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strangerthingfanfic · 9 months
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If you hate Billy Hargrove with a passion and say you stan Merle Dixon your head is screwed on backwards
Remember Merle was an openly racist a-hole who probably was homophobic as well
Meanwhile, Billy had some terrible ideas but was never as open as Merle with them
Merle didn't deserve redemption if Billy didn't
I'm so tired of people being so damn hypocritical in fandoms
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creepereyes · 1 year
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I can’t believe antis are still spouting the ‘Billy was a violent racist how can you like him?!’ argument.
One vague line doesn’t prove anything, and I guarantee you Billy would’ve reacted the exact same way if it had been Mike, Will or Dustin pestering Max in those scenes.
Even if Dacre himself confirmed that Billy WAS a little racist, people can change. Racism can be unlearned, and I’m going to make a Stranger Things/The Walking Dead comparison post that might give antis an aneurysm.
You don’t have to be familiar with The Walking Dead to understand this post, but I’d say it’s worth a read especially if you like both shows.
This post is going to get long so I’m inserting a read more.
Billy is not an irredeemable monster. He never uses racist slurs and never hate crimes Lucas. Pushing someone against the wall and scolding them is not attempted murder. Lastly, he’s a teenager. It’s not like he’s a dude in his 40′s bullying an 8th grader.
All these Billy antis need to watch The Walking Dead, specifically the first three seasons. Why, you ask? Because that show had a racist character who was on the track to changing his ways and becoming a better person.
In TWD season 1 episode 2 we meet Merle Dixon, older brother of series favorite Daryl Dixon. Merle is a violent, unapologetic racist who, shortly after being introduced, provokes a black man into attacking him so he has an ‘excuse’ to beat him up. He’s a terrible person. (Though early series Daryl is no saint either, he’s quick to violence and is often hostile to other members of the group).
After Merle saws his own hand off to escape a bad situation, he goes missing for over a season. When he comes back, he’s different. He’s still an asshole and while he still drops a racial slur, he doesn’t sling the n-word anymore and shows the odd moment of compassion. As the season progresses, we start to understand why Merle is the way he is and that he has more layers than expected. Much like Billy, he has sides to him that other people rarely see, and that really shines when he interacts with Herschel, the one person who shows him kindness.
As unpredictable as Merle is, he does the right thing in the end. And guess who really gets through to him and convinces him to do the right thing?
Michonne, a black woman.
Just like Billy, Merle sacrifices his own life and dies to protect a group of people who don’t give a shit about him, and is then mourned only by a younger sibling with whom he had a very complicated relationship.
Don’t get me wrong, there’s no justifying or excusing his hateful actions in season 1. We as viewers are supposed to have conflicting feelings about Merle. He starts off as a racist asshole, but he turns out to be more complex than he seems, and if he lived past season 3 I’m confident he could’ve really changed for the better. In my opinion, Merle is a great character because despite his heinous past actions, he’s complex, layered and interesting. His interactions with other characters are fantastic and his actor, Michael Rooker, did a great job giving more depth to a character that could’ve easily been a one-note villain. (Sound familiar?)
My point? Anyone can change. If a 50 year old violent racist can begin changing his ways, so can a teenage boy.
If Billy had survived season 3 and gotten away from his abusive father, he would’ve changed too. It would take time and he’d need support, but it would’ve happened. He could’ve formed healthy relationships. He could’ve teamed up with Steve, Robin, Eddie and Nancy to kick Vecna’s crusty ass. 
Antis blatantly refuse to admit it, but Billy would’ve changed and flourished if he got out of his toxic home and had people believe in him. 
They just can’t handle a character with layers.
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dixonzzgirl · 6 months
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personal daryl dixon headcanons : 
acts of service are his love language.
so when you’re not telling him what’s bothering you, it frustrates him because all he wants to do is make you feel better and show you that he’s always gonna be there for you. 
fuck, i love him.
he was was a huge mama’s boy when he was little.
i will die on this hill.
like whenever merle made him cry, all he wanted was to sit in her lap and hide in the crook of her neck as she rubbed his back up and down.
that’s why those kinds of hugs are his favorite. he remembers feeling so loved and safe when she held him like that. 
he loves it when you make him feel big. whenever you compare hand sizes, sit on his lap or look up at him with wide eyes, squirming underneath him in bed.
being with daryl, you are automatically under the protection of his entire family. especially carol. out of everyone (besides you) carol knows daryl best. she knows how much you truly mean to him and the lengths he’d go for you.
he loves to be in control and to be the protector, but he also loves to feel loved and protected by you as well. 
he never had anyone looking out for him his entire life .. until you.
massages from daryl .. jesus christ. after a long day of scavenging and having no luck at all, you’d pull off your boots and throw them to the side. he’d pick your feet up and sit down, pulling them into his lap to knead in his hands.
then you’d crawl behind him and start working out some of the knots and kinks at the base of his neck. his eyes would close and he’d try so hard not to whimper and groan at your touch. just sinking into it.
he loves to hear stories about your life before the apocalypse.
good and bad.
he wants to know every single thing about you. he wants to know you best.
he also wants to be the one you confide in. he wants to be the one to make it better.. or make you feel better.
home isn’t a place for him. it’s you. you’re his home. wherever you are, he feels at peace with you by side.
he is so grateful for your patience with him. 
after an argument, he expects you to ignore him or lash out because that’s what he’s used to.
but you take him by the hands or touch his stubbly cheek and let him know that everything’s alright.
you understand that he can be irrational at times, yet you (almost) never hold it against him.
however………………
when you do ignore him or lash out after an argument, he knows he’s messed up.
and he will spend forever trying to make up for it. he would die trying. 
he often worries that he’s “holding you back” or not giving everything you deserve in a partner.
you have no problem reassuring him though because he reassures you too. 
he is always letting you know that he’s there for you. maybe not verbally, but he will do little things to show his limitless loyalty to you.
he protects you, cheers you up, takes care of you… makes love to you
whatever you need, he's on it.
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Guys I’m thinking about Rick and Daryl fighting, like Daryl is definitely a professional little brother and spends all day wrecking havoc upon Rick (and maybe a few others)
also I know Daryl is a hardcore hair puller. In the bed and in fights. When he and Merle would fight, it was like a second nature for his hands to latch onto to curly hair, yanking the strands and on one occasion knocking his head into a wall
me when rickyl but also brotherhood
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On the outside, Daryl Dixon was quiet, dark, and mysterious. He was a dusty book that had been closed and locked tight for decades, never opening up no matter who or what tried to pry. Most people would think that he was just one of the ones that never expressed any type of concern or emotion, but really, Daryl’s just a silent person. Until someone he knows pops into the picture.
“Get tha’ fuck off me! Get tha’ fuck off of me!” His voice rang out through the community alongside side Dogs chaotic barking.
People rushed out of their homes at what they thought were very distressed cries, Carol’s bow loaded and almost aimmed as he stepped out onto hers, only frowning deeply when she saw what all the ruckus was.
Daryl and Rick were wrestling in the dirt, the huntersman pinned down underneath the officer in a very uncomfortable looking position. Dog was barking at the two of them, tail wagging in the air as he stood in a playful position, standing over his defeated owner.
“Blah blah blah. You’re just a sore fucking loser” Rick laughed at him, pointing a finger in Daryl’s face, and pulling it away when his sharp teeth clamped down. “Gon’ make mah dog eat you alive” The man grumbled and squirmed.
“Gonna make the walkers eat you both alive” You sighed from where you had approached behind Rick, Dog now eagerly lapping and jumping around you as you too stood over your defeated hunter. “Seriously?” You shook your head and pushed Rick off the man, watching the way he dramatically fell over. “He started it! I was bein’ nice” Daryl frowns, and so does Rick, sitting up to face Daryl who had childishly wrapped himself around your leg. “Nuh uh, no! This asshole tried sticking mud down my pants!” Daryl cackled at the sentence and you knew he was gulity.
“You two are grown ass men” You huffed, shaking your leg slightly only for Daryl’s to tighten his grip. Absolutely wonderful.
“He needs to be put in time out” Rick grumbled, and you wondered if you were getting paid for this. “Time out?”
“Time out?” Carol approached, bow and arrow no longer in hand.
Daryl pointed at Rick, while Rick pointed at him, both men staring daggers at each other. “Him! He fucking started this!”
You share a look with Carol as the men bicker, and it’s quite funny untill you feel a sudden emptiness at your leg, and Daryl is hurling a ball of mud at Rick, who unfortunately catches it with his face. “Now I can really call ya ‘shitface grimes’” Daryl laughed as he climbed to his feet, standing behind you as Rick wiped his eyes clear, immediately locking them on his target.
Daryl doesn’t wanna admit that he didn’t think Rick would just go right around you, yelling when the officer took a swipe at him. “Stop it yew shit eater!” Daryl ran away with Rick hot on his heels, Dog sprinting right alongside them and barking excitedly.
“Can you imagine a small mini version of all that?” You shake your head, smiling softly at Carol. “You have got quite the character on your hands. Clinging to your leg? He must love you” You laughed, peering up the street where they had run off too, a cloud of dirt forming as they tussled, and from Daryl’s very loud screams he was probably getting what he deserved. “Dealing with him? He better love me” You scoff, knowing that your giant manchild loves you more than life itself.
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Each press of the cotton to his skin makes him hiss, and he winces at the burning sting of alcohol. “No more fights” You frown softly, tilting Daryl’s head as you cleaned his wounds, gingerly placing bandaids over them. “But he-“ “Yes I know he started it, he also finished it” Daryl pouts, legs swinging off the countertop. You stick a bandage over his nose, and kiss his forehead. “All better. I want you in this house before it’s too dark, okay?” Daryl drops onto his feet, and plants a quick but eager kiss on your lips. “Yes mama” He tosses over his shoulder as he snatches his crossbow off the floor, barreling out the door with Dog. You watched them go, a smile tugging your lips. It faded at the sound of a Rick’s high pitched scream.
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looks around because I dont know what happened and because I really like childish Daryl now and wanna write more
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dixons-sunshine · 7 days
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👉👈 Because your my fav writer for Dad Daryl 👉👈 Just wondering if you’d consider him stepping up as a parental figure for his niece (Merle’s kid) after he “died” and when he actually died 👉👈
I'm Right Here | Uncle!Daryl Dixon x Niece!Reader (platonic/familial)
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Summary: With Merle gone, you were the only family Daryl had left. He had unofficially stepped up as your dad, and in those eight months with your actual father "dead", Daryl was a better dad than Merle ever was. And he proved it in more ways than one, even before Merle went missing.
Genre: Fluff, some light angst.
Era: The Quarry, The Prison (season three).
Warnings: Swearing, mentions of blood and death, fear of abandonment.
Word count: 2.4k
A/n: I've been bouncing back and forth between fics and finally managed to finish this. Next up is I Never Lived For The Applause, and then some more young!Daryl. Anyhow, I hope you like this!
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“Hey, kiddo. Ya alrigh'?”
“I'm fine. The walkers didn't get me,” you tried to reassure him. “You didn't find my dad?”
You looked up at the sound of your uncle's voice, meeting his intense gaze. You gave him a small, unconvincing smile that he could see through instantly.
Daryl sat down on the log next to you, placing his crossbow down on the ground. He stared ahead at the ashes of the prior night's fire, an unreadable expression on his face. “Nah. Wasn't nothin' to find 'cept his hand. He had to cut it off.”
You winced, absentmindedly grabbing your own hand at the mere thought of the pain that it must've caused your father. Despite your strained relationship with the man for obvious reasons, he didn't deserve that fate—to lose his hand because some people couldn't find another way to deal with his temper.
“Oh,” you mumbled, feeling your heart break. Despite everything, Merle was your father and you loved him. At least he had stuck around. The same couldn't be said for your mother, who had dropped you on Merle's doorstep the moment you were born.
“Yeah,” Daryl responded, instantly picking up on your downtrodden mood but not knowing how to bring you comfort in a moment like that. He'd just essentially told you, his thirteen year old niece that was so wise beyond her years due to the shit Merle had gotten into, that your father was most likely dead. It tore him apart to have to bestow that news on you, but it was necessary. What could he do, lie to you? That was out of the question.
You blinked the tears away that had started to well up in your eyes, trying to put on a brave face for your uncle. “Looks like it's just us now, huh, uncle Daryl? The two remaining Dixons.”
Daryl gave you a tight-lipped smile and ruffled your hair, chuckling quietly at the sound of protest you let out. “Looks like it. We're gon' give the world hell, ya and I. Jus' like the old times.”
You smiled up at him. Even though your father was gone, you still had your uncle, and that made you feel better about everything.
“We are. The world ain't ready for us.”
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“It won't work.”
“S'gotta.”
“It'll stir things up,” Rick told Daryl, adamant with his decision.
“Look, the Governor's probably on the way to the prison righ' now. Merle knows how he thinks, and we could use the muscle,” Daryl replied defiantly, glancing between his companions on the road.
“Do you really want him sleeping in the same cellblock as Carol, Beth or Y/n?” Glenn questioned, unwilling to let Merle, a known hothead and former drug user, near the people he's come to care about.
“He ain't a rapist,” Daryl responded, frowning at Glenn's accusation. “And he sure as hell wouldn't touch his own daughter like tha'. Merle may be sick in some ways, but he ain't like tha'.”
“Yeah, okay, but his buddy is.”
“They ain't buddies no more. Not after last nigh'.”
Rick chipped in to the conversation, turning the archer's attention back to him. “There's no way Merle's gonna live there without putting everyone at each other's throats.”
“What, so ya'd cut Merle loose and bring the last samurai home with us?” Daryl asked, motioning over to Michonne who was waiting for them by the car.
“She's not coming back with us.”
“She's not in a state to be on her own,” Maggie denied, giving Rick a pointed look.
Glenn nodded in agreement to his girlfriend's statement. “She did bring you guys to us.”
“And then ditched us,” Rick stated in a bored tone, eyeing Michonne warily.
“At least let my dad stitch her up?” Maggie asked.
“It's too unpredictable,” Rick denied vehemently, shaking his head.
Daryl nodded in agreement. “He's righ', we dun' know who she is. But Merle... Merle's blood.”
