#maybe i should make a seperate post for this i have a lot of thoughts hdvshsh

[juusasu4evagrrl]

Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??

Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.

I don't know thoughts???

#do i even wanna speak on it #maybe i should just rewatch pray the devil back to hell give my dad a hug and tell him how proud i am of him #on second thought #maybe we should go the naruto route #like i promise their are a lot of wacky connections between the warfare in naruto and the liberian civil war #general butt naked eating hearts kakuzu also eating hearts #Samuel doe ( may he rest in pieces in someones digestive track while his soul burns in hell) and danzo #the thing i like about connecting fandom to my life is that it teaches me thing that provide empathy in spaces where it did not naturally #exist but the thing is i dont want to have empathy for a lot of those hos and i think thats valid actually #i think its important to bring our personal live into fandom though cause its all we really have #idek i think it would be best to keep the real world seperate from fandom in this case but #my dad just completed a trip to Liberia for the first time in 30 years (round of applause pls) for the first time since the war has ended #a confilct that started when he was my age (younger actually) and ended a month after my birth and has left so much instability who knows #if its ever really over #were all struggling to come to terms with the Liberia left behind by those events the family and friends we leave behind #and i feel like it would be easier to talk project it all onto stupid lil alien ninja wars instead of talking about it irl #i love sasuke cause i deeply relate to his struggle even though im a generation removed #but i feel like this fandom would not be receptive to the way i would disscuss his character if i made that connection in an analysis #so maybe ill just stew in my emotions a little longer and when i go back to Liberia this summer wth the fam ill decide weather to make #that post or not onece and for all #no that'll be perfect actually cause then i'll be able to make it a post for liberian independence day #ughhh like i don't be wanna talk about it irl but i don't feel this would be a good outlet either #naruto commentary in relation to the liberian civil war sounds like a dope essa but should i write it??? #probably not but we'll just have to see #thoughts feelings opinions?? any other Liberian naruto fans on here??? pleas siblings put some sense in me #naruto #not naruto #god i don't even wanna make this post lets see how long she stays up #im writing too many naruto analysies rn anyways lemme worry about that first

[teeth--thief]

Making a seperate post from the reblog I typed out about the fact that I have just became convinced that I have never in my life had an interaction with a stable person. Maybe I'm not the socially impaired one, it's been you all along...!

I have quite a lot of sketches of a few particular guys from my class (because they sit right in front of me most of the time so they're the first people I draw when I feel like drawing anyone from my surroundings)

We're literally finishing this part of our... education and I thought wooo wouldn't it be so neat if I put all the drawings I have of these guys in like a collage or something as a little gift for them?

I messaged a guy who, I'm pretty sure, thinks I'm his arch-nemesis for... some reason? and has been treating me as such for the past few months (the hatred is strong but the need to look at me is even stronger!). Because he's a part of this group and I was once very chill (more than chill, actually) with him but never spoken more than a single sentence to the rest of the group, I was going to ask if he thinks that idea could work or if the others would find it weird. And if I maybe could have more pics of them because there's mainly... one guy in these drawings and it's unfair, ya know? But before I did, I wanted to be my usual funny self and so I was extremely vague and asked him if he could do me a small favour. I specified that it's nothing weird because... well, you gotta, clearly.

Why be so secretive? Again, I thought it'd be funny and, besides, I was going to include him in these collages, too. So I wanted to keep it a mystery for at least 5 minutes. What's the point in a surprise without an actual surprise?

I got no response and instead I was promptly removed from his friends on Discord. So that was... something. That's partly on me for being so mysterious about this "favour" but cmon... You could have just said no...

I was polite about it and said I mean I would have preferred a no but if that's how you want to do it, congratulations user.

After 20 minutes (and a tea-like drink!) I decided that it's actually hilarious and so I messaged him to tell him that he actually made my evening because it's pretty funny and that he should carry on doing what he's doing (with a 🌟 at the end. You know. Gold star. For your efforts. Maybe not the continual efforts to make me a cartoon villain but... for something)

So yeah... I am an evil (and a very bad!) person for all of this, as you can see... :D

#the road to hell is paved with good intentions #the hell is my life and the road is every single good deed i ever tried to do! #file: personal #file: misc hunter

[comradekatara]

My hot take is they should have had Zuko mention Mai just once or twice more if they wanted their relationship to feel more solid. I get why they didn't, but imagine: Zuko is staring longingly at a set of knives on the wall. He's just like "They remind me of my, not girlfriend, but she kind of- I mean. A girl. Who is my friend." and the shopkeeper is like "Those... are assassin's knives." And Zuko is like "Oh, I know. She'd love them 🥺" Zuko thinking about getting her a gift of some kind even in a friend way. I'm now thinking about post boiling rock Sokka like. Trying to cheer Zuko up about this pseudo-relationship where she confessed Some kind of love right before they were seperated. Sokka turning on a suave "I know what I'm talking about" persona. Something about violent, scary girlfriends. "Trust me, women warriors *looove* getting weapons." Maybe the cheering up doesn't work, esp since. Yk. Zuko doesn't even know if Mai is okay. The rest of the gaang could chime in to varying effect.

Maiko doesn't rly compel me(esp in the long run) but if they wanted them to end up being together I wish they'd shown interest and care from Zuko between boiling rock and her release from prison. Even if he's mostly trying not to think about it, and mostly obsessively focused, just a little slip-up in his Not Thinking About It could have made their relationship a lot more compelling to me. Maybe they did show smth and I'm forgetting, but... I feel like they could have done a *little* more to show that Zuko cared about her. Even in just a "She's important to me" way bcs knives are a Mai gift not a "I'm trying to perform my role as a Boyfriend" gift. Even showing a bit of development! I love how dysfunctional their relationship is when they're dating bcs it serves the characters and story well but when he's seperated from her I feel like he should have thought abt her a LITTLE bit. Since they kissed when she was released, right?? That's what the wiki says. He's supposed to Care about her even if he's bad at it. Idk.

lol so we both agree that their kiss at the end does not feel earned, but in your mind, the way to rectify that would be to add more scenes of zuko actively caring about her, instead of simply not having them kiss..? because i do think their relationship makes perfect sense as it is up until the point that i am expected to believe that they are together are by choice. he doesn't actually care about her. that's the point. (or at least, it should've been)

#they do not work together!!!!! she is out of his league and they r both gay!!!!!! #their relationship does make sense i just dont get why they would get back together 😭 #also fwiw mai is not a warrior she is a bored rich kid who loves violence ( soooo affectionate) #and getting mai knives isnt even a good gift bc she can afford millions of knives #if zuko did that it would just further prove that he doesn't really know her . lol #whatever. mai and ty lee shouldve kissed wheres my mailee nation at #asks #starstrike #mai&zuko #their toxic lavender marriage slay

