#maybe im just getting older and cynical

[socpens]

Please never play Garten of Banban again

i dont know if i will. i love looking at popular things, especially if they're related to horror, because i'm really curious about what it is that makes things accessible on a wider scale. after playing 4 garten of banbans i can say its not any deeper than bright and simplistic monsters appearing in youtube content kids & teens watch. if you look at feenaf, or baldi, there's more there than just their aesthetic, both in terms of gameplay/design and the reasons they exist in the first place.

i try hard to give games i stream the benefit of the doubt and not bad mouth them too much. i dont care about bad mouthing things, i think a lot of things suck and will voice that whenever i want, but doing it for hours in front of 1000+ people can easily snowball into a really putrid energy. so its partially because of that. but also because i know making anything is hard. so on stream i probably appear very charitable when playing these kinds of games but ill always give my honest opinion at the end.

and with garten of banban it was that with each iteration it becomes more and more clear that each game exists only to lead into the existence of another. in a way that, with each iteration, becomes more and more disengaging because of how obvious it is. im not gonna shit on people getting that bag, ride the wave if it comes you gotta pay the bills (also who tf is buying these games?? it aint kids, my laptop could barely run the game and they're just gonna watch markiplier play it), but after the 4th game ending exactly where i thought it would and greeting me with a screen telling me to buy not the 5th but the 6th garten of banban was just whatever straw i needed to just not even be curious anymore.

like in a way the games broke my curiosity, and ive always prided myself on going from being very cynical and negative towards anything popular in my early 20s to having some kind of curious optimism as i've gotten older. so for it to break that is honestly super sad but also a wild feat. the progression of the garten of banban games has made me more cynical about art as consumer product than any amount of call of duty games i think because of the audience, the scale & the rapidity of it all

anyway we'll see when 5 rolls around if apillabode meets choo choo charles maybe ill play it.

[shiftperception]

not to be cynical but catching ogrepon in the dlc felt unearned to me.

kieran is supposed to be this butthurt rival but his anger feels justified on account of how much more sense he’d make as the protagonist of this arc. it feels like he’s supposed to be the protagonist but can’t just because this is a pokemon game so the player has to be. im not tripping right? ‘shy bullied outcast boy discovers the truth about shy bullied outcast pokemon and teams up with it to get revenge on its attackers and clear its name’ is way more intuitive than ‘a random guy (you) appear! ogrepon is more attached to them because they have special protagonist aura and kieran turns into a generic edgy/jealous shonen rival!’ right? the edgy jealous rival should be the older sister whose shadow he lives in who can’t stand that her annoying brother is right about something. and maybe she’s a loyal three stan. maybe even teams up with them and kieran teams up with ogrepon and they have a final confrontation, he proves himself in battle, they reconcile, etc. what do you mean that’s not what happens. what do you mean I get the ogre? why? it feels so forced, like im interrupting a narrative that would’ve made more sense without me in it. kieran’s ‘turning to the dark side’ thing strikes me as out of sync with his character and immersion breaking (unless possession is involved). some childish anger makes sense, but cartoonishly punching the wall and doing the spooky eye expression takes me out of it. it all just falls flat. why do i have ogrepon. it’s so empty.

#teal mask spoilers #i don’t wanna shit on the dlc funtimes but ?? #it feels like it wanted to tell a contained story but the player was in the way #i hope toxic chain possession is involved because the chain taking advantage of someone who feels wronged feels fitting

[swordsmans]

I neeeeeeed to know about "luffy slips into an alternate timeline/dimension where he "died" instead of sabo and meets an older ace/sabo" I live for stuff like this please

sorry this took me so long! i. didn't realize you had sent an ask rip (that stupid sanji post has annihilated my activity page im in hell)

omg this one is actually one that i'm least likely to actually write because it has the potential to be Long (as you can see with the giant outline), but i wanted to kind of play around with the idea of luffy-less world in the post-timeskip era, because i really like time travel/redo fics where everyone is better/stronger but i think it would be NEAT if the straw hats had to fix things that might have happened if luffy died as a kid. think "doomed timeline" (if that means anything to you). even though the premise is technically ASL i am a straw hat bitch through and through so it's actually more of straw hat fic than the original idea.

here's a copy/paste under the cut (you will see that i write a lot of notes to myself in these things)

takes place post-timeskip era

sabo has no connection to the revolutionary war; he and ace set out as pirates together. because of this, they are not associated with whitebeard (therefore no marineford); instead, they are associated with shanks somehow (maybe; not subordinates tho)

they're no longer two captains one ship, two captains (allied) on two ships (SEE ALT 2)

straw hats have all experienced some form of "bad" ending that leaves them jaded, cynical, or (for some) borderline evil

luffy = strength, joy, freedom optimism; most arcs involve rescues, but i dont think any of the straw hats are "weak" enough to die during their initial crises without luffy, otherwise they wouldnt be straw hats--just win at a massive cost and the next three years would be significantly harder

zoro - frees himself from the courtyard and continues being the demon of the east blue but--

nami - gets the money to free her village, arlong refuses to free cocoyashi; nami seeks out the demon of the east blue in order to take out arlong (in exchange for the money she earned and that arlong has stashed). fight is brutal but they kill arlong; nojiko dies, nami ends up traveling with zoro afterwards bc she has no reason to stay behind with nojiko gone.

