#mentioned something about a window

[shadowduel]

eye of the beholder

#yttd #your turn to die #sara chidouin #shin tsukimi #sou hiyori #midori yttd #kimi ga shine #kmgsn #shadowart #EXTRA NOTES IN THE TAGS TIME AS USUAL #as far as im aware these are the only two lines that specifically mention sara's eyes ? #and they're both worded in such incredibly similar ways #both are almost very abrupt too #as if they both got distracted and felt compelled to say something about her eyes #there are in general a lot of midori parallels with sara #and i think shin's remark on her eyes being scary... well... shin would know a lot about scary eyes wouldn't he #after all he was uncomfortable with midori's stare too #which further leads into of course midori complimenting her eyes #he sees himself in her. or more specifically. the ruthless sara of the simulations #eyes to some are like a window to the soul #midori's offhanded compliment directly paralleling shin's much earlier remark on her eyes... well it makes sense these two would both make #a comment like that #that being said. i'd love to make make a partner piece to this about gin and ranmaru commenting on sara's smile #as i think those are also the only two instances where someone sees her make a dark expression and calls it out #that's all! #WAIT ONE MORE NOTE #shin going ahaha in this dialogue because it's a quirk he stole from midori really adds to the whole thing #like even while actively pretending to be sou. he is still frightened by the man he is masquerading as #and he sees that man in sara's eyes. terrifying!

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

#Csa mention #Did they once again do a misogyny so hard they accidentally gave their woman character trauma #My tip to anyone in a draining relationship. If your partner fetishizes that YOU would never leave or betray them unlike ''all the others'' #RUN. #There may be a reason their exes cut ties with them and they're praising you for ignoring red flags #Especially when your partner is significantly older and more experienced #Theres nothing noble about constantly suffering for the sake of 'loyalty' #Star Flower PLEASE get out of here you dont fucking deserve this you did nothing wrong #Bones reads dotc #Dotc hate #I thought i was just remembering things wrong when i was adding the subtheme of thunder having a connection to star via abusive dads- #-in my dotc rewrite. But no it's right there. It's in the text and it's something clear is attracted to #I abuse the shit out of my son and he left me once over it #But i can abuse this girl his same age and she won't run. Finally! A victim who won't leave! #And then they become mates and she births at least two litters #Cw abuse #sa mention #EDIT: I've changed the language just slightly #because the timeline COULD work out that starf was an adult when she was promised to slash for a very brief window of time #and hypersexualization is a symptom of trauma resulting from many types of sex abuse. Even that done when the victim was an adult. #it's just more common in CSA

[loregirlsam]

Ikr! Especially because he was not technically supposed to survive possession. He was supposed to die in the fight so who knows what kind of side effects he's gonna end up with. Maybe he's left with some of Lucifer's tricks. Like he snaps his fingers once and the person next to him is instantly vaporized. That would be very fun for me personally

that would also be very fun for me <3 i love when sam is in pain and i think accidentally vaporising/killing someone with his powers would cause so much guilt for him, but also fear that dean will once again see sam as something to be hunted like he told him in s4. @supamerchant left some interesting tags about his emotions affecting his powers, so the more upset he gets with himself the more his powers fuck things up, a never ending feedback loop overwhelming him to the point where he'd do anything just to make it stop. and maybe his desire to make it all stop is fuelled by hallucifer taunting him that its his own grace left inside sam that's causing all of this, and sam thought being lucifers vessel was bad but having his grace linger in him might be worse.

i promise i do like sam i just like causing him pain ♥

#im picturing them at a diner or something when dean notices all the weird things going on from sams powers. but he doesnt know its because #of sam so he just thinks its a case to be investigated so he tells sam about it. and sam gets more and more pale as he realises dean is #talking about him. hes the case. dean is talking about hunting him. and of course sam is going to tell him at some point but hes reluctant. #he doesnt want dean to look at him that way again like when he found out about sam drinking demon blood. maybe he can get a handle of his #powers before anything drastic happens. but the more he tries the more frustrated he gets that he cant control them and the more out of #control his powers become. streetlamps and windows start exploding around him. things randomly bursting into flame. not to mention the hell #hallucinations feeling so much more real to the point where he can feel hallucifer touch him. far more real than a hallucination should be #sorry i basically just wrote a fic outline in the tags #wilsonthemoose #<3

[meirimerens]

I've only now noticed Eva Yan's scars on your drawings of her, is there any story or headcanon behind them?