[ankhisms]

various ramblings trying to type thoughts ive been having

sometimes i get the feeling that people think less of me or negatively about me due to my different brain issues like not processing and understanding things etc etc and i dont know if thats my anxiety/extremely low self esteem self worth/paranoia combined with a history of people mistreating me or if thats actually happening yknow i really dont want to assume that people dislike me ive been trying to break that pattern of thinking within myself which again comes from a life time of abuse and of people very openly disliking me so my brain goes well its always been the default that people dislike us and are angry with us. its like i know i have brain processing issues but i wish that wouldnt make people like me less or think less of me. instead of telling me that im not actually stupid id like for someone to tell me that even if i am stupid they still care about me and will have compassion for me and my mistakes. ive been thinking about something a mutual said i genuinely cant remember who said it memory issues flaring up so hi if it was you but it was like. online theres this phenomena where even peoples tiny little slip ups and in the bigger picture not that big of a deal mistakes can be documented and held against them for an eternity and that for a long time theres been a certain cultivation of behavior of like. idk what the word is i dont think hyper vigilance is the right term but the kind of mentality where if you make even one mistake you have that held over your head for years. and im realizing that i really grew up with that kind of mentality surrounding me online (and similar mentalities irl) and i think that really fed into and formed a lot of different issues i have. there was a post i rbed maybe earlier this week about not thinking that youre one slip up from your friends abandoning you and i really want to get myself to believe that but the problem is that thats genuinely happened before or thats been threatened to happen before with me and so again my brain goes well it could happen again everyone you know and love could suddenly cut you off out of nowhere with no warning or everyone you know and love is secretly talking about how awful you are. and i get scared that im somehow doing things wrong without knowing that im doing things wrong or hurting people without realizing im hurting them and lately i keep just being hit with the feeling that everything i do is wrong and that im making people angry or upset with me even when im literally not doing anything and it sucks and i wish i knew an easy way to get out of it. ive mentioned this before but when it comes to my issues like this one thing is like. i dont want people to think that im so fragile and scared that ill shatter if they come to me and talk to me saying hey rey this thing you did upset me/hurt me etc i dont want people to think that ill fall apart if im told about a mistake ive made or that ive done something wrong i want people to be able to come to me and talk with me and i always want to be able to grow and admit when im wrong and i dont want to hurt people. and then ive been thinking about how even though i have lovely friends who i cherish and appreciate and love so much i still feel so lonely and seperated from everyone who i know and love and i feel like im on the other side of a glass wall and that no one can reach me and i want to get closer to people but it always feels like i cant. but i dont want to doubt my friends love for me i dont want to doubt that i have a place in peoples lives. but its really hard. anyway its almost midnight i should sleep thanks if you read this

[dp-marvel94]

Hi!

I (finally, don't know what took me so long) read Face to Face, and just, wow. I left a comment on the fic itself but I wanted to send something here too!

I was definitely surprised that they told Jack & Maddie so early in the fic, since that's usually part of the end of the fic, but I absolutely love the way you did it. Danny (both of him) having his family supporting him for most of the split is definitely better than him trying to figure it out himself.

Also very impressed by all the things you touched on! I know it would be easier to have them resolve a lot of the problems quickly, but them having setbacks (especially almost merging and failing) makes it so much more real.

I was a little worried you were just going to forget about them almost merging, to be completely honest. Should have known better. The way you brought it up when they finally told Jack & Maddie what happened was perfect. Poor all of them, really, working on/waiting for the ghost catcher without realizing they could merge on their own.

I love the way Danny has to accept himself- not just his ghost half, or his human half, but both of them together, to become whole again. Especially because it wasn't just something stated and accepted- they tried, twice, to merge but couldn't because they hadn't accepted themselves.

All the stuff with sharing memories and thoughts and occasionally using eachother's bodies is a fascinating concept. I wonder how Danny will deal with having two sets of memories from that week?

I read a comment on Ao3 that mentioned him learning to duplicate faster because of this, and I think it would be hilarious if he did it in the middle of a fight accidentally. Can see him panicking for a few seconds that they separated again before realizing he's still fine. Would duplicates be mindless? I know that's how most fics write them, though I think it would be more interesting if it was a situation they're both fully Danny, but other than that it's the same as when they were separate.

Imagine him working on homework the way they would when there were two of them and then just fusing back afterwards. I'd bet that it would be a little disorienting to not be in two places at once anymore, even if it's definitely a good thing. Maybe someone walks in on them doing homework or playing games or something idk and also freaks out a bit, that could be funny. There are so many things he could use it for.

There's more I could talk about, but this is pretty long already:). Can't wait to see more of Face to Face, and how our (now whole!) halfa reacts when he wakes up.

Link to the story at the end.

Thank you so much for reading! I saw your comment on the fic earlier. :)

Honestly, when I had the Dannys tell Jack and Maddie, I wasn't anticipating there to be so much story after. 😂 At that point, I knew that I wanted the boys' relationship with their parents to improve and for both halves to love and fully accept themselves. I guess I didn't realize how many chapters that would take.

But yeah, having Jack and Maddie in the know from early on definitely made things earlier on the Dannys. It also let me write a bunch of post-reveal content that was super nice.

And the sets backs! I loved making those emotional arcs more realistic. Healing takes a lot of time and is complicated. So it takes time for those conflicts to resolve and relationships to heal.

XD I think several people thought I was going to forget about the failed merge but bringing it up again was always in the plan. I couldn't have the Dannys remember until they were ready. I almost feel bad for all the stress and drama related to the Ghost Catcher.

Face to Face is a bit of an unconventional love story. Using split Danny to explore the idea of loving and forgiving yourself has been so exciting for me. I've talked about it a bit in other posts but before I started writing this story, I read pretty much all of the split Danny/ seperate Fenton and Phantom content that exists. A few stories touched on the themes I wanted (Here's a post I made listing a bunch of those fics.) but nothing dug as deep as I really wanted. So I wrote it myself.

Shenanigans with having two bodies was really fun to play with! I love love the mind-bending strangeness. And memories are so important to who someone is and how they experience the world. It ties into those identity questions I love to wrest with in fiction. As for how the whole Danny deals with two sets of memories, I'm planning on addressing that in the last few chapters. :)

And duplication shenanigans! I'm really tempted to write a tie-in one shot. And probably will eventually.... 😅

I'm also imagining it happening during a fight. Danny will definitely be confused and freaked out for a bit, before realizes he didn't actually split again. Danny has had so much experience existing in two bodies at once that his duplicates definitely wouldn't be mindless. He would probably have no idea which body is the original and which is the duplicate. Not that it actually maters, both are just him.

He'll definitely practice and use the skill to work on homework and talk about his problems. I can see that freaking people out. 😂 Granted, being in two bodies probably isn't the most comfortable for him and it does take some energy to maintain. So Danny can't do it all the time. But he's cool with it, since he can fuse back whenever he wants.

