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bloody-bee-tea · 1 year
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24 Days of Mingcheng 2022 Day 4 - Mess
This is my 900th posted fic 🎉 🎉 🎉 
Jiang Cheng is frozen in face of the sight in front of him.
“What the fuck,” he breathes out and it’s almost comical how fast Lan Xichen and Jin Guangyao spring apart.
“Wanyin,” Lan Xichen says, his voice shaky, but Jiang Cheng can still see how his cheeks are just that tiny bit redder than they normally are and he refuses to acknowledge the shine on his lips at all.
“What the fuck,” he repeats again and this time it’s Jin Guangyao who answers him.
“It’s not—”
“What it looks like?” Jiang Cheng dares him because there is no way they are actually going to try for that.
Jiang Cheng caught them making out on the couch—his couch, no less—and there is no way in hell they are really going to try and make him doubt what he saw.
Lan Xichen winces at his cutting tone and Jiang Cheng shakes his head at him.
“At least I wanted to break up first,” he then mutters and Lan Xichen flinches again.
Things in their relationship haven’t been right for a while now and Jiang Cheng is not going to deny that his feelings for Lan Xichen have changed.
That they found another target altogether.
It’s just—he wanted to try, still, mostly out of stubbornness and because everyone kept telling him that it wouldn’t work out with Lan Xichen anyway.
It made Jiang Cheng cling to this relationship longer than he clearly should have but at least he didn’t outright cheat.
“I didn’t mean to—” Lan Xichen starts but Jiang Cheng doesn’t let him finish.
“Do this? Well, your hands on his ass clearly seemed to know what they were doing,” he snaps out and then drags his hand over his face. “This is just as well, I guess.”
“You could have broken up with him first, you know,” Jin Guangyao says as if all of this is Jiang Cheng’s fault.
“Well, I would have before I sucked face with someone else, but I guess not all of us are decent people,” Jiang Cheng shoots back and for once in his life Jin Guangyao falls silent.
“I will go grocery shopping now and by the time I come back I want you both gone out of my apartment. Permanently,” Jiang Cheng sternly tells them. “Leave the key on the counter on your way out.”
He doesn’t wait for Lan Xichen’s reply, certain that he won’t get one anyway and simply leaves them behind.
It doesn’t hurt as much as Jiang Cheng expected it to, though of course the betrayal still stings. But he had known that his relationship with Lan Xichen would have to end sooner or later, especially taking his own feelings into account but this is just a new low, Jiang Cheng thinks.
He honestly thought Lan Xichen to be a better man than this but apparently he was wrong. And despite the fact that Jiang Cheng fell in love with someone else, this hurts.
It hurts enough that he fishes for his phone to call his sister.
“A-Cheng,” she greets him, her voice warm and Jiang Cheng already feels a little bit better.
“A-jie, Xichen and I broke up,” Jiang Cheng tells her without preamble because he needs to get this out.
“Oh, A-Cheng, what did you do? I’m certain that if you try, Xichen will listen to you and give you another chance.”
That makes Jiang Cheng stop, a cold shudder running down his back.
“What makes you think it’s my fault?” he asks her and he can already imagine her disappointed face.
It’s always his fault, one way or another, isn’t it?
“A-Cheng, you’re just so—” she trails off but Jiang Cheng knows what she wants to say.
Angry, volatile, uncompromising, hard. He has heard these things about himself more times than he can count.
“Right,” he mutters and then simply hangs up on her.
He already has to deal with the fallout of one failed relationship; what is another added to that, right?
Jiang Yanli calls him back almost immediately, but Jiang Cheng blocks her. He doesn’t want to talk to her at the moment, and maybe not even any time soon.
He debates calling Wei Wuxian but chances are that Lan Wangji are with him and Jiang Cheng knows very well how the other man feels about him.
Jiang Cheng is not going to try his luck there. He doubts it will end differently than his talk with Jiang Yanli and so he’d rather not have that talk at all.
He briefly thinks about calling Nie Mingjue or Nie Huaisang but he knows better than that, even though stupid is one of the words people are not shy to use when it comes to him.