keeping it real babygirl [gender neutral] the story is that this woman canonically kills herself, canonically contemplates suicide, quite explicitly mentioning the method she intents on using to you (with implications that she has, at the very least, thought about it/thought it through before), and lives with broken mirrors so she cannot (/doesn't have to) see her face like i just think She Is Mentally Unwell. like as a long-term, enduring, persistent thing, She Is Mentally Unwell and the plague is just worsening her condition, while it didn't cause it. the storey/headcanon is that she is mentally ill, openly and canonically has self-destructive tendencies, so. the scars are here because she lives with a lil something something in her mind which drives her to plenty of destructive acts in ways big and small. ywkim

#like when i jokingly and lovingly called her a ''mentally ill bisexuelle''. i wasn't joking. ykwim #man i've given eva those for a long ass while i can't even rember when i started. i give some to peter too for the same reasons #(except he doesn't succeed in killing himself. but he does try.) but like. he has long sleeves & pants when i post him on here so. elusive #suicide / #self-harm / #what's that diagram showing how the closest you are to dankovsky the more suicidal you are. as someone who's been there #i can reclaim chuckling about it #ring ring (answers) #anonymous #& even if she doesn't die in my mind [bc she doesn't in every route] well. she still has those. she lives through them; and then with them #and lives on. you know. real recovereds will get this etc you get the jist #this is equal part story and headcanon on that one but there's also this pattern that eva throws her whole body into destruction. ykwim. #the way she kills herself is fullbody; entire physical body out of a window; it's not like how she first mentions it to dankovsky #it's a complete and utter destruction [which is not destruction *to her*; because; well we see how it ends] #it's also easy to see how her constant seeking of companionship; her sudden infatuations for a stranger and her offerings of companionship #can also be read as her ''throwing her whole body'' into it [here; into something that; maybe; can ''fill a void'' left by her spiritual #emptiness. so in the spirit of ''putting her whole body'' into destruction/into trying to fill an intangible void left by emptiness and fel #well. scars and the act make sense to me at least. because there is that attempt to exteriorize an inner suffering with acts like those

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

really weird fun fact about me,

okay this needs some backstory before it makes sense.

so my nonni know this couple, one is from Trinidad and one is german.

the German one's father was a literal nazi no joke, actual nazi from nazi Germany he also kept a shit ton of journals from nazi era Germany and those probably should be scanned or archived in some form but story for another day.

anyway, so my nonni's friends father was a literal nazi that guy must of stolen a shit ton of stuff ngl but when he died he left it all to his son, my nonni's friend.

and among that stuff was a random brass candelabra, my nonni's friend (the one from Trinidad) was like "here have it, I'm not using it or want it"

so, my nonni now have this brass candelabra. I was living in their house at the time and me and my family were playing around with it.

because you could move the different candle holder branches, and we realised we could make them straight in a line.

and low and behold, it was a FUCKING MENORAH

just.. a random menorah??? that doubled as a candelabra, honestly sweet design choice.

but, my nonni just. have a random menorah now, that is 500% stolen.

so to whoever's family lost a brass menorah that doubles as a candelabra good news! it's perfectly fine!

and that is the random fun fact.

#-pop #nazi cw #nazi mention #other random bits that are important the guy in the story is currently 80 something and uses a wheelchair #he's just a guy his father was awful but he's not his father #also it's pretty funny my nonni have a menorah considering one of them probably is ethnically jewish (yeah we can't really pin it down sinc #who the fuck has birth documents for a random rural ass Italian family there was kinda no way too know bc the records don't really go- #back that far. and also bc like I don't live in Italy and can't go on a pilgrimage to go figure that out it also considering that one of my #other bisnonni was a literal orphan and we know nothing about her mother or anything past that so who the hell actually knows #I one day will get a DNA test and finally figure it out but yeah crazy shit #like you go to my nonni's house and there's just a menorah by the window lol

[cryingforcrocodiles]

not lichantony having the same hair color now, just bf things

i just love their love (and their pleasing matching hair!!) so true, anon so true.

#also dont talk about the antony transfer window thing #I dont wanna Hear about it #you mention transfer window & antony in the same sentence i might have to kill u #Its APRIL #WAIT TIL MAY!!!!!!!!! #aksksksjsjdjdj #also yes lichantony matching hair... i love the idea of couples matching hair its the cutest thing in the world 2 me so #🤲🏿 this Means something to me #anon asks #lichantony

[starheirxero]

what are some major events that happened in your lord eclipse au? and do ones similar to canon like old moon sending him a wither storm go differently?

is there special events that eclipse, Sun, or that one of the followers made around him? does he have activities he likes to do in general?

