#mine meta text post

[beaulesbian]

Every once in a while I think again about the end of Thriller Bark and feel completely insane and ill about Zoro's sacrifice, FOR LUFFY, specifically (you know, the character Kuma's threat was directed at). It wasn't even that long into traveling together, a few months maybe, yet Zoro was ready to give up everything in that moment - in the chapter with Kuma appearing being titled The End of the Dream ! - to protect his crew and Luffy, so he could continue in his journey.

Since Luffy and Zoro met, they always understand how words and promises were imporant to them - with Luffy punching Helmeppo in ch. 3 for lying to Zoro. Zoro learnt how serious Luffy was about his dream, and soon he realized he backed up his words with actions as well - untiying Zoro and giving him his swords back - his biggest treasures. It meant that Zoro could be honest and honor-bound in the same way to Luffy, to gain this mutual respect and trust between them since day 1. To wield his swords to protect both Luffy and later their whole crew, and to step in a way between Luffy and danger.

He was being actually more upset that Sanji got up from the previous Kuma's attack and interrupted their fight - Zoro was trying to keep the whole crew safe by this exchange for Luffy's head - if Sanji was offering his life for Luffy half dead and without much strength left to fight for himself (he started the offering of his own life already believing he woudn't survive, with a "you should find a new cook"), then this very specific sacrifice would be meaningless to the crew (- if this arc was taking place post WCI, then it would turn out very differently, with the strength of Sanji believing in Luffy, but it wasn't his moment during this scene) - it would hurt them more than help them, because as much as Zoro was prepared to die as well, he was prepared to keep fighting until the last breath.

Zoro was thinking he might die - Kuma's words were pretty certain he WOULD die - but he still had the willingness and strength to take on the deal for Luffy, for his captain and his crew. ("if i die here, it just means I wasn't worth much to begin with" this line he says times and times again during the overall story, like in Rogue Town throwing Kitetsu and waiting if it would cut off his arm, up until standing against King in Wano "it's my power that was lacking", and all the other times he was questioning his worth - it's something he tempts the fates he doesn't believe in, to actually harm him, to take his strength away if he doesn't deserve to survive. and it's him saying he knows and accepts his own weaknesses - of not being strong enough (in comparison to Sanji in this example), and always fights through them.)

He threw away his swords, including Wado Ichimonji - literally throwing aside his and Kuina's dream, to compell Kuma into a duel (with the anime playing 'The Very Very Very Strongest' when Zoro bowed down and pleaded Kuma, offering him his head instead of Luffy's) so Kuma wouldn't go after the crew and specifically Luffy later - no matter the outcome if Zoro would surive or not.

And then, he was actually strong enough to survive taking his captain's fatigue, agony and pain! Possibly being the only one who could survive taking Luffy's pain.

Zoro could have back out when Kuma offered him the 'taste' of the pain, with the realization of the scale of the hurt with the very possibility of dying from it. But that wouldn't be Zoro now, would it? He accepted and took all of Luffy's pain so his captain wouldn't have to suffer or die, and when they found him afterwards, he still kept standing, tense with the fatigue but alive! (again, with anime adding the music of 'Luffy's Fierce Attack' to underline the importance between these two).

He was training for this since the beginning - to become stronger to shoulder the pain of his crew if necessary. (And not only that - he was preparing for that so another Kuina incident didn't have to happen). He was the first one to fight one of the Warlords before anything really began: his fight with Mihawk at Baratie really set the tone and his own goals to overcome - a glimpse to see on how much different levels the Warlords actually were in comparison to Zoro, Luffy and the others, and if they were supposed to beat them so Luffy could become the Pirate King, that always meant to be ready and to get even stronger than them.

(small spoiler for egghead, ch. 1102: seeing Kuma (a Warlord at that time) remembering this Thriller Bark event later, during Egghead arc, and thinking that even he might have passed out from the pain, makes it all the more meaningful that it was Zoro who took the pain and withstood it - establishing how high was the strength of his willpower, already before timeskip.)

There could be so many other nuances and details from these last few chapters of this arc, and even what this deal meant for the following arcs! Zoro was still in pain on Sabaody, and because of that the crew wasn't as strong as it could have been (not to say they would have a chance anyway, knowing what all was in the motion).

The next is the tragedy and beauty of LUFFY never finding out about this. Half of the crew knew: Sanji, Brook and Robin knew the details, but would never tell Luffy - and that shows their loyalty to both Luffy and Zoro (and Zoro's decision). Luffy woke up and first thing he did was to jump up and down, excited not to be weighted down by his injuries, and only seeing his swordsman being down with injuries so severe he was out more days afterwards, knowing that something else attacked them (him = Zoro), after he was passed out from the fight against Moria, brought down his mood (even if it's not much noticable, but the change into subtle worry is there in the few next chapters).