“No. Merle is your blood. My blood, my family is standing right here and waiting for us back at the prison,” Glenn countered, crossing his arms over his chest.
“And you're part of that family,” Rick told Daryl, looking at him expectantly. “He's not. He's not.”
Daryl stayed quiet for a few moments, pondering over his decisions. Thoughts of leaving with Merle, going off and fending for themselves like the old days flashed through his mind, but then he thought of you. You, his sweet, kind, low-key badass, now fourteen year old niece who he'd gone to great lengths to protect over the past eight months. The girl who he'd been taking care of since his brother "died", the girl who had unknowingly started to feel like his own daughter, though he would never tell Merle that. And at that moment, he knew he couldn't just leave. He wouldn't.
“Man, wha' do y'all expect me to tell my niece?” Daryl began, effectively silencing everyone. “Tha' I found her father after all this time and he's alive, but he couldn't come back to her 'cause y'all said so? How's tha' gon' fly with her? Ya'd really deprive the girl a chance at gettin' her father back 'cause of wha' might happen?”
That seemed to really make everyone reconsider. Even Glenn didn't have a counter argument now. Everything was silent for a good thirty seconds while Rick weighed his options, exchanging wordless exchanges with Maggie and Glenn. It was clear that nobody wanted it, but the group couldn't deny Daryl's argument. They cared about you, and it would be unfair for them to deny you the chance of getting your father back.
Rick turned and whistled, signalling Merle over. When he stood in front of him, Rick gripped him by his shirt, getting into his face.
“You're coming with us, but this isn't an invitation for you to be a jackass with everyone back at the prison. The only reason you're even coming back is because of your daughter. If it wasn't for her, you'd be gone.”
Merle's eyes widened the slightest bit with surprise, but it soon morphed back into his usual careless look. “Well, would ya look at tha'. My lil' girl still lives. M'surprised, quite honestly. Didn't think she was built fer this world. Kinda expected her to have kicked the bucket by now.”
“Man, shut up!” Daryl's voice boomed unexpectedly, shutting his brother up. “Dun' make me regret convincin' them to bring ya back. And if ya even say one degradin' thing to yer daughter, I will personally gut ya and feed ya to the walkers. Tha' kid's been through 'nough.”
Unbeknownst to either brother, Rick, Glenn and Maggie had walked ahead to get everything settled into the car, leaving the two brothers to their feud. It was a good idea, too. That was a family matter.
“Wha', ya actually care 'bout her now? Didn't see ya stickin' 'round to play pretend with her back before the world went to shit, and now yer tryna tell me how to parent my own child? Nah, lil' bro. Tha' ain't how it works.”
Daryl scoffed and shoved past him, walking over to the car. He didn't miss the unmistakable sound of Merle's laughter, rolling his eyes at it. He pressed forward and slipped into the passenger's seat, not missing the way everyone tensed up when Merle got into the car.
He just hoped that he hadn't made the wrong decision by bringing Merle back.
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You and Carl were rushing over to the gates when you saw the familiar vehicle enter the courtyard. The car was noticeably more crowded, and with one glance through the window, you were relieved to see your uncle. You had been so worried that something might have happened to him, but there he was, relatively unscathed.
Daryl was barely out of the car when you practically launched yourself into his arms. He stumbled a bit but regained his footing, hugging you tightly to him. He didn't miss the unmistakable sound of your sniffles.
“Hey, kiddo, s'alrigh'. M'okay,” he reassured you in whispered tones, rubbing his hand up and down your back in comfort.
“I was so scared. I couldn't stop fearing the worst,” you choked out, trying to will the sobs away. You buried your face into your uncle's shirt, dampening it slightly with your tears, but he didn't seem to mind.
“M'righ' here. I ain't goin' nowhere, I promise,” he assured you. “No more tears, alrigh'? Ain't no more need fer 'em.”
“Well, ain't this jus' sweet.”
A familiar raspy voice met your ears. You tensed up, pulling away from the hug and turning around, facing the man you had thought to be dead for eight months—your father, Merle Dixon.
“Wha', no hugs fer yer old man, girl?” Merle asked, a grin on his face as he extended his arms in a silent invitation for a hug. “Yer not gon' greet the man who helped with givin' ya life?”
Subconsciously, you took a step back. Daryl stepped in front of you, shielding you with his body. He gave Merle a warning glare before turning to you.
“Why dun' ya go help Hershel with tha' lady we brought back? I know he's been teachin' ya some medical things. It'd do ya good to learn how to do stitches.” You nodded, understanding his underlying message and sped off, leaving him alone with Merle. Daryl turned to face him, a glare on his face. “Man, back the hell off. She ain't gotta give ya anythin' if she dun' want to.”
“Because I was with the enemy?”
“'Cause yer a simple minded piece of shit who never even bothered to play dolls with her, much less give her hugs! Ya wanna know somethin'? When tha' lady dropped her off on our doorstep, who do ya think took care of her when yer ass was too high or drunk to? To answer yer question from earlier, I did stick 'round. I changed her diapers. I bathed her, fed her, stayed up with her at nigh' when ya wouldn't. I took care of her. Ya were jus' too fuckin' out of it most of the time to realise it! Hell, did ya think those things happened magically?”
“Now listen here, bro—” Merle started, but Daryl didn't light up.
“And when she got older, who the hell do ya think took her to school? Picked her up, encouraged her to do the spelling bee, went to parent teacher conferences? Do ya think the fuckin' tooth fairy did tha'? Say wha' ya want, bro, but she dun' owe ya shit. Ya may not have been like dad, but ya weren't a good father, either.”
Merle stayed silent for a moment, the weight of his brother's final statement weighing heavily on his shoulders. “Then why the hell did ya convince 'em to bring me back?”
“'Cause despite everythin', tha' girl still loves ya. And she deserves to have her father 'round,” Daryl responded simply before turning around and stalking off, leaving Merle alone and dumbfounded.
Merle Dixon wasn't right about most things, but one thing he knew for certain he was right about was that you probably didn't care whether he was dead or not. If what Daryl was saying was true, you didn't need him. You had a perfectly good father figure in your life already. Daryl had been a better father to you than your actual father was.
And for some unknown reason, that crushed Merle's heart.
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“You found him like that?”
Daryl's heart shattered at the broken sound of your voice. It was the second time that he had needed to tell you that Merle was dead, but this time, it was real. Your father's lifeless corpse layed motionless six feet in the ground in the designated graveyard, Daryl having dragged him there and buried him.
Daryl nodded. “Found him as a walker. He had tried to kill the governor but failed. Son of a bitch got to him first.”
“I should've stopped him. I should've known that something was wrong,” you said, a sob threatening to escape your body. “Before he left, he told me that he was proud of me. That he loved me. I should've known that there was a reason to it. He never told me that before. I should've—”
A choked up sob finally fell past your lips. Daryl instinctively pulled you into his arms, offering to be the pillar of strength for you as you crumbled. Despite everything, Merle was still your father. You still had a handful of good memories with the man—when he wasn't drunk or high, Merle was an okay father. But just okay.
It took a while, but you finally managed to calm down. Instinctively, Daryl pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head, running his hand soothingly over your back.
“S'alrigh', kiddo,” he whispered soothingly.
You didn't know what made you say what you said next. Maybe it was the fact that you weren't thinking straight. Maybe it was because you were desperately looking for a pillar of support, you didn't know. But before you could stop it, the words slipped past your lips—
“Please don't leave me. I can't lose you too, Dad.”
A moment of silence passed. Unbeknownst to you, a small smile spread over Daryl's face. He pulled you closer to him.
“Ya still got me. M'here and I ain't goin' nowhere, kid. Yer stuck with me.”
Merle Dixon wasn't always a good man. He wasn't always a good father either. But in the midst of a cruel world, before and after the dead started walking, Merle managed to give Daryl a sweet gift—you, his daughter. Because despite biological relations, you were now truly his.
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ashtheketchum · 1 month
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A new family Part 2
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A/N: Here is the second part! To be honest, I don't know how long this story will last, but hey. If you like it, it's good if the story is long xD
Taglist: @clairealeehelsing
Part 1 here
Warnings: Mention of abuse and rape, mild panic attack, insults (slut, bitch)
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PoV (Y/N):
The sun was starting to set as I set out to punch the Dixon brothers. I waited at their tents, trying to calm myself.
“Which bitch is standing in front of my tent now?” I heard an aggressive voice.
Although I had been a little calmer until now, the anger was boiling inside me again.
I looked angrily at the Dixon brothers, who had squirrels and a badger with them. They were probably hunting again, because that was their only job in this camp.
Daryl looked at me for a moment before turning his gaze to the floor.
"Are you kidding me!?" I just screamed loudly.
"How can you scream at an 8 year old so that she runs screaming and crying to her mother!?" I screamed loudly again.
Merle laughed briefly while Daryl tensed.
Then Merle walked towards me and he threw the dead animals to the ground. He was now standing right in front of me, I could smell his bad breath as well as his sweat.
"Yar 8 year old gurl went after ma brotha! She’s probably just as much of a slut as ya!”
Merle's words made me pause for a moment.
So (D/N) really didn't listen to me and looked for Daryl. She had probably given him the necklace. I looked at Daryl briefly before pushing Merle away and walking towards him. I held out my hand angrily, he knew exactly what I wanted.
"Give it back to me. You don’t deserve it, dirty Dixon.” I said angrily.
Daryl looked at me annoyed for a moment before pulling the necklace out of his pocket and throwing it in my face.
"She wa´ ugly anyway." He hissed before ramming into me and walking away.
Merle followed his little brother before I went away to cool off.
(D/N) was lying in our tent, she was still sniffling and small tears were rolling down her cheeks. I sat down next to her and pulled her into a hug.
"Is everything ok, honey?" I whispered quietly.
"Mom… why do Merle and Daryl hate us so much…? They remind me of Dad…”
Her words made me jump for a moment.
The memories of my ex-husband, her father, came back and I also felt tears in my eyes.
"I don't know, honey… I don't know…" I murmured quietly.
(D/N)'s father and I knew each other for a long time before we got together.
We were actually an inseparable couple, but I got pregnant from him and from then on everything changed. He slept with other women while I had to go through the pregnancy alone, and when (D/N) was born, he beat me and raped me multiple times a day.
(D/N) noticed everything sometimes, especially when her father yelled at me.
He wasn't any better to (D/N). He constantly yelled at her and sometimes locked her in her room without giving her anything to eat. When the world ended, we secretly packed a few things before running away.
Before that, however, I opened all the doors so that the walkers ate him. I could hear his screams and they still haunt me sometimes, to this day.
(D/N) fell asleep after a while while I continued to stay awake, staring into space.
Tears streamed down my face as I had my hand over my mouth so as not to wake (D/N), or anyone else. It was only after several minutes that I calmed down so that I could at least get some sleep.
The next morning my eyes were still slightly swollen and reddish from my tears, but I ignored it too. Since (D/N) was used to seeing my eyes like that, she didn't ask. But Lori and Carol noticed.
They asked me if everything was okay, but I assured them that I was okay.
That same day, Glenn, Tdog, Andrea, Merle and Morales were sent out to look for new supplies. At least Merle was gone now for a few days, we could just ignore Daryl.
(D/N) and I sat together and read a book together.
She was getting better and better and I was happy to see that she was enjoying reading. Suddenly I heard someone walking towards us and I immediately looked around. Luckily for me, it was Daryl walking towards us.
I glared at him as he slowly walked towards us. He wanted to kneel down next to (D/N), but I immediately pulled my daughter away from him.
"He, I didn't yell at yar lil one…" Daryl just grumbled, pissed off.
"That's right, Mom…" (D/N) just murmured quietly.
I sensed that she wanted to get off me, so I let her. (D/N) sat back down between Daryl and me and continued reading the book.
Daryl looked at her for a moment before raising his hand.
(D/N) and I immediately jumped and I pressed her against me protectively. Daryl looked at us in shock for a moment before carefully lowering his hand and gently patting (D/N)'s head.
(D/N) and I immediately relaxed again, while Daryl then looked at me quietly.
"I wan´ the necklace back…" He then murmured quietly.
For a moment I didn't understand what he meant by that, before I carefully pulled out the necklace from (D/N) and gave it to him.
"Thank´…" He just mumbled before he got up and went into the forest.
"Why is Daryl so nice, Mom?" (D/N) asked me while stroking her head.
"I don't know…" I just mumbled quietly as I watched him go.
We decided not to read any further, instead we went to Dale and she watched the birds with him. I went to Carol and Jacqui's, who were cooking something to eat for tonight.
The others came back that same day, but without Merle.
But another man came along. He was wearing a police uniform and looked around uncertainly. But suddenly Carl screamed loudly and he ran towards the man, just like Lori. Carl kept shouting 'Dad!', so it was immediately clear to me who this man was.
I walked uncertainly towards Tdog, who looked at Glenn, who silenced the red car and got a lecture from Dale.
"Where is Merle?" I asked.
Tdog just looked at me uncertainly before explaining what had happened.
Merle was chained to a roof because he wanted to attack Tdog and the others. But the key fell from the handcuffs and he couldn't pick them up.
"I didn't mean to…" Tdog muttered at the end.
"It's all okay… Merle is… well, Merle… the only one who won't stay calm is Daryl…"
I murmured quietly. Tdog nodded very tensely before I then went to (D/N).
(D/N) didn't even ask about Merle, as if she didn't even know he was there.
I told her to stay close to me tomorrow because I was afraid of how Daryl would react. You never knew, especially when it came to Merle.
Daryl didn't come back until the next day.
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Darkest Before the Dawn
Chapter two : Wildflowers
Pairing : Daryl Dixon x f!reader (endgame), (unrequited) Glenn Rhee x f!reader
Series summary : When Glenn Rhee comes into your life, you become convinced he's a guardian angel sent by your late best friend. You think he's your soulmate. But then he falls for the farmer's daughter, and you find that your own angel may be a little more blatant than expected; wings and all.
Chapter summary : As time passes, you grow more concerned about the group in Atlanta. Daryl faces an internal conflict while hunting.
Chapter warnings : I believe just language? Please let me know if you notice anything else!
