everything more…”

He sighs heavily.

Eddie thinks he understands. All his bullshit is just a veneer, after all: it doesn’t truly mask the fear.

“Hey, maybe you could give it a shot,” Steve adds. The light dances for a second, like he’s just barely resisted twirling the flashlight again.

“What?”

Steve smirks—juvenile, light-hearted, almost like he’s about to challenge Eddie at the school gym, like, bet you can’t make that shot from center court, Munson.

“You could write a poem. Make sense of…” Steve gestures around them.

“Harrington, as I keep reminding you, I failed English.”

“Yeah, so? I’ve heard Henderson go on about your campaigns, dude, s’not like they come from nothing.” Steve looks Eddie up and down in exaggerated scrutiny. “You look like the kinda guy who loves a theme.”

“Oh, really,” Eddie says flatly. He can’t hide his smile even if he tried.

“That’s what I thought, every time you’d come into class late: oh, here he is. The symbolism.”

“Jesus Christ, Harrington, shut up.” Eddie steps into Steve’s space just to shove him away (just to touch). He thinks that if he were to try his hand at poetry, it’d be horrendously self-indulgent—something about how he might not be the one holding a flashlight right now, but he’s certainly carrying a torch.

“I don’t work for free, Steve. You’ve gotta do one, too.”

“A poem for a poem, huh?” Steve says. “Sure. It’s a deal.”

And yeah, they might just be saying anything to pass the time. But Eddie chooses to believe otherwise; there’s still a pensive flicker in Steve’s eyes that makes him think he might just get lucky, that Steve might even dig up some old stuff from his abandoned portfolio.

It’s a nice thought—something to look forward to, at the end of all this.

He considers Steve, and even though he knows it’s not snow, he can’t help but turn the particles into flakes in his mind again, into something prettier, safe—almost as if Steve’s presence has softened the danger.

He wants to stop here, suddenly. Linger. It doesn’t make sense. But it feels like time is…

A gentle nudge—a warm elbow to his side.

“C’mon, daydreamer,” Steve says. “You can write down whatever you’re thinking later.”

Eddie snaps out of it with a breath of a chuckle, follows Steve’s light again. Keeps moving forward—past the ash, and the vines, and the trees.

The woods won’t be forever.

After all, he’s got promises to keep.

#oh the woods… they could’ve talked about so much #pre steddie #steddie fic #steddie ficlet #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #steve x eddie

[intuitivesef]

A message from your future lover ☆

Pick a card reading

Don't second guess yourself when choosing a card. Trust your intuition.

Take what resonates, leave what doesn't.

Masterlist

Moodboard. Dividers.

Pile 1:

Hello my love,

This will be a rather short message because I’d rather speak to you in front of me but without a further ado.

Usually I would give you gifts or kisses instead of writing something down. I’m very quiet but you seem to understand me rather well which was very creepy when we first met. I don’t get that type of understanding and I would presume you understand I can be a misfit. Yes, I am an outcast that apparently found a boyfriend/girlfriend. I appreciate the gesture of you loving me. Thank you very much. It means to me than you will ever know and because I don’t express it well but know I do try to express it but you do understand it well so I don’t worry that much. Um, personally I’m not sure how to express myself that well so this truly sounds like a boring essay, so again I truly apologize for that…I am not THAT formal but my typing seems so. Think of me like Castiel from Supernatural. Have you seen it? I do enjoy the characters quite well. Anyways, when you do read this, I hope you have an excellent day at your work/school/etc. and know that I care for you and love you.

Take care.

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Pile 2:

HI!

It’s been awhile!!! I miss you sweet cheeks, I really do. I miss your laugh and your smile and the way you caress my cheeks. Gah! It makes my heart swirl around like those ice cream machines and then beat fast like those musical box with those puppet and then Boom! Out comes the puppet and it gives you a jump scare! Just like that! But this is a good scare, you know? I like this scare because I know I’m always safe with you and I got nothing to worry about. Just with you I’m always safe which is funny to me because I thought you were so scary when we first meet but nope, I was so incredibly wrong, you’re like an angel in disguise! The perfect angel in disguise, excuse me. How could I forget how absolutely perfect you are to me. Now, don’t tell me no one is perfect, don’t wanna hear that crap coming from your mouth. You know imma be honest honest here.. I mean I am being honest but this is like—it’s like from my heart scared honest you know? I hate when you’re insecure with me because it hurts me when you say lies about yourself that you believe is true but it’s not. Like I’m gonna compliment you like no tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong but it’s just hurts me you know? It hurts because sometimes I feel like you don’t trust my compliments and it just hurts me like a lot. You know? Sigh, sorry you know it’s kind of awkward for me to say but it’s how my heart feels. You know baby, I just hope you understand how much I love ya and how much I crave ya and those kisses you give me…mm mm, can’t get enough out of that. Phew.. it makes me go mad like da joker actually. But I ain’t toxic like the joker, don’t think me like dat, you know?

Your boo

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Pile 3:

Hey,

Lately I’ve been struggling to love myself so our time when we fall for each other or meet will be long. I’m sorry but I’m very insecure right now and I don’t want you to deal with that so I’m just working on myself. I’ve been watching a lot of sad videos too because I think it makes me feel better because I thought it was a comfort, that I’m not alone but I’m starting to think it makes me feel worse. And I also listen to sad music so maybe that’s also a bad combination but I’m just…really…depressed…um yeah. So I just have to fix that and when I get better then I promise we can meet each other. Anyways, I hope I can make you the happiest and most loved person and just see a smile appear on those beautiful and gorgeous/handsome lips of yours.

Take care, bye and love you

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[dreamyysouls]

essays and costumes

hitoshi shinsou x gn!reader (implied fem?)

synopsis: you want to tell your boyfriend about a wonderful idea you have, but he seems to be busy with other things. what do you do in response?

cw: not proofread, i also wrote this at 10 pm ; no caps ; y/n used once ; lmk if i missed something!

“hitoshi.”

“mm.”

“hitoshi. i have an idea.”

“mhm…go on..” your boyfriend stayed put, eyes glued to whatever he was doing on his laptop. the two of you were in your dorm, “studying” together.

“ugh, toshi, pay attention!” you say, waving your hand in front of his face. his eyes jumped quickly to yours and he sighed.

“love, i have an essay due tonight. i promise i’ll listen,” he said offering a smile. you gave him a look of uncertainty, but began speaking.

“okay so…halloween is around the corner and our class is having a party…” you began. he nodded his head, telling you to keeping going while he typed.

“and i was thinking…what if we did a couples costume?” you offer. he pauses.

