#menthol illness

[majimasleftasscheek]

she’s still and always on my mind

#I love this outfit too much oh my goddddd #time to find a cropped jacket #menthol illness #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #my art #goromi

[lovethebluebox]

Just a casual reminder to that voice in your head:

You're not cringe, you're just anxious

The things that you make and your ideas are cool and you should share them with the world, even if they are messy, or unfinished or terrible. Things need to exist in order for you to develop them into something better.

Also people love seeing progress journeys and understanding the way other people work through things.

#personal #menthol illness #as long as it doesnt actively harm other people and youre willing to learn if you make an unintentional mistake yadda yadda #feel free to reblog #social anxiety #anxiety

[robotomia]

Rahhhhh some cringe personal art

version with no gradient map

#my art #robot #menthol illness

[savageboar]

share if you're a true knotter

#MENTHOL ILLNESS #hades.txt #spotify wrapped

[thefiresofpompeii]

okay i’m gonna come clean and say that from all the posts about mabel that i’ve seen i was so intimidated that it has so many beautiful quotes and characters and strange intertwining plot lines that i was nervous that i wouldn’t be able to remember most of it and that would be disrespectful to the art (why? i don’t know. ask the ocd. if i don’t remember everything good about a piece of art i feel like i’m offending it, so i barely engage with anything new at all) so i never listened past episode 8, the end of s1. the fact that i wasn’t really understanding at all half of the events that were happening and it’s not even a quarter of the way through the podcast is a marker of my emotional denseness and lack of reading (listening) comprehension and media literacy…which was another reason for me to stop listening. but the art and the paraphrases and even the joke posts i see on here are all so otherworldly and wonderful and i can’t stop looking at them. so i’m just gonna continue listening and maybe, eventually, gain a vague understanding and stop feeling stupid. and then relisten to pick up everything i have inevitably missed

wish i could engage with art normally and naturally as in…picks up the media, interacts with it listens reads watches whatever (as a fun hobby or distraction!) internalises everything that happens in it without the need to test oneself as if preparing for an exam. wish my memory wasn’t shit and i could have hobbies and interests like a real person instead of being afraid of not equalling their quality in adequate response

point is, i am now going to continue listening to mabel, but i just wish it didn’t make me feel like a loser who can’t understand subtext and listen between the lines. WHAT am i doing in a literature degree

#jamie.txt #mabelpod #menthol illness

[xylophonetangerine]

Called my dad to tell him the reason I've been so unusually worried and on the edge is because I've been doing ERP for OCD and not because I'm in any trouble

#i AM trying to get better #menthol illness

[aturinfortheworse]

I saw someone use the tag "menthol _____" for mental illness, but I can't remember what the second word was beyond the fact that I loved it. Any guesses? My memory is that it was confusing at first but worked great when said out loud.

#menthol illness #it was not that #tagging

[zibah-ho]

incredibly interesting to me how without thinking about it I organised my dickroy playlist to start off very young love best friends we love each other but in a silly goofy way songs from when I was a kid and then a swift decent into yearning and estranged but deeply connected forever more in love like adults who know what they want and have tasted it and have lived without it and still still they love like the tone change was completely accidental but somehow in character

#menthol illness #zh.txt #r:dickroy #genuinely I think what happened was I was in a super chill happy mood when first creating it and then depressive episode hit and uh. oops. #sorry lads #stream I don’t smoke by mitski now #playlists

[thisdogpaystaxes]

whats the millisecond of peace that comes immediately after waking up before your memories and thoughts return called

#shitpost #text post #text #txt #shit post #txt twitter #txt post #i hate waking up #menthol illness #i have mental illness #but we all do #peace #i love sleep #i love sleeping #i'm insane

[h3xactinellida]

almost at 15k posts. this blog is 5 months old <3

#menthol illness

[valentinemesis]

I don't actually remember things so I went through my tumblr to see what my interests were... the grip fire emblem has on me

#menthol illness

[loumands]

I posted 23,934 times in 2022

That's 6,633 more posts than 2021!

1,395 posts created (6%)

22,539 posts reblogged (94%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@mandalorianmuffin

@jimmymcgirl

@hotgirlcastiel

@howlscastle

@sunnypeachyy

I tagged 15,277 of my posts in 2022

Only 36% of my posts had no tags

#q - 2,699 posts

#hs - 1,438 posts

#iwtv - 818 posts

#succession - 652 posts

#art - 539 posts

#spn - 471 posts

#animals - 363 posts

#ph - 324 posts

#movies - 219 posts

#words - 206 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#literally the whole show is about banal destruction that abuse causes and how it robs people of having true connection and living full life

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Jacob Anderson should get an emmy for this single acting choice of going tongue first alone. Will expect this level of commitment from every actor from now on

2,671 notes - Posted October 31, 2022

#4

After years of pretending he doesn't care anymore Louis literally swam across the river so he could throw his man's mistress out of her own house and hatefuck him in her own bed. Cinema!