Thanks for the comment and ask again! I'm always happy to talk about Face to Face. If you have anymore thoughts or questions, I'd love to hear them!

#Danny Phantom #Face to Face #my fic extras #my post

[sea-jello]

Regarding the BMC tumblr remake: I would like to preface this ask by saying that I appreciate your enthusiasm and dedication to the fandom. However, I have concerns that there might be arguments- about the final casting, about the script, about the portrayal of the characters, about how to split roles. What if someone gets upset over not getting a role and has an issue with the final cast? What if someone accuses the judges of being biased with the auditions? And I'm not sure if copyright issues exist- it probably won't be a big deal but if it becomes a problem, it's going to be messy. Not to mention people have their real lives to manage and schedules will most likely come into conflict.

I'm worried this could easily become a recipe for fandom drama and discourse if not managed carefully. I don't mean to be a killjoy. It's great how the fandom is still so lively despite being so small, but unfortunately that is exactly where the problem lies. If something goes wrong it could damage the entire fandom. I hope and trust it won't come to that but wanted to voice my thoughts: maybe there could be better approaches? Such as leaving it as an open-source sort of project with more freedom. People can seperately post covers and storyboard them. That way everyone can participate, no hard feelings about not being part of the cast or stress over managing everything.

Of course, I am in no place to discourage this project from happening nor do I mean to. I am aware you are still working out the details, which is why I thought it would be better to put my two cents in while things are still being discussed. Thank you for your hard work and have a good day!

hey i really appreciate you voicing your concerns! really helps me think through this stuff

first of all i think arguments are just inevitable for giant group projects, especially something to this magnitude. im gonna try to have as many people as possible in making big decisions and ofc ill be open to any suggestions from anyone at all. so far from the responses ive been getting most people who want a major actor role have said they would be happy just in ensemble or participating in other roles, like music or editing, so im really just trusting them on that. as for being biased no one who wants to audition will have a hand in casting and im not particularly friends with anyone in this fandom so ill try my best not to be biased skdbksdj. if I do need help with casting again im just gonna have to trust them

it's really all riding on trust in everyone involved, which is risky but you really can't control what other people do or feel. we're just gonna have to trust everyone wil be civil and fair to each other. it's just a part of teamwork

i ddon't really know how copyright works either but im really hoping it's fine. if people can make animatics and covers of the songs then we should be good right?? that's all we're doing. there's like some sort of only use for entertainment purposes or something idk ill have to read up on that

ik ppeople have real lives and schedules lord knows i do. that's why im waiting to see if we're actually doing this, and if enough people are interested. ive even specified in the form that this will be a big project and will require patience cause not everyone can work on this 24/7, though i can't say how many people actually read the question before clicking yes. ultimately we're just here to have fun, so nothing will be taken too seriously

i know something small can ruin the entire fandom which is why ive been so nervous about actually doing this, but again it's really on trust, and so far people seem civil and enthusiastic for anything. there's gonna be a LOT of freedom for this tbh my word isn't gonna be law. the artists can decide what to draw and the actors can decide the portrayal, which does go back to your point about arguments but they're gonna have to accept people having different ways of doing things just comes with the job. if they can't accept that then honestly they're probably too young or not mature enough to even watch bmc, let alone work on a big project online. ofc some things are gonna have to be controlled for the sake of smoothness and just collaboration in general, but i think they can handle that

again im very open to suggestions but ultimately i will still be one of the people running the whole thing (i most likely will need help if we do it) so obviously there's still gonna be stuff like no changing anything without telling anyone. im not gonna be like the dictator or something im just,, a small step higher (i don't want to sound pretentious but,, yeah) i want everyone to be able to express their portrayals and takes on the show, teamwork and different points of view is just part of what makes this fun. idk how well a lot of freedom would work but we'll adjust as we go. so ig it sorta is similar to an open source project, we're just compiling them all into 2 hours together

as for participation im trying to make sure everyone who wants to can participate! i have said in the form to pick a backup in case you don't get a major character role. if you can't sing or draw or anything there's a speaking ensemble for like the people shouting over each other in the smartphone hour, or like people at the mall or something in be more chill pt1. other than the major characters there is no age limit, which might be an issue but ill try my best to sort them out. again it's just trust they won't lie about their age, cause ik some people are uncomfortable with a certain age. scenes like dywr/dywh is a HARD 16 year old limit, even for editors and artists. I've got age limits for the characters posted somewhere cause ik there are actual adults auditioning. the actors feeling comfortable or not are gonna have to be taken into account of course, but we'll sort that out if we get there. and again i will have a lot of people helping with management and might ask for opinions from people who aren't doing management too

like you said i am still thinking this through, so these are just my answers at this point in time. i will change my decisions if i have to, so thank you so much for bringing this up! see this is already an example of civil teamwork, and i really hope it will continue for the rest of the project if we do it

#bmcblr remake #im sorry for the long answer but tbf it's a long ask sjhskbd #i feel so professional #bmc #be more chill #bmc musical #be more chill musical #i don't think i swore once during all that im so proud of myself #does this make sense are we all good with this

[marinaiguess]

just finished watching sonic prime so why not share my thoughts on it? before i start rambling, i suggest you go watch it on netflix, it definitely deserves a watch.

now

Technicalities first (if i can call them that). So, judging as a viewer and not as a sophisticated critic who has read cinemtaography books, I’d say the show’s direction overall is pretty good. It’s nothing special but it’s pleasing and keeps you interested. The direction, the angles, the camera changes regarding placement and focus are well coordinated with the writing and each emotion each scene tries to convey. So, really, nothing new (i wasnt expecting a sonic show to make groundbreaking ways of storytelling through cinematography), but I believe it is worth mentioning because it plays a huge role on how one views the show. And there were many moments where I realized that a certain angle made the scene look more tense for example.

Animation! I think we all liked the bouncy styled animation, contrasting the hugely popular disney/pixar styled animation (which is good, dont get me wrong, but the animation tecnhique used in prime fits sonic a lot more imo). Also, the facial expressions are part of what made the show so great and enjoyable and I love how much emphasis they put on them, literally perfect. The details in animation, like the animalistic behaviours of sonic and co. and how they were depicted (ears twitching for example) are all very important and im glad they were implemented. And, I know a lot of us are focused on the facial expressions but we shouldnt forget abt the background as well. There definitely was attention to detail, details that were everywhere and completed the overall image of the show.

Music! the music is good what do you expect me to say like, oh that major g in the pirate scene made the scene look more tense but if it was a minor f it would make it a bit more sad and thus more fitting- no. the music was good. not surprised and props to everyone who worked on the music but i just dont think theres anything to add LOL.