“mhm. let’s do it.” he says nonchalantly.

“uh, okay, yay! so i was thinking we could do barbie or ken, or rapunzel and flynn, or-“ you halt your sentence, noticing that your boyfriend seems to have locked in again on his schoolwork. you sigh.

“toshi…” words fail you as you don’t know what to do. your eyes trail around your room and all of a sudden an idea hits you.

a smirk forms on your face and you let your eyes linger on hitoshi’s face, waiting for him to look back. at some point he looks up and notices the look you are giving him.

“what?” he asks, a smile forming.

“oh, nothing, just thinking…” you say with a shrug.

“just thinking?” he inches his body slightly closer to yours. perfect.

“yeah, thinking. about life and things.” you reply, moving closer to him.

“what ‘things?’” he says, moving even closer. his laptop has been discarded and placed to his right, expecting this conversation to go some place.

“i don’t know, i can’t remember…” you speak. you and hitoshi are now mere inches apart, lips threatening to connect at any second.

“you want me to help with that?” he whispers, reaching for your cheek. you look to his lips, as if to ask for permission. he looks to yours and you both lean in a little closer. as he begins to pull you in, you snap your head away, as if the “things” came back to mind.

“oh! i remember now! it was this video i saw earlier of a cat!” you say, eagerly. your boyfriend stares at you with his lips parted, now a flustered mess.

“[y/n]…” he speaks, softly. “what was that for?”

“hm? what was what for?” you say, finding a random cat video to finish your bit. “found it!” you shove your phone in his face, avoiding his questions purposefully. he slowly puts his hand onto your arm and pushes it down whilst watching the video.

“don’t play dumb. you know what you did,” he says, a small smirk forming on his lips.

“did what?” you smirk back. “this?” you quickly pull his face to yours, close enough for you to feel his warm breath on your face.

“baby, please…” he groans.

“oh? but i thought you had an essay to finish?” you whisper, your hand reaching to cup his cheek. he pauses for a moment.

“my essay can wait.”

a/n: oh wow my first writing in a while! i finally had some time and just got an idea so be blessed 🙏 also WE NEED MORE SHINSOU FICS!!! PLEASE IM BEGGING!!! maybe i can write more in the future…(?) my requests are open if you want to request anything hitoshi related, but no smut please! anyways have a great night/day and be sure to drink tons of water! thanks for reading <3

#shinsou hitoshi x reader #hitoshi shinsou #bnha x reader #hitoshi shinso x reader #bnha shinso hitoshi #shinsou x reader

[callyluv]

(づ￣ ³￣)づ scaramouche comforting u from stress of school!

Cuddling .・゜゜・

Comfort + pet names; Love, darling

Kissing.・゜゜・

Fluff + mild angst?

Scara x reader

Between scara bbg is ur bf :3 !

If u want more like dis, give me request (≧∇≦)/

You had a tough life, you wanted to please everyone and get the highest grades in ur class. You did, but what was stopping you?... It was ur stress.

School has been making you feel very stressed lately and you wanted to take a break from it and hang out more with ur boyfriend, scaramouche.

Scaramouche was at ur house in ur bedroom with ur head in his lap peacefully relaxing on ur bed.

Scaramouche was the one who made you calm down easily, you enjoyed ur boyfriends presence.

scaramouche was playing with ur hair silently as you rest ur head on his lap. He was also humming a lullaby his mom sang to him when he was a child.

Suddenly you paused him, "Scara, I need to finish my assignments!... I also need to study for the math test, and write a essay on geography-" Scaramouche then paused you and whispered to you. "Shh... It's okay, we can relax here all day. You can do ur studies later. You need a break anyway, love." He gave you a warm comforting smile.

"Hmm, fine. I'll resist this time." Ur worries went all away when he assured you it was okay to take a break once in a while. And maybe he will promise to help you with ur studies next time?

Scaramouche then gave you are soft delicate kiss on the lips. His lips were soft and warm, just how you imagined. "Heh, you make me blush~" You said with a soft tone and a blush on ur cheeks. To scara, you looked so adorable when you blushed because of his words!

"Mm, maybe we should rest for a bit?" Scaramouche looked at you while giving you a head Pat. "Ah, your right. I'm a bit tired-... " You said with a yawn.

Scaramouche then helped you get settled into ur pajamas. You were wearing a loose pink tank top with shorts to match with it.

As you got into bed with scaramouche, you guys cuddled for a bit. He was holding you while you were against his chest in his arms. "Scara... I love you so much.. " You were a bit shy when you confessed that you love him even though you said this plenty of times to him. "I know, I know. But still, I love you too, darling.

And so then you guys fell asleep together while in each other's arms. Who knows? Maybe you guys will be more intimate in the future~..

I hope you enjoyed the scara x reader ヾ(＾-＾)ノ if y want more u can request! <————««

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[blossom-hwa]

I would like to request for the summertime drabble university au Philosophy student taehyun x TA gn reader.

thank you for the request! I hope you don't mind me making the reader TA the class after they both took it together - I didn't feel completely comfortable writing a relationship between a TA and student currently taking the class? regardless, thanks again for the request and I hope you like this!

also sorry if the philosophy major portrayal was off lmao I've only taken one philosophy-adjacent class at uni so far and I did not like it...LOL I don't remember anything from Nicomachean Ethics but I do know it nearly made me die

summertime drabble fest: send me an idol from the list (Stray Kids, Ateez, TXT, Seventeen) + a prompt (check out the post for ideas) and I’ll write a drabble for you!

REQUESTS OPEN!!

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Title: Physics, Philosophy

Pairing: Taehyun x gender neutral!reader

Word count: 1.2k

Genre: fluff, university!au

Warnings: cursing

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"If you keep sitting in on my office hours like this, I'm going to start making you grade shit too."

Taehyun barely looks up from the book he's flipping through, though the little smile on his lips tells you he definitely heard. "I think that would be a breach of the academic code of conduct. Only TAs are supposed to be the ones reading the papers."

You groan, collapsing into a nearby chair in the classroom. "I know," you say, eyeing the pile of essays on the table in front of you with distaste. "But everyone who comes to my office hours already knows you, you’re always here. And you already answer all the questions as well as I do. You should be able to help me grade."

"Not true." He flips a page of his book. Nicomachean Ethics, you read on the cover, and immediately you pull a face. Before you can make a jab at his choice of entertainment, though, he continues. "You're the actual physics major. You know much more about that side than I do, and we both know this course focuses more on the physics than the philosophy."

