#maybe not over the internet

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them. #which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in! #but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected! #> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace'' #bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward. #TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex'' #WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it. #not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden? #even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

[toxooz]

been sick as a mf dawg but i managed to draw the ol Ollie n Kari halloween costumes for this year🤘

#ollie #kari #my art #original character #halloween #pyramid head #monster girl #monster bf #monster oc #terato #silent hill #monster #sick n tired of bein sick n tired but tHE TRADITION CONTINUES #insert the meme if i had a nickle for every traumatic experience of someone grotesquely vomiting in front of me #and then me getting sick from anxiety the day after i would have 2 #all bc of some guy from a state n a half over who Nobody else knew not being able to handle his liquor nor weed im #bc Somebody never got the fact that strangers from the internet are probably weird and maybe dont drag them with u to closed parties #its almost comical how easily it couldve all been avoided and how i couldve never fukkin knew this guy existed lmfao #but alas that is the trajectory of the eternal curse of living AHA #ANYWAY im good now and i feel bad for the guy i do but For The Love Of God #this damn puke phobia that has plagued me my entire life is going to be the death of me i can feel it mr krabs #the horrors persist but so do i i chant thru gritted teeth #oc #exophilia

[fightingwithallreality]

Blaze and Thunderbolt (1955) written and illustrated by Clarence William Anderson

#blaze and thunderbolt #clarence william anderson #c w anderson #i LOVE it when the writer and illustrate are the same person #it brings such love to the story #like yes they have passion for both and they did that here #some of my favorite things about vintage books #but ive only found a couple over the past year #anderson has a whole series about billy so maybe I will do some of his other books too #we will see #internet archive #photopia #yee haw #horses #horse art #illustration #horse #equids #1955 #circa 1955 #50s #1950s #wyoming #montana #colorado #utah #horse ranch #ranch #ranchhand #ranch life

[willowser]

OKAY ACTUAL LAST THING AKFBRIWKAK but obviously, you keep your family life very private and your daughter is almost never seen in public bc that's how bakugou likes it, he doesn't talk about his family all that often bc he wants to keep it all close to his chest, and maybe he even gets a bit more shredded than usual by the media about it, as he already has a "reputation", but —

one day, a video that you took gets leaked, and it starts out with her sitting on your lap, chilled, relaxing, shaking some little rattle toy in her hand. and then the front door opens and you can see her peek her little head around like she's looking out, and then she's making some little humming noises and scooching off your lap and waddling away to stand in the middle of the hallway. and then katsuki comes into view and he stands there looking at her, glancing at you, before saying something that's too low to catch on camera, and then your daughter is squealing out some gibberish behind her chupie and running as fast as her little chubby legs can take her so he can pick her up and give her a kiss on her fat cheeks !!!!!

#the internet probably BLOWS UP OVER IT #starts a whole conspiracy about there being a fake bakugou #LMAOOOO #it gets taken down immediately but obviously the internet already has it #but every so often the video will disappear for a little bit until someone reuploads it #but for the most part bakugou's agency works their ass off keeping it down #puts a lot into perspective for people regarding him #maybe starts a conversation about the privacy of heroes and their lives #he's not happy about it LOL but it's a cute video regardless 😌😌😌 #then people spend ages trying even harder to ask him about his family and he's all 'dont ask me about this shit 😒😒🔪' #'aint ever been anyone's business and it wont ever be' #OKAY GOING TO BED IF IT GET BACK ON HERE PUT ME DOWN #cw children #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: dad bakugou

[junkboxcorner]

{WIP] He's still out there

#artists on tumblr #nonbinary artist #art #art wip #fanart #dog nightmares #analog #analog horror #internet horror #digital horror #so i decided to delve a little more into horror lately #always have been a huge indie horror fan #something about the aesthetic of dog nightmares really speaks to me #maybe it's just me growing up with pbs kids but #this really puts the nostalgia into nostalgic horror #(i know i should stick to a theme for my art but my interests are all over the place) #(and i decided a long time ago that i'm going to draw things that “spark joy”) #(if it doesn't make me feel excited then i don't draw it) #(... does anyone even read my tags? lol) #tw body horror

[craneworms]

get behind me usopp and nami I’ll protect you from the dudebro powerscalers !

#one piece #usopp one piece #god usopp #nami one piece #cat burglar nami #usopp #nami #oh no i broke my back bending over backwards defending them on the internet #@ all powerscalers why don’t you just sit back and enjoy the character writing for a second #like?? maybe i’m weird but for me the character writing & dynamics is what really drew me into one piece #and you just don’t care about that?? #insane

[chiropteracupola]

Said hello and goodbye / Do you feel alright with the days gone by / I'll never waste my time, I'll never say goodbye...

