#loss of a mother

[delicateporcelaindoll]

Survival Of The Fittest

A lot of awful things have happened to me in life, but I always had faith that it was all for a reason, someday it would all make sense. After my mother’s death I really just had enough of life& existing, I didn’t care if there was some cosmic reasoning or higher purpose for my suffering, I just wanted an easy, soft life without pain; However lately I’ve been trying to come around again to the belief that God chose me to live this life for a reason, that maybe I am meant for something bigger than myself. I was able to become self aware, able to choose to work on getting better. I chose to get off drugs& quit drinking& unfortunately not all addicts are so lucky. Some never make it out, some spend 30 years in active addiction, some die very young, well before their time. I have made slight progress in life, it’s small but that doesn’t make it any less important. My journey doesn’t resemble anyone else’s& that’s okay. I think God wanted me to work harder for things in life because I am destined for wonderful things, but the only way I can reach that point is if I put in the work, that’s why everything is so hard for me. I think my eventual success will be all the more precious, all the more special because I will have worked for it& I will be proud of myself for doing so.

- C

#me #mine #mywords #mywriting #grief #grieving #loss of a parent #loss of a mother #loss of a loved one #bpd #trauma #borderline personality disorder #bpd thoughts #bpd blog #god #faith #faith in god #faith in the lord #women writers #female writers #girlblogger #girlblogging #girlblog #this is a girlblog #girlhood #sofia coppola #the virgin suicides #girl interrupted syndrome #girl interrupted #sylvia plath

[darkness-in-love]

March 2nd 2018

I wish I could’ve made you proud, Mama.

Because deep down,

I know you never were.

I know you think of me as a disgrace,

looking down at me.

I wish you were here.

Guide me. Scold me.

I would do anything to hear your voice again.

To feel your hugs, or your kisses on my forehead.

I know you don’t do them anymore, but please.

I want you there in my engagement party.

and when I get married.

I want you there when I discover I’m having a child.

I want you there when I’m screaming from the pain of giving new life.

I just want you here with me.

I can’t take it anymore, Mama.

I need you.

#heartbreak #grief #mother #loss of a mother #dead parent #dead mother #missing someone gone #missing her #heartbroken poetry #spilled ink #childish thoughts #mom #mum #wishing #painful #heartache #mama

[hopeylefay]

I can’t remember you, without missing you. And missing you hurts, more than I could ever have imagined

#grief #loss of a mother

[bluejays-saddays]

Can I not simply dissolve into the earth?

For you are no longer here

And with you, my peace

Like ashes in the wind

#grief #words #spilled thoughts #loss of a mother #loss of a loved one #loss of a parent #greiving #death

[kickdrumheart68]

#wound that won't heal #loss of a mother #grief #grieving #inexpressible #i miss my mom #found on pinterest

[davidcashuk]

Theodore Roosevelt made this entry into his diary on Thursday 14 February 1884 - the day his wife and mother both died!😔💔

#theodore roosevelt #teddy roosevelt #usa #history #bereavement #diary entry #sad quotes #loss #wife #mother

[lunchboxpoems]

LUCILLE CLIFTON (again and again and again ♥️)

#poetry #poem #loss #grief #mothers #lucille clifton

[asoftepiloguemylove]

mom, would you wash my back this once? and then we can forget

Beyoncé Accountability (Lemonade Poem, Part 6) / unknown / @/queensummit (tumblr) / Ocean Vuong On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous / Lady Bird (2017) dir. Greta Gerwig / unknown / unknown

#on mothers #on family #on grief #on emotion #on love #on loss #web weave #web weaving #poetry #beyonce #accountability #lemonade poem part 6 #ocean vuong #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #lady bird #greta gerwig #words #writing #quote #text #poem #spilled ink #dark academia #dark academia poetry #dark academia quote #spilled thoughts #spilled poetry

[wolvmir]

please hurry leave me

I can’t breath

please don’t say you love me 🪻

#Simon petrikov #marceline abadeer #marceline the vampire queen #adventure time #fanart #fandom #cartoon network #Simon and Marcy #Fionna and cake #great mushroom war #The abrupt end of her mother set Marcy up for heartbreak #but it was the loss of Simon that solidified her fear of connection #Ice king

[twyrineslut]

(starts biting into drywall) can we pls discuss this

#guys i feel fucking crazy wife guy artemy REAL 😭😭😭 #artemy who has been surrounded by loss and grief his entire life to lose his mother his brother his father and his wife #but he STILL finds it in him to love and to love with ruinous abandon im gonna be sick #pathologic #pathologic 2 #artemy burakh

[krystaljasper]

#black art #black artist art #black wall street #Art work by Natasha Burnette #History #Black advancement #Black Elagence #1921 #Tusla #oklahoma #Racism #Racist white people who did not like black people to do better than them. #Mass murder of innocent black people #Started by a lie by a white person #Destroy and burning of a black advanced black section of town called Greenwood. #Innocent people loss they family members #Innocent children of that tragedy loss they mother or father. #Innocent children where force to grow up with out a mother or father.