Voice acting! Voice directing-wise? Really REALLY good, i wasnt expecting great performances but i was proved wrong and im happy about that. Now, for the main cast seperately? Devon has done an EXCELLENT job with his lines. His sonic voice is a combination of Roger Craig Smith and Ben Schwartz i believe but it’s also unique and very fitting for sonic, despite me not liking it at first. Brian as Eggman is meh for me, very good voice acting skills but i didnt like it that much. Ashleigh as Tails fit surprisingly well and idk why. Kazumi for rouge was a really good one, bringing rouge back to her sa2/heroes era and not the overly sexy and seducing voice she has in the games (i know its abt voice direction as well but yeah). big is meh, i dont like it. knuckles is pretty good tbh. and now, shadow the hedgehog. yes. ian did an excellent job voicing shadow and i LOVE LOVE LOVE his voice in prime, makes he’d sound like that in the games as well. i’ll stop now or i’ll start fangirling. 

Characters! I like the characters and sonic’s crew. the way the show’s written so far though has made me care about the post-apocalypse characters more than the other shatterverses. like, i like them all, yeah, but i care more about nine and knucks and rebel. maybe that was the point. also,HHHH WHY NOT BLAZE? why not silver? hoping to see them soon but PIRATE WORLD? there was a purple cat and a brown raccoon there but it wasnt blaze and marine. lost opportunity. (and rouge should have been the captain in the pirate one fr fr)

And finally, writing. I’ve seen a lot of opinions these days. Here’s mine. Good characterisation. Yes, it might surprise you but the characterisation is actually good. for every character. including sonic. maybe in a different post i could talk about every character but for now, i wanna talk abt sonic. bouncy, energetic, talkative, honest, lively, adhd coded, cheesy sometimes, reckless, extroverted who wants to work on his own from time to time. this is actually sonic. someone who loves his friends but doesnt listen to them cuz he has no patience. someone who conveys his emotions with actions and puts words aside. someone who likes to lay back once in a while, but not when the whole world is broken to pieces. someone who wants to save everyone, puts everyone above him and his needs. someone who cant stop talking, making witty remarks and jokes despite the given situation cuz he never gives up and is always hopeful and optimistic. frontiers gave us a different view of sonic’s character but it’s a very different situation as well. yet, if you carefully compare the two, you’d see how much things they have in common and how prime! sonic is very well written. 

overall writing is okay. characterisation is very good, interactions between characters are very good but some could have been better(some moments were too short for my liking), easter eggs, there are many and are greatly appreciated, many details, the recap of the prev episodes was really funny and clever but I feel like we were deprived of some great opportunities. like, eggman nega with eggman instead of the chaos council. thats just an example. and im not too salty abt it cuz it’s mainly a kids show and it shows. im glad that its enjoyable for adults like me as well though.

thats all folks. no one asked for this but youre getting it anyway.

#sonic prime spoilers #sonic prime #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime review #shadow the hedgehog

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Alright, holidays are over and Im regularly taking the bus again so its time to read A Court of Mist and Fury. I've made through the prologue and the first three chapters and I feel like I already have a lot of thoughts so Im splitting them into two posts. This one is just gonna be random silly bullshit that I wanted to mention but dont have any deep thoughts on, the next one is gonna be my thoughts about the character development that happened between the books

why does Sarah J Maas always seem to use the vaguely pagan (?) moon and moon cycle imagery when theres like, an all-woman religious institution in her books. Like, Ianthe has that tattoo on her forehead and shes dressed in blue robes and wears a lot of silver and it reminded me of that one random aside in Crescent City where we hear about those priestesses that worship the goddess Luna, like with the robes and headbands and stuff, when theyre first initiated they get a headband with a waxing crescent moon, then when theyre at their peak they get one with a full moon and when they get older they get one with a waning crescent. Like, obviously I know that the moon is associated with with witchcraft and feminine magic and whatnot so it makes sense in a doylist sense, but like, whats the in-universe explanation

You know what, maybe I do have deep thoughts about some of this stuff, what the hell is up with the High Priestesses? Theres twelve of them ?? for some reason?? Theyre said to be the advisors of the high lords on top of their religious duties, so if there were gonna be more than seven, I would think there would be 14, two for each court. But they actually appear to be wholly seperate, like they just dont belong to any particular court. And thats weird to me, but Prythian is technically one united kingdom (get it, cuz the map looks like fucking great britain for some reason) despite some of their inter-court tension so maybe that makes sense. But then WHY do they have such a Night Court-core aesthetic, wearing dark blue (night sky) and silver (stars) with tattoos. If they were an institution thats completely seperate from the courts, I feel like they should use imagery/an aesthetic thats not already kinda taken by another court. Like, idk, rainbows maybe, thats the only thing I can think of rn and it could also make them a symbol of Prythian's unity or something

This is only tangentially related, but how come the Night Court doesnt seem to have any moon imagery associated with it? I say seem to because I havent actually seen it yet, but from the fanart and from what I can remember from cari can read's summary, its all stars and darkness and dreams but not the moon??? which is the thing I personally associate most with night but okay

I was not expecting a sex scene in the first three chapters and I was especially not expecting Feyre to describe her having an orgasm as "I passed away". Granted, that might just be the german translation being weird, I dont have access to the original english but still. Then again, I guess they dont call it the little death for nothing

Speaking of the sex scene, I thought the people saying this were joking but no, she was literally asking him about the political implications of their marriage on some random ass night while they were getting it on, thats hilarious. And then she got TURNED OFF when Tamlin told her there werent any high ladies this series shouldve been a comedy

Last thing I wanted to mention is the use of the formal and informal yous in the translation, which is still really good. As a reminder, du/dir = informal you; Sie/Ihnen = formal you; Euch/Ihren = the most formal you, usually reserved for nobility. Feyre used Euch/Ihren for all the high fae in the first book (atleast for the first half, I havent really kept track of the pronoun usuage), Tamlin and Lucien used du/dir for Feyre, Alis used Euch/Ihren for Feyre. In this book, all the servants still refer to her by Euch/Ihren but Feyre, Tamlin and Lucien are all on a du/dir basis with each other now. Also, Feyre uses Euch/Ihren for Ianthe and honestly, that alone says so much about how important she is within the court, I feel like I didnt even need an explanation of what exactly she does, but this book was written in english qhere they dont have that so I get it

#acotar critical #anti acomaf #flames and darkness liveblog #anti acotar

[goffilolo]

Does that in two devils and a half Asta is capable of pulling a julius? Like store living creatures into the hourglass and stealing their time, and then use that time on whatever he desires? Himself included? He would be the best healer out there if so.

I was gonna do a seperate post explaining how Asta’s magic would work in this AU, but since you’ve sent this ask might as well do it now.