"I can't explain it either!" - meaning he was thinking about it too, possibly how weird it was for him to move normally after such long fight. We don't really ever hear/see Luffy thinking about something, except when it's mentioned how he came up with a solution or idea, telling us there's more to Luffy than just being straightforward in his goals and speech. With Luffy being sometimes very emotionally intelligent when he wants to be, he could have figured it out from all these other people in the room asking similar questions and deducing. Even Usopp was putting two and two togehter. We might never find out if Luffy actuallly knows or not. Luffy probably wouldn't ask Zoro directly, especially if Zoro wouldn't tell first and didn't want to talk about it

- because for Zoro, nothing happened! Nothing, that would compromise his and Luffy's first promise. For Zoro to become the Strongest he couldn't back down from the duel with Kuma (just like before with his duel with Mihawk at Baratie. When he's faced with something he swore to overcome, he can't back down or evade. Even back then Luffy understood that as he held back Johnny and Yosaku, but Sanji was perplexed how far Zoro (and Luffy) would go to reach their dreams). When Sanji was asking him in front of Kuma "What about your dream?" Zoro was still thinking about his dream- it was just that the context has changed, it changed into a journey. His dream is the most important thing, but it wouldn't mean much, if, when on his way to accomplish that, he would betray his other words and promises.

#I will never get over how this very important “nothing” happened! #the first draft of this was just a shitpost with one block of text. but it seems im incapable of not adding more and more on top of it #one piece #roronoa zoro #gif:op meta #monkey d luffy #monkey d. luffy #thriller bark #zolu #luzo #kuma #bartholomew kuma #mine #gif:op manga #one piece meta #gif:zolu #one piece analysis #everytime i go into the thiller bark tag and see posts blocked bc of the other ship. i take 10points of damage :// #can we talk about how this was zoro's deal for luffy? can we? i know theres posts about it. i made few too. but theres still not enough.... #for how this moment was big. for how kuma had a memory of it even in egghead. and zoro was the only present one there (after the ursa shock #insane and ill about it yeahh never gonna shut up about zolu thriller bark #luffy one piece #zoro one piece #long post

[wistfulwatcher]

the death of reruns was the death of television.

we talk a lot about why streaming is killing television, but i think one factor that is under-discussed is syndication. there have been some good short-run series, but the majority of our most beloved series had long runs. like, 5+ season runs. runs that hit that sweet 100 episode mark, meaning they qualified for the most lucrative syndication deals. streaming shows are reducing and eliminating the need for such deals because they’re so siloed. instead of making a syndication deal with another station (and paying your creatives fair residuals), streaming services host their shows on their own platforms and instead pay the streaming rights residuals that are nowhere near as fair.

because these streaming networks (both streaming-only, like netflix, and core networks with original content streaming, like cbs and nbc) aren’t selling their shows off-platform, they don’t need to hit any kind of episode landmark to be cost-saving. you can host a show in any increment, so having a 20-episode series is the same as having a 60-episode series. except the 60-episode series, of course, takes longer and costs more to produce. as long as a network makes one season of a show, they get to market it for new viewers. and once they feel they’ve gotten all the new subscribers they will out of a series, they drop it to save money.

until there is some monetary benchmark incentive to get a series past one or two seasons, television as long-form storytelling is dead.

#netflix #streaming #television #this isn't specifically about warrior nun but it's the most recent reminder #i'm so tired #meta #kind of #~ #wordles #wistfulwatcher text #idk what happened on the first version of this post 🤨 #mine #1k #2k #3k

[raayllum]

anyway one thing i think TDP does very very well is how it uses visual storytelling so strongly to indicate character mindset(s) and progression

Claudia's hair is the most obvious example - we don't need to be told she did something fucked up in 3x09 to bring her father back, because as soon as we see more white hair we know, from context and worldbuilding clues, that she did. It allows a lot to be communicated but not directly told, and it carries weight accordingly

Then there's more subtle ones - the sun being behind Janai when she steps up behind the horn ruins vs Karim not having one, because she is the true and fair queen and he is not, as well as her being right in how she handles matters legally and him being wrong in how he handles matters (il)legally.

There are also examples of Rayla's S1 binding - she's literally uneven/unsymmetrical and subsequently off-kilter - as a chain she has to be freed from, and how Callum has the golden bars around his wrists in his arc 2 design that also look like he's wearing permanent quasi-chains (because of course he is)

The crown of Katolis is a literally broken circle/chain, Aaravos walking around being literally heartless, how certain spells appear and a perpetual emphasis on circles (people being surrounded, objects, etc.)