they become a well-known, ruthless, and efficient bounty hunting duo on the grand line (bc it earns money and zoro wouldnt make it out of the east blue without her); both are jaded as FUCK bc zoro's dream is stagnant and nami is still wrestling with the guilt of failing her family years later, they're also bloodthirsty because money + power fills the void

usopp - kaya dies in the initial plot to kill her, usopp is blamed and flees the village; gets picked up by the buggy pirates (please this could be so funny please but remember this is supposed to be sad but think of how funny this could be though circus sharpshooter usopp he and buggy would be. so funny in the same room together)

sanji - stays at the baratie until the vinsmokes have a use for him. "wedding"/WCI goes through(?) and/or sanji is a member of the big mom pirates; pudding refuses to kill sanji, big mom is going to kill her but sanji bargains for her life; germa mods are awakened; in order to protect zeff+etc, pretends to be emotionless like his brothers, ends up working as a germa agent instead of staying on WCI because now pudding is as much of a liability as zeff or smth (pudding tho??? pls be nice to her but figure smth out). sanji war crimes

chopper/brook/jinbei remain stagnant

franky - whore do not forget this man was a gang leader who did actual violence; franky family is bigger and badder than ever, babyy

robin - can't stay with crocodile (boring bland unoriginal) put her somewhere she can experience problems; maybe she leaves, ends up on water 7, encounters franky; joins franky family(?) for protection but since she's no longer under a warlord's protection she's fair game for marines/bounty hunters; continues to work as an assassin tho and doesn't stay around much to protect the franky family from the people after her

franky family could potentially work as an alt strawhats "maybe i dont want to die actually" environment for robin; franky helps robin stabilize a little but since they're both kind of Messed Up it's less of a "we're fine actually" and more like "we're fucked up but at least we're fucked up together". they run a Criminal Organization together. they are a gang. robin is an assassin. no one is happy go lucky here even if they have found measure of """"""peace""""""

luffy encounters ace/sabo, it's emotional (obvs; this is self-indulgent)

however his brothers are both fundamentally fine, they are thriving and alive--there's nothing here to fix. you know who isn't fine? his crew.

convinces ace/sabo that they need to find them--whether it's to convince them to join their crew or just to make sure they're okay (whats the motivation here besides luffy wanting them to be happy because they're his family? does he need one? does it even matter?)

ALT 1 are luffy's crew here or did luffy enter the doomed timeline alone. if so--everyone? or just a few

interesting interactions: doomed/real zoro (consider the implications of a zoro who has stagnated/given up on his dream; this guy's got issues but our guy has no self-preservation however maybe they both have no self preservation. interesting convo about worth or value of life without drive)

doomed/real nami (LOTS of grief here babes, but maybe an interesting convo here about strength vs vulnerability)

doomed/real sanji (ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my god can you imagine. can you imagine how much that would mess him up to see himself become Sanji Vinsmoke)

luffy has fundamentally changed all of their lives for the better but the straw hats are all strong as individuals (physically and emotionally) even before they join the straw hats. that's the point

even if the "doomed" straw hats encounter/join luffy would their lives fundamentally change for the better or are the experiences they accumulate as straw hats what changes them--it's not just luffy going "ur mine now you're happy" it's the development they go through during events/by interacting with each other; maybe some choose to stay where they are but have a shift in perspective of some kind

at least try with asl here

is sabo still kind of unstable? is ace still depressed? how does luffy's absence change them?

ALT 2 consider that they drift apart without luffy to hold them together; luffy makes an effort to reunite them?

#answers #oh my god this is so long #some of my outlines are like this unfortunately #the one i am using for my current fic is just under 8k words #bc it has whole convos and stuff in it and like half a dozen alts #doomed timeline au #gyro.odt

[unicyclehippo]

something i like way more than an easy A au actually is a whip it au. nancy is small & angry & she wanders into roller derby & comes out a changed woman. eddie is the announcer for the matches, maybe nancy works w steve & he drives her around to train as she learns to skate? & robin is on a different team & watches as nancy falls in love w jonathan & he gets into music & his brother is more important to him than she is & robin mocks her & nancy shoves her & punches her & robin punches her back & they get seperated by Eddie who is like ladies!! keep it for the match!! but he’s lowkey worried n robin laughs n she’s like relax we’re all good. cmon wheeler, let me buy u a drink. & robin holds an ice cold beer to her split lip courtesy of nancy (& she will press her tongue against the split that night staring up at the ceiling of her bedroom n wonder if it would hurt like that to kiss someone as sharp as nancy) & she’ll tell nancy that she deserves better than some grunge musician who can’t be bothered to show up to her matches. & Nancy’s like i didn’t want Better i wanted him. n robins like ah, first love. n she sounds so damn Jaded that nancy has to laugh she’s like don’t give me that shit you’re no older than i am (bc they’re on opposing teams but they found out that they’re both underage & nancy has never worried that robin would report her not the least bc she’s underage too but bc she Trusts her) . & robin is like I can be cynical & jaded! im so jaded & nancys like no u aren’t ur sweet i bet every dollar i have that ur a romantic. u draw love hearts on ur skates & u make ur friends laugh & . ur just sweet. n robin is like yeah i was so sweet when i gave u a black eye. n nancys like WHAT? oh no no no my mum is gonna kill me n robins like . stay over. tell her ur with a friend. n the moment is charged n robin is staring at her like . nancy doesn’t even know what that look is. n nothing happens that night but everything shifts the tiniest bit

#whip it au #ronance #st tag #ooooh what would their derby names be????

