#madd thoughts

[nsuiswitch]

i feel like maladaptive daydreaming is so fucking hard to cope with or manage because it just creates this never ending cycle of relapse where your heavy daydreaming takes a toll on your life so when you finally try to limit it you're so ashamed and disappointed by what your real life has become/what you done or haven't done that you just collapse and continue the bad habit that caused it in the first place. it becomes so engrained in your daily life and the way you think that you don't realize how much you rely on it until you try to stop. next thing you know, you're on the shower and you realize you can't go more than ten seconds without slipping away. the days go by so fast but in the moment, you're so desperate for any kind of escapism cause you're just not used to sitting in the real world. i have no identity. my entire mental state is dependent on it. how well i'm doing is entirely defined by the daydream ideas i can scrape up. i'll have a complete mental break and then the next day i manage to be whisped up in another dream, one that promises to stay, to be kind. to love me, and then the cycle starts all over again.

#idk #just thinking about this #maladapting daydreaming disorder #actually maladaptive #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreamers #madd problems #madder #actually madd #madd things #madd thoughts #vent

[infiniteorangethethird]

man the realization that I can do literally whatever the fuck I want within my daydreams/paracosm because I'm the only audience who will ever see it has been one of the most freeing thoughts I've had in a long time. ain't nobody can judge a story they don't even know about

#madd #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #daydreaming #madd thoughts #there's no 'character that's too problematic' there's no 'scene that's too dark' #there's no 'this isn't politically correct enough' there's no 'this needs more research' #there's no 'too mary sue-y' there's no 'this isn't realistic' #none of that bullshit. there's only 'do I enjoy this?' #my daydreams and paracosm are dedicated to me and me alone #a palace which i get to decorate however i wish #even if that sometimes involves blood #a lot of the time actually #only truly realized this a couple weeks ago and yet i can already see #my paracosm shifting several levels darker #my brain's just itching to finally indulge in that darkness #(even if i come out on the other side a bit traumatized)

[acircusfullofdemons]

never forget your roots (daydreaming on the swings after school)

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #actuallymadd #madd memes #madd thoughts #maladaptive behaviors #luka.txt #went 2 the park todaayyy #and spent the entirety of it on the swings. daydreaming. 😎

[dreamingdreamdrop]

Maladaptive Daydream Things pt 2

daydreaming about music video/ anime opening but they're with your paras

going to your daydream for comfort

feeling like your paras are your real friends and family

daydreaming in your sleep, aka you are dreaming and you start dreaming about your paracoms in your sleep

daydreaming in the car/on the bus

finding a new series to have more fictional paras

daydreaming your paras are with you in your current situation

having mega happy positives paracosms but also having very dark and hardcore paracoms

daydreaming paras doing things you want to do/ scared to do/ can't do

daydreaming to get out of your situation

daydreaming so much it makes you miss good time with friends

not fully being in the moment cause of daydreaming

#maladaptive daydreaming things #madd things #madd #actually madd #madd thoughts #maladaptive coping #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreamer #actually maladaptive #daydreaming #daydreamer #daydream

[turtlesunrelated]

Me: I wonder what I look like when I’m daydreaming. Probably normal.🙂

What I look like:

#maladaptive daydreaming #daydreaming #maladaptive #mental health #madd #actually madd #madd humor #madd thoughts #excessive daydreaming #paracosm #memes #paras #not funny didnt laugh

[dumb-lab]

The pain i feel when i realize i forgot the plots and scenes and amazing dialogues and relationships from those daydream plots which I'm very emotionally attached to

#madd #madd paras #madd thoughts

[daydreamkisses]

I’ve never ever considered giving up my paras since I’ve had them my entire life, and I’m twenty, but maybe it would be nice to live my own life instead of theirs?

I wonder what my own life is like. I wonder if I have friends, and memories that are my own, and maybe I love. I like to think that one day I’ll have a life of my own, something that’s really genuinely mine and not consumed by my head.

I thought the meds would take away my paras. I thought I’d have to be dragged kicking and screaming out of this. but I’m still here, friday morning six years later, and my brain feels like it’s utterly decaying. there’s so much going on inside my head, and none of it is mine.

#madd thoughts #madd #maladapting daydreaming disorder #kinda vent? #actually maladaptive

[day-dreamiest]

Does anyone else like, make different versions of your para? Like they're ultimately the same person, but with slight variations.

#daydreaming #daydreaming disorder #excessive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #madd paras #madd thoughts #madd things #my post

[juiccydaddy]

Since I was 9 I had maladaptive daydreaming, this July I’m turning 20, it’s been a long ride and I thought I was crazy for the longest time until I found out what I’m going thru is an ACTUAL thing that other people are going thru aswell. I tried to tell my mom and she’s Puertorican

to those who know or are Hispanic y’all know how it is when it comes to mental disorders, so y’all can guess how that went out. Long story short she told me it was the “phone” that was the cause and to get over it.

Never mentioned it to her again. Anyway I never told anyone else. Not my friends, family, anyone.

1. Because they won’t believe me

2. They’ll think I’m crazy and talk sh$t and no I’m not exaggerating they will actually talk sh$t

3. They’ll think of me differently which just makes things awkward.

So here I am hiding everything. I’m okay tho lol I kinda just accepted that this will be apart of me for a long time.

But if you guys have any advice for me that’ll be great.