There's a lot being communicated and is one of the reasons, I think, the show is so rich because our brains take it in subconsciously if nothing else, and then we can notice it more consciously on rewatches and subsequently appreciate it, and it just adds to how many layers are on screen at any given time

#tdp #the dragon prince #mini meta #appreciation #mine #text post #tdp meta #callum's character design in general i.e. being the only one not predominantly in red in the royal fam #indicating that 1) he feels kind of out of place and 2) blue is a passive/less exuberant colour #and esp in s1 he's a lot more doubtful/worrier than ezran #meanwhile in arc 2 all the kids (most evidently him and ez) have outfits that mirror their 'parental generational foil' #callum gets viren ez gets harrow and rayla gets runaan (now reinforced by her having the bow)

[ikosburneraccount]

Okay, in honor of the announcement of the TLC MOVIES*, I compiled of all deleted scenes from the The Lunar Chronicles, per Marissa Meyer’s blog**:

Deleted Scene #1 (from Cinder)

Deleted Scene #2 (from Cinder)

Deleted Scene #3 (from Scarlet)

Deleted Scene #4 (from Scarlet) 

Deleted Scene #5 (from Winter) 

Deleted Scene #6 (from Winter)

Deleted Scene #7  (from Winter)

Deleted Scene #8  (from Winter)

Deleted Scene #9 (from Cress)

**As part of a promotion between the releases of The Lunar Chronicles Coloring Book and the release of Wires & Nerve Vol. 1

#I scrolled way too far down someone's blog and found tlc content from 2015/16 and forgot about this gorgeous series #and I'm posting this for self-reference as well as reference for the fandom #mine #the lunar chronicles #ref #text #meta text #save #but also: yay fandom!

[shorthaltsjester]

i do not want to dig a hole but i am too much of a laura bailey pc enjoyer to not make this post so:

selfishness ≠ a lack of kindness 

selfishness is a theme that has come up with all of laura's main campaign pcs. that doesn't mean that her characters are always making selfish choices or that they don't care about the rest of the people they're with or that they're not good. it's just that, for the most part, the first thing they're thinking of when they take action or make choices is themselves. 

in jester and vex both it is more typical and obvious selfishness. vex's developed because she needed it to keep herself and vax alive and as safe as possible and it grew into a behaviour that she had to actively work to avoid. it's evident in her greed, her theft of the broom, her reaction to her own death which relied heavily on i'm okay/i survived to which keyleth reminded her that she wasn't the only one who had to witness and reckon with her death. in jester's case, she grew up in an environment that literally trained her to make every decision based on two things - her mother's opinion and her own. so, when she's out in the world without marion for the first time, her choices are those that will benefit her and her actions are those that consider her own thoughts and not really many others' (aside from the traveler's). 

it isn't a criticism of either vex or jester to say that they are characters who act selfishly. in fact, i'd argue that to claim otherwise does a great disservice to exactly how immense both of their character arcs are. because the nuance of both jester and vex is that they are selfish, and they also hold extreme room for self-sacrifice and empathy. vex is much more brash than jester is, and jester is much more trusting than vex, but both of them are characters who begin with selfish impulses who grow with them. neither ever truly shed those impulses, but they use them in new ways, typically transforming them into impulses towards things that are in the best interest of the party. 

you may have noticed the lack of imogen in this post about laura bailey pcs and that's because of two reasons. one, we are an unknown amount of time into her story, i can't analyse her development the same way i can vex and jester's. two, imogen's selfishness isn't the blatant quasi-self-aware selfishness that we see in things like jester complaining about her lack of money to caleb or vex stealing a broom. instead, imogen's is very internal, like a lot of laura's character work with imogen. it is a bit similar to jester’s in the sense that it comes from a lack of awareness moreso than vex’s practiced behaviour, but imogen’s is a lot more tied to inherent beliefs she has about the world and the people in it.

as a consequence of her powers, imogen sees people's thoughts as their entirety, she holds it above their actions to be the truth of who they are - to act against what they think or to say something that doesn’t cohere with what they’ve thought is akin to lying, so for her to act empathetically is to act in tandem with what someone else’s thoughts are, not how they act, which is typically not all that wanted. the same as vex’s greed and jester’s naivety, this is a trait that makes narrative sense and it’s one i find quite compelling, especially when read in the vein of someone struggling through trauma that has made them assume that the world is against them. imogen’s cynicism is coherent cynicism, i can’t say that in a similar situation i wouldn’t have the same predisposition towards the world.

the part that is particularly self-interested comes in if you look at how imogen has actually been treated in the campaign (quite well) in comparison to the cynicism that she’s developed from her past (something that speaks to a world out to get her). certainly, a bunch of shitty things have happened to imogen in the time we’ve known her, but the same can be said for everyone in bell’s hells and pretty much everyone in exandria at this point in time. but, in a fight to save the aforementioned world, imogen’s focus was getting her mother back on her side. which, while very consistent with her character and a choice that i enjoy, is a very selfish one. the fun thing (to me, obviously) about imogen is that she has, more than most, an insight into the opinions of others and she also tends to seek others’ opinions out and genuinely engages with them and supports their choices. but she still very much acts towards what she thinks is best. it’s one reason i enjoy looking at the dynamic between her and orym as one between foils, as orym tends to be stalwart in his beliefs and doesn’t care too much for other’s opinions if he’s already sure of his own, but his actions tend to favour collaboration and protecting others.