He's right. Which he usually is, though you don't always like to admit it. You'd only taken this class, Intersections Between Physics and Philosophy, to fulfill the humanities requirement for your graduation—otherwise, your STEM-focused self probably never would have given it a second glance. To your relief, it was as your peers had said—more focused on physics, a little less on philosophy. 

It didn't stop Taehyun, the actual philosophy major (and physics minor, to your chagrin), from acing the class too, however. 

"Says the physics minor, philosophy major." You roll your eyes, but it doesn't carry any bite anymore—you've long gotten past your jealousy at the seeming effortlessness with which Taehyun does everything. "Why are you reading that? Is it for a class?" 

"Yeah, but it's pretty interesting." He finally looks up from the book, and you can see from his eyes that he's actually telling the truth. You don't bother to disguise the half disgust, half fondness that crosses your face, mostly because you know it'll make him smile. "Hey, don't look at me like that."

"You'd be more convincing if you weren't smiling right now," you point out, finally taking one of the stapled essays from the top of the stack on the table. "Three guesses on when the first student asks when we'll finish grading, even though we already posted it on the discussion board."

That actually pulls a laugh out of Taehyun. "Mm, before we get dinner tonight."

"Such a pessimist." You smack his arm with the paper. "Cut them some slack. I give it until Tuesday."

"Optimist." Taehyun scrunches up his nose. "Three guesses on when you'll actually finish grading one of those."

"Hey!" You hit him again as he snickers. "You're the one distracting me!"

"I'm just sitting here!" Taehyun puts his hands up, and you really can't even pretend to be mad at him, not when he looks like this—all impish and mischievous and sweet. "You're using me to distract yourself."

And yet again, he's right. You look at the paper in your hands, then at the stack still lying on the table. Actual despair forces your shoulders to slump as you think of all the reading you'll have to do tonight before and after dinner with Taehyun. Not just paper grading, but also the textbook chapters for your own courses, the notes for the actual physics class you're also TAing. It would be nice to just have one day, you think—one day, for fuck's sake, where you can enjoy your time with him without having to think about all the stuff you have to do before and after. 

"Hey." Taehyun's voice stops you from spiraling further. You glance up as he pulls his chair right next to you, placing Nicomachean Ethics on the table to take your hand instead. "You good?"

Half a smile tilts your lips as you look down at your linked fingers. It's not hard to remember how, for all your initial envy and annoyance at his seeming perfection, you let him in to become a friend, then a boyfriend. Because he's perfect, really. For you. He took the time to learn how to notice when you're thinking too much, when you're overwhelmed. He encouraged you to tell him what you need in these moments, and gave you his vulnerability in exchange for you. 

"Overwhelmed, I guess." You wave the paper in your other hand around halfheartedly. "Kind of scared that when we get back from dinner, I'm going to just freeze. And I won't be able to do any of the stuff I need to do."

Taehyun hums. "Library study date then? After dinner? In one of the quiet rooms, so we can focus."

You sigh a little, and the half smile turns into a full one when you look at him. You're always more productive in the library, especially when it's quiet, but you hate going by yourself. So it always helps when Taehyun comes with you as a quiet sort of boost to your energy. "Stop knowing what I need before I know it myself," you complain, but there's nothing behind it.

"I could say the same for you," he replies, squeezing your hand playfully. "You're the one who brings me coffee every morning we see each other even when I don't think I need it."

"It doesn't take a genius to know you're addicted to your daily cup of caramel flavored death," you snark. And when Taehyun scowls and pinches your wrist lightly in retaliation, you marvel at how easy it is to laugh in his presence—how easy it is to relax, to let go, to push aside your worries for just a moment to smile with him. 

Taehyun sniffs, breaking through your thoughts. "Just for that, you have to grade five of these before we go to dinner," he says, eyes glinting. "Don't complain, you'll thank me—and yourself—later."

He's right. Again. It used to piss you off and it still does, sometimes, but right now you agree even though you don't want to. "Fine," you say, because getting five of these done now means you'll only have to grade five more tonight to keep with the grading schedule. "But if I'm grumpy later, it's your fault."

"Even if you are, it won't be for long." Taehyun grins. "Not with me and my sparkling presence around, at least."

"Tch." For all your efforts, you can't stop a matching smile from spreading over your own lips, so you just hit him with the paper again. "Stop being right, it's incredibly annoying."

Taehyun picks up his own book threateningly. "Not as annoying as I'll be if you keep putting off your grading—"

You yelp and shove your chair away from the menacing pages of Nicomachean Ethics waving about in the air. "God, okay, I'll finish them!" you laugh, picking up four more essays. "Just don't distract me.

Taehyun laughs with you, and the sound sends warm tingles all up your skin as you sit back down. "I would never."

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[tennessoui]

it took so long trying to pick something from how to say someones name like a string of letters (its my favourite of ur fics ive reread it like. Eight times at least) buti ended up going with this one

“I had to write a personal essay to get into my masters program. And I wrote about you.”

They’re just close enough together that Anakin can feel the way Obi-Wan tenses. He always knew how to prepare for the heavy hits. “Oh?”

“Mm,” he hums. “About how you taught me the importance of structural integrity. And that it took a relationship I spent thirteen years building collapsing around me to figure out I couldn’t move through life ignoring weak spots I didn’t want to see. Sometimes homes just...have to fall down. Pretty sure they only accepted me because they felt bad or something, but it was a good essay.”

(from this dvd commentary ask game three months ago im sorry, but basically people sent me passages from my fics for me to give commentary on like what i wanted the passage to do, what the moment means for the fic, what's going on in the characters' heads, why i wrote it, etc etc)

this is from how to say someone's name like it's just a string of letters - which i think is really one of my favorite fics i've written for obikin hands down, like. it's almost not an obikin fic and almost just the author reliving nostalgia and heartbreak upon returning to her hometown for the first time in a while wanting to make things better but knowing she cannot BUT these characters can and getting catharsis from their reunion and reconciliation lol who said that

this passage is a great one to pick because i love the way they are in this moment....anakin wants to hurt obi-wan still, he sees him sitting next to him and needs to hurt obi-wan. what he tells obi-wan is mean and cruel and he knows it--he wants all of it to hurt when it hits him, anakin is searching for something he can hit obi-wan with that he'll never see coming and that he'll never recover from, because that's how anakin has felt for the last fifteen years.

but he's also being very honest here-- it's just weaponized honesty. what he's telling obi-wan is a bit 'i went on to get my masters, and i know you didn't go to get a bachelors and that's a sore spot for you i want to press until you bleed like you made me bleed' but it's mostly 'i have spent years analyzing our relationship and i found these weaknesses that i'm telling myself i ignored when i was younger. we were never ever going to be able to make it. we were never ever going to survive'

and he doesn't actually even really believe it's true, but he wants obi-wan to believe it's true and he's convinced himself he believes this too.

but it's just meant to hurt obi-wan because anakin is hurting, and it does! it forces obi-wan into his confession too: that he writes about anakin, which is mostly indicative of him still loving and thinking of anakin, but it's obi-wan offering up his secret identity/pen name to anakin as a "this was always for you a little bit, i have been reliving our relationship, even the weak points, while you watched us burn" sort of thing

#asks #obikin #this got so long im sorry #just the dichotomy of them in the beginning of that fic #and the middle even #before the truth comes out #i love it #i love anakin being so hurt he wants to hurt obi-wan while also pretending he's fine #i love obi-wan ready to acceptt every blow

[zeloinator]

Get to know me~

Hi! I'm Zeeara, I also go by Zee but that gets confusing cause I named my FFXIV character after my nickname XD

I was tagged by @wisismydumpstat thank you so much for the tag!!