[calebwittebane]

im ngl its very hard for me to care about any new video game that comes out. i dont even think its the unavailability aspect, cuz people watch letsplays of games they cant own and play for whatever reason, its just that it all feels so cynical. like, unless its some game im very fond of and feel comfy about, most of which are ~20 years old or older (and none of them younger than 9), even hearing about them just makes me feel exhausted. like (ciceroskyrim voice) wotever dude. maybe it just comes with knowing about how the industry operates, maybe its because the games are so robust and visually detailed and "loud" that i can immediately see the absolute sensory overload theyd give me. people complain about the "emptiness" of new pokemon games and persisting lack of voice acting despite the consoles capability but im not gonna lie swsh and scarvio are already so Loud and robust and full of Features id welcome any peaceful moment within. like to me the unvoiced dialogue and a pace that occasionally slows down a lot are not flaws. its like with morrowinds dialogue boxes and overall subdued tone. hell, i still think da:i has a BAFFLINGLY bad gameplay, like conceptually, one reminiscent of "free to play" mobile games where you can either pay to progress or wait/grind an insufferable amount, except you only get the second option, but it still feels more playable to me than like, resident evil village or whatever the game with lady dimitrescu was called. i dont know, am i getting too old for video games? at the age of 26? am i too much of a slow learner with no reflexes? playing dishonored felt great, its not like i cant handle Any action aspect to games. is it the comfort of the jankiness? idk

oh and before anyone recommends disco elysium to me i will have you know that due to my cunty nature i will deliberately deprive myself of an apparently high quality experience of the game solely because ive grown spiteful and resentful of people who forget that, while it touches upon meaningful topics and approaches them with a valuable mindset, its a video game and thus primarily a form of entertainment, and act like there are ways of engaging with it as a fan that are Sacrilegious

[futurecorps3]

Hi. I’d like to get 🩸, please. I wrote this beast of a description some time ago and don’t really have time rn to be so kind & shorten it, so I don’t mind the potential wait/your refusal to do it. Either way, congratulations on your follower count, I look forward to interacting (in a more digestible form)

Looks: I’m in my teens. I look close to Mia Goth, though I have gray eyes. My hair is blond and thick, an overgrown wolfcut I always take care of myself. I’m 5’7, somewhat athletic. I switch between dressing like Bella Swan, dark coquettes (most often) and this masc casual style. I have a diy tattoo I did a few years back. I also have a few noticeable scars, don’t like them but the stories can be interesting. One big on my chest (sword fight), between eyebrows, left chin (knife), big few on the right arm (ironically, a crow). I wear dark fem makeup or coquette. My dominant hand is a little messed up bc it was broken in a fight as a kid and I never did anything with it so it didn’t heal well

Personality: Im an entj, he/she (male/female bigender), bi. I’m social, hardworking, brave, optimistic, ambitious, motivated. People tend to get frustrated with how closed off I can be. I’m careful with my words and I don’t talk about my life if I don’t need to. Actually, I’m not very honest at all, though if I care about someone it can change. I see it as valuing my privacy and looking after myself. Romance is a nice concept, love the books, but I tend to dodge all attempts people make at forming relationships. And the amount of people who see friendship w me as a degrading means to an end made me a tad cynical about it. Doesn’t mean I don’t like the occasional flirt though. In the right company I like to make friends laugh, unwind, be the life of the party. Doctors said I don’t have empathy and show many sights of npd. It’s nothing to be ashamed of, but it’s a part of me. I still can be decent to friends (where empathy fails I still have common sense). Honestly,I’m softer than I’d like to admit. I get on with kids nicely and I’d like a few on my own when I grow up. I’m protective of my family, my older brothers mean the world to me. Another thing that’s important is my faith. I’m polytheistic and very religious (but I respect other beliefs). I like to befriend local animals too, in my free time. People call me stubborn, I’m the kind of person to push until I succeed, even if it hurts. Privately at least. In any kind of structure I know my place and I help the team/my boss/other superiors dutifully. I try not to be very emotional, but sometimes i fail. Usually I turn to anger, though I wouldn’t turn on my loved ones. I try to be fair in my actions. Many say I’m comforting, though I see myself more as a problem solver. And yeah, perhaps I am filled with (rightful) guilt about the loss of my close family member. But that’s mine to know and for others to never find out. I have shared more here than I did (or will) with anyone irl. In private I believe I can be a little funny and silly, nonchalant even. Also soft, as my friend calls it, ‘homely’. In the end, I did manage to fit myself into quite a list of friend groups so I’d like to believe I’m not too bad to hang around

My type: I’d like someone I could relate to. Someone who would understand my ambition and drive, my issues, inspire me to try harder, but also someone who would understand my anger (even if by enabling my worse parts). Maybe even harder than me. As bad as it sounds I don’t care for morals all that much, not in a “I like bad girls/boys” kind of way. It’s just that if they don’t hold harmful beliefs (racism, sexism etc) I don’t look much further into it. Someone who wouldn’t jump on the whole romance thing right away and smother me. They have to have their own thing they do, other than love. My love language’s acts of service. And when they notice details, learn about me. It’s a running joke among my friends that I’ll end up in a rivals to lovers kind of deal bc of how stubborn and averse to romance I am. I need someone who would understand that my family comes first (before me too) and I do anything for them. And I will call my s/o out if needed too

Likes: physical activity (I used to do a ton of sports from cheer and dancing to basketball); money - having it, making it; romance novels; dogs; birds; writing stories, poems, making music, painting, though I’m not so open about it; parties; family; social interactions; my job (legal or not, anything that involves bulshitting ppl and supporting myself is nice, sry); taking care of others; cooking and baking; acting/performing; giving gifts; fashion; snow and the cold (my hand be damned, I view winter as a gift from gods); shows like Bridgerton (I’m so fine after watching Kate/Anthony storyline I swear), books like soc, pjo, the cruel Prince, dps;

Dislikes: losing/failing; deep bodies of water; whole concept of death, even if I know what comes next I can’t stand it; feeling useless; people with no drive; quitters;

Facts: Im Slavic; had basic medical training; my family would call me something akin to ‘little merchant’ in our language, bc of my talent for bargaining and talking ppl into things; normally I don’t flex half as bad; dark eyes r soo attractive to me, but if I like your goals and motives, I’m into you either way; like Hannah Montana I have the best of both worlds - I was born in the capital & I’m well versed in the life there but I spent my formative years helping on a farm (which I miss), I still more so identity as a country guy; I think revenge driven ppl are attractive but that's less of a preference, simply a thought

-💎

My guy you had me thinking for this one! It screams Kaz Brekker BUT that could also be problematic since reading your description gives a very similar vibe to his and he might not like it. ALSO YOURE THE OPPOSITE OF WYLAN AND INEJ SO THAT COULD WORK OR ABSOLUTELY NOT.