as i mentioned earlier, imogen is a harder case to look at because she is still in the process of her story. however, the circlet is clearly influencing how she interacts with the world and in the wake of the solstice, the hostile reaction towards ruidusborn people has started to become more and more apparent and i’m interested to see what route that ends up leading imogen down and how it will influence her relationship with the rest of bell’s hells. (for better, i think, based on recent conversations, but if it's for worse i will be just as seated and excited).

all of this is just to say, please stop assuming that claiming a character has a trait you think is a bad one is criticism or a hate post. in light of the fact that i know that people who don’t believe this will continue to not believe this, i’ll encourage anyone confused about the ability of a character to be good and kind and selfish all at once to look to what the text itself says, specifically scanlan’s words to pelor when asked what vex means to him:

“Her name is Vex, and she is greedy and mean sometimes, and she can steal a lot. She’s a little bit not the greatest person, but her flaws highlight everything that is right about her, which is she does all these things to protect her friends and her family. She would give her life for any of us and for anyone who was truly in need. And she’s not perfect but she’s the most perfect of all of us.”

would you look at that... an ability to be a multitude of things, some in conflict with one another. i know that's hard for fandoms to believe, especially about female characters with agency, but i promise its true!

#deeply unfair of laura to make three characters with some type of people skills and morality shaped by their loneliness #and what. i’m just supposed act like i’m normal about that? #this is me blog and i have slightly more time than usual to write nothing essays about fictional characters that haunt me #but dear god . lookin at cr characters and denying their flaws is like looking at a house and only seeing it’s doors . #if ppl demand perfection of fictional characters im genuinely curious in what media they’ve ever found that . #a single imogen post of mine broke containment and it skyrocketed my annoying phil student levels so. alas #but . if you agree that imogen had an incredibly isolating life . i will emphasize that isolation causes traits and behaviours #that aren’t just Quirky or fun or hot anger or whatever #imogen contains so much i love her so much i am bursting at the seams about it #but for some ppl. she is ur ‘girlfailure’ until someone suggests a way she might be girl failing by being selfinterested #what is the truth. do u want her to be an actual girlfailure it do u just want her to suit a . frankly tired. trope about lesbians #anyway . both text and tag rant over . goodnight #cr meta #imogen temult #vex’ahlia #vex’ahlia de rolo #jester lavorre #critical role #my posts

[sickgraymeat]

Here is a take. You need the context of the character outside of the relationship in order to fully appreciate the relationship, in an analytical/understanding sense. (What I mean is you can obviously enjoy it regardless) Most bubbline shippers are more drawn to Marceline’s context outside of the relationship than to Bonnie’s, which often leads to minimizing Bonnie by characterizing her as uncaring or a purely selfish partner, minimizing Marcy by characterizing her as purely a (Bonnie’s) victim who did nothing wrong, of oversimplifying the whole relationship by only acknowledging the bad parts (just the angst) OR the good parts (just the fluff). It’s really frustrating actually bc to me they’re both characters who shed a light on the complexity of the show as a whole, and when most people realize that they tend to latch onto the second layer beneath the surface so to speak— the big “reveal” that Bonnie isn’t just tea parties and smiley faces, and that Marcy isn’t just scary pranks and evil laughter.

The thing is, THIS IS NOT THE LIMIT OF THEIR COMPLEXITY. They definitely are not just those things, but they are not just “evil scientist dictator” and “depressed lost soul” either! They’re so many things, just like every other major character (and many minor ones) in the show. I see many of you getting into Bonnie’s complexities without sympathy because you think it’s cool or sexy that she’s evil or whatever, but there’s so much more to her than that. And while I’ve seen much more sympathetic introspection on Marcy’s character, it still tends to place her as the Victim with a capital V within the context of their relationship. Understandable considering we mostly see it from her side, and considering we mostly see the parts of it where it’s strained. But come on!! I know fandom is very capable of filling in blanks, but I rarely see that for Bonnie when it isn’t in service of a different character. I get that she is very withholding, but honestly so are all of them. That’s exactly what Obsidian is about, but I don’t think anyone waited for it to come out to acknowledge that Marceline was more than the series could directly show of her. So many people in fandom are willing to dig SO DEEP for interpretation, but with Bonnie, it’s like she surprised or angered or amused you so much by being 2-dimensional than you never acknowledge the dimensions beyond that. And if that’s because you don’t see them, then how are you seeing every other character’s so clearly?

#adventure time #bubbline #princess bubblegum #marceline the vampire queen #bonnibel bubblegum #marceline abadeer #jus talkin #mine #sorry #me being so annoying #*you is not direct ever it just got confusing saying ‘they’ for both ‘general fandom’ and ‘bubbline’ #meta #I guess #if there’s something I should tag w this lmk #if you’re following at tags and don’t want to see my text posts blacklist jus talkin #I’m trying to be better abt it ahdbsbdbbs especially when I use at tags #(or block me but sometimes I post cute doodles lol)

[fanfoolishness]

What's holding Din back?