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Last song: Mm I'm counting P12's music cause thats a bop and what I was progging earlier! If not its Beethoven's 9th Symphony I listen to it so much cause its one of those songs that I can always write to~

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Currently reading: I'm at the last few pages of House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski and it has fundamentally changed me as a human being! I also am about midway through Legendborn by Tracy Deonn as my more relaxed read compared to House of Leaves~

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Currently watching: Because of how my chronic pain has been I've been rewatching a lot of my 'comfort video essays', but mostly NezumiVA's videos on Ace Attorney cause I love her voice acting and I love Ace Attorney~ Also the new season of Futurama is being released weekly so I'm watching that too!

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Current obsession: Oh god so many things, I've been so so obsessed with working on my novel/writing stuff as much as I can! Gpose as also grabbed ahold of my throat and now I just love it so much~ FFXIV has been a current obsession for over 5 years now and truly doesn't plan to let me go lol~ Zee Zalinos my WoL oc also has been flourishing in lore and thats been so so exciting and now with the new haircut I feel like so much of her Look is finalized!! Also I've fallen in love with so so many of the FFXIV mutuals and the community in general! (always feel free to send asks about anything ^^ I may take a bit but I do try and get to every ask~ and I appreciate and love every one I get!)

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Tagging: @lizzy-calaxio @dreadwyrmz @spaceace144 @designers-reflection @dongfangqingcang @themadchemist @duskmother @yorha-no-2-type-b @mxkokopuff @tevildoinjuly @starforger @bahoreal @fantasmagoriam @lamouratorrrrry @anomaliewrites

I know I'm forgetting people >.< I'm so so sorry, but if you'd like to do this just tag me as the one who tagged you ;) <3 <3

#zeeara talks #thank you so so much for the tag!

[distort-opia]

I see a lot of people say they don't want Joker to be important in The Batman sequels, that they're sick of Joker, etc. but is it just me or do people kind of overstate how ubiquitous Joker is in Batman adaptions? He appears in most of them yeah but that's to be expected when he's Batman's archnemesis. There are some where he doesn't show up, or if he does, isn't necessarily the main/only focus of the villains. The only time I can think of where it got egregious was in the Arkham games, but even then other villains still got a good deal of attention. Or do most of the people making these complaints just not like Joker in general?

Mm, no, I would agree Joker isn't as ubiquitous as he's made out to be in Batman media. However, I do agree with the complaints regarding him to an extent. I'd say it's less about how often he shows up and more about how he does it. Him showing up frequently should be a consequence of him being crucially important. Whether people like it or not, Joker is essential to Batman, that's impossible to dispute -- as you said, he's Batman's archnemesis. But there is a difference between writing a good Joker story and just... sticking Joker in one because he's a popular, titular character.

For instance, in the current Batman run they had Joker be the one who hired Deathstroke to kill Robin way back in the day, and I rolled my eyes so hard. They shove Joker in whenever they're in need of a Plot Twist (aha, it was Joker all along!) or when they have something horrible happen, because of course Joker would do that, he's deranged! Even if the act itself is not in character for Joker. He's come to be used as a plot device when writers don't know what villain to pull out of the hat, and it wouldn't annoy me as much if it were well-written. But instead of trying to fit the story within Joker's core characterization, his personality tends to get rewritten a lot, in order for the writer to tell the story they want. That's how you get... one-dimensional, shallow, typical serial killer and not-actually-funny Joker. So I get how this might make people feel Joker shows up too much, because a lot of the time he's not showing up in the right way, and it becomes grating. I love Joker, but even I am torn between watching his character get skewered vs. not reading about him at all.

Plus, something to keep in mind is the fact that a lot more people watch movies, and not nearly as much read comics. For many fans, the contact they've had with Joker has been through live-action films, and The Dark Knight (2008) especially. Ledger's iconic performance forever influenced what came after. Every attempt at playing Joker since then has had elements from it, and this after Joker got turned into a mascot for dudebros who watched TDK and thought "I'm an agent of chaos" is all there was to him. So many people associate Joker with this "We live in a society" kind of message now -- which Joker (2019) played into heavily, creating a completely different version of him -- when Joker in the comics is so much more than that. It's actually baffling to me how Joker, such a heavily queer-coded character (even within TDK) came to represent toxic masculinity for a lot of people. This, I would say, is another big reason why Joker has become so hated. People have heard of Joker inspiring a shooter to go into a theater and unload a gun into the audience, they've heard about Leto sending dead rats to his colleagues, they've seen all the toxic mysoginist 'alpha' males with Joker posters in their room, and they've landed on this horrid image of him. Which does annoy me to no end, because that's not who Joker is. Joker isn't about wanton destruction, the same way Batman isn't about mindless vengeance. But that's an essay for another day.

Also... it's become a bit of a trend in the last five years, especially on Tumblr and Twitter; to complain about Joker's every appearance, to wish for Batman to kill him or for Joker to disappear entirely, etc. Obviously not saying there aren't people who genuinely dislike Joker (and that's their prerogative), but there's a bit of a 'getting woke points' aspect to this more recent wave of hatred, which has become more prevalent right now for villains in general. Hating on Joker is an easy way to show your moral superiority -- after all, he did so many horrible things. And it's tough to even introduce nuance in a discussion about Joker with people like this, who only view the world in black and white, because they do not seek to understand. The goal, conscious or not, is more the performance a 'pure' moral stance so that they feel good about themselves, and so others flock to agree with them (which in turn makes the commentators feel good about themselves, and on it goes).

Sorry, anon, this got way longer than I expected :)) In the end, this Joker fatigue many DC fans are having right now is influenced by many factors, and it’s such a pity. When done right, Joker can be an absolute delight.