Word count : 1.6k (I wanted this one to be longer but it felt too cluttered, so the next chapter will just come in quick succession)
A/N : Thank you so much for all the positive reception on the first chapter! I'm open to starting a taglist for this series if anyone's interested. Just send me an ask :)
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When Carol returns, she hands you two mini Hershey's chocolate bars. "Courtesy of Sophia," She tells you with a gentle smile.
You gave your best smile in return. "I'll have to thank her later."
After eating the candy, you started to feel a bit better. Carol stayed with you until you declared you were going back to your tent, trying to catch a couple more hours of rest.
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When you awoke, a few hours had passed. Enough for the sun to emerge from the horizon and the camp to grow lively with the sounds of everyone starting their day.
Crawling out of your tent, you were satisfied to find that your head didn't spin. Really must've been an episode of low sugar; thank god for Carol. You should find both her and Daryl, to thank them for their help.
You find Carol pouring dry cereal into bowls for the kids at a picnic table. Mischievously, you sneak behind Carl to snag a freeze-dried marshmallow from his bowl. "Hey!" He calls, a pout heavy on his lips while you toss it into your mouth. You stick your tongue out at him, ruffling his hair. He makes a face, but sinks back into easy conversation with Sophia in no time.
Turning to Carol, you find her eyes already on you. She's staring at you with an emotion you can't quite place, but it seems sweet and somber simultaneously.
She pours you your own bowl wordlessly. When she hands it to you, you place it on the table behind you before grabbing her hands in your own. You regret the sudden movement instantly, when she briefly flinches before relaxing into your gentle touch.
"Thank you for earlier, I don't know what I would've done without you." You say with a genuine smile and a tone of exasperation. She nods, returning your smile. You let her hands go, sitting down on the bench with your bowl of cereal.
Sophia sits on your left, enthusing with Carl about one of her dolls, kicking her feet and shoveling spoonfuls of sugary cereal between words. You eat your cereal silently while you wait for her rant to come to an end. This is a very important topic, after all.
Finally, she concludes the telling of her doll's very intricate backstory. "Sophia," You call gently. "Your mom lent me a couple of your candybars this morning. I promise I'll bring you a king size bar soon!" You wink. She giggles and nods, ever the shy kid.
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After breakfast, you decided to try and track down Daryl to give him your thanks. Weaving through tents and trees to reach the far end of the quarry, you arrive at the Dixon campsite. To your displeasure, there's no Daryl in sight. Only Merle, sitting on a tree stump cleaning his rifle. He doesn't look up when you approach, and you debate just turning back. But, Daryl truly does deserve your thanks and you want to be sure he receives it. "Where's Daryl?"
Merle chuckles, hands stilling over the rifle on his lap. He looks up at you over his brow-bone with a smirk. "Wasn't sure my baby brother had it in him," His chesire grin only grows when you scoff and roll your eyes. It's not like that with Daryl and you're certain he knows that too. "Oh, cmon, sugar! I ain't one to get in the way of young love! Sorry to say, though, Darylina ain't here. Went huntin' before the sun." So that's why Daryl was fully dressed in the early hours of morning. You suppress a sigh of disappointment at your failed mission, knowing that would only egg on Merle's teasing.
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Word had spread quickly around camp about your early morning escapades (though you'd hardly label it that as it wasn't quite exciting) and you'd been sternly grounded; no runs for the near future.
As the group prepared for their journey to Atlanta, your heart felt heavy. Nothing quite prepares you for just how boring the apocalypse is, especially when your favorite person is going on a run without you.
You flick the rim of Glenn's cap, standing in front of him next to the van. He swats your hand away gently, always careful with you. This is the first time he's gone on a run without you since he found you, and you're not sure what to say. 'Goodbye, hope you come back alive.'? 'Good luck not getting torn apart by the living dead.'?
Glenn beats you to the punch. "I'll see you later." He says, casually. Something about the way it's so easy for him feels like a knife twisting in your gut. You know he's an optimist, you know he believes he's going to see you later, but it hurts to think that he's not as worried about never seeing you again as you are. Overall, you're reminded that you're nothing but a friend to him. One he's only known for a month.
"Yeah, I guess I'll see you later." You breathe, lump forming in your throat when he just grins at you before hopping into the back of the van.
You walk away before you can watch it leave.
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The day seems to drone on, time moving slowly. You're holding a variety of tools for Dale, handing them off to him each time he makes a request. He and Jim have their heads firmly pointed into the hood of the Winnebago. Wiping the sweat off his forehead, Dale sighs exasperatedly. "Boy, that hose isn't long for this world, is it?"
Jim shakes his head solemnly. "No, sir." Dale hands you back a variety of tools for you to tuck into the toolbox at your feet. He slams the hood shut.
"Where the hell are we gonna find a replacement?"
"Maybe Glenn and I could find an auto store in the city." You offer, shrugging. Dale had made a great friend and mentor; you think you'd do just about anything to make that old man happy. Including risking your life for a damn radiator hose.
"It's late. They should be back by now." Amy yells over. You agree. There's been a nagging sense of concern in the back of your mind. Your trips never take this long.
Dale looks to Amy with an empathetic expression. "Worrying won't make it better." He tells her. The words weren't meant for you but you let them resonate. Worrying won't make it better.
When garbled speech starts to spew over the radio, Dale snatches it up. "Hello? Hello? Reception's bad on this end. Repeat, repeat." He yells into the radio. There's a crowd now gathered around, awaiting a response from the other end. You'd gotten a strange signal the day before but even still you were certain this time it was your group.
More unintelligible speaking comes through. "Is that them?" Lori asks. The next message is clearer. T-dog is speaking, something about trapped and the department store. Your heart sinks to the soles of your feet at what that may imply for their fate. Dale tries once more to get a clearer message when the radio cuts out completely, leaving everyone with a pool of anxiety in their chest.
There's minimal chatter before Shane shuts down the thought of sending help immediately. "No way," He says. "We do not go after them. We do not risk the rest of the group. Y'all know that."
Amy's face turns from scared to red hot rage. "So, we're just gonna leave her there?" You watch Shane, who frankly looks agitated by Amy's reaction. He runs his hand through his hair, the other one placed firmly on his hip.
"Look, Amy, I know this isn't easy."
Amy cuts him off before he can finish that thought. "She volunteered to go to help the rest of us!"
Shane sighs. "I know, and she knew the risks, right?" The question hangs in silence for a second before he goes on. "See, if she's trapped, she's gone. So, we just have to deal with that. There's nothing we can do." You scoff at that.
Amy has a stronger reaction. "She's my sister, you son of a bitch!" She yells before turning and stomping off. Lori goes after her.
"And what about Glenn?" You ask Shane. He doesn't answer. "You people wouldn't have half of the shit here if it wasn't for him." You spit. Just then, thunder begins to rumble in the distance, and you retreat to your tent to wait out the incoming storm.
In classic southern fashion, the rain comes and goes just as quickly. You decide to stay in your tent, worry implanting in the back of your skull keeping you from wanting to socialize. The cheesy romance novel you found on your last run is all the company you'll need for now. A nice distraction from the images of your friends, trapped in Atlanta, being torn apart.
You've read two chapters when you hear it. A blaring car alarm and rock music. Louder than anything you've heard since the bombs dropped.
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Daryl feels stupid. He barely knows you, certainly doesn't like you. But here he is, staring at a patch of wildflowers. You'd like them, he thinks. He's noticed that embroidered patch on your bag. Flowers of all different pastel hues, some spots stained with dried blood. He crouches over them, pulling his knife from his belt.
His fingers stutter where he goes to slice the stems. It's what people do, right? A 'get well soon' gesture. He's nearly cutting it when a groan sounds behind him. It breaks him out of his trance. Standing, he scoffs, stomping on the flowers. He uses the same knife to plunge into the walker's skull. He doesn't know you, and he's sure as hell not going to be seen carrying around a bundle of flowers to give to a girl.
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Dating Daryl Dixon in eras
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Summary: What it would be like to date Daryl in different eras of the show
A/N: I don't really talk about my personal life on here because yall are here to get horny not sad, but I've been going through it. My girlfriend broke up with me, so I've been needing some Daryl Dixon in my life rn. This is just a bunch of ideas put together because I'm sad lol, but enjoy :)
Warnings: Normal TWD things and NSFW mentions
Word count: 4.2K
Short hair era/ Farm
-this was not his best era, he was a complete dick head to not only you but everyone else
-I wouldn’t even say that y’all were dating around this time because Daryl didn’t see you as his girlfriend, he looked at you more like a fuck buddy
-he refused to call you his girlfriend and he scolded you when you would call him your boyfriend, but y’all were weirdly together-ish?!?
-he was so up his brothers ass that he didn’t have time to have a girlfriend plus he always said he only fucked girls not dated them, “relationships are for pussies” he would tell you
-you did enjoy the sex but somewhere around that time you started to actually fall in love with Daryl Dixon
-You hated when Merle and Daryl were together and it was pretty much always
-Merle degraded you in so many ways and Daryl would turn the other cheek, it broke your heart every time.
-Daryl was a dick to you, yes, but he would never even think about going to Merle’s level. He never made you feel bad about yourself or made you uncomfortable, he was always somewhat respectful.
-He would even tell you that you were pretty sometimes… in his own way
-“god this shirt looks terrible on me…”
-“Shut up… your tits look nice in it”
-when you all assumed merle was dead that’s when Daryl got a bit nicer to you
-He started staying the night with you instead of fucking the shit out of you than leaving you all sweaty and sticky
-he would never cuddle you though, like ever. If you wanted to maybe wrap yourself around him, he’d let it but he wouldn’t be giving the same energy back
-He was bearable without Merle, you liked it actually
-When you guys got into the CDC building, Daryl was all over you… I mean literally
-He was always touching you in some way, holding onto your arm tightly or putting his hand on your thigh
-You knew it was because he was happy, for the first time in a couple of weeks he felt somewhat safe
-you guys definitely fucked in the shower… many times
-“Fuck… one thing I missed about the old world is hot water… and being able to fuck you anytime I wanted..” he moaned while literally rearranging your guts
-After the CDC Daryl started to appreciate you a little more, you all could’ve died… it opened Daryl’s eyes
-he realized that you were too good for him, like way too good yet you still chose him even after him being a dick to you
-Daryl would pick you flowers and lay them at your pillow at night, he was too scared to give them to you straight up but you always knew they were from him
-You realized you were in love with Daryl when you found yourself by his side after Andrea had shot him, he was all cut up and his head wrapped
-You saw how he did that all for a little girl, maybe he did have a mental breakdown but he still did it for her
-That’s when you knew you had fallen in love with him and hell maybe he was falling in love too
-You would read to him, he rolled his eyes and pouted when you did but he secretly loved it
-Daryl found himself in the woods by himself because of you… he wanted to be a better man for you, he wanted to find himself so maybe than he could be the man you deserved
Prison era
- I love this era so much because I know this man was a little horn dog towards you
- I mean he was quite literally inside of you at all times, sex was at its peak in this era
-He’s had so many near death experiences at this time that he learned to appreciate a woman’s body when he had it
- your cell neighbors hated you because no matter how quiet you tried to be, they always heard your muffled moans at night
- Daryl would be so protective of you too, when you went on runs (which were very rare since he wanted you to stay in the safety of the prison) he would have you stay behind him at all times
- “Daryl! It’s just two walkers!! I can handle it” you whisper screamed
-“Yea, two walkers that could rip out ya’ throat in a heartbeat! I said stay put!!”
-“Your no fun..” you said rolling your eyes
-He knew you could fend for yourself, you were tough but he couldn’t risk it. He would never admit it but you were his reason for breathing
-He never quite had a home, he lived in places but it was never a home to him. So finding you, someone who made him feel at home anywhere… he cherished that
-When the prison was in the first stages of development, Daryl noticed you only had one flimsy blanket you would cuddle up with at night… and the nights got cold.
-Daryl hunted for hours for a nice fluffy blanket for you, it took him hours to find one but he found the perfect one. When he got to the prison that night, walking into your shared cell, he saw your shivering underneath the thin blanket.
- He softly wrapped you up in the blanket, making sure every part of your body was covered with the soft material… you woke up that morning confused about the blanket but you knew who it was from
-you gave him head after that :)
-Whenever Daryl brought you gifts, you would savor them… even if it was a lingerie set, it wasn’t exactly flowers but it was something.
-Daryl wasn’t just protective… bitch he was also possessive
-You were his… nobody else could touch you or talk to you or even think about you. Especially men.
-it’s not that he didn’t trust you, he trusted you with his entire life but he didn’t trust other men
-He was a guy so he knew how they thought, he knew what a man can do to a girl like you and the thought of it made him angry
-Every guy in the prison knew you were off limits… like completely.
-When they tried to talk to you, literally just a normal conversation, Daryl would make it known that he would break their jaw if they made a move on you
-You didn’t mind though, you thought it was sweet and you felt protected plus the jealous sex was always a plus :)
-When the flu hit, you got sick…
-Daryl was terrified, he watched as you would cough your little heart out and you looked so sickly…
-He hated himself for allowing this to happen, he should’ve protected you even though he had no control of the virus
-“I’m sorry…” he said, watching your chest heave up and down weakly
-“Dar… honey, it’s not your fault…” you said weakly
-when Hershel found a way to stop the flu from spreading and help the sick, Daryl made him give it to you first… he couldn’t risk losing you without a fight
-It worked obviously and that was the day Daryl Dixon could see his entire life with you, he could see him walking up to you everyday… even when your all old and weak
-Daryl held you a little tighter at night now, kissed you more often and became softer with you when he fucked you
- he was starting to actually fall in love with someone, something he never knew he had the capacity to do
-Until the governor came along splitting everyone up including you and Daryl
-You found yourself alone and Daryl was stuck with Beth…
-Daryl assumed the worst, he knew you were too good for him and something was obviously going to take that away from him so he just figured it would be easier to mourn you
-Beth knew Daryl was depressed, she knew how much you meant to him and now you were gone…
- Daryl tried to act like it didn’t matter to him, he tried to make it seem like you were just another girl he had met along the way but Beth wasn’t stupid… she knew
-She tried to get him drunk, sing to him, make him forget that you were gone just for a minute… just so he could heal
-It never worked and as the days passed, Daryl gave up on trying to be sad and instead went numb
-You weren’t doing any better, you were all alone which made it so much worse.
