#maybe its just a momentary thing and ill feel completely different about it tomorrow idk

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#i talk #i seem to be...easily forgettable #and/or ignorable #is that a word? #dunno i just sometimes feel like that #i remember in like middle and high school i wasnt really bullied but just straight up ignored by most #even if i said something to add to a conversation #either id get some weird looks and nothing further #or nothing at all in the first place #and that still seems to happen #no matter where i am #even to people ive talked to or interacted with somehow #and not even on purpose? like they dont hate me or anything they just forget about me or i dont exist to them except in like #a moment of interaction #idk #maybe its just a momentary thing and ill feel completely different about it tomorrow idk #ah man i need friends #my one friend i consider as my best friend i talk to on discord maybe once a month cause shes very busy with uni #and last time we talked she referred to me as her very good friend #and im sure she didnt mean that in a bad way and i still love her but that just again made me think that i really just dont have friends? #and i havent hung out with anyone outside of school or my sister since at least last summer #hung out with as in irl or online or even over text #damn #ok im done