#oh the unattainable dream of getting a comic accurate Joker in a live action adaptation #sigh #dc hire me you cowards #asks #batman #joker #joker meta #batman meta #my meta

[arecaceae175]

Hi :)

Daily Clicks For Palestine

Call me Ace, xe/xem/xyr/xyrs/xyrself

(pronouns page) (guide to neopronouns)

🖤🤍💜 💚🤍🖤 🖤🤍💚🤍🖤

I'm Arecaceae on AO3. I also have a writing account @acewrites175 if you just want to see my writing stuff and not everything else

For any new LU fans, I made an LU Character Guide that you can find here!

PSA most of my posts are queued so I’m not always online when posts appear. My queue is always full so posts are scheduled like 20 days out 😂😭

You can support me on ko-fi if you want :D

Loft stim board, Wake stim board

I have another account @lu-novelization where I do image descriptions and novelizations to try to help Linked Universe be accessible to people with low vision! It is very much work in progress.

[Header ID: Image from the Linked Universe comic (@linkeduniverse). They are in the woods and there are fairies floating around the group. All 9 Links are walking away from the viewer, most with their backs turned. Legend is looking back and barely smiling at Warriors. Wild has his hands on his hood, like he just pulled it over his head. Four is looking back at the Links behind him. End ID.]

[Icon ID: drawing by @wolfy1298 of Linked Universe Sky in a cutesy animated art style. He is smiling up at the camera with his eyes closed and his sailcloth (white cloth) is wrapped around his body like a cape. There are sparkles surrounding his head. In the bottom, the words say “would fist fight god.” End ID.]

My content:

Last Updated: March 17, 2024

LoZ Game List: (hours played in parentheses)

Currently playing (2/22): Ocarina of Time, Triforce Heroes

Beaten (6/22): Breath of the Wild (485), Skyward Sword (90), Minish Cap (30), Link’s Awakening (20), Tears of the Kingdom (265), Twilight Princess (80)

Played a significant amount of (2/22): Wind Waker, Majora’s Mask

Not started (11/22): Legend of Zelda, Legend of Zelda II, Oracle of Seasons, Oracle of Ages, Four Swords, Four Swords Adventures, Phantom Hourglass, Spirit Tracks, A Link to the Past, A Link Between Worlds, Hyrule Warriors, Hyrule Warriors: Age of Calamity

Played Games Ranked: BOTW, SS, , MC, TOTK, TP, MM, WW, TFH, LA, OOT

LU Analysis Posts

Tag: #ace’s lu analysis

Autistic LU chain headcannons

Smiling Compilation: use tag #smiling compilation - update link

Dawn 1:

Warriors and Wild analysis and why they're missing

Teaser update:

What is going on update analysis

Sunset 14:

Warriors character analysis throughout the Sunset Arc

Sunset 13:

Four & Wild character and plot analysis

Legend character analysis

Bonus Links Analysis Posts

Tag: #ace’s bl analysis

Most of these posts are analysis of comic updates that I put in the reblogs of the update

I love loft essay: part 1 here

Prompt Fill Events

2023 Whumptober and Flufftober info here :D

Febuwhump 2023 prompt fills: (30/30) Lu drabbles for febuwhump 2023

Febuwhump 2023 favs: Flinching (Time), Forced to Hurt a Loved One (Warriors & Time), "That's gonna scar" (Wild), Knife to the Throat (Warriors),

Whumptober 2022 prompt fills: (31/31) LU drabbles for whumptober 2022

Whumotober 2022 favs: Shaking Hands, Silent Panic Attack (Warriors), Cornered (Twilight), Adrenaline Crash (Time), Repeatedly Passing Out, Head Lolling (Time & Warriors), Take My Coat (Time & Wind), Screams From Across the Hall (Legend, Four, and Time)

Linked Universe Long Stories

Authenticity: (24/?) Wild POV, Autistic Wild because I'm autistic and he's my comfort character

Summary: Wild knew he was… odd. He experienced the world differently than everyone else. No one seemed to feel as deeply as he did, about the things he did. Sometimes he would interact with people and it would just feel… off. It was as if everyone else had a rulebook on how to be a person but Wild was left watching and guessing.

And the thing is, Wild knew his friends knew it too. But these new friends, they were different. They didn’t treat him like he was different, or broken, or a burden. They just took him in stride. Wild didn’t know how to put into words how much that meant to him.

In which Wild is autistic because I’m autistic and I want him to be.

Gratitude: (3/9) Sky fluff!

Summary: 8 times Sky receives a gratitude crystal from the chain + 1 time he gives some away.

In Defense of Honor: (4/9) Badass Sky appreciation, Sky-centric with individual chapters for the others

Summary: 8 times Sky defends another member of the chain + 1 time they all defend him.

Only the Wild Ones (are the ones you can never catch): (5/5) Wild & Twilight centric Wild meets the chain

Summary: At 6, Link visits Castle Town for the first time and meets some strange men in the woods. At 12, Link pulls the Master Sword and sees his imaginary friends again. At 14, Link is appointed as the Princess’s personal guard and is grateful to have old friends on his side. At 16, the Calamity strikes, and Link has never felt more alone. At 16, Link dies.

At 117, Link defeats evil incarnate and saves Hyrule. At 117, Link meets eight peculiar heroes for the first time. Or, at least, what he believes is the first time.

Twilight thinks the Goddess Hylia has a cruel sense of humor and needs to leave his cub alone.

Favorite LU Oneshots

Sentiment: Warriors and Time have a disagreement. AKA two traumatized heroes don’t know how to handle emotions and then they try to have a healthy conversation about it

Delirium: Sky’s whittling slowed, hands lowering into his lap. His gaze was locked on Wild, as it had been for most of the afternoon. Wild wouldn’t stop twitching. Sky couldn’t figure out why. Based on kikker-oma’s art.

Welcome Home: The chain arrives at Lon Lon Ranch, and Malon’s words trigger a memory.

Bouquet: Wind, Wild, and Hyrule are planning a prank. They're quite obvious about it, but Time lets it happen anyway.

Find all my oneshots for LU on my AO3 here!

Heroes Spirit Fanfic

Space Bugs: Bugs In Space: (1/1)

Summary: Cori teaches Eras how to identify insects. Space AU.

Swamp Bugs: Bugs Not In Space And Not Quite On Land: (1/1)

Summary: Cori takes Sky, Twilight, and Sailor to look for bugs. Tensions are high.

Land Bugs: Bugs Not In Space: (1/1)

Summary: Cori and Agitha lead the second official meeting of the Bug Squad.