The Nies have been friends with Lan Xichen for far longer than they have been with Jiang Cheng and he’s not going to try his luck there. If even his own siblings can’t side with him then it’s unlikely that anyone else will, no matter how Nie Mingjue might feel about him.
Just as he’s about to pocket his phone again, Wei Wuxian calls him.
Jiang Cheng briefly thinks about declining his call but he knows from experience that Wei Wuxian is not going to stop until Jiang Cheng answers in pure self-defence. It’s better to get this over with now.
“What?” he greets Wei Wuxian with, already over this entire conversation because he knows how it will go.
And Wei Wuxian doesn’t disappoint.
“A-Jie called me to tell me what you did,” Wei Wuxian says and Jiang Cheng scoffs.
“What I did, right. Because what other possibility could there be, right?”
“A-Cheng, come on, we all know that Xichen-ge wouldn’t break up with you for nothing.”
“That’s where you got it wrong, though,” Jiang Cheng tells him even as a part of him wonders why he even still keeps trying.
They are not going to listen to him.
“I broke up with him because he was cheating on me.”
There’s a disbelieving silence on the other side.
“A-Cheng, you don’t really believe that, right? I bet it’s just a misunderstanding.”
“Xichen’s tongue in Jin Guangyao’s mouth and his hands on his ass beg to differ,” Jiang Cheng shoots back.
“I don’t believe you,” Wei Wuxian says. “Why would you lie about this? Xichen-ge wouldn’t do something like that.”
“Of course he wouldn’t,” Jiang Cheng gives back and all of a sudden he’s tired. “Because he’s too good for that, right, and I am simply not. You know what Wei Wuxian, why don’t you take him as your brother and leave me the hell alone. I am so fucking tired of always feeling as if I have to prove myself to you and A-Jie both. I’m done. Give the happy couple my regards and tell them to stay the fuck out of my way.”
He hangs up on Wei Wuxian before he can get another word in and then he shuts his phone off for good measure too.
Jiang Cheng is done talking with people for today. He’s going to get some groceries and just for the heck of it he’s also going to get the biggest ice cream cup he can find and then he’s going to go back home and piece his life back together.
Screw family and screw relationships. How needs those anyway.
With his mind made up Jiang Cheng gets going again and by the time he’s on his way back home he does feel a little bit better.
Of course his and Lan Xichen’s relationship was already in its last dregs, and not only because Jiang Cheng himself fell out of love with him.
They had barely talked to each other prior to this incident and any kind of intimacies ceased even longer ago than that. Still, Jiang Cheng continues to be bitter over the fact that this is how Lan Xichen decided to handle things.
Jiang Cheng never pegged him as a coward, but it is true that Lan Xichen shies away from any form of conflict. If he thought Jiang Cheng would fight him on the decision to break it off Jiang Cheng can maybe even see why he chose to do it this way, not that it is any kind of excuse.
Lan Xichen’s behaviour is shitty and Jiang Cheng is not going to forgive him.
Jiang Cheng doubts that he’s going to even notice that much of a change in his daily routine, because if he’s being honest Lan Xichen hasn’t been a part of it for a while now. It only drives the point home that he shouldn’t have been such a coward and ended things earlier.
Well, better a coward than a fucking cheater, Jiang Cheng viciously thinks as he makes his way up to his apartment but for the second time today he freezes on the spot when he comes face to face with Nie Mingjue.
Nie Mingjue is sitting with his back to Jiang Cheng’s door, clearly waiting for him and Jiang Cheng works his jaw.
This is not going to be pretty, and the way his heart starts to beat faster at the sight of the other man is not going to help at all.
“What do you want?” he snaps out and Nie Mingjue opens his eyes.
“Xichen told me what happened,” he says as he gets up and Jiang Cheng scoffs.
“Great, are you here to tell me to suck it up and apologize as well?”
“What? No, why the hell would I do that?” Nie Mingjue demands to know and Jiang Cheng sends him a scathing glance.