OH MAN. I'm gunna be honest, I'm actually not entirely sure about the first question?? The timeline/canon I have is very loose and changes from scenario to scenario, but I suppose a few events that are pretty consistent are "The Centipede-ening", Eclipse's fall from grace (isolation from his followers due to boredom) with unwavering loyalty happening somewhere around that time period, Moon n Lunar show up... and then i Guess they release the wither storm?? Though, I do like to replace the wither storm with something that isn't. The Minecraft Story Mode Wither Storm LMAOSJWLDK

After that, though, I usually divide into two different outcomes from there and either go "Sunvant dies and slowly heals in the afterlife with his Moon, Lunar, and Bloodmoon" or "Moon and Lunar takes Sunvant back home with them and he slowly heals in the main tsams universe." Both are varying levels of angsty and bittersweet so he has to endure Healing Horrors no matter what LMAO

ALSO YES ‼️ I actually started making a small list of events/important days for Lord Eclipse's world (before getting distracted so there's only one date on it LMAO 😭) but I imagine that some days were sort of... pre-installed?? by Eclipse, like his primary day of worship (which is June 1st bc that's when he first started existing!), but some events may be entirely made by the rest of the followers! I just. dunno what those events would be yet LOL. I could also absolutely see Sun making his own personal special days that revolve around Lord Eclipse just so he feels like he's especially faithful tbh!

#asks #anon #lord eclipse au #I HOPE THIS SUFFICES LOL 😭 #there's several more ideas i have that are either just... too small to mention or i'm just unsure if i actually wanna implement it #like monty saying something to sun that he—as sunvant—havent ever told monty and he's like #what? why do you know that about me? #and monty's like ah. uhm. just... forget i ever said anything. #sun asking lord eclipse if he'd ever get his own stained glass window someday—'you know. since you've appointed me as your servant?' #and lord eclipse immediately shuts down the idea with a guilt trippy 'why would you want such a thing? you'd take attention away from me.- #-do you want to make people forget who they're supposed to be worshipping here?' #OH OH #IVE ALSO THOUGHT ABT THE IDEA OF THERE BEING A GROUP OF DISSENTERS THAT WANT TO DETHRONE LORD ECLIPSE AND SUN ENDS UP JOINING THEM SOMEHOW #i have never thought of a single good ending for that idea tho LMAOOO 😭 #it always ends with Sun cowering under the furious gaze of Eclipse while surrounded by the bodies of all the people who had been involved #POINT IS: THERE'S SEVERAL THINGS I ENTERTAIN THAT I DONT RLLY TALK ABT BC. SHRIG #MY OWN SELF INDULGENCE COMES FIRST WITH THIS AU I WONT EVEN LIE SORRYSJSHSJFN #centiclipse #sunvant

[scpwiki-official]

mm thinking about the video we just watched

#uh lost media list but it featured something about footage from the cleanup of this abandoned supermarket that had all of the food left #inside and like it began to rot and fill with gas and insects and shit #like to the point were it made the surrounding residents sick and couldn't be burned due to how much of a biohazard it was #not to mention it was the middle of summer at the time #like the windows were caked in flies

[notjanine]

spent the summer prepping for and taking the worst exam of my life, riding out the lease at the worst place i've ever lived,* then being temporarily kinda homeless,** and getting dozens and dozens of job applications rejected. i had some fun in there, but my anxiety has been through the fucking roof on top of my regular summer depression.

then the last two weeks of august happened 😳

everything happens so much. somehow, i managed to find the perfect apartment for a reasonable rent, and now me and Books are living (together!) in a fantastic and charming new home- lots of space, big kitchen table, a balcony facing undeveloped woods, just off one of the major roads in the city that has my favorite grocery store and our favorite sandwich shop (where we were already regulars). plus, i've gotten not one, not two, but three (three!) job offers- and i can take them all!!! one is with a hospital where i did my favorite internship rotation, and i'm so excited that i get to go back there and get paid to do that job, it was a blast. another is right by my new place and it's similar to the other hospital, but it's slightly bigger and sees more complex cases, so i'll be comfortable and confident, but i'll still get some new, specific clinical experience in areas that i'm interested in.