-You cried yourself to sleep for days, holding on to the only thing you had left of Daryl… a black shirt that he mostly wore to sleep
-You we’re almost about to give up until there was a sign of the group still… that fueled you to go on, only caring to see if Daryl saw the same signs
-When you saw him again… it was when he carried Beth out of the hospital and suddenly you felt his pain… you weren’t happy to see him suddenly, wishing you could go back to your loneliness just so you didn’t have to see him the way he was
-He never talked about Beth to you… ever. You don’t know what happened on their trip, you don’t know if he even Thought of you but you knew right now he was hurting… hurting so bad that not even you could break his sadness
- Even if he was wallowing in his own pity, he still needed you. At night he would hold you close to him, he would hold your hand secretly while walking down the roads, he would always cover you up with his jacket at night
-His brother and Beth’s death changed him… Maybe for the better or maybe for the worst, which ever it was he learned to appreciate the little things now
Alexandria
-Daryl kinda retracted in this era I think, he had experienced so much loss that he became numb. He went back to his “being Merle’s little brother” mindset and he became a bit of a loner
- he also felt like such an outcast in Alexandria so he didn’t want to be there
-You made him feel better though, you would always try to include him in things
-you made it clear to him that you would much rather spend all your time with him than anyone else
-“don’t let me stop you from having fun… go to the party.”
-“no! I’m not going if you aren’t… besides, we’ll get the whole house to ourselves” you smirked
-His sex drive never slowed either which was nice but also wasn’t
-you had to share a house with your entire group to privacy was a luxury in such a small home
-The only way you were able to get Daryl into the shower was telling him that the shower was the only privacy YALL will be getting any time soon
-Let’s just say showers became yalls favorite thing
-Daryl warmed up to everything after a while, he actually kind of liked Alexandria especially after you guys were assigned a small little house for yourselves
- Again this era of Daryl was possessive as hell, like he made sure everyone knew you were his from day one
-You would always have hickeys on your neck or complain of your body hurting after a night with Daryl
-Daryl became a lot less touchy with you around this time though which was weird because he loved to touch you
-The only touch you received from him was through sex and maybe sometimes he would cuddle up with you at night, but mostly so he could press his dick on your ass go hint that he wanted you
-Daryl’s gifts also slowed too, it was rare to receive a gift from him around these times.
-You could tell Daryl was just trying to heal and cope so you didn’t mind much, you even spent those times focusing on yourself.
-You never let Daryl forget how much he meant to you though and honestly sometimes he needed that.
-Obviously Daryl wasn’t completely cold to you like he would be in the early seasons
-He made time to spend with you, he would always let you know he was thinking of you in some kind of way.
Post-negan Alexandria
-This was a extremely hard time for Daryl, after being captured and blaming himself for Glenn’s death… he was completely numb even after he had put himself back together again
-This point in time he was extremely needy though, like he needed you all the time because he was genuinely scared and he didn’t know what he was doing
-He couldn’t sleep without you there with him, if you weren’t there he would be overthinking and it would be almost impossible to fall asleep
- When he was held captive, tortured in so many devilish ways… Dwight used you as a threat
-He explained everything that he had in store for you, telling him that you were next on negans “girls to marry” list and Daryl was the only one who could stop it
-It was all lies though but Daryl believed them, almost giving in if it meant to keep you safe
-“I’m telling you Daryl… that sweet girl of yours isn’t going to be yours forever, especially if you don’t make this choice.”
-“you stay away from her… Lay a finger on her and I’ll kill you”
-When he got back, he was far more protective of you than he was before
-Daryl liked when you rubbed his back at night, dragging your fingers softly over the old and new scars on his back
-He would lay his head on you, cuddling up at your side while you laid on your back. He would look up at you, seeing you drift to sleep while rubbing his back
-Daryl always left a note for you that told you if he was leaving, it doesn’t matter how long he would be gone, he would always leave one
-He knew that him being taken scared you to death, carol told him that you were extremely depressed and wouldn’t get out of bed most of the time
-so he leaves a note just to tell you where he’s going, just so the memories of him being gone won’t fill your little head
- Daryl always says “I love you” to you as well, it’s such a common phrase to yall know because he wants you to know how much he cares about you
-This is the era when Daryl is at his bottom peak bitch… lemme tell you
-He is so broken down and afraid that he will let you take whatever you need from him plus give him what he wants
-He’s such a bottom, like a whiny bottom too
-He will beg for you to let him cum inside you or literally have tears streaming down his face while you go as slow as you possibly can while take his cock inside you
-“please… y/n please go faster…”
-“Don’t be an impatient baby… you can wait!”
-He will literally moan and whine so much, such a little baby and you’d tease him for it too
- It took him months to come back into himself, you felt like he was a shell of who he once was but Daryl always came back to you… always
-You made sure to always reassure him that you loved him and you weren’t going to leave him
-He suffered from nightmares, bad ones too and some nights they would wake up. The sad thing is, Daryl apologized for waking you up and that broke your heart
-You hated when you felt like he had to apologize to you all the time, he would say he’s sorry to you like a mantra
Whisperers Era
-This was like Ricks “death” era so this means mf was so fucking sad, like he could not forgive himself
-The months following ricks “death” though he was always gone
-It started with small trips out in the woods but it slowly turned into full weeks of you being without him
-You waited for him for the first few weeks, staying up until he came home so you could clean him up
- but then you just gave up with it and went to bed without a second thought
-You however did always make a second plate for him and left the living room light on just in case
-you would go out and find him sometimes when you had a feeling something had happened, he was always in a different spot but always by the river
-You would bring him food and clean clothes, he was always happy to see you of course but he always seemed so sad
-“Are you coming home?”
-“Nah… not yet honey.”
-He only came back when he found out about the whisperers, mainly so he could keep you safe
- As soon as he did come back though, Judith and RJ were giving to him… that only added onto his anxiety
-You saw Daryl get lost along the way, he was stressed… full of rage and hatred for this stupid group that he knew nothing about
-When y’all took in Lydia, you could see the pain Daryl felt for her… and that’s when he opened up to you about his childhood
-It was when you were finally able to cuddle up with each other and get some sleep, Daryl was cuddled up into your side as you brushed your hands through his hair
-You don’t know what triggered it but he just bursted into tears, he tried to muffle his cries in your chest
-You went silent, not exactly knowing what to do but you made sure Daryl knew you were listening… even if he didn’t want to talk
-He told you all the horrors that he went through in his childhood, how his father beat him so many times and his moms death… he even told you about the river he used to go to when he wanted to get away from everything
-You listened silently, tears falling down your cheeks as you held him so unbelievably close to you
-“I just look at that girl… I see me, I see the same damn scared look on her face” he whimpered out
-That night brought you two together, it patched up the rocky relationship that had arose due to his absence
- The whisperer had taken so many people from y’all, causing more hatred and anger to arise from Daryl but he tried to keep his cool but you knew
-You were with the small group that went out to find the herd but instead got stuck in a cave that alpha set up for you
-Daryl’s main priority was you, always and forever but especially right now
-He made sure you got through the herd first, he made sure you were able to get through the small areas of the cave first, he cuddled up next to you to make sure you were warm, he made sure you got out first
- you both were exhausted after everything the whisperers out you through but than they unleashed the herd
-You all knew it was coming but this sparked a deep fear from within you that you had from the very beginning
-“Daryl… What if this is our last fight?  I mean what if we lose?” You asked as Daryl sharpened his blade
-“We’ve always worked it out in the end hun, don’t start talking like that now.”
-That day you made sure Daryl remembered how much you loved him, you made sure you bore it into his skin
-You both made love like it was your last time doing so, filled with soft kisses and moans that you didn’t even try to hide
- Than you fought together, fighting off the herd along with the whisperers that hid between them… you made sure it wasn’t your last fight together
- when you all thought it was over, beta decided to take revenge and trap y’all in the hospital
-You went through the herd with Daryl, holding his hand like it was your reasoning for life and Daryl made sure you were safe
-After everything was said and done, life never went back to normal but all you needed was Daryl and you were happy with that
Commonwealth
-Okay this is probably my favorite Daryl era :)
-He turns into a little house husband and it’s so cute
-Y’all live in a shitty little apartment with Judith and RJ, which they have basically become yalls children
-He’ll get the kids ready while you are still fast asleep because work took it out of you
-He’ll get up extra early just to make you some breakfast even though I just know this mf is terrible at cooking REAL food
-He’ll let you take a shower after work while he does the house chores but most of the time he joins you in the shower
-Okay obviously y’all will have sex in the shower like it goes without saying butttt, after or even before he’ll just help you clean yourself up
-He’ll help lather your hair up and scratch your scalp with his finger nails, it feels so good and you’ll just go limp in his arms for a bit
-Daryl hates his job lowkey, like he’ll do it but having to go through all the training and then having to take orders?!? Daryl is a loner and he feels he is his own boss so having to follow rules is hard for him
-You make sure to make his job a little easier by packing his lunch, you’ll put candy and sweet in there for him as well as real food.. the cute part is that you always write a cute little letter for him
-“Have a good day at work my love <3 just make sure you come back to me in one piece!!”
-He’ll just smile down at it, not even attempting to hide his smile
-Everyone else will make fun of him, laughing at his silly little blush as he reads your note for him
-“Hey Dixon! Don’t get all soft on us now!”
-“Hey, you mind asking your girl to make me one too? Shit may be blowy as well!”
-“You really are head over heels for that stupid girl ain’t ya? She’s not all that.”
-Daryl doesn’t care, he spent so long trying to hide you or make your love secret that now he doesn’t even try
-Speaking if you work, you have a cute little job!
-Daryl always visits you when he gets days off and just wants to see you, he thinks you look so cute in your uniform
-You’ll light up when you see him, bring him into a big hug and than tell him how your so happy to see him even if you saw him that morning
-He’ll bring you lunch with him as well, sometimes he’ll bring Judith and RJ just so they can see where you work
-Y’all are such a cute little family and it gets me so fucking soft
- Daryl just becomes a bit softie for you omfg
-The sex gets softer too but Daryl still has his hard times with you, if you want it hard and rough that night… you don’t have to tell him twice
-Okay but when you are at work and he visits you on your lunch break, he would definitely drag you into the nearest bathroom or have you go to the back of the store just so he can take you right then and there
-You would both go to the little parties they have at the commonwealth together :) like Daryl doesn’t dance at all and he’ll probably just stand there all tough but he’d still like seeing you all dolled up
-I keep getting this image in my head of the commonwealth being the first time Daryl had ever seen you drunk, idk why but it’s stuck in my head
-You’ll be all loopy, trying to grope in through his jeans and kissing all over him
-Daryl loved how touchy you were but you were drunk and he doesn’t do that
-“Come onnn daryll…” you dragged out as you attempted to kiss his lips
-“Doll… I swear to you that I want to take you right here right now, I would give anything… but ya’ ain’t sober and I want you when you’re sober.” 
-You eventually vomited everywhere and than fell asleep but Daryl thought you were cute when your were drunk
-When Daryl got the record player?!? You literally bought all types of records
-Daryl would get out of the shower, towel wrapped around him to see you in the kitchen cooking up dinner in only his shirt and underwear, dancing around like a maniac
-He also likes fucking you to music now
-When you guys had to move out of the commonwealth you were pretty upset
-You hated what the people there were doing but you couldn’t help but love it there, you got a glimpse back to the old work
-As you were packing up, Daryl noticed how sad your were so he came up behind you and kissed your neck softly
-“I’m sorry you have to leave your home again..”
- “You’re my home… I don’t care where we go as long as we’re together.”
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lunajay33 · 2 months
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New World🍂Part 2!