I sat down to try and write some fic for the new season, but so far, I'm fresh out of ideas for Din... mainly because I'm unclear of what's going on in his head these days.

On the surface, he has everything he could possibly want.

Grogu is back with him! Din was clearly thrilled to have him back in their reunion in TBoBF, and his pride for Grogu shines through in all of their interactions.

He has the Darksaber! It's been liberated from a non-Mandalorian enemy, and is back safely in Mandalorian hands.

With the help of his ally Bo-Katan, he's bathed in the Living Waters of the Mines of Mandalore and been redeemed in the eyes of his people, who have accepted him back with open arms and no further questions on his transgressions. Even better, Bo-Katan has joined his covert as a skilled warrior he respects. The Armorer is treating Grogu as one of their people, and Din is even getting along with Paz Viszla.

So why do things feel off?

Paz Viszla, who has the emotional range of a brick, explains to Din (possibly his least favorite fellow Mandalorian) that the foundling they are seeking to rescue is his son. Bo-Katan calls Din Grogu's Dad in all of their conversations. Grogu is trying his best to learn to talk, and Dad is an extremely reasonable guess for one of his first words.

Din... calls himself Grogu's ward. Not his dad, his guardian, his father. Just ward, an archaic word for protection. Grogu is a foundling. Not his foundling.

Why?

And why does he struggle so badly with the Darksaber? We've only seen him use it a few times; the only time that barely approached competence was when he used it on Tatooine, but even on sacred Mandalore itself, his mind focused on redemption and the history of his people, it would not obey him. The Armorer told him the Darksaber responds to his mind and its distractions. Why would he be distracted then, on his path to achieve his goal to honor his Mandalorian culture? Will we see next week that he's suddenly super proficient with it? It's possible, but I doubt it -- otherwise, why make such a big deal of his incredible skill in other areas contrasted with his clumsiness with the Darksaber? I really hope they're going somewhere interesting with this.

...Just like I wish this meta was going somewhere. But I can't get it there because I genuinely don't know what's wrong with him. Why can't he claim Grogu as his own after everything? Is that why he struggles with the Darksaber, because he's not accepting fatherhood? Why wouldn't he? Fear, memories of trauma... what could it be?

Talk me through it, folks. Reblog with your theories or ideas and help me figure this out!

(Of course, bad or inconsistent writing could certainly be the explanation for all of this, it is Star Wars after all and we all know it ain't that deep. But for the sake of argument, let's pretend that's off the table, haha!)

#the mandalorian meta #din djarin #the mandalorian #the mandalorian season 3 spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 #the foundling spoilers #the convert spoilers #the apostate spoilers #the mines of mandalore spoilers #the mandalorian spoilers #text post #my mandalorian meta #my meta

[bladesofkyber]

Idk i just think it’s interesting how Freya thinks killing Kratos would’ve been revenge for Baldur even though for them to be truly even stevens she would have to kill Atreus. Freya never, ever tried to attack Atreus; every attack we see in game is focused on Kratos. In the opening fight, Atreus is knocked out of the sled but not seriously injured and During Vanadís 100% of her focus was on Kratos.

It was never really about getting revenge on Kratos; Freya forgave him the moment he blocked Atreus from mauling her, it just takes her a minute to realize it and a little bit longer to say it out loud. Freya has been so dead set on getting revenge because Kratos is accessible to her. Odin, who is really to blame, is untouchable, safe in Asgard behind Hrimthur’s wall. Kratos is merely a target she can hit Right Now. She’s so angry, so hurt and as far as she knows, there is no way to reach Odin; not until Atreus tells her they are going to find Týr in Svartalfheim. She begins to think there may be hope to destroy Odin, but instead of asking for help she attacks. Freya is unused to relying on anyone but herself. She’s been lied to and let down by nearly every other man in her life, why would this one be any different.

The vines are when Kratos realizes Freya forgives, or will forgive, him. He sees her power in that moment, hears & feels her anger. But Freya finally has taken a moment to figure some shit out. In that one vulnerable moment Freya could have crushed Kratos instead of that rock and they both know it. I think this is also the moment Kratos realizes just how much Freya has truly been held back. This is the closest to full strength he’s ever seen her; Kratos knew she was strong, a warrior but never knew Freya at her peak. And he still has not. He may not have realized how formidable she was until this fight, he knew her determination, her indomitable will, not her true physical strength and abilities. It’s here he understands why Odin bound her to Midgard, bound her powers and took away her ability to fight.