Sealing Magic

Same principles as Licita’s magic. Asta can only seal away an object that has no mana. It’s originally used for weapon storage, which Asta has plenty of. However I have decided to get creative with the logistics and thought that even if you cannot seal an object with mana, what about other forces/forms of energy? Let’s say you were to seal away a moving object, and upon unsealing it the object would retain its momentum. That’s right bestie, we’re playing with projectiles now. Maybe Asta himself cannot overpower you, but the falling boulder that he sealed up like a month ago will.

I was also thinking that with sealing magic he may potentially have a binding/restraining spell of some sort but I haven’t decided on any details for that one yet.

Time Magic

At least at the beginning of the AU Asta is only really capable of performing 2 things with his time magic: prophecies and healing.

Chrono Witness: The way the prophecy spell works is kind of on a principle of schrodinger's cat. Technically anything could happen in the future and you have no idea what it’s going to be. The prophecy spell locks onto one specific outcome, usually the most likely one, thus eliminating other possibilities. And even if you try to do something to prevent the prophecy from coming true it will still come true one way or another although with potentially altered circumstances of how it came to be. Which is precisely why Asta uses the spell so rarely, because he has no control over what outcome he predicts and does not want to accidentally predict a bad one. He primarily uses it for weather predictions in Hage, because even if he sees bad weather, then the village at least has months to prepare for it in advance.

Minute Minder: Since a body can naturally heal on its own, but does so very slowly, this spell rapidly speeds up the time of the body itself to make it heal faster. The drawback to it is that well…the body has jumped forward faster than the world around it. If a fracture takes 6 weeks to heal by itself then using this spell to make the bone heal immediately would mean that this body part will be 6 weeks older than the rest of the body. Again this spell would need to be used in moderation because Asta could potentially make someone rapidly age by a lot if he used that spell too often on them.

Compound Spells

It has generally been agreed (by me and silv) that the mana and life force draining was Astaroth’s curse. Should Asta ever figure out how to perform the mana and life drain, he could very well make it into a compound spell that allows him to seal ‘time’ in a bottle so to speak, including mana itself. (something he can’t do with sealing attributes on its own, but can if combined with time magic). He can then drink straight from the bottle to recover mana and extend his lifespan.

It’s also worth noting that despite the fuckin dual attribute of 2 very rare types of magic, Asta’s mana reserves are still low, like Magna level low, so what he can perform is rather limited. It’s a case of good blueprints with not enough budget.

#asks answered #black clover #two and a half devils au

[firespirited]

I'm not going to post a review of the film I saw today as the fandom is concerning to say the least.

I will just vague that clearly a lot of Americans never grew up with fae/mermaids/sirens as deceivers as part of your folklore... think of it like vampires. Yes an entire 'race' of creatures that are beautiful, enticing and also predators by nature who will use your humanity against you. Often using a sob story or request for help to drag you into the swamp.

Do I believe we should kill all vampires if they existed? Well that's something I've thought about a lot over the years. Part of the point of a supernatural predator like the incubus, vampire or siren is examining how we'd cope with a sentient being that's not redeemable and has no wish to change, or can maybe fake it for a while in pure self interest but is not committed to changing for any ethical reason. Rare people who are actually only held back by things being illegal and having bad consequences for them.

While some fairytales were used to demonize folks or retconned as propaganda to demonize folks, a lot of this 'monster that looks human' folklore is about teaching you that some people will be unimaginably cruel and callous while also still looking friendly. You can't fathom why because there is no why, they just don't operate on the same base humanity as you. This is a very real situation that many people throughout history have had to deal with: people who are humans like you but consider you just pawns or prey.

So I'd have to make a deal with a vampire to not eat me. We'd have to live as seperate species abiding by strict pacts to not harm eachother. And I'd have to put the vampire in a dungeon if they broke the pact and ate me.

The vampire or fox or siren metaphor is for us to examine our own power over others and how we wield it. But mainly as a metaphor for marginalised people to talk about folks who will use and abuse people throughout their lives and get a pass. How to we use the whisper network to teach eachother red flags, warn eachother, rescue eachother. How do we talk about people that are evil that we can't bring ourselves to kill either and our complex memories of that relationship and the choices we made.

The vampire story allows us to be fooled not because you were an idiot, but because that is just the nature of the vampire.

Personally speaking, the folklore I was taught was that some bad people will use your humanity against you and that you should never go into nature alone because it's easy to get lost and those friendly fresh looking lakes, bogs and streams have currents that will pull you down (that and a lot of don't continue mining where miners have died! )

#saf #Ramblings #Sometimes fairytales don't map onto humans in ways you expect

[bungouchronicles]

are you a minor?

who are your bsd kinnies?

when did you get into tumblr?

what's your fave bsd take?

what's one bsd thing (character/opinion/etc) that u think should be talked about more?

fave animal?

how do u make friends (i need help 😭).

do u play an instrument

share thoughts/reviews abt bsd

jus answer the ones ur comfy answering 💖

Hiii!!

Woah this is my first ask, thank you <3 Let's see!

1. I'm not comfortable with sharing my age on the internet so I won't, sorry.

2. Atsushi is my highest kin but I also kin Ranpo and Dazai (don't ask how/j)

I also happen to get Nikolai on a lot of "what character are you?" quizzes and I always relate to him on those "analysing kinnies" things but I refuse to admit that to myself yet 😋

3. I don't remember tbh, I started out on another account but I'm too lazy to look up how old that account is. I think I first joined Tumblr like 2-3 years ago?

4. Ahh I don't know! I have a lot of takes but I can't seem to remember any of them right now haha. I'll get back to this someday.

5. Okay I'll have to make a seperate post about this someday but probably how soukoku is (or at least was) what the other one wished they could be. I love their parallels about how they view humanity which I think already is pretty talked about but yk, you can always talk more about it!

I also think we as a fandom should talk more about Yosano in general, she's very dear to me <3

Oh and Bram! I wanna know more about him and his daughter. He's so silly, how could we not talk about him??

Also I adore the religious symbolism in bsd, we should all talk more about that!

I also think we should talk more about Oda outside of of the impact he had on Dazai. I adore Oda and Dazais story but Oda is really cool regardless of that. I almost never see anyone mention his own story and his motives? He's so cool!!

6. Car :3

7. I just kinda say things and hope someone likes me and that has worked out so far.

No but like, when it comes to making friends irl the best advice I can give you is to surround yourself with like-minded people (like join a group with a shared interest or something) and don't be afraid to be bold. I can assure you, most people want friends and will only be relieved if you offer them your friendship yourself. I recently made a friend when we were having a conversation and she complained about how she didn't have many friends and I just said "hey, we can be friends!" And that was that. She happily agreed and we have been friends ever since. 😊 Obviously this just works if the people you talk too are good people but you shouldn't bother trying to make friends with people that aren't. Hope this helps <3

8. I sing and play some piano, music is my everything though so I'm hoping to both get better at piano and maybe pick up guitar again

9. I'm so normal about this show. Uhm...let's see:

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Thoroughly enjoyed. Very well written and has been able to keep me invested for far too long now. The fixation never goes away. Help me, Asagiri is keeping me hostage in this fandom!