“It seems to be the theme of the day. You’ve been friends with Lan Xichen for almost all of your life. Surely you must have something to say on his behalf. Everyone else does.”
“Is that why you didn’t call me or Huaisang? Because you think we’ll be on his side?”
“My siblings are, so why should I think that you are any different? Even my blood relatives don’t believe me, so why the hell should I think your reaction wouldn’t be the same?” Jiang Cheng demands to know as he stands in front of his door.
He’s not going to let Nie Mingjue inside if the other man is going to break his heart as well today.
“He cheated on you! How the hell would I ever be on his side, friends or not? Do you really think that low of me that I would condone such behaviour? And towards you nonetheless?” Nie Mingjue shoots back and just like that Jiang Cheng loses all of his fight.
“Yeah, well, let’s be real here, we all knew our relationship was going to end,” he mutters and turns around to get the door open, but he doesn’t invite Nie Mingjue in. He’s certain he will follow him anyway.
His apartment looks about the same as it did before and it hits Jiang Cheng all over again just how little stuff Lan Xichen brought over to him in the first place. Maybe that should have been a clue for him at the very start.
He finds the key where he told Lan Xichen to leave it and Jiang Cheng’s mouth twists bitterly as he pockets it. He’ll have to figure out what to do with it later.
“Listen, what he did was wrong,” Nie Mingjue says from behind him and Jiang Cheng turns around to him. “If he loved someone else, he should have broken up with you.”
“Like I did?” Jiang Cheng dares to ask and the look he gets from Nie Mingjue is far more understanding than he deserves.
“At least you didn’t cheat,” he gives back and avoids his eyes.
“But it was close,” he reminds Nie Mingjue because there had been a moment where only a sheet of paper would have fit between them.
“But you didn’t,” Nie Mingjue reiterates. “And at least we didn’t do it in his apartment,” he then tries to joke and Jiang Cheng hates how it works.
“I doubt he’s going to thank me for it.”
“He doesn’t have to thank you for it. He has to apologize to you for his actions,” Nie Mingjue corrects him.
“That’s not going to happen,” Jiang Cheng says because even if Lan Xichen would want to Jiang Cheng doubts that Jin Guangyao would let him.
He’ll probably convince Lan Xichen that they did nothing wrong and that it’s all Jiang Cheng’s fault in the first place.
“What are we going to do now?” Nie Mingjue asks, addressing the elephant in the room and Jiang Cheng shrugs.
“I don’t know. He’s your best friend. I don’t know what you want to do.”
“My best friend wouldn’t have cheated, no matter on who,” Nie Mingjue gives back. “I’m not sure I still know him at all, to be honest,” he then admits and Jiang Cheng hates that this is also damaging Nie Mingjue’s and Lan Xichen’s relationship.
“I never wanted to impact your friendship,” Jiang Cheng whispers but Nie Mingjue shakes his head.
“It’s not even just that, it’s not just about you. It feels as if he slipped through my fingers a while ago. Maybe even all the way back when Jin Guangyao first tried to take the company down and Xichen was on his side. He certainly didn’t feel like my best friend anymore when I fell in love with you.”
“He always assured me that they were just friends, even though I never once accused him of anything,” Jiang Cheng recalls, deciding not to comment on the last part. He’s not sure it would do them any good right now.
“Clearly,” Nie Mingjue deadpans and then heaves out a sigh. “Where does that leave us?” he then brings the topic back, clearly unwilling to let it go and Jiang Cheng searches for his gaze.
“What do you want?” he challenges him and Nie Mingjue works his jaw a few times before he finally seems to make a decision.
He walks up to Jiang Cheng and cages him in, Jiang Cheng’s back to the counter and both of Nie Mingjue’s arms at his sides.
“You,” Nie Mingjue whispers in the scant space between them. “But it has to be your decision too,” he then adds and moves to take a step back.
Jiang Cheng knows that this is probably not the smartest idea, especially not today and not with how everything went over but his cowardice has kept him from this for too long and he’s sick and tired of denying both of them what they so clearly want.