#madd #actually madd #madd problems #madd thoughts #depressing shit #help lol #exhuasted #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder

[stinkykittypet]

Explaining to my para his own lore

#paracosm #maladaptive daydreaming #actually maladaptive #maladapting daydreaming disorder #madd things #actually madd #madd stuff #madd thoughts #para

[dreamdropsystem]

new video

#our youtube videos #video #youtube video #madd #madd problems #actually madd #madd things #madd thoughts #maladaptive daydream #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreamer #daydreamer #daydream #daydreaming #dreamer #dreaming #videos #youtube #para #paras #parame #paracosm #paracosms

[nsuiswitch]

every time I try to quit this stupid world of mine i end up having the most vivid dream about my paracosm that's all parts emotional and intimate and jarring and it's too bright and vivid like I can literally feel things brush up on my skin and people's laughter rumble in their chests. And I'm just supposed to get up the next morning and stay sober and be okay? Go fuck yourself

#literally talking about me #i need to fuck off #its a level of self sabotage i do not understand #ITS ON A SUBCONSCIOUS LEVEL #help #maladaptive daydreamers #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually maladaptive #maladaptive daydreaming #actually madd #madder #maladaptive problems #maladaptive coping #madd thoughts #madd problems #madd things

[infiniteorangethethird]

I think we’re all familiar with the story trope where the protagonist is in an artificially created universe and their goal is to escape it an return to reality. A recurring theme in these stories is the artificial reality being so appealing to the protagonist that they have to constantly remind themselves that this is not real in order to leave the place.

And I just never understood why anyone would want to leave such a place. Like you can be in your own dream universe and yet you choose “reality” because of... what, exactly? Literally the only reason why the other world is the “real” one is because you say so, it’s obvious you can barely distinguish the two worlds from each other, so then why does it matter which one you’re in? In all honesty if someone came up to me and tried to force me into an artificial world my only request would be to put me in charge of events so I can recreate my paracosm and I would submit myself willingly and nothing would be able to bring me out of there

#maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreamer #MaDD #madd things #madd thoughts #actually madd #brought to you by my gravity falls rewatch

[acircusfullofdemons]

a list of things I've bought because they reminded me of my paras/paracosms

feel free to add ur own! I wanna know about ur irresponsible /terrible money choices lol. also a lot of this is merch of my fictparas bc they're, well, canon characters and thus easy to find stuff for.

Fingerless gloves (Vincent)

Goggles (Vincent)

Numerous different Funko Pops of my fictparas (there's around 9 in total, and that's just the ones of my fictparas. I have more funko pops yes its a problem)

Shirts relating to the source my fictparas are from (I have like...4)

NUMEROUS different pins of my fictparas (there are. 16 pins. and i have more that are just pins i liked!!!)

A cup, bag, choker, a magnet, 3 postcards, a tarot deck, 4 rings, a bow, a lapdesk (that also came with a journal), and keychain that's (official) merch of my fictparas

A pocketwatch, ring of keys, tights, and arm warmers that give me the vibes of my fict-paracosm (or fanta-paracosm, if you wanna get technical)

A Calico Critter (Calypso)

Demon horns (Vincent, Rowan, literally any of my demon paras tbh)

Another hair bow (Jasper)

A coat that's the same style Vincent wears

A poster of a fictpara (granted, I got this one for free bc he's sort of an underrated character and the lady was just happy I was also a fan of him lmao)

A space themed shawl (Elliott)

Stickers (Calypso & Phineas)

A sparkly purple crop top (Calypso)

Stockings [a pair with crosses on them, a black pair, a pair with lacy bows] (Vincent)

Garter belts with pentagrams on them [the ones to hold up stockings not the sexy lingerie kind] (Vincent)

Rabbit ears (Charlotte)

#paraportal #maladaptive daydreaming #immersive dayadreaming #madd problems #actuallymadd #madd thoughts #actually madd #maladaptive behaviors #luka.txt #my love for collecting things does NOT help my bank account #i have. SO MUCH aiw merch its unreal #i feel like im forgetting some stuff #if i am ill just add it in a rb later lol #i finally gave in and bought the rabbit ears from my workplace today (i work at a craft store) and was like #''wow. i buy so much random shit bc of my madd'' which inspired this post lol #this was hard bc vinny and i have similar styles (he is my paraself after all) so. like half the time i can't tell if i buy something bc #its For Me of Because of Vincent #my interest is demons and vinny is a demon. do u see the problem.

[dreamingdreamdrop]

DID/OSDD Maladaptive Daydream Things

daydreaming about your alters

daydreaming with your alters

alters daydreaming together

daydreaming in headspace/ inner world

your paras becoming alters (paratives)

alters making paras

sharing paras across the alters

dissociation ruining your daydreaming

being triggered so you daydream

sharing paras/ocs/paracosms

talking to other alters that maladaptive daydream about your daydreams/paras/paracosms

talking to other alters that don't maladaptive daydream about your daydreams/paras/paracosms

annoying other alters talking about your daydreams/paras/paracosms

not fully being in the moment cause of daydreaming and dissociation

#maladaptive daydreaming things #madd thoughts #madd things #madd #did #osdd #did osdd #did system #osdd system #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreamer #maladaptive coping #maladaptive behaviors #actually maladaptive #maladaptive problems #actually madd #alter #alters #para #paras #parame #paracosm

[turtlesunrelated]

POV: u gain 2 pounds and decide it’s time to relapse😍

#I’m only a skinny legend in my daydreams #maladaptive daydreaming #daydreaming #maladaptive #mental health #madd #madd thoughts #I’m literally 5 pounds less every time I close my eyes 😌 #paras