This was fun, feel free to send my any other asks in the future <3

#Aria answers asks #is that an acceptable tag? #woohoo this is so fun!

[golbrocklovely]

it's that time again where i do a tarot reading on snc just bc i want to and also bc i felt the need to do one. i also did one for sam and for colby. i separated them bc good god i have a lot to say apparently lol

i did one earlier this year on snc (linked here) and i thought i might as well do one for the rest of the year and see how they're doing, what's coming up for them, and their love lives.

disclaimer: i understand there are ppl/fans that do tarot readings and personally don't believe that you can do a reading on someone that didn't a) agree to one or b) isn't there with you. and while i understand that, i just need everyone to know that this is just for fun. i go into with all the positivity, and this is really just for me in the end. i never claim to be right, i'm not pretending that this is the truth. this is just for entertainment purposes only. if you don't like it, feel free to not read. please take whatever i say in this post with a grain of salt.

(the other readings will be linked at the bottom)

so, i believe i've told you guys before but i have multiple tarot decks, most of which are all just the traditional one. but i have deck that's called 'the psychic tarot'. it used to be the one i'd used the most, just bc it explores different things outside of the traditional tarot cards, but i haven't used it in years. however a couple days ago, i got this overwhelming urge to do a reading on snc with this deck specifically.

to give a bit of backstory on this deck, it has major arcana cards (which are based off of the traditional major arcana cards but named differently), and then the minor arcana cards are separated into four different types: physical, emotions, mental, and spirit. there's also chakra cards as well. a lot of these cards are self-explanitory, but the booklet that comes with the cards does give a bit of a better understanding for them too. so i'll be using a bit of the booklet and also just what i personally feel the cards are saying.

now, onto the reading:

the first question i asked was "how is the rest of this year gonna look like for snc?" i ended up getting seven cards, and how i read that is the first one is currently how they're feeling, and then the rest are what the next six months will be like for them.

first card: trapped in fear. again, a lot of these cards are self explanatory. this one is telling me that snc are both stuck rn bc mentally they aren't sure of the future. and all of that makes perfect sense, given that colby is still up in the air with his health and whether or not he might have to do more chemo. so it would make sense for them both to not know where things lie as of rn. it's also interesting that this card came up just in time for sam to send out an email talking about fear playing a huge role in not moving forward.

speaking of, the second card: positive movement forward. things will work out for them, work related wise, and they'll have the go ahead to get started on projects that they've been holding back on. overall a good card to get after trapped in fear.

third card: patience. this is a major arcana card, similar to the temperance card. this is telling me that snc, most likely, will jump headfirst back into things and kinda want to make up for lost time. but they're gonna need to be patient bc while they want to get everything done, they can't rush it all in one sitting. the booklet also says that this is a call to make balance in your life, which is something that comes up later too in one of their seperate readings. and as we all know, snc don't know how to have a work life balance lol

fourth card: partnership and alliances. at first i thought this was about them both relying on one another, but it seems as if it's actually saying that they might have some new ppl coming into their lives. possibly new collaborators, maybe new business partners. just new ppl are going to be coming in, and they should be open to those experiences bc they will be beneficial for them.

fifth card: foundation and achievements. this card immediately follows the partnership and alliances card in the deck itself so that's pretty interesting. this card is super positive, basically saying that snc are finally gonna have some peace in their life for a moment. basically everything they have been working on will now give back to them in a way. the booklet also talks about this possibly being the sign of a new home, which eh… idk about that. but maybe it could be about them moving somewhere for a bit of time, like they were doing back in 2021 when they kept going from la to vegas. overall this card is really good for them.

sixth card: mental conflict. now interestingly, this card comes up a couple times, but for one person in particular - sam. now i can only imagine why he would going thru mental conflicts… his life is perfect and totally not completely different lol as the card implies, this is about going thru a lot of stuff mentally. not being in the best headspace. this card basically tells me that someone is not ready to keep pushing forward for whatever reason. that something is holding them back. it might not directly imply to sam, it could be the both of them. they both have had some crazy six months so far. and i have a feeling all of that is gonna catch up to them by the end of the year.

the final card: suffering in silence. again, self explanatory. someone here is not too good at expressing how they're feeling, and bc of that, are slowly suffering in their head. this card applies to both boys, let's be honest. they don't really express how they're feeling all too often to us, so i can only imagine how much they don't do it in their personal lives. but i think this might be a turning point for them. take one of them for example - colby. he said in a podcast, very casually, that he doesn't think this cancer diagnosis has actually hit him yet. which what that means to me is that colby hasn't really accepted that this terrible thing has happened to him. and bc of that, i think when he finally gets back into the swing of things, back to "normal" it's gonna hit him like a train. same thing with sam, he's gone thru a lot of change recently. colby's diagnosis, breaking up with kat… all of that has transpired and while i do think he has accepted it as reality, i don't think he's really allowed himself to feel upset about it. maybe at times, sure. but not majorly.

what does all of this mean? i think the rest of this year is gonna be good for them. things seem to be working in their favor again, which is great. and they seem to be getting back into the swing of things, back to their daily routines before all of this happened. however, bc they never have allowed themselves to fully FEEL what they've gone thru, it's gonna catch up to them by the end of the year. look, as much as i would love for snc to post a podcast or just a video in general letting it all out, i understand that might not happen. imma be honest, idk how i would feel seeing them cry on camera. god knows with how emotional i am anymore, i might ball my eyes out.

however, i do think at the very least, snc need to do some work behind the scenes on their own and allow themselves to really feel. bc i think, if by the end of the year they haven't done the mental and emotional work, it's gonna catch up to them. and it's gonna hinder their business. i wouldn't be surprised if by november/december they take a hiatus or an ACTUAL break just bc after everything they've been thru, they'll need it.

i have high hopes, but this all relies on snc to do the work.

<< sam's reading || colby's reading >>

#sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock #snc tarot #personal #text

[wesavegotham]

While I did say in my post about Batman vs Robin #2 that I liked the issue better than the first one because we finally saw Bruce act like he cared that Damian was possessed by something evil, I also have to agree with this reviewer:

I really liked that we finally saw Bruce care...but mostly because I felt it was something basic that already should have been in the first issue, because if Bruce isn't shown to care then the story doesn't land emotionally.

But to make this a good Bruce and Damian story you have to do more than the basics. One way Waid could have done this would have been to cut the cameos of some of the Sandman characters that didn't really seem to serve a purpose aside from Waid getting to show us that he knows these characters exist. Like, it was good to see that Bruce knows exactly what perfume Talia is using, but what was Cynthia even trying to achieve by turning into her and then trying to stab him?