Bonus Links Fanfic

Loft Gets To Have One (1) Nice Day: (1/1)

Summary: Loft and the very good extremely nice day. Featuring Groose, Zelda, and a board game.

On Our Best Behavior: (14/14) (3,002 words)

Summary: Short Bonus Links Prompt Fills for Flufftober 2023.

Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom Fanfic:

Affection: (6/6) BOTW

Summary: Five times others make assumptions about Link and Zelda plus one time they figure out what their relationship means to them. Or, Link and Zelda in a QPR.

More: (1/1) BOTW

Summary: Link and Zelda bond over flames and Zelda has a lot of feelings about it.

Speaking to the Wind: (1/1) TOTK

Summary: Link updates Zelda on his progress. She isn’t there to respond. AKA Link is lonely and is having a lot of big feelings.

Falling Through the Air: (1/1) TOTK

Summary: Link discovers her.

Skyward Sword Fanfic

Shapes in the Clouds: (1/1) GrooZeLink fluff

Summary: Groose finds Link looking at the clouds.

Tags

#ace writes : my stories

#ace’s lu analysis : my LU analysis posts

#ace's bl analysis : my bonus links analysis posts and my thoughts on the updates

#art for my fic : amazing art based on my writing!

#three sentence prompt : ask game where you submit a word and I write three sentences of a fic based on it (it’s always longer than three sentences)

#lu incorrect quotes : instead of studying for finals I created over 100 incorrect quotes for LU XD they can be found under this tag

#authenticity : my autistic Wild story

#idoh : tag for my story In Defense of Honor

#gratitide : tag for the gratitude crystal story

#autistic chain : all my LU autism stuff

#ace has polls : my polls. They’re fun

#good art : reblogs of art I really really like (also artists I reblog from a lot each have their own art tag - it’s “artistname art”)

#lu fic recs : other people’s fics I really really like

#the lu boyos : stuff with all the links (boyos is gender neutral lol)

#self care : unrelated to LU usually. Just general self care tips!

#Zelda!!! : my cat

#ace writes #ace's lu analysis #ace's bl analysis #ace’s art #ace has polls #lu incorrect quotes #authenticity #idoh #gratitude #three sentence prompt #smiling compilation #febuwhump2023 #whumptober2023 #poll result mini fic #my favs #the lu boyos #hnghhhhhh #wolfy1298 art #good art #ace’s asks #ace's ask games #sky with POTS #Zelda!!! #art for my fic #a gift! #lu fic recs

[atherix]

sending you an ask via irl (sorta) while I wait to be free of work so I can read the new updates

(Transcript:

Dearest Atherix,

I hope you are doing well on this fine morning. This letter is coming to you from my local lecture hall, full of uncomfortable seats and people who know way more about this subject than I do. I am writing to you both out of boredom and also due to the fact that I saw that you posted more chapters this morning. I haven't even had time to recover from the previous chapters and yet I anxiously await a break in my day so I can read the new ones. Even though I suffer when the blorbos suffer, I still thoroughly enjoy every new update. Thank you for sharing this lovely story with all of us. I hope you have a wonderful rest of the day.

All the best,

Em.)

EM I'M WHEEZING this is amazing thank you so much. This is delightful, it has made my whole day. Thank you for reading and enjoying, I hope I'm not distracting you from the lecture too much!!

Also your handwriting :o When I write in cursive you need a decoder ring and a prayer circle to read it, yours is so clear! It makes me feel like I have just received a letter from across the sea and am reading it by candlelight.

I would have responded in kind but again, my cursive is.... well. Mm. Let's just say my English teachers in high school sent me to the computer lab for essays <3

#ask #Midnight Series #this is amazing thank you for sending me this letter #beautifully written #excellent handwriting

[journalsouppe]

Here’s my second ever journal entry and another one of my favorite games! After this entry, I started transitioning to more commentary and longer summaries but I’d always love to play the 3DS OOT and MM games and make new journal entries.

I have so much love for both Ocarina and Majora’s, the only other Zelda game that stands with them so close to my heart is Breath of the Wild. I love the Zelda series but these games in particular have done so much for me.

I also want to say I think it’s unfair to pit the girlies (Ocarina and Majora’s) against each other. I think you can absolutely like one more than the other, but neither would be as amazing without the other. Ocarina can absolutely stand by itself, but the reason it’s so impactful is BECAUSE you get to see how traumatizing the events of Ocarina were in Majora’s Mask. Not many Zelda games have a sequel, which means were rarely get to see the aftermath of the events from the series. Majora’s Mask also gave double meaning to a lot of things in Ocarina such as the Happy Mask Salesman and the enemies. How the more terrifying it is to encounter Gibdos in Ocarina after learning about the curse in Majora’s.

Truly a superb game, and as it should be bc we share the same birth year!!! Ugh I could go on forever just to add more notes and comments about this game but I will save that for a future journal entry or essay.

Writing typed below!

Rating: 9.7/10 Watched: Spr 2022 (Keith Ballard, OG on WiiU port)

Comments:

Skull Kid is such a great enemy, I love his story

BIG SWORD

I love the different swords since Link can't use the Master Sword

The origins of Tingle

WTF IS MAJORAS WRATH AND INCARNATION

Why do the fairies look like this...

Boogie Woogie

Schafrillas has a great analysis video

Summary: Although some of the mechanics are clunky, it has one of my favorite stories and overall game mechanics (3 day time loop). It is so rich in telling a story for each townsperson while showing Link's selflessness despite his devastation. It is quite a tragic tale. Link has gained the strongest power imaginable but he still doesn't have his best friend. My heart goes out to Link and his tragic heroism.

#bullet journal #journal #journalsouppe #video games #tloz #loz #the legend of Zelda #legend of Zelda #Majora’s mask #majoras mask #skull kid #Zelda journal

[a-d-nox]

Congrats on reaching 2K! You deserve it!