Screw Lan Xichen because at least despite his feelings Jiang Cheng had never stooped so low as Lan Xichen did today.
“It is my decision too,” Jiang Cheng says and when Nie Mingjue does take that step back Jiang Cheng follows him, staying right in his space and closing that last bit of distance between them.
When they part again, Jiang Cheng is breathless and his face feels as if it’s on flames.
“We should have done that sooner,” he rasps out. “I definitely would have broken up with him then.”
“We’ll just have to make up for lost time now,” Nie Mingjue decides and leans back in.
Jiang Cheng knows that things are not going to be easy, especially not at first and with how entangled all of their lives are but Jiang Cheng dares to hope that with Nie Mingjue at his side he’ll get through it.
Only time will tell, though.
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im so glad there are still some places not tainted by your presence
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onceiblinked · 1 year
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If y'all are reading my fic that I don't remember the fucken name of/am too lazy to write, prepare yourself for an update with slightly better writing.
No, I don't know exactly when but maybe tonight
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TDBK, messy relationships, learning how to be a good couple, bad communication.
Shouto and Katsuki being a new couple trying to navigate communication and all those lovely things and finding out that it’s much harder than they expected. Things are overly complicated by the fact that they both have very complex relationships with Izuku.
Maybe Katuski’s just a little to mean to Shouto’s best friend, but maybe Shouto is just a little too quick to side with said best friend over hearing out his new boyfriend. How can they love each other and yet spend more time fighting one another than actually being a couple?
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petite-et0ile · 2 months
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messiest part of my life is that my guy bsf throughout highschool who claimed he saw me as his sister, dropped me with no explanation, and dropped his best friend who he called his brother and now me and his ex-best friend are close and have a brother-sister friendship
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usernamemybeloathed · 9 months
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Right so I should be getting ready for this baby shower I have in like 2 hours, but instead I'm thinking about my writing. I'm playing "Wild Horses" by the Stones and thinking about the backdrop of messy, drug addled relationships their songs from this era were written to. I'm thinking about Keith Richards and Anita Pallenberg. I'm thinking about how this song is perfect for my fic's end game. Can I even get there? I mean, it's morphed into a daunting thing now. How can I have 145k words but only 8 finished chapters? Who's idea was it to write this? Why? It won't get done in time for college football season. Which reminds me I'm also sad about the Pac-12. Who's gonna adopt Cal? And Oregon State? And Washington State?
Sometimes I'd just like the carousel of thoughts in my head to stop for five minutes.
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tenth-sentence · 1 year
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Brian was initially quite proud of having put up with Joan's behavior for so long; feeling that she really needed him had kept him from considering divorce.
"The Body Keeps the Score: Mind, brain and body in the transformation of trauma" - Bessel van der Kolk
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likeprongstostars · 11 months
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in another life we were given the chance to learn how to be brothers again...
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meagancandraw · 5 months
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You ever think about how neither of them got to say goodbye?
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psqqa · 7 months
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yes, yes i know edgeworth’s big wet eyes and loser boy personality have captivated us all, but listen. listen.