Anyway, cutting these characters out could have made room for more internal monologue like we got in the first issue when Alfred showed up at Wayne Manor. I think giving us reactions to what is going on in the story this way is especially important for a character like Bruce who tries to hide his true feelings and thoughts from the outside world a lot. Reactions are important. It's what makes plot points have an emotional impact. Yes, it's sad on it's own to see a character die for example, but what really makes it feel impactful is seeing how the world around that character reacts to their death.

So instead or at least in addition to the exposition dump we got it would have been better to tell us what Bruce thinks about the things Damian went through on the island, what he feels because Damian didn't tell him about it and maybe even have him reflect on the role he played in Damian landing in this situation in the first place.

Because so far this story doesn't feel very personal. It's not really about Damian as a person or about Bruce and Damian's individual relationship.

If what we saw in the house of secrets can be believed Nezha possessed Damian purely because he is Batman's son:

Likewise Bruce wants to rescue Damian mostly because he is his son:

Now, don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with this per se. Damian is Bruce's son and that alone should be reason enough for Bruce to want to rescue him.

But it would be more impactful if it felt like there was more to it than just the basic role Damian occupies in Bruce's life. You know like love? Appreciation for the person Damian actually is without the possession? The importance he has to Bruce as a person seperate from Damian being related to him by blood?

And here is where issue #1 is ruining things again because from the choices Waid made when he wrote that first issue it's not unreasonable to assume that he works under the assumption that Bruce does not like Damian a lot as a person:

Having Bruce describe Damian that way and making a call-back to that line from Tomasi's last arc on Detective Comics sure are choices.

It doesn't help that the issues in their relationship Waid adresses are either outdated (Damian thinking he's destined to be Batman and feeling like Bruce blamed him for Alfred's death) or don't really make sense for Damian to be angry about in the first place:

Damian doesn't think much of leading a normal life and he didn't have one before he met Bruce. It's criticism often applied to Batman and the Robins, but it makes more sense when thinking about what role he played in the lives of Dick, Jason and Tim. It doesn't really work with Damian (or Stephanie) and thus doesn't feel like it says a lot about Bruce and Damian's relationship. And ignoring that a lot of the things Damian is angry about in this book were already resolved in his solo makes it feel like he's really just a plot device, pulled into this story to explain why Batman is the protagonist in this and not Superman (the one who actually put Nezha back in his jail) or one of the magic users (since it's all about the magic being screwed up and magical artifacts getting stolen)

Now, Waid does have three issues left to turn this around and try to say something interesting about Bruce and Damian's relationship. But considering that Nezha has all the Robins under his spell now and Bruce will have to fight them:

Plus Waid escalating this into a global event in issue 4, which will lead to the Lazarus Planet event (as Bruce said, this is clearly about more than Damian and him), I'm fearing that Waid might be more or less done with the focus on Bruce and Damian's relationship.

I expect the focus of the next few issues to be increasingly about Bruce's relationship with the Robins and the batfamily in general, Alfred (since Bruce is going to find out he's being controlled by Nezha sooner or later) and Nezha, the main antagonist Batman has to defeat.

#damian wayne #bruce wayne #batman vs robin

[trustandblasters]

Where I’ve Been and the Future of the Comic

I will begin this by saying that I am really sorry to have gone this long without an update. It wasn’t my intention and I know I should have made this a lot sooner. 

Quite frankly, things have been so hectic in my life that I got out of rhythm when working on personal projects, such as this comic. I hit some heavily severe depressive episodes and I’m sure I hurt a lot of people around me with some of my outbursts because of it. This isn’t an excuse, just an explination, and is something I have to answer for and work to fix on my own.

Now that I am finding time for personal projects and personal things (I started playing FF14 for instance, im willing to share my username if anyone plays on Primal and wants to play. I started actively writing my original stories and doing original art more. I started posting one of those original stories online as well) I had to re-evaluate some prior projects and what I would drop, keep, and re-imagine.

Now, onto the comic. 

Sad to say it, but I will be dropping it. I will keep this blog up as an archive and maybe one day I might come back to it to finish, but as of this moment I don’t have any drive to actually complete the comic as is. I still have my notes, so I will go over the changes I intended to make, which is mostly centered around the characters Elci and Nora Geep. 

(Funfact, Nora Geep is seeing new life in one of the original stories Im posting online)

Elci

The thought behind Elci was mostly that she would be used to show Sans and Papyrus that there was a chance at a better life with someone who cared for them. She would have eventually come into contact with Sans and Papyrus which would reveal two things about her to the audience: She had met them before, and she was a prototype Shapeshifter that was to be ‘discareded’ by Gaster and Dr. Felix.  Sans would not have a clear memory of this, Papyrus no memory, but Sans would have a faint recollection of her abused shapeshifted form in Gaster’s lab and being wheeled away by Dr. Felix to be ‘disposed of’ (dusted, but she managed to crawl away and survive instead of freezing in the snow, which is when she would have been found and taken to the doctor by the Dog Pack). Elci would have recognized Sans and Papyrus immediately and had a meltdown, which would keep her from revealing this until Sans and Papyrus were taken. She would have been able to tell Grillby and the authorities the door codes and secret lab location as she would still remember what/where they were.

At the end it would also reveal Dr. Felix was her father, and that her mother had dusted prior to the start of the comic. He offered his daughter as an experiment subject due to his own grief on losing his wife and because Gaster needed monster subject and Elci was a rare Chimera-Type (made of 3 or more types of monster: Deer, Abstract, and Reptile). You can see some of these hinted at in Bio’s and also some of the character’s reactions in comic (Elci could sense Sans and Papyrus when she was at Grillby’s, Dogressa is aware she is a Shifter and was nervous when Grillby brought them up, Felix can be seen in the flashback where Dogamy had ripped out his eye, ect).

The last shot I had planned of her would have been her running around with Sans and Papyrus in their shifted forms, finally free of Gaster and Felix’s looming presence in her life. 

Nora Geep

Nora is an interesting character in that her influence wasn’t really needed all that much, but made it a bit more believable in terms of some of the background aspects. So her story in the comic was rather limited, but where she had influence was meant to have the most impact. 

If you haven’t picked up on the foreshadowing: She is Grillby’s estranged wife. The two had married Pre-War and only seperated some time after being sealed in the Underground. Despite this, they actually aren’t divorced yet and Nora still wears her wedding ring and wedding band (The gold ring and golden scarf she wears in her hair). She took over the role of Archivist from what would have later been revealed to be Seam from Deltarune. 