In the end, I decided… (cue drumroll)

WYLAN HENDRICKS! (Van Eck? Who?)

Your type description gave me the gentle love Wy gives <3 he’s patient, understanding and is his own person before being a lover. I can see you both reading together all the time as well as you cooking for him! I think we all perceived him (in the beginning of the books) as a soft and fragile boy but he’s a badass, he’s mature, and he’s always there to support you if you need it. He’s a sweetheart, you know him, you love him<3

#🩸kir royale #Lola’s 800 follower celebration #six of crows #shadow and bone #grishaverse #grishaverse x reader #wylan hendriks #wylan x reader

[roobylavender]

the chess master with the board and the one radical element who refuses to play by the rules is such an interesting concept. personally I don’t mind the other aspect or introduction of that element of a relationship because I do think there is a potential for it to be interesting in the same way I find the messed up way Gen and Irene from TQOA series interesting (sorry I don’t know if you know that series) but anyway enough of that, but like im thinking about the one comic where Barbara keeps getting pushed by Selina and tells her they aren’t so different which is interesting because I see Jason as this Catwoman type or her being like the blueprint. Idk I feel these two people are really calculated and it would have been interesting if they had met when they were peak Oracle and Red Hood (despite like me despising how some of that RH lore came to be) if it had been made into some kind of antagonistic calculated game. They just had so many qualities that really narratively have that push and pull and personally I hate that it has been watered down to like this familiar thing because there was potential meat there before. Like it isn’t so much that they would bond over joker trauma in that they came to it do differently that maybe their would be some complex feeling to the way the other handled it that would range from anger to maybe shame or resentment that would really push the other in uncomfortable places. Wounds that’s don’t get filled. Narratives that haunt if things are left to linger and continue. And honestly narratives that also potentially could heal if you ever think about like a situation where the BoP offers a position to Jason. Idk idk idk….

i have read the queen's thief, it's one of my favorite series ever! i'm not personally inclined towards barbara and jason as a romantic thing bc i do think it differs from gen and irene in the sense that barbara and jason know each other from the outset and if we go by old canon she's a good decade or so older than him when she gets to know him as a teenager. but i do like the idea of them having the charged back and forth gen and irene do that's colored by their contrasting experiences due to age. there's a lot that irene's seen in her lifetime that renders her incredibly cynical and sometimes so little gen has seen that it renders him brash and bold in comparison. and while that doesn't track exactly fact to fact for barbara and jason i'm sure there's still elements there you can evoke between them like you mentioned! like not to turn this comparison on its head but i love that a big part of gen and irene's relationship is him helping irene recognize she's hardened herself over the years to protect herself and that it's increasingly compromised her own humanity - that would be so cool to see barbara try to get jason to recognize! but maybe jason could push back against her and the clocktower defenses too and try to bring her out of her comfort zone. there's so much you can do with them pushing each other's buttons lol i really want a story where they just drive each other crazy and are a bit resentful and a bit hopeful and it's messy and complex. it'd make for the perfect unorthodox cross generational friendship / allyship

#outbox

[spock-smokes-weed]

Okay so can’t fall asleep, mostly cus I can’t stop thinking about how Apollo was absolutely ROBBED out of his own trilogy.

Im only on the second case of AA4 but man I’m so sad they gave the franchise back to pheonix when Apollo is such a fun protagonist, and pheonix being like his Mia is great cinematic parallels. Listen I love Phoenix, he’s my favorite character, but Apollo should have been allowed to carry the torch a little longer.

There are so many great parallels so far with the og Trilogy, and I can’t help but feel like Apollo was meant to have more than just one game dedicated to him. Like the game is called Apollo Justice, much like how Phoenix’s first game was just called Phoenix Wright, and both games are about how they’re both green horn lawyers who are suddenly getting thrusted into this deeper mystery that with every case you get closer to solving. The first games is about setting the stage and showing who these people are and what they’re capable of. Phoenix from the first game is different from how he is in the third game, and I can’t help but feel like Apollo was robbed out of a lot of his own extended story and character growth.

Like Apollo is the straight man having to deal with all of this weird bullshit, much like Phoenix was, and now that Phoenix is the mentor roll, I feel like their dynamic and relationship growing over the course of several Apollo games is a missed opportunity.

What is the point of passing the torch to Apollo just to yank it right back to Phoenix. Phoenix was amazing as a cryptic weird old man. That’s honestly what an older Phoenix should be like, jaded and kinda cynical about the world, and Apollo should be the new shining star that brings the light of justice. Like why make a whole ass game, setting up a new status quo, with new characters, just to sideline the main character in the next game and just make it about pheonix again.

Like maybe I’ll feel differently once I play 5 and 6, but I can’t help but feel like after the decision to make Phoenix the main character again they didn’t know what to do with Apollo and that’s how we got the whole thing of Apollo having ten million backstories.