#em draws stuff #em is posting about the wizard of oz in this the year 2023 #<- organizational tag in lieu of a more findable one since I do not wish to discover an internet soup of some sort at this time #this is due to sanguinity's tags on that 'kissing someone up against a wall but the wall is jeff' post #'and now I can finally check these three off a to-draw list they've been on for years' says guy who now wants to draw them Again #designs here are mostly based on the john r neill illustrations with a few of my own twists but I'd like to try out my own take on them too #I drew this mostly in one probably eight-hour sitting and for several reasons maybe I should not have done that #but I am too proud and pleased to have any regrets on that particular front #now I think maybe I shall fall over. but alas I have got tasks. no falling over for the emmothy today :| #caption lyrics are from 'might quit' by bill wurtz since it felt right for some inexplicable reason

[curiusmeep]

currently thinkin if i'm aromantic.. like.. maybe i'm not.. bi??? maybe i don't love everyone equally but instead love my friends????

like.. i always wanted a relationship.. but as besties.. who can cuddle and maybe kiss... like... is real romantic attraction different????

idk,, my friend i care abt a lot came out as aroace right, and i went to research it a bit more,,,, and i found out about squishes right

and i read through ppl's experiences with squishes and i'm just like..

"hmm, but how's that different from a crush?"

*reads another one*

*terrified* "B-BUT HOW'S THAT DIFFERENT FROM A CRUSH"

like am i aromantic?????? i- I mean ik for sure I'm ace, but aromantic???? MAYBE?????

Help

#AND LIKE I *COULD* ASK THEM (my friend) BUT THEY CAME OUT TO ME JUST A FEW DAYS AGO AND I DON"T WANT TO SEEM INSENSETIVE #and like.. I'm still a teen idk shit #like i haven't even had a proper relationship yet #all of them were on the web #and like i heard other aro ppl say they don't understand how ppl can love someone over the internet... #I'm just very not sure pls help #asexual #aromantic #aroace #maybe #txt #helppppp

[saetoru]

what an absolutely abysmal individual

#like seriously #this post has been circulating on dash for a while now and i’m over it honestly bc idc if random ppl w no faces on the internet think #my selfship w gojo is weird #but fr the way they are like stay off ao3 and stay in a shameful corner of the internet #yn is not creative but oc’s are 💀 #as if some oc’s aren’t just yn with a random name slapped on bc they’re projections of the author #but more than that #if u are this delusional from hatred that you think ppl should just not be allowed on a certain site or on the internet bc u don’t like it #u are actually just mentally ill #like concerningly unwell in the head and u should seek some help bc u are too invested in online culture #to the point that it’s pathetic rly #get a life #a hobby !! #maybe ur place on the internet reblogging supernatural gifs in 2023 is the real cringe part babe like #that show long lost its peak 💀

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face... #since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree. #I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite* #THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me. #It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:| #ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

[xxlemon-chanxx]

Magpie and Horse drama update.

Featuring @toh-proship-positivity

(I would reblog them, but they have me blocked lmao)

So, Horse—or, sorry, "Griff"— has gone nuclear and freaked out once they realized we weren't backing down. They deleted most of their ALTs (see previous post or check the drama overview pinned to my blog for reference to the Tumblr ALTs I've mentioned here.)

Funnily enough, they're trying to run from their actions, saying that you "don't treat a real human this way" when they've been pulling bullshit for over a year. Telling the same list of lies with no evidence to whoever is suckered into giving them the time of day.

Saying “don’t treat a real human this way'' when you've actively gone out of your way to try and sabotage someone's livelihood for over a year. Is it not rather ''sick'' to accuse someone of associating with groomers and then drop no evidence for such a serious claim? How about accusing someone of tracing and trying to encourage their customers to ask for refunds from their shop just to make sure said person loses money? That sounds pretty sick to me.

You act like this document was made simply to ''bully'' Horse, when in reality, it's a bunch of people who came together to stand up for someone who was getting their reputation unfairly ruined behind their back.

You act like this is about proshipping when that is far from the truth. Everything that was presented in that doc was only to do with Horse.

If trying to defend someone against a slew of awful accusations makes me ''sick'', then put me in the hospital.

But, there is one thing I'm going to mention. if you look below, you're going to see someone who responded to Horse's callout post. This is a trend I’ve seen with the people siding with Horse— none of them actually bother to read the document? Whether it be in DMs, in their discord server, or just in the comments of their posts, none of the people siding with Horse ever actually open the document and read it. It tells me that they're scared that the document actually has some merit and they don't want to risk realizing that Horse isn't as good as they thought they were.