The reason for their split was because of her burn: it would have been revealed that Grillby had accidentally burned her during a PTSD episode and he basically chased her out to protect her. She was against it, but relented more to Asgore and Toriel’s urging since she could barely walk after first recieving the injury. Grillby would have narrated that he opened his restaurant sometime after and that he had some regrets about it, since she had always wanted to open a place where people could relax, enjoy good food, and maybe read a good book or two. (Funfact: In a Deltarune short I was planning for after this she would have opened a book cafe with Grillby in the town)

The reason for her strained relationship with Gaster is because she gave him the logs, books, and research on Shifters that led to Elci’s abuse and Sans and Papyrus’s creation. She was unaware of Sans and Papyrus, but did learn of Elci after she escaped and was horrified that letting him into the archive let this happen. Since she blames herself, she shut herself off completely from Gaster and anything to do with the Research Labs, even when Asgore would ask that she share. This would have come to a head right before Gaster made an attempt to reclaim Sans and Papyrus, as Nora would have found out about them and would have begun making moves to help. Gaster would have taken some of the other cast offs with him and gravely injured Nora, resulting in a lowered security in Snowdin as they would have been looking for Nora’s attacker. (They would not initially known who it was as she was unconcious when found by Berdley and Noelle). She would not have made a fully recovery by the end of the comic, but would have shown up with Berdley and Susie in tow to help Asgore and Gnash against Gaster and the other Skele-dogs. 

The final scene I had planning with her was Grillby and her having a heart to heart in Grillby’s about their past and the present. I would have left it open ended on if they got back together or not, but the following seen would have been Asgore welcoming Seam back as the Senior Archivist and Berdley as a newly assigned Junior Archivist to replace him once his training was done. 

Noelle would have been revealed to taken over as Royal Scientist and a hint that Alphys would become her apprentice in the future. 

Some other things I would have revealed were what happened to the other Skele-dogs afterword (I mentioned it in a post before) but shots of them being found by various characters and taken in, such as the recurring Green One being taken in by Asgore temporarily. There would have been a shot of Flowey at one point as well. 

I will answer any lingering questions if anyone has them, I will keep this blog open and will ocntinue to answer questions as they come in. Feel free to reach out. 

Sorry, I should have made this post a lot sooner ^-^;;

#Undertale #Trust Comic #Sans #Papyrus #gaster blaster au #babyblaster au

[all-thestories-aretrue]

Ok another post because i cant stop and literally had this exact same conversation with my friend yesterday and its extremely applicable to what i saw on youtube and to an extent on reddit. And maybe this is a hot take but im going to say it anyway maybe please dont leave hate on this

But. I'm having a very hard time seperating the characters in critical role and the people in critical role. And I think this is just a by product of the kind of media it is because its immersive but also not.

And I was saying how I have to make a very conscious effort to seperate the two in my head and not conflate them. And even then I really don't think I do a good job about it, especially about characters I've latched onto like Caleb. I also think these days its very difficult to interact with a piece of media and not consider who those involved are as people for better or worse.

It's impossible for me to interact with critical role without also interacting with the people running it and the characters. It gets all jumbled for me. I still find myself googling personal questions about the actors even though I know im not entitled to that information nor should I be speculating on it.

All that being said, I don't think a lot of people think about this? Or even know to think about it? I think it's a very unconscious reaction and the format of critical role and similar shows is primed to make it difficult to do. You see someone on the screen and your brain identifies that person as the character. There's just a collapsing of separation that isn't there in more "traditional" pieces of media.

Then there is the whole parasocial relationship aspect of it too, which is also something I am hyper aware of and also really bad at. This is also at the forefront of my mind since I saw Ethan's (crankgameplays) show like two weeks ago. But it's hard to remind myself that I don't know these people and shouldn't be making assumptions about them. And it really bothers me when people make assumptions about, for example, Marisha and Liam are the ones I've seen the most, because of something they are doing in character or media they are producing because people do that about me and i cant stand it. Just because you see their media, just because they choose to share something with you, doesnt mean you know them or are entitled to more information. And like dont make assumptions about people from what art they put out. This really gets to me from my own experience. But often times people would like at my writing and then put that weight back onto me when i was specifically writing it to get the distance. Idk where im going with this.

And i dont have good answers or solutions to these problems and its constantly something im aware of when im consuming (i hate that word) media, especially on youtube. But critical role has opened up this can of worms for me in ways i didnt expect. And im not calling anyone out over anything. These are just the thoughts swirling in my head about the way i interact with media, especially critical role. Anyway so heres all my baggage.

#critical role #do i even dare tag this lmao

[sereniv]

Hi hi !! I understand and know that they’re wrong but it definitely doesn’t hurt any less and I honestly don’t think it ever will. Even outside of the native community I still feel like I have to fight for being soulaan(African American) and am constantly hated for it. I don’t know anything about rez dogs? (I think that was the name) but I wasn’t bothered about the show itself just the individuals spewing anti blackness and such hate and dividing peoples identities when they wouldn’t like it if they were also dissected.

The one drop rule and blood quantum has done irreversible damages to both communities so I don’t understand the dismissiveness of other ndn people. I’ve heard other a.f(afro-indigenous) people disconnect and stray from the culture because of it and first I thought I understood but now I think I really get it. Their words really sting. I know that they spew nonsense because of what they have seen white people do and some inherently uphold lots of other white colonist mindsets but knowing you have to fight your own people for acknowledgment must have really hurt them. I can’t imagine being denied of my black identity I think it would make me feel like I lost a part of myself.

Also thank you so much for opening up a safe space for me to be able to communicate it feels like I’m confiding in a older sibling and in spirit is very relieving. I just want to make it known that I greatly appreciate you. I only have one other indigenous person to talk to but they’re Taino and I also feel very fake talking to them because they seem to be very dedicated to their culture and I feel like maybe I shouldn’t talk to them when I’m barely even reconnecting. I know they probably wouldn’t feel that way but the anxiety still eats at me you know? -🦪

Man i feel a range of emotion for you. I feel sad and angry for you for what you have to deal with, and also happiness because im glad you feel that way about me and i enjoy talking to you.

It just sucks, to put it way too simply. You should feel welcomed and loved, and you are to me. And i wish there was a way to carve out a safer space to talk to other afro indigenous ppl, and i want to say real life spaces are better but idk.

and despite them being wrong and despite them being bigoted youre right, i mean no amount of trying to ignore it or "logic" it away takes away from the fact that youve seen it or heard it.

You are right to be upset and hurt. And you are right to feel conflicted. Its all racism and its all abuse.

And its hard to say, everyone is different. ive seen people full native born on the rez be very welcoming, and ive seen the opposite.

And i understand too the standoffishness because of pretendians, but at a point its like youre just driving away people who arent.

You deseve to be heard and understood because you are doing nothing wrong at all.

I wish i could give you a hug (if wanted). And just let me know if you ever want me to find some afro indigenous people, forums, etc.

Just let me know in a seperate message that i can reply to later

Also ill make a post because i think there are some afro native ppl on tumblr? i cant remember if someone i follow is

but ill pin the post so you dont have to like it to save and out yourself ❤️

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