To Forgive or Kill is so important, but that’s not when she forgives Kratos. Vanadís is the true forgiveness, To Forgive or Kill is when Freya finally admits it to herself

#Freya #sorry i use semi colons and commas too much i have adhd #this was meant to be a gifset then we got meta about it #Vanadís #if you saw me post this as a text post whoops here we are again #God of War: Ragnarök #Chapter: The Lost Sanctuary #mine: gow #mine: gifs #meta #tw flashing #flashing gif #videogamesdaily #dailygaming #gamingdaily #gameplaydaily #Kratos #Atreus

[lheautontimoroumenos]

more thoughts on jackie,shauna .

oooh now you're asking for trouble anon. this is kinda wide so i'll swing wide (this starts and end with codependency though) and go with no plan. if you want something specific pls send another ask.

so. jackie. shauna. or rather jackieshauna. no space between them right? (that's probably the only thing that makes me accept this as the ship name instead of shaunackie).

(i have to put a read more because this is long as fuck believe me)

we know shauna and jackie have been friends for years, probably since they got into school.

we didn't get to see much about jackie's parents when she was still a kid but jackie doesn't seem to hold her mom or her dad in her heart. and yet when she's gone it seems all they can talk about is her.

they're a mirror of shauna's reaction in that they can't seem to let go. even if they probably didn't tell her they loved her, or said it but didn't show it in a way that jackie could receive it (or maybe jackie's mom was too worried about her valium problems), they have to fill the void. they have to believe she'll come back and everything will be the same. that's why her room is left untouched, that's why they make her gifts that she wouldn't even have liked when they celebrate her birthday every year with a picture from when she was 17.

and shauna can't bear to go see them, she suffers every year at jackie's birthday, first because of the guilt she still has regarding jackie's death, and then because she has to go to the taylor's house. they show her just what she's been doing this whole time.

in 101, shauna masturbates while looking at her daughter's boyfriend's picture because she's stuck in the past. in her world jackie's still alive, and in a way callie is jackie to her. because she's a part of jeff and jeff was a part of jackie (which is why shauna went after him). and in this scene, callie's boyfriend is jeff in shauna's head, even unconsciously (interesting to note that callie ends up dumping him and makes you think about what could have been).

and at the end of the episode, where her control kind of slipped because of the "journalist" looking into her past, she immediately went to read her journals. and not the end of it, when jackie's gone, but the very beginning, right after the crash. and not any part either, but the part where she shares and doubts jackie's hopeful sentiment. they have to find us right? they're gonna go get us? why haven't they found us?

so she's right back in it, really she never left. when nat dies, young nat tells her she never even left the plane, lottie says they brought "it" back with them, but there was no "it", "it" was just us. they brought themselves back, teenage them that was still happy and fine (none of them were fine).

so shauna's back in new jersey, she brought her teenage self back, and with her, teenage jackie. jackie's still here with her all the time, in her journals and her hallucinations and in jackie's parents house. because they're a single being, a unit. they're inseparable, a bit of jackie is part of shauna, she ate her, jackie kept shauna alive and now shauna's keeping jackie alive.

and if she's teenage shauna then she's fine, right? she doesn’t have a single problem. but she also feels guilty all the time. if jackie's alive and shauna's married to jeff then she's just betraying her again and again. and callie is the walking talking manifestation of that. she's both the proof that jackie's alive and dead. that she's still there all the time but gone forever. exhibit: callie in jackie's uniform. (and she falls back in her pattern of lying and hiding things in her affair with adam, that starts because of jeff in shauna's mind, the same way she slept with jeff because of jackie).

and honestly? she can make people believe she's fine as long as jackie stays in her. as long as jackie's hers really. but as soon as she's torn away from her insides, jackie becomes dangerous, she hurts and she tears something away from shauna, she takes her away from herself. when she's dating jeff she alienates shauna from herself. when she's put in front of jackie at her birthday she drops her filter, she says she doesn't even like callie (but she can't help loving her), when callie wears jackie's uniform at the party shauna's forced to open up and in spite of her efforts the façade falls.

if jackie isn't hers and hers only then shauna's falling apart. codependency at its finest and at its worst.

and it's not like jackie exempt of that either, we just get less time to see it. but shauna throws it all in her face when they fight in 110, she made her play soccer so they'd stay together, she tells her what to wear so that shauna will stay hers in a way, she assumes shauna's going to rutgers with her and that they'll be best friends forever and that nothing will ever go wrong because her life is perfect (not touching on heteronormativity here but it sure is present imo). she feels left out as soon as shauna starts hanging out with tai in the wilderness, she doesn't want anything to do with the thing that's taking shauna away from her and into the group's good graces (her butchering skills).

that's, I think, the fundamental difference in the way they deal with their codependency. shauna runs toward what's breaking it because she thinks that looking at it up close will either make it disappear or will spontaneously provide a solution to her problem (exhibit: fucking jeff, going to jackie's room at the taylor's, opening up to callie at the party). she grasps blindly at the last of what she thought was a constant in her life, she tries to keep the control and often ends up making things worse (though if holding on fails, shauna's solution is to kill and destroy so she can keep this control).