I'm definitely going to be making a YouTube video going over the slides and the Tumblr/Discord aftermath, because I want this to be accessible to AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE. Horse may have changed their username, but I don't want them to ever be able to spread these lies again.

#toh #the owl house drama #The owl house community #proship #anti proship #both sides need to see this #next time on Dragon Ball Z—will horse ever learn? #maybe next time don't copy-paste the same paragraphs of lies all over the internet using every single ALT

[toiletpotato]

Have you never seen a production of Romeo and Juliet? Would you like to? Consider checking out this recording of the play, starring Dola Rashad and Orlando Bloom.

#if someone with time could download this #and maybe toss it up on the internet archive #that'd be very appreciated :) #if they were upset about culture they where was the uproar over gnomeo and juliet #there was none. because those gnomes were white #theatre #drama #shakespeare #romeo and juliet #Youtube

[a-dragons-journal]

Hi, I'm kinda paranoid about this because I know kff are Bad, but I'm pretty sure my kintypes (Velociraptor and alien) are involuntary, but I'm terrified that they secretly aren't and I'm a kff without knowing and I'm harming the otherkin community without knowing. Is this possible, or have I misunderstood the issue?

Short answer: no. The literal meaning of KFF, "kin-for-fun," is calling something "kinning" when you explicitly do not identify as the thing and are just "doing it for fun" (whether "it" be roleplay or faceclaiming or whatever - as long as it's not identification). It's in the literal name of the thing - "kinning for (the purpose of having) fun." If you identify as the thing in question, it by definition cannot be KFF, no matter what else is going on.

Long answer: I want it to be clear that I mean all of this frustration in an "I am so sorry this is happening to you" way, not a "you are in any way at fault for this" way, but: this is perhaps the single worst side effect of the whole KFF debacle, and I hate it, because I genuinely don't know how to fix it when I and most people I see arguing about this are already making every effort to be as clear as possible that this is not what we're talking about and we are still chronically misunderstood, and I cannot figure out how to make it any clearer because it's literally in the name of the thing. It's why we stopped using the word "kinnie" and started using "kin-for-fun," and it's STILL misunderstood.

Being unclear on whether something is really an identity or not is not KFF (otherwise literally everyone who's questioning would be).

Not being sure how voluntary or involuntary a given identity is does not make it KFF.

Identifying as something voluntarily and calling it 'kin does not make you KFF (even if you want to argue that it's not proper to call it 'kin and it should only ever be called 'linking instead, which at this point I disagree with, it's still not KFF).

Having fun with being 'kin and not taking it super seriously a lot of the time does not make you KFF.

Identifying as something "weird" or in a "weird" way - whatever that means - does not make you KFF.

If you understand the meaning of the word, and you find that it fits you, it is none of my business to tell you not to use it. The only time it becomes remotely my business is when someone clearly is working off of misinformation to begin with - ie, "oh, it just means relating to something, I don't ACTUALLY think I'm a wolf lol," which is traceably misinformation stemming from misunderstandings.

#otherkin #kin for fun #rani talks #forgive me if i sound a little frustrated #again the frustration is in no way aimed at you anon #but it's a little exhausting to have to repeat this over and over #and i can't tell if it's bc it's actually unclear or bc there's a game of internet telephone happening or bc people who are pushing - #- for the acceptance of kff as ''''valid kinning'''' are deliberately misrepresenting us to make us sound like asshole gatekeepers #or bc of the long history of actual gatekeeping in the community that leads to conflicting messages maybe. idk. #or fuck it maybe there actually ARE people out there pushing this in a significant way #fuck knows i haven't seen 'em but i'm not god. they could be out there #that's not true. i've seen em. i've seen like three of them. it's not a significant number. #it does not correlate to the number of asks along the lines of this one that i get #asked and answered #anonymous

[alteredsilicone]

I like the idea of the Operators being "mature" but in the sense that, due to being molded into child soldiers, they were forced to grow up way too fast and the obvious trauma and mental dysfunction that comes from such circumstances shines through. Like, even the Tenno that embody the "look inside a broken thing and take away its pain" are unsettling in the way that a young child should not be taking on such burdens... Worst of all - they're essentially godlike creatures, so there really is nobody else that understands their struggle or can truly comfort them. Margulis tried, the Lotus tries but the Tenno are still alone in their predicament.

#wf tag #maybe a cringe comparison but #inspiration is posts of people talking how they played therapist for adults on the internet as kids #and like #idk im just fascinated by the tenno and the operators #theyre gods theyre soldiers theyre saviors #but also theyre children #but their childhood has been completely ripped away #and nobody really acknowledges that #because at this point you have to Let It Go and move on #which is why i like to play with an operator drifter dynamic #where the Drifter takes over so the Operator can finally rest #this is how the Viris work