2,861 notes - Posted October 30, 2022

#3

This scene is so funny now in hindsight. Like they really were basically having sex right in front of Daniel’s salad. Why. Just for shit and giggles? Voyeurism kink? To psychosexually terrorize Daniel? Just to commit to the bit? Either way forget all the killing and maiming this was literally the most deranged thing they’ve ever done

3,109 notes - Posted November 6, 2022

#2

We lucked out so good with Jacob Anderson and Sam Reid i still can't believe it. They brought in Grey Worm from GoT and pulled out some guy from australian hinterlands or wherever they've been keeping him, neither of them being what most fans orignally had in mind. And then Jacob so vividly brought alive a character that has never been done justice and Sam just got straight up possessed by Lestat. AND they proceeded to have literally one of the most mind-alteringly good chemistries between onscreen couples ever in history. Making me fully buy into the characters' tortured gothic romance and feel like they're always seconds away from rawdogging each other. I would say they were raised in a lab but this is magic and fate in action i'm serious

3,244 notes - Posted November 5, 2022

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22,846 notes - Posted August 8, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #false #truly demonstrates how totally the vampire show took over my brain within less than two months #menthol illness

[asushunamir2051]

Brain demons just came for my fucking kneecaps ow ow ow ow owww jesus son of a dickhead can someone just knock me out with a frying pan for a few hours please that’d be grand wtf was that

#original post #ignore me I’ll be fine 👍 #just saw a face drawn a particular way in a webcomic and my brain decided we were gonna put the handbrake on at 50mph #*metaphorically I did not cause a car accident #just feel like I did #menthol illness

[xylophonetangerine]

I had an interesting conversation with my psych nurse on Monday. She said that while ADHD medications can make you more delusional (which is kind of a problem for me) I should try only having one drug holiday day per week (instead of the present two or three) since my impulsiveness (which is definitely a problem for me) seems to decrease when I take the methylphenidate.

#menthol illness

[sugarglider-s]

Pokemon Special // The Killers "Andy, You're a Star" // Ocean Vuoung "On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous" // Richard Siken "Crush" // Jamie Anderson // Richard Siken "Straw House, Straw Dog"

#pokespe #pokemon special #gym leader wallace #champion wallace #steven stone #originshipping #web weaving #sugartalks #long post #sorry for being full of menthol illness about these losers. as if its my fault

[voidcat]

— a mutual intoxication

characters: dazai osamu, you

notes: implied toxic unlabeled past relationship, idk what this is beyond that, ive been doing some p stupid shit lately i needed dazai to shake me out of it. also my e key has issues so there may b missing lettrs

song: Los Borrachos (I Don't Have Any Hope Left But The Weather Is Nice) by Car Seat Headrest i think?? im notsure

Turning your phone off with a sigh, you close your eyes, sensing that presence hovering over your shoulder a little too late.

You have grown rusty, it seems, for he stands like that, too close for comfort, close enough for you to feel his breath and his eyes glued on the black screen of your phone.

“Look who’s here!”

Dazai Osamu exclaims giddily as he makes a turn around and slides right next to you. As if its some mere coincidence the two of you ran into one another and not something he foresaw before you even decided to drop by this cafe.

And so Dazai settles down, makes himself comfortable, easing in and blending into your side, to the environment.

A quick look shot his way, at your phone and the people idling in the cafe, you wait and wait, swallow down each second thats been passing.

And he catches it no matter how quick.

Of course he would, this is Dazai after all. Nothing gets past his senses, his wicked perception, his inituition.

Dazai's presence right here, right now means only one thing: That he has won.

Or so, he thinks. And once he does, it is the truth and absolute truth, even despite the circumstances preventing it, he will make sure to eradicate.

So far his voice falls deaf on your ears, as often was the case in your past, just a background noise to fill the air and nothing else–

"Someone has been busy, hm?" his coo leaves you on the edge, and you have half a mind to not jolt up or shoot another glance by your phone.

You know this.

You know Dazai, he is just doing what he does best, you are better than this: giving him what he seeks.

"So, what are they like? Have they been helping you with that itch on your brain that needs a good scratch?"

It shouldn't sting when you have grown used to it, but it does, just a little.

Not because he is right– he is, that's another issue, but because you're still doing that after all that time.

A little attention never killed anyone, that part of your brain reasons but another is quick to remind you of all those myths and tragedies of Greece.

It is nowhere as satisfactory as the real thing obviously, but even messages of sweet words and praises gets you going– though you hate to admit it, that you like this, you relish on this, the high of it.

Bonus points when the compliments are not the typical ones you can see everywhere, when the terms of endearment and what follows them sound to be thought over.

Lips pulled tight, you only stare at Dazai without a word.

"Not deserving of your voice? Not even the scoldings?" he tilts his head to the side with a smirk.

Bandaged hand over the table moves on its own.

They seem fresh, you cannot help but make a note of. Perhaps he came across a discount recently. There is no way in hell he would pay for these. Not when he has the agency's stash to raid, or you to buy and apply a fresh set.

His weird unique way of showing vulnerability, in his own way. But how can you blame the man?

He was already a mess when the two of you met.