Summary: You grew up in a crappy town with one friend who kept you going, everything started to fall into place, that’s until the world ended and the dead ruled the world
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It’s been about a week since we got to the quarry and everything has been going smoothly…..well as smoothly as things could go with Merle around, he teased both Daryl and I every night that he stayed in the tent but in his gross ways that he talks
But I tried to put it to the side because I had my best friend with me and that’s all I could ask for
Today was a new day and we were running low on supplies so some people decided to go on a run to the city
“Hey y/n do you wanna come in the run with us?” Glenn asked as he came over to the table Daryl and I were sitting at
“She ain’ goin no where” Daryl answered before I got the chance
“I could help though”
“I ain’ risking your life out there, I need ya here where it’s safe, Merle can go in yer place” he said trying to plead with me
“Wow baby brother tryin to feed me to the walkers” Merle laughed as he came and sat next to me throwing his arm around my shoulder
Merle always did this, he thought it got a role out of Daryl, plus it made me damn uncomfortable
“Merle get your hands off me” I said swatting his arm away
“Yer a damn brat we should’ve left ya to the walkers” Daryl gave him a look that I’m glad I’ve never gotten, it honestly gave me the chills
“Fine I’ll go, only cause I gotta find me some more pills” he laughed before he left to get his shit together
Glenn had long go left knowing how Merle was with any person that wasn’t white here
“So ummm what are you gonna do today?” I asked feeling awkward now
“Gonna head out hunting, try and find somethin, might take awhile” he said as he cleaned his arrows
“Please be safe out there”
“Always am” he grunted but I saw a lift at his lips making me smile
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The day went on as we all carried on with our chores, I missed Daryl it’s only been a few hours but he was my biggest constant now and the fear of him alone placed a heavy weigh in my chest, but I know he’s knows how to handle himself out there……but still
Some of the girls and I were hanging clothes and it helped clear my mind
“I miss my straightener” Andrea said
“I miss my kitchen, making home made dinners every night” Lori smiled reminiscing
“…….i miss my vibrator” I stated as all the girls laughed
“Me too” Andrea and Carol said in unison making us all cry laughing now
“Y/n why do you need a vibrator when you got that Dixon basically sowed to your hip” Andrea said
“I…..I don’t know what you’re talking about” I would’ve said he was just my best friend like before but that’s not how it felt to me anymore
“Oh come on sweetie we all see how you both ogle at eachother when you think no one else sees, or when you’re doing chores he’s looking at you like you hung the moon in the sky, it’s adorable” Lori stated making me blush
“Don’t tell him please, I don’t want to ruin anything between us” I admitted
“Ooooooo I told you” Amy said pushing Andrea’s arm
“I guess I’ve felt it deep down for a long time, I mean he’s the whole package but, I’m just plain ol’ me, he could have anyone he wanted” I said clipping on of his shirts to the line
“You’re hilarious, if anything he doesn’t deserve you, girl you’re hot” Amy laughed
“Sure whatever, just everyone better keep their mouths shut”
I loved talking with the girls it always felt like we were back in the normal world, when all we had to worry about was paying bills
As we were tidying up I decided to take a nap, I couldn’t get much sleep last night with Merle’s snoring, so I told the girls and headed to my tent
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I woke up abruptly to a ruckus outside so I quickly unzipped the tent and ran out with my knife Daryl gave me, tight in hand
“YER TELLING ME YOU LEFT MY BROTHER ON THE ROOF” Daryl was back, and fuming
“He was a danger to us all he would’ve gotten us killed” this new guy said
Daryl was about to jump this guy when Shane got him in a choke hold, I ran over and pushed Shane off him
“What the hell is wrong with you, don’t EVER touch him like that again” I yelled at Shane
I knew Daryl past, hell I was the one usually to help get him through it and I know he didn’t like others touching him like that
I kneeled infront of Daryl and held his shoulder
“Are you okay” I asked worried
“ ‘m fine” he said swatting my hand away and standing up, it hurt but I understood
“Rick is going back to get him aren’t you” Lori said seeming angry
“Ya, I’ll get a group and we’ll head back for him, I won’t leave him out exposed, well he’s four tomorrow morning”
“Fine” Daryl groaned as he left out into the woods
I quickly followed him seeing him walk back and forth in the same spot I could tell he was fuming, he had a hard time controlling his temper sometimes
“Daryl I’m sorry” I said stopping him from his wandering
“Damn guy just shows up and now my brothers gone, the hell is wrong with him”
“We will find him, eventually you guys will find each other, you always do” I said pushing his hair back out of his face
He was quiet for some time trying to calm down I assume
“Sorry ‘bout before, I shouldn’ have smacked yer had away like that”
“Daryl it fine I just want you to be okay” I smiled
“It’s not”
“Come we need to get some food in ya and we should go down to the quarry and wash first it’s been a while” I took his hand and led him down the trail to the crystal blue water
“Do you wanna go first?” I asked
“Nah, go ahead” he motioned to the water as he sat on the rocky shore
He looked away as I stripped down and glided into the warm water, I was covered up to my shoulders when he looked back but this was clear water I’m sure he saw a little something but…I wasn’t apposed to it
“Me and the girls were talking earlier” I said as I ran my hand over my dirty skin
“Ya? ‘Bout what?”
“What we miss, some said straighteners, cooking in a nice kitchen, what do you miss Daryl?” I cupped my hands and let the water run through my hair
“Mm…probably our dinners, and the drives we’d take on Merle’s bike at night”
I remember those nights so fondly, wrapping my arms around his waist and holding him close as my hair flew behind me, the smell of him surrounding me, the cigarette and woodsy smell I adored so much
“I miss it too”
“What was yer answer to the girls” and my cheeks instantly exploded with heat
“Ummm nothing” I squeaked out
Which he obviously could tell I was lying
“Really? You miss nothing at all” he smirked his conniving smirk he knows I loath
“Maybe a few things”
“What do I gotta do fer ya to tell me?”
“Hmmm the only way I tell you is if you don’t laugh”
“Fine, now tell me”
God this was so embarrassing
“I said I missed…..my vibrator” I squeaked out the last part feeling my heart in my throat
I heard him choke obviously shocked by my response
“I told you not to make fun of me”
“I ain’ just can’t believe ya really used those thangs” he said trying to compose himself
“I’m a woman Daryl I have needs”
“What ‘bout them guys you talked too?”
“They never got past the part of getting to know each other, too many pricks in our town”
“Ya I get that, best ya don’t waist her time, ya deserve better”
I cleared my throat down with this embarrassing conversation
“Umm I’m done, your turn”
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(I’m gonna change from using *i* to *you* instead it’s just easier to write that way!)
After we were both washed up we headed back to came, ate our food and went to the tent
“I’ll take Merle’s bag tonight” Daryl said
“Oh okay” we changed and laid down
An hour went by and you couldn’t sleep, it was freezing without Daryl, you rolled over and whispered
“Daryl? Are you still awake?”
“Mmm” he grunted from an answer
“Can you come back to our sleeping bag, it’s too cold without you” you whined desperate for some warmth
You couldn’t see it but his eyes were wide open from shock, he didn’t say anything but he came back over and climbed in behind you
“Thanks”
“ ‘course” he whispered before his snores started to lull you to sleep
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The next day went on and they were gone looking for Merle for a long time, and it was worrying you, the sun was now setting and your belly felt like a knot of stress
As everyone was sitting around the fire Amy got up to use the washroom, a few minutes later she was screaming, you turned around and walkers were surrounding the camp coming from everywhere
You took your knife and jammed it into the walkers that came near you, until a big one stumbled over and fell ontop of you, you struggled until an arrow shot it dead, well…. forever dead now
It was pulled off of you and Daryl picked you up and held you against his chest, you wrapped you arms around him feeling lucky to have him back and safe
“Are ya okay?” He asked looking you over for bites
“I’m okay, are you okay D?”
“Fine, Merle got away, knew he’d be comin back to take revenge”
Everything died down, the camp lost a lot of people, when the sun rises we buried our dead and burned the walkers
“Where do we go now, it’s not safe here anymore” Lori asked the group but mostly Rick and Shane
“We head to the CDC that’s the only place I can think will still be running”
So after everyone packed up we got in our cars and were off, thankfully it was just Daryl and you in his truck, giving you both some much needed peace
“Do you think we’ll be safe at the CDC?” you asked looking over at him
“We best be, we ain’ got much more places to go”
You could see the worry in his body tension, and the way he talked, sure he was a grump with everyone else but not you, never you
“We’ll find something Daryl, as long as we have each other” he looked at you and looked back at the road nodding
We’d be okay…….right?
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Part.3<-
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Disclaimer!: I am not a writer😭 I just wanna say stuff that I think about Daryl cuz it’s fun and he’s all I think about so that’s what this is.
I really believe that Daryl has anxiety. Like, it was super bad when he was a little kid, feeling like he could throw up or pass out any time he was in a social situation, it was more visible as a child with wobbly legs and shaky hands. Merle would just call him a pussy and tell him to grow up so over the years he learnt how to deal with it better, making it completely invisible to anyone else.
Once the apocalypse started it was kind of a blessing in disguise, it was just Daryl and his big brother so he pretty much forgot he even had anxiety. It wasn’t so bad at the quarry and the farm because he kept his distance. He’d go off on carol when she got too close because he got comfortable being alone and when others would invade his space he'd feel the old spike of nausea that reminds him who he really is, a coward like his brother told him.
during the time at the prison, he got closer to the group, in proximity and friendship wise. there wasn't much choice but he eased himself into talking to rick more instead of just taking orders without another word. He got closest to carol because somehow she seemed to understand him and she knew not to push and to give him space.
when merle returned, so did the old daryl, becoming more hostile and like a little puppy who does what merle says but he came to his senses eventually.
after getting stuck with Beth after the fall of the prison he came to realise that not everyone thinks hes some freak of nature. people can be good, some people are just good, beth was good, beth made daryl feel like he could be good, maybe he was good already.
beth dying set daryl back. whats the point of letting anyone get close if they die anyways? he still had carol though and she understood him.
arriving at alexandria, carol changed, shes smart. Daryl didnt change, the fact he was in a community with people playing happy families, which he never had, was a big enough change for him. This is when he’s oh so kindly reminded that hes still that little boy from the beginning. not having to deal with his anxious habits for such a long time has meant that he’d forgotten how. the amount of people trying to make him feel welcome and the way he felt trapped was too much to handle for him, he’d prefer to be out there.
he’s grateful for aaron, aaron NEEDS daryl to be out there. Daryl is not useless.
however, there are still plenty of times where he feels like he is. when occasional meetings are held, there have been many times where daryl has had to subtly leave, feeling the pit in his stomach grow too powerful, feeling like he could throw up from how anxious he is, he knows that that’s the telltale sign of his body about to have a panic attack and he’d rather die than be seen trying to manage that. sometimes he’d try to stay and get through it but carol notices the deep breaths he takes to try to calm himself and the way his fingernails have gone purple. it makes it so much worse when someone notices.
He knows it’s strange that he feels more at peace when killing walkers and spending time in the forest rather than being in a safe home with a warm bed but, he’s not used to that, he never had that and he doesn’t feel like he deserves it but he does, he’s been deserving of it way before the outbreak.
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I might write a lil Drabble thing where the reader gets to know daryl and his nervous habits and they help him??
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When the Levee Breaks (pt. 5)
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Daryl Dixon x OFC
Story Summary: The one in which a stripper that used to know Merle and Daryl shows up at the Atlanta camp. Daryl’s feelings are complicated but mostly he hates her, right?
Chapt Setting: The Farm/Woods
Chapt Warnings: pretty explicit drug use (meth), season 2 Daryl, degrading/sexist language (he’s starting to get better lol), SOPHIA CHAPTER (I think that deserves a warning)
Word Count: 2.7k
A/N: Daryl’s POV story. Daryl’s starting to be less of a dick, trying really hard to make it feel organic/make it make sense in the story. Idk. This chapter was really rough to write because… it made me sad. Also have no idea if it even makes sense (the hallucination bit, really hope it does) lol ALSO; I looked up some timeline stuff and i just?? Really thought Daryl was out there for days on his own? But apparently he wasn’t? We’re just gonna say that he is in this story. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I can only do so much when the timeline of TWD is fucking stupid sometimes. (I mean it. Come for me. Idc. Rick was in a coma for 59 days without food or water???!?!!!? Bye)
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17+ mdni (no smut in this one tho sorry)
Like fiberglass in my veins, it tears through me. Mellow, at first, almost think I should rail more before I can feel myself sweatin’. Different kinda sweat, comin’ from my fuckin’ soul. 
Haven’t felt like I was doin’ something ‘wrong’ since I was little. That feeling that ch’ya get when you’re doin’ somethin’ ya know you’re not s’possed to. This ain’t the first time I done spazz, but maybe it’ll be the last. The anxiety about doin’ it goes away the second I feel the devil kick me through my nose to the back of my brain. Even though I know it’s comin’, it always feels like gettin’ skullfucked by satan. 
Been out here for a day. I brought Merle’s shit with me because I decided to finally get rid of it somewhere. But I got somethin’ that needs doin’. And anyway, I got years of experience with ice. Not doin’ it. Sometimes doin’ it. Never let Merle know, he’d’ve made some big whoop ‘bout it. And everytime he’d gone and done more than he remembered, he woulda blamed me. Shit though, sometimes it was. 
M’not like Merle and Beatle. Ain’t an addict. Can do shit and put it down. Always been able to put it down. Figured other people could too, that they just didn’t wanna. ‘m not sure, but still kinda think that. 
Never felt fuckin’ guilty about it before, though. Fuckin’ Beatle. I’unno if it’s cuz I’d be done with her if she did the same shit, or if it’s cuz I know if she knew that I was - she’d be mad at me. Mad I didn’t invite ‘er. 
But this shit ain’t for fuckin’ playtime. Only reason ‘m even doin’ it i’so I can find Sophia. So I can stay awake, focus, and get ‘er back. They use ta use this shit in war. War’s the reason methamphetamines even exist. Nazi’s? Hell, every single one of ‘em in WWII. Kamikazi’s loaded up, totally fuckin’ wasted outta their minds on crystal while they bolted ‘em in. Kept ‘em awake, kept ‘em happy, kept ‘em focused on the mission. Tha’s what I gotta do. 
I can’t stop lookin’ til I find ‘er. Sophia. ‘m the only one that can, only one that knows how. And anymore, ‘m the only one that seems to give a shit. ‘Sides Carol. And Beatle. She wanted ta come. Told her she’d only slow me down. Distract me. Drawn more geeks. She woulda. Told her I didn’t need food either but she packed me some anyway. Knew I wasn’t gonna be hungry. Knew I was gonna use this dumb shit to help. But whatever. 
Doesn’t matter what happens to me, right? My life’s not worth nothin’, not compared to that little girl. Now that her old man’s outta the picture she actually got a chance. Maybe not mucha one, not the way shit is these days. But she got ‘er mom. And ‘er mom can actually be ‘er mom now. Not scared of some piece’a shit prick that finally got what was comin’ to ‘im. 
Man fuck that guy.
The trail I’m followin’ disappears so I backtrack to the mangroves where I found her doll and try to find another one. 
I start to wonder what kinda old man Beatle had. What kinda mom? Startin’ ta realize I don’t know a damn thing about Beatle. I know she likes drinkin’, she likes laughin’, she likes fuckin’ with me. But… 
Beatle keeps surprisin’ me. Not just because she let me hump her face a few days ago, the fact that she liked it, shit I haven’t even had a second to process that. Nah, more cuz she hasn’t brought it up. Hasn’t tried to hold my hand again. Hasn’t been annoyin’ me nearly as much. Not even at all, if ‘m honest. 
My brain’s goin’ a million miles a fuckin’ second over Beatle and what happened between us. Not just the other night, but back then. Got questions that need answerin’ but she ain’t here. Try to keep myself occupied with trackin’ but it ain’t like trackin’ takes much thinkin’. Follow every trail I pick up, but none of ‘em lead me to Sophia. 
I’d prob’ly start gettin’ really frustrated about this, but that’s what crystals good for. All the dopamine I need, and nothin’s annoyin’. Focus.
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Bent branches, wilted leaves, mud impressions, walker guts. Trees and rocks and blood and mud and dirt and greens and browns and reds and blacks. And it’s dark and it’s light and it’s dark. And it smells fuckin’ rotten. Bent branches, wilted leaves, another trail, another dead end, another undead shithead. Bent branches, wilted leaves, mud impressions, Beatle. 
How many times did I go into Merle’s bag and take the devils dick up my nose? Cuz Beatle’s standin’ here right in front of me. ‘Cept she’s all done up in makeup and glitter and her pupils are the size of dimes. Little pink crop top, tiniest pair’a daisy dukes I ever seen. ‘n she’s in my face sayin’ the shit I been thinkin’ about her sayin’ since that day she said it. 