whereas jackie runs away from it. she keeps an order about things and the relationship but if it looks like it's about to blow then she's gone (exhibit: leaving the cabin after the fight, going buddy buddy with mari at the lake when she feels shauna pulling away from her, not investing herself in any "useful" activity at the camp). where shauna tries hard as she can to hold on to what is slipping away, jackie just lets it go.

they're like deers that get too close to each other and get their antlers tangled (i think there's a poem about this that i'll try to find) and caught in each other and trying to pull away just ends up killing them. it's not that they got too close for comfort, it's that they got so close, getting away from each other even for an inch or a second would kill them. they couldn't live without each other.

but they also got so close they couldn't see each other as a whole. they have to take each other at face value because it's all they can see at this point. jackie died because she couldn't live without the image she made of shauna in her head, the image of an even younger shauna that followed jackie around without a care in the world because this jackie was hers, and hers only.

and shauna is still alive, only because she carries with her an image of a teenage jackie that both forgave her (which allows her to keep carrying jackie with her) and holds her accountable (being cruel though honest justifies shauna's outburst during the fight, if jackie was mean to her then she kind of deserved it right?) which in turn absolves shauna.

they couldn't keep living together the way they were so they had to tear themselves away from each other.

yet even physically apart, there is no way to think one without feeling the other.

#yellowjackets #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #shaunajackie #jackieshauna #shauna sadecki #take the pencil and write under my name #mine #yellowjackets meta #shauna shipman character of all time #jackie too but we don't see much of her anymore so this is a lot of extrapolationg on her side #also wait going to find the antler poem #ok it took me 30 minutes of looking through my screenshots of peoms but i have it #and it's not really a poem it's from nightwood by djuna barnes #i was gonna write it here but it's a picture and not text so i'll add it to the post at the end #i had a lot of fun writing this but i don't think i can look at it anymore so you're getting the halfway organized version

[h0neyfreak]

kind of insane that Gottlob Frege wanted to eliminate miscommunication with a perfect logical language back in the 1800s and we took his work and used it to build the most perfect miscommunication machine known to man (The Internet)

#yeah this one has marinated long enough this slaps #h0ney draft dodging #mine #text post #meta #hellsite #tumblr #philosophy #philosophy meme #philosophy humor #philosophy of language #gottlob frege #phil lang #philosophy memes

[aucoba]

Still processing this last episode and mostly Izzy's death and I think maybe I wasn't as chocked as other fellow viewers because a big part of my job is to talk with people about their death : I'm a therapist, working in nursing homes so my patients think about death a lot and not only because they are depressed (they are over mostly 90yo sometimes 100yo,people be old guys).

In our interviews, we explore what it means for them to die, to be asking for death, to be afraid of it... And after a few questions, "I just don't want to be in pain" is said.

People ask for death not because they think it'll be peaceful but because life is painful. And in my work I want to make sure life is not just that, but also love, pleasure, community.

Now, about Izzy : I read people imagining other ways for him to go and wishing he would have sacrificed himself for someone else in a moment of danger, going down "a hero" and that doesn't sit right by me. It would have made it more epic maybe in comparison to this lost and unfortunate gunshot. But if he did... Then it would have been a Betrayal to his community who welcomed him and embraced him in the first episode saying "don't sacrifice your mind and body for us please, rest a little, we're here with you".

They literally told him to stop letting BB maim him just to protect them from his wrathful depression.

So, now, on how he actually went down : it was far too fast for me to process it properly while it was happening. The exuction of the idea is flawed. The idea in itself? I like it. Death happens. We have no control over it : my patients sometimes say how unfair it is that others are going before them. They are some month when nobody dies and then a week with 3 successive deaths. Some we saw coming, others we didn't. We don't have control over death irl, and the show is aware of that. They wrote gruesome death / near death experiences before. Our MC didn't die but it was bound to happen that someone dies. Their mission was suicide,not because they wanted to die but because the threat was that big.

And Izzy knew it. He knew his work, he was a pirate, it's "kind of his job" to die.

The second part of my job when dealing with death it to help people live their death.

It's their death, they only have one, they deserve to chose how to go along with it (where it happens, which treatments and medicamentaction, who's with them, who they forgive or don't forgive).

And that's why I respect how Izzy's death was written : it respects his journey, it happens like a "real" death for he "real" man he was, and he truly lives it. In his last moments he still expresses his voice, shares love and the light he gained this past weeks with his family. He suffered like hell but his end was glorious 'cause until the very last breath, he stood true to himself and to his people. He welcomed death not because it seemed better than life but precisely because he had such a good life. He lived his death and was mourned. He won.

#ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ofmd izzy #Izzy hands #ofmd s2 finale #Writing #death cw #ofmd meta #text #text post #my text #Mine #my post #Sorry for rambling it kept me awak

[ghcstvalleychief]

So, I'm noticing this conversation being brought up again and I'm ready to talk about it briefly. I'm mostly seeing this argument from the lovely people over on Twitter but I think you guys wouldn't mind talking about it too. As always, you can check out my previous post on this topic here.