Give my boy Apollo his two games he was owed g-d dammit

#ace attorney #aa4 #ace attorney apollo justice #apollo justice #phoenix wright #this was very ranty and incoherent #but since starting Apollo Justice I lay wake thinking about how it’s a travesty that apollo didn’t get his own trilogy #and how capcom are COWARDS for backing down on making him the main character

[ducknotinarow]

📝Tony Stark

| Send 📝for head cannons and facts about my muse Most of these are in reference to him being with Steve I did also add stuff with Peggy though.

Tony grew up a big fan of Captain America, with his Dad having worked and known them Tony did get some stories about them that not many others did.

As Tony got older he did slightly start to resent the whole image and idea of Captain America

Not that is Steve's fault it was Tony connecting his issues with his father with Captain America.

Has a bit to do with how he got a bit more cynical as well, Tony often heard so much about how great Captain America was that it built his resent up to deciding fine i'll never be anything like him them.

Well also seeing it as he'll never be like them

Tony has a lot of reason for why he feels as he dose for his father. They were not very present in his life growing up either.

Tony has boxes of childhood memories of greeting cards given to him for his birthday. And well some may want to say least he remember they never had anything special written in them just was signed by him.

Howard never actually got the cards himself, he had an assistant do it and just give some off handed remark on what Tony liked. So many happen to have Captain America theme designs.

If Tony could go back in time he would kick Howard's ass

His relationship with his mother is far better, Maria was far more involved with Tony.

Well Howard could never bother to be around not even because work stuff came up his mother would poor on the excuses for his father

She tried her best to keep the family together and Tony was aware.She would get him gifts and claim one was from his dad.

For a bit that worked till he started to notice it was stuff he only ever told her he want. He once played a trick to figure it out.

It's why he loves her so much more and hold her to a standard his father could never reach.

When he did finally meet the great Captian America, he was an ass about it. Something inside Tony just needed to up show this guy his dad cared more for

It fuels a lot of the rivalry he has with Steve and kind of his general behavior at the start

After some time Tony did learn to separate the two because Captain America is a symbol, and not the one the whole world has just the personal one. Steve though? Steve is the great man Tony knows and wants to be even half as good as that.

If tony could he tell Howard he fucked his golden boy u-u no context or lead up

Tony dose admire and love Nina and Brook, but he can't be too soft on them Steve already is u_u

Tony enjoys Brooks general process and likely had used her for tests and such nothing like Hydra mind you but she is a good resource.

I like to think they spend time having chats when she cant sleep and hes working. Maybe nothing to deep but im sure she has heard some stories on his life time to time.

Despite Nina's chaotic energy Tony dose truly see her potential and often tries to get her to think with her head first when he works with her or goes on missions with her.

He's pretty aware of Nina's self worth issues and such when it comes to Steve and because he relates he tries to help with them.

He sees it in Brook too and would like to offer the same support. he knows how that Captian America shadow can hang over one.

Tony enjoys annoying Peggy hes like an actual child around her and can't help it

I like to think Peggy is the only one he gets a bit more personal with when it comes to Howard everyone else he blows it off with a joke with at best

Sometimes he likes to hear about how Howard was before he knew them but it dosen't help his issues

Peggy is a friend Tony turly needs because she dosen't give into his nonesense and shes someone he holds a lot of respect for so hes far more likely to listen to her sorry Steve

#muse| tony stark #madamkezzie #aflockofffeathers #[ not half as good at doing anything with out you aflockoffeathers] #[ it takes two for these headaches aflockoffeathers] #[ Pulling all nighters - aflockoffeathers] #head canon #muse bio: tony stark

[jules-of-the-sea]

I would love to see a Blorbo ranking for your blorbos from Les Mis, if you are willing to share :)

so i made a character tierlist, i dont actually hate thenardier but its funny to hate him. for side characters: m mabeuf would be guy!!!, fauchlevent would be eh (although the graveyard scene was funny), and marius's relations would all be in eh/mildly annoying because i have no strong feelings about them.

you did say blorbo ranking though and i have no idea what exactly that entails so im just going to do everything i can think of. so heres a list of everyone on the tierlist and a few thoughts on each of them

enjolras 12/10 love of my life, top kin, red <3, hes literally just a guy god i wish i was him its all i ever want hes so !!!!!

grantaire 10/10 love him, probably more like me than enj lmao, jaded, alcoholic, cynic, ao3 always makes him an artist but i dont remember them saying that in the book??? maybe i missed it though, it did say that he knows all the best spots in paris though so thats pretty cool

feuilly 10/10 self taught king, he makes fans, he wants to deliver the world and i support him. we all need a feuilly in our lives

combeferre 10/10 (these ratings are a little redundant at this point) fan interpretation always makes him a bookworm nerdy guy (which i have also done) which i understand bc in the book hugo talks abt how he wants to learn everything and he loves progress and education, but honestly i feel like hes a lot warmer and more social than people characterize him. like they talk about how compassionate he is and how he focuses on the actual people in the revolution more than the movement as a whole

gavroche literally just a little guy, hes got his two children in his wooden elephant what more could a street urchin want

courfeyrac party guy, literally tholomyes but if he wasnt a dick, love him for it. actually thinking abt it, tholomyes was a poet right?? and hugo compares him w courf so,,, poet courf???

bossuet unlucky, actually named lesgle, bald, in a poly relationship w joly and musichetta

eponine bro she was not that close with marius in the book, and i dont think she even knew the amis. its fun to pretend she did though. also the musical makes marius actually care that she dies which is sweet i guess. also i love every queer eponine interpretation.