phoenix wright
phoenix “genuinely unable to reconcile the girl on the stand with the girl he dated for eight months, a cognitive dissonance so profound it’s ultimately explained by them being literally two different people, but which he first sits with for five years and does not talk about at any point to anyone” wright
phoenix “don’t mention that name to me. i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to think about it. i am just going to keep myself in this state of perpetual crisis mode focus on other people’s problems until eventually i die and get to hang out with mia on the astral plane and never have to deal with any of these emotions ever again” wright
phoenix “overnight loses his career and reputation and sense of identity while gaining an adopted, probably pretty traumatized eight-year-old daughter, and rather than leaning on his friends for help, or getting therapy, or taking any time to process any of this, he *checks notes* spends seven years dedicating all his free time and energy to investigating the weird fucking circumstances around it and maintains a friendship with the guy he suspects was behind it all” wright
phoenix "runs across a burning bridge and falls through it, half a day after the game establishes that he is terrified of heights, because his friend is on the other side of that bridge" wright
phoenix “i sure felt surprised. maybe i had my poker face on” wright
phoenix “looking back on it that was actually a pretty dark period in my life” wright
phoenix “don’t ask me how i got started. i don’t remember” wright
phoenix “only you stood still, your eyes calmly watching” wright
phoenix “sometimes, life just sucks” wright
just
phoenix wright
crunchiest man in the world
and all i wanna do is chew and chew and chew on him
#ace attorney#where are all the people gnawing on phoenix's bones so white??#i need to find the phoenix bone-gnawing corner of this fandom PLEASE#this is me asking for the Phoenix Fic btw#where is the fic meditating on phoenix's whole mental state in general?#where is the fic about how it's phoenix's cageyness and poker face and flat affect under stress that is the hurdle?#the relationship ramifications of being actually really fucking hard to read when it comes down to it?#where is the fic about the week of his disbarment?#the one detailing the panicked blow by blow of it rippling through his social circle while he stands in the eye of the storm?#the one that ends messy and anxious and unresolved because it's week 1 of 7 years?#where is the birth of phoenix wright: poker legend fic?#where is the art school/theatre major phoenix fic?#no not the able to art/act phoenix fic but the kind of person who chooses to go to art school/study theatre phoenix fic#where is the supremely disinterested in pop culture phoenix fic?#where is the actually incredibly meticulous and competent phoenix fic?#capcom can tell me all they want that he's essentially an adhd disaster flying by the seat of his pants making it all up as he goes#but that's not what they're actually showing me#they're the ones who created an in-fiction legal system that functionally necessitates that#and the nature of the game is that phoenix is almost always proven right so rather than him coming off as hare-brained#his opponents rather just come off as short-sighted. either negligently or maliciously so#and the choices the writing makes in service of retaining mystery and audience suspense in fact function to make phoenix a person#who is astute and puts the pieces together but is cautious in his conclusions#i will grant them that phoenix does tend to lose sight of his overarching goal in getting drawn into proving or disproving minor points#the fact that edgeworth on the other hand never loses sight of this or where the various arguments stand in relation to it#is his sexiest trait as a character by far#but those minor points are actually functionally critical to the ultimate argument phoenix makes#so even though i do read that trait through the game mechanics i do also judge the other characters for being dicks about it#my point is phoenix wright does in fact have the character of a lawyer and is conventionally good at his job fucking fight me#my point is that you all have had 20 goddamn years to Rotate this man#my POINT is that there should be Intricate Fucked Up Meditations On Phoenix that rewire my fucking brain and i NEED to know where they are!
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demigods-posts · 4 days
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imagine if thalia visited percy on his fifteen birthday. an apology lodged somewhere in the back of her throat. knocking on the apartment door while holding back tears. sally greeting her with the warm smile of a mother. paul welcoming her inside with the kind tone of a father. imagine thalia surprised to see percy and nico bonding over two slices of blue cake. feeling even more alienated as a big three kid. knowing these two had a relationship without her. imagine thalia meeting percy's eyes from across the room. and for a brief second. she swears his previously gleeful gaze turns cold and bitter. and she's waiting for the anger. for the tide to drown her. and she's prepared to welcome it. but then his gaze turns remorseful. and then apologetic. and he doesn't yell at her. instead. he invites her to sit next to him and nico. and welcomes her to a slice of blue cake. because time will pass anyway. and life's way too short for kids like them to not hold each other through it.
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wombrion · 8 months
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morganski-19 · 1 month
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The One with the Gossip
The group is hanging out at the café, all in different conversations when Jonathan comes into the bar and flops down on the couch. Camera bag sliding off his shoulders.
“When does this place start serving alcohol?” he groans.
“In about thirty minutes,” Nancy starts, “are you ok?”
Argyle trades places with Robin, sitting next Jonathan. “That bad?”
Jonathan nods, widening his eyes. “Messiest wedding I have worked months. There were so many things and they just piled on top of each other. The amount of bridesmaids and groomsmen that had previously slept together and didn’t know about it was insane.”