Here is my ask for the celebrate with dessert game. Thank you in advance! Hopefully I’m doing this right 😅

MM 🍦 What should I write my college essay about? -OR- Any advice for my senior year of high school and freshman year of college. (You can pick which question to answer)

Question for you: what are your favorite astrological placements in general and/or about your own chart?

dessert no. 9

thank you!! so happy you all are here!!

for you college essay, i got the dinosaur rx! my deck is pointing out that what you should write about is obvious to you though you fear it lacks imagination. it might have to do with a new friendship or an unusual connection you have to someone. also with the dinosaur, you could write about how finite life is, brevity of a moment, comfortability with a school environment, positivity and friendliness, etc.

for advice for your senior year, i got the rooster. set an alarm in the morning - set multiple alarms lol. you are going to want to be consistent and on time this final year - i get the feeling your first class teacher might not be someone who messes around - you miss what you miss type of vibes. ALSO get started early on your work; senioritis is real - don't get lax now!

and advice for your freshman year: the inkwell rx. it's time to start over all over again - i get the sense that perhaps high school was not the best time for you - you might experience stress with college where getting to know others and finding what you want to do out is involved. you might not start out as you would like too - its alright to transfer schools, start at a community college, take a gap semester or year - none of that matters, it's not highschool anymore. you rarely see/know everyone you graduate with, so it doesn't matter how long you take to get your degree or how you start. as long as you do indeed start. don't be intimidated by the unknown - no one knows exactly what it is they are doing. we are all metaphorically building our own airplanes in the sky.

a.d.

#astrology #astro community #astro placements #astro chart #asteroid astrology #asteroid #natal chart #persona chart #greek mythology #astrology tumblr #tarot cards #tarotcommunity #tarot deck #tarotdaily #free tarot #rider waite tarot #green glyphs oracle #oracle cards

[thesalemwitchtries]

Welcome, stay a while

This is a shoes off household, so please leave your crocs by the door

Hello, my name is Salem, I also go by Slim. She/they pronouns. The header photo is mine, I took it at a ski resort near where I live.

I can also be found on AO3 as 5alemwitchtries

Currently working on:

Dreaming of A Grave, a Matt Murdock x Reader fic

Chapter 6 coming soon (very soon)

Blog Info:

I'm new to fic writing, and newer to posting. Outside of this I write prose for a school journal and essays for a collection that I'd like to publish. I might post snippets here now and then, idk yet.

For now I'm just looking to post a Matt Murdock fic that's been bouncing around in my brain, I'm not taking requests due to my already poor time management and lack of confidence in that area, but I do like to talk about ideas or receive feedback, so feel free to reach out and chat in whatever way you'd like!

Minors please do not interact, I will block. I don't post my own smut, but I reblog as I wish, so please stay off of my blog. This also goes for racists, homophobes, and terfs.

Navigation:

#slim ficc - for any fic of mine

#slim speaks - where you can find my replies and chit chat

#slim's pickins - fic recs and also things that I like in general

#fic recs - fic recs, there are also variants that include the specific character or fandom, like mm for daredevil, or tgm for top gun

#that's so slim - either things about me or that I relate to

#doag or #dreaming of a grave - where you can find chapters of doag, if links don't work

#navigation post #slim speaks #slim's pickins #that's so slim #slim ficc #fic recs #mm fic recs #tgm fic rec

[secret-strawberry]

tagged by @palewhitehorse to do these! thank you!!

What book are you currently reading? like 3 at once that I got for Christmas but mostly The Gun Seller by Hugh Laurie. it's a comedy spy novel which doesn't sound like a genre i'd be into but so far i am enjoying myself a lot i think it's hilarious lol

What’s your favorite movie you saw in theaters this year? this has made me realize that i don't think i saw any movies in the theatre this year?? what??? well. i've been watching the Scream movies for the first time at home and i like them!

What do you usually wear? i'd say a hoodie and jeans is my go-to

How tall are you? 5'6!

What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event? virgo; i was born the day hurricane katrina started

Do you go by your name or a nick-name? i use L online now which my discord friends call me sometimes. yes i got it from death note but I like it as a second name because it's very gender

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child? i wouldn't say i'm completely grown up yet but no, my plans have changed quite a bit from when I wanted to be a pediatrician. i want to be a psychologist now :)

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one? nope! i had a crush on this guy a while ago after we talked for like an hour while waiting in the airport but it left once i realized i didn't actually know much about him- i think my mind constructed someone to fixate on because it was bored 💀

What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at? i'm going to half-copy vi and say i'm good at editing prose/writing essays but i'm horrible at following through with projects due to losing interest/motivation </3

Dogs or cats? in theory, cats, but i've never had one so i couldn't say if i'd end up preferring that to dog ownership

If you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favorite picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you created this year? hmmm. i like this line from my poem "On Love that will Outlive Me" about a girl who takes on the ocean as her (metaphorical?) lover: "I suppose I was selfish in choosing you. When I'm gone, I will not feel the loss of it." But I don't really have favorite lines individually; usually what I'm most proud of is a paragraph of nice description or a piece that ties up a theme neatly. My favorite piece I did this year (technically still a WIP but) is a short story called "Someone Still Loves You" because it explores the concept of community grief.

What’s something you would like to create content for? as you can probably tell by my ao3 lol i love writing for light and L because their relationship is so weird that it's fun to explore. also, i feel comfortable with their characters because i know them well (or i like to think i do)-- so any franchise that matches those two qualifiers i would love to dive into as well (house md, for example!)

What’s something you’re currently obsessed with? sherlock holmes is my current fixation; it's not as intense as my House M.D phase but lately I've been really interested in reading all of the original stories and watching CBS' Elementary. i think i'll probably do Columbo next.

What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year? i'm not sure, i guess my birthday? i didn't end up celebrating because it was right around the time that 2 of my close friends moved away and i had to cut off another one ,,, yikes

What’s a hidden talent of yours? not sure if this qualifies as a talent but people always seem shocked when they find out i know American Sign Language (HUGE hyperfixation during middle school, i went through 5 courses online and self-taught)

Are you religious? not anymore!

What’s something you wish to have at this moment? mm peaches (i'm playing animal crossing)

these questions were great :D i'm going to tag @ceeingstars, @bemorekleinman, @akireu-13, @mxoreo, and @random-blep if y'all feel like doing this, but no pressure!