jehan jean provaire, medieval enthusiast, just a little guy i guess. trans/nb jehan is one of my favorite things actually

joly happy guy, apparently nicknamed jolly because of that, doctor(?), likes self diagnosing, must suck being a germaphobe in 1832

bahorel tbh i forgot like everything the book said abt him. im pretty sure he was the guy who saved marius from being kicked out of law school though?? and also visibly expresses disgust when he passes by law school??? king.

javert single-minded policeman, love the themes and internal struggle, javerts soliloquy and stars are some of my favorite songs in the musical

jean valjean all around a good guy, white bread personality but like,, nice. so i guess hes more like the pre-made pound cake you can get at the store. certified girlboss tho

cosette pretty? i like the cottagecore interpretations but also shes literally just a lonely child from 1832 so i guess its just by default. she seems like the type of girl who would be a pleasure to have in class

fantine sad lady, cosettes mom, i wish she had just gotten cosette back from the thenardiers when she had her job but oh well.

marius annoying little bitch boy mf i swear to god he deserves very little of what he gets. also isnt he like 10 years older than both cosette and eponine??? 1832 moment i guess. anyways hes not that bad but its funny to hate on him.

madame thenardier me when child abuse, kinda a girlboss in the musical but in the book shes just kinda there

monsieur thenardier little rat bitch man, fuck that guy, but also hes literally a cartoon villain and its funny

also the tierlist is made in mspaint, i would have found pictures for everyone but a lot of them arent in the 2012 movie long enough for anyone (me) to know whos who so. crunchy mspaint version

#les miserables #les amis de l'abc #the brick #victor hugo #blorbos #all of them #all the blorbos

[gaycelebtea]

I want to jump into this discussion on juantin, as i think their love is so pure and i love them. I just saw the live (im not spanish) and i feel like they are very much still together, in love and happy. However my guess is that both of them feel very overwhelmed and tired, from what i can see as a fan their schedules have been so crazy and the attention from the fans is absolute insane. So just as their relationship was a process to navigate in the house, it will be the same now out of the house. They are 2 very different people, which is cute, but who need some time to breathe and recharge and figure out how they want to move forward together. And as they are so different, it will require work and effort. In the house they had to fix everything immediately because they were together 24/7, now if they do have differences maybe they will take a bit of time to breathe. But from what I saw they are still very much in love and commited. I hope they continue to talk and compromise, they are so young it’s not easy with such a fresh relationship with that much expectation and pressure. I’m rooting for them. As i said, even as a fan, just by the way they look at eachother you can see they have a unique and pure love that some people never get to experience in their life, i hope their realise it’s worth fighting for regardless of their age or any age.

I love Juantin too! I think I'm just getting cynical since I'm getting older. I go back and forth. One moment I think they're fine, the next I think they're having issues. Hoenstly, I think this is just like any other relationship. They have their good and bad days. They bicker, but then are able to work things out.

I agree that they have a crazy schedule. Martin looked tired and mentally exhausted in the Kapra diner podcast yesterday. He is usually able to concentrate, but he lost focus even more than Juanjo, which we all know is not normal, it's usually the other way around, lol. I know they have been working a lot lately. And how many interviews with Martin yesterday? It was a lot in one day. No wonder he's exhausted! And I even get why he snapped at Juanjo a couple of times. That's how I ger when I'm tired and emotionally drained. Truth be told, they both snapped at each other a couple of times. I think they are both just tired and it's getting to them. I think they're still together, but I have this nagging feeling that they were going through something, because they were unusually quiet, though I know they were busy working, but still. It was unusual for them. But maybe it was good to take a breather and a break from social media.

You're right that it will take time and effort. Any relationship takes work. They will need to navigate the relationship with all the added pressure on the outside. I hope they take time to breathe, and to relax and work on it. They are very different, so they will need to compromise on some things, but I'm sure they will. I too believe in their love, there's no doubt it's real and beautiful. However, sometimes people who love each other also break up, for various reasons. I hope they don't though. As negative as I am, I really do hope they last and prove me wrong. I guess only time will tell.

#juanjo bona #juantin #martin urrutia #operacion triunfo #my opinion #opinion

[dxsertrot]