Finger swiped over the screen, he taps the passcode, only to be left alone with the lockscreen.

Head turned to face you, another smirk that says "I'm impressed."

thanks no thanks, i don't need your compliments, you want to say.

you are not worried per se, you do not owe your piece of shit of an ex any explanation.

how things will turn out however, has you wondering. You know Dazai, but there are times when even you're at a loss of predicting his mind.

Friend of a friend– you doubt he knows that friend in th first place. Maybe their social media profiles at most but that's not much to go by.

The phone comes to life then– of course it had to be th fingerprint you had forgotten about.

Yet Dazai only seems pleasant at th turn of events. From your expression, he can tell this was not intentional but where's the fun if he doesn't go around claiming you were always waiting for him to return to your loving embrace.

"Not good enough apparently."

you whip your head at his voice, confusion clear on your face.

"Since you're sitting here alone all by yourself, not even on a call or texting." he shrugs as if he is explaining something simple, some truth of life to a kid.

"And do pray tell, Dazai, how am i supposed to text or talk when you have my phone?" you don't realize your teeth grithing.

To your reaction he only offers a grin, aware you know the answer as well as him.

even now, him going through your phone is old news. He did that before, and so did you– returning the favor.

If you wanted all his attention on himself, he demanded the same in return, give and take, until you suffocate.

and yet, even now that air stinging and filling your lungs does not hurt. the unbreathable toxic air is welcome in your lungs, an old friend you cannot shake off your life.

dull eyes ignore your question as they quickly go over chat histories, a little sneak at your photo roll without a doubt and side private accounts you keep limited to few people in your life.

with a sigh, he turns the device off and tosses it back on the table, leaning on his back, relaxing entirely. "My, my– and here I was worried you had forgotten all about me."

You had, as a matter of fact, yet you doubt he'd take your word for it, not when he has something brewing in his head to prove. Whaatever it may be, you know it won't end up in your favor.

"Now I just feel bad," that indifferent tone of his rings loud and clear.

hah! as if he is in any position to feel bad for your sake, what an awful attempt at a joke.

"Darling, you deserve better than that." "And that 'better' is supposed to be you?" you retort without missing a beat, annoyance clear in your voice.

"Well," he drags the word with a tilt of his head, gaze locked on the ceiling as if it's the wide blue sky instead, "Not saying I'm the best you've had, surely there are plenty of fish in the sea,"

a lie, you are aware, what he truly says is 'your words, not mine'.

"You deserve someone to match your wits." he concludes.

When you turn to look at his face, you see him sliding down slightly, head thrown back and resting.

even when complimenting, he makes sure to cast the hook where he wants it, all he has to do is sit and wait.

and hate yourself just as much, you know it has worked, that he is right. As exhasuting as it was to be ...something with Dazai Osamu, it was exciting, keeping the adrenaline rushing constantly, the ups and downs, highs and lows, the clashing and the sudden unision in the face of anything else.

"Not some sorry excuse of a person who cannot even pick up on one third of the things and teasings you say."

this, you're unsure if it is the living and breathing Dazai that says it, or the little one nestling in the back of your hand, always making sure to remind you he will never leave you alone.

Th who of it does not matter though.

Bcause all the ticks and kcks of your relationship with him, it was the unspoken understanding you enjoyed more than anything.

A look is all it takes, a gesture is all he needs, no words spoken, no thoughts admitted out loud verbally.

With a mind as sharp and bright as Dazai's, he understood you more than anyone else.

But being understood is not the entirety of it.

that's where communication plays in after all.

and as bright as he may be, Dazai took this to his advantage, his vague tactics to keep you around.

Sweetness but not too much, attention just long enough to keep you waiting for more, at the ready with big eyes–

letting your shoulders drop and realizing the tension you had on this whole time, you lean back as well, mirroring the man next to you and letting your body fall toward his direction a little.

Who are you to judge Dazai Osamu when you haven't been any better?

maybe this is what you wanted this whole time, letting this 'break up' last longer than the prvious ghosting phases, ignoring him on purpose and seeking out a new source to keep you up.

you can feel an arm draping over you, not bothering to open your eyes. this, too, has become something you've grown all too familiar with– one of the dolce ones, even when th grip becomes tight– keeping the other locked in.

because for any chain Dazai has on you, he possesses a matching one.

He might be the human with the highest perception skills for all you care– you know him, and that speaks for itself.

back and forth, it's a never ending dance of teasing, stepping on toes on purpose, pretending to have gotten bored in the middle only to surprise the second party with a sudden spin and bending of the waist– leaning in, nose to nose, until your visions blur into nothing but each other, and the mess you have left in your trail.

#didnt end this exactly in th way i wanted but i think this one is better #u can pretend he says mst lik 'ill makeu forget abt thm in no time' and ur inner monologue smt abt how thres no need for this already #uh anyays #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #felizai #menthol ellness<3 #dazai x reader #dazai x you #bsd x you #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x you #bungou stray dogs x reader #dazai osamu x you #dazai osamu x reader #gender neutral reader