and the third position is... literally my dream job. it's the job that's been the end goal since the moment i chose my field of study. grad school and the internship made me rethink all of my professional goals and push them back, thinking i wouldn't be able to get to them for so long because i'd need ~more experience~. but now i'm. uh. i did it. i did it??!

the two hospital jobs are just part time, but they both pay well. the other won't start for a few months bc my boss*** has to get insurance approval to add me to her private practice,**** but that's okay, because i have a lot of reading and learning i want to do in the meantime to prepare! and then it will start as part time working up to full time as i build up my case load, but i'll also get to decide my own hours and do some work from home. i'll get to work with my favorite kinds of patients! and i'll get fantastic professional development opportunities for specialization, if i want to. the other dietitians in the practice seem lovely, so i'm excited to work with them. and the pay is realllly good, gosh, for being fresh out of the internship, it's nuts.

so things will pick up as i go through orientation and onboarding for the two hospital jobs next month. but it'll get calmer again after that, so i'll have the time and energy to prepare for the more challenging work that starts later, which is really nice.

and in the meantime, i'll be tending the wee garden on my balcony and playing board games with the love of my life 💗

#* all of my windows faced a wall. the walls were so thin i heard a neighbor yawn once #my air conditioner literally broke ten (10) times in three months. they just stopped fixing it. i just didn't have ac. in june. in texas. #** like i was fine i stayed in an airbnb for a week and then with Books which was not ideal bc they were in a 200 sq ft studio but hey #*** this woman is... something else. she was also one of my preceptors during my internship #on my first day with her we went over the assignments i had the option to do and one of them was about my main terrible chronic illness #and i mentioned oh yeah i am very familiar with that bc i have it. and this woman. was EXCITED #like she was interested in and valued my perspective as a sick person. which is wild #also that was my last rotation and i got really sick during that time. i had a flare up and didn't finish any of my assignments on time!! #bc of that illness! which she is now familiar w bc i did an assignment about it! and yet. and yet #SHE reached out to ME months later to be like. hey i have this position open if you want to apply here's the link :) #and then i had to interview with her and she did not pull any punches it was the longest interview i've had and she asked killer questions #and at one point she asked the question. what do YOU bring to this profession w YOUR perspective. and i just... #i said fuck it i went for it i answered honestly and said i'm autistic and autistic ppl understand each other in ways nts don't #(but like. framed intelligently w references to published research and good resources) #and you have autistic clients already and you will have more in the future bc all of us are weird about food! #and. she hired me. this woman knows i am 1. physically disabled and 2. autistic #and she hired me anyway. scream. remarkable woman. i want to know more about her. #and i don't want her to regret her decision so i gotta be on the ball! #**** it's private practice but the boss the one whose practice it is she's on a soft maternity leave so she's not seeing clients rn #so she's managing the practice. and on top of that there's also one woman who's job is just admin and insurance and billing etc #so after i finish the onboarding paperwork (almost done already) i won't have like... any more boring paperwork #it's a private practice job and i don't have to worry about billing which is the nightmare everyone dreads. incredible INCREDIBLE #ANYWAY gosh. it's all a lot! but good! #oh AND it's Books' birthday next week!!!!! we're gonna go out with their family one night then with their friends then just us #and i know exactly what i'm gonna wear (a tiny slutty dress) and i just got their gift (which i know they'll like) so everything is so !!!

[pixelkip]

Oh the urge to try and make my own take on a Rin Satsuki design. Not only because I love the idea of a lost potential 3rd main 2hu but becuase I kinda really really dislike the agreed upon fan design for her.

If she were a 3rd main character alongside reimu and marisa you wouldnt want her to look so similar to them!! I know it's based on the poster girl and probably also zuns blonde shrine maiden drawing but her just having reimu's outfit colors and marisa's hair bothers me so much!!!! I have nothing against anyone liking this design I've just never liked it and it makes me wanna interpret it myself

#sorry to my non touhou followers for context this is a character mentioned only by name in the code of the first windows touhou game #who was mever used nor mentioned again and has no canon design #also i think it would be fun to try and incorporate what we can almost discern about her #like her probably being a nurse and the idea of her being a kirin based on that and her name #tho take that with a grain of salt the kirin thing is something ive heard from fandom idk how plausible it is myself #touhou #touhou project #ramble post #rin Satsuki #satsuki rin

[lesbiansanemi]