I don't think the absolute horror of my brother's situation truly set in until last night. I've been struggling with him with this for years, and he's a heavy topic on mine and my family's tongue. Has been for the last few years now. I was looking at a photo my mother took of the three of us on Christmas and I burst into tears. He's such a shell of a human, hardly even alive. He's plagued by endless skin issues that he lacks the motivation to fix, his brain has been dulled by years of alcohol abuse. He's jobless, friendless, and sick. Mentally and physically. He's nothing like the person he used to be. He couldn't even properly bend down to take a picture with us, and the look in his eyes is just totally dead. He lays in bed all day, lays in the bath all day. Barely eats, barely sleeps, hardly ever goes anywhere. He gets random jolts of motivation to fix his life and then in less than a week it's gone. He's 31. My parents don't know what to do with him. He's too unwell to kick out. He's literally in horrible shape. My brother used to be my best friend and always the first person I wanted anyone to meet. I took pride in my similarities to him. People always loved my brother, he's such a kind and empathetic soul. He listens to people, relates to people, and he was always so funny and full of life. He's nothing like that person anymore, you only see fragments of that in him now. Often times I wonder if my parents will discover him dead when they get home from whatever outing they've done that day or weekend. It'd awful to witness someone you love so dearly become so undone like this. I find myself frustrated and angry with him a lot. I feel like I'm talking to a child when i talk to him. He used to be my big brother, but now he's just so small. And nothing I say or do helps. Lately my conversations with him have gotten more ill tempered, mostly because I know it won't go anywhere and he will never listen. It feels like I've already lost him. Its not that hes dead to me but he's totally dead to the world, sometimes picking up the scraps of the old life he left behind by trying to reconnect with old friends and family. But he's more so a point of concern than a point of contact. Everybody desperately wants to help him and yet need to keep him at an arms length. It's like he's waiting for somebody to do something for him, but if there was anything that could have been done it would have happened in ten fold. It's sadly all up to him, and that's horrifying, because nothing will ever get done if it's all him. Sometimes I mourn and other times I'm cold to it. Being around him is hard. It used to be my favorite part of the day. My brother used to be my person through and through. We mirrored each others best traits. We used to look so much alike, and behave so similarly. Now it feels like I'm light years ahead of him and I can't seem to grab him to pull him along with me. He won't move. And so sometimes my successes leave me riddled with guilt. I've developed this insane superstition that if im doing well he's going to do bad forever. And if I do bad then maybe he will finally do good. But I understand that's the form my guilt is taking shape in because my mind can't find a reason for me to feel guilty, so it invents one. There's so much shame involved in this. The horrible feeling that when people meet him they secretly belive it's so awful of you to let someone you love end up so poorly. I cannot imagine my parents guilt. I think the older I get the more I realize just how hard it is to love so much. My brother, and my sister, and my good friend whom I have unrequited love for, and my ex gf, and my aunts. My cousins. My parents. I think that's why I spent so long trying to be cold and cynical to everything. I've finally opened my heart up and in the same breath it feels like it's being torn to shreds.

[not-souleaterpost]

Preußler and the non-ironic children's book

Another topic that is totally disconnected from my usuall stuff, even about a topic I don't really care about - childrens books.

So for a bit of a backstory, in primary school I actually read a lot, but mostly just things for kids like Winnie the Pooh, Astrid Lindgren books, some native collections of fairy tales or soviet childrens storys (actually some of those may be a topic for another post lol...)

But one author I read quite a lot was Preußler, a german-czech guy (even though I read them translated into my native language mostly).

Anyways to get to the point - I dont know if its my bad memory or my ignorance, but thinking back I had, maybe a totally baseless, realization, that Preußlers books were unique in a certain way compared to a lot of other stuff, or atleast the "modern" childrens book, like Matilda or even a lot more contemparary stuff:

Those are either ironic, a way of the author in a way getting a simmilar joy that an older kid gets from teaching a toddler swear words, a quite sick thing one probably shouldnt do - like the author of Matilda who was supposedly very cynical and mysanthropic, writting on the edge what was acceptable for kids, but I think he is the most extreme example - others atleast still write with the vibe of "Oh ofcourse I actually know this is childish, and I put in this whole satire and clever jokes and allusions to not so child friendly things!!!"

Ofcourse there is also the maybe even more cynical option of "Oh Im writting for babys, lets just make the most generic baby shit possible, who cares, lets call all the chararchters gaga maga, bubu ubu etc"

But Preußler, if Im not being blinded by nostalgia, didnt fall for that - his books seemed to have had this genuine charm and aura of childhood inocence, that wasnt drenched neither in irony or sacherine colours and key jingling.

But alas, maybe I am truly misremembering - can one truly say what one read being a dumb child, nearly two decades ago?

Idk man, mayne this post is pointless, maybe it isnt.

And also it isnt totally unrelated to soul eater - well in a way - there is on tumblr a drawing of "the little ghost* replaced with Crona, prompted by an old anonymous ask lol.

#otfried preußler #preusler #preußler #childhood memories #childrens books #weird point #probably bullshit #idk #the little ghost #if you know you know #preussler

[soulyourselfkitten]

Marriage

I’m almost 28 and I am still unsure if I want marriage. My mom was 27 when she got married/was pregnant. My sister was 27 when she got married/pregnant. And here I am, not married and not pregnant. I was thinking about both of my grandmas the other day, on my mom side, when she was 27 she was having her fifth child and on my dad’s side, she was already raising four children. And here’s me. No kids. No marriage. Just a cat. I don’t even know if I do want marriage. Society says I should get married. That I should have children. BUT do I want that? As a child, I remember always playing bride and groom and playing with babies. I never thought about my own wedding. Well, maybe I did here and there, but not seriously. As i’ve gotten older, to me it feels like marriage is only a contract. It’s a legal document, binding you & your partner for legal reasons. And I’ve seen first-hand divorce. I’ve seen what divorce can do to a child. (me). I’ve also heard stories where the person is with their partner for 50 years & then it still doesn’t work out. For instance, my grandpa was married to my grandma for 50 years & she died and he went right into a relationship with Barb. How quickly someone can get over someone that they basically spent their whole life with, scares the shit out of me. How, one day they are the person of your dreams & years later you hate them & don’t want anything to do with them. Its because we are constantly evolving, constantly growing or staying stagnant. What worked once for you might not work for you anymore. Is a legal document binding you together worth it? Is it what I want? I’ve seen my friends get married & i feel so cynical about it because I think its a waste of time. Why cant you be with someone without marrying them? Why in society do we still feel like marriage is the right thing to do? Why do I still feel like I should be getting married? But why don’t I feel the desire to get married? But also why am i putting the pressure on myself to think about marriage and babies? I guess I see my friends settling down and im wondering “What about me?” Why not me? Why aren’t I getting married? Why haven't i found someone that wants to marry me? My last ex, literally told me he didn’t see himself marrying me. And now my current boyfriend, isn’t sure if I’m the one yet and wants to make sure before he does anything serious. What does that even mean? Am I incapable of love? Or do I keep getting into relationships with people that have commitment issues? Do i have a commitment issue? I dont even know if I even want to marry the guy I am currently seeing either. If we both don’t want to marry eachother then should we stay with eachother? I just don’t understand. I just feel like I’m the problem. There’s something about me that guys don’t want to seal the deal with. I know i’m worth more and I know there’s someone out there that knows I’m the one immediately. So do I stay with someone that is unsure of me or do I leave & find the one that instantly knows? And vice versa because I’m not even sure I want to be with him either. It’s so confusing. I don’t understand why we are both unsure. Is it because we both of commitment issues? Abandonment issues? Insecurity? We both rushed into this relationship quickly. 7 months of knowing eachother & we moved intogether. That’s fast without even knowing eachother. Maybe it was too fast. Maybe we werent supposed to be together this long & we were meant for just a season. I just want to put it into God’s hands & let it be wherever is meant to be. Now, how do I do that? 