“I like you, Dar.” 
“You like bein’ fucked up more.” I say it like I said it the last time. 
“That’s not true! I mean - I like you, Daryl.” She steps closer, tries to put her hand on my cheek before I brush her off. She slumps back a little, turning away. “You like me, too. You said it.” 
My hearts in my fuckin’ throat and I’m standin’ there, this can’t be fuckin’ happening. I know is’not but doesn’t make it feel any less real. “Tha’ was before I really knew ya, Beatle.” 
Hate that I said that to ‘er. Did I really say that? Cuz maybe that’s how I felt. Hell, maybe that’s how I felt last week. But it ain’t fair. I don’t know her. Still. Now. Don’t know ‘er at all. Thought I did. Thought I understood what kinda girl did those kindsa things. Is that really what I said? Fuck.
She’s still turned away from me, but I walk the half circle around to look at her face. And she’s sobbing. Silently, trying to stay as still as possible. I… I don’t remember this part. Maybe I didn’t see it? Nah, I saw it. Just didn’t care. Didn’t wanna look at ‘er. Didn’t want to hear her lame ass confession. Especially after she’d brought up that I told ‘er I liked ‘er. She sniffles and wipes her face before she pulls a bubble pipe out of the waistband of her shorts and lights the bottom, starts smokin’ it. She asks if I want a hit, like last time. 
I go to say no, but the words don’t come out. Instead my hand reaches for it. I look back up and Beatle’s dressed all different. Baggy jeans and a bikini top. That night. Fuck. Shit. I don’t want to relive that night. 
“I promise, I won’t tell Merle.” She says, handing me her lighter. And I smoke it. Inhaling the vapor slowly like she had. “You gotta sip at it, like it’s a coffee and you’re drinking the air to see if it’s still too hot. Roll the bowl or it will burn.” I do it the way she says. She’s like ten years younger than me, but she looks at me - talks to me like it don’t matter. Like she don’t see it that way. Guess I don’t either, never really did. 
I’d never wanted to smoke it before. But that night I wanted to. With her. Woulda done anything she’d asked that night ‘fore she ruined it. I ruined it. Til it got all fucked up an’ it was never the same again. Not the way I saw her, not the way she looked at me. 
I’m goin’ through memories like they’re happening all over again. Feelin’ fuckin’ sick. I don’t wanna remember this. 
I hand the pipe back to her and she asks, “How do you feel?” 
“Fine.” 
“Just fine?” She smiles. 
“Good.” I clarify. 
“Good.” 
Don’t say it. Don’t say it. Don’t say it. “I think I like you, Beatle.” 
She laughs too hard, “you think?” I feel myself getting sicker and angry again all at once. 
I split in half. One half feelin’ those same feelings I felt. That this conceited fuckin’ bitch really acts like everyone likes her. I hear her words and it sounds like she’s sayin’ ‘well obviously’ - but the other halfa me hears it like a real question. Like she wanted ta know what I meant. I don’t remember how I responded then, but I can hear myself say it, “Self-obsessed cunt.” 
Beatle laughs, “Is that what you like about me?” 
My misunderstanding continues; Thought she was pickin’ on me. Makin’ funna me. All these years. All this time. Thought she was fuckin’ laughin’ at me. Never told a girl I liked her. Not that I never did like one, just never told ‘em. Not like some teenage fuckin’ confessional. And I do and what?  she just laughs.  
Shit. 
Cuz inside ‘m screaming. Screamin’ at myself ta say somethin’ different. To jus’ tell her. She’s special, she’s exciting, and when she smiles at the shit I say it makes me feel like I’m the only one in the fuckin’ world to her. Tha’s what she wants ta here. Tha’s why she’s askin’. 
“Nah. Forget it.” She nods, and I thought she did forget it.  She forgot until she brings it up again in the memory I already re-lived. 
Tha’s how I was so damn sure she didn’t give a single shit about if I liked her or not. Didn’t bring it up again for months. Didn’t give a single shit about me at all. Felt stupid for ever thinkin’ she might. Just a dumb crush on a dumb girl, and I forgot everything about it. An’ every little thing she did that made me like ‘er ended up as somethin’ else I hated.  And every time I saw her after that she was fucked up on somethin’. Meth or booze or weed. Usually all three. 
It comes at me like a fuckin’ freight train, her lips crashing into mine, but this time I want it. Don’t wanna stop kissin’ ‘er. Instead my arms move and I push her down to the ground. She’s wearing the crop top again, can tell she’d been cryin’. She’s layin’ there in the rocks lookin’ up at me and I flash back to the living room where this happened, where she’d told me she liked me back. I wanna beat the shit outta myself for makin’ her look like that. 
How didn’t I see it? 
I did see it. I just didn’t care. Thought I knew what kinda girl did those kinds’a things. 
Wonderin’ what kind of old man she had. What kinda boyfriends before she met me. How maybe she’s just as fuckin’ scared’a feelin’ stuff as I am. How maybe it took her months to even get up the courage to tell me after I’d told ‘er never mind and slowly started to hate her. How many’a those drinks were for courage? How many’a those hits were cuz she was nervous?
Shit. 
And she’s runnin’ away like she did then. Away from me an’ outta my life until a few weeks ago. I know it ain’t real but I run after her anyway. Screamin’ her name into the open air like maybe somehow I can change it if I can get her to come back. But she’s gone and ‘m still running tryin’ to find her. Screaming for her ‘til my throats hoarse. 
‘Til the walkers hear me. 
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Andrea fuckin’ shot me. What is wrong with this fuckin’ group?
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Beatle’s in the bedroom with me but I can’t look at ‘er. Don’t wanna. Feels like she knows what I was doin’ out in them woods without ‘er. Like she can see the dirty shit in my soul and for some reason it makes me ill. Can’t look at ‘er. Knowin’ I hurt ‘er like that all that time ago. Knowin’ it now like I ain’t ever known anything else. 
It’s just me ‘n her and she doesn’t try to talk to me. Just lets me lay there hatin’ myself for all of it. Didn’t even find Sophia. 
Spent a lot of my days in my life hatin’ myself. Thinkin’ I was good for nothin’. Now ‘m sure of it. 
I feel the bed move under the weight of her. She hugs herself around me, and like some pathetic kid I fuckin’ cry. Don’t know if she can tell or not but she tries comforting me anyway. “It’s okay, Dar. You did your best.” Her voice… how could I have ever thought it was annoying? Her bein’ so nice just makes me hate myself more. 
“Lea‘me alone, Beatle.” Shakin’ her arm out from around me. She gets off the bed and sits back in the chair she’d been in. God, I fuckin’ hate myself. Wanna scream No, come back. I didn’t mean it. 
Still got question’s that need answerin’. This time Beatles right here, and I ain’t got nothin’ to lose. “Why were you naked in Merle’s room?” Grateful that she’s sittin’ behind me. Don’t think I could talk to ‘er ‘bout this stuff if she was lookin’ at me. Right now? If I saw her face? Don’t think I could talk at all. 
She laughs. Fuck her stupid fuckin’ laugh. “I still can’t believe you think I fucked around with Merle.” 
“Why not? Y’all hung out every other day.” My voice is sharp, feels like she’s laughin’ at me again. Always feels like everyone’s laughin’ at me. 
“We all hung out every other day, Dar.” 
“Stop callin’ me tha’.” 
“I was carpet surfing. Your dumbass brother spilled all the schkag all over the damn place.” 
Oh…. But, “Ya didn’t have any clothes on.” 
“I never had any clothes on, Daryl. You sure I wasn’t just wearing something ‘slutty’? You know, like you always said I was? Cuz I don’t remember, but I’ve never been naked with Merle. Ever. Sounds fuckin’ gross.”
Oh. 
It made sense. Makes so much sense, ‘specially now. She keeps talkin’ an’ ‘m grateful cuz if I tried to say anything else I’d start fuckin’ cryin’ again. “I liked you, man. I…” she stops herself. Wanna beg her to keep goin’ but I can’t. 
Instead I ask ‘er the only question I got left, “Why’d ya leave, then? Ya left ‘n ya never came back.” 
She’s silent for a long time. “When you and Merle moved, where’d you go?” 
She did come back. 
“Why’d ya leave, Beatle?” Doesn’t matter where Merle and I went. She’s avoidin’ the question. 
“Got sober. After that night… with you. Wanted to get sober. Wanted to…” she don’t say the rest but she don’t need to. I got it. Fuck, my heart can’t take it. 
“Cuz I said ya liked gettin’ fucked up more than ya liked me.” It ain’t a question. I know. 
“Think it was more the other thing you said.” 
Tha’ was before I really knew ya, Beatle. I can still taste the words. “Shouldn’t’a said that to ya.” My voice is barely a whisper. 
She gets back up on the bed and puts her arm around me again, this time I don’t shake her away. Her voice, so close to my ear, “I didn’t want to tell you that I came back. I didn’t want you to know that I got sober for you.” 
What? “Why not?” 
“Wasn’t sure you’d care. And if you did… I didn’t want you to have all the what-ifs in your head that I have in mine.” 
She hugs herself into me so tight it’s hard to breathe, and she tells me, “It doesn’t matter anymore.” 
I feel guilty, can’t take any of that back. Can’t make any of it better. I don’t deserve this. Her. After all the nasty shit I ever thought about her. After what I did to her the other night. I can’t bring myself to tell her to leave cuz I know she wants to be here. Don’t wanna make her cry again. 
So I let her hold me. Even though I don’t fuckin’ deserve it. 
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vilentia · 1 year
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if you haven’t done this already could you do a daryl dixon imagine for s3 e15 where merle gets turned into a walker and daryl has to kill him? reader went with him when he went to find merle and michonne. i cant stop thinking about wanting to hug and hold him after he has to kill his brother. if not that’s completely okay 😌
A Brother's Loss
Daryl Dixon x reader
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I hope this meets your expectations. Thank you for your request! You were the first person who requested an imagine from me.
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As I held Daryl in my arms, I knew he was hurting. I could feel his body shaking, his breaths coming in ragged gasps. Merle, his brother, was dead, and Daryl had been the one to put him down. It was a hard thing for anyone to go through, but for Daryl, it was especially difficult.
We sat there on the ground, surrounded by the remnants of the battle. Walkers lay scattered around us, their limbs twitching in the dim light. Daryl's face was buried in my shoulder, his tears wetting my shirt. I didn't say anything, just held him close, letting him know that I was there for him.
Eventually, his sobs quieted, and he pulled away from me. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and looked up at me. His face was red and streaked with tears, but there was a fierce determination in his eyes.
"He deserved better than that," he said, his voice rough with emotion. "I should have been there for him."
I reached out and took his hand, giving it a squeeze. "You did everything you could, Daryl. You were there for him until the end."
He nodded, but I could see the pain in his eyes. Merle had been his family, and now he was gone. It was a loss that would never completely heal.
I stayed with Daryl for a while longer, talking with him about Merle and the life they had lived before the world had ended. He told me stories about their childhood, and about the times they had spent together before the walkers had come. It was a bittersweet conversation, but it seemed to help him a little bit.
Eventually, we stood up, ready to leave the meeting spot behind. Daryl paused for a moment, looking down at the walker that had been his brother. He bent down and pulled the knife out of its skull, wiping it clean on his shirt. Then he stood up, slipping the blade back into his boot.
"We should go," he said, his voice low.
I nodded, and we started to walk away. As we left the meeting spot behind, I knew that Daryl was still hurting. But I also knew that he was strong, and that he would find a way to get through it. Together, we would face whatever the future held, and we would make it through.
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whackk-kermitt · 1 year
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Genre: Daryl Dixon Headcanons Pt.2
Warnings: None
Pronouns: GN!
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Daryl Dixon does not get jealous.
Absolutely not.
So if he happens to notice you laughing a little to hard while chatting with Rick that’s not his business.
If you wanna sit by Glenn at the campfire instead of him, that’s your loss.
The fact of the matter is he doesn’t give damn what you do and who you do it with.
Except he can lie to himself all he wants but you read him like a book.
He always does the same shit, huffing and rolling his eyes, brushing you off.
Part of you wants to fold and promise to never even look at another man.
The rational part of you knew if whatever you two had was going to last he needed to learn that just because you laugh at a joke doesn’t mean you wanna fuck them.
At first you’d seen nothing but a possessive angry man, but the closer you saw there was more to it to that.
So after a day of letting him avoid you, you’d gone to him in your tent, he was quite.
Clearly to tired to start anything up again.
You’d tried watching him and waiting for him to look back at you but he kept fining something to do to avoid having to look at you.
“Why can’t I do anything with anyone else without you thinking I wanna fuck them?”
“I don’t care what you want.” Was all he said.
You should have known what you’d signed up for with a stubborn man like him.
His words had been harsh and full of energy but his body language screamed that he was exhausted.
You'd waited for him to settle into his spot before you moved in.
That way he had no chance of getting away.
“You're a blind man, Daryl Dixon.”
It was every other day he found a new reason to think you were enraptured with someone else.
Even so, he never actually pushed you away or broke things off.
It took almost a whole winter of being with him for things to click I to place.
“Daryl, do you think I'm out of your league?”
He never stopped putting things in place in the cell he'd claimed, barely even glanced your way.
But you could see the tightness in his shoulders.
It was heartbreaking to think the man you'd grown to love had spent this whole time thinking he didn't deserve you.
He spent every moment you were laughing and smiling so sweetly at someone else thinking you only put up with him because there weren't many options.
He spent so much time wondering how on earth you settled for a grubby red-neck like him.
He was just happy you hadn’t be given up on him yet.
But with you asking that, he was afraid you were finally catching on that you could be doing better.
It made you angry.
You didn't hide it.
“Are you kidding me, Daryl? You think I'm settling?”
All he could do was shrug.
As much as he yells when he's angry, he clams up when he's on the receiving end.
Not to mention he was still convinced this was the “I'm not interested anymore.” talk.
“I don’t want anyone else, you’re it for me, Dixon. I’m happy when I’m with you, I’m safe. I don’t love anyone but you.”
It had been the first time ever that anyone ever said they loved him.