#speaking into the ether

[starvels]

Thoughts on the blindspot that Steve can get, where he has a hard time seeing that Tony is having a hard time. And if it’s because of wishful thinking, stubborn refusal to accept the reason Tony isn’t doing well, situational blindness, or a flat out denial, does them getting together actually fix it? Or is Steve’s willingness to take Tony at his word and Tony’s tendency to downplay any troubles he’s having continue the habit?

mm this is some good thinky thoughting, my nonny nectarine. here are my thoughts, coming from the background of: i know and love someone i would say is quite like how i characterize steve - in anger and in belief in other folks and in tenacity to a moral stance or cause.

steve is complex and thinks he's not.

so as a short answer to your question, it's a mix of a lot of things, i think, yeah! most of the things you listed! his brain works very fast and his emotions come to him a month and a half too late. (tony's brain and emotions work at the same speed. chaos, my poor meow meow, etc), so there's always steve being like, you're my partner, we're in this together, look how good we are doing in the team, in small moments, etc. he's headstrong and narrowly focused when on a mission, professional or otherwise.

not to quote myself but, he doesn't recognize how wildly he swings to balance his own beliefs.

i don't know that canonically we are still at 'steve's willingness to take tony at his word,' because i think there's been a lot of doubting it and like all relationships, the amount you're willing to take someone's word really does depend on their consistency and reliability in the most pertinent past.

but steve does accept generally take tony's word and tony does generally downplay his troubles.

why?

bc i think sometimes it genuinely doesn't occur to steve that tony is doing unwell lol. i think steve wants to believe in the best in tony, even when he doesn't, he wants to. he's very unbiased about this guy, has too many pent up thoughts and lifetimes of history and that colors his ability to objectively be like is it logical that tony is doing good rn?

and tony puts up a good front and steve's hypocritical enough to be like?? 'why would you put up a front if you feel bad, just be honest.' and when tony is like 'i don't know' it means, last time i tried to tell you i wasn't doing well it came out all garbled because i wanted to choke the words out of my own throat for having the weakness to try and speak them and also you didn't want to hear it, you think the world should have the knees you do - to get up and get up and get up but not everyone has knees and not everyone lives on stable ground.

so i think tony says that he's doing okay, NOT in a lying sense (it's not really lying to him! i could write an essay on this) but in a HOPEFUL sense. in a - if steve believes in me and believes me here maybe i can channel that belief and i can then make that a reality, i can be that, be okay, i'm good at turning dreams into circuit boards, i'm good at routing my energy, right, right?

and steve actually believes him on almost the same level - i want to believe him, i want him to do well, the world is such a better place for the goodness of tony stark, my world is such a better place, he's strong i know he is, he knows i hate lying, he likes being believed in by me, i should believe him, i know him, he's surely doing well, right, right?

which is literally the same coin.

(sidenote for steve also has a lot of fucked up internalizations about ableism and labor capacity and work ethic and mental health and PTSD. he's often projecting because it's his ~defense mechanism)

but yeah, real eyes realize real lies ! steve and tony's problems aren't as a result of them being too dissimilar, it's as a result of them being too similar!

this would not change with them being in a relationship together, because being in a romantic relationship only strengthens the ways in which you want your partner to be well, to succeed and to be honest with you in the doing of it. but i do think if they were entering the relationship genuinely looking for it to last it would become evident quickly that they can't do that without working on their similar, burning instinct to give each other what want. and they would genuinely have to face the ways in which that instinct leads to their own individual and their combined detriment.

i wrote a line about it in are we satellites? that i always always think about:

Their problems have always been here, not in the ocean breaks where their lives and loves and morals meet up, but in the shore tide where tiny difference in their density intensities build them to choking foam.

the ocean is the ocean, even at different densities, but when the ocean meets the earth, how it behaves is entirely different - particle to particle, even as it stays strong and salty.

#stevetony #our talk #616 #steve rogers #tony stark #character talk #ask cleanout

[sparksnevadas]

I've feeling so many emotions. They're all so relationship constipated god bless em. When mumbo and grian were joking about their single braincell ping-ponging between each other when they're hanging out all i could think of was "no its pingponging between every single person in this building." none of them know how to interact with each other god. It's like watching several unsocialized chihuahuas trying to have a friendly interaction. Mwah. Exactly what I wanted from a GIHASM update

And the Pearl and Grian interactions are so good. Sibling stamp of approval frankly. They torment each other so much it's so good. I love them so much. Wriggling my fingers in the taste of a plan we got, but I do love a good Rebellion Against An Organization. Mmm mm mmm

God they're all so cute when their braincells are and arent functioning. Grian I am holding your face. Why are you so dumb. God. I. I'm knocking Mumscarian's heads together like sacks of potatoes being moved on the back of an old farm truck, tbh. Maybe eventually that braincell will start triangulating.

'dont teach the child about crime' is certainly a sentence being said I love them so much. Also, do teach the child about crime, actually. Grumbot deserves a little crime, as a treat.

Its all the little details that make me love GIHASM so much. Mumbo Jumbo flubbering his words and going for 'time-clingy-. Scar passing off all his bell peppers. The medicinal muscle salve. How Bdubs using his vines to gesture. Ahhh its so good. The worldbuilding spice of life.

Also that whole interaction w Bdubs and Grian in the Kitchen im - bdubs I will SQUASH you excuse you. You leave my bird chicken man alone. We are so close. We are SO close. Bdubs I swear. I love that Scar swoops in to save the day though just. Bdubs you are like a bug I am putting inside a cup, pray I poke air holes mister.

I love that Etho is long suffering but I just also love etho. 😍 My long suffering nincompoop. I don't think plan is technically in Scar's vocabulary. Also that whole scene where Grian lifts Scar up with ease is everything to me. It's so funny.

God the CHARACTER INTERACTIONS. the way the entire infirmary scene parallels the opening where Grian leaves to now, where Mumbo is basically confirming he wants him to stay. I am feeling so soft about them. I love them so much. AH

BELLE OH MY GOSH!! I wasnt expecting an actual ESSAY in my inbox after you read the update!! but im so grateful!!

"none of them know how to interact with each other" i mean... YEAH, grian doesn't even know how to interact with his own feelings. hopefully not too annoying to read, but either way... we're nearing the point were grian has to confront himself head on ; )

the pearl and grian scene is my baby,,, that's the oldest part of this new chapter, probably done in late october. I wanted them to feel authentically sibling like and also i had just started watching pearl more often so i had a good grasp on her voice! I'm glad it didn't lose its spark (heh) after so much editing around it. I was so excited to finally write her beyond a few sparse lines

they are idiots. / affectionate

Grumbot can and will commit voter fraud and get Mumbo elected, please don't teach him about crime belle, please-

time clingy my belobed,,, I love making all of them sound and look silly. theatre of the mind and all that :D

THE KITCHEN SCENE. okay this is the part that was the hardest for me to write but grian needed to confront the fact that he can literally leave whenever he wants but he hasn't even thought about it. like hello? (grian if you werent in love how could anyone justify staying that long, sleeping in the same room, CUDDLING--) bdubs apologizes after so please poke holes and give him a bottlecap of water belle im sorry orz

grian lifting scar up was funny. I literally wrote it, thought "this might be too silly" (and also as an ace/aro spec i dont really see the appeal of getting lifted but i like doing it to others to be silly) and sent it to you/atherix and a friend (Ash) and all three of you loved it. A genuine stamp of approval in my eyes hehe

I love parallels :)

Thank you so much for the ask/comment Belle!!! <3

#its belle! #gihasm #talking to friends