God nothing hits like early bleach, the substitute shinigami arc and rukia’s execution arc are just. Ugh. Something about the crunchy-ass early 2000s-ness of it that the rest of the series lost (not just animation wise but aesthetic wise), when there was still hope that all the potential would be capitalized on, idk, it was just fun and getting to fall in love with all the characters because pretty much every single one introduced was great and engaging. I just really really wish the series had kept that early vibe that it started losing once the visoreds were introduced, they got the last little tail end of it. As soon as we got to the heuco mundo arc this all vanished and it’s so upsetting, the series just lost a lot of its personality, if that makes sense, I wish it had kept it so badly

#like they’re all the same characters but they all started taking themselves way too seriously after that point #and I do get that that’s when the Big Plot actually started picking up (which is a whole other thing I have thoughts on) #but like… idk the series just lost a lot of its early charm and appeal #which is funny considering the hueco mundo arc is actually my favorite one #but idk I’m watching the first arc for fun today #and I forgot how much of ASSHOLES rukia and ichigo were and how fun their dynamic was #and yeah I fucking miss it it’s just not the same the rest of the series #not to mention tatsuki actually got a lot of focus #even Chad and Orihime and uryu felt a lot more genuine than they did the rest of the series #(though that’s because it was before they were reduce to being Ichigo’s love interest and then cannon fodder to shittily power scale enemies #by getting the shit beat out of them because kubo didn’t know how else to do it) #idk like I said! I just wish the series had stuck a lot better to its earlier aesthetic #like it still could have worked with the more ‘serious’ plot lines v easily considering how well it meshed with rukia’s execution #I JUST MISS RUKIA YELLING AT FLIP PHONES AND ICHIGO BEING BAD AT SNEAKING OUT WINDOWS AND TATSUKI RAGGING ON THEM #AND THEIR NORMAL ASS CLASSMATES TALKING ABOUT HOW FUCKING WEIRD THEY ALL WERE LIKE IT WAS SO GOOD 😩😩😩 #imagine that energy being applied to the hueco mundo arc it would have been great #it even would have been fun to see it come back during the fullbringer arc as a bunch of fun callbacks to the early bleach that was #being alluded to that entire arc with parallels #anyways once again weeping the potential this series had #someone watch it so we can talk about it and set up our own insanely convoluted canon for funsies on discord or something lmfao #kaz rambles

[seveneyesoup]

#starting a collection of iconic pictures of mcr #i take suggestions but reserve the right to veto #bear in mind im looking for iconic mcr *pictures;* not pictures of iconic mcr moments #basically the criteria is ‘pictures you think about and mention to people sometimes’ #so like say the pictures from the danger days shoot with the tapestry where gerard looks really fem doesn’t count #bc sure it’s like; well known but it lacks a certain. something #while like; that picture of them standing in the fuckin wheat field for Some reason counts bc. it’s lesser known but it’s got substance #already on my list are the wheat field pic; the one with the old men playing mahjong; those four where gerard looks like a vampire; #the school shoot for i’m not okay where they’re all bloody; and probably the kerrang christmas spread from i think 2005 #oh also the one where they’re dressed up in like shitty costumes like knights and wizards #and also also the one where it looks like ray is forcing frank to eat the pizza #that ones like a top ten for me it’s so funny to me and i Don’t know why #anyway it’s been a minute since i intentionally sought out pictures of these guys but i’ve seen quite a few of them so #if you give me a half decent description of the one you mean i’ll probably know what you’re talking about #if you have the picture to send; even better; but some of these are hard to find #i’ve already decided against the honey pictures and also the one where gerard has the pins and satchel and looks fem #And the one of gerard in the black santa hat #also as for clips if anyone has the lotms clip where bert from the used is like struggling to remember gerard’s name while it shows them #in the little window making out; or the clip of gerard telling the guys to take their shirts off and swing them around #OR if you have this song is about sucking dick for cocaine #that’s an iconic mcr clip for sure