Not his dad, mother, never even Merle.
It didn’t sound real, but the way you latched onto him, holding him close and firm against you he found it hard to not believe you.
He didn’t say it back. No right away.
This whole loving someone thing was new and intimidating.
Not to mention his love language is not words.
He preferred to show you his affections by doing things for you, bringing you things from his runs.
He’d leave food out for you on the bedside table for when you woke up.
He’d rub your back at night if you were sore.
He’d bring you books and trinkets that reminded him of you.
Little things that showed you how much he cared even if he never actually said it.
All this time though, you said it.
You’d complement him and kiss his hands when you held them. Peck his cheek before and after runs.
Never his lips though, he wasn’t ready for that just yet; you could tell.
“I love you.” Was the first thing you’d say when you woke up beside him, and the last thing before you fell asleep.
“I love you.” When he did something sweet or when he just looked to cute and you just had to tell him.
It got to the point where if you went a little to long with out saying it he’d get worried you were mad at him.
He’d approach you like a lost puppy, you’d see him and smile, and he’d relax only a little.
Those were some of the only times he’d be the one to initiate a hug or something.
You’d swoon and say, “I love you, Daryl.” And he’d instantly be much happier.
You think with how often you told him that it would start to loose it’s value.
But it never did. Every time he heard you say it it felt like the first time.
It made his chest and face warm and he had trouble not smiling.
He felt like a child at a birthday party for god sake.
Even when you were angry, or just generally upset about something he said or did, you find it in your heart to still love him.
He couldn’t believe his luck sometimes.
It was one night, curled up in the bottom bunk together that he finally said it.
The Woodbury fiasco was over and done, and the citizens had moved into the prison.
There had been a close call in one of the fights, where you fell to the ground.
He watched you fall, and in his eyes he watched you die.
It took you only a minute to rip your sleeve and wrap the bullet wound on your leg.
You were up and shooting back before he had time to run to you.
He watched you like a hawk for days.
He’d pace and watch you from the courtyard out in the field doing some farming.
It’s all they allowed you to do with your leg still healing.
It had been long enough though that the wound was almost completely scared over.
But it had stuck with him.
He had nightmares here and there about you ending up like Merle.
He’d find you, unable to have saved you, you’d have turned.
Nightmares about not being able to put your corpse down, being your last meal.
It was that night that he woke from said nightmare. But you were their, curled up beside him, alive and well.
You stirred wake with his squirming and heavy breathing.
Neither of you said anything, you didn’t need too. He just held you tighter and threw those scary thoughts out the window.
He felt at home when he felt you press a gentle peck to his jaw, the only place you could reach from your position. 
He felt so warm and giddy inside.
You were safe and you loved him, that’s all that mattered to him.
He returned the favor by pecking your head.
After that the words just sort of fell out.
You didn’t wanna make it a huge deal and make him nervous so you just smiled and kissed him again.
“I love you too Daryl Dixon.”
After he said it that’s all you would say when he did something for you.
He’d bring you a plate and he’d sit beside you, eyeing you until you started eating. “I love you too, now eat something.”
He’d give someone a nasty look if they came across as rude to you, “You’re to sweet, I love you too.”
He was still insecure and easily got jealous, but now he didn’t yell at you or push you away.
He would sort of just wait for the day to be over so he could have you all to himself in your cell.
He wait for you to settle in before curling up in your chest and just bask in knowing you’d always have your arms open for him.
He knew there were better options: nicer people, easier people. People who didn’t punch first ask later, who didn’t look down on everyone and their mother for no fucking reason. People you were far more gentle and caring then he knew how to be.
You don’t have to tell him, he knew.
But if you were blind enough to only see him, he would keep his mouth shut just to keep you to himself.
Daryl was not at all a PDA person.
But if the air was tense, if you were nervous or worked up about something he didn’t hesitate to set a hand on your back or shoulder.
He just needed you to know he was there for you.
You knew, you knew that Daryl would die for you.
What Daryl didn’t know is that you, gentle loving Y/n, would go father.
If something were to happen to him, the anger and grief would likely drive you to madness.
You got so heated when you’d see someone look down on him for being the quiet reserved man he is.
You’d overheard a man from Woodbury talking up some shit about him.
“You think Dixon realized how nasty he looks?Looks like he’d been out in the woods fucking corpses he’s got so much shit on him!”
You didn’t know what he was talking about, but no way in hell anyone is saying fucked up shit about your man.
You wanted to cuss him out but it didn’t quite seem worth it.
Plus if you did no doubt Daryl would find and and overthink his appearance.
Like he needed another reason to hate himself.
You probably would’ve left it at that if the fucker did go and start a fight with Daryl the very next day.
You found Daryl getting a busted lip and bruised cheek looked at by Maggie.
You saw red, you wanted blood.
But that seemed a bit extreme, and Daryl needed kisses and snuggles to feel better.
So murder could wait.
You waited for that idiot to join you and some others on a run.
The fucker was gross and perverted. Making comments about some of the women back at the prison behind their backs.
He even admitted to stealing some chicks underwear when he was back in Woodbury.
So you hated this guy.
So when walkers came round a corner in a supermarket you guys were clearing you waited a bit longer to step in and help.
The man fell back, walked above him, biting down at his face, nearly getting him.
He looked over and saw you just watching, he begged.
It was when you knew he couldn’t keep it away anymore that you took care of it.
Your face was stoic but your eyes screamed murder.
What the hell did he do to you piss you off that bad?
He didn’t say anything when Glenn had come to see what the commotion was, making sure you guys were okay.
He didn’t say anything the whole ride back to the prison.
And he didn’t say anything when Daryl greeted you at the gates with a smile and a cheek waiting for a kiss.
It was then he realized what he did to deserve that.
Glenn mention to Daryl what he had pieced together.
Daryl didn’t know whether to be proud, worried, or horny for kisses and cuddles.
You going that far to stand up for him made parts of him stir.
He knew it would be so easy for him to do something like that for you, but the fact that you were apparently willing to to the same was fascinating.
That night he’d surprised you in bed by smothering you with kisses. He’d held you so close and played with you hair, saying “I love you.” Over and over.
It was a bliss he prayed lasted forever.
But it didn’t.
The next day was the day The Governor decided to return for his revenge.
Amongst all the chaos and death he lost you.
Didn’t see where you went, or if you got shot.
He screamed your name, searching the fleeing crowds for you.
He saw your shoe.
Laying on the ground with you nowhere in sight.
He scooped it up and cried your name a few more times before he couldn’t stick around any longer.
He found himself in the woods with Beth screaming and punching a tree.
He couldn’t breath he had been crying so hard.
He begged for you to be alive.
He needed you to be alive.
Losing you was killing him.
Part 3..?👀
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So this isn't how I normally write. I started this one shot awhile ago and never finished it but here we are. I did like how this turned out but let me know if you liked it or not.
Flower's 💐
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When Daryl was young his mother was fascinated with flower's. Daryl always went on walks with her on day's where his father would get really drunk and angry. She would distract him by showing him flower's and picking them together. Now since the apocalypse, Daryl finds himself in a big open field picking flowers for his loved one. He remembers her and how he wished she could see him now. Happy and loved by you.
Warning’s: drinking, yelling, mentions of abuse, bad home environment
Word count: 1, 500
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader
Young Daryl’s POV
It was another night with his drinking and yelling again. I wish he would stop yelling for once. He always yelled at Ma over the littlest things. Merle wasn't around tonight, probably out with his friends. I did my best to ignore the yelling between Dad and Ma. Distracting myself with playing with my toy motorcycle Merle stole for me. I could hear Ma yelling back at him from the living room. “All you do is drink and lay on the damn couch all day! You never support this family or those boys” She yelled loudly, it almost made my head hurt.
I quickly covered my ears hating the yelling. I knew this would go on for at least 2 more hours. A loud crash came from the same room. Dad must of thrown another beer bottle again. Footsteps came quickly to my bedroom door. Ma came in with a smile on her face. “Hey honey how about we get outta here huh?” She said softly to me. I smiled back at her and got off the bed and took her hand. My toy motorcycle in the other.
We quickly walked out of the house together hand in hand. We lived in a trailer park currently since Ma was the only one working and Dad barely did anything. Ma worked really hard to take care of Merle and I. We both knew she loved us dearly and that Dad was a dead beat.
Ma didn't say much until we where a good distance away from home. “You got your little motorcycle?” She said sweetly looking down at me. I nodded and showed her my toy. “Merle got it for me Ma” I said with a smile. We kept walking together peacefully. We soon stopped at a park bench and we sat down together.
She wrapped her arm around me and pushed my hair back from my face. “Better? Not so loud huh” She said as she kissed my forehead. I smiled big and curled up into her side. “A lot better Mama” I said to her. I knew Dad's yelling and drinking really upset her. I wish I could make it all better for her. Ma deserved better.
“Look at the pretty flowers Daryl, why don’t we pick some?” Ma said to me softly. I smiled and nodded. I sat my toy motorcycle down and got up. Gently picking the beautiful flowers by the bench. “For you Ma!” I said with a grin, she smiled at me and took it. “Thank you sweetheart, such a gentleman” She spoke softly. I've always loved my Ma. Always tried to protect her and keep her safe. Even if I accidentally got in the way between their fights.
I sat back down beside her. We sat in silence for a bit. Just enjoying the quiet for once. “Daryl, promise me someday when you have someone special you'll bring her flowers and be a gentleman to her, okay? Can you do that for me?” Ma asked me as she sniffled. She always tried to hide her crying from me but I knew. I hugged her tightly to comfort her. “I promise Mama!! I'll bring her flowers everyday if I have too” I said to her.
Ma hugged me back, rubbing her hand up and down my spine. “Thank you my love” She said softly before scuffing up my hair and placing kisses on my face…..
End Flashback
Daryl's POV
That was the last real memory that I have of my mother and I. I sighed softly as I kept walking through the forest. I don't know what really brought that back up in my mind again. They where all gone now. Dad, Ma and Merle… Only memories is what I have left and that dumb little toy I kept.
I cleared my head and kept walking, soon finding the small stream that ran through here. I kept aware of my surroundings. Making sure there was no walkers or animals I would scare off. I'm supposed to be out hunting but I couldn't get her out of my head.
I do miss her, almost everyday. Same with Merle and his dumb voice. Can hear him now in the back of my head nagging me. I shook my hair out of my face and continued until I found the spot where I needed to go.
I shouldn't even be doing this but I did make a promise to her. For that someone special.. It was you. Ever since I laid my eyes on you I knew if she was here. She would make sure I would get you flowers almost every damn day. I smiled a little to myself. She would have loved you.
With your cocky attitude and how selfless you where. Always worried about everyone else and caring for others. How gentle and sweet you where with Judith and Coco. Wanting to keep living and making a life for ourselves and the one's we love most. Some of the many reasons I fell for you. Once I made it down the small hill there it was. The big open field filled with wild flowers. It was beautiful.
“Wished you where here to see it Ma. To see us, my family, everyone in Alexandria. You would have loved it.” I said softly to myself. I leaned down and plucked multiple flowers. All in different shapes and colors. “I made a promise to you and I'm keeping it, I'll always bring her flowers and love her with all my heart” I continued. I looked up at the sky and smiled before turning around. Holding the flowers safely in my hand. Never forgetting our promise..
Your POV
I sat and waited for Daryl to come home from his hunting trip. Rocking back and forth in the rocking chair on our porch. Today wasn't as stressful and it was nice. To finally have a break for once. With everything Alexandria has been through. You sighed and leaned back further in your chair.
Until that familiar sound of a motorcycle engine came rushing down the dirt path rode. You grinned knowing that it was the person you loved most. And the fact that he was on his way home to you. You waited and watched as Daryl pulled up to your house. You got up and ran to him wrapping your arms around his neck.
You inhaled, the scent of him that you loved so much. Brought you so much comfort through everything you've been through. You pulled back a little and kissed Daryl's cheek. “Welcome home D” You said softly to him. He smiled down at you wrapping an arm around your waist.
“Hey Sunshine” Daryl said sweetly back to you kissing your forehead. “I have a gift for you” He said softly. You grinned as your eyes light up. You loved when he gave you gifts. It always made your heart feel warm. Daryl pulled out a beautiful bouquet of wild flowers that he hid behind his back. “So a very long time ago I made a promise to my Ma, that once I had a special someone in my life I would always bring her flowers and treat them right. And I was never able to keep that promise until now” Daryl explained before gently handing you the bouquet of flowers.
You almost got teary eyed listening to his story. You knew how much Daryl loved his mother. Some nights he would talk to you about his past and talk about her. You smiled and held the flowers close to you. “Oh Daryl they are beautiful, she would have loved them too” You said softly as you leaned up and kissed him lovingly.
Daryl kissed you back wrapping his arms around you. You both pulled away slowly, happy to be back together again. If you wanted flowers everyday, Daryl would make sure to go out there and get them. Just to keep the promise he made with his mom.
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Glenns lover girl
Part 2 of ?
rate: pg-13
word count: 2,618
Taglist: @kaitebugg03
ask to be on a tag list for Glenn Rhee :)
warnings: Mentions of racism, death, Weapons, weed, affairs, sex jokes, almost sex,  drugs, drinking, I don't know of any other warnings. cussing?
Summary: Y/n is the younger sister of Daryl Dixon. Y/n was more like her brother Daryl than she was her brother merle. Well, that is unless she's angry. Then she has the mouth and anger of Merle Dixon himself. Y/n first met Gleen at the quarry. That's where there friendship first grew and continued to grow through the post-apocolypes.
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Y/n woke up to the sound of the birds singing and the sound of a few people moving around in the camp early in the morning. Y/n was usually one of the first to wake up. Y/n quietly striped out of her pajamas (an oversize t-shirt and booty shorts) she put on her white spaghetti strap tank top on and her light wash blue jeans and her steel toe boots. Fixing her belt through the loops and then her gun holster.
Y/n walked out of her tent. Daryl already awake poking the fire keeping the embers going. "Morning." Y/n says as she streches her hands over head. "Morning, did ya sleep good?" Daryl asks as he points to her horrible bed head. "I guess as much as one can during the apocolypse." Y/n says as she tries to calm her unruly hair. Running her hands through it wasn't doing much so she just pulled into a bun to deal with it later on.