In what world do people still believe Vegas would make a good mafia boss? Because he makes evil, underhanded choices that undermine the family instead of actually benefiting the family? Vegas is out for Vegas. Vegas doesn't care about The Family, so why would he be the better choice here if he's outright said he doesn't care about the family? Vegas has proven time and time again that his main goal in life is to hurt and/or destroy Kinn. At this point, he's in a one-sided rivalry with Kinn because Kinn isn't even actively fighting him back and he's still winning like what this lovely person mentioned in this post.

His arrogance, envy, and inferiority complex is why he can't be a good leader. Those emotions blind him to the things he should be paying attention to. (And yes, I know you guys are holding onto the fact that Kinn 'forgot' Pete but beggars can't be choosers. Meaning - this happened to give some of you shippers what you want, so why complain?) But anyway, it's why his plan to ruin Kinn's reputation/life crashed & burned. He made Tawan fall in love with him but he didn't realize that Tawan was a loose cannon with his own irrational emotions. Tawan was so devoted to Vegas that he kidnapped Chay and that's what ruined the plan. It never even ran across his mind that Tawan would go rogue. His arrogance never even took that into consideration.

It made the entire plan implode because his lack of foresight came back to bite him in the ass and everything fell apart. Where is Vegas's second, third, and fourth plan? A good leader can think on his feet and has backup plans in case the original plan doesn't work. Vegas didn't do that. He had one plan and one plan only.

He was so arrogant that he truly believed that he could control his pawns but he failed to remember that everyone has their own motives. He fails to realize that he's not the smartest person in the room and you can't underestimate anyone just because you're arrogant enough to believe otherwise. Like I've stated previously, Vegas doesn’t know how to play chess. Just like he had his own agenda, so does literally everyone else. He played Tawan like a fiddle but Tawan got the last laugh because he completely ruined Vegas's plan and now everyone knows he's a traitor.

At this point, I'm not even sure how Vegas can come back from this because all of the dirty laundry has been pulled out into the street. His dad may protect him but ... his dad doesn't seem to care all that much about him to begin with, so who knows? But even now, I'm sure he thinks he can get to Kinn by torturing Pete. And with that, he's probably going to fumble that somehow too. It won't work.

The moral of the story is that Vegas will run The Family right into the ground. You don't have to like Kinn or support him in any way, but the canon facts are the canon facts. You can hate Kinn's guts all you want but the fact still remains. Kinn may not be doing as good of a job as some people may want, but there's no way in Hell Vegas could do a better job.

#vegas theerapanyakul #kinn theerapanyakul #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche meta #kinnporsche #1x10 #kp spoilers #spoilers #my meta #mine #text post

[raayllum]

So as much as I love this moment (it's very sweet, and Rayla is very pretty here in particular) it does give me pause, because what the fuck was Callum's plan here? If he's getting out of the water (out of concern / feeling a perhaps Rayla self loathing stint coming on?) what was what his plan for going to the prison? Especially since Rayla takes it as he'll stay behind with her so that's probably supposed to be our takeaway, too. I'm assuming his idea was to give Soren the runes so he could go with Ezran, rather than letting Ezran go all by himself, but... Just proves Prince "tunnel vision" Callum of Katolis really does love Rayla so much it makes him Stupid (cue "we can walk around a sea" for her followed 20 minutes later by "sometimes getting somewhere slightly faster is important, like right now" from 2x04 all over again).

#rayllum #mini meta #text post #analysis series #pining!callum #s5 #arc 2 #5x09 #mine

[sugo1stuck]

okay does anyone else hate this fucking new ui.

because i fucking hate this new fucking ui.

#wanted to get an example without any like posts shared or that exposing of texts #mine #tumblr meta #tumblr #tumblr update #fuck staff

[crimeboys]

i got a stomache ache thinking about c!crimeboys

#text post #mine #i started writing a meta post then realized insounded insane

[hexplaything]

do you have any advice on how to make/curate an nsfw blog? for an inexperienced inquirer :33c

oh jeez!!! i suppose my advice is just: find a handful of blogs/ppl you vibe with to start, who post shit ur into/post things that make you say "ya this is a good blog" and every once in a while i would go through their posts and see who THEY reblog from. and you can build a following list and have a good amount of posts on ur dash that you are interested in! and just reblog things YOU like, it's your blog after all <3 those who vibe with you and like ur blog will come naturally (from the above practices!!) and you might even make some amazing lil moots that you love <3

#i hope this was good advice! im not sure entirely what you meant in terms of curating a blog like if you meant aesthetics or you meant #posting! but its not hard! just gotta find ur niches #i found my little space here and got some great mutuals who are actually good friends to me which is nice ! #OH! obviously a pinned post. as little or as much detail as you want but i mean pinned posts are the Meta rn LMFAOO #you can decorate them all cute n shit with little text things like mine with the angel wings #or i've even seen ppl put like banners n gifs on theirs!!! #good girl answers