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notsofrozt · 6 months
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Fear
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Fear.
A sensation that paralyses you, dries your mouth, chills your bones and blood, and revolts your insides. A warning of impending danger, a way the body prepares you to fight or flee.
Macaque felt fear many times, it's part of being alive.
The first time was so long ago that the memory was blurred at the edges, like an old photo. He remembered his tail wagging, sweaty hands and ears twitching as he lured Wukong onto the beach. There, under the tree on the shore, he made his feelings clear with awkward words and eyes that refused to look the other in the face.
The fear crawling inside him vanished with a bright smile from his now partner.
The second time he had felt the paralysis, unable to move to prevent his beloved from giving himself up to save their lives. Fear for the fate of his mate burned that moment into his mind.
This eventually faded as well. The harsh words under the mountain shattered it.
The third time fear guided his every action. The fear of losing his mate to a group of people who hurt him; the fear of seeing him change, driven by pain; the fear of having the person who lit up his life, who made his heart beat, taken away from him. That fear made him act, lash out, blinded and hurt.
That fear was supposed to fade with Wukong's hand in his, both of them walking away from the monk and that mission.
He didn't realise how wrong he was until the fourth time. The last time.
There are many things that people mistake for fear. Hardly anyone has ever felt genuine fear. There was a fundamental difference from anything he had experienced before, a bitter taste at once familiar and totally foreign. Macaque thought he felt it, but now he knew better.
The first time it had been plain nerves, with a touch of anticipation. The hope was there too, a sweet taste waiting to fill his palate.
The second time it was angst. Deep down he knew that it was impossible to kill Wukong, and that whatever punishment it was, it would eventually be overcome. Defeat and the uncertainty of being at the Jade Emperor's mercy only amplified that feeling.
The third time it was just sheer desperation.
What had run through his body were variants of fear. More opaque versions or different hues. Mere shadows trying to mimic the real feeling.
The fourth time began with defeat. In the world where they lived, there was only one fate for those who dared to face the Monkey King and lost.
The red and gold staff descended unavoidably towards his face, certain and lethal; the soft eyes of the person he had so long considered a friend, a comrade, a lover, now cold and devoid of their former warmth. Nor a spark of regret or doubt could be seen in them.
His body froze and his blood chilled, unable to process the brutal inevitability. As everything slowly went black, Macaque had only one thought.
He had been so, so foolish.
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lesbiansanemi · 3 months
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Do you think if I wish hard enough my mom will get electrocuted by a string of Christmas lights and just go up in a cloud of smoke. It’d be a Christmas miracle
#I’m not even DOWN THERE YET and I want to fucking KILL HER#I have to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. I live four hours away from my family#I told her this MANY TIMES I said I’ll drive down after work on Christmas Eve be there Christmas morning but I need to leave by 3-4 to get#home at a reasonable hour so I can have time to unpack/catch up on a couple days of chores/get plenty of sleep#she called me last night and told me she didn’t schedule Christmas stuff until SIX PM#and when I said why tf did you do that I’m not staying that late#she got mad and upset and was like ‘it’s the only time everyone is free :(‘#BUT THEN proceeded to tell me we were having lunch with her HUSBAND’S family at noon#(ppl I am not close with never have been literally don’t talk to)#and everyone I know is like ‘just leave when you said you were going to anyways’#and like yeah I could but then my family is gonna be ENRAGED that I didn’t do Christmas stuff with them#and they’re like ‘well explain that your mom didnt listen to when you said you needed to leave’#but the thing is. no matter what. they’re going to take her side#I should sacrifice my time and comfort to spend time with them because they’re FAMILY#never mind that literally not a SINGLE ONE OF THEM has EVER come up to visit me#IM always expected to drive down there. but that sacrifice doesn’t count it’s not good enough#but if I stay that late I won’t be getting home until AT LEAST midnight or later#cuz my family has no fucking concept of time so if it starts at six that means it doesn’t ACTUALLY start until 7 so most of them might be#there by 8 so I’ll be expected to stay until at least 10 to sufficiently catch up with all of them#I’m going to scream I’m going to cry#if I leave early I’m the awful ungrateful terrible bitch who never comes to see any of them#but none of them could adjust their days by just a few hours to see me before I needed to leave#FOR MY FUCKING JOB !!!!!!!! SOMETHING COMPLETELY OUT OF MY CONTROL#and like the thing is. my piece of shit manipulative bitch mother#I KNOW she did this on purpose#I know she didn’t plan this until six to FORCE me to stay longer because she was mad I wasn’t staying long#(again… because of work… something I can’t control)#so she’s orchestrated this to put me in this position#where I have to suck it up and stay and be exhausted and have tired migraines for a week cuz I get only a couple hours of sleep and then#or leave and make everyone pissed. I hate her so FUCKING much
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goldensunset · 7 months
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wait it just clicked for me. your queue started at midnight your time. and the first post went up at midnight *my* time.