"You need a shower." Y/n says as she gets a whiff of Daryl as she leans down to give him a hug. "Dirty balls Daryl you need a bath." Y/n jokes using his nickname Y/n gave him at the start of the apocolpyse. "speak for yourself, I smelt you when you rolled over this morning. When's the last time you showered?" Y/n giggled at him, and smacked him playfully on the back. "I took a bath in the quarry yesterday. And I plan on getting another one later on. I found some good smelling soaps on a run the other day. I also found some "manly" smelling soaps so that your ass would smell better. I suggest you use them." Y/n says as she walks off up the hill away from their spot from the quarry up to the group.
Y/n looks around to see Carol starting on breakfast. Grits and oatmeal enough for the whole group to have a good serving size.
"Good mornin' miss carol." Y/n greets the older woman with a warm smile. "How did you sleep?" Y/n asks as carol continued to hold her head down. "Carol?" Y/n repeats as she lowers herself to try to meet carols eyes. "Did he hurt you again?" Y/n asks as she sees the purple bruises appearing on her face and eye. "I'll kill him. Carol, you don't deserve no man beating up on you. Nobody deserves anyone beating up on 'em." Y/n says as she watches Carol start crying. "You can't he'll kill me. He'll hurt my baby girl." Carol begs Y/n not to do anything. Y/n shakes her but respects Carol. "Carol, I respect you, but if I ever see with my own eyes that man lay a hand on you.. He will meet his maker." Y/n promises Carol.
It was triggering for Y/n to see the bruises on Carol. Y/n and her brothers knew all too well about abusive people. Y/n just felt the anger she felt for her abusive father for Carols husband.
"Carol, it wouldn't be the first time I killed someone for being abusive." She says lowly just for carol to hear.
Carol looked up at Y/n shocked. "My father, he use to beat us. Me and my brothers." Y/n started and immediately carol felt horrible.
"Now, I ain't telling you this to feel horrible about this. I don't see myself as a victim. I am a survivor and so are you Carol! You don't have to stand by an abusive man Ever! The first time he laid hands on you, you should've cracked him over the head with a baseball bat." Y/n continues her little rant. Trying to give Carol the hope of a brighter future.
"If he hits me again." She nods, telling Y/n it would be okay. "You have to do it humainly. Don't make him suffer." Y/n shakes her head at carol. "After all these times he has beat you, darlin. And you still are loyal to him? Enough to have him die peacfully? You are one hell of a woman." Y/n says with a smile.
Y/n finishes the conversation as Sofia and Carl walks up to the two of them. Y/n says a polite good morning as she leaves them to it. Walking over to the laundry line grabbing her and her brother clothes. Folding them and placing them in a basket to take down to their camp. Folding the rest of the clothes that were on the line and putting them in piles on a picnic table.
"Good morning, beautiful." Glenn says as he kisses the back of Y/ns head. Y/n smiles as she turns to greet  her boyfriend. "Mornin'" She greets back giving him a peck on the lips quickly, not one for much PDA.
"What do you have plan for the day?" Y/n asks as she continues to fold laundry. "I was going to ask you if you wanted to go on a run today. We're a little low on our medical supplies and there is a pharmacy in the next town over about 20 miles from here. I figured since you were a nurse you would know what the best stuff to get would be." Glenn explains as he helps her fold clothes.
"Sure, it's a date." She says kissing him and then walking off to deliever everyones clothes to their tents. Glenn smiles as he watches Y/n walk away a little more pep in her step. Happy she gets to be alone with her boyfriend for the day.
"Daryl!" Y/n calls out as she puts their clothes away in their bags. Daryl was long gone to hunt. And Y/n shook her head with a smile. Daryl the one who was to himself all the time proclaimed he didn't care much about the group, but he always was providing for them. Y/n looks in her book bag grabbing pen and paper leaving a note that she will be back this evening that she was going on a run with Glenn. It's probably a good thing that Daryl and merle were gone hunting. They'd be picking at Y/n saying that she won't going on no run. Probably just going to fuck once they're gone out of sight of the camp. Which was kinda sorta true. But they always get what they need before they do it. (lol)
Y/n grabbed her knives. looping one through her belt the other slipped into her boot. Y/n grabbed an empty book bag and started making her way back towards where Glenn was waiting at the jeep looking at the map remembering the routes they were going to take.
"You two love birds be careful. We can't lose our best runners." Shane says with a teasing smile. "You ain't gonna lose us. We are just going to a pharmacy and picking up a few things the camp needs. There is a grocery store right beside the pharmacy we can hit up. Find can goods, flour, sugar, rice, penut butter. Anything we can find for the camp." Y/n explains as she looks at the map. "Hey, Y/n make sure you find condoms." Shane jokes as he playfully slaps glenns back. "Why for you?" Y/n says quietly with a smirk on her face. Glenn snorts at the shocked look on Shanes face. "Y'all ain't as sneaky as ya thought."
After that Y/n and Glenn got into a '98 chevrolet pick up truck. Y/n riding shot gun and glenn driving. Y/n held the map and told glenn where to turn.
Y/n loved to get out of the camp and go exploring the outside world. "Do you really think Lori and Shane are fucking?" Glenn says after they drive away from the camp. Y/n giggled as she looked at glenn with a funny look. "Why else would the two never be around at the same time? I mean when Lori leave shanes following like a horny dog right behind after a few minutes. They're aren't very discreet." Y/n says with a giggle in her voice. She lays her head on Gleens shoulder. Glenn throws his arm around her shoulder allowing her to scoot closer.
"Yeah, I guess i just thought they would be more discreet. You know, not doing it in the middle of the day, but maybe sneak out at night time and do it when nobdy was awake." Glenn says with a laugh following behind it.
They drive went smoothly, not running into many walkers on the road. It seemed like an average day. The only things on the road were abandon cars and a few stray cats.
Y/n enjoyed looking at the window. The summer sun beating down on the Green chevy truck. "Maybe we can find the kids some toys while were out. Carl lost one of them the other week. I bet you he lost it down at the quarry when Shane was trying to help him catch frogs." Y/n says as she studies the map. "Yeah that would be nice. They always seem to get board of the same toys and books." Glenn agrees.
Eventually, they pull up outside of the pharmacy. It looked untouched from the outside. None of the windows broken the door still standing shut and locked. Y/n grabbed her lock picking kit from her bag and they jumped out the truck.
Y/n picked the lock as glenn rounded the building looking for any creepy crawlies. "I think the coast is clear. Must be our lucky day." Glenn says as he comes around the building back to Y/n. Y/n pushes the door open. Putting the lock picking kit in her back pocket. "Well, lets hope there's no alarm in here." Y/n says as they walk in. Both of them guns drawed with a knife in the other hand.
Y/n went right Glenn went left both sweeping through the pharmacy. "Clear." Y/n says as they meet at the back of the store. "Alright, grab anything you see. Bandaids, gauze, disinfected products. Anything to deal with wounds. I'll go in behind the desk and get the pharmaceuticals."
"What size condoms do you think Shane needs. Extra small?" Glenn jokes. Y/n bellows out a laugh and says "maybe an extra extra small." Glenn and Y/n loved to joke around.
It seemed like Glenns optimism has rubbed off on Y/n. Ever since the two of the got together they have become so close and Y/n finally has hope in the world. Y/n has become more free spirited.
Y/n packs the bags full of antibiotics and other medicines. She was thankful at the time to have gone into nursing. She's glad that she has the education to know what to get and what's needed. Y/n grabbed all that she knew they could use she bagged.
"Hey, babe! I'm done did you get what we needed?" Y/n asks as she climbs over the desk to get back over to glenn. "Yeah, I'm just trying to get female products for the women at camp." Y/n looks at the shelf grabbing a diffrent variety of tampons, pads, and diffrent menstrual products. "We really hit the jackpot. This place literally hasn't been touched." Glenn says as he looks at both of their bags full to the brim.
Y/n and glenn left the  pharmacy on their way to the grocery store next to it. This Y/n didn't have much hope of what they'd find. She didn't know if it would be walker infested or not. But she tried to stay hopeful.
"Alright, I think the best way to go through this one is to stay together. We shouldn't seperate. This store is a lot bigger then the pharmacy." Glenn says. Grabbing a duffle bag. Y/n nodded as she grabbed another bag as well.
Y/n and glenn got out the truck quietly. The waited at the door and banged on the window. waiting for the walkers to come up to the door. Y/n grabbed her knife. They opened the door. Letting one out at the time killing them and continuing doing that until all the walkers were dead.
Y/n and glenn carefully enter the store. Y/n grabs a shopping cart and they start to walk through the store. They grab all the food they can find. They grab all the can food and non perishables they could find.
Y/n found a few kid toys on one else. Not big toys just some small fidget stuff that just entertain kids. Y/n and Glenn were about to walk out of the store when they heard something or someone come in.
"Do you hear that?" Y/n asks quietly trying to figure out whether it was human or not. Glenn holds up his gun placing a finger over his lips silently telling Y/n to stay quiet. He walked to the end of the isle to see a group of walkers making their way in. At least twenty of them. Y/n sees them and starts to get nervous. 20 vs 2. What are the odds?
"We can handle them we just kill them with knives until it gets too much." Glenn says as calmly as he can.
Y/n pulls out her large hunting knife. The first few  walker rounds the corner and Y/n and Glenn stab them quickly. Continuing their little rhythm together.
Y/n and Glenn finished off the walkers one at a time. Y/n and Glenn were bloody and gross. "Can I be weird for a second?" Y/n asks looking at Glenn with loving eyes.
He nodded wiping his knife off on a walkers clothes. "You look hot killing Walkers." She says with a smirk. He smirks back as he puts his knife away. Leaning in giving her a kiss. Y/n smiled into the kiss deepening it. Glenn taps Y/ns hip telling her to jump. Y/n does as told wrapping her legs around his waist as he holds her up. Walking over to the counter letting y/n sit there as they continue to make out.
"You know we did get those pack of condoms." Y/n mumbles as she continues kissing his neck as he starts to take her shirt off along with his.
Glenn smiles as he reaches into his pocket holding up a golden wrapper. "Already prepared." He smirks. Glenn create hickeys and love bites down her neck and chest.
"Glenn." Y/n moans quietly looking through her eyelashes up to Glenn. Y/n works on his belt as he does the same to her. you know what happens after that.
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Y/n and Glenn put their clothes back on. Fixing themselves and grabbing their stuff and headed to the truck. Y/n puts all the shopping items into the bed of the truck emptying the shopping cart.
Y/n and glenn drive back to camp. Everyone was happy to see the truck full of groceries and medicine.
"I can't believe you found all this food and medicine." Carol and lori say at the same time. "We really hit the jackpot." Y/n says with a smile. Y/n grabs a special bag and gave it to shane. "Don't want no little ones running around." She smirks saying the same thing the group has said to Y/n and Glenn when they first got together.
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Day 1: Baby
@taznovembercelebration aaaa I'm so excited to be doing this again !!! Pls enjoy !
There was a gentle breeze that blew in when Merle cracked the window open. Even from all the way up the beach, he could hear the waves crashing against the shore, the gentle rustle of leaves getting blown by the wind. He pulled the rocking chair up closer to the window, wincing as it scrapped against the floor.
Merle was not a family kind of guy. He was more of a “get up and leave as soon as things got too committed” guy. But for some reason, he had decided to stick around a little longer with his most recent fuck-up.
The beach was nice, even at night. The Coralheart Clan was in a secluded spot, surrounded by all sorts of beautiful shrubbery and flowers. They had had their own little enclave here on the coast of the Starlight Sea where the clan had lived for hundreds of years. They didn’t usually accept outsiders into their ranks but, well. Here Merle was.
“Shhh,” Merle said when Mookie shifted in his arms, a small whimper coming from his teeny tiny lips. “Daddy’s got’cha, bud.”
Merle couldn’t remember how he made his way into the Coralheart Clan. He had never really planned on returning to any clan after leaving his original one. They were too stuffy. Like, sue him for wanting to see more of the world than just the beach. And that was comin’ from him. He loved the beach. But clans? He was better left alone.
But one day, he woke up in the Coralheart Clan, not fully accepted by all the members, but generally left be. And then he met Hekuba— who was a fantastic woman, up until y’know, the forced marriage and all. Merle couldn’t exactly blame her— he didn’t want to get married either. But leaving her to deal with their baby alone, with all the clan's expectations on her? Merle might be an asshole, but he couldn’t— he wasn’t going to do that.
Not then, at least. He couldn’t lie and say he wasn’t thinking about it now. 
It’s just that— Well, Hekuba had practice, what with Mavis and all. And she had family here to support her. Merle wasn’t anybody important. He could barely take care of the kids, he didn’t have the energy to do his chores, and he couldn’t focus on the community when his thoughts just weren’t here.
He loved Mookie. He was such a small, tiny little thing. He had his mom’s hair and Merle’s own hazel eyes. His itty bitty hand could barely fit around Merle’s thumb. But there wasn’t much Merle was doing for him aside from rockin’ him to sleep and anyone could do that job.
He loved Mavis, too. She wasn’t as small as Mookie was, but she was still a growin’ girl. Merle would take her on walks and show her all the plants and tell her all their names. She’d started dragging him to the library with her to find good books— Merle’s suggestion of adventure stories fell on flat ears. Mavis preferred to ”learn something, Dad!”, which, apparently, adventure books couldn’t do.
He felt like he was holding her back. She deserved a Dad who put in more effort, who would always pay attention to her fun facts and not get tired on their walks.
In another life, maybe he could have loved Hekuba like he was supposed to. But she was strong. And if Merle knew anything, he knew Hekuba could figure out any problem thrown at her. After all, she had been able to deal with being married to him.
He rocked back and forth in the chair, looking out to the sea as Mookie calmed down. His whimpers slowly quieted, his breathing evened out. The two moons cast reflections onto the rippling water. There was so much more to life out there. He loved the beach, he loved his kids…
But this wasn’t the life for him.
He held Mookie a little closer to him and pressed a kiss onto his forehead. Growing up with no Dad was better than what Merle had had to deal with as a child. He could only hope this little guy wouldn’t mind.
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