Steve and Eddie turn their heads at the same time. “What now,” Eddie says intrigued.
“I love messy shit I’m not apart of,” Steve mutters under his breath.
“It was crazy,” Jonathan sits up, turning toward Steve and Eddie at the side table. “And it all started for the most stupid reason. The guys apparently had a bet when to see how many of the bridesmaids they could sleep with. And the girls didn’t know about it, and a few of them fell with their ‘charms’ and were none the wiser. Until, one of the groomsmen said who won in their speech.”
“Holy shit,” Robin says with a sip of her tea.
Eddie winces. “That is such a dick move.”
“How likely was it that they were part of those fraternities that just liked to terrorize people,” Steve asks. Having almost accidently joined one of these fraternities when he was in college.
Jonathan nods with disgust. “That only scratches the surface. The best man had won, having slept with six out of the seven bridesmaids, and he was engaged to the maid of honor.”
Everyone winces with disgust.
“Not cool, dude,” Argyle says with disappointment. “So not cool. How can people do this to other people. And think that they can get away with it.”
“Because they’re inconsiderate assholes,” Steve says at the same the same time Eddie says “They’re disgusting bags of shit.” They high five each other.
Jonathan lets out a long breath. “And I’m not done yet. It gets worse.”
“Oh my god, how,” Nancy questions.
Argyle stands. “I’ll be right back, continue without me.” He walks over to the bar and starts to talk to the barista.
“He got bonus points for sleeping with the bride. And the second-place winner, was the groom.”
“Holy shit,” everyone says in unison.
Jonathan nods with wide eyes. “And the groom got a bonus point for sleeping with his future mother in law.”
They were too stunned to speak, just letting the silence fill that moment. Argyle returns with a cup of something and places it in Jonathan’s hands.
“What did I miss?” he asks, looking at them all super confused. “Are you guys broken?”
Steve shakes his head, trying to wrap his head around what was just said. “I don’t think I’ve heard that one before.”
“And this is coming from someone who has actually slept with one of his frat bro’s moms,” Robin interjects.
“On accident. And she was his stepmom, that was much younger than his dad, well after I was in college. He doesn’t know, it’s fine.”
“Did that cause another sex ban?” Eddie asks.
Steve laughs. “No, that’s when the figured out that the previous sex ban wasn’t working.”
Jonathan takes a sip of the drink Argyle gave him. “Jesus, that’s strong. Did you bribe them or something?”
“Something like that. Seriously though, what did I miss?”
“Groom slept with the future mother-in-law,” Robin fills in, Argyle winces. “What is with people?”
Jonathan shrugs. “Don’t know. But it was a big wedding that they are not getting a refund for. And I still got cake, well what was left of it.”
Eddie leans forward. “What was left of it?”
“Yeah,” Jonathan nods. “Speeches were right before cake, so the bride took the entire top layer and slammed it over the groom’s head. Followed by the maid of honor taking two giant handfuls and shoving it into the best man’s face. Arguments broke out and all that shit. I stayed back to help clean up.”
“Had they signed the marriage certificate yet?” Nancy asks.
Jonathan sighs. “No clue, don’t care. It’s over and I got paid. A lot. This was not a cheap wedding. Oh right,” Jonathan reaches down into his bag and grabs a takeout container, handing it to Argyle. “Saved you a piece of cake.”
Argyle takes it, opening it and starting to eat it. Nodding his head in appreciation.
The rest of the group looks at Jonathan. “Where’s our cake?” Robin asks, a little hurt.
“You don’t live with me, you don’t get cake.”
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mommycare4u · 2 months
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Answer and Reblog To Find Mommy In Your Location
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What is your baby age ?
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Answer and reblog , Someone from your location will definitely find you 😊
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sleepyhighslvt · 20 days
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𝓘'𝓵𝓵 𝓼𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓸𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰
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romance-evil-aro · 10 months
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when will the aro community stop enforcing the false dichotomy of loveless/romance repulsed aros vs romance favourable aros? there is nuance. there is grey area. justice for the aros whose relationship with romance is more complicated than that
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