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of, i’ve seen some like reblog addition once or twice in these past 7 years and been annoyed enough about disagreeing analytically that here i am to just vaguely refer to it and repudiate it

basically someone saying like oh there’s that idea in fury road that instead of chasing after a utopia you should fix what’s already there / what you’ve actually got to work with

like they do in fact get to improve on what they already have to work with but there’s not so much a concept of a Utopia here but rather someone, for one thing, going “yeah this cool, better place exists that i want to go to, because i lived there already”....even these other girls for whomst it is in fact entirely abstract are a) aware that it is an actual place that exists, thusly, and b) aren’t exactly necessarily totally Idealistic about the entire matter, e.g. aren’t assuming they won’t be killed, don’t think they’ll be able to find it, & such

which goes into how it’s not that everyone’s assuming they’re pursuing something perfect out here, it’s that they’re all coming from their nightmare society where they’re not even regarded as people in their own right, and chasing Something Else, which is theoretically going to be better rather than necessarily ideal, and that, again, it doesn’t even Have to be better necessarily, it’s [inciting incident is all these people choosing to take these actions] happening b/c again it’s Something Else, it’s literally Not This, it’s Possibility that [this] isn’t the only thing for them or for anyone. which is an attitude that can be like oh how naively utopian lol of course this is the way it Is so yes, going “what about: not this” is so useless. but naturally i would happen to disagree w/that.

even for things to take a turn into the climax you’ve got like. furiosa has her emotional low point b/c her remembered The Green Place has gone to shit / doesn’t have those qualities it used to have. which is different from like oh disillusionment about a place you Thought was perfect but actually it wasn’t, rather, it’s just outright Changed in the last twentysome years. (and also isn’t completely changed, like, it’s still something of this figurative oasis, it’s still sustaining life in this desert, even if it’s not Plant life nor the people who planted it & rather, the crows & those bogwalking people & whatever else is going on out in a bog).....it’s like, okay Now they’re heading off somewhere that they Don’t know exists at all & nobody knows what it’s like b/c they don’t know if traveling east for months will bring them to Anything Else or not. but it’s just a less concrete version of what they were already after, Something Else, and Possibility. it’s sure Possible there’s something out there actually, though there may not be, versus furiosa knowing there’s definitely something else a few day’s out from the citadel, b/c there is/was, b/c she was there....but that idea there Could Be Something Else is again not like oh there’s utopia out there, nor is it even necessarily despairing, though going back & taking over the citadel Is more concrete, and it Is considered more hopeful by everyone else (who also agreed to the salt flats approach, naturally) which is fun since max Just said that the salt journey was too hopeful lol but is now the one coming through w/the more hopeful and frankly longer shot of an idea.

but also that the reason they change plans isn’t b/c they were ignoring or rejecting the idea of Fixing what was already there, it’s that it’s like, to turn around and go back would just be to die lol, the entire time they were outrunning those parties b/c they’ve got one truck vs [literally everyone else]. it’s certainly not all about convincing furiosa and co of the practical plausibility of that, there sure is like thematic [operating together / with others towards your aligned/shared goals] and hope being repeated specifically mentioned before & now, but it sure Is also the practical plausibility lol, when once it’s like oh you can’t go home again when you were abducted a couple of decades ago, their options are Go Back, where they’ll be killed, or stay living in this part of the desert which is i guess an option, but really the Most Active thing to do from their perspective is in fact to take a long shot, take advantage of the supplies they’ve brought with them, & all pursue the Possibility of Something Else. to consider going back at all certainly involves max having to pitch the idea that it doesn’t actually just mean being killed along the way, or once they’re there. like, they all of course have known it exists, or at least half of them do, having just come from there / lived there a good while, furiosa knows it has resources, but the resources They have are themselves as people & their own relationships, where they see each other as people, rather than being in that citadel with all these increased resources that definitely exist, but where everyone’s an object / tool / property & even furiosa having some power through being an imperator was/is certainly not enough where she had any feasible means to just avoid being killed if she tried much of anything. and where here their opportunity is that the main guy & his whole army can at least be held off long enough to maybe get a foothold in the citadel, making sure to kill the main guy isn’t even necessarily a step in the plan. however it’s fantastic that furiosa gets to do this personally with an epic line that also punches you (or at least me) because it’s also like of course this is such an implicitly fraught history for her behind getting to rip a guy’s jaw off. good for her with that specific revenge that semi spontaneously unfolded but was also imbued with Everything In Her Life. and the girls getting to help her along to that point including again toast as the most similar to her having a direct hand in the last seconds letting furiosa kill him, then being there to take over driving and spit on his corpse. anyways, the thing is that also they know even Maybe turning around would lead to everyone dying anyways, and many people do die, and they also can’t have been sure there Wouldn’t be anything across the salt (or they wouldn’t have done it) and Obviously turning back and taking the citadel from joe with its definitely extant water & plants (and even the people of course, given that of course crucially they don’t (and can’t anyway) just like storm and conquer the place and have to be Let Up / everything that unfolds in how people react to furiosa’s return and joe being dead) is the right (and/or rewarded) choice in this story and it is certainly the choice they end up making, but it’s certainly Not accurate or all that relevant to what’s more accurate to be like well well well looks like someone didn’t want to put in the work and is instead looking for utopia