#realtionship #marriage #real talk #issues #codependency

[unravelmuffin]

for your p5 au- depending on the direction you take his character, akechi could definitely be an attorney, possibly a defense attorney working for the state to provide counsel for people who wouldn't otherwise be able to afford it (not sure exactly what the equivalent of this position is in japan, or what their right to legal rep is like). the game touches a little on how unfair japan's justice system is to defendants, and for some versions of future akechi that would be a really appealing challenge. (he could also be a very good prosecutor, of course- depending on how much or how little his feelings have changed since the game, he might find that vindictively satisfying.)

another, sweeter option that I think meshes pretty well with what you've written for the others is akechi as a librarian- helping kids find and love the same kinds of stories that inspired him to form his first robin hood ideal of heroism, before his cynical second awakening to loki; seeing himself in brilliant, driven kids and helping them come to terms with the injustice in the world and focus on what they can do to change it. oh wow I'm really attached to librarian akechi now I might write something for that au

OH also I LOVE your drawings of older ryuji and yusuke. gorgeous design. very guy very babygirl. hlrsghjksrkdf. thank you carry on

*gets down on one knee* anon have you thought about marriage because I AM in love with you rn let me just ask my gf sjfjdjjdjd

I LIKE BOTH OF Y OUR IDEAS I’ve had multiple people telling me something related to prosecution/law, and while I definitely get where y’all are coming from I don’t think I see it as much :’D I just think Akechi would be so, idk, sick? Of it all? Like don’t get me wrong he still has a very strong sense of justice and would definitely like to be able to help all those people (and kick some others in the shins) but he’s also just so fed up of the way others bend the law at their whims and just sometimes the whole powerlessness some people have when trying to go against corrupt higher ups and stuff like that. STILL!! Thank you for the idea, maybe it could be smth he thought about for a while <3

NOW ABOUT THE LIBRARIN AKECHI OOOOOOOOOOOOOO you got me there anon, hooked completely (IF YOU DO WRITE SMTH FOR LIBRARIAN AU AKECHI PLS SEND IT TO ME OR TAG IT IDK HOW TUMBLR WORKS BUT PLEEEAASSEE) someone else told me how they saw him as someone who hopped between jobs for a long while between what interested him and I had a friend on twt who was a librarian and she talked about how there’s so much more that goes into being a librarian than people think and I think it would interest Akechi, for the reasons you said <3

IM GLAD YOU LIKE THE DESIGNS I’ll try to make the other two as babygirl as possible too <<3333

#akechi #persona 5 au #p5 au #persona 5 akechi

[evanthefunky]

Something I wish people had mentioned or warned me about growing up/older is that you will begin to see your past selves in other people around you.

I'm going to go see Thor 4 with a couple people I dont know super well but they're probably more excited than I am. Listening to one of the people last night, I was very... well, not surprised, but... anyway, I basically heard a 2016-2018 me saying things. I would have used basically the same words and been just as excited as they were. I dont know if they have begun to think about the downfalls and icks of Marvel/Disney, etc, but I know 2016-2018 me hadnt. Hell, I didnt even really think about it until 2021.

At first I was sad. I knew what I was going through at the time, irl and on socmed. I knew that, when alone, I would ask myself why I was so insistent on telling everyone that I was a Marvel fan. That I had ideas and wanted to see them come to life in the MCU. I also knew how much frustration I had because people (comic bros or whatever) were just plain mean to people enjoying the movies and characters.

There was another kid i used to know who really liked the HP stories and also Marvel. And in 2018 I saw that person and pitied them, hoping they wouldn't go through the frustration and pain I did.

I can't protect people from themselves per se, or unforseen shitty people on social media. I dont know if I should ask if they know the ickiness of Disney, Marvel, etc. I'll admit, im a little cynical or something these days.

But then last night as I was getting ready for bed, I realized my own anger and frustration toward *companies* was affecting how I viewed these people. I wasn't seeing their joy and excitement. Its ok for them to not think about it a little longer. They'll learn, probably. Maybe it'll be a conversation with me. But it doesn't have to be. Its ok for them to take the time to learn. But right now, who the fuck am I to only see my own frustration and pain from a younger me? I remember how excited I was. I remember what happiness was brought on from those things. I'm older, they're not. Thats ok. Who the fuck am I to taint that? My joy was tainted, my mallow was marshed. I'd better not be the cause of someone else's.

Anyway. You'll see yourself in people around you. Its weird. But its cool. Love them, from a distance or as their friend. I sure as hell would have appreciated love like that.

#growing up is weird #last night was weird for a lot of reasons but mostly good #because i sat by myself on the floor and no one really sat or hung out with me but i didnt need or ask anyone to. #also i spent my time well and played a game with a friend prior to an event. #younger me would be shocked