EST gang rise up (since the DR kids won't)
gettin doxxed in da chat 😫
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restinpeacesensei · 2 years
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRECIOUS AKOYA BABY SWEETHEART DARLINGGGGG!!!!! \>/////</ 💖💕💖💕💖💕
WISHING ALL THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS FOR ANOTHER YEAR I LOVE YOU SO SOOOO MUCH!!!!!! ╰ (; ▽ ;) ╯ 💖💕💖💕💖💕
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whump-and-suffering · 19 days
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...Huh. Don't think I've ever sneezed 50 times in a day before.
I'm normally not a sneezy person at all, I've just got such a sneezy cold...
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hummusenthusiast · 2 months
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i think ppl need to stop writing articles abt food and how everyone eats wrong and at the wrong times and we dont move our bodies enough and we should eat less carbs and more protein like its enough. we been knew. its literally not news to anyone that we're inside too much, on our phones too much and we eat too much fast food like what are some of these journalists doing. seems easy as shit, maybe i should just become a journalist or a "food expert" and write the same shit every once in a month and get paid for it. and moreover .. if i hear one more claim abt how all carbs are bad i will literally fucking explode, its just carbs, its a normal part of a normal diet. theyre not automatically bad. and fast food doesnt have to be bad either and ppl have different food habits and thats also okay. the not enough exercise thing is true but its not NEWS and everything else is just borderline diet culture propaganda and im kinda sick of it lol
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loverscrossmp3 · 11 months
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TAYLOR DAY FOR TUMBLR USER EMERQLDV LIV!!!! u can get back to this ask after the hype has died down a bit but im using this opportunity to be vv nosy & curious about your dayy how did it gooo what did you wearr who did you go with omigosh what was your fav songg tell me everything i hope u have/had the loveliest time my love<3
HI LAYLA!! where do i…..even start. okay so i went with my sister who’s as big a fan as me!! her outfit was fearless inspired but mine was lover bc… DUH! had pink trousers and a white top with a pink boa n heart-shaped earrings and gem-outlined heart sunglasses!! also did my makeup which looked SO GOOD! put some gems around my eyes n lots of glitter on my body it was a LOOK!! would post but i’m afraid of face reveals and face reveals are afraid of me 😶‍��️
but GOD! everything about it was insane! the seats! right in the middle!! phoebe opening with matty healy playing on stage with her ???? boygenius performing cool about it???? i’ve basically seen everyone on my spotify wrapped now like what do i even do with my life??
AS FOR THE SHOW!! cruel summer was. insane. the entirety of the reputation set 😵‍💫😵‍💫 illicit affairs was one of what i was most excited for and it absolutely did not disappoint. and fearless!! mastermind!! SURPRISE SONG #1 WAS OOTW!!! ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!! AND NUMBER TWO WAS FIFTEEN AS IF I WOULDNT LOSE MY MIND!!
had the best best time it still hasn’t hit me i actually just saw her but trust my only personality trait (<- taylor swift fan) has only heightened
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mercymaker · 4 months
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tummy pain SO bad today I'm going to chew the paint off the walls
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flippinfins · 1 year
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What did you think of it?
This is hard for me to talk about lmao but it’s my new favorite Taylor swift album. I complained about this to @chipmunkchiptune last night at like 5 am 💀 Mt favorite album used to be speak now. It was my favorite album and favorite Taylor swift album. It was my everything! And you know what? It still is. However ✨ this one is my new favorite. If you count Taylor’s re-released albums then I lasted through 8 entire albums before I was influenced enough to change my favorite. This is so long for no reason LMAO. Long story short, I loved it. Thank you for thinking of me and asking about it 🥺 🤍
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senatortedcruz · 1 year
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I am in full autumn swiftie mode folks I am rocking my cardigan and I need Midnights now!
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vanibear · 1 year
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imso tired i think im just gonna wake up at like 4am and do all my hw. bad idea yep but i think ill explode if i have to keep my eyes and brain working any longer tonight
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veresiine · 1 year
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Due to people being on vacation at work, I have to show up for an earlier shift than normal tomorrow.
That would be fine by itself.
It's warm enough that I ought to leave the windows open at night to cool off and help me sleep.
That would be fine by itself.
But my neighbors are throwing an extremely loud party and the two aforementioned variables make that a problem for me.
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krshush · 1 year
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AH IT'S SO NICE TO HAVE GOTTEN UNINTERRUPTED SLEEP,
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sikyurame · 2 years
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I really want summer to be over
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redskysailor · 2 years
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platonic domesticity make me bite my arms off
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pinkautist · 2 years
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i had such a hard time sleeping because i tried to sleep 7 hours earlier than i did yesterday
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