reminds me very pertinently of like oh how about this postapocalyptic YA scifi novel where one teen girl is now the only person alive in this small town / enclave although she can’t know if there’s any other enclaves or people alive out there, until some adult guy shows up from somewhere and maybe has to recover from some injury idk and they’re like housemates or whatever for a while until he suddenly tries to rape her b/c oh postapocalypse, as a girl you Have to have earth repopulating babies, and then she has to like flee and try to survive in that enclave while he’s trying to sabotage her to force her to have to “cooperate” with him. and the ending is that she takes the like radiation armor or whatever hazmat type suit the guy showed up in and leaves him and that enclave behind entirely and walks off into what may be a totally inhospitable unpopulated world but where a) that guy managed to show up from the outside world and b) she’s like specifically walking towards an area where she’s seen some distant birds so there May be life, but there’s no further implication about whether she’s necessarily right or or whether she’s going to die b/c there’s no one else or no other hospitable area nearby....and if we’re going “fury road is about working with what you’ve got and they have to learn that chasing utopia isn’t going to get them anywhere” then we’re going “wow, a story about this protagonist’s naivete, huh??” about that ending. sounds like Someone’s a little too idealistic

also that naturally it’s completely relevant that authoritarianism as like a structure/ guiding principle needn’t only be found on a scale of [a whole country or something]. quotes about water sure but also the “that’s my child; my property” line, where’s that being shared, it’s not like oh that’s just [the villain] things lol, that’s like, a common perspective even if it’s not voiced that way. you can apply the material to w/e you want irl but in universe it’s like, this one place they’re from is known to not be the only place in the world, it doesn’t Need to represent All Human Society and isn’t That in universe, when i went offroad from [zooms off from parents’ house] i was like wow fury road moments huh. and certainly people have the stance of like umm sounds like everyone should try and Make It Work with their existing family units....and i have the stance of i wish i could fight with a metal arm. like, you wanna make it work that way lol, that’s a possibility. don’t have to presume everything out there is Perfect, or that you won’t even maybe die by getting outta here, but it’s Possibility of Something Else and is already something else, can you argue people necessarily need to be guided by anything else or that that’s somehow the Naive or overly Idealistic perspective rather than “how about you stay & deal with more of the same / your known limited paths for the future as you have for however long? try just keeping at it? see if the regime will feel like seeing you as a person when it’s never done that and to actually change and do it it needs to have Already changed and done it, so kind of an impossible position to be in” and the like. how is one gonna imply like well the mistake that these characters needed to unlearn was leaving in the first place, oh you think there’s something perfect out there, get real?? 

anyways the tl;dr is you know when someone’s wrong and you’re right. i’m really right though lmfao this wasn’t a story about anyone being motivated by the idea of this utopia, it’s about the motivation of needing something else / acting on possibility. and saying the conclusion is like “fix it” lol like again, not utterly irrelevant when these matters are discussed, but it’s like, they’ve Been fixing things, How are they able to fix things, why do further possibilities like “i can fix [the citadel]” become possible....survival happening / becoming more successful with others, individuals becoming more successful with others....people are isolated & stripped of power as their Problems, not that they’re a bit too idealistic about hey time to get the fuck out of here lol

#some rando in some post i probably last glimpsed a few yrs ago ''fury road is good b/c for one thing: [x] :)'' #here i am to say NO it's NOT [x] it's good b/c for one thing: that's actually [y] #tagging this one just categorically lol #fury road #the plains of silence? more like the black box of [anyone checking w/e particular tags i'm using] lol #godspeed i mean i'd believe it. i'm out here having seen fury road the month it came out & never stopping thinking abt it since #in fact clearly i am Continuing to think abt it afresh even in addition to all the immediate [thinking about sooo much] #that is i don't feel like ah yes. i have reached Every Conclusion about this material lol. im obv going ''oh hey. new ideas'' this very week #and you know me....short essays to Hope i've made some point about something that would probably be someone else's sentence or paragraph #oh right and once more with canon typicality: #cw rape mention #at this point i'm so like. make windows movie maker absorb this File; make a clip comp that's even limited to like. #here's the dozen shots / ten second moments that i specifically remember making me go Oh. Oh Okay It's Like This [life changes] when just #even seeing it for that very first time in the theater like o_o and i mean naturally the truest version of that is [the whole thing] #but i really remember like a good number of those particular like hWAOH things like Ah. I See [increase of 98589 hz] #anyways tfw glancing over sm random slightly off base point like ugh no. smash cut yrs later arbitrarily walk up to the dash like yknow what #No... #ig also #long post // #not always a hard distinction out here. i need one billion words thanks

[mockiatoh]

My biggest frustration with the left has always been the inability/unwillingness to work on making progress inside of the system while advocating for greater change.