[petricorah]

you asked for a prompt to draw SO,,, sokka playing with zuko's hair

"Are you sure you know how to make this look good?" Zuko asked, glancing back as Sokka gathered his hair.

"Who do you think did Katara's braids when she was little? Relax, I got this."

~thank you for the prompt!~

#zukka #zuko #sokka #atla #avatar #katara #myart #atla zuko #avatar the last airbender #atla fanart #zukka fanart #i accidentally read this as braiding then didn't look at it again until i was posting sorry #yeah im sure gran gran did katara's hair but you're telling me that sokka #who is mourning the loss of his mother and wanting to be close to her while being there for his little sister #didn't learn how to braid her hair exactly like their mother did you're crazy

[carefulfears]

very underrated moment in the iwtb bed scene is when scully says that she’s lying awake “cursing god,” and mulder asks what’s wrong and she tells him about her patient and how this little boy is going to die and there’s nothing anyone will do. and the way that they talk about it for a minute and then he whispers, “just go to sleep. let me curse god for awhile.”

actually the most romantic sentiment of the movie, i think! to say, you rest, i’ll take this shift. you don’t have to give it up, but let me hold it tonight. bearing witness as a love language etc

#happy birthday iwtb you fucking crime against nature of a film #also #in that scene #the way that she says ‘you think it’s because of william’ a little defensively #and he says ‘i think OUR son left an emptiness in BOTH of us that can’t be filled’ #that language matters so much because he’s not saying like….you’re struggling with this because you’re fucked up as a mother bc of your loss #he’s saying WE have this burden. i know because i have that too. this is OURS. in the way that he is ours and loving him is ours #txf.txt #iwtb

[theladyflash]

So on top of dealing with being sick from post covid symptoms in the last year, I lost my mother 8 months ago after being her caregiver for a longtime. Even though she was sick mentally, physically including parkinsons for a while, the way we lost her was really awful and kind of traumatising. There's a lot to unpack with therapy but I'm trying to work through it every day. I'm trying to find small ways to keep her with me and embrace some of the things she loved. One of the things she really, really loved was the show Criminal Minds. She watched every single episode and would pretty much reiterate ever one to me (it was kind of annoying sometimes to be honest lol). Especially her love for the character Spencer Reid and his storyline with his mother. I know almost everything about his characters back story despite never ever watching it. She use to try to get me to watch it with her constantly, but I was either busy or watching something else. Even though I know I shouldn't feel guilty because I did spend a lot of time with her every day and being a parents caregiver is a very tough thing. A big part of my life was basically being a mother to my own mother. Which is a heavy thing on your heart, soul even when no one is to blame. I don't miss my ill mother, she wasn't easy because living with serious illness sometimes changes a person. I do miss my mother, my real mother who was beautiful, funny and so smart every day. And even the things she loved. So a week or so ago I started binging the show so maybe I could find out why she loved it. I'm on the tail end of season 3 and really enjoying it. I'm sorry I never got to enjoy it with her, I know she would have loved discussing each episode during commercials. And fine, mom my neurodivergent butt likes Reid too ok?

❤❤❤❤❤

#criminal minds #spencer reid #neurodivergent #mom #mother #loss #death #parents #television #parkinsons #mental illness

[fjordfolk]

being part of dog health fb groups is great because it really broadens your horizons and gives a lot of context across breeds and teaches a lot of nuance in interpretation

and sometimes it lets you go 'holy heck im not in your breed but if i were i wouldnt touch ur programme w a 10 foot pole and a kite'

#hear me out bitch born in jan 21 #1t litter in dec 22 and another in aug 23 - so back to back cycles totalling 8 puppies #THEN at age 3 xrays hips and the balls not in the gd socket and theres pronounced calcification and deterioration #like great job ma'am. if your dog had a chance at a normal qol you took it away. #population wide screening for HD is important for the sake of your lines future but maybe even more pertinently #breeding a female with moderate+ hips is NOT UNLIKELY to cause irreversible damage to those joints #you se a LOT of bitches suddenly get hip screened after their 1st or 2nd litter because #the added weight and physicall toll from having puppies (including muscle loss) suddenly makes them symptomatic #and then you can't take that back. the puppies may or may not be better off than their mother - hips are complicates - but the die is cast

[childrenofthesun77]

A little prince, leaving his planet to meet other people because he's lonely:

and ends up confused by the world of adults:

Lands in the desert and meets a seemingly friendly yellow snake that claims to know a way to bring him back home:

And in the end the snake bites and kills him, promising him that with the weight of his heavy body lifted from him he'll be able to return to his beloved rose.

Now which rose will it be that mahiru misses more:

#Mahiru remember your conviction that the dead are dead and it's not the end when the time comes and the snake makes you an offer #servamp #mahiru shirota #mikuni alicein #servamp kuro #...does mikuni think killing so many for power is because he thinks the count will give him the power to return people from the dead #so killing humans is fine? #or maybe he just wants to bring kiriko back #misono is probably the only person that can get through to mikuni #but maybe mahiru can try to talk to him about the loss of their mothers