I remember the first time I came to this realization.

I was nineteen, pregnant. We couldn’t afford to heat the house because we couldn’t afford the deposit to turn the gas on. It was miserably cold. The duplex we were renting was old and rickety and drafty. The window frames were messed up and there were cracks you could stick your finger through that were open to the elements.

Just, like, to give you an idea where we were financially. And this was better than we’d been doing before!

Anyway, I had recently started going to DSA meetings. And that month, they were talking about how a moderate democrat had successfully gotten a small increase in WIC benefits monthly. It came out to, like, $10 a month.

The members talking—mostly male, almost all doing decent—were scornful. The democrat should have pushed harder and gotten more, refused to accept anything until everyone else caved to their demands. I remember sitting there, quietly drinking the latte in the smallest size they had that I had bought with scrounged quarters, listening. Wishing it wasn’t held in an indie coffee shop because it was a luxury I really couldn’t afford, but it would be rude not to. Enjoying the coffee anyway.

I was one of the lucky ones who was getting that additional $10 a month through WIC. Even more exciting, we were now getting a voucher for the farmers’ market. I casually mentioned that WIC recipients would now be getting farmers’ market vouchers, too.

The guy who organized the meetings was a hard worker, passionate guy. Did something in tech.

He was like, “That’s the thing! These people don’t want farmers market vouchers. They want—” and he went on to describe a bunch of pie in the sky desires. That, yeah, sounded good.

But one. I was one of those people! A lot if the tamiles were super excited about it, myself included.

I had never been to a farmers’ market before. I tried arugula for the first time, a piece pulled from a bunch by the grower as he explained the flavor difference. I hadn’t known before then that different lettuce greens had different flavors, that it was more than just the texture and shape. I tried pesto, which delighted me. Goat cheese. I got three full pounds of strawberries for two dollars, since they were closing soon and the old man selling the berries got a kick out of me.

Anyway. It was like, you have a decent life. Not great but decent! The things that are life changing for me, for us… you already have.

The ten dollars at the grocery store made the difference between a meal of broken-noodles-with-some-half-horrible-pantry-scraps and a meal. It kept me full and healthy! And the additional farmers’ market voucher was world changing for me.

The democrat who worked for those things barely got them through. And it was means tested to hell and back. They weren’t able to get everything they wanted. But what they got made such a huge difference for me, for people like me.

[tobitenkit]

just in case you guys didnt know. i work for the actual sweetest woman in the world

#🌿 #there was a book about local ghost stories on someones desk that i mentioned to her #because the first chapter is about the theatre and that always reminds me of my late grandpa #and she FOUND it. and wrote an in memory of about him in the front #gave it to me as a surprise tonight ;-; #ive seen her take home and rehab city pigeons #she feeds the snails on her porch little vegetable slices #she once chased a teenager down the street and stole his bike because he threw a chunk of ice at her car #(like rock hard crack a window winter ice chunk) #(it may have been a skateboard actually. something with wheels) #(he got it back the next day though) #i did not see that last one but she told me the story #absolute saint of a woman

[softgrungeprophet]

the real reason au kaine wears a braid suited up...to keep his hair from fluffing up with static electricity

#this is only half a joke... the spiders do use electrostatic sticking... #they also all have fine thick hair but Peter's is full of wax and or pomade etc. #kaine's is also typically full of either grease or (when he isn't homeless) curl creme and scrunching gel and stuff #ben's hair though. Ben whose hair is bleached and unstyled. i imagine when he takes the mask off it really acts up #he just needs to touch a doorknob #also I always forget about this ... i need to mention offhand peter accidentally shocking people or something #this obviously would be where miles gets his blast from. arguably jess too but she is. like. a middle aged spy in europe #not a spider person and not someone peter will ever meet most likely #unless she knew his parents i guess #nadia